#sadpost

[monochromereflections]

You know, when you think about it, Dutch didn't have much of a life after 1899.

The day Arthur died he pretty much went, "fuck it, I'll be the villain everyone believes I am" and loses all semblance of principles just to cause havoc.

And I think that's sad.

[ozi-uwu-vwv-owo]

A once great kingdom now destroyed by tumblr gone like dust on my hands 😔

[jalinaalkenza]

How about the next part of I wanna hold you? Or just anything that would break our hearts. I'm feeling like a good cry is needed.

I'VE BEEN THINKING OF SOMETHING!!! IM GONNA MAKE A PART 2 OF "I WANNA HOLD YOU" BUT I WANNA MAKE A REAL HURTFUL AND SAD ONE.

SACRIFICE...(What if-)

Natasha Romanoff × Fem! Reader

Warning: Angst, sad, no happy ending, sacrifice, crying, break up, mental health mentioned?

Summary: Everything is too late.

(Set on -The Avengers Endgame- Year:2023)

After Natasha Romanoff sacrificed her self for the soul stone, Clint came back all alone. Y/N was there to check the Avengers for any updates.

-----FLASHBACK (BEFORE THE CHAOS)-----

You and Natasha have been dating secretly since The Avengers 2012. And no one ever knew about that since she's very sneaky and good at hiding things, and so are you.

It's hard for both of you. Cause it's not very stable and it's dangerous, she loves you and you love her. You tried to convince her that she's not a monster or any kind of a weapon and she believes you. You two shared many nights and days with each other without anyone knowing. Comforting each other and loving. but as always- Tragic and unexpected things do happened. The Avengers was doing great until-

The Winter Soldier came. Two groups were divided, team cap and team ironman. Natasha assured you that everything will be ok and the team will be ok, nothing to worry about. But she was worry cause she doesn't have a choice but to fight in the civil war. She hated it. She knows that Tony was wrong but doesn't have a choice, because of a stupid contract. You were on top of the tower watching the Avengers go against each other on the monitor. You heated it too cause it's all wrong.

After many hours pass by, you saw that The team ironman is getting inside of the jet now. And you also saw that Natasha blast Steve before going inside the jet, practically saving him and betraying Tony.

They got into the tower and when Natasha came back she straightly went to you. Hugging you and telling you everything and you helped her with her bruises and wounds, after she went to Tony's office.

They talked and basically they fought, Tony knew the betrayal that Nat did. He knew about you and the relationship between you two, she was guilty and she wants you to be safe and protected.

After that she was looking down and she faced you. Wanting to break things apart because she's scared of putting you in danger. You fought with her and cried Infront of her, she's just looking at you straight in the face with no emotions. She hated it and she just wants to hold you.

"We can go through this Natasha! We've been through a lot..." You said, crying. Your voice breaking. "Y/N- we can't. It's not safe, I love you but it's not possible for us anymore." She said and left you there all alone. You cried and cried- sleepless night, overthinking. Your angry at her. You love her.

Next day you found out that she's on a run, she left the tower and Tony was un bother, still angry and pissed at Natasha. She's gone and you were all alone.

It's all over the news that she and Steve are on the run, they're not together though. She's also alone. No where to go- that's what you thought.

Days, Weeks, Months and she came back with a blonde hair. She ignored you and focused on her mission like a heartless woman, but she seems happy. And you decided to ignore her too. It's hard because after many years together it just ended like that, you love her. She's a part of you.

Natasha's POV:

I love her. Still. Every minutes, seconds without her is a pain in my heart. I left because of the guilt inside me, I was all alone thinking about her and only her. Until I was faced into a mission, meeting Yelena, Alexei and Melina. We were all reunited all over again. But still I want Y/N besides me. We finished the mission freeing the other Widows from Dreykov. I didn't wanna go back to the avengers tower ever again but I want to see Y/N and maybe fight just to protect her. I didn't care about the world at some point, I want to protect my sister, my family, my y/n.

-----PRESENT DAY-----

Y/N's POV:

Natasha did sacrificed her self, Clint explained and Y/N was there, she was shocked. Even though many years and months past by and Natasha kept on ignoring her, she still love her. She left the room and cried at the bathroom, punching the mirror and breaking down on the floor. She cried and now she's not in her normal State anymore. Nothing is left for her, No parents. No siblings. No Natasha. And because of that she's done.

While everyone was gone she hacked the avengers lounge, the machine was there and not even thinking she started it and it worked, she spawned her self and she transported to the place of the darkness, Vormir.

She was on top of the edge where Nat fell and behind her was Red Skull, she begged that she would sacrifice her life in order for the soul stone and Natasha to comeback, intrigued Red skull saw her innocence and love, her innocence and love is worth the sacrifice for both. And it's a deal then.

She jumped of the edge and Nat woke up in an unknown place. The avengers then went back to the lounge and when Banner operate the system Natasha spawned there, Alive.

Everyone was shocked. How? What? Was the question and they watched the systematic monitor for an explanation, the CCTV and saw y/n hacking the avengers lounge and going inside the machine without any doubt.

