#roof of mouth buuuut

[princessdreamss]

What’s your most ticklish and the place u love getting tickled ?

i don’t fucking kNOW bc no one will tickle me

but definitely my feet bc i can tickle them shits myself

[gingerjolover]

HOLIDAY REQUEST SEASON EEEE HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!! okay so we know that julien definitely isn’t enthralled by the holidays because of the stereogum interview buuuut i cant shake the vision of julien and soft!gf facing off in a (ginger)bread (see what i did there!!!!!) house battle like idk i could just imagine soft!gf running errands at the store, coming across a gingerbread house kit and being like…..yes!

omggggg... also i see what u did there teehee

im gonna hc this bc this is sooo cute

i feel like soft!gf and julien compromise a lot in their relationship, like they show up for each other in many different ways even when the other isn't super stoked

jb shows up for you EVERY. CHRISTMAS. like yeah she doesn't love christmas but she looooves you so she indulges your every whim during the holidays

if we are in the same universe (soft!gf and julien have moved to LA and the house needed renovations/the end of touring/lots of events taking place and so on, so their holiday party/housewarming is taking place around the holidays) then you are zooooming around running errands trying to prep

thankfully munagenius is helping a lot and you thank your lucky stars for bff!kelli bc boy does she come thru for you

but it's exactly like that, soft!gf sees these gingerbread kits at like world market or something and there's a sale on traditional ones but then there's a midcentury modern kit and a camper one (these are real)

so you get a couple of the traditional ones (maybe for a mungenius hangout or group date night) and then get some of the cool ones

and you come home so excited and julien is matching your excitement because she doesn't like christmas but she likes how excited you get around the holidays and the constant twinkle in your eyes

julien greets you in the driveway, one of your dogs at her calf as she waits for you to park, her tattoos out and about in her linen button down

"didja buy the whole store?" julien asks teasingly, her hand pulling you into her by your beltloops, kissing your cheek and jaw in quick succession

"we have like 25 people coming over jay," you say unamused but unable to fight the smile at her affections, starting to grab bags

but boyfriend!julien is lowkey jacked and can get 95% of the bags in her arms as she quickly waddles into the house

julien is rifling through the bags when you get inside, pulling out the gingerbread houses before you can even butter her up

"i saw them at the store and i thought it would be so fun...look," you say grabbing the midcentury modern house and showing her the box

julien sees how excited you are and loves a good craft so she acts like its such a chore but once dinner has been eaten and the dishes have been washed, julien is putting plastic down on the dining room table and organizing all the supplies as if it was her idea

and lets be real, julien gets into it, okay?

soft!gf is a little genius so there's extra icing and candy and toppings for the houses on the table

and julien is constructing a masterpiece, murmuring to herself, "need a good foundation...good bones," or something like that

"i bet i could build us a real house baby..." "im sure you could jules."

and somewhere between letting the houses set and decorating, julien gets competitive

"i thought you wanted us to decorate it like it was our real house jay?"

"i do but im just going to do it better than you :)" and she smiles so sassily you're like fine, game on

and julien is soooo messy

she has icing all over her hands and on her cheek

and she's popping candies into her mouth left and right

"jay stop i needed those for my roof!" "you're roofing too slow babe, 's not my fault"

and there's Christmas music playing softly in the background, the dogs are sleeping underneath the table at y'alls feet and as it gets dark the Christmas lights husband!julien so diligently crafted around the house on a timer go off

and for the first time in a long time julien looks around and is so genuinely happy with the christmas-ness of her environment

and its silly like her and soft!gf are literally making replicas of their house out of inedible gingerbread and its so christmassy it should make her sick but she sees the streaks of icing on your cheekbone and how you've placed little m&ms in a repetitive pattern on the roof of your gingerbread house and she decides that the focused look on your face with your tongue peeking out, an almost ethereal glow behind your head from the Christmas lights is worth dealing with some of the lingering anger and resentment she has during the holidays if it means she can create new traditions with you and learn to love Christmas

<3 sorry its late guys

i feel like ive forgotten how to write and post and im in my imposter syndrome era ;P

[randoediot]

Ediot's belly is filled with jelly, but is that produced in-chassis or is it pumped in externally? Does it serve a purpose (aside from the obvious aesthetic reasons of having a fun substance inside, of course)? Can Ediot move it out of themselves manually or would that require assistance?

it's self-regenerative and can be multiplied by digesting food mainly, it was originally viewed as a power source, buuuut that cam with the big side effect of directly plumping up anyone upon contact, and that became it's primary purpose once they found out that it is self-regenerative the robutt can extract it in various ways, though a couple of them i won't mention here because they get rather self-indulgent **very** quickly, though there is a way to get it out of him, via a special port on the roof of their mouth, where upon you can plug in a hose, syringe, or any other port that can get it out in any quantity

[chipistrate]

In your Balloon Circus Story, would BB World return? I think it would be cool to see BB World actually coming back in newer games, the way Princess Quest came back in SB but just in case that's not what happens I'll settle for hearing what your awesome AU would do with it :D

I 100% WANT IT TOO!!

The theming is PERFECT for its return, and also 2 me it's a pretty important game since I like to believe that it's basically Gregorys Princess Quest, that being the game that set him free from the virus- or on the flipside, being the game that introduced him to the virus.

I'd love too add it to the plot somehow- make it important to the story. Buuuut I haven't found a way to do that yet,,, so for now it's one of the arcade games you can find down in the area where Faz Ent dumped the Pizzaplex stuff- a mysterious game that surprisingly still works, despite not being plugged in for years now.

I want to do more with it- maybe make it part of Cassie's plotline, with all the clown/balloon theming and all- maybe it somehow helps set her free from the Mimic. But for now, it's just another mystery below the circus.

If/when I figure out what to do with it there's a good chance I'll reveal it pretty soon after because I love BB World soso much I would be incapable of keeping my mouth shut if it became super plot relevant in Balloon Circus LMAO

Also thank you!! I'm glad you like my AU :D

And I also would LOVE to see Balloon Boy World return in later games- seeing how important Princess Quest ended up being is just- Like- the whole arcade conspiracy- Balloon Boy World mysteriously disappearing and ending up in the DA's room without anyone(besides the arcade conspiracy guy) finding it, and the whole glitched out area/ending with Eclipse and it saying "good night" before the game closes, and in Ruin having the roof in the DA's room turn into Eclipse with the corrupted sky when in VR mode. Chica's Feeding Frenzy being said to stay on even after being unplugged and the workers having doubts that the residual charge could last so long, and then having it give you Chica's voice box when beaten in Ruin, and then using said voice box to fix Chica. And EVERYTHING ABOUT PRINCESS QUEST!!!! Not to mention GGY putting such a heavy focus on arcade machines- and the logs talking about someone sneaking in and playing the arcade conspiracy games and then us literally NEVER learning who that was???

It's all soso interesting there's SO much we don't know about the arcade conspiracy that I'm DYING to learn more about and I SO hope they get explained soon- seeing it be brought up again in a future game would be a dream come true,,

Of course I have my own interpretations and theories, but there's obviously something being planned here- there's so much set up and so far we've seen no pay off and I NEED to know what's going on!!!! Especially with BB World cause that game has like the LEAST explanation out of the three- we get the whole glitch world and "good night" ending and the roof in VR mode but we don't get anything from the game itself like with CFF and it doesn't do anything major like the PQ ending, but we still have to go on a scavenger hunt to find it- and we can't even play it in Ruin, but it has a weird glitch effect coming out of the screen- like BB World is so mysterious and it and PQ are the games I need an explanation for the most There's just so many questions left unanswered and they plague my mind almost constantly I'm banging on Steel Wools doors and begging for answers I NEED TO KNOW WHAT'S HAPPENING,,,,,,

[mousiekosmos]

NEW FIC FELLAS AYYYY

i was originally intending to post this just before the weinlesefest event ended, buuuut well the timing didn't really pan out as nicely as i would've liked it to so here we are !!!! i haven't written razor in forever and yknow what, i missed it- wolf boy content is spectacular for the soul i feel :] and oh man did this event give me lots to toy with !!

hope you enjoy :]

Summary:

'Although he’d still had yet to say a word in response to them, the taste of those sinking things Razor hadn’t even tried to internally repeat was over-salted and bitter as acid against his limp tongue. Their implications felt disgusting, clumping like rotten fruit that'd stuck to the roof of his mouth and solidifying to cement behind his teeth.

Despite the baseless intricacies of their differences, Bennett’s parents loved him.

And Razor’s, as far as he was aware, did not.

or

razor tries to deal with the knowledge that he outlived his parents'

[feymyth]

White Serenade

Fey slipped away from the indoor noise out onto a balcony. It had stopped snowing for the moment, and he took a deep breath enjoying the crisp air.

Music trickled out from indoors, along with spirited conversations, and usual party going noise.

Fey's gaze traveled over the distant roofs. It was amazing how ten steps inside would transport him into what seemed like an alternative reality.

He wasn’t trying to sour the evening with his frustration but it was difficult to muster a smile when so much turmoil stirred inside. His ears flicked a few times as he went to sip his wine, trying to elicit some amount of enjoyment from the evening.

“So this is where you slipped off to.” A voice said behind him, familiar but it didn’t bring comfort.

“It is warm inside.” Feysin lied, one ear flicking back as he turned his head to glance at Myth.

“You haven’t danced but once and I don’t even know if that counted considering it was with our mother.” Myth fired back, taking a few steps closer.

"There's only one person I want to dance with and they are off limits. Besides I loath to play their games—plaster on a fake smile.” Fey snapped, both ears pinning as his tail flicked.

“Oh Sina, it won’t be like this forever.” Myth said quietly, trying to soothe his companion. “I don’t enjoy the games either.”

“And yet you dance, laugh, converse and parade around like all of them.” Fey nearly growled, “I've never been good at that stuff. I never know what to say, how to act, what to do. And it doesn't help that I'm a Miqo'te in a room full of Elezen.”

Myth sighed then, closing the gap between them, sliding his arms around Fey’s waist, pulling the man against him.

“Then come, let us go back in, together. Parade around, dance, laugh and converse.” Myth was already giving his beloved a tug back to the party.

Fey’s ears faltered, and he ran a hand over his brow, “you know we cannot.”

“We can do whatever we want and the only reason I'm not dragging you in there is because you asked me to keep us quiet." Myth countered, nuzzling into Fey’s ears.

Fey’s nose wrinkled, and he gave into the anger that swelled in his chest, “throwing it back on me?" It stung and he his ears wilted further, "we haven’t served but a few years, our wages and savings are not enough to live on. We said ten years and –”

“—You're right we did agree. That was unfair. But, Sina you’re getting in your head again, like you so famously do. Take a deep breath for me.” Myth’s voice chimed softly.

Fey opened his mouth to protest but instead he took several deep breaths, trying to exhale the doubts and frustrations. There was silence for a long while after that.

“I just -- want to go with you to one of these damn balls. Openly.” Fey whispered, setting his wine glass on the frosted railing.

