#sap rambles

[saiph0]

Struggling to decide whether to transcribe [x] and [χ] as “gh” instead of “x” now… I’ve been looking at Irish words recently and “gh” (although not /x/ in Irish) has been real nice looking

[doodlenovaa]

me trying to figure the fuck out how to come out Non-binary to my Step-father and Mother: Yep, never mind, into the closet

Me to my Father and Step-mother: *Shows them stupid yet funny non-binary meme* Oh yea this is me

Oh and my preferred pronouns are He/him/They/them 👍

[paranymf]

Sometimes my hyperfocus is just hilarious to the bone. For real, i don't know if its karma for knowing that I like a thing but won't try it out because it isn't the "right time".

Guess what: I had a bad week and I have probably seen every Critical Role "funny video" 5 times, so I needed something new. You're never gonna guess it, because it's so far stretched from CR, this is also hilarious on itself.

I'll give you a hint:

Yes. I was a little bit ashamed at first but now I'm laughing at my own irony.

This k-pop band that has been a big international thing for well over 6 years, has been my hyperfocus for the past few days. I can't even with Jin's dadjokes, look for RM's tired face when the rest is ruining an interview, will keyboardsmash every time Suga genuinely smiles , I'd die for J-hope's moves, love Jimin's whole aesthetic, discovered that my bias is V and feel Jungkook on another level as both the youngest and most chaotic from our families.

BUT HERE IS THE IRONY OKAY. This band, these legends with amazing choreos, lyrics and messages, announced

A WEEK AGO

that they're not doing group projects for a while and will focus on individual projects for the upcoming time.

A WEEK AGO

A WEEK AGO

Again, like I said, it's karma for me knowing that I will like something but thinking "I don't think now is the right time".

Don't come at me with stuff, because I don't know if this hyperfocus is here to stay.

[fanstuffrantings]

Fhjy episode 13 spoilers:

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I'm sure this theory has been spouted, but now that we are aware that Ankarna is the sister of Ruvina what are the chances that in all her hopes of helping others and relieving pain, sticking together, Lucy opened herself up to the rage Ankarna had. That she was alone in her pursuits to help and either the rat grinders helped find a way to put her down or arrived far too late to help and simply covered it up to hide what had happened.

Maybe they planned to release Ankarna and were made aware of just how bad things could get but chose to forget and ignore it in the hopes that they could move on from the guilt over what happened to Lucy and the knowledge that their plan would fail horribly and could claim their lives as well.

Maybe it wasn't malicious actions the rat grinders wanted to forget, but instead the agony of losing someone they actually did care about. And this led to the apathy/group divide we see between them. Imagine if the rat grinders did care deeply at one point about each other, but Lucy took that with her when she died.

[tomodachikun]

Thinking about whipped!Cyno who makes sure you understand his jokes, just to get a giggle out of you.

whipped!Cyno who hangs his head low when you get close, trying to hide his flushed cheeks, though he’s sure it’s harder to spot because of his dark skin. People around him think he’s angry because of his odd aura and instantly back away, of course, you spot that he’s flustered immediately and give him a soft kiss on the cheek.

whipped!Cyno who catches an attitude when you talk to the scribe, Alhaitham, about business affairs. He knows he’s being petty, he knows he shouldn’t get jealous but he can’t help it. His mood instantly gets better when you drag him in some hidden place in the Akademiya and fuck the jealousy right out of him. He walking back to his office with wobbly legs and everyone’s wondering if he fought somebody that day (Alhaitham teases him about it and he swears he blew a fuse.)

whipped!Cyno who cooks you breakfast in the morning every day and asks for a goodbye kiss (or he’s moody for the rest of the day) before leaving to defend justice as sumeru’s Mahamatra.

whipped!Cyno who loves it when you draw things on his chest as he sighs happily and murmurs about his day to you all while laying in bed with him. Please run you hands through his hair too, he’s stressed.

“What’d you do today?” You softly whisper, watching him cling to your side as you ghost your fingers down his toned, scarred chest. He hums, eyelids fluttering closed. You know he heard you, you don’t rush a response out of him either, sitting in comfortable silence till he’s ready.

“There was a bandit camp not to far in the desert—" he stops talking for a moment, moving to rest his head in your shoulder. His head of white fluffy hair sprawls out unevenly, your couldn’t resist combing through it. He sighs in content and the warm breath tickles your neck.

“—I followed them and they led me to the goods that got stolen a few days ago. I got careless, one came from behind me and nicked me with his blades. Nothing too serious.” So that’s where his bandaged side came from. You’re slightly surprised at how they even laid a hand on him, to begin with. But you aren’t worried, Cyno will heal in no time.

