Alignment: Bottom learning, but equally enjoyed as an observer and as a Top
Okay! So!
SUMMONING.
"Come to me."
No matter how many times I hear those words, I don't think I'll ever be done adoring them. It doesn't matter if it's a maiden pulled from her bed to open the window and let a vampire in
or a sleepwalking princess being pulled by dream butterflies...
(Ignore the fact I used two redheads for the GIFs! I AM NOT PROJECTING, YOU ARE!)
I just get weak for a moment where the words sink deep into the heart and a simple and unshakeable command is give.
"Come to me."
When I hear those words or am hit by that spell it's like my senses dull and my heart ignites with the passion of a single purpose! I need to go to the one who summoned me! I have to! They want me! They desire me! I have to go to them!
It's mostly part of vampire kink (which will be its own entry) that I like this one but my memories of it are separate from that.
While I am moving I feel I am floating on air, that my head is full of fluff and my body moves of its own accord. Some days it's like I am being yanked and I gasp out as my body rockets forwards. This is especially true if someone is right there and pulls an invisible leash as they perform the summoning charm. Or if I am compelled to forget having been summoned.
Blips are going to get a day too!
I've always loved this type of hypnotic compulsion. Longer than I can possibly begin to remember. It's so possessive. So powerful. So simple and so unshakeable. I love love love it. My partners learn that love really quickly.
And it's not just being the one to float dazed and empty into the mist. I enjoy watching it. The vacant stare and rigid motions of someone drawn towards their focus. Unable to listen to beckons and calls for attention. No. Those voices are outside of the sole purpose for the hypnotee's existence in that moment-- the summoning.
Oh how much I enjoy seeing that, especially when the lights flick from on to off and someone animated and alive suddenly realizes "...I have to go..." and they walk off.
100% one of my biggest hypno-fantasies right there and one I've worked hard to recreate in reality.
My strongest memory of summoning was the day I moved to Oikos. Goddess spoke with Copper on the phone and asked him to pass the phone. She used her hypnotic voice and commanded me to come to her.
It was a very long journey. But the entire day I felt her presence, her pull, her guidance. Even sitting still in the U-Haul van, all I could feel was the distance between us decreasing.
Until I reached her and fell to my knees and received her blessing.
"They think I’m the least dangerous person in this car, do they? Well, they’re about to learn very differently."
Decided to redraw a moment from On the Getaway Mile by Odaigahara on AO3/ @droidofmay !
This may have taken a ridiculous amount of hours condensed into a few days and I went through it drawing cars and car interiors, but this was an absolute blast to do :D I hope I've done the fic sort of justice.
Process shots and long comparison rambles under the cut!
Welcome to my secret lair!!
I spent roughly... 18 hours working on this, the majority during this week and over the past three days, so I need to share my toils with people <3
Character/car references and page thumbnails! Featuring an incorrect scene placement and bad camera position. I reread the scene and placed it properly in the actual page. I hate drawing cars!!
I was actually the most worried about panel placement when I started this— I was a guy who only did non narrative/illustrative panel pages and layout-less comics, but it wasn't that bad with a script! I could separate beats into panels, note which panels should be emphasised/larger, and assembled that into a page.
If you compare the fic with this comic, you can see how much dialogue I edited and moments I cut out. I couldn't fit it all on without having to draw even more pages, I wish I could though! Poor Mumbo only gets one line here. I'm so sorry my darling man <3 I also gave him a slight cyborg design because his implants are really important for his character and I needed some way to visually show that, even if it's not canon/mentioned.
The colouring method for this was really fun! It's similar to my aggie rainbow painting method but with less steps, hence narrow value range. It looks pretty and gets the vibe across well though.
Rapid fire points!
I was planning to do 3 different fic comics! Not anymore!!!
This is absolutely for the hotguy comic zine applications. <3 "Can I try rizzing you up // PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE" /ref
I drew page 2 first, then 3, then 1. I think you can tell!
Mumbo is sitting on the wrong side and should have his seatbelt on. He's also not carrying the stolen laptop as described.
It's explicitly noted that Mumbo cannot scan Grian like he can with Scar. Whoops!
Transmissions from the Foundation are via Mumbo and Scar's implants, but I couldn't think of a good way to portray that.
Despite guns and weapons being mentioned, I somehow didn't get the opportunity to draw a single one.
I love hand lettering. I also hate it! I will continue to do it.
Here are the no colour pages as a thank you for scrolling <3
Respectfully: yes, of course being sex-positive is incredibly important, but you know what's equally important? Being sex-positive without being fucking aphobic. It's not a herculean task at all; I see aspec and allo people alike who are absolutely able to do both successfully. But it does require a bare minimum amount of critical thinking.
You can defend kink at pride without saying or implying that sex is what makes us human, or that sex is a requisite for the "true" queer experience. You can talk about the indescribable value of gay bars without accusing anyone who isn't interested in them of being either a prude, creepy and antisocial, or a "boring virgin." You can stop arguing that any given queer person or group of queer people you dislike (perhaps even within reason) would be more progressive and less reactionary if they had more sex (and yes, this is a real take I've had to see on this website).