Myth slowly attempted to turn Fey in his arms, "I promise we well. Buuuut I think it’s much more fun to sneak out here and dance alone. Pretending the world revolves around us. Quiet music, laughter—a white serenade in honor of our love.”

Fey turned in Myth’s arms, expression flat, ears airplaned out, a near pout. His eyes met Myth’s and he huffed, “you and your poetry.”

“That was hardly poetry, Sina.” Myth teased, giving him one of his classic smirks.

“You’re so annoying.” Fey hissed, his tail swishing irritably trying to fold his arms but it was hard to accomplish in this pose.

“Dance with me.” Myth stated, attempting to distract Fey, drawing back enough to peer into Fey’s face, ignoring his outburst.

Fey’s ears perked, and he gave a confused expression, “what?”

Myth let out a puff of exasperation, “you heard me. Let’s dance.”

“We can’t.” Fey stated, taking a step back, his back pressing into the rail.

“Not inside. Out here.” Myth explained, extending his hand, giving Fey an encouraging smile.

Fey looked from Myth’s hand to his face and to the ballroom beyond. It was risky but – he huffed taking the outstretched hand. “Fine.”

Myth gave Fey a pleased smile pulling him close, “I saw this dance performed in the Bume at a street party. It’s slow and intimate.”

Fey followed Myth’s lead but was not expecting such close contact—not that he minded. His hand slid around Myth’s back as he pressed the side of his face into Myth’s chest.

Myth made sure to use his free hand as a guide, letting it lace with Fey’s, as he held it up and away from their body a bit. Once Fey was nestled against him Myth dipped his chin, resting his nose into Fey’s hair and ears.

They remained like this for some time; the duo seamlessly transitioned as one song ended and another started.

And when the party began to end, they slipped away into the night, the only evidence of their scandal left in the snowy footprints of the balcony. 

[pizzapizzadickz]

Random fun facts b4 bed! Whoo!!!

I never rly realized just how severe my pickiness is. Bc. I'll eat anything. I love food. I love trying food too. Buuuut, if im at home I won't eat many foods. Lettuce, most raw veggies, I like chips but hate how they get stuck in my teeth (i avoid a lot of similar foods), and i hate it when I toast things too much and all the skin on the roof of your mouth just says "im outta here"). There's probably more but this is an example. Oh also i hate food touching (I'm fine with it when it's at restaurants tho bc that's how it's supposed to be so it's okay). And when I do go out to eat (and try something new), I generally like picking it out beforehand or I take a while to decide everything I want. I love that places have online menus now bc I often just decide using that.

Also I've been stimming a lot lately. Probably bc ive been tired. But I wonder why that tends to cause it? Probably bc it's a self soothing behaviour. How neat.

[yoshkeii]

!!! Drabble requests you say?? Could I maybe ask you then for a Drabble of an s/o who absolutely adores storms? Like watching from the window or even going out to sit in them if there isn’t any threat of being struck by lightning? Preferably with Ushijima, Atsumu, or Iwaizumi? Or anyone you feel like writing for, after all you’re the one writing! Thank you for your time 🥺 !!!

࿐ character: Iwaizumi Hajime

࿐ genre: sfw, fluffy, mmmm rain.

࿐ type: drabble

࿐ requested by: anon!

⌦ gender-neutral! reader (he/they)

⌦ proof-read? nope!

A/N: i hope this is okay- i haven’t had the motivation to write or even draw lately so i’m giving it my all- im so tired though. my enby ass can’t handle art/writer’s block.

Iwaizumi Hajime’s s/o, also known as f/n, loved the rain. Actually they adored it according to Iwa’s experience and own words. Always finding them without their umbrella just to feel the slightest of rain onto their nice hair and face, a soft pleased grin across their face. He would’ve never found someone so... fond of rain like f/n.

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* pluviophile *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

“Hey, f/n.” Hajime called out from under the front door, gazing down at your figure sitting on the porch stairs of his house. Noticing your fixated eyes mesmerized by the ripples and motion of the rain on the cement. He softly smiled before he walked towards you, standing aside of you before lightly tapping your head with his hand to catch your singular attention.

“A-ah, sorry Iwaaaa..” You whined childishly, looking up at your boyfriend. Blinking in awe to find a hot cup of tea in his hand, “Awhhh is that for meee~?” You cooed in a teasing tone, knowing Hajime isn’t the type to do much... lovey dovey things. Hearing a soft grumble from him you took the cup in your hands before placing it aside of right leg.

Hajime proceeded to sit next to you now, avoiding to answer your question. Which you knew it was for you... obviously. 

The weather wasn’t too bad. The rain was pretty much normal, nothing too strong nor nothing weak like a sprinkle. The wind felt nice and refreshing through your hair and the natural smell it brought made you soothed.

“F/n? Why do you like.. rain so much? Let alone storms in general?” He broke the silence, but the calm air didn’t release or change.

Without a single word, you simply got up. Walking out from under the dry cover of the porch roof and out into the open sky. Arms spread as droplets of water met your skin and clothes. “H-hey you’re gonna get a cold!” Hajime exclaimed from his seat.

“No I won’t stop worrying so much, you mother me too much y’know?” You pouted in response, brushing your hands through your damp hair and shutting your eyes as water dripped down your face. “..buuuut, the rain is really refreshing sometimes. Relaxing too.”

The sight ahead of Hajime made his heart skip a few beats. He’d.. never thought you would look more flawless in the rain than dry. Even your clothes were kinda showing- ‘okay don’t think that right now dummy Iwaizumi- not. right. now.’

Opening one eye, you looked at your boyfriend. Raising an eyebrow as he was oddly silent, but quickly averting his gaze as you both met eye contact. 

Walking over you grabbed his hands and lifted him up onto his feet before lightly dragging him into the rain with you. His shoes planted into the cement trying to resist a little, but quickly gave in. You spun Hajime around once with one of your hand in his, surprising him with a catch’n’dip. A flustered expression arose on his face, eyes slightly wide.

“Ehh~? Iwa-chan flustered already? Didn’t think you would be from tha-”

A soft jab to your side made you flinch and curl up a little, earning a hearty laugh from you and Hajime.

“Call me that and I’ll start calling you shitty-kawa.”

“You wouldn’t do that to your favorite person”

“I would.”

“How harsh- even after that lil’dance I’m not appreciated..!” You crossed your arms, pouting at him.

Catching you off guard, Hajime’s moved your hands behind his comfortably. Before positioning his own around your waist.

“I’ll show you a dance, raincloud.”

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* Bonus! *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

“Idiot! I told you that you would get sick after all of that!!” Hajime complained from his seat aside of the bed where you laid down cuddled in blankets.

He removed the damp cloth over your forehead to replace it with a fresh cold one for your fever. 

“Why are you so rough with me Iwaaa..”

“Shut it you troublemaker- you fucking got sick.”

“Buuuuuuut.. it’s not thaaaat bad... Can you at least be more gentle.” You requested, looking up at him with hazed eyes. 

“.......fine, whatever... c-cute idiot..” Hajime muttered softly.

“What was that..??”

“N-nothing..! Now shut up and rest while I go make you some food!” Soon those words fell out of his mouth, he was out of the shared room. Leaving you by yourself.

‘hah.. he called me cute..’

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #457

“blue are the words i say and what i think  /  blue are the feelings that live inside of me”

