#randomfeelings

[myhobbyspace]

For someone who has always lived a simple and yet not such a confusing life

Everything around her seems a little rough these days

I don't know what to do

Maybe I know but I am not that confident in taking that step

But somehow I don't think that is a constructive solution to my problem

I have always been someone who doesn't talk about how or what she feels to anyone; be it, my family or friends,

But I know I need someone at this point

And I know for a fact that only writing can save me; like always

I am not someone who will write this down on a piece of paper and then tear it off the next day

I keep this in my notes to make sure that I look back at this at any point in my life and realize that this is a safe place

A place where I am not judged or looked down upon for sharing what or how I feel

I have always considered people's feelings even if they were lying to me

But today as I write this down

I feel no one has ever considered or will ever consider how I feel

For the past 7 months life has been a bit difficult, not in terms of amenities but mentally and emotionally

It's a lot to take.

I have everything a person can ask for

A well-fed family, all the basic amenities, pretty much everything

The only thing I don't have is someone with whom I can share what or how I feel

In the last few days, there have been times when I have felt suicidal

Looking at my lifestyle and the kind of life I have been blessed with, many people will think or will say that I am lucky. But let's just accept the fact I am not that lucky.

There have been days when I go completely numb and just don't know what to do. I am not a failure. I am not someone who has failed in life.

I am someone who is going through a rough patch

7 months ago I came to Noida, thinking my life will change for good

But nah

It's been 7 months of hell

I have cried many times

But no one ever saw or hear me cry

Every time I share my feelings or emotions with my brother, he doesn't pay much attention to it and tells me to stop victimizing myself

So apparently sharing anything these days is victimizing oneself

And when these things come from a family member, it feels worse

Because "Family" or "Home" is considered to be our safe place

But for me, it's not

I wish I could disappear from their life and make them understand what they did to a person who wanted something different from life and was ready to explore anything and everything

Many times I wanted to commit suicide but couldn't, I am not coward

But I want to fight and change this.

It's not wrong to go after what your heart says

People tell me to adjust and just ignore stuff

But it's easier said than done

Because in the end, it's me who is feeling everything. To be honest, I don't want to feel worthless or like a loser

Today, I am writing this only to feel for once that someone out there is listening to me via these lines.

I know no one would give a damn if I ended my life but I don't want to

I will fight this and come back stronger

Because even after having reasons to hate life

I have a major reason to love this life

I will do it for myself and my dreams

[yvitasr]

Feeling alone, unnoticed and even cornered.

When problems come, we focus on ourselves, focus on seeing how good it is for ourselves, that's human nature.

But for some reason, I'm different.

I always prioritized others over myself.

Until finally, my heart was messed up by myself.

When I really feel stuck, confused, lost.

There is only one place to pour out.

Ya, only to Allah, only HE is willing and able to understand.

Even, when the people we rely on at that time turn out to betray my expectations.

Only by talk to HIM the heart becomes lighter.

But I am only a human being with many sins, so the guidance given by Him feels very confusing.

My mind was muddled, my heart was depressed, my eccentric nature required me to keep prioritizing others over myself.

Many times it was like that, until finally I had to make up my mind to choose.

But you know what after that? I felt alone again. People here and there blamed me.

And again, no one cared.

I was back to living my life alone.

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#randomfeeling #septemberend

[thesincerethoughts]

I am currently in a position where i want to talk to someone but has completely lost the vibe to talk to anyone. Feel me?

[notemptywords]

💭 Rules are necessary, not restrictions.

[nasieir]

Salvation

Our bodies have lived for years.

But our souls have vanished in fears.

And all you have to do is to fake cheers.

We've been used like heavy gears.

Will we find redemption or we'll always be covered with smears?

[mind-blogger]

between cats and dogs. why would i choose a side?

