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The bourgeois or "exploiting class" doesn't inherently include the person who gets their nails done biweekly, or the disabled person who has a carer, or the guy who got a $70 video game for full-price, or the person who relies on medication (yes even the ones you don't think they "need"), or anything else like this. None of these people will, on average, have the ability to exploit workers by means of ownership or whatever.
While you are busy fighting with fellow workers, you are still being exploited by your boss, by capitalism, by (potentially) not having healthcare, by being overworked and underpaid, and so are they.
#politics#feel like this wording isn't satisfactory for me but fuck it we ball#used bourgeois because i think as a colloquial word it's recognized but like...#...i dunno i think some people use it to mean 'person who can do [x]' even if they quite literally own no means of production#like the idea that you're exploiting a worker by agreeing to a service they provide isn't what bourgeois means#if i paid a carer to care for a disabled person they aren't being exploited by that disabled person...#...HOWEVER that carer absolutely can (and probably will be) exploited by the systems of power (eg their boss or capitalism)#perhaps it's too late at night for me to be posting about this but it's something that bothers me!#*especially* when it comes to disability and other groups already exploited by marginalization 👍#if your leftism percludes the disabled (including the terminally and profoundly) or the elderly or the queer or so so much i don't WANT ITTT#saw a disabled person i follow lament how afraid they were to have a carer out of fear of Being a Bad Exploitative Person#and they obviously need one and that makes me so fucking angry to know that they are needlessly suffering
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Cas stitching up his trench coat in one of the motel chairs while Sam and Dean are asleep and quietly talking to Jack about how to him the coat feels as part of himself now as his blade is. That it reminds him that he wasn't always aware of just how deeply humans could feel. How deeply angels could feel. How putting care into something can make it meaningful. The stars were mere pricks of light before humans decided to name them. The more he cares for his coat, the more of his perspective and memory gets sewn into it. The more it becomes his.
"And the pockets," he confides with a deep wink, "Are good for keeping snacks in."
Later, when Dean is asleep again, drooling over an open book of research in the bunker, Jack watches as Cas tucks his coat over Dean's shoulders and sees how he hesitates for a moment before brushing his hand softly through Dean's hair. Dean is transformed, through Cas’s careful attention, from the man who was the gatekeeper of acceptance and goodness to just a man, vulnerable and in need of care.
Jack wonders whether Castiel cares for everyone like they are a precious object. And he wonders what Castiel would transform him into, if he had to be repaired. Jack isn't sure that he likes the idea. He already has a hard time understanding his own morality, how can he also be expected live up to the idea of himself in Castiel's head? The object that Castiel loves? Does he need to be changed in order to become his?
"I could get him my pillow?" Jack suggests, swallowing against the cold mass in his throat when Cas smiles gently at that. He does like it, then, when Jack acts against his own interest.
"That might wake him. We should let him rest."
"He's precious to you."
"He is." Castiel reaches out and puts a hand on Jack's sleeve, expression sincere, "And so are you."
"Right," Jack says, then, "thanks," and holds his smile until Cas wanders back to sit perpendicular to Dean, to watch him until just before he stirred. Castiel and Jack, both, were good at pretending not to feel what they felt.
Watching the angel watch the man, Jack feels like a star. Immense and powerful but also distant, removed. Not special until a real person decides that he is. He is between angel and human. Person and object. Precious and disregarded. He is the blade and the coat, and Jack doesn't know which is worse.
#jack kline#sorry i started this with cute destiel goggles and then i was like. jack robbed of autonomy kline would be freaked out by this actually.#he literally has rocks thrown at him every dayyyyyy#i love making nice sweet statements like 'you are precious to me :)' and having the other person twist them around in their mind to#be a confirmation of their worst fears. always a delight. i do that quite a lot in a light above descending.#continuing the tradition started by supernatural of castiel giving jack horrible pep talks that make him feel worse ☺️#cawis creates#also continuing the tradition of writing fic instead of getting on with my work!!!! gotta critically reflect rn!!!! bye!!!
