#seungri is on tumblr guys

[polarpolarpolarx]

Hello, sorry for taking your time, please answer when you want to!! I just want to share my feelings...

Im new to the Bigbang fandom, i discovered them in February 2023... At first i liked TOP (of course) but when i started to discover their personalities, i suddenly was charmed by Seungri. Before getting into the fandom, first thing i did is reading basic info about the group, so before knowing Seungri better, i knew that he had huge scandal in 2019. It didnt stop me digging deeper about Bigbang. I watched variety shows and interviews they did and their performances and i just fell in love with Seungri. Hes so funny, charismatic and charming guy. And hes voice is incredible. When i heard his part in songs and him talking for the first time, i thought "wow he has such a beautiful voice". I liked his voice much more than TOPs (i thought TOPs voice is weird and wasnt sure i like it or not), but i stopped myself liking Seungri from the start because of all the mess that happened in 2019. But. My feelings. Their uncontrollable.

I fell in love with Seungri and i feel sad because I cant talk with anybody about it. Im afraid i would get critisized liking him, so I avoid any Bigbang fans. But I cant help loving him. I wish i dicovered Bigbang so much so much earlier

Hahaha loling at "At first i liked TOP"🤣🤣! But yes hello! Welcome! I'm so sorry you feel that you have to avoid BigBang fans, but unfortunately know all too well where you're coming from; I honestly enjoy liking them more when I'm removed from the fanbase, it's more freeing not to see everyone's doody opinions on every. single. thing! Not to mention no one can take a joke!

But regarding Seungri, I feel you about being hesitant to like him. I'm a newer fan as well and before I read up on the 2019 debacle felt like I had to dislike him just from a moral standpoint. Didn't take long to discover how much of a farce his role in the "burning sun scandal" was (it's a mislabel to even title it that...); personally the more I learned about BigBang I was just like... this guy? Seungri? Really? The guy who can't even hide his own phone and dms on I Live Alone? It didn't line up, maybe because it didn't line up. It's really too bad some fans put their own biases and agenda above basic morality and a man's innocence, deciding instead to support the smear campaign and bury the real issues like the corruption and lack of women's rights in South Korea under the rug. But such are the sheep. (Sorry for going off on it, I just... I will forever get passionate about that whole thing/similar issues.)

Anyway, you should know that there are a lot of Seungri fans, they just mostly hang out on twitter; unfortunately here on tumblr a bit of an ot4(3?) cult has formed who likes to harass and bully off any ot5s as soon as they appear. There are a few of us here, too, though! ( @topsodapop makes a lot of gifs, and has been gifing the recent Seungri content as well.) But I'd head to twitter if what you're looking for is a large community to love on Seungri/talk about Seungri on the daily with, it's just too dead here at the moment, for any BigBang content, really. Makes me that much more appreciative you took the time to send this message aha🥰🥰🥰! Always makes me happy seeing the Seungri fans, you have excellent taste and should be proud💙❤️‍🔥.

[topconfessions]

You are so real for saying the thing about the main reason TOP was chosen for the dearmoon crew. Im not throwing shade. It is was it is. The man doesnt get enough credit for his networking skill. Dare I say he is naturally better at the game than most people would think. Everything about his personality just magically aligns to create this image of warm-on-the-inside cool guy which is already appealing to most people, which I believe he really is but to a much more exaggerated degree in the case of stage image. The thing is, people expect him to be this wild card so even its just him loosen up a bit its already a game changer. He effortlessly charms everyone that way. I think he definitely awares of this power and knows how to use it well. And thats just the tip of the iceberg. Unlike SR, TOP is lucky his main interest is arts. Artist circle has always been full of elites and old money. These guys know how to keep their things behind the curtain. And idk if most fans are aware it, unlike what TOPs trying to do give off that aloof vibe, he care a great deal of what others thing of him. With dearmoon, he definitely has good intentions but it seems lacking self-awareness the way he put it as “for greater cause”, especially when we also have a space-dedicated youtuber on the same crew. Tbh the way I see it, dearmoon is a space business trip lol. TOP just happen to tick all the boxes they have in terms of needing someone with big social influence.

Thank you so much! yes, I had to keep it a 100 and call it for what it is. If top never knew that billionaire or made a close friendship he would never ever be a part of something like this cause technically if we're following merits it should be GD instead of him but TOP is more cultured, wordly and sopthsticated than everyone else in BB by default cause he expanded his interests in mature and lucrative things that he knew would keep him paid for life and elevated. His networking through the art and high art industry paid dividends for him and I'm a little upset for GD not reaching that level himself....He really doesn't get enough credit but at the same time, TOP is seen as so cool and smart that nobody feels the need to credit or praise him cause it's innate and he got it like that LOL.

Yes, exactly. You get what I am saying, TOP picked a lucrative and highly esteemed hobby that has done more for him than he has done for it, but top gives the illusion he has done a lot for the industry. Seungri got wrapped up in the maknae curse of not outgrowing his idol and agency duties of picking activites and business ventures where you yourself have to work overtime to exert physical involvement and be the hype for your product. Seungri played checkers and TOP Played chess, you don't see top involving himself in activities and deals that require him being in public pandering, putting in a lot of work and literal socializing to make his projects a hit like the aori ramen (I may have gotten the name wrong) or burning sun. Burning sun was the worse investment SR ever made and he had to over involve himself in it and overexert himself meanwhile TOP, I mean this nicely, picks hobbies he can be physically lazy in that he already has great interest in that is easy to finnesse if you know what you're doing. what top does despite his immense passion for it, is no different than what a typical tumblr user who loves art just as much as him does. He just incorporates it into his personal and professional life with consistency and the aura of being a master at what he knows.