Do you buy your lingerie at Victoria’s Secret? No. That shit is so overpriced and not for my size group. Would you ever use an online dating service? I never would again. Are you good at multitasking? ABSOLUTELY NOT. Have you ever eaten Frosted Mini Wheats? Ugh, those are so gross. What does your bikini look like? You think THIS bitch wears a bikini??????????????????????? Does age really matter in a relationship? To an extent, yes. How much does the last person you kissed mean to you? I honestly don't even know if I'd be here without her. Almost like magic, Sara popped back into my life right after I returned home from the hospital following my suicide attempt. She helped make recovery possible as a solid source of support. Do you use lotion? Not NEARLY enough. My skin is so dry; I need to. Do you believe in teenage love? I experienced it deeply and thoroughly, so yes. Have you ever sat on the roof of your house? No. Do you like Sublime? I like that one popular one of theirs. "Santaria" or whatever it's called? What’s your favorite movie genre? Paranormal horror, especially the "found footage" type. It's creepy to imagine it being actually real. Is there a celebrity that you’d be willing to have a one night stand with? If he was single? I know in my gut I would lmaooooo Do you want to live in your current town the rest of your life? OH MY GOD PLEASE NO If you found out today your best friend was gay what would you do? She's demisexual, so. She can like anybody. If you could get a pet for free today-what kind/what name? A tegu, because it wouldn't need an enclosure that I don't have. I'd let it free roam. God, I can only imagine Roman's reaction. How many people have you slept with? If you mean what I think you do by "slept," one. Do you ever wish you had a family business to become a part of? Not really. What’s the most gruesome way you could come up with to kill someone? Hunny, have you seen my dark RP????? The world best be glad I'm a pacifist lmfao Do you think anyone deserves to die that way? I don't believe in torture, so no. If you had to fight for survival, what would your weapon of choice be? A gun, I guess? I'd want something with range and that's quick. I wanted to say a bow and arrow, but preparing another arrow after shooting once could really cost you your life. Where did you buy your favorite pair of jeans? I don't wear jeans anymore. Do you have a large dog? We don't have a dog, period. If not, are you afraid of them? No, I love big 'ole puppos!!!!! I just don't wanna own a dog myself. Are you good at playing darts? Holy fuck no, I have NO hand-eye coordination. I once stabbed the guy at a balloon popping booth thing with a dart in the arm, if that tells you anything, ooooooooooof. Do you like breaded chicken sandwiches? YESSSSSSSSS omg Do your parents know that/if you smoke? They know that I don’t. Have you ever been under a blacklight? Omg so in elementary school, we did this thing once where we all washed our hands as best we could and then put them under some sort of light (maybe a blacklight, idk???) to see JUST how resilient germs are. You gotta scrub the fuck out ya hands, people. How many pounds do you want to lose? I'd rather not share a number, but a lot. What’s your favorite natural phenomenon? The Northern Lights. Do you snore? Very surprisingly for someone with sleep apnea like mine, I actually don't. How many people do you know with the same first name as you? Off the very top of my head, one, but it's spelled differently. I KNOW I know of a shitload more Brittanys, though. Is it possible you could be pregnant? Well, I haven't been intimate with a man in years and just finished my period, so like- Could you go a day without texting? I go most days without texting. Do you have a step-parent? My dad is remarried, so yes. If so, do you get along with them? She's EXTREMELY Christian, so her beliefs wildly disagree with mine, but I keep my mouth shut a lot just to keep the peace. She IS a very sweet woman, nevertheless, and am glad she and my dad are so happy together. Does your current/last job require that you wear a uniform? My last job (which lasted not even two hours lol) did. When will your driver’s license expire? My permit has been expired for like... two years. Do you live in an apartment? No. If the last person you kissed proposed to you what would you say? That's too wild a concept to even imagine. I'd probably ask if she was okay lmao. Would you ever get back with one of your exes? Weeeelp, I want to get back together with Girt. Pretty badly. Write a foreign word, and what it means: "Schadenfreude" is a German term that essentially means secondhand embarrassment, but it doesn't have a perfect translation. Is there an ex you think about everyday? Inevitably. That's PTSD, my friends. Who is the last person that you said I love you to, besides family members? Sara. What's the worst thing you have ever said to anyone? Something along the lines of "no one could ever love you like I do." It boils my blood just typing that; I considered even deleting this question. That quote right there is fucking manipulation, even IF I thoroughly believed it. Who was the last person to comment one of your pictures? I don't feel like looking. Do you tend to go for older or younger when looking for someone to date? It's weird, I'm into slightly older-than-me guys, but probably girls who are barely a bit younger than me. Have you ever been used? I don't think so. Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head? Like I've said in plenty of surveys: Jason is probably a permanent fixture. But also as of the past two days, Girt's been living up there. I went from "hmmm I just don't know how I feel" to "FUCK I want to talk to him about how stupidly into him I am right this fucking INSTANT" pretty goddamn fast. It kinda scares me just because of how extreme my feelings are. Again. That's only ever gotten me hurt. Buuuut let's not get into that. Have you ever got caught cheating on a test? No, because I've never tried to. Will your next kiss be a mistake? I hope it won't be. But it's not like I know the future. Have you ever worn an oxygen mask? Actually yes, when I was young and thought I was having an asthma attack or something. Mom had one for her own asthma. Then I obviously wore one for surgery. What song do you want to be played at your funeral? "Paradise" by Coldplay is absolutely #1. How many swear words are in the song you’re listening to? I'm not listening to music; I'm back to watching Gab play Sekiro. What color was the last swimsuit you wore? Black. Have you ever kissed anyone of the same sex, and if so, who? Yeah, just Sara. Who did you last tell to ‘shut up’? Ha, I think my WoW friend Lyndsey, but only playfully, of course. We pick fun at each other all the time. Would you ever get a tattoo of a boyfriend/girlfriend's name? NOOOOOOOOO. Are you one of those girls who already have baby names picked out? I know what I'd name my kids IF I actually wanted any, yeah, but I don't. Do you think guys with long hair are attractive? Yessss, I love long hair on guys. Are any of your siblings taller than you? I think Ashley is a liiiiil bit taller? I know my brother is, for sure. Have you ever scared someone so badly that they cried? Yikes, no. When was the last time you wore high heels? Boy oh boy, no idea. Is there someone that you want to hurt right now? Jeez, no thanks. What was the most interesting or colorful birthday cake you’ve had? I don't remember, but I'm sure something from childhood. What was the last thing someone bought you? Was it expensive? Mom bought me food from McD's, which obviously isn't expensive. Do you have any interesting moles anywhere you don’t want people to know of? No. Have you ever gotten high or drunk in a really formal place? Strong "no" there. Do you ever write poetry and post it on any certain websites? On the very rare occasion I write poetry and actually like it, I'll sometimes post it on dA. What do you miss most about your childhood? Actually, genuinely having fun and not dealing with fucking anhedonia. Would you like to know the precise date of your future death? Hell no. Do you photograph well? I'd like to hope so. Are there any animals you flat out refuse to touch? Maggots and similar bug larvae. What super power would you refuse, if it was offered to you, and why? Mind reading. It just sounds... awful and overwhelming. What’s your favorite discontinued product that you wish would come back? Oh, I KNOW I have answers to this, just none are coming to me immediately and I don't feel like sitting here for five minutes thinking about it. If adults had show and tell, what would you bring into work? My snek! :') If you had a reset button for the last 10 years, would you press it? Tempting, but... I don't think I would. I cannot go through how deep my depression was again. Who is someone you would never swear in front of? My nieces and nephew. Yes, I don't believe in profanity being a "thing" and is just a stupid human fabrication, but nevertheless I acknowledge societal standards and expectations, and they're way too young to get when you shouldn't say something like that and why. Have you ever won a contest or competition? A few. Who is your favorite TV character? I don't think I really have one? Do you coo over other people’s babies? Not really, no. Sometimes I'll think they're super cute and be like "awww," but I don't like... squeal and spaz like some people do. What is something that makes you very squeamish? VOMIT. Has there been a celebrity death that really affected you? Steve Irwin got me deeper than anyone else. Chester Bennington hit real hard, too. If you’re out of high school, have you stayed in touch with your high school friends? If you’re still in school, do you think you will? Most of my closest ones, yes, at least via Facebook. What’s a movie that you want to see? Old movie, but Jacob's Ladder. It was a massive influence on Silent Hill, so naturally, I'll probably love it. It's a classic, anyway. Do you use the same username everywhere online or do you have a lot? I use "Ozzkat" in most places, but I do have some other ones for different sites. Who was the last person you know who became pregnant? My friend Ana recently revealed she's expecting her second child, a boy. What fad were you actually into? I have zero clue. Have you ever tailgated? Would you want to? Fuck no. That's how so many wrecks happen. My sister legit got in a wreck with an 18-wheeler mostly because she was tailgating (which she does BADLY); she was trying to pass, and he moved over at the same time because he couldn't see her coming around. It's a borderline miracle she got out with only some cuts, bruises, and a seatbelt burn. Have patience, people. Get off cars' asses. Why did you fall for the last person romantically? Look, don't get me started on this. There are a shitload of reasons and I have been way too emotional over this the past few days laksdfja;lwke What’s the last thing you had to eat? A bagel w/ cream cheese for breakfast. Do you ever pick up your house phone? We don't have a landline phone. Truth be told, are you more into looks or personalities the most? Personalities, for sure. I cannot be into you if your personality isn't attractive.

[laurelleghuleh]

OCAF | Ch. 3 “Heart, tell them what you came for”

Warnings: read the masterlist first

Songs: “Tell Them” by James Blake, "Forever & Ever More" - Nothing But Thieves, "Bad Man" - Esterly, Austin Jenckens

LEVI'S POV

"You shouldn't be here. Do you miss prison so much?" I asked her.

"I'm doing anything wrong. Please, get lost..." she paused and then slightly turned her head, just to say "captain".

Captain. I repeated the sound of her voice articulating that word a couple of times more. Captain. Captain.

"Tch. I don't care. You should be in your room, sleeping"

"I can't" She confessed.

Well, apparently, I wasn't the only one not able to catch some sleep.

"Again. I. Don't. Care. Go back to your room"

She stayed silent, ignoring me and still staring at the sky.

"Oi. Are you deaf? I said. Back. To your room. Don't make me repeat myself or I'll push you down the building"

She suddenly turned her head over her shoulder, staring at me intensely. If looks could kill, I'd be dead right now. And yet, on second thought, her eyes were pretty reddish. Glassy. Close to tears. Was she crying before I caught her?

Too distracted by my own thoughts, I didn't notice she had slowly gotten up and pretty close to me. "You are all talk, captain, and no trousers, you know? Always threatening me with death and yet here I am. Still very much alive. Living and breathing"

Her tone ignited something almost animalistic inside of me. Something wicked. And at that moment, I totally lost it. Who she thinks she's talking to?

I fiercely grabbed her collar, brought her to the very edge of the roof, almost shoving her out of it.  One of her feet slightly whipped out of the corner, but her face remained stoic. Stony-faced. She grabbed my wrist to steady herself like she was trying to provoke me, fight me, but still stayed almost unmoved.

Looking me dead in the eyes, she was waiting for the death sentence from her executioner. Not a single word. Not a single whine. Isn't she afraid of me? Isn't she even afraid of dying?This must be a bluff. And yet, she never flinched.

Enough. I decided to let her go, throwing her to the ground. "Back to your room" I said once again.

"Captain?" she mumbled while I was already closing the roof's door behind my back.

Again. Captain. Captain. I turned back.

"Captain, before you go... I wanted to say... I-I'm sorry"

"Ok. Got it. Now, back to your room"

"No" She declared standing up, right in front of me "N-not for this. Well, also, but I wanted to say that I'm sorry... for Farlan...and Isabel... I've never stopped thinking about it. You know, about your reaction. They were close to you, weren't they? I'm so sorry... I was ordered to-"

"Don't" I interrupted her "Don't be sorry. It wasn't your fault. You couldn't know and that was your mission, right?" and then we stared at each other for what seemed a very long time.

I was looking for something else to say or some way to say nothing at all, but a little voice inside me told me to speak. To talk to her about it. But why? So, I soundly sighed and opened my mouth.

"Yes" I declared "We were close. Friends, you could say. More like a family, actually" She immediately tensed.

"I told you, don't be sorry... I don't need your pity" I spat as she was lightly shaking. What is the matter now? Why does she even care? Criminals don't care.

"I am. I am sorry" she replied straight away.

"You know, I'm pretty familiar with the underground. It challenges you in any way humanly possible until you can't bear it anymore, until you are capable of the most horrifying things, just to survive. Swim or you'll drown, right?"

She flinched a little and then said "So, I was right. You are the guy from the underground"

"Yeah... to be honest, our stories are pretty similar" I confessed.

"I don't think so, captain"

And then again, my childish curiosity spoke for me: "So tell me about it, cadet"

"There isn't much to say... You already know pretty much everything. Just a regular thug from the underground. Before that, to quote one of your comrades, a slut. A poor orphan making a living by working in a whorehouse. Oh, and I once was a survey corps' prisoner. The rest is history"

I couldn't find the right word to say. She really was a prostitute. And Oruo had the audacity to provoke her like that. I felt so upset. He was a great soldier but... a loutish most of the time. I was still speechless. If only she knew that also my mother used to work as a pr-...

"Well, captain, I've bothered you long enough now. So, I-"

"Forget about it" I suddenly spat "Whatever happened back then forget about it. Let your past die and most importantly, don't have any regret"

"Like you did?"

"Yes, and like you should. Be a better person. Do something good. Make new friends"

"I'm tryin-"

"No, you are not. I saw you today. I observed you. You barely speak to your mates. They are your comp-"

"I know you stared at me the whole time, captain" She teased me looking up at me. Was I staring at her? Was it that obvious? I thought.

"Shut up. That's my job, cadet. I have to survey you and your fellows"

"Whatever helps you sleep at night, captain"

"Tch. Be more sociable. Full stop. Now, back to your room..."

"Look who's talking..."

"Cadet. I warn you: you're playing with fire"

"I'm just saying that I did everything I was supposed to do today. I ate. I trained. I didn't try any "funny business" as you said, so-"

"That's not enough. You have to trust them and they have to trust you. Some of them will join the Survey Corps. Some of them we'll be in our squad, so you need to trust them. The next expedition will take place soon, so be more sociable. End of discussion"

"Ok, I wasn't sociable, buuuut I observed them if that counts for anything"

"Tch. Let's hear. Enlighten me, cadet. Share with me some of your wisdom"

She frowned her forehead, upset by my little tease, and then she started "Some of them are already both talented and motivated, like that Mikasa. Then we have a bunch of "I don't know why I'm here" beefy guys. Similarly, a bunch of "I want to be here but I don't know if I should", you know, the motivated but poorly skilled type. Still, I admire their spirit, like that Armin. He seems a nice person. And lastly, the ones who give me chills. Like that blondie, Annie. Her eyes looked almost dead... Even though she was the only one truly challenging me during the combat, she mumbled some nonsense, like that she wants to survive, she won't join the survey corps. And yet, she was one of the strongest in the group. Weirdo. Oh, and talking about weirdos, let's not forget our Jean. He hit on me three times. Three. Only during the training. And then once again soon after it ended"

"So, you can be very talkative when you want to, Daphne" And also, she had quite a good intuition. She could really read people. Wait... Did I just call her by her name?