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By the time cars were invented, Jonah Magnus was already well into the body hopping game, which raises the question: has he ever actually learn to drive? Did this man sit through driver’s ed? Or has he just been getting out of legal repercussions for his shit driving by telling the cops everything he knows about their deepest darkest secrets every time he gets pulled over?
#the magnus archives#tma#jonah magnus#elias bouchard#tma spoilers#au in which real elias is alive in there because Jonah needs someone who can tell him what the road signs mean#poor man is forced to spend the rest of his days as a literal backseat driver for a pseudo-immortal douchebag#perish the thought#I’m sure someone has already asked this question by now but I can’t stop thinking about it#some people have pointed out that he would ride the tube which makes sense too.#btw this post is 100% inspired by how much I used to fear for my LIFE any time i was in a car while my grandpa was driving#genuinely terrifying experience grandpa stop it please quit turning your entire body around to talk to me while I’m sitting in the back sea#why are you driving with one foot for the pedal the other foot for the brake one hand on the steering wheel and NO EYES ON THE ROAD
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my dad when im explaining the general plot of dungeon meshi to him with focus on thistle and falin bc thats what me and my friend cosplayed as and he wanted to know what the whole deal was and i get to the part where I have to explain what ultimately happens to thistle and get incredibly choked up about it
#talkys#I GET SADDDDD.#i think the ''i just want to see his face again. face? whose face?'' is on par with mithruns ''what part of me are you eating?''#like it just hurts so bad#due to my own personal fears of death and forgetting things about loved ones who have passed#bc he Is dead...delgal is gone. something here sbout grief something here about obsession while trying to prevent tragedy and also once#it has struck and how i know it will render Me a perpetual child when it hits#the good thing is he did get to see him a final time. relieved of worry and duty. the only casualty and true tragedy. he's quite literally#just a baby :(
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oh im obsessed with this actually… who ever wrote this one i am kissing u on the forehead and hugging you real tight… inigo is such a loverboy im kkkhhhhhhijnsdnfng
#ann plays awakening#EDITING TO SAY I STARTED TAG VENTING HIT READMORE AT YOUR OWN RISK#anyways#LAST LINE IS A KILLERRRR WOW#‘ann werent you just pairing olivia with thar—‘ OLIVIA IS A BUSY WOMAN OKAY#but also i just had this old save file from when i wanted to see pink inigo and decided to get some more supports#im obsessed actually like#ok tag venting time maybe this should be its own post but u guys know who i am#not only does this support in my very educated opinion do a good job at emulating inigo’s way of speaking#but i think theres also a very underrated characteristic he has that not a lot of people talk about and its that hes honestly quite morbid#him spending hours talking to and dancing with his mother’s grave is very beautiful and moving but it is also not a normal way to grieve#which makes sense because duh nothing about his life is normal but its j like. you know#if robin is his father (and maybe j the normal convo i dont remember) in the hot springs scramble he’ll insist upon bringing—#severed risen limbs home as a way to remember the peacefulness (lol) of the springs#and he thinks absolutely nothing of it!!#i think he gets attached to things just a little too intensely and because his life is surrounded by death how he expresses that can be#very interesting. and he talks about death all time more than the other kids#bc while a lot of their coping mechanisms are based in fear and the need to instill confidence in themselves (think cyn or gerome or owain#or sev or yarne or noire)#and how their SCARED of death and of loss and adapt different behaviors to act like theyre not (to varying degrees of success)#i think inigo is much more accepting of the fact that death follows him and has made it a normal presence in his life#which is not a good thing it means that he hasnt let himself grieve. he lets death hang over him and follow him instead of pushing back#also guess which one of the awakening trio in fates has the canonical story death. just by the way lmao#anyways bc im writing this in the tags on my phone i cant actually see what the hell ive been saying im j stream of consciousnessing this#but my point is that inigo has a weird fixation on death and dying that stems from his inability to make peace with death and grieve#and i think him idolizing death in this support (this BRILLIANT fan support that made me ill) is so in character and so lovely#i miss him so bad (hes literally in the photos im posting) grghhhrgah#i wuv him :(
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one thing that stands out to me about the IVF arc is the way that, for as much as i make fun of her for asking her coworker if she can have his babies, scully asking mulder to be involved in the biggest process of her life (and the most important thing in the rest of her life) is such a healing and reverent experience. like he says “i’m absolutely flattered,” but it’s so much more than that. it’s like…spending your whole life feeling like you should’ve died at age twelve and then being told someone just wants more of you, more and more and more, in everything.