[ayush13mittal]

Writing #randomfeelings is much more easier... Attractive.... Adorable that no need to get edited by any #perfectionist 🙈 if it is written from #heart ✌💓 The words can be conveyed via the media of heart beats 💓😋 Love letter isn't only for specific relationships..... Nor the typewriter is only limited to #courtroom No need to get specific, no need to have talent, no need to have time, no need to have place, no need to worry about society, no worry about the world.... And who cares about #solarsystem #sister_love #feelings #hindi #writer #lovequotes #caring #relationshipgoals #bhaibhai #bhaibehen #affection #innocence #pyaar #loveletters #typewriter #tomandjerry #nicknames #lifeline #zindagigulzarhai #devil😈 #vibes #heartbeat #sisters 😍 💓 💞 💜 👻

[partibha-blog1]

#partibhapoetries #poems #randompoetry #randomfeelings #love #coffee #breath #touch #selflove #mywords #mymeanings #deams #instapoetry https://www.instagram.com/p/B21l1Hpl5SI/?igshid=1mk9sukhdr7ur

[strangehumanoid]

oh, to be a wildflower swaying in the wind, a songbird soaring high, a patch of moss on the soft brown earth. I don't wanna do 9 to 5.

[graxiabelinxx]

Random feeling 🌹

[farintodemons]

I think am falling... Falling hard...

For whenever you're around, all my pain seems to dwindle down to nothing. And all my sadness cease to exist. All my fears turn non-existent. For I get lost staring down your slanting coffee eyes. You light me up with nothing more than a text. Whenever I feel down, my heart longs for to be with you. For you are all it takes to make my day. That dammed smile of yours makes me wanna stay right there for forever. And someday I wanna think I will.

[hemangohil]

#thoughtoftheday #randomfeelings by @hemangohil remembering #selfishpeople (at Ahmedabad, India) https://www.instagram.com/p/BtQjVdHh3Yp/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1vykd2tkh26do

[novitacandra]

Sunsets are proof that endings can be beautiful too. . . Post: 2/6 Theme: Beautiful Ending. Location: Restoran Raffles #mendung #senjakalaitu #sunset #sky #almostnight #quotes #edited #xiaomiphotography #potrait #nature #mataponsel #random #randompost #randomquotes #randompictures #randomfeelings (at Special Region of Yogyakarta)

[thesincerethoughts]

Wear confidence.

It's sexy.

[oddvonweirdocranium]

When you have a toothache your tongue always keeps fidgeting with it and when something itches you, you scratch it back. Even as a little child you would always scrape off the eschar from your wounds even though it was formed to protect you; it was inevitable.Because pain makes us feel like home. We’ve been there and somehow we get used to it. We become habitual to it and maybe that is why our brain keeps taking us to those places. Those horrendous yet salubrious places where there is a certain type of tribulation and a certain type of intimacy. Where there is familiarity. And ever so the cycle goes on and on. It’s undone and defective .So maybe each time you revisit it ,you gain ascendancy over it. You keep recreating it,reconstructing it. Find ways you could fix it. You’re compelled to alter it with fragments of your imagination and maybe that is how you just simply linger onto life and pass on.

[langitsoreee]

RASA, SINGGAH. LALU MENGALAH.

Jarum jam yang berdetik menemaniku yang sedang sendiri dalam ruangan kecil dengan AC yang sengaja kubuat dingin.

Kupikirkan semua, kebodohanku dalam mengelola rasa. menomersatukan yang tak pernah menganggapku ada. Mungkin aku hanya sebatas angin baginya, atau tidak lebih dari itu. Tapi aku menganggapnya sebagai oksigen, kebutuhan yang harus ada untuk menghidupkan-ku setiap hari. Sebegitu tergantungnya sampai rela bertahan meski diabaikan.

Ku teriakkan tanpa suara, beribu kali, riuh tanpa henti bahwa AKU MENCINTAIMU. Tapi tak pernah berani kuungkap. Aku terlalu takut penolakan, Lalu setiap hari kuputuskan hanya memperhatikan, sikapmu, gerak gerikmu, seluruh aktifitasmu.

Awal saat kita dekat, kesalahanku adalah aku tidak pernah berjanji untuk tidak menaruh rasa, untuk menjalin hubungan hanya sebatas teman dekat tanpa terikat, yah.. tapi siapa juga yang mampu membatasi rasa, dia liar dan penuh energi, mengisi ruang kosong yang sebenarnya tidak ingin dipenuhi

Jika sudah begini tidak ada yang bisa bertanggung jawab selain dirimu sendiri, merasakan perihnya, menikmati lukanya. mengalah jadi jalan satu-satunya yang ditempuh atas rasa cinta yang sengaja diberi ruang. meski terluka kamu tetap bisa baik saja, luapkan, katakan padanya suatu saat nanti saat kau sudah tidak bisa menahannya lagi. mengalah baik, tapi bukankah menyatakan lalu kehilangan juga baik?