#sad thoughts

[wordx]

[phantomcaffeine]

No fire burned within.

Only smoke curled from her lips—ashen kisses marking her lover with bitter scars.

Margaret Atwood, The Blind Assassin

[lovewarmsoftdeers]

it’s so painful to watch yourself grow cold, bitter, and resentful, even toward small, irrelevant things, when all you’ve ever wanted was just to be warm, gentle, kind, and loving.

[haelunara]

You abandoned me way before I left you.

[acollectionofbrokenthings]

“You deserve better” is an interesting way of saying I’m not worth getting better for

[silent-insanities]

Even in my sleep, I can't escape you.

[mellblogss]

I need to stop giving a fuck for people who don't even think of me.

[m3ntally-unw3ll]

'Those scars will last forever.' they tell me.

'No,' I reply, 'they will last as long as I do.'

[forestvnts]

overestimating how much you mean to someone really fucks you in the head

[someonesrealityshifting]

Small thing that breaks my heart:

When I was in third grade, I told this boy that it would be my birthday in four days, and he said, “okay, then I’ll buy you flowers.” Four days later he comes up to me and says, “my mom wouldn’t let me get flowers but I found you this violet in the grass.” That in and of itself was iconic and so so sweet, but it gets better.

A month later, I had to move, and because it was third grade, the teacher made everyone write me letters to say goodbye. His said, “I hope you have so much fun in your new house that you forget about me. I hope that you’re always happy and you never miss us. I’m sorry I never gave you flowers, but I can give you some now.” And he fucking. Drew me flowers.

No, Joey, I never forgot you. You are the reason I have standards in this life, and I’m so grateful to have known you. I hope you’re happy, wherever you are, and I hope that the rest of your days are filled with as much joy as you gave to me. I spilled water on the card about five years ago, and half of it is a a jumbled mess now, but I still have it. It’s the only card I still have.

The funny thing is this dude and I hardly ever interacted. I knew he played football because he was on the town’s kids’ team and my brother was on the middle school team, and I knew he was one of, like, three Joeys in our year. I had a crush on him but obviously never communicated that because it was fucking third grade, but somehow those three interactions imprinted on who I am as a person. I am forever changed by Joey from third grade.

[eternallychaoticc]

There's nothing I wouldn't do for you

And yet it's not enough

Because I was never the one for you

Even though you were the one for me

[rueugene]

May 2024

[lostandunlovedd]

Heal, so when someone tries to love you, you can let them in. Heal, so you’re ready to accept love without fear or doubt. Heal, so you can trust again and let yourself be loved fully.

[silent-insanities]

I want my life to be nothing but you.

[darkpoeticsoul]

Sometimes you need to sleep, sleep a lot. Not to escape, but to rest your soul from your feelings. Because everything, absolutely everything devours you. Completely. —Brain