#it reminds me of 'sixth extinction' / 'amor fati'#when he quite literally was tied down and couldn't speak#and the way we hear him try to SCREAM when his mother just leaves him there#but his mind is Silent from the moment he hears scully in the hall begging to see him#and he couldn't crack a joke or run out the door#he literally just had to lie there and feel it#feel it on his Skin#her hand holding onto him#her tears falling onto his face#listening to the overwhelming depth of her fear that she is failing him and her devotion and her dedication to finding a way to help him#her Pleas for him to just 'hold on'#'i think that...if you know...if you could just find a way to hold on...i need you to hold on...please...'#everybody go listen to the civil wars' cover of 'talking in your sleep'#i don't think it can be overestimated how much of an impact that had on them and the lightness and healing in s7. that he Had to hear it#and then with the baby thing it's like...he CAN'T deny her that. he HAS to say 'yes'#there's no part of him that's capable of denying her something that she desires this badly. enough to ask for outright#and so he HAS to let himself be wanted and be invited into this unimaginably important and personal thing#let himself be a part of something bigger. be SEEN as someone who is valuable in a way that's bigger#and again he can't run from it and he can't deflect it and he can't hide from it. he has to just accept it#txf.txt#per manum
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it's not sinking in that today might be the last day in my house and town for many months to come
#like how do i even feel#on one hand im excited because like now that i finally agreed to dads stupid whims he technically will have to give in to things#ive been wanting since FOREVER like going to the gym#plus it's impossible to eat junk food when he's there he won't even let me kacchi maggi because maida hai bimar ho jayegi#and aadhe se zyada din toh pyaaz ye sab nahi kha sakte so it rules out any outside food#which is so good because like i just found out im pre diabetic lol#like borderline sugar like ab kuch nahi kiya toh seedha type 2 diabetes#so i need to eat healthy or ill literally die#i mean eventually but whatever being diagnosed with this in my 20s would kill me#also simply the fear of living with him is so much that i HAVE to study#and i want to now it's high time#but yeah want doesn't really work for me#i read a quote somewhere that 'goals' don't mean anything because winners and losers have the same goals#and i was like WOAH. like the person who gets an all india rank had the same goal as me: to pass the exam with good marks#but they succeeded and i didn't so it's isn't our goals that differentiate us#which ik is obvious but like still idk put things in perspective#anyway yeah that way my life MIGHT be fixed#but there's also living ALONE with my sociopathic FATHER who has more mood swings than me on pms#and being cut off frm the rest of civilisation and yk developed roads and buildings and ice cream shops#i guess it is mostly food ig :( which is good like the most junk food i can eat there is a burger from a nearby stall and that's pretty#much it they literally do not even have havmor or anything in walking distance forget scoop wali ice cream#but i like my bed and i like my ceiling with the stars and i like looking out of my window and knowing that the first ever crush of my life#lives right next to me and i like knowing that ill meet my bestfriend atleast once a month#i don't really love my mom or my brother tbh but idk maybe ill miss them it's weird ive never lived without them#i don't know i really hope that this is like a boot camp kota types experience rather than so much isolation that i sink deep into#depression. but then ive hit pretty shocking lows this year so hopefully i can handle it#my sister did say that when she lived alone with him for a month it was quite peaceful and okay because he usually gets more angry when mom#is around warna mostly he's fine#i don't know i don't know bhagwan ji please ab aur mushkil mat banana life bohot jhatke de chuke ho already ab pls#mujhe apni galtiyo ko sudharne ka mauka dena 🙏
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i don't want to go home
#bang dream#bandori#imai lisa#mmmh its summer its time to rotate last year's lisa summer event mental breakdown#okay here come the thoughts#the beach has been already mentionned in bs1 as somewhere lisa would go often after quitting music#and i often think its bc since she leaves literally next to yukina it was to avoid her#which makes that even in middle school she would go to the beach and not want to go home as a way to escape#then theres the summer event#where they mentionned that when she was a child when she went to the beach she didnt went to go home at the end of the day#which directly connects to her in her last summer as a high schooler where she is scared of the future#and where she basically is taken by her fears as a child (her younger self tugging on her skirt)#also its a night scene bc i often think about how yukina compared her to the sun AND the moon#and the moon to me represents that melancholic side that lisa is so extremely prone to#theres probably more i forgot to type. but u see im already deep in the trenches
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Stubbornly Hot-Headed
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Scenario:
Some people are really stubborn, but they pale in comparison to MC. Whose head is about as thick as a rock. Mix that with MC's anger issues, and we have a ticking time bomb. However only one person is able to reason with MC and that's their S/O.
