#rip pavlína you would have loved the barbie movie

[gay-arsonists-lullaby]

Character introduction: Pavlína

• means “small” and “humble.” {fyi guys, I don't really pick the names because of what they mean in English, I pick them because they sound cool in my native language or because they mean something to me}

• she/her | they/them, acespec and sapphic, qenderqueer

• a Slavic teenager who sent to live with their estranged father who may or may not be some sort of cult leader in his strange farm house in the countryside. hijinks ensue! {aka. murder, the hijinks are murder. nobody tell them, pls.}

• if all my previous book children were based on a tiny part of me and my trauma, then you can be sure this one is as well; but Pavlína is a bit different. they are the plates broken on purpose, the fingers glazing knife edges. they are the chaos.

•DISDAINED, DISOWNED, DISMAYED

• stay soft, get eaten

• *lowers pink, heart-shaped sunglasses* Excuse me but what the actual fuck.

• us gay people really said ‘killing must feel good to God’, lol

• slight Ethel Cain vibes {you made your choice. do you regret it now?}

• ‘I am no good nor evil, simply I am / and I have come to take what is mine.’ - PTOLEMAEA

• ‘God loves you / but not enough to save you / so, baby girl, good luck / taking care of yourself.’ - SUN BLEACHED FLIES

• choose sin, always.

• ‘life can be pretty cool because you can get a kebab... but there's also the horrors.’

• ‘otec, but not as in father, otec as in *screaming* V HLAVE MÁM POCIT MASOVÉHO VRAHA-’

• ŽUVAČKA ZA UCHOM - Robo Grigorov

• RÄT - Penelope Scott / FEEL BETTER - Penelope Scott

• ‘despite being at a loss for words, my parents procced to yell at me for the next 45 minutes.’

• ‘REPORT: your friends aren't mad at you, they're just worried about you. which is, somehow, even worse.’

• my take on an onion headline: ‘IS THE LOCAL CORN MAZE REALLY FILLED WITH CORPSES HAUNTED? WE ASKED THE LOCALS, AND THEY ASKED US IF WE WERE COPS.’

• ‘attention! have you or a loved one ever been wronged by this wretched world? you may be entitled to emotional compensation.’

• ‘yeah, sex is fine, I guess? but have you ever tried traumatizing your parents back after they gave you years worth of mommy/daddy issues?’

• ‘´we want grandchildren!´ well, the best I can do is not kill people, beggars can´t be choosers.’

• ‘I dunno, maybe the horrors would be less daunting if we were holding hands.’

• ‘do you ever just {'cause I've grown tired of this body / a cumbersome and heavy body} kin lyrics?’

• ‘did you find your bitch God in me? (you're just a little bit too much like me)’

• ‘everyday my delusions brings me closer to God (or at least closer to feeling like one)’

• ‘I may not be the prettiest in the room, but what I do have is a gun. oh, and a cat, for some reason.’

• CULT LEADER - KING MALA

• ‘the concept of gender is over. it's just The Urge now. The Desire. The Torment.’

• ‘my life is ruled by a vicious cycle of demonic possession and daddy issues.’

• ‘this vessel, this vessel is a lie, a shapeshifting beast, a lesson in fluidity. ’

• ‘kill your Gods, devour your oppressors.’

• SAINT BERNARD - LINCOLN

• girl dinner {hunger, cannibalism and religion as a metaphor for love and devotion}

• ‘not a God´s chosen, but a God´s cursed. ’

• to quote my bestie once again, this is what she had to say about the actions taken by my favorite psycho child:

‘it started with a thought and ended with multiple crimes against the Geneva convention.’

• and finally, this gem:

Pavlína🤝 one of my bestie’s OCs *being queer disasters that have bad relationships with their parents which they solve through violence*