Also, yes, top knows what he's doing. TOP has excessive spending habits and loves a lavish lifestyle now. He knew and knows he needs an interest / side career that can keep that lucrative income in his pocket. Art is old money and new money combined, the most powerful people in the world are invested in art or have some inclination to it. Seungri took a carrie bradshaw ignorant route and involved himself with ventures that don't pay at all and don't keep your money long, sigh. Good for top though. honestly, if I ever dated an older man or someone of means, I would rush straight to the art scene and snag a man LOL. Sothebys auction house baby, here I come. I'm still waiting for him to do more work with Sothebys but it seems on a stand still and a one time thing back then. TOP needs to get his wine into another business that sells all sorts of wine and not just be a self seller of it, he's too big for that. Also, although it's criminal, you can launder and store money through expensive paintings so we never know if top is the tax evading type to do that.

another thing: I think top avoids relationships at least that serious and mature like the plague cause he knows he wouldn't have the freedom and room to be fully focused on the art world and his wine if he was with someone. this sounds mean but dating is like being a parent to an adult you are having sexual / romantic relations with. I know thats a weird analogy but it is. Especially with top dating the younger girls. it's a responsibility and you can't really rise in the art world with a hanger on unless it's a woman who has her own wealth and interests or is from the same industry.

Basically. He fit what they were looking for and he had great influence but wasn't TOO overhyped or like craze worthy i.e a bts guy that would have distracted from the mission itself. The billionaire chose well in picking top. Yeah, this is honestly just a pleasure cruise and space business trip for experimenting. It's not for any charitable cause or specfic Nasa research, you know how top is, he has to verbally elevate things to make it grander than what it is LOL.

goodluck to top and I hope he has fun this will breathe new life into him for sure. He will accomplish something many humans never have. This is what he needed to rehab and repair his image. Once he does this space mission he will no doubt have the weed scandal 100% behind him especially if he can capitalize off of it more. I hope he continues working on that album too.

[k-memestrash]

☀→@lxnelykaro inspired Seungri Moodboard←☀

[sailorjinu]

Y’all really gonna sit here and pretend that Jinwoo is enamored with Mino and loved those kisses when its a SOLID FACT that the only person Jinwoo cares about is Kwon Jiyong and no one else comes close. He tolerated the kisses because if he squints, he can pretend Mino is Jiyong.

[anbu-legacy]

long time legacy fan here. not exactly legacy related but was scrolling through this blog and found a t.o.p (bigbang) hugging someone gif you guys had posted way back. idk if you know who he is when you posted it or if it was just a random Tumblr gif for you but I'm a fan of bigbang as well so my brain kinda collapsed at my two extremely niche interests colliding like that lol

Yep, Ki here: I’ve been a Big Bang fan as well (though that obviously took a hit in 2019 with the news about Seungri and the Burning Sun). But I’ve spent years arguing that Ginta’s best face-model is G-Dragon in blond mode:

(Especially when performing “A Boy” )

https://youtu.be/aLbuN1z-nA0

I have also at times made (I thought) strong arguments for silver-haired T.O.P as Kakashi but @nezumiko and @saunterleftside remain unswayed.

But you can see it, right??

- Ki

[halleyj96]

Hi guys~ Welcome to another lesson~

I will try to make today's lesson short (and interesting), because I just learned this word after talking to a business partner so I want to share with you guys about this word before I completely forget about it 🤣

The expression we will be looking at today is 얼굴마담!

This word originally meant the madams representing places like bars or clubs, negatively speaking you can think of this word as a "pimp". Right now its meaning has expanded and it is also used to indicate a person who represents a certain group, company or organization.

To make it simple, you can think of a 얼굴마담 as a sign, people look at that sign and immediately know what is being sold inside. BUT, before using this word, you have to remember that 얼굴마담 has a negative nuance to it. As it tends to indicate a person who only represents the group/company/organization on the surface without much capability.

The most recent example use of this word is the Burning Sun scandal, where media kept calling Seungri the 얼굴마담 of Burning Sun.

And that's why, the 얼굴마담 of a group/company/organization is not always the best person but the person who can attract the public's attention.

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[namcelestial]

C, D, E & F ? I hope you will feel better soon 🥺💞

omg hi alex!! tumblr ate this ask sorry this is so late 🤕 i do feel better now so thanks for the well wishes 🥰💌

C: A color that you think your bias looks good in?

i'll answer for bts and not 2 be stereotypical but i think yoongi looks radiant in black like it just so obviously suits him and his vibes and makes him feel confident! in the interest of not being lame though i think he looks kinda 🤒 sexy 🤒 in red

D: Your favorite dance?

i could never pick a favorite but some honorable mentions are taemin's criminal, ga in's paradise lost, cherry bomb by nct, and maybe everything sf9 has ever done

E: An idol you think would be easy to get along with?

Jeno from NCT! he just seems so sweet and easygoing 💖 very much just some guy (in a good way)

F: The first group you loved?

bigba- 🤢🤢 i can't even say it. that was years ago and i was absolutely disgusted by seungri's actions when that news broke, couldn't look at any of the rest of the group the same (although they all have had their own issues for a while) anyway it's safe to say i don't support them anymore

ahdkfksha sorry that last answer got so dark but thank you for the ask!! 💖💌💞💖

[daesungindistress]

I wrote you once maybe three months ago? Or less ? I keep “coming around” cuz every time I look up seungri/BigBang I see your ranting. And yes, I was curious to see your response to being called out on your bs after this indictment, which you’ve done in typical fashion of twisting words to suit your means. Also, cute to think only one person on this site would refer to you as a “dumb bitch.” 🙄

Are you sure about that, or is it that your memory is so short you don’t remember the others? They were shallow and snippy, similar in style and tone to your previous ask, little one-liners fired off in frustration, and read like a tween with a short fuse throwing a temper tantrum. Which is why I deleted them without hesitation. I’m talking maybe two or three, not too many. The language was always the same and “dumb bitch” stood out only because it was so uniquely juvenile. I remember these things. I’m not surprised you don’t.

Anyway, that post of mine you quoted wasn’t searchable on Tumblr. So congrats, you came directly to me to see what I had to say about the news, and for what? Nothing. Because you didn’t manage to call me out on anything. What you did was flaunt your own faulty reading comprehension, thinking I said things I didn’t. I haven't twisted anything; you've misunderstood. Something that you guys have gotten impressively adept at this past year. Again, I understand that the molka issue has been a hot one for everyone, but fortunately for Seungri, it was never much of a legal issue. Just a moral one. That doesn’t make it any less pressing, it still carries consequences. I’ve lost track of how many times I’ve been over this. And to think, there are people who still don’t get it.