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[OCTAVINELLE EDITION]
Azul Ashengrotto:
Azul is conflicted.
On hand he now has a third bodyguard, not that he particularly needs one.
But on the other hand, your constantly being hurt.
And on the other, other, hand you can cause a decline in his customers.
So he really is quite conflicted on your temperamental personality.
He did express these concerns to you after a lot of thought and anxiety.
And you do try your best to not be so quickly angered.
But when someone starts shit talking your boyfriend, you can only see red.
Everytime you get into a fight he makes sure to take care of your wounds whilst also lecturing you.
His favorite thing about you is probably your over protective and maybe even a bit possessive nature over him.
It has, on more than one occasion, made him blush as red as a tomato.
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Jade Leech:
Oh good heavens.
Your on your own with this my dude.
You shall never now a moment of peace in your life ever again.
Why? You might ask.
Well I'll tell you.
Because Jade is going to spend all if his free time studying you.
Testing your limits seeing just how far you can go before you become enraged by him.
But thus experiment was swiftly pushed aside when he realized the toll it had on your mental health.
Despite his very scary, often violent, and apathetic behavior he does hold some empathy for others.
Although this empathy is only given to a chosen few.
Once he comes to the realization he's hurting you he immediately stops what he's doing and begins to apologize and comfort you.
After that he does his best to never upset you too much ever again.
He doesn't ever shy away from a chance at teasing you though.
He doesn't particularly mind you fighting others all the time, he just doesn't want to deal with the repercussions of the fights.
Like the other student wanting to fight you again for example.
He deals with those who seek out a second beat down from you and gives them what they want.
Although I'd say a beat down from him is a lot more dangerous than one from you.
He loves that resting bitch face that you have. It truly compliments your caring personality towards the people you love.
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Floyd Leech:
Good luck my dude.
Because this man gives absolutely no fucks.
The moment he found out how much power he holds over you. You were done for.
He, like Jade, also loves to how far your patience with him can go before you start getting pissed off.
Turns out you don't get mad, you just cry.
Which is arguably worse in his opinion.
Once he found that out he makes sure never to take it too far.
Emphasis on too far becaIuse he's still gonna annoy you, that's just in his nature, but he won't go too far.
He prefers you to be laughing and or blushing not crying
If you get into a fight with another student he will gladly come fight with you.
A teacher will have to break up the fight because you and Floyd on the same team is very dangerous.
You both beat the shit out of everyone who dares to cross your paths.
If you get harmed during a fight he'll have Jade patch you up while he cuddles you from behind.
He finds your fighting face hot asf, and will often compliment you on it.
Which in turn makes you blush.
