#projecting danger

[furiousgoldfish]

Submission from an anonymous source:

"I am in therapy right now and it's mostly about abusive parents, and I want to raise you a topic. I don't know if you covered it yet, but i want to throw it in your direction. It's that when you grew up in conditions that were unsafe, people you couldn't trust, that makes so many of your actions motivated by that fear, the fear that people will hurt you. You might feel like every conversation is a battleground, or could turn into a battleground any second. you might want to surrender, verbally -- tell the other that they are absolutely right in everything. Or flee. or fight back. I struggle with this, because in this case i put myself in the mental space of a victim, even when there is no perpetrator. i fabricate one, I put the role on someone it shouldn't be. and dismantling this overwhelming fear is gargantuan task."

I feel this person described really well how it feels. Your 'fight, flight, freeze or fawn' response can be triggered even in conversations, if verbal abuse was a part of your trauma. People's opinions and demands of you can feel like you're being suffocated back into the place where you have no voice, your reality isn't real, and other people are allowed to define you; this is traumatic. Projecting danger everywhere will be normal and regular activity for your brain, because its adjusted to high amounts of danger everywhere, and just assuming safety is not an option. This can and will go away with time, and your brain slowly realizing what are the new rules for danger. Also, it's not always fabricating. Sometimes you will sense something dangerous or upsetting, and just make it much more distressing and scary than it should be, that could be catastrophizing in motion, or you being so far on the edge that even a slight distress is the drop that overflows the cup, and is considered lethal.

If someone can speak more on to the topic or relate to this, please comment/reply! We should have a conversation on how terrifying and triggering the world is after suffering abuse.

[me0wme0wv]

A project of a calendar page for my graphic class :33

[rosematafeo]

Everybody needs to stop what they're doing and look at her immediately

[gummi-ships]

Kingdom Hearts 0.2 Birth by Sleep - A Fragmentary Passage - The World Within

[hajihiko]

Touching up on my danganronpa knowledge when I came across the scene in chapter 5 where the group realizes none of them have seen Nagito in a while, and in an act that shorta surprised me, Fuyuhiko is the one who speaks up saying he tried to check on Nagito but hasn’t seen him. I could’ve seen that coming from Chiaki, Hajime, or even Sonia but the game pointing out Fuyuhiko was the one who wanted to see what was going on stuck with me

He's a responsible little guy!

[wowa-bublord]

heres my idea for a Zack Lives au! i like when people make him a little weird/unnerving hehe. puppy to unsocialized dog pipeline. he bites.

[s1lly-gh02tz]

Idk how I’m gonna fight the emo kid allegations anymore at school

[pbeltarts]

WAIT I COULD JUST DO WHAT I WANT AND WRITE WHAT I WANT??

[deadbloodzero]

I don't recall sharing much after completing the boi, but here he is! Looks like He caught an adult in the daycare while safety mode was still active!

[kiwiaok]

firm believer in neil josten having just as many issues with sex as andrew

[vamptits]

wtf..party little poison

[bonefall]

I’m rereading Po3 and despite its flaws I really enjoyed the introduction to the three. Jaykit isn’t mentioned to be blind in the first few chapters and instead they chose to show how much MORE capable he is compared to his littermates; until at the end of chapter 3, he brings up his blindness on his own. It makes forcing him to be a medicine cat SO much more frustrating because it really feels like they’re setting him up to be a warrior and choose his own fate (note i haven’t finished the reread this is just my first impression)

I like how you seem to take that path in BB regardless! It makes his arc so much more enjoyable

His arc in canon is super frustrating because he's such an independent character who clearly wants to make his own decisions in life, but then he just gets shoved into the medcat den. I LIKE that he ultimately goes there and that he enjoys it; but it was still really fucked up that they stripped away his autonomy in the process.

Re: they are not real, they are writing choices. Taking away the choices a disabled character can make over their own life, forcing them into a celibate nun role, and then going "awwwww dont worry see? he likes it! This was the best thing for him :)" was fucked up.

And imo it didn't have to be that way! You wouldn't have to go the FULL route I did with big changes, he could just be more involved in the descision to stop being a warrior apprentice and it would be fine. Minor change that would make a world of difference.

I do also have to interject to say though... blindness should really not be an extremely severe impairment for a ThunderClan cat.

I'm dead serious.

Whiskers are built-in sensors that tell you the exact position of everything within several inches of your head, ears swerve to pick up sound, and the jacobson's organ provides a sense of smell so keen that I have an entire Clanmew expansion draft because I needed to make WORDS describing the power of this sense that humans do not have. I cannot stress enough how delicate their other senses are, felines do not rely on their sight like primates do

ThunderClan lives in a mixed-oak woodland, where sight is already often obscured by foliage, objects are close together (for whiskers to feel), and nearly every movement makes noise against the leaf litter. RiverClan and (moor-running) WindClan cats would have a harder time with this disability than Thunder or Shadow.

Cat sight SUCKS to begin with. It sucks BADDD. They don't have color vision, they're significantly nearsighted, and they can't track up-and-down movements well. WC doesn't write realistic cats (more like small fuzzy people really) and I also work with more humanesque eyesight, but the only thing Jay should really lose is an ability to rapidly track a small animal swerving fast. Blind cats are often still excellent hunters in spite of that!

So it's an extra big waste that they railroaded him into a position he didn't choose, saying he couldn't be a warrior. This is the perfect disability to write, if you want to explore how ableism can impact the characters in this society who ARE legitimately still capable of nearly full independence, but still need to find accommodations for what they can't do.

In the same arc they're doing the dumb Cinder Reincarnation Plotline, no less!! Where SHE is also feeling like she has no choice over her "destiny," and gets a conflict over a potentially disabling injury

"Oh nooo if cinderpaw breaks her leg she wont be a warrior!"

"What the f-- Im Jaypaw and im reporting live from the scene where a Category 1 Idiot Moment is taking place. Woman breaks leg, suddenly everyone believes she is a horse, more at 11."

One of these days I should really make "herb guides" just covering how various sensory disabilities impact the lives of Clan cats and some tips for writing them as warriors, especially between Clans. Stuff you wouldn't usually consider, like how much noise deaf cats tend to make, how RiverClan would get a ton of sinus infections and lose their sense of smell, being blind in Sky vs Thunder, etc.

[ryllen]

" ... as soft as talking to a new born, the voice you dream your children would hear during their bed time stories ... "

[radioactivegummyworm]

patch i sewed to my backpack today during class :3

[dollya-robinprotector]

Winter holds the gem up to the light. "Pretty," he says. "Similar to the ones they mine nearby." He frowns. "Except a different hue."

[soulless-bex]

demigods are a bunch of preteens with adhd who climb a wall of lava for fun over the summer. their sense of danger is very, very skewed

my point is, there should be more instance of demigods doing stupid shit while out in the mortal world (on non-quest instances)