Did you think me clarifying his presence in those chats over and over again when questioned (or challenged) meant I was expecting the authorities would suddenly change their minds and pursue charges for it? That they’d lock him up for laughing, throw away the key for knowing his friends were shit and not caring enough to do anything decent about it? No, he weaseled his way out of that a long time ago. That was never up for consideration.

However, that doesn’t mean he shouldn’t be held accountable for it. Doesn’t mean we should forget. And we certainly should not be erasing his involvement with that flaming trash pile of a friend group in some misguided effort to protect him when he wouldn’t have done the same for a single one of us. He isn’t worth it, and no legal outcome can change that. That was the argument I’ve been making here all these months – for people like you to whom it wasn’t clear.

Your curiosity is appreciated, but better comprehension would be even more appreciated.

[lsnghyns]

some of y'all...

look, i fucking get it. how can i not? i've invested so much time and money in seungri, but it's not just about dividends paid - i invested in him, the person, even moreso than i probably ever did his music/talent/whatever. i've waxed poetic about him and defended him til i was blue in the face whenever the topic of him being underappreciated/overlooked as compared to everyone else in bigbang was brought up. in that sense, i've been a part of the same infantilization of him that's happening now.

but at the end of day, he's a grown fucking man. he doesn't need me or anyone else on tumblr dot com or twitter dot com or wherever the hell else to speak on his behalf or defend any of his actions because he's a 28 turning 29 year old adult who should have learned all about accountability and consequences by now. quite frankly, if all the allegations against him turn out to be true, then neither does he deserve it.

i see so many of you saying that you're not taking his side, that you want to remain neutral until an official sentence is handed out, and then at a turn saying that you're so worried for seungri and that you hope he's doing well and that he deserves better etc etc. that's not neutrality lol. that's you guys taking a side, whether youre aware of it or not. to get all bent out of shape whenever someone calls him a piece of shit is you taking a side; to say that him being "made" to quit bigbang is unfair is you taking a side. all of this information being dug up about literal prostitution rings/breeding grounds for sexual assault, and your first and foremost worry is about seungri's wellbeing? what about the victims? all the women whose wellbeing has been compromised, through no fault of their own (unlike seungri, if the allegations turn out to be true)? what about how they're feeling, what they deserve? not to mention that there IS actual proof out there, building and building, and still some of you are doing the absolute most with the mental gymnastics and claiming that it's stil all just a ploy to tarnish his name.

idols aren't perfect, yeah, true, but who in the ever loving fuck was asking him or other idols to be perfect in the first place? they're allowed to be human, just like the rest of us, but they're also asked, just like the rest of us, to be decent as well. what seungri's being accused of - that goes beyond fallibility/being human. that's a serious act of cruelty and immorality that's inhumane, and i cannot, in good conscience, overlook it as some minor ~problematic~ flaw that should keep the "CANCELLED!!!" crew at bay. this isn't gd and top smoking a doobie with the broskis every now and then in their spare time - this is seungri being accused of complicity, if not willful participation, in the sexual molestation and degradation of numerous - NUMEROUS - women.

i'll probably get the usual braindead reaction claiming that i'm a "fake fan" or "good riddance" or that im "deserting him in his time of need", like any of that shit actually matters in light of everything that's being uncovered; as if it's not as difficult for me to process the fact that the guy i've spent so much time and money and energy supporting wholeheartedly could end up being a reprehensible scumbag, as if i actually enjoy watching sickening news like this be associated with his name. but what i, or any other fan of his, am feeling, doesn't even begin to compare to what the victims have gone through in this whole ordeal. so i'm not going to be guilted for dropping a guy who's looking more and more likely to have committed heinous crimes, and i'm not going to feel bad about wanting to believe the victims first rather than continuing to coddle a grown ass man who i don't know and doesn't know me. if your main priority in this right now is seungri, then i legitimately don't know what to say besides i hope you guys find more empathy in your hearts for victims of sexual abuse and that you achieve that elusive peace of mind that you've all wished seungri to achieve in this moment.

[all-the-kpop-imagines]

Oreos and G-Dragon

Good evening guys, how are you?

I received this request earlier today, but for some reason tumblr has deleted the message that I got, so I cannot tag the person that requested it. If it was you, HERE YOU GO!!!

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Pairing: G-Dragon x reader

Genre: FLUFFY

Warnings: None, except maybe cuteness overload?

Word Count: 582

G-Dragon. Kwon Ji Yong. Jagi. All names you called him. You loved him with all of your heart and you knew he reciprocated the feelings. He refused to call  you by your own name but instead called you Jagi or Nabi, because you are his butterfly.

Two years into your relationship and you knew he was the one you wanted to spend your life with. He was kind and thoughtful. He let you accompany him to fashion shows and music shows. He was there for you when you cried and you for him. But it was moments like this that you sometimes questioned all of it.

He put your favorite cookies on the top shelf of the pantry. The same shelf you had told him that you couldn’t reach. He knew, he knew you would want the cookies at some point, so why did he put them up there? With a pout, you crossed your arms over your chest and looked around your shared kitchen with him. The counter looked promising, if you leaned far enough and bent your body correctly. A sigh left your chest as you leaned against the counter and pouted.

From the hallway, you heard the front door open and close. Immediately you knew it was Ji, coming home from a long day working on new BigBang music. You narrowed your eyes at the entrance to the kitchen, waiting for him to make his way into the room. When he did, you gave him a dirty look as you stood there with your arms crossed. He raised an eyebrow at you in confusion.

“What’s wrong Jagi?” He asked and your just kept your eyes narrowed.

“You sir, are very rude,” you told him and he made a face at you.

“How so?” He had walked over by you and had leaned against the island, facing you.

“You know how much I like oreos, why would you put them all the way up there? I can’t reach them,” you pouted and he looked up at the open pantry door before looking back at you and chuckling.

“You’re mad at me because I put your oreos on the top shelf?” He asked through his chuckles.