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#Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa#Why must my brain do this to me?#I quite literally can't do anything.#I also broke my phone recently and lost all of my old photos 🙃#May or may not have had to put my phone away from myself in fear of throwing it.#In good news I'm finally back and starting to try and post more stuff consistently now so#Yayy.#Twst#twisted wonderland#disney twisted wonderland#Floyd leech x reader#azul ashengrotto x reader#jade leech x reader#octavinelle#twst headcanons#twst imagines#twst x reader
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Petunia literally abused Harry bro 💀 and pointing that out doesn’t mean we’re downplaying her grief or bc she’s a woman
yall are gonna freak out when you realise that abusers are also human
#’she literally ABUSED—’ yes ? and i still find her captivating and interesting#abusers are almost never just evil monsters#they’re human beings who chose to do that to you#they actively chose to treat you that way Knowing Better#and just putting the label ’abuser’ on a fictional character is so boring omg what about character studies#some people can be unredeemable ! and i can still sympathize#ive said it before. im never going to forgive my abuser and would probably punch you if you asked me to#<- but some people love my abuser and my abuser have real and good relationships in her life#shes not Evil and Monstrous all the time#but she was that way with me#people aren’t one dimensional ! life isn’t that black and white !#and its frankly quite childish and downright strange if you dont have the capacity to understand that#i literally talked about how my narcissa had good intentions but unredeemable in an ask like. the other day#nuance is interesting i fear :/#some people dont break the cycle of abuse and some people dont grow up to be good people#doesnt mean thats all there is to them i fear#anyway!#asks#also who said anything about her being a woman. that was all you king#also. sy’s post had nothing to do with petunias relationship with harry ? yall are just pointing that out because you hate women#<- now i said it!#like sy was making an interesting point about petunias grief about losing a sister she barely knew anymore but grew up with#and yall have to come in and be like WAAAAHHH SHES AN ABUSER THO DID U KNOW DID YOUUUUU#grow up
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daan drawing i did in class
#literally took me like. i wanna say a little over an hour#i am speed#i havent drawn daan in like. quite a bit of time#its been at least since winter but maybe not that long#im feeling funger withdrawals rn#art#fear and hunger#funger#fear and hunger 2#fear and hunger termina#funger termina
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The Lord's Prayer.
damn that one ask got me reminiscing 😔
#my first gay crush was the first and only person who ive ever confessed to#THEN SHE REJECTED ME LMAOAOAOOA 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀#and then i found out that she liked someone who was better than me in every single possible aspect 💀💀💀💀 talk about taking an L amirite💀💀💀💀💀#surely that experience wouldn't severely fuck up my self esteem in the future and give me this massive fear of rejection right?#🙂#yk i still think about her sometimes. which is super pathetic of me cause it's been literal years but augh i dont know.#like bitch move on goddamn she probably forgot abt u lmao#on another note church songs make quite the lullabies i like singing them sometimes#my art
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good god girl, maybe some of us are not vegan because we eat chicken like once in three months?? Would reduction not be a more productive goal of vegan activism than outright banning? Like if your arguments are that animals are being eaten, then you’re being unrealistic about the entire actual concept of the food chain. Humans are omnivores, you do not need to change that to achieve your goals.
A vegan lifestyle is also entirely the product of your geographical location. If you live somewhere that shit does not grow, what are you going to do?? I just think about the difference between food options in India and Canada, for example. India: between the tropics (tropics and equator even, in fact). All-year-round sun, there’s pretty much always stuff growing. Different kinds of land will mean you can grow everything from staples like rice and wheat to vegetables, fruits and plantation crops. It’s reflected in the cuisines: Indian food has a much, much wider offering of vegetarian food, and many more Indians have restricted diets that more or less overlap with vegetarianism. Because crops grows. Locally.
Canada. Harvest in the fall, from November to March, your fields are practically unusable. Compare the prices of fresh produce in (and now I’m being generous to give you a highly populated, non-remote province here for an example) Ontario. Ontario has farms where in the fall you get fresh autumn vegetables and fruits. You’ll also get them in larger quantities. It is way cheaper, fresher and also uses less energy and fuel to transport the vegetables like 50 km from farm to market.
