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merrivia · 1 year
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Okay so here’s a question. What are your interpretations of this part of Captive Prince? I’m not sure if I’m overthinking it, but I’m never sure if I’ve grasped it properly?
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Nicaise is filled with horror by the idea that Laurent will tell the Regent he wants him. Laurent clearly never would and is filled with pity at the thought.
So what would be the actual consequences of Laurent telling the Regent he wants Nicaise?
I have assumed that Nicaise, for all his frightened posturing, knows that to end up as a pawn between Laurent and the Regent is far worse than his current precarious and tragic situation, on the cusp of being discarded anyway.
I’m just wondering what specifically Laurent thinks will wreck Nicaise. Destroy him somehow. Is it realising just how disposable he is to the Regent? Even as Nicaise determinedly clings, the frightened child that he is, to the delusion the Regent won’t dispose of him, he also knows deep inside he will. Is that the truth that would destroy him?
Or just how evil the Regent is? That he has been abused into loving someone capable of horrific things, and once he sees Nicaise as a vulnerability for Laurent, the Regent will use and abuse him in order to further hurt, undermine and destroy Laurent?
I feel it’s one of those moments that elusively remain out of my grasp, so honestly someone please enlighten me 🙏
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ravenstag · 7 years
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Odd numbers and evens that are multiples of 5! I decided to get ~creative~
1- if someone wanted to really understand you, what would they read, watch, and listen to?
read: good omens and the immortals quartet
listen to: vices and virtues by p!atd and for anyone’s who’s listening by ashe vernon
watch: silence of the lambs
3. list your fandoms and one character from each that you identify with.
dragon age: solas (for the “dying alone” thing), cole, and hawke
overwatch: dva n genji
tomb raider: lara croft
5. do you think of yourself as a human being or a human doing? do you identify yourself by the things you do?
?? uhh i think of myself as a human trashcan-ing
but idk i think i identify as a mix of both?? because who you are by simply existing is what you do?
7. do you care about your ethnicity?
i’m white as shit dude no my ancestors were a bunch of fuckheads
9. are you an artist?
i write poetry? and sometimes fiction but nah i can’t even draw a stick figure
10. do you have a creed?
yeah, we’re put onto the earth to make things (even small things) better than before we got here and if i’m not doing that i’m a waste of space
11. describe your ideal day.
late fall around halloween and i get to jump around in leaf piles with my brother or girlfriend and then we play stupid video games and order thai food 
13. inside or outdoors?
both at the same time. half of my body inside and half outside. always.
15. five most influential books over your lifetime.
good omens, the immortals (counting as one book fuck you), wolfcry by amelia atwater rhodes, willow, aaaaand OH it’s kind of a funny story 
17. would you say your tumblr is a fair representation of the “real you”?
sure i guess. not as much rat pictures or kickboxing/krav/anything where I get to hit people content
19. which Harry Potter house would you be in? or are you a muggle?
fuck u for asking if i’m a muggle i’m a stone cold slytherin 
20. would you rather be in Middle Earth, Narnia, Hogwarts, or somewhere else?
hogwarts?? like 800 million times?? or tortall. or thedas.
21. do you love easily?
?? i don’t know probably i’m very needy
23. how often would you want to see your family every year?
i want to see my brother like every single day. i want to see my mother like. once every couple weeks. i want to see my dad usually never 
25. could you live as a hermit?
i pretty much already do
27. do you feel like your outside appearance is a fair representation of the “real you”?
no not even a little bit at all even close i hate the way i look so much 
29. three songs that you connect with right now.
warrior daughter by wildwood kin, better place by rachel platten, and consistently always northern downpour by p!atd
30. pick one of your favorite quotes.
you’re