“Of course I am, you ass,” you playfully smacked his chest and chuckled yourself. “I was craving them all day at work and I was so excited to come home and be able to eat them. But, they weren’t in the spot I left them. No, they were all the way up there. Where I cannot reach.”

“I put those up there the other day because Seungri was raiding the cupboards for food and I knew you would be mad if he ate them,” he leaned forward and wrapped his arms around you loosely.

“But I want them now and they are all the way up there,” you pouted into his chest and he chuckled, sending vibrations through your body.

“Do you want me to get them for you?” He asked you and you nodded. You then felt him reach up into the cabinet and then heard the signature crinkle of the oreo package. The second the package was in your hand, you let out a quiet squeal before you ripped the package open and grabbed one. Ji watched you with a smile on his face.

“If only you looked at me like you look at oreos,” he laughed before kissing your forehead. You would have responded, but there was an oreo in your mouth.

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Hope you enjoyed it. It’s cute. I like it. Ask box is actually open now, so please, request stuff for me and for Admin JiMin!!!!

>>Admin JiU<<

[nightowlfandom]

Just thought I’d put up my rant.

.Hey hey, bet you thought you wouldn’t see me again? Well I’ve been really busy, and this seems like old tea to some but it’s a damn serious topic that I feel like I should voice an opinion on. And since I have a voice, and internet connection and a social media account I can and I will voice my opinions and since this topic hits close to home, I thought I’d start my comeback Tumblr with a bang (and I wish this was intended to be a clever pun but I am quite upset.) This isn’t fan fiction, oh my god shocker. I do more than just write shitty porn.

Allow me to preface this  by saying, your idols are not gods. They are not God-Sent devine being meant to cure any lack of hope you’ve had in the past. They are NOT what you see in those dramas you love to praise and compare every korean guy you see to. The are not the “can do no wrong” entity of light and power. They are humans...and they are just as capable of doing shitty things to others as anyone from the anywhere else is. They are not in the slightest what you dream them to be and even if you think you really know an idol, just remember what you see is what they let you see of them. I’ll say it again.

WHAT YOU SEE FROM YOUR IDOLS. IS WHAT THEY LET YOU SEE! You only see them through a screen, whether it bee a computer, phone tablet or whatever it is you use to connect. You’d be silly to think you know these guys inside out just because of what they show online. Social media is a facade, shit I don’t even show my face online. 

Number one, the fact that there are girls and women who are still supporting Seungri after this whole debacle scares the everloving shit out of me. 

And while we’re at it let’s stop calling the shit he did a mistake, stans.

A mistake is mistaking a two different languages for each other, a mistake is washing a blue shirt in a laundry baskets of whites. People telling other people that “Seungri made a mistake, made the wrong choice?” He knew good and damn well what the hell he was doing and he apparently had no interest in quitting his behavior, so miss me with that. While we’re at it, even if he was sitting there watching the shit unfold. He knew good and well what was going on! He had the power to expose this shit show for what it was. But really, if he was part of that group chat, he most likely was getting some incentive, don’t be silly. It’s still shitty and it’s still wrong and it still makes him just as guilty. You can’t tell me he wasn’t benefitting from all that bullshit, you just can’t

ALso I found a post that made a very good point, we need to stop acting like this shit is surprising. The entertainment industry, in ALL parts of the world is ruthless and cutthroat. To think that this shit could never happen in the kpop industry is stupid as hell, I remember seeing a hell of a lot of controversy growing up, (from a young age I really loved kpop and shows in other parts of the world), from young trainees being forced to have sex with men, to being given drugs, to mysterious deaths/ suicides, to sex tape leaks. This isn’t new the the entertainment industry, whether it be in Korea, America, or fucking Iceland of all places. It’s everywhere.

This is about the fact that a man committed a heinous crime.. He didn’t get caught smoking weed, he didn’t just ignore a fan trying to get his attention, he didn’t say something stupid, he committed a federal crime, and his fans (or what brainwashed fans he has left) are coddling him as if he was a child who just got reprimanded for running in the house.

The fact the people still support this man, as a woman, you should be fucking ashamed of yourself. I’ll finish my post with this.

THIS IS NOT THE WORST YEAR FOR KPOP. IF ANYTHING IT’S KIND OF A GOOD THING, SO THESE ASSHOLES ARE OUTED FOR WHAT DIPSHITS THEY ARE.

[akoinefish]

Plans

I thought I’d share a few words (well quite a lot actually) regarding my plans for this story. The first installment, Seungri: The Beginning, is ending with the release of Chapter 18 (soon). This will immediately be followed by Jiyong: In the Middle (preview), which ISN’T the same story told in Jiyong’s perspective. Rather the continuation of Seungri: The Beginning told in Jiyong’s perspective. The setting starts from early 2011. This will be followed by the third and last installment Us: The End, which is set around 2015 and onwards (hopefully...)

I try to make this story as canon-compliant as I can by extensively researching Big Bang events, their individual social media posts, BB song lyrics, and well… Nyongtory conspiracies (lol). Although most landmark events are accurate, there are still obviously some unavoidable inaccuracies. Most of the things in this fic are based on things they say in interviews, promotions, or social media whatevers. I just filled in blanks so that I could organize my fantasizing of Nyongtory.

My Vision

So far, this story stemmed from G-Dragon’s Motte aesthetic and Seungri’s recent album release of The Great Seungri.

My little sister, who’s recently reviewed the story, asked me why the fuck I’ve turned both GD and Seungri into depressing shits who cry in every chapter… Well it is angsty so… Don’t we live for that kind of shit? But really, I wanted them to be a mess, because they have a hard time accepting themselves, each other, and their positions. The main issue being a struggle for identity with each other, their alter egos, and their position in Big Bang as the main reasons they can’t be together.

Well, aside from their recent releases, I also drew a lot of my inspiration from The Great Gatsby. Seungri has an obsession with the Great Gatsby, which I find beautifully fitting considering GD’s adoration for daisies. I think people can really draw a lot of inspiration from that. It’s the thought that Seungri sees himself as Gatsby, whose obsession is Daisy (GD), his greatest motivation for success as a businessman (artist in this case), yet his greatest downfall as a man. It’s pretty but a painful image, kind of like the entire Motte tour.