Come the winter and nothing grows. If you look at most vegetables you’ll find on store shelves in December or February, and most of it is either imported from warmer regions of the US (often the case for chains that are in both countries) or from South American countries (sometimes SA -> USA -> Canada). The importing has to go through cross-country customs, had to be driven for days, is less fresh or rich in nutrients by the time you get it, and is more expensive. Of course. And we all come out of it poorer. Is it any wonder why people will eat meat? We’re even talking here about a place like Ontario, very well connected on North American trade routes. Can you justify someone in Yukon deciding to eat meat over a $17/lb. green veg? Be for fucking real…
There simply cannot be a blanket-global solution to animal products. You’ve got to work with what your geography has to offer. It’s the same thing we say when we say that avocados have an environmental cost when you expect them to be available year-round in places they don’t grow. We encourage people to go for more local produce there, and I think the same should go for all parts of your diet too. If your animals are local, then their footprint is lower than importing kiwis from New Zealand to the US. I don’t see how that’s hard to understand.
#veganism#the first para is a rant bc someone was being an idiot but I mean the rest of it most sincerely:#YOU HAVE TO WORK WITH YOUR GEOGRAPHY#capitalism has you thinking the whole world Is this flat homogenous thing#and all things can be solved by ‘buying (new solution)!’ *Buy!* our new Vegan Leather and feel good about yourself!#(<- plastic that will end up in a dump as Indonesia’s problem; not the pontificating American vegan’s)#*~Buy!!~* our new honey substitute! 100% cruelty free by avoiding the bees; even as the bees literally continue to make honey anyway#(<- monocrop agave fields in Mexico can deal with your misplaced guilt for you 🥰💕)#Like. At least have the courage of your convictions and quit sweetener entirely if you’re#concerned about both cruelty (which honey harvesting is not but okay) and sustainability. Or switch back to sugarcane.#Unless of course sustainability is simply someone else’s problem 😊 (hi third world!!)#My problems with veganism the movement are also my problems with the west; you all are really fucking hypocrites.#We have to go cleaning up after you guys all the time. You HAVE to work WITH your geography; not against it#Plants are not some miraculous catch-all solution. And mate; you’ve got to kill a plant to eat it too#Plants are alive; trust me. If you don’t eat anything for fear of killing it you’ll either be living on roadkill and infect and die#or you’ll end up killing yourself out of not! eating!#; you can’t eat rocks. All food was once alive.
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So if you care to find me Look to the western sky As someone told me lately Everyone deserves the chance to fly
#sims#ts4#sims 4#photoshoots#character verse#luz ferreira#I should give her a glinda. I'll give her a glinda#this song is literally so meaningful to me right now#in the context of me having a big epiphany about my current life where I'm playing it safe vs what I actually want to do#which involves changing jobs and cities#and it's arguably the first time I'm doing something this big for myself solely because I want to and quitting the people pleasing and fear
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fake news alert! wisdom teeth do NOT make you smart! unfortunately, research has indicated they actually make you more stupid, as they cause so much pain your brain ceases to function. better luck next time!
#my jaw has ached nonstop for months upon months#this literally isnt funny i fear but im posting it anyways because i can#surgery would probably fix it but i do not have the time quite frankly#text post#me#text
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i love how ghost of tsushima is so heavily based around family. of course for jin and shimura, but for all the other main characters. family is like their leading thing, whether it be what they’re grieving, fighting for, or longing for. or all three. it’s all based around some degree of family and closeness. masako. ishikawa. yuna. norio. ryuzo
even the smaller tales. it’s always about people’s families. a man’s wife who’s captured or perhaps killed. a man’s daughter who was captured onto a mongol ship. a woman’s daughter who was kidnapped. a wife’s husband who was captured and forced to work for the mongols. someone’s child kidnapped. a man who watched his sons die in front of him.
and, of course, how much family hurts. whatever that word means, there’s always pain attributed to such a closeness
#kenji is our exception#i fear I’ll never stop thinking about this game#yes yes yes it’s about honor and giving things up and selflessness and all of these beautiful things too#but the family element is SO prominent in it#it’s quite literally everywhere#and good bc I want nothing else in a game or piece of entertainment#give me copious amount of family or give me nothing#ghost of tsushima
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