"I-I was just trying to give you my point of view, captain..." Is she blushing? "I need some more time to trust them" She continued "I'm not good at socializing, let alone trusting people. I'll do better next time"

Yeah...I know what you're talking about...Trusting people ain't my thing either.

"Try. And now, go and try to sleep" I ordered "Tomorrow it'll be quite a busy day. Erwin just informed me there'll be Eren's sentence. Have you heard of him?"

"I heard Mikasa and that short blondie talking about him. They seemed pretty worried about him. So, is it true that he can shift?"

"Yeah, he's the guy. Tomorrow the Supreme Commander will determine which division will look after him... well, survey him. He's fundamental for our mission. We can't afford to lose him. So-"

"Yeah, I know. Back. To my room." She sighed almost mimicking me. I stared at her dead in the eyes. She enjoyed teasing me way too much for my liking.

"Good night, captain"

I nodded, unable to respond, while my head was still focused on that captain.

DAPHNE'S POV

I think I'll never get used to the sky.

I've dreamed about that so many times and yet I couldn't still find my peace. It felt like I couldn't allow myself to feel at ease, let alone content to even that view.

I had no choice, and actually, their offer had given me a little more time to think again about my plan. I would have wait and then, when the right opportunity would have come, I'd run away.

Maybe during the next expedition...What a coward, I thought immediately. I couldn't not only accomplish my mission but also I was no use to their cause. What a coward. Maybe I should have helped them, for a while, and then escape.

I was so conflicted, confused.

That night changed everything for me. When that thing, the titan, attacked me nothing else mattered. Any worry I had ever had in my life couldn't compare. Its expression haunted my thoughts throughout the day as I was trying to plot my way out of that place.

I needed to go back to the underground again, I couldn't let things that way. Wait for me... Wait for me, Abi...

As her face appeared between the shining dots of the wild blue yonder, a single tear dropped down along my cheek to my jaw. "Crying won't fix anything, you coward. Stop it" a voice in my head told me.

And that's when I sensed him. Someone. No, Levi was watching me, and soon after I said something to get his attention. He was just surveying me, yeah sure, but still, his presence didn't bother me that much, quite the opposite.

Scratch that, not only the titan, also the captain and his revelation about being the guy from the underground haunted me all day and for the rest of that night too.

Fortunately, the night didn't last that long, and "a busy day" awaited me.

First thing in the morning I headed to the cafeteria where a quite enthusiastic Hange was already bothering an unfazed Levi.

"Good moooorning, little early bird!" she shouted at me, while Levi only nodded in my direction, simulating a greeting.

"Why so early, darling?" Hange asked.

"The captain had informed me just yesterday that today we would have had a lot on our plate, so I wanted to be ready as soon as possible..." I replied.

Sincerely, I didn't want to be in their way. The faster I would have gained their trust, the faster I'd had a chance to run away.

Moreover, Levi seemed rather pleased with my answer. Did I catch him hiding a little smile in his cup?

"That's great! Since she's already here you two should accompany commander Erwin to the court, I'll go get the kid. I'm so thrilled to finally meet hiiim! See you there!!" and so she left.

Again, I was left alone with the captain. He took another sip and then extended one of his arms to a table behind him. "Here, eat something, so we can arrive at the court before the crowd" said Levi, not daring to even look at me.

"Good morning to you too, captain... and thanks anyway" I didn't make him repeat it and I did as he said. But here he was again, bossing me around while being nice.

He had prepared a cup of tea and some slices of bread with jam. Did he prepare it? For me? Is he just acting like a hunter feeding his prey right before killing it, or is he actually a caring person?

My little and silent breakfast was soon over, so we headed to the stable to get a couple of horses. Levi seemed to have his own and then he grabbed another horse for me: "Take care of it. Horses are pretty smart animals" he said while brushing his horse's mane "They have a great memory and they can understand human emotions. They'll read you right away...They are known to be able to smell fear, you know? So, remember what I said to you yesterday: forget about the past and be present. Moreover, don't be afraid. Whatever you're going to see today, trust me, trust us"

I nodded, swallowing soundly. I somehow did trust them. I trusted him.

"You're such a good little liar, aren't you, Dafne? You trust him, you trust them but they shouldn't trust you. You don't deserve being here, you don't deserve being a soldier" said again that voice.

However, we made it to the court and met Erwin right in front of it. I saw both of them chatting about something and before I could catch any clue the assembly had already started. The room was packed with people: soldiers from all the ranks, regular people, and even a priest.

"Get here, next to me" said Levi catching me by surprise "Be a good girl and stay quiet until the very end" When will he stop bossing me around?I want to punch him so bad.

"Now, look there. Right in front of you. See, that's the gendarmerie, our opponent. A bunch of chickenshit... If they win Eren's custody, they'll kill him straight away. And they still dare to call themselves soldiers" he explained.

I listen to him carefully as I scanned them one by one. Then Levi pinched my hand "Here he comes".

As soon as Eren got inside the room the air got heavier. The gendarmerie was pretty agitated, they made a big fuss while arguing with a mad priest. On the contrary, Erwin confronted them and without losing his cool he proved his point. He was in charge.

But still, everybody seemed to be afraid of Eren: what if he couldn't control himself? What if he was a bluff? What if-

While the whole commission was arguing, Eren was kicked right in his face. LEVI. What the fuck is he doing??? He kicked him again, and again, and again. Even harder than before. He was ruthless. What the-

But I soon realized what he was doing. He was trying to prove he was in charge, that he had Eren under his power. He was the only one who could have stopped him if necessary. Fair enough, but isn't he even a little afraid of that kid? Levi is still a mystery.

Soon after, Mikasa tried to scream and suddenly stood up. So, I moved closer and stopped her "Wait, Mikasa. Wait and see. Trust me" I told her.

It was a setup, I knew it.

When Levi was satisfied with his job, Erwin started to speak again. He explained once again how indispensable was Eren's power to their mission and proposed to assign the boy to the only one who could have surveyed him: captain Levi. The supreme commander accepted. They won Eren's custody.

Soon after the end of the assembly, Hange, Erwin, Levi and I escorted Eren back to the HQ and tried to help him with his bruises. Hange had carried some medicine with her, but Eren was so in pain. Levi had been far from gentle with him.

That's when I remembered an unguent Martha used to hand me whenever I encountered a difficult customer. I once was beaten up pretty bad and I still remember Martha's words "Here, take this. You know, sometimes this type of thing happens around here. Get used to it, babygirl"

Yeah sure, like it was totally normal.

However, I tried my best to replicate the recipe pretty fast with some ingredients brought there by Hange.

"What are you doing, cadet?" immediately said Levi, standing behind me and observing what I was doing.

"What does it look like to you, captain? I'm trying to help him out" I confronted him.

We stared at each other. None of us dared to look away.

"Oh, c'mon Levi, cut her some slack" said Hange.

I glared at him once again and then got back to my recipe. Soon after I was finished and I handed the unguent to Eren.

Half-kneeling down in front of him I said "It should help speed up the process. Or at least it'll help endure the pain. It contains aloe" I smiled at him, trying to cheer him up a little.

"T-thank you s-so much, it feels really nice" He stuttered.

"You're welcome, kid. You did well today" I said as I playfully rubbed his head. He giggled.

"Wooo, it's true! It does feel nice. Where did you learn that, girl? I want the recipe now" Hange said enthusiastically as she was applying a little of my unguent on her arm. "This girl continues to amaze me, I'm glad you two captured her" she laughed and then she turned to face both Levi and Erwin. And so I did too.

The captain eyed me. Unfazed. A penny for your thoughts, Levi?

However, I chuckled a little. Hange's fervor was quite contagious, I must admit.

Suddenly something else caught my attention: Eren's bruises started to fade away. What the fuck?! "I think I saw something even more amazing, Hange. Look at his skin..." I said pointing to him "I don't think that was my unguent" What kind of witchcraft is this?

"No, darling, that's the titans' power. But still... how fascinating..." said Hange, drooling. Another weirdo. Well, another nice weirdo.

However, that's what Levi was talking about before. "Don't be afraid. Whatever you're going to see today, trust me, trust us" he said. I turned around to watch his reaction and he instantly glared at me. A hint of a smile appeared on my face. I wanted him to know I wasn't afraid.

The more I spent time with them the more I could see what they were about.

Soon after, Hange escorted Eren back to his dorm, while Erwin, Levi and I headed down the hallway in the opposite direction.

Before he left, Erwin said "We made it. Another step further" and then he approached me "You did well today too. Thanks for handling Mikasa, she could have gotten herself into trouble without you"

"Don't mention it, commander. She was just blinded by her feelings. She was clearly worried about Eren's fate, I totally get it" I replied.

"Sure, but you demonstrated a lot of self-control and discipline today. Well done, cadet"

"I'm just good at reading people and situations, but thanks commander" I tried to minimize my actions. "Look at yourself: behaving, obeying, being a good girl... what have you become, Daphne?" that voice inside my head echoed once again.

The commander discharged us, so Levi and I headed to our respective rooms.

"Are you happy now?" Levi suddenly asked me when we were almost at my door.

"Excuse me, captain?"

"Now I'll be on Eren's ass. I won't have time to survey you" he said, getting close to me. Way too close "Consider yourself lucky, cadet" he continued.

"If you ever miss my ass, captain, you can make an appointment. I'll definitely keep myself free for you" I teased him, preparing myself for the worst.

His jaw tensed as he scanned my face. He inhaled soundly, never looking away from me. He looked like a wild animal, a predator. His eyes were running furiously all over my face, restless.

"Calm down, captain. I was just messing with you..." I hissed, almost feeling my own breath coming back to my face. He was way too close.

"I've already warned you. Smartmouth, drop it already" he whispered "Just because you behaved today, it doesn't mean I'm buying it. I'll still keep an eye on you"

"Oh, my dear captain, I know you'll do" I teased him.

My fault. I brought it on myself. He gripped my jaw with just his hand and so my head banged on the door. He stared at me furiously but a small grin painted on my face. You don't know who you're fucking with, Levi.

He groaned and let go of me. His expression suddenly changed: did he regret acting out of rage?

"C'mon captain, it's time to go to sleep, right?" I whispered massaging my chin and trying to make eye-contact with him.

Levi suddenly grabbed my hand and took it away from my face. With his left one he cupped my cheek, so he started stroking my jaw with his thumb. I stared at him trying to keep my heart from jumping out of my ribcage.

His thumb softly traveled back and forth on my jaw, while the other fingers stayed solid on the back of my neck. What was that all of a sudden? And the expression on his face...He seemed sorry. Then his eyes traveled from my chin to my eyes, looking for something. He sighed soundly and moved his attention back to my jaw.