I just feel so deprived because there just aren’t enough Nyongtory fics that focus on the real life depth, or potential depth, that these two actually have (but shit the quality of fanfics being produced these days are fucking magnifique… I’ve been living on the nyongtory tag in AO3 and there are so quality stuff there BUT there’s honestly not a lot of Nyongtory fics in general... there are more gtop vips....I, myself, was a gtop shipper originally). BUT I do see a lot of people dedicating theories of what things mean to both Jiyong and Seungri or events, posts of the two that seem oddly fitting on ig so I mean (49Oppas, Earth.Sky.Ocean and many others)… I just wanted those in story version hence why…

So…

Right now, I do find it hard to read the first few chapters (idk parts of it is awkwardly written) so after my exam season, the entire thing will probz receive a major upgrade, just in terms of writing and consistency. So that’ll happen sometime mid-November… maybe… if I don’t end up working my entire break away.

I really, really, really, love the concept of this story but I haven’t exactly produced it in the way that I wish. But that’s okay, I’m no expert writer.

I just love being able to share my fantasies with others. Even if there are only a dozen people reading this, that’s okay with me. But the few that do read and appreciate my story I am grateful. I suck at responding to peoples’ comments, but I do love reading and re-reading them (I screenshot some of them). I love all your comments but y’alls commenting are overall just too nice. Love you guys (idk why but lately whenever I say guys I hear Seungri’s voice in my head).

Please feel free to talk to me about anything. Idk maybe if you need someone to dump your Nyongtory feels or theories, I’m fee to listen. Or maybe if y’alls just want to talk about the potential of parallel universes in the infinite multiverse theory, or the largest culmination of superheroes coming together in the Marvel multiverse. Whatever it is, just talk to me in any medium you want. The reason I’ve kept this story here, and I’ve refused to upload it on AO3 or AFF, is because I love the intimacy of keeping it here (although I was a ghost on tumblr for like 6 years so …)…

So idk… be intimate or not…idk I’m cool with anything really.

[lady-une]

BSD Ch4

Here it is guys! I wrote this on the plane and the rest of it at the airport during my layover in Denver. You finally get to see what Mino and Seungri are up to. You get to get a peek into Jiyong’s thoughts and feelings. I really hope you like this. As always please like, follow, and share. Help me reach someone who doesn't know i exist in the tumblr sea.

He thought their love was eternal, that nothing would be able to break them apart. He put his trust and faith in the man he loved with all his heart. The one man he thought would never hurt him, did it in the most horrific way possible. How will he move on, having to see the man who broke his heart day in and day out. Having to see him smile and look at another the way he once did him. If had known this was his destiny all along, he would never had started on this path to begin with.

Word count: 3330

Theme: Angst

Rating: Mature, SMUT, Drinking

Pairing: Kwon Jiyong x Seungri

Master List

Chapter 1

Seungri followed behind Mino into the dimly lit restaurant. The two walked up to the hostess booth surprising the younger girl working it, her mouth hung slightly open and her eyes were wide. It didn’t help when both men smiled at her as they waited for her to come to her senses. When she finally did Seungri requested a private area for the two and she grabbed a couple of menus then lead the way. As they order their dinner Mino inquired about how the music video was coming and Seungri lit up with the gentlest smile, it was quickly becoming Mino’s favorite thing.

“The MV is coming along and it’s so nice to be back together filming again. Plus, it’s a song that the fans have been requesting.”

“I’m glad you are having fun, you seem brighter today then the other day.”

“Last night was just what I needed. I hadn’t had that much fun in such a long time.”

“Then we should do it more often.”

“We should, but I just don’t know how much more time I will have once things really get going and then we will be doing the tour.”

“Then while we can let’s just enjoy the time we do have.”

Seungri grabbed his wine glass raising it to clink it with Mino, this is what he really needed. A friend who understood the demands of the his career but also supportive and an ear to listen to him.

After dinner Seungri thought of just going right home but Mino had talked him into coming back over. Walking into Mino’s apartment Seungri slipped off his shoes and was about to slide on the guest slippers when Mino stopped him.

Mino walked over to the closet and pulled out a small blue bag handing it to Seungri. Seungri opened the bag and pulled out a pair of slippers that had little white horses being rode by a prince on them.

“Mino you didn’t need to do this.”

“I know hyung but I wanted you to be comfortable while you are here.”

“Well I love them.”

Seungri placed the slippers on the floor before sliding them on. Wiggling his toes he was able to take in their plushness and knew they were soft, the new slippers were pretty comfortable compared to the guest slippers.

Going over to the couch Seungri sat down as Mino went into the kitchen to grab two bottles of water out of the fridge prior to joining Seungri on the couch. Reaching for the remote Mino turned on the TV pulling up the next episode of the drama the two had started the night before.

After they finished the first episode of the night Seungri was so hooked that he knew it was going to be another long night of binging. Turning to Mino he asked if it would be alright if he stayed the night again, Mino happily told him that he was always welcomed to spend the night. The two men got up and went into the master bedroom where Mino pulled out a set of sleeping pants for both of them. Seungri began undressing pulling his pants off before pulling the sleeping pants on. Mino would be lying If he didn’t find the elder man attractive, watching him move with his muscles flexing made Mino blush with inappropriate thoughts racing through his head.

When Seungri pulled his shirt off Mino had to quickly look away so that his blush wouldn’t be seen. Yet turning away didn’t help as he was now watching Seungri change in the mirror. Mino swallowed the saliva that was beginning to pool in his mouth. When Seungri turned to lay his folded clothes on the chair in the corner Mino noticed the purple mark on his shoulder.

“Hyung what happened?”

Mino turned back around and walked up to Seungri tracing the purple mark on his body. Seungri’s flesh broke out in goosebumps at the man’s touch. Seungri closed his eyes enjoying the younger man’s gentle touch, it had been too long since someone had touched him with such gentleness. The last man to have touched him ended up breaking his heart in the end.

“Hyung?” Mino softly called out to him.

“Oh its nothing, I think I bumped the table harder than I thought when we were wrestling around the other night. Don’t worry it will fade, I bruise pretty easily but they fade quickly.”

