#season 4 spn

[iamthejam]

i need to rant about sam right quick.... more specifically the whole demon blood era cause OH MY GOSH.

 sam thought he was doing the right thing yet everything warned him against it: dean, bobby, catiel, angels, HIMSELF, yet his mindset was if he kept a level head he could keep going, but how can you tell if youre going insane?? youre not gonna be like "hey myself, yeah this is totally wrong." sam knew he was helping people. HOW could you stop helping people, doing your job??? he had so much trust in ruby, which saddens me HOW much trust. dean was dead. he wasnt coming back. how is sam supposed to cope with that normally?? the only person he loved more than anything, the person he'd been through everything with, the person that was the thing only grounding him in the insane life they live in. with that gone how are you supposed to go on? well after doing quite literally everything he thought of trying to get dean back, he had no hope. but he needed something to take the place of dean, which ruby had taken the chance in sams weakened state and slipped in. now tell me how sam wasnt going to trust her?? he was blinded, to everything. he did the one thing he knew to do: save people. when someone tells you can save more people, wouldnt you take the opportunity?? sam did.

like i said earlier, he was blinded, so he really couldnt see he was slowly turning himself into something he promised himself he wouldnt, all he saw was the people he saved. when dean finally came back he didnt stop, i mean why would he? he kept going, and going and going, at this point he had almost completely lost himself. it didnt matter that he had dean, he had already come to reality that dean was gone.

now DONT GET ME STARTED ON DEAN FINDING OUT. how could dean not freak? now its deans turn to come to reality: his little brother is addicted to demon blood. what? his sammy?? no, no his sammy wouldnt do that... right? i mean he would see that ruby is no good. right? he would see past the people he was saving and know he was turning himself into a freak. right!?! no. it wasnt his sam. now what is dean supposed to do? it obviously wasnt his brother, his brother wouldnt do that.

so he and bobby did what they thought was the best attempt to help him: cage him. like a violent animal, which was what sam was slowly becoming. 

now if you think that was hard for dean to do, think about sam. sam was being thrown into a panic room because his family thought he was a freak. he was helping people why couldnt they see that? and why couldnt sam see he was losing himself? everybody thought they knew what was best. they thought was right. 

i just cant see. how are you supposed to cage your brother without even talking? how are you supposed to think drinking demon blood was for the greater? i cant see a right here.

when sam was in the bunker room the demon blood threw the last punches it could. it made sam hallucinate, it made him think mary was on his side, that dean and bobby were only scared of his power, it made his younger self talk him down, it made dean say nasty things. it threw him around the room like a rag doll. it made him believe allister was torturing him in the worst ways possible. all this happened as he screamed and screamed; no one came. the people he loved left him to die it felt like.

so when he got free why wouldnt he run as far as he could? as far away from bobby and dean as he could get, mentally and physically.

[dogwood-designs]

Always thinking about this episode

Acrylic on Canvas

[thenameisgul]

Every character on SPN: dean is a complicated man. He’s got issues. You never know what he’s thinking or feeling.

Cas: has him figured out in 0.05 secs and manipulating him accordingly

[scleraphone]

season 4 i love you forever

[paunchsalazar]

Dean and Cas

[wetsocksinbed]

friendly reminder that angel vessels don’t age, so canonically Castiel still looks like this in Season 15

which means every time Jack refers to Castiel as his father, everyone around him absolutely assumes Castiel was just like 14 when Jack was born

[ananke-xiii]

people working in the production of supernatural back in 2008 really decided to cast a hot, blue-eyed, dark-haired tanned man to play a badass angel of the lord in a fucking suit and trenchcoat combo, gave him an epic entrance filled with awe and sparks, had him save one of the protagonists from literal hell and say shit like "good things do happen" or "you don't think you deserve to be saved' and really thought "naaaah, this is not gonna be gay".

[onlyasimp4-2dbitches]

Me if I had a dime for every time I got down bad for a middle-aged alcoholic man who had an abusive father and younger brother who died whose death they blamed themselves for and then later in life met a supernatural kid whose father was a blonde sociopath who killed their loved one but they had to take in I'd have two dimes.

I'd have two dimes which isn't a lot- but weird that it happened twice.

[bloodydeanwinchester]

DESTIEL IN EVERY EPISODE → 4x22 lucifer rising

whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same.

[mjulmjul]

Castiel’s creation

[capspotatoes]

[phrysic]

something’s got to give.

[scoobydoodean]

[spnstillstudies]

61/327 (KO-FI♡)

S4E01, “Lazarus Rising”

[katherinehoughtoncastle47]

4.17 - IT'S A TERRIBLE LIFE

[seasononesam]

supernatural meme: (4/10) episodes | I know what you did last summer

First words I heard, clear as a bell -- "Dean Winchester is saved."