He eyed me once again and then left me there, without saying a word.

Once in my room, another sleepless night awaited me, and yet another day came. I really was a lucky bastard.

However, when the daylight hit my window I got up, showered and then headed to the cafeteria where again a silent Levi was waiting for me. Sitting next to him was Eren, quietly eating. On my usual seating position, there were a cup and a plate. Again, Levi had prepared that for me.

I noticed the plate was stuffed with biscuits, slices of bread and some fruits. Was he making amends for yesterday? I smiled at him, but he stayed silent.

While I was still focused on the food, he shyly scanned my face, looking for some evidence of our last encounter. I saw him out of the corner of my eyes so I kindly asked "Is everything alright, captain?" but he just gave me a dirty look.

Once he was finished with his tea he started to speak "Today we'll move out of the HQ. We will travel a little and get to an old castle, which is actually the old HQ. There we will hide you, Eren, so that freak can continue her experiments on you in peace. Hurry up and meet me at the stable" and so he left.

I rolled my eyes, so Eren laughed a little. He was clearly afraid of the captain. How can I blame him?

"Scary, isn't he?" said Eren when Levi left the cafeteria.

"He is all barks and no bite, trust me. However, I guess he is just trying to be a good captain... in his own way, but I think I get it" I admitted.

"I heard he went hard on you too, right? You are the criminal from the underground... Oh, I'm sorry, it didn't come out that well... "

"No, don't worry. You're right, I am the criminal from the underground. And yes, he wasn't that gentle with me either" I said.

"But you don't seem frightened around him, how do you do that??" I really didn't know what to say... Maybe it was because if Levi wanted me dead, I would have already been worm food.

I didn't know for how long it would have lasted, but to be honest, judging from his last behaviors Levi seemed as conflicted as I was. Luckily for me.

After we finished our breakfast, we headed out and started our little trip along with the Special Operations Squad, also known as Squad Levi: that creep Oruo, Eld, Gunther and Petra. The elite squad of the Survey Corps, hand-picked by the almighty Captain Levi.

Once there, we all reunited in front of the gate.

"Oh God, this place is a mess. Look at all that weed!" exclaimed Gunther.

Indeed, it was a mess. A huge castle, for sure, but it rather looked like a dump now.

"In which case we have a problem, don't we?" said Levi, coming from our backs "Best get a broom and get to work".

Is he for real? A question mark appeared on my face and Petra immediately caught it.

"Oh, that was just the calm before the storm, now you'll see what captain Levi is really all about" she giggled as she took me by the arm, escorting me inside the building.

[purplesurveys]

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What song are you listening to right now? I’m not listening to anything but the last song I played was Violet by Daniel Caesar; I don’t actually know the song but it was part of a playlist on Spotify. Admit it -- you want a Snuggie. What design/color? I don’t even know what that is, but if it came in pink I’d want one. Do you prefer movies at home or movies at the theatre? Home is cozier and costs much less, haha. How many songs does your iTunes have? Ooh, I haven’t used my iTunes in like half a decade buuuut I think it peaked with around 400-500 songs? Idk, I didn’t explore much as a kid and I liked to stick with my favorite singers/bands. Do you take a shower in the morning or the night before? When I’m off school I like to shower at night - much more comfy that way, and I fall asleep faster. But when I have to leave the house whether to go to school, the mall, to crash at someone’s place, etc. I always bathe a few hours before. Always. I hateeeeee not feeling fresh when I go outside.

What's your academic niche? (History, math, science, etc.) History for sure, but there are some science topics I’m also okay in. Who's your youngest teacher? They’re all already pretty seasoned lol I can’t actually tell. I think it’s Ma’am Cai; welp, at least among my current professors, she’s the one that acts the youngest. Have you ever had the samples people offer you at Costco? I’ve never been in a Costco but I typically don’t get samples from our local groceries because idk, they just look nasty :/ The only samples I get are the free ones they hand over at Starbucks and Coffee Bean, haha. If you had to name your kid after a food, what would his/her name be? I’d take olives and turn it to Olivia, which was always my choice for a girl anyway. But if it really had to be food-inspired I’d go with... Brie for a girl, or Sage for a boy. Miley Cyrus: Inspirational role model or a ho? Get with the times, 2009 survey. This question won’t get away with that word today. Anyway, Miley is a badass. I never changed my mind about her, maybe except for that time she did that performance with Robin Thicke. Are you stressed about anything? Right now no. I’m on a six-week break, I wanna enjoy it without thinking about the stuff that would typically stress me out. When's the last time you had a rock, paper, scissors match? It’s been a few months. What's your favorite anime? I don’t watch anime... the only show I got into was Pokemon. Did you cry when Ash let his Butterfree go with the other Butterfrees? I vaguely remember that but I probably got sad over it when I was younger. Don't you hate it when Facebook auto-corrects your smiley faces and hearts? I don’t mind it. Skinny, flared, ripped, or faded jeans? Ugh I hate all of these. I have a lot of skinny jeans in my closet but they’re always a last resort - my go-to these days is mom jeans. What are you excited for? Meh, nothing in particular. I wanna say my birthday? but who knows what the world is gonna come to be by then. Are you part of the Farmville cult? No I never played. I wasn’t allowed to make a Facebook account at the time when games like that and Petville and Plants vs. Zombies were big. What were you for Halloween? Last year I went as Dora. AND IT WAS SO ANNOYING because the party we were invited to prohibited shorts??? And 1) Dora wore shorts and 2) I searched far and wide for a pair of orange shorts? It was the first time I heard of a dress code that strict for a college party lmao I couldn’t believe it. Thankfully Rita had just bought a pair of orange jeans so she let me borrow those. Have you ever had braces? Back in high school. What year of high school are you in? I am not. What's your favorite flower? Peonies. Would you ever bleach your hair? Probably not. My hair has faced enough damage. Have you ever stood on a frozen solid body of water? No. That sounds scary though. I’ve heard and watched people fall through ice :/ Would you ever take up smoking or drinking? I’m already doing both. Thanks, college and peer pressure! Do those girls with 1,000 friends on Facebook REALLY have that many? I dunno, who knows? It’s always possible. I have a bigger problem with the fact that this question just singled out girls lmao. What holiday is your birthday closest to? Uhh Earth Hour, if it counts? If not, we have Araw ng Kagitingan on April 9 which commemorates the Fall of Bataan during WWII. Are you cyberdyslexic? Is this even a thing? I’ve never heard of this until today. Are you regular dyslexic? No. Is there irregular dyslexia? :((( What would your name be if you were a boy? I don’t know. My parents didn’t think about this either I think. Which person from way back when would you love to hang out with? My great grandpa. Either him or his cousin who wrote a book on history. What color are your eyes? Dark brownnnnnnn ugh this will FOREVER be in surveys won’t it. The forever on-going question: Is Twilight stupid or actually brilliant? It’s so stupid. BUT I LOVE IT ok.  Did you carve pumpkins for Halloween this year? No. We don’t do that here. Does your family use a real pine tree or a plastic one for Christmas? I think most households here use artificial trees. I was already a little old when I found out other countries would use real trees. Do you know anyone with a play-on name? (Chris P. Bacon, Justin Case, etc.) Not personally but super recently someone named their kid COVID BRYANT and it was all over social media for a few days. Covid Bryant. Let that shit sink in. Only Filipinos, man. Do you have any foreign exchange students at your school? Yeah, mostly Koreans and Japanese people. If you had a week to live, what would you do? I don’t have much of a choice, do I... I’m gonna be stuck at home and do the stuff I’ve already been doing in the last three weeks, and just hope I had fun.

Are you good at brain teasers? Some, but I don’t enjoy doing them in general. Is your handwriting nice? I can handle a pen pretty well, if I do say so myself. I have a neater penmanship than most people I know. What's your second language? English.  Is it uncomfortable for you to take showers in glass stalls w/out curtains? Not really but the door has to be locked. Finish the sentence: Remember, remember... The fifth of November? I dunno why I know about that though. Did you understand Shakespeare? No. I always bought the No Fear Shakespeare editions cos I had absolutely no patience to try and understand the original text. What do you want to be when you're older? Rich. What's your favorite dog breed? Golden retriever or pitbull. Are you one of those people who take like, 50 Facebook quizzes at a time? I’ve never taken a Facebook quiz. What was the last shot you got? It was at the roof of my mouth, back when I had a tooth extraction. Ever gotten cavities? A few times. Can you differentiate between the words "your" and "you're?" Yes. Do you use hair ties as bracelets? Lmao always. Don’t most girls do this? What was the last school project you did that you couldn't wait to turn in? My book report for my business journalism class. After I proofread it like 6 times and triple-checked the word count, I couldn’t waitttt to get rid of it. Have you ever graded papers? Sure. I’ve said it in past surveys, but my org hosts journalism workshops to interested schools, whether they’re in elementary, high school, or college. At the end of the day they have to come up with their own articles, and then we check each of them, correct the mistakes, grade them, and give it back to them with our comments. What was your favorite year of school up to this point? Third year of high school. I don’t really have a favorite year of college... I had lows in each of them. What's the latest you've ever woken up? 11 AM. Can you recite the alphabet backwards? For a time I did cos Angela taught me. Then I just never sang it again so I ended up forgetting. If you could master one language in thirty minutes, what would it be? Korean. Are you a sucker for foreign accents? No. Sometimes I find it hard to understand. Where were you born? Is it the same place you live currently? I was born somewhere in Manila, and I live faaar away from there now. How often do you remember your dreams? What did you last dream about? Only if I note them down on my phone. The last dream I remember having was too lengthy for me to want to type it all down, but it involved me and Gabie being exes, and she had her own kid hahaha. When did you learn the ninja turtles were named after Renaissance artists? Pretty early, I guess. I’ve never seen the show though. Do you do yoga? Nope.

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Hi! I've enjoyed a lot your replies, they're really cool! If it's okay, may I request a short scene about the chocobros dealing with a full bladder out in the wilderness and without any restrooms in sight?

Thank you, Anon! I’m glad!

My allergies were killer today. Congestion, congestion stomach, and super dry eyes all in one day. Bleh. 

So here’s something short and (hopefully) funny! Enjoy! ❤

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Noctis

“But, Iiigggyyy, I really have to go,” The Crown Prince whined from the backseat. 

“We are hours away from anywhere, Noct. I’m afraid you’ll just have to wait.” The stern driver replied.

“Buuuut…” Noctis prepared for another round of high pitched protests before he was interrupted. 

“Whining will not change the facts.” In the backseat, the petulant prince crossed his arms and pouted, staring outside the window. Ignis smiled at how Noctis still had his childhood mannerisms. “There is always the wilds…” He commented, glancing at his friend in the rear view mirror. Ignis’s reply brought chuckles from Prompto and Gladio. 

Noctis’s gaze took on an angry force as he crossed his legs and started to tap his foot. “Fine. Stop the car.” He sounded angry in his defeat.

His three companions shared shocked expressions, but soon, the Regalia pulled off of the road. 

Noctis burst from the door, summoned his sword, and warped into the dark woods. 