“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have been that rough.”

“You weren’t, I can take a good amount of pain. Now come on and let’s go back to our show.”

Seungri turned around grabbing Mino’s hand and dragging him back to the living room. He needed to be in a safe space and distracted before doing something he wouldn’t be able to take back.

The two men got comfortable on the couch with blankets and pillows before starting the next episode. By the time it reached 2am Seungri was slowly losing the battle against sleep. Looking over to Mino he held back his chuckle, the younger man had lost that battle and was already in a deep sleep. Small snores filled the room when Seungri turned the TV off. Laying down on the couch his feet intertwined with Mino, Mino moved around slightly before shoving his cold feet in between Seungri’s legs causing him to shiver.

The next morning Mino took Seungri to where they were finishing up the MV shoot instead of making his manager come out to get him. Outside sucking on a cigarette with a cup of coffee in one hand stood Jiyong. Jiyong noticed that stupid black sports car the second it turned onto the lot. Clearly the maknae had not gone home yet again! Jiyong thought as he watched car drive up. Watching the car pull up to the curb he puffed hard on the cigarette, he knew he couldn’t be feeling this way. Everyone was right he had made this choice and he had to live with it, but why was it so hard? The passenger door opened and out stepped Seungri, Jiyong had expected him to still be wearing the same clothes as the day before but this time he was in fresh clothing. Fresh clothing that was not his! Jiyong knew every article of clothing Seungri owned, he had gone on more than one shopping trip for him and had organized his closet to help with picking clothes for the day. Jiyong doubted that Seungri had gone shopping recently, he wouldn’t have had time. So where did these new clothes come from, where they Mino’s? Where they already this close?

“Thanks for the ride.” Seungri said to Mino as he bent down in the doorway.

“No problem, have fun today and we can talk later.”

Seungri smiled before standing up and shutting the door. Turning to walk towards the door of the recording set he finally noticed Jiyong who was smoking. Seungri had to hold back the ungodly sound he wanted to make, Jiyong was very attractive when he was smoking. The way his cheeks hollowed out when he sucked in and the way his neck looked when he would tilt his head up to exhale the smoke.

“Good morning hyung.” Seungri said as he walked up to Jiyong with a smile on his face hoping that he hadn’t been caught checking him out.

“Another sleep over with your fun boy?”

“Still in a pissy mood I see.” Seungri squinted his eyes as he hopped every bit of his statement sounded as sassy as he was feeling. He was so tired of Jiyong and his moods.

“Watch that tongue.”

“I will do what I want and say what I want.”

“You still need to show respect.”

“That I do but seeing as no one is around us I am going to treat you with the amount of respect you deserve.”

“He better have not marked you again. The one from the night before should be fading by tonight. We don’t need any more issues.” Jiyong knew exactly how long a mark would take to fade on Seungri, he had left so many on him in the past after all.

“Whatever.”

Seungri ignored whatever Jiyong was set to say and rushed off to get ready. The day was spent reshooting parts, and additional B footage to fill in gaps. It wasn’t going to be that long of a day shooting but right after they were set to go do a radio show interview. Once that was over with Seungri was looking forward to going home and relaxing, dealing with everything and Jiyong’s moods were just too much for him.

Arriving at the radio show the guys all crammed into the small room. Jiyong sat next to Seungri, Seunghyun sat on the other side, followed by Daesung and ending with Youngbae. They all had on bright smiles and a cheerful tone. The host started off asking how the comeback album was coming and Daesung answered that it was going really well, that they were excited for the fans to hear it. Next the host asked Youngbae how it was being a first-time dad and an idol. Youngbae laughed a bit and admitted that it was tiring but he loved every single minute of it. Next was the question directed towards Jiyong about his girlfriend, he asked how things were going and if Youngbae being a dad had him wanting kids. Jiyong lit up and said he loved when Youngbae would bring his son around, that he loved kids and very much wanted kids of his own someday. The host then asked Seunghyun if he was dating anyone and Daesung laughed saying the only one Seunghyun was romantic about was his art collection. Everyone had a good laugh, Seunghyun did love his art but probably not as much as he did Daesung. The way he looked at him when he thought no one was looking reminded him of the same way Jiyong looked at Seungri. The last question was directed at Seungri, he was asked how things were being back and if he had planned on dating now.

“Now that I have finished my service I feel like I can finally date freely and not feel bad about leaving my partner on the outside waiting for me. I hope that I can find someone I can build a life with just like my hyung. It’s safe to say that any man would want to have a family, right now I just want to build my career and business up as much as possible so that when I do start my family I can provide for them.”

“Are you seeing anyone or do you have anyone you want to confess to?” The host was really trying to dig for information.

Jiyong who had his hands in his lap turned to look at Seungri raising his eyebrow. A part of him wanted to know the answer to this question as well. Seungri in his playful panda like way covered his face with his hands acting bashful before denying that he had one in mind. Jiyong smiled before turning towards the host where they finished the interview talking about the album and their thoughts on a tour.

After the interview was over everyone loaded up in van before heading back to the studio. Seungri pulled out his phone sending a text to his manager letting him know he just wanted to go home and rest once he reached there. Everyone was talking quietly while Seungri laid his head on the window and closed his eyes. He had stayed up way too late last night and knew he needed to get more sleep.

Once they arrived at the studio Seungri waived and said his fair wells before jumping in his managers car and heading home. Everyone but Jiyong was also heading home, true to his perfectionist self Jiyong was going to stay and work on the album some more. Walking into the studio he had run into the man who was slowly starting to annoy him with his presence.

“Good evening hyung.” Mino greeted his elder with a bow and a smile.

“Mino.” Jiyong acknowledged him with a head nod.

“Seungri went home?” “Yes, he can’t always be out causing problems. Besides shouldn’t you be working on your own stuff? How is it you have so much free time to be distracting him?” Jiyong was starting to get annoyed.

“I just happened to be able to move some things around to make time for him. Isn’t that what friends are supposed to do?” Mino challenged him with a raised eyebrow.

Jiyong glared at the younger man, “Yes they should and thank you for being a good FRIEND.” He made sure to make a strong emphasis on the word friend, Mino needed to know his place.