You can, and urgently, should stop pretending that sex negativity as a cultural force is caused by ace people — instead of you know, caused by cultural conservativism and cultural Christianity. And on the flip side, you can stop with that thing where you act sex-positive until you see an aroallo person wanting to have sex without a romantic (closed, nuclear) relationship — and suddenly, throwing all sex positivity out the window as you decide that they're a freak and a manipulator and evil incarnate. (Yes, you need to be kinder to even the cisgender heterosexual aromantic men. That particular discourse encapsulates the feedback loop between arophobia and radfem-lite beliefs, by the way, which is another thing the queer community here is horrible at avoiding in its rhetoric.)
So: sex positivity includes aro-spec allosexuals, who need it for precisely the above reason — because alloromantics demonize them otherwise. And sex positivity includes ace-specs who need it just to talk about their experiences, without getting called inappropriate for merely acknowledging sex out loud, let alone their own relationship with sexual desire.
(Have you already forgotten one of the biggest aphobe talking points in 2016? That aces acknowledging their identity in any capacity were "oversharing," and making people "uncomfortable" — and god forbid you ever mentioned asexuality to a minor?)
At its core, sex positivity includes accepting people can have morally neutral relationships with sex that you wouldn't personally want — and maybe even ones that might make you uncomfortable. And so much of this website seems perfectly able to understand this — or at least, preach this — until the second an ace or aro person shows up.
You're not allowed to exclude us from this movement. You're not allowed to twist this movement's intent to put us down. Kill this new wave aphobia in 2023 or so help me. We're not letting this community do this again.
It doesn't matter if I'm the one swaying drunkenly on a hypnotic high or smirking possessively and pulling the leash on my partner, drawing words unbidden from their lips until every single thought and feeling has spilled out without stopping by the conscious mind for any regard.
It requires a little bit of fine tuning to do this safely and if it happens wrong then there's some clean up that needs to happen.
But when it hits good? Oh how it feels good.
The one that I use most when I am in Top space is "praise me more", when I detect a partner being complimentary of me I add that in to draw the words from the soul and have them gush about me for a few extra moments. I adore watching the different ways it washes over someone. To one partner it is a swooning release of infatuation being released into the atmosphere, complete joy and affection getting to crystalize itself into words.
For another it's a firm blush as they can't stop themselves from saying the sappiest and most reverent things. Oh how I glisten in the delight of being praised in such a way.
Obviously I check in for comfort, because I think embarrassment is a lovely seasoning and "making someone blush really hard" could even get a day to itself (it likely won't), and most importantly I make sure that though "unfiltered" is part of the suggestion, there is a hypnotic filter that catches anything which would not be comfortable for you to reveal.
When I was young I used to take a bus through London to travel between my parent's flats. I used to stare out of the window and dream about things. In my early teens I remember thinking I wanted a hypnotist to ask me questions and get my honest reply. Without thought. Without processing. Just truth offered without filter.
So, true story time.
@soveryverytired and I had a painfully long courtship. We had a hypnotic entanglement that had open rapport. We had kissed a few times (the first of which was on the dance floor at a wedding) and had gotten to the point of sharing beds and making out while watching transgender media.
I have an open trigger (with safeties) that if I receive orange chocolate from a trusted source and eat it I will fall into trance.
Dolly handed me a Kit-Kat one day and I bit into it and did not realize the flavor until it hit me. I believe "...oh!" was the sound I made. She made me comfortable and asked me to tell her something I needed her to know, an Oikos staple.
"I'm in love with you." was my reply.
One of my earliest hypnotic fantasies came completely true. We began dating in earnest that month. I am so glad my deep self (another Oikos staple of a term, look for it in a Jukebox story sometime) decided to spill that little bit of truth out. My life is better for it.
What I like most about this is that it really gives the feeling of being possessed by the hypnosis. It's the kind of proof that you're actually in an altered state and not just following instructions with full awareness.
I ADORE being in altered states. I want to float on dreams and float on fantasies. Plus I experience denial on occasion and when filter is removed and I find myself obeying something to the point of which I cannot begin to claim it was pre-planned or consciously driven? I feel much more at home with what I do.
I'm sure Goddess or Daja can tell some tales about my fractionated babble. I've said some weird stuff in the past.
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For my last trick today, I have asked Goddess to compel me to sit in front of a microphone and babble about a topic of her chosing. I wrote this before asking her. Below I will post the audio of what came of this request.
i already mentioned this on twt but my roommate cat (@sunkitty143) finally made an account for fandom stuff! she's the co-creator of little mari (as well as the dog pack ocs and the botw au!!) and does the writing for my comics. so if u like our headcanons and work, please check her out too!! <3
1. she says "i'm afraid i won't be able to join you at the [pub]". what if she literally can't leave the OIAR building?
2. she says gwen doesn't "have what it takes" to do lena's job. that could just be a jibe at gwen's work ethic, sure, but what if there's a deeper meaning to it? what if there's another, less mundane requirement to be a manager at the OIAR?