“YOU SUMMONED YOUR WEAPON FOR THAT?!” Gladio shouted after him. 

Prompto

The four men had been walking for hours, searching for one specific bounty. Gladio led the group as though they were escaping from the beast, not searching for it.

 “Gladio…” Prompto sang out from the back of the group. “I’ve gotta go!” His back hunched and his arms swung with each exhausted step. 

“Why didn’t you go before we left?!” The warrior called back, feeling thrust into the role of a father. 

“Cause I didn’t have to go then! Besides, that was like a billion miles ago!” 

“It was exactly ~one~ mile ago,” Ignis corrected him, poised as ever. 

Prompto stopped to shout at the sky.  “MY BLADDER CAN’T MEASURE DISTANCE, OK?!” Noctis began laughing and Gladio finally relented in his pace. 

The shield put his hands on his hips before he spoke. “Fine, you’ve got to the count of ten.” 

“I…what?!” Prompto’s relief soon vanished, replaced by understanding.

 “One…” 

“CRAP!!” Prompto scrambled from the desert boulders they had been climbing, dashing off into the wilds to find his makeshift restroom.

“I hope not! That’ll take too long!” Noctis teased. They all laughed as they watched Prompto turn into a yellow speck against the brown sand as he ran away. 

Ignis

He was leaning against the trunk of the Regalia, arms crossed, looking like he was deep in a frustrating thought. A single bead of sweat ran down his forehead. 

“Even you can’t think with a full bladder, Specs.” Noctis finally said as the three other men sat in chairs around the strategist. 

“I’m fine…” The words sounded forced out of a frozen face. 

“Just go, will ‘ya?” Gladio prodded. 

Softly, Prompto joined in, chanting “C’mon Iggy!” He slowly got louder as Noctis joined in. 

“Damn you all!” With a graceful determination he spun from the car and strode towards the woods. 

“Lay off the coffee, next time!” Noctis yelled after him. 

Gladio

Noctis’s eyes were wide open as he lay staring at the tent roof. With a grunt, Gladio undid the zippered door and shuffled back into his sleeping bag.

 “HOW DO YOU PEE SO LOUD?!?!” Noct hissed. 

Gladio closed his eyes and smiled to himself. “Talent,” is all he replied. 

Bonus:

Nyx

“Why…” The Glaive asked him, head in his hand. “Why did you…pee on a historic gargoyle? NO! Not just why, but HOW?! It was on the 120th floor of that building!” 

Nyx smiled at his boots. “Does ‘just ‘cause’ work as an answer?” 

His superior stared at him open mouthed for a second. “Just…cause?! That’s your answer?” 

“Yes sir.” Nyx’s answer truly set his superior off. The Glaive began pacing about the room, throwing their hands into the air, yelling seemingly random things.

 “JUST GET OUT!” They finally shouted. Nyx was already halfway to the door, a wide grin on his face.

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Writer Nonnie and cup ramen is probably hailed by the Twins/Triganes as a gift from the gods. Even Ryou would sit for one minute if its his only meal in the past three days. Damn, now I want to wrote the clone bros actually experiencing Earth Things for the "first" time, since they only have Shiro's memories as a base. Note to self, add that to proper Cloneverse fic.

Do iiiiit~

Clonebros getting EarthFirsts??

That. Would. Be. Adorable.

Cup Ramen as a crashcourse to StruggleFoods Cooking is totally their initiation, along with watching terrible StupidComedies and trying to cheat the rigged claw machines.

(Hah. You write Cloneverse, I get off my ass about Blackbox/Rewrite the Stars verse. basically an MnM-onward fixit divergant that kiiiinda morphed into triganes now once it reaches a Set Plotpoint. Triganes are totally your fault, Writer Nonnie. xD)

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And Cup Ramen is indeed heavenly...buuuut Shiro also somehow forgets to add the water, and added an extra zero to the cook time...and...promptly melted his styrofoam cup and set the Garrison Cafeteria on fire. (He snuck out...errrr...helped with evacuations before everyone realized it was him.)

Ryou does slightly better—he at least remembers to add the f-ing water, Taka!—but still sometimes either takes it out too soon or forgets to check the microwave’s power levels (so has crunchy noodles and still dehydrated tooth-cracking peas), or forgets about it entirely until at least an hour later...so it’s this bloated and disintegrating noodles mess with almost no broth left at all, OR he does cook it properly but gets so impatient with wanting to eat it vs letting it rest (and getting lukewarm goulosh)...that he scalds the roof of his mouth and burns his tastebuds off.

Jiro’s probably the only Trigane that gets it right—he got Hunk to teach him how to cook while desperate for some way to contribute while “Shiro” and unable to fly with the BlackLion, and combats the Shirogane Carelessness with an army of cooking timers, including clipping at least one to his belt with a sticky note explaining what the timer’s even for. He’s by no means at Hunk’s or even Lance’s level of cooking, but he’s at least “graduated enough” that Hunk trusts him to do more than work the foodgoo machines or make a cold sandwich. He’s not smug at all about this to Shiro

So...on DnD Nights Jiro proudly presents his bros with the Godly Cups of Ramen. Shiro’s stopped sulking *mostly* because a) ramen, and b) he’s honestly proud of his youngest twin. Ryou’s just glad to be spared goulosh or that Melted Plastic Smell.

[mononoke-phaux]

Skip if dental talk is triggering/ugh for you!

I can't do a read more on mobile baaaahh.

OKAY sorry I've been deadbeat the past few days I was super tired and earlier today had like the most painful dental experience of my life aaaaaaaand my face is fucked up from it, and gonna be fucked up for at least three more days.

Had 6 crowns put in my top jaw right up front (originally planned to be veneers but changed for better results), needed my gums trimmed (which is the part that hurts so badly), needed a surprise root canal to get some shite nerves out of my face AND here's a fun fact about me:

Anesthetic? Not my friend. It wears off me VERY fast which is why I'm absolutely terrified of surgery and dental appointments that go beyond just getting fillings. And when I say fast I mean I counted how many top up jabs I needed throughout my 10 hour visit (you read it right, 10 god forsaken hours) and it came to 14 that I physically felt or was aware of (some spots were still numb and my eyes were closed 99% of the time so unless he told me or I asked I could have gotten some jabs I'm not aware of). My gums were burning up within 10 minutes of the jabs and the roof of my mouth has been on fire since getting home.

I'm hopped up on pain killers right now which is why I can write this and I'm uhh probably gonna be mia for another 2 to 3 days till the pain is gone. My lips have been royally fucked up from the jabs which swelled them up and the tugging which split the corners and the dryness which has left the skin on them actually paper white and dead.

I love my dentist and the only reason I've willingly gone through SO much pain is cuz I absolutely trust him with my teeth. At one point he was explaining why he had to trim my gums and asked the assistant for the quarterizer then looked back down at me and in the most casual voice said

"You'll smell some bacon. It's you." And that cracked me up enough to not be AS freaked out about it. For the record I do noooooot smell like bacon...

But now I have 6 shiny new teeth in the front of my mouth and am able to properly smile again without using my hand to cover my teeth up, which feels real nice. 😄 Unfortunately I still need the next 6 bottom teeth done and then the rest of my mouth completed two at a time. I'm not going back for at least three more weeks cuz if I have to go through that much pain again so soon they'll need to knock me out. Seriously.

See I first had two jabs into my top gums which immediately numbed me (but puffed my top lip up to make me look like Amy Winehouse ripAmyIhopeitdoesn'thurtanymorebaby) and these two worked GREAT the numbness lasted for hours. Buuuut by the time we reached the fitting stage of my crowns...that is when that good numbness began wearing off. I'd had several little top ups to the roof of my mouth to numb my gums there because of the trimming....but those two spots feeling again? Remember that extreme migraine I had a few months back where I thought I might die? This pain was up there too and during it I actually nearly did pass out and had to endure what I could while my eyes poured and my whole body shook. The three assistants who work there ALL came in to hold my hands blessthesewonderfulwoman cuz they all know me by now and damn if that didn't keep me conscious and brave throughout it. Apparently after this ordeal I'm now the toughest patient they've had because I didn't pass out and didn't force stop the procedure.

I'm laying in bed and the pain meds drowsiness has helped me sleep through most of the discomfort (gotta take it every 4 hours) and THANKFULLY I can still eat food it just feels very strange cuz there's a tiny gap between my new teeth and the trimmed gums (which I'm told will grow down to the teeth again in time ).

I'm probably fairly high off these meds and I keep checking my spelling here but even through all the unbelievable pain I went through today I'm eternally grateful to my mom and dentist for fixing my broken smile and helping me to exist in the future withOUT more pain.

That tooth I needed the root canal on, turns out those buggered nerves were what's been causing me so much pain and sensitivity when I eat and drink. Soon as they were out it was like magic cuz they'd affected the entire top jaw for a long time. And suddenly that pain was gone....I did need 6 jabs to do the root canal though cuz the nerves were "hiding" as my dentist said while working through them.

So yeah I'm going to be recovering the next few days and hopefully be able to post some sexy Apprentice comms I been working on soon as I get back~

Oh yes and FLOSS guys it's good for you even if it's kinda tedious and your dentist will greatly appreciate it!!

[fanficshiddles]

I’m still breathing, Chapter 15

Sophie woke up one morning in Loki’s arms, in his bed. She snuggled up against him with a big smile on her face. Her head was resting on his chest and he had his arms around her.

They’d started actually going to sleep in bed instead of in the library or living room. Loki was respectful though and wore a loose t-shirt and boxers to sleep.

The conversation she had with Natasha kept ringing around in her mind. But she wasn’t entirely sure how to bring the subject up with Loki. She didn’t want him to think she would never be intimate with him, but she also wasn’t sure when she would feel comfortable to do so.

‘Shhh.’ One of Loki’s hands suddenly covered her face.

‘I didn’t say anything?’ She leaned back to look at him, he still had his eyes closed but he opened one to peek at her, smirking.

‘I can tell your mind is racing, love.’ He said knowingly.

‘How can you tell?’

‘I’m magic.’ He grinned.

‘Well, there is something I need to speak to you about.’ Sophie said anxiously and rolled onto her back, looking up at the roof instead of at him.

Loki opened both eyes and rolled onto his side, he reached out and gently cupped her cheek and moved her head round to look at him.

‘You can speak to me about anything, Sophie. I’m all ears.’ He smiled and rubbed his thumb over her cheek.

Sophie let out her breath before speaking. Her stomach was in knots. ‘I… I um. I know that now we are in a relationship, that intimacy is something that will be… Expected. I just…’ She paused, not entirely sure what to say and with Loki looking at her so intently, she started to stumble over her words a bit. ‘I’m scared.’ She blurted out quickly.

Then she went to continue, but Loki stopped her by putting a finger to her lips.

‘Don’t worry, poppet. I am not going to suddenly demand sex from you. I am more than happy to wait, or for it to never happen. As long as I can keep holding you and kissing you.’ Loki said softly.

Sophie felt her heart melt. ‘It will happen… I just… I don’t know when.’

‘We just go with the flow. If it happens, it will happen in time. If it doesn’t, it doesn’t.’ Loki shrugged.

