Hey Angel,
I feel a lot of the things you're feeling now and I know that doesn't help anything but you are not alone in feeling this way and it's a good thing you are able to express how you are feeling.
There are lots of times we don't feel it. At least for me, maybe we're all cases here ha. We are the painter and the painting. We are works in progress and that progress comes in our little steps. Nobody really knows what makes us, us, so how can we really know who we are? For sure you are more than any one thing about you or person in your life. And at least part of who we are is what we try to be and what we try to do, and what we are to those in our lives that matter. And you do try. And I know you try because you're still here despite it all. In fact, not liking yourself can be a sign you want to continue to improve and that's a very positive thing! Though I hope you can like who you are working on becoming. Cause that's what I think life is all about in the end.
Not finding joy in things, feeling like you're just a bother or annoyance, sucking at being social, feeling like you suck and procrastinating at everything are all things I deal with too and I have literally zero advice for. Especially not for feeling wanted and appreciated by others. Sorry. Although chances are we're not really that annoying and we're just talking different languages from the people around us. It's really hard though.
Getting diagnosed helps because knowing means you can identify the patterns are have a strategy for dealing with things but it's still up to us to do the work. Knowing is not the cure. So please don't feel too disappointed. The best I can say on how to get past is try to make a list and cross off something small. And if it's not happening today then hopefully it goes better after a good night's sleep.
This reminds me. I have so much to do I haven't started! Oh well, maybe tomorrow. Right now I'm so mentally and emotionally tired...
You are a wonderful person doing their best and I am proud of you.
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Sorry this was so long! I hope it makes a little sense but these are just my ramblings and I'm not a professional. Just a friend with lots of thoughts who cares about you.
Thank you for taking the time to write this 😊💖 It really helps knowing that there are other people who feel similar to me and that I'm not alone in all of this! I have been reading a lot of books written by Buddhist monks lately and one of the main themes in those is that we are all connected regardless of how we choose to live our lives, what we like, what we believe, etc. I find that quite comforting in a way and it gives me some motivation to keep going. I'm proud of you too for persevering 💖
I am feeling slightly better today and more ready to take on the challenges of life and my brain again haha. I hope you feel better too! And to everyone reading this, if you're struggling right now just know things will change eventually, give yourself the time you need to heal 💖
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I know that I've been MIA, but life is just Not Doing It for me rn, but I finally found a moment of peace to read everything, and I just wanted to say... Are you seriously trying to kill me???
My girl Carri and Dougie? THAT scene in particular??? (You know what I'm talking about)
Annie, love of my life, and Brady?? More cuddling? A girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do... Brady being protective???
My lovely Judy and Rosie??
My darling Kennedy and Bucky???
This is Too Much for my heart, I can't take it 💜💜💜
As always thank you so so very much 💜
- your Carrie Anon
OMGGGG SWEET CARRIE ANON HELLO!!!!! 🥹🫶✨
don’t you worry yourself at all! 🥺 i totally understand!!! life does its thing sometimes and we can’t always be doing everything, so don’t worry, carrie anon! :) (i just had an incredibly draining and chaotic semester finish up at college so i totally get it <3) it’s all good! just seeing this message from you brightened my day!!!! 🥹
AHHHHHH HEHEHE 🤭🤭🤭
thank YOU so much for reading and enjoying all the lovely duos i have going on at the moment!! it seriously means so much to me, and to know they’re all loved in their own ways!! i absolutely do know what carrie x dougie scene we’re talking about HEHE 🤭✨and i am SOOOO glad you loved it AHHHHH (can confirm as i wrote it, i went oh we’re going there and BOOM!) no regrets at all, haha!!!
I AM ON THE PROTECTIVE BRADY AGENDA !!!!!!! he just gives those vibes sometimes of ‘i will be overly and overwhelming protective don’t mess with me’ and i LOVE it (and we know he’d be protective over annie no matter, no matter the scenario and i couldn’t help it!!! and there’s much more of that where it came from hehe)
judy x rosie and kennedy x bucky my BELOVEDSSSSS i have so much in store for them and so much to explore and can’t thank you enough for the love towards them! :’)
THANK YOU TRULY CARRIE ANON!!!!!!! i cant thank you enough, from the bottom of my heart :D i hope you have a wonderful rest of your day/evening/night!!!!! 🥹✨🫶
(did i get misty-eyed at the your carrie anon…..yes yes i did <3)
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Listen, i mean this in the best way imaginable fr
But Piepoe is just such A Fucking Guy™/POS I PROMMY
Is just... is.... hhkhugugug piepoe is just so.......... RAAAAAHHH
I just wanna GET THEM/aff
They fr be activating my Too Cute reflex, i want to just SQUISH ti'll eyes come out.... cartoon way........ augh ;;
Idk why i'm so aggresive but they just, they.... grrrrrrr crying and screaming and looking like those reaction images of people crying with hearts surrounding them as if they're crying out of cuteness and running laps around my room and-
Sigh.... i heart piepoe <3
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...one thing i've learned from my job is that people often find it incredibly hard to open up about their struggles bc they feel like they won't be heard or understood, or like they could be a burden.. but i promise someone's ready to listen, yk. sometimes we also see someone act in odd, new or aggressive ways, but there's smth much deeper behind their behaviour that they're keeping buried. if you feel like something's off about someone, don't just deem them "crazy" or "annoying".. do reach out or try to talk to them — you might truly be able to change something for them, big time.
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Top 5 golden girls Moments?
How could you ask me this. Not even my top 5 episodes, my top 5 moments. This is an impossible choice. Do you enjoy inflicting pain on me? I may die from this (said in Blanche's half-asleep accent).
I hope you know that producing this list has been equivalent to tearing my beating heart out of my chest.
The Great Herring War scene from S1E25 The Way We Met
Rose's reveal that she had 56 boyfriends before settling down with Charlie from S7E13 Old Boyfriends
Dorothy telling off Blanche's abusive boyfriend (and Blanche kicking him out of the house) from S6E13 The Bloom Is Off The Rose
The little moment between Dorothy and Rose on the lanai from S5E19 72 Hours
The kiss on Rose's nose + hug from S3E3 Bringing Up Baby
There. I hope you're happy. Personally I will never recover from this.
[Ask me my Top 5 anything]
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