“Something distract you today?” You push his bangs away from his eyes, placing chaste kisses on his tense forehead, un-furrowing his eyebrows and setting his wrinkles at ease. He’s silent again, you almost thought he fell asleep from the way his breathing slows down and his face relaxes. You stop caressing his chest; his smaller thin fingers grasp your wrist and places his back on his toned stomach

“You, always.“ His sleepy voice sounds deep and raspy, and his tone is full of love. His eyes stay closed but you know you didn’t need to look at him to confirm anything. You smile fondly and just lay with him, basking in each other’s company.

[ragewrites]

last poems of 2023, both holiday gifts meant for the same friend.

[mayashesfly]

An important thing about Vox in Forgotten Radio AU is that Vox has agency.

He chose to forget Alastor. And chose to ensure he'll stay forgetten and never get close to him again by erasing any of his short-term memories about Alastor.

In an ironic twist of most Amnesia Scenarios, the one with Amnesia is the one who's in control. Whilst Alastor has no control over Vox even in this state as he can never make an impact on him that'll stick with enough time because he doesn't have time.

It's impossible for Alastor to become anything more than a fleeting thought to be forgotten the next day for Vox.

And it's frustrating that he can't do anything to control this. To fix this. To mend this.

It was like being stuck in a deadend with no possible way to escape.

However, Vox does slowly slip.

Ever so slowly, he starts to remember more about Alastor beyond the context clues he can collect about Alastor before he eventually forgets him yet again.

The fact that he was a part of the hotel.

The fact that he was the Radio Demon.

The fact that—

Well.... That part eludes him.

But it's certainly strange that Vox started to seem like he was remembering him bit by bit.

Alastor tried not to hope much.

But how he dearly missed the old Vox.

How he dearly missed not feeling this strange ache in his chest whenever he sees Vox forget him yet again instead of feeling the exhilaration his attention gives him.

He could only wish that he can take that back.

[partypanic]

I LOVE giving self-aware ai trauma SOOOO much heart emoji

[smalltendencies]

So when we talk about vore, we usually talk about how much trust there is on the preys side to trust a pred to swallow them. And fair! That's a lot of trust. Your whole body in a place meant to destroy and all.

But I like thinking about how much trust there is for the preds side.

We have skin and bones protecting our organs because we are so fragile internally. The pred is letting someone in there, where all they have to do is bite and tear and stab and it would be over. If stomach acid leaked out, internal bleeding, poison, trauma. There are so many ways the prey could kill this person.

But the mutual trust 😭

That is all.

[crystal-mouse]

Sometimes the power of friendship is actually a never ending circle of incomprehensible, interconnected star trek memes and tag chain conversations longer than the post they started on

[saiph0]

Gȳlaigh… hotuva iš ko k’inɔqȳ,, melatōninȳ iš heka bharaig 😩

(Goodnight… I cant sleep,, i really need melatonin 😩)

[doodlenovaa]

my fking dummy self keeps unfollowing someone and I keep refollowinf them :sobbing:

[pookapufferfish]

Gonna share something positive because I feel like being happy.

I am really glad to be in this community. It has been a lot of fun and I am glad people like my stuff. I am happy to be able to interact with a lot of people I sort of look up to.

I was called a staple of the community a while back and I am still kinda amazed by that because I am just drawing silly stuff catering to me.

I feel really really happy when people interact and joke around with me. I am really grateful for all of this attention. Everyone has been really nice to me.

I got into rain world because of an irl friend. They actually bought me the game so we could play arena and jolly co op. I joined the community at a weird point, it was like a week before downpours release was announced when I joined and I saw as downpour came out and the community exploded. I am happy the community is bigger, it was hard to find anything before.

I am really grateful for all the friends I have made in this community. I am still not sure who exactly is a friend because I get nervous talking to people, but if you see me as a friend then just tell me.

I am also happy because I turn 21 next Monday lol

[bones-of-a-rabbit]

Not me thinking abt th betrothed AU and that romance trope where the one that’s had feelings for the other for ages n ages kisses them in a moment of high tension, fully intending on pulling away after a quick kiss, but they r so full of built up love and unexpressed affection that they just keep kissing them over and over until they’re both out of breath. Nope couldn’t be me absolutely not me I am completely normal and n

[toooliix]

matthew coulson (mischas performer from 2011, the og !!) called mischa a poet and im never recovering actually

[nem0-nee]

Hey y’all, stepping back for a bit again bc of personal reasons 🫡

I’ve been feeling burnt out recently, and I’m not really in the mood for interactions and such.

Though. I’ll be back to announce the results of the contest within a week or so. Thank you for understanding 🙇‍♂️