‘You’d really not mind if we never ever did it?’ Sophie raised an eyebrow.

‘Nope. I’m a God, I am not driven by my penis like the other guys… Buuuut if you are ever ready, then I will be more than ready to show you the time of your life.’ Loki added in with a smirk and wiggle of his eyebrows, making her laugh.

‘In the meantime, if I ever feel rather rambunctious in that manner because you’re just so beautifully delicious looking, I shall just whack one out in the shower.’

Sophie snorted. ‘You started so eloquently there…’ She laughed.

‘You should know by now, I do have a wonderful way with words.’ Loki winked at her.

‘Indeed.’ She giggled.

‘You are so cute, especially when you giggle like that.’ Loki purred and stroked her cheek with the back of his hand.

She shuffled closer to him and hid her face against his chest, making him chuckle.

‘Serious question though…’ His tone changed and he suddenly sounded very serious all of a sudden, making Sophie slightly concerned.

‘What is it?’ She asked, leaning back again to look at him.

Loki sighed before asking. ‘You are just the most wonderful little thing in the entire Universe… Can I keep you?’ He smiled and gave her the biggest puppy dog eyes she’d ever seen.

‘Oh my god, Loki!’ She laughed and hit his chest playfully, making him laugh as he grabbed her wrist. ‘You’re such an ass!’

‘You love it!’

Sophie shook her head, but with a smile on her face. ‘Yes. I’m in love with the biggest ass here.’

‘You’ve been checking out my ass?’ He asked mischievously.

‘Loki, stop!’ She laughed.

‘I do have a great ass.’

‘Oh Jesus, give me strength.’ Sophie muttered and ran a hand down her face. After cuddling for a while, the two eventually got up and Sophie went to her room to get showered and dressed. When she came out of her en-suite Loki was waiting in her room, lounging on her bed.

‘You never answered my question.’ He sat up and swung his legs round and off the side of the bed, motioning her to him.

Sophie put her hair up in a towel and walked over to him. He wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her into him between his legs.

‘What question?’ Sophie asked, a little confused. She put her arms around his neck.

‘Can I keep you?’ Loki grinned.

‘Only if I can keep you, too?’ Sophie laughed.

‘I am sure that would be fine.’ Loki’s grin grew even larger.

Sophie leaned in and they kissed softly. Loki moved his hands up and down her back in soothing circles, making her feel like she was melting. She felt like a weight was lifted off her shoulders after their talk that morning, at least she knew Loki’s views on the subject now.

‘Close your eyes and try to focus on the energy inside of you.’ Loki told Sophie.

They were in the training hall, Natasha and Clint were holding up a mat between them. Sophie was trying to get her powers to work so she could go through it. But it wasn’t going very well yet.

‘How do you do that? I can’t feel any energy.’ Sophie grumbled, making Loki chuckle.

He walked over and stepped behind her, placing his hands on her shoulders. He leaned in close and whispered into her ear. ‘Relax, close your eyes and clear your mind. Focus on your breathing and reach deep inside of you to find and focus on what you want to do.’

Sophie closed her eyes and tried to do as Loki said, but she struggled to do it. Not even knowing what she should be reaching inside of herself to find. She found herself getting more and more frustrated than anything.

‘It’s useless. I’m never going to get it!’ She sighed, opening her eyes again.

Loki pressed a kiss to the top of her head. ‘You will, in time. Let’s call it a day for now and work on your dagger work instead.’

‘Loki’s right. It will take time, but you’ll get there.’ Clint assured her as he and Natasha put the mat away.

Loki and Sophie were in the midst of fighting with their daggers when the emergency alarm went off. They rushed to the helipad to see what was going on.

‘There’s an attack on New York. We’ve been asked to go.’ Tony said to Loki as all the Avengers suited up.

Loki’s full armour shimmered onto him, including his helmet. He turned to Sophie and cupped her cheek.

‘We won’t be long. Will you be alright?’

‘Of course. Be safe.’ She smiled up at him.

‘I will, love.’ Loki assured her and gave her a quick peck on the lips before getting on the helicarrier with the others.

The team arrived in New York within half an hour, there were explosions coming from various parts of the city. To start with, they couldn’t see what was causing it. Until they got closer and went to land. Large aliens went charging for them. They were giant, with four legs and four arms. Scaly, red and it didn’t look they had any eyes or a nose, just a mouth with a shit load of sharp teeth.

‘Ohhh… This could be challenging.’ Bruce sighed, but he got off the carrier first and instantly turned into Hulk, smashing one of the aliens into the ground.

The rest of them all jumped into action, doing what they did best.

Loki was swift and used his illusions and Seidr to get the job finished. Once he was close enough to one he stabbed them with his dagger, right where he assumed their heart was.

It took around an hour before they had the aliens all killed and the people were saved. Luckily there wasn’t many casualties before they’d arrived. Though the city was going to need quite a clean-up. But Stark called in for SHIELD reinforcements to do the job.

When the team were making their way back to the carrier, they passed a group of people being evacuated from a building. Some of them cheered, but some of them hissed at the hero’s.

‘Get that monster off our planet! He destroyed our home!’ One person shouted directly at Loki.

Loki shot the man a glare, but he kept walking as his nostrils flared. But while on the outside, he just seemed pissed, on the inside he felt hurt. He’d just helped save them from aliens and that’s how he was thanked?

‘Don’t sweat it, Loki. I get the same with Hulk.’ Bruce said and gave him a friendly pat on the back.

‘It’s fine.’ Loki said, his tone clipped.

On the journey back to base Loki was quiet and just glaring at one spot on the floor like it had offended him. Everyone knew he was effected by the person’s comment, but they also knew when he was in one of his moods it was best to leave him alone. Unless they wanted threatened or quite possibly stabbed.

When they returned home, Loki stormed off straight to his room. While the rest of the team went into the living room to see Sophie and Pepper there, Sophie looked scared as to where Loki was.

‘It’s alright.’ Natasha said quickly, noticing the panic on her face. She then filled her in with what happened and Sophie felt her heart break for Loki.

Sophie went along to Loki’s room and knocked on the door. ‘Loki? It’s me.’ She called through, but there was no response.

She tried the handle but it was locked.

‘Ugh. Come on, powers. This would be about the right time to work.’ She muttered to herself and put her hands to the door. She closed her eyes and tried to focus. But nothing happened.

‘God sake!’ She hissed.

It felt a bit like déjà vu. She slid down the door and leaned against it with a sigh. She would just wait there until Loki was ready to let her in.

But she hadn’t been sat there for long when she suddenly fell backwards straight through his door. Although not quite as smoothly this time, as she realised she was stuck half in his room and half through the door.

‘Shit! LOKI!’ She screamed, panicked.

Loki came rushing out of his en-suite to see his girlfriend’s top half of her body in his room while the bottom half of her was stuck outside.

His lips curled up in amusement as he folded his arms over his chest and leaned against the wall next to him. ‘Sophie, darling. You do realise you are supposed to move your whole body through and not just half?’

‘Loki, for fuck sake! This isn’t funny. I didn’t do it on purpose!’ Sophie snapped as she struggled to try and get free but she was literally stuck, somehow, in the door.

‘Alright, calm down. I’ll get you free.’ Loki knelt down beside her. ‘Somehow…’ He smoothed his hand through her hair, in an attempt to calm her down while he assessed the situation. The door was right through her abdomen.

‘Are you in pain?’ He asked.

Sophie’s breathing was getting pretty rapid, but Loki being there did ease her a little.

‘No… It just feels odd.’

‘Alright. Your cells must be merging with the door. So I don’t want to just smash the door as you may still have that lower part of the door stuck in you… Or merged with you.’ Loki frowned and ran his fingers along her abdomen where the door was attached.

‘Not the time to be feeling me up, Loki.’ She grumbled.

‘Shhh.’ Loki smirked and kept petting her hair.

‘This might feel a little funny, but I think I can get you out.’ Loki warned her, then before she could ask what he was going to do, green energy came from his fingertips and onto her abdomen.

She let out a squeal from the feeling, it felt ticklish and strange, like not only her skin was vibrating but her bones and everything else in her abdomen. Loki then used his Seidr to physically pull her along the floor and fully into his room.

Sophie sat up quickly and looked down at her body, relieved to see she was all in one piece and the door was still intact.

‘Holy shit.’ She gasped, feeling relieved as the adrenaline started to calm down. But she was shaking.

Loki scooped her up and carried her to his bed. He sat her down and used his Seidr to summon a glass of water, making her drink it. Then he sat down on the edge of the bed next to her.

‘It’s alright. You’re safe and all in one piece.’ He said softly, yet with a very small hint of amusement there in his voice.

‘Thank you… Are you ok?’ Sophie asked, looking into his eyes.

Loki glanced down and started fiddling with her fingers as her hand was resting on the bed between them. ‘I’m fine. Just mortals not being very grateful after I saved their lives.’ He growled.

‘Natasha told me what that asshole said…’

‘Well, he’s right. I am a monster. I should expect it, it’s not like they will all bow to me like a hero. Unlike the others.’ He said bitterly.

‘They are not all innocent either. They have baggage too. And you are a hero, you are no monster. We’ve been through this. But look, I have more proof.’ Sophie slid off his bed and went to the laptop that was in his room. Everyone had a laptop.

She booted it up and went onto a website called Tumblr. Loki, intrigued as to what she was doing, went over and watched from over her shoulder. His eyebrows raised up when she typed his name into the search bar.

‘Look! There’s hundreds of people on here who worship you!’ She scrolled through and there was hundreds of posts all claiming to be fans, even blogs entirely for him.

Loki was in shock. Drawings, writings, ramblings, pictures that paparazzi had taken. He couldn’t believe it.

‘You even have an army.’ Sophie said with a grin as she went onto that tag and showed him how they were all claiming to be on his side.

‘Wow.’ Was all Loki managed to say. His heart feeling back together again and his mood definitely lifted.

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I'm still breathing, Chapter 15

TITLE: I’m still breathing CHAPTER NO./ONE SHOT: Chapter 15 AUTHOR: fanficshiddles ORIGINAL IMAGINE: Imagine a mutant has been living on the streets for years, until she is picked up by the Avengers. She’s taken to live with them so they can help her to discover what her powers are. Loki especially, takes an interest in her. The two become very fond of one another as they discover what her power is. RATING: M 

Sophie woke up one morning in Loki’s arms, in his bed. She snuggled up against him with a big smile on her face. Her head was resting on his chest and he had his arms around her.

They’d started actually going to sleep in bed instead of in the library or living room. Loki was respectful though and wore a loose t-shirt and boxers to sleep.

The conversation she had with Natasha kept ringing around in her mind. But she wasn’t entirely sure how to bring the subject up with Loki. She didn’t want him to think she would never be intimate with him, but she also wasn’t sure when she would feel comfortable to do so.

‘Shhh.’ One of Loki’s hands suddenly covered her face.

‘I didn’t say anything?’ She leaned back to look at him, he still had his eyes closed but he opened one to peek at her, smirking.

‘I can tell your mind is racing, love.’ He said knowingly.