“Of course, boyfriends should also make time for their partners to make sure they are cared for and to listen to them when they have problems. After all, once you love someone you have to go all the way and not cut corners or end things because you don’t feel like things are enough. I don’t understand how some people could end things with their partners because they are afraid of what others would say or because they are no longer enough. People like that are kind of selfish don’t you think?” Mino smirked as he saw Jiyong’s eye twitch, he knew he was being too bold, but he hated how hurt Seungri was because of Jiyong.

“Listen here boy, you need to know your place and stay out of things you don’t know anything about.”

“If it concerns someone I care about I’m making it my business to make sure they aren’t hurt again.”

“Yes well if you really cared about someone you wouldn’t leave little marks on their bodies. That’s poor taste.”

Mino looked at Jiyong with a puzzled look, a mark? He thought, then remembered the mark on his shoulder.

“If you are talking about the mark on Seungri’s shoulder he said it would fade quickly.”

“Whether or not it would fade doesn’t make it ok to mark him like that.”

“I will admit I was kind of rough with him, I was just so excited and lost control of myself. I mean he did say he could take a bit of pain and he was enjoying himself too. So I don’t see what the problem is.”

Jiyong was starting to see red, how bold was Mino willing to go? To openly talk about their sexual relationship to the man who was with Seungri for the longest pissed Jiyong off. “Just don’t do it again.” Jiyong seethed out.

“Well if Seungri says no then I won’t, but if he wants to then I will have to give him what he wants. He deserves the world, and if I can give him a bit of it then so be it.” Mino looked down at his watch before looking back at Jiyong, “Sorry but I really have to go now. Have a good night hyung.” Mino said before pushing past a pissed off Jiyong.

Jiyong stormed off to his work area and attempted to get some things done but with the way Mino had talked to him he was having a hard time concentrating on his tasks. The image of Seungri and Mino tangled together with Mino sucking on his skin was causing his anger to raise. Jiyong slammed his hand on the table before slamming his laptop shut and grabbing his things to leave.

Jiyong jumped in his car driving home a little too fast, he knew he should slow down but his anger had control of his mind and he just wanted to get home and take a shower. When he reached his apartment parking spot he aggressively slammed on the breaks before throwing the car into park. Slamming his door shut he stormed up to his apartment, anyone walking by him would never had imagined that the man who was radiating anger off him was the same man they saw on stage. Jiyong didn’t care if anyone recognized him, his mind just kept replaying everything with Mino and running scenarios through his head.

Once in the safety of his apartment he threw his jacket at the wall causing it to hit a vase toppling it off the table. The sound of the vase crashing to the ground did nothing to quell the anger that was racing through Jiyong’s veins, instead it had the opposite affect fueling on his anger. It felt good to break something. Walking passed the broken vase on the floor he went to his room and started tearing the blankets and sheets off the bed. Throwing pillows around the room caused a lamp to fall to the floor, picture frames to flip over, more loud crashing that fueled his anger. Grabbing the pillow off the floor he proceeded to slam it repeatedly on the bad trying to get out all of the anger in him. Anger for Seungri acting the way he was, as if he didn’t care if things got messed up. Anger for the fact that Seungri still had a hold of his heart. Anger for Mino who was moving into the place he had vacated in Seungri’s life.

When Jiyong finally felt as if he had no energy left in his body he fell onto his bed breathing heavily. Closing his eyes, he tried to calm himself down before getting off the bed and walking into his closet. He knew he needed to shower before he started cleaning up the mess he had made. Grabbing some sweat pants off a hanger he went to reach for a shirt to pull it off but dropped the pants on the floor. Bending down to grab them he noticed a small bag full of clothes next to a box. It was the bag of clothes from Seungri’s apartment. He had completely forgot about putting them away.

Taking each article of clothing out one by one he began folding them up when his had pulled out a shirt, it wasn’t his. Jiyong recognized it right away, the matching shirt still hung in his closet somewhere. Pulling the shirt from the bag he raised it in the air turning it over, the small Jerry peeking out from the pocket on the right side the shirt caused a wave of emotions Jiyong had not felt in such a long time. Bring the shirt close to his face he took in a deep breath, it still smelt exactly like Seungri. Tears started springing to his eyes as he buried his face in the shirt, small sobs rocked his body as he started mourning the loss of his relationship. Pulling the box out that sat next to the bag he opened it up for the first time. Inside the box laid pictures on top of pictures along with mementos from trips they had taken together. Jiyong reached inside pulling out the pictures, some were old back from their debut years. The pictures varied from group photos to intimate ones. Jiyong found the one he was looking for, it was a picture of Seungri sleeping on the bed when they had gone on vacation together. His sleeping face was lite up by the bright sun that was shining in from the open window in their hotel room. He looked so peaceful that Jiyong couldn’t pass up the chance of snapping a picture to remember their trip with. Clutching the pictures close to his chest he continued to cry for the man he had pushed away. Only did he come to his senses when he heard the main door unlocking and opening up, the voice of his girlfriend calling out to him had him placing everything back in the box and putting back in the closet. He had made his choice and there was no going back.

NEXT

[jungwooswift]

which seventeen pairs dynamic is most unique to u? :o

After a long day at work and a tiring time updating the Seungri master post, you, anon, come to me like a literal angel with a Seventeen question... wow. BLESS.

I don’t know if it’s unique but I really like Seungkwan and Dino’s dynamic. They are absolute best friends but they’re SUCH different guys. I think that’s interesting. But the most unique is probably Mingyu and Woozi. They are polar opposites. Mingyu is huge and loud and boisterous and is always up and doing something while Woozi is small and quiet and doesn’t like to leave his bed. But they’re BFFs and roommates. Explain that, science side of Tumblr.