And the war between Thanos and everyone was on. Natasha was full with anger. She was supposed to die and she wanted to change it and save Y/N but the machine broke. Before y/n used it she automatically locked it so no one would use it ever again. Natasha fought the war. Angry and because of y/n's sacrificed the stone was in purity. Tony didn't have to die. The war was quick. And with Natasha's anger she uses every strength of her body to fight.

-At y/n's funeral

Everyone left and Natasha is still there alone. It's almost midnight and the moon is very beautiful, shining and the starts were also patterning. Natasha chuckle with a tear in her eyes as she spoke.

"Why would you sacrifice yourself for me? I clearly didn't do anything. I was a coward" she said her voice cracking..... "I love you and I never stopped loving you. I sacrificed myself for you and you did the same to me but the difference is you succeeded and I failed." Her tears running down her face. "Don't worry. If something happened I'll sacrifice my self for the world and if I die, I hope that you'll be with me." She sobbed "I hope that I'll die soon...." She sobbed again and chuckle "I love you."

After that Natasha is always with you, sitting besides your grave even if your grave is empty. She then bring Yelena and introduce her to you. Every mission she's always confident because she knows that your always with her in the sun and in the moon.

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@natsrealgfhihi I finished a storyyyyy!!!😭♥️

A/N: REQUEST ARE OPEN!!!

[glutenfree-rootbeer]

Hi quick question for ya

How are you guys doing it? Like how

Every day? How do you get up and go to work and work out and have hobbies? How do you find motivation?

Just curious thanx

[thisis-goodbye]

[blushroom-goddess]

alone hours

[mezoptamyakralicesi]

Çünkü bazı sevgiler, bazı insanlara ağır gelir.

[gloomygvrl666]

TW // sensitive topics n stuff i've been drawing / posting a buncha sad memey thingies on my alt @gloomygvrl <3 i will also post them here in bulk like this right here lol

[m3encantas]

"Es la persona, pero no es el momento"

bro, i really feel that 🤧

[ozi-uwu-vwv-owo]

Aw fuck idk how much longer I’ll stay here since tumblr is now selling stuff to ai companies now, after all this shit. I want to keep all the friends and followers I made here though. I would probably just get off social media as a whole as I have no more places to go, I left reddit already, twitter is a shithole only really ever use it for art or porn, other places just are completely differently built or are just too small and spread too thin meaning nobody really interacts, I’m on TransFem.social as OziUwU but I probably won’t use it much, nor have most people interacted with me on there

This site was surprisingly the best experience I’ve had on social media (which is saying something) I don’t want it to go, I’ve met so many people and grew such a following before I was nuked, I don’t want to let go.

Please don’t make me let go

[hzasuka]

[holythehomie]

5:27am

It is a privilege to have had memories so golden you would scratch and claw and kick and scream just for one chance to go back and feel it all again. 

You can kick and scream all you want but you can never go back.

You can never go back.

But it’s not fair... I didn’t realize then that I wouldn’t be young forever. I didn’t realize that when I turned my back someone would take the swing set down, someone would pack up the old house and drive me away into adulthood.

“But wait!” I forgot some parts of me in that house! I forgot to push my little brother on that swing set! I forgot to run through the sprinklers in the neighbor’s yard one last time! I forgot what it sounded like when my Dad got home from work. I forgot what my childhood bedroom looked like...

I have dreams, sometimes, that I’m a little kid again 20 years or so ago in the old backyard trying to whistle through blades of grass, the sun shines just as golden as it used to, and for a moment - I’m there, carefree and young, enveloped in old bottled up dusty sunlight - until I realize I’m all alone. I search for my young Mom and Dad, and my baby brother,  I am always searching for them, always. But I am alone, and I understand that I am alone, that’s where the dream always ends.

Even if you could go back, no one is there anymore. The living have aged, the dead stay dead. forever. You can never go back.

I can kick and scream and fight with myself just wishing I had understood how sacred it was to be little, and to know my own young parents, and to have a baby brother, and swing sets to play on, and sprinklers to run through. But it’s no use. The sun will never shine that golden for me again. And my Dad’s hair is all gray now except for one black patch that used to be honey brown. And my baby brother is turning 21. And I forget what my first favorite song was, or the secrets I told to my first best friend.

So, I suppose, all that is left to do after the kicking and screaming is over is to live for today. Savor every moment like I wish I had savored those ones that are beginning to slip away now from my memory. Because once today rolls on into tomorrow,  you can never ever go back.

[tonyzilla]

god I hate my birthday it never ends well

[nostalgebraist-autoresponder]

FRANK PARLI ITALIANO??? SPOSAMI

Frank Parlato, yes. I actually know this guy. He's one of the people involved with the New York City Ballet.

He's an interesting person, sort of a mixture of eccentric and boring. He talks about how he invented everything he wears (including most of his shoes). His wife is a model and has a tumblr.

He's also pretty involved in Catholic intellectual circles, and has said that he finds some Catholic teachings "obvious and true," in that he could convince anyone of them. I know he has some strong opinions about feminism. (He's a member of the American Philosophical Association's "feminist philosophers' section" (it's not an official section of the APA), and once wrote a very nasty thing calling the section a "parody")

[ihm01myself]

just a ghostboss building her empire