‘How can you tell?’

‘I’m magic.’ He grinned.

‘Well, there is something I need to speak to you about.’ Sophie said anxiously and rolled onto her back, looking up at the roof instead of at him.

Loki opened both eyes and rolled onto his side, he reached out and gently cupped her cheek and moved her head round to look at him.

‘You can speak to me about anything, Sophie. I’m all ears.’ He smiled and rubbed his thumb over her cheek.

Sophie let out her breath before speaking. Her stomach was in knots. ‘I… I um. I know that now we are in a relationship, that intimacy is something that will be… Expected. I just…’ She paused, not entirely sure what to say and with Loki looking at her so intently, she started to stumble over her words a bit. ‘I’m scared.’ She blurted out quickly.

Then she went to continue, but Loki stopped her by putting a finger to her lips.

‘Don’t worry, poppet. I am not going to suddenly demand sex from you. I am more than happy to wait, or for it to never happen. As long as I can keep holding you and kissing you.’ Loki said softly.

Sophie felt her heart melt. ‘It will happen… I just… I don’t know when.’

‘We just go with the flow. If it happens, it will happen in time. If it doesn’t, it doesn’t.’ Loki shrugged.

‘You’d really not mind if we never ever did it?’ Sophie raised an eyebrow.

‘Nope. I’m a God, I am not driven by my penis like the other guys… Buuuut if you are ever ready, then I will be more than ready to show you the time of your life.’ Loki added in with a smirk and wiggle of his eyebrows, making her laugh.

‘In the meantime, if I ever feel rather rambunctious in that manner because you’re just so beautifully delicious looking, I shall just whack one out in the shower.’

Sophie snorted. ‘You started so eloquently there…’ She laughed.

‘You should know by now, I do have a wonderful way with words.’ Loki winked at her.

‘Indeed.’ She giggled.

‘You are so cute, especially when you giggle like that.’ Loki purred and stroked her cheek with the back of his hand.

She shuffled closer to him and hid her face against his chest, making him chuckle.

‘Serious question though…’ His tone changed and he suddenly sounded very serious all of a sudden, making Sophie slightly concerned.

‘What is it?’ She asked, leaning back again to look at him.

Loki sighed before asking. ‘You are just the most wonderful little thing in the entire Universe… Can I keep you?’ He smiled and gave her the biggest puppy dog eyes she’d ever seen.

‘Oh my god, Loki!’ She laughed and hit his chest playfully, making him laugh as he grabbed her wrist. ‘You’re such an ass!’

‘You love it!’

Sophie shook her head, but with a smile on her face. ‘Yes. I’m in love with the biggest ass here.’

‘You’ve been checking out my ass?’ He asked mischievously.

‘Loki, stop!’ She laughed.

‘I do have a great ass.’

‘Oh Jesus, give me strength.’ Sophie muttered and ran a hand down her face. After cuddling for a while, the two eventually got up and Sophie went to her room to get showered and dressed. When she came out of her en-suite Loki was waiting in her room, lounging on her bed.

‘You never answered my question.’ He sat up and swung his legs round and off the side of the bed, motioning her to him.

Sophie put her hair up in a towel and walked over to him. He wrapped his arms around her waist and pulled her into him between his legs.

‘What question?’ Sophie asked, a little confused. She put her arms around his neck.

‘Can I keep you?’ Loki grinned.

‘Only if I can keep you, too?’ Sophie laughed.

‘I am sure that would be fine.’ Loki’s grin grew even larger.

Sophie leaned in and they kissed softly. Loki moved his hands up and down her back in soothing circles, making her feel like she was melting. She felt like a weight was lifted off her shoulders after their talk that morning, at least she knew Loki’s views on the subject now.

‘Close your eyes and try to focus on the energy inside of you.’ Loki told Sophie.

They were in the training hall, Natasha and Clint were holding up a mat between them. Sophie was trying to get her powers to work so she could go through it. But it wasn’t going very well yet.

‘How do you do that? I can’t feel any energy.’ Sophie grumbled, making Loki chuckle.

He walked over and stepped behind her, placing his hands on her shoulders. He leaned in close and whispered into her ear. ‘Relax, close your eyes and clear your mind. Focus on your breathing and reach deep inside of you to find and focus on what you want to do.’

Sophie closed her eyes and tried to do as Loki said, but she struggled to do it. Not even knowing what she should be reaching inside of herself to find. She found herself getting more and more frustrated than anything.

‘It’s useless. I’m never going to get it!’ She sighed, opening her eyes again.

Loki pressed a kiss to the top of her head. ‘You will, in time. Let’s call it a day for now and work on your dagger work instead.’

‘Loki’s right. It will take time, but you’ll get there.’ Clint assured her as he and Natasha put the mat away.

Loki and Sophie were in the midst of fighting with their daggers when the emergency alarm went off. They rushed to the helipad to see what was going on.

‘There’s an attack on New York. We’ve been asked to go.’ Tony said to Loki as all the Avengers suited up.

Loki’s full armour shimmered onto him, including his helmet. He turned to Sophie and cupped her cheek.

‘We won’t be long. Will you be alright?’

‘Of course. Be safe.’ She smiled up at him.

‘I will, love.’ Loki assured her and gave her a quick peck on the lips before getting on the helicarrier with the others.

The team arrived in New York within half an hour, there were explosions coming from various parts of the city. To start with, they couldn’t see what was causing it. Until they got closer and went to land. Large aliens went charging for them. They were giant, with four legs and four arms. Scaly, red and it didn’t look they had any eyes or a nose, just a mouth with a shit load of sharp teeth.

‘Ohhh… This could be challenging.’ Bruce sighed, but he got off the carrier first and instantly turned into Hulk, smashing one of the aliens into the ground.

The rest of them all jumped into action, doing what they did best.

Loki was swift and used his illusions and Seidr to get the job finished. Once he was close enough to one he stabbed them with his dagger, right where he assumed their heart was.

It took around an hour before they had the aliens all killed and the people were saved. Luckily there wasn’t many casualties before they’d arrived. Though the city was going to need quite a clean-up. But Stark called in for SHIELD reinforcements to do the job.

When the team were making their way back to the carrier, they passed a group of people being evacuated from a building. Some of them cheered, but some of them hissed at the hero’s.

‘Get that monster off our planet! He destroyed our home!’ One person shouted directly at Loki.

Loki shot the man a glare, but he kept walking as his nostrils flared. But while on the outside, he just seemed pissed, on the inside he felt hurt. He’d just helped save them from aliens and that’s how he was thanked?

‘Don’t sweat it, Loki. I get the same with Hulk.’ Bruce said and gave him a friendly pat on the back.

‘It’s fine.’ Loki said, his tone clipped.

On the journey back to base Loki was quiet and just glaring at one spot on the floor like it had offended him. Everyone knew he was effected by the person’s comment, but they also knew when he was in one of his moods it was best to leave him alone. Unless they wanted threatened or quite possibly stabbed.

When they returned home, Loki stormed off straight to his room. While the rest of the team went into the living room to see Sophie and Pepper there, Sophie looked scared as to where Loki was.

‘It’s alright.’ Natasha said quickly, noticing the panic on her face. She then filled her in with what happened and Sophie felt her heart break for Loki.

Sophie went along to Loki’s room and knocked on the door. ‘Loki? It’s me.’ She called through, but there was no response.

She tried the handle but it was locked.

‘Ugh. Come on, powers. This would be about the right time to work.’ She muttered to herself and put her hands to the door. She closed her eyes and tried to focus. But nothing happened.

‘God sake!’ She hissed.

It felt a bit like déjà vu. She slid down the door and leaned against it with a sigh. She would just wait there until Loki was ready to let her in.

But she hadn’t been sat there for long when she suddenly fell backwards straight through his door. Although not quite as smoothly this time, as she realised she was stuck half in his room and half through the door.

‘Shit! LOKI!’ She screamed, panicked.

Loki came rushing out of his en-suite to see his girlfriend’s top half of her body in his room while the bottom half of her was stuck outside.

His lips curled up in amusement as he folded his arms over his chest and leaned against the wall next to him. ‘Sophie, darling. You do realise you are supposed to move your whole body through and not just half?’

‘Loki, for fuck sake! This isn’t funny. I didn’t do it on purpose!’ Sophie snapped as she struggled to try and get free but she was literally stuck, somehow, in the door.

‘Alright, calm down. I’ll get you free.’ Loki knelt down beside her. ‘Somehow…’ He smoothed his hand through her hair, in an attempt to calm her down while he assessed the situation. The door was right through her abdomen.

‘Are you in pain?’ He asked.

Sophie’s breathing was getting pretty rapid, but Loki being there did ease her a little.

‘No… It just feels odd.’

‘Alright. Your cells must be merging with the door. So I don’t want to just smash the door as you may still have that lower part of the door stuck in you… Or merged with you.’ Loki frowned and ran his fingers along her abdomen where the door was attached.

‘Not the time to be feeling me up, Loki.’ She grumbled.

‘Shhh.’ Loki smirked and kept petting her hair.

‘This might feel a little funny, but I think I can get you out.’ Loki warned her, then before she could ask what he was going to do, green energy came from his fingertips and onto her abdomen.

She let out a squeal from the feeling, it felt ticklish and strange, like not only her skin was vibrating but her bones and everything else in her abdomen. Loki then used his Seidr to physically pull her along the floor and fully into his room.

Sophie sat up quickly and looked down at her body, relieved to see she was all in one piece and the door was still intact.

‘Holy shit.’ She gasped, feeling relieved as the adrenaline started to calm down. But she was shaking.

Loki scooped her up and carried her to his bed. He sat her down and used his Seidr to summon a glass of water, making her drink it. Then he sat down on the edge of the bed next to her.

‘It’s alright. You’re safe and all in one piece.’ He said softly, yet with a very small hint of amusement there in his voice.

‘Thank you… Are you ok?’ Sophie asked, looking into his eyes.

Loki glanced down and started fiddling with her fingers as her hand was resting on the bed between them. ‘I’m fine. Just mortals not being very grateful after I saved their lives.’ He growled.

‘Natasha told me what that asshole said…’

‘Well, he’s right. I am a monster. I should expect it, it’s not like they will all bow to me like a hero. Unlike the others.’ He said bitterly.

‘They are not all innocent either. They have baggage too. And you are a hero, you are no monster. We’ve been through this. But look, I have more proof.’ Sophie slid off his bed and went to the laptop that was in his room. Everyone had a laptop.

She booted it up and went onto a website called Tumblr. Loki, intrigued as to what she was doing, went over and watched from over her shoulder. His eyebrows raised up when she typed his name into the search bar.

‘Look! There’s hundreds of people on here who worship you!’ She scrolled through and there was hundreds of posts all claiming to be fans, even blogs entirely for him.

Loki was in shock. Drawings, writings, ramblings, pictures that paparazzi had taken. He couldn’t believe it.

‘You even have an army.’ Sophie said with a grin as she went onto that tag and showed him how they were all claiming to be on his side.

‘Wow.’ Was all Loki managed to say. His heart feeling back together again and his mood definitely lifted.