[mycomplex]

Long ass tag thing that is late as hell

Tagged by @julla​ 💖🌼 and @sweater-daes 🌸🌺

Rules: answer 80-something questions LEGGOOOOOO

last?

drink: Water~ phone call: Bf and he was being stupid :<< text message: surprisingly it was with my womens that I’ve known for like 15+ years lol time you cried: Last friday watching the season finale of Agents of Shield  kissed someone and regretted it: oh boy, yes been cheated on: yesss x 2!! shame on me lost someone special: yes been depressed: for 7 years off and on, comes in waves and whatever winter depression to give it an extra kick gotten drunk and thrown up: nope, I don’t like drinking much favourite colours? plum / black / gray

in the last year you have?

made new friends: several yes fallen out of love: this is gonna get deep but with myself, past few months I was in a bad place but its gotten better now~ laughed until you cried: you cry until you laugh, and everyone must breathe Until their dying breath... ily if you know this song bc this song, this album was perfection found out someone was talking behind your back: yes met someone who changed your life: yes! found out who your true friends are: when you get to my age *wiggles cane* yes, don’t have time to play games or walk on eggshells

general?

how many facebook friends do you have: You want me to go to that plague of a site.......287, I deleted a lot lmao pets: 2 needy kitties who have more personality than I do ever wanted to change your name: when i was little i dreamed of changing my name to maria but now im like lmaoooooooooooooooo what you did for your last birthday: went to this fancy restaurant that was basically a meat parade and it was amazing~ time you woke up today: like 6am, GB was getting hangry and rowdy  what you were doing at midnight last night: sleeping what you can’t wait for: OT5 :) whatcha listening to: lol....... iKON and Bolbbalgan4 ever talked to a person named Tom: one of my best guy friends lmao something that gets on your nerves: DISHES IN THE SINK, my mother most visited site: tumblr / twitter hair colour: Asian brown black hair woo. long or short hair: its medium, having trouble deciding if i want it long or short again. But I don’t think I’ll have to to my ass again lmao crush: deadpool what do you like about yourself: the no filter part and my eyebrows any piercings: one on each ear like the most boring thing ever blood type: A nicknames: sam, hey you, relationship status: basically married but not :( sign: taurus~ pronouns: she/her favourite tele show: Punisher, Sense 8, Agents of Shield, This is us, The Nanny, Game of Thrones, tattoos: nope i used to want one but honestly i dont feel the need left or right handed: right handed have you ever had a surgery: yes do you want piercings: I would but my ears are sensitive  sport: ha ha ha ha HAHAHAA favourite holiday: meh trainers: like sneakers? I only have a pair of Nikes

more general?

favourite dish: Ramen, steak and potatoes, potatoes, spam & rice favourite drink: sprite sadly. ugh… i’m about to watch: WIN LOL I wanna torture myself for some reason, probably bc I’m on my period and I just wanna cry what i’m waiting for: my new computer chair to arrive bc mine is broken af (JULLA YOU’RE GOING TO SEE BEYONCE????) what i want: chocolate.......new vans......Seungri’s solo get married: give me those tax benefits please career:  trophy wife / open up one of those painting while getting drunk on wine with your friends places

which is better?

hugs or kisses: I love hugs (from people I allow) lips or eyes: eyes shorter or taller:  .. taller. but same height or slightly shorter is totally okay older or younger:  mature mind please, doesn’t matter if you’re older if you act like a child arms or stomach: ARMSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant is so cute when its not me hahahaa

have you ever?

kissed a stranger: oh no..... not a fan of that drank hard liquor: yes, I prefer it to beer turned someone down: yes sex on a first date: ofc lmaoooooooo broken someone’s heart: i have had a heart broken: yes been arrested: yes (lmao) cried when someone died: yes fallen for a friend: yeah? but most of the time I get over it after figuring out what type of love I have for them (it ends up not being romantic at all)

do you believe in?

yourself: I’m not doing super good but I could also be in a worse position miracles: after seeing GDYB, yes. love at first sight: only applies to animals  santa claus: no angels: Kang Daesung and Kim Donghyuk

misc?

eye colour: brown woop di doop best friends name: lol i’m not going to say it here favourite movie:  I seriously hate these types of questions lol but I’m a huge MCU fan, GotG - CA:WS - Logan - Deadpool - Thor 3 will be my top 5 mcu movies favourite actor: see above. I fucking love me some Ryan Reynolds though. Joseph Gordon Levitt (YES JULLA). Chris Hemsworth’s humor and beard. favourite cartoon: FMA:B, Summer Wars, Fruit Basket, SnK favourite teachers’ name: Margret, omg she was like 60 when she taught us and she was the hardest teacher ever but I loved her and learned so many things til this day from her. And she’s still kicking now, and uses facebook, its so cute tbh.

[topconfessions]

[ASK]. 12/21. Part 1. Hi! Do not publish this confession, please. Gurl, post the next confession in which I wish you Merry! Merry Christmas!! Please, do not publish this message. And if you can change your password. Take care!

I AM tired of this. This feels like indirect harassment as if you guys dropping these "helpful" hints to protect me is really to attempt to scare the piss out of me.

Everything posted here is alleged for entertainment purposes only. The opinions, views or even information expressed & shared here is not intended to directly Slander or harm an idol. Period. Let's cut the bullshit. I'm tired. Stop talking to me as if someone is going to attack me, back me or send me malware or a threat somehow.

No shit this ain't a BTS blog. BIGBANG are legends but TOP aint worth his weight in net worth nor salt for anyone to give a fuck about him to this extent that you guys keep pestering me on. If TOP wants to throw his life away and drink it away then he needs to grab his balls like a grown man and accept that the internet will talk. Seungri is rarely discussed here cause he opted to do the right thing and LEAVE the entire industry & YG period. TOP can do the same. Until he does it there will always be an internet source to talk about what he does.

I could delete this blog today and still find secrets and tea on TOP.

Also I was very fucking gracious to you all regardless of whether you guys believe in psychic reading, tarot reading and hoodoo practices to tell you all that people HAVE & DO read into TOP and other kpop idols lives. A lot of psychics (doesn't matter if they are real or fake) know things about idols and they can figure out how they feel right now in the current moment, the past and future. It is somewhat an invasion of privacy but its reality. Plenty of them exist on Tumblr and YouTube.

So I wont be treated like every chunk of weeks there is a threat. TOP is a star on the decline due to his own actions nothing more or less. Y'all acting like we talking about Namjoon or somebody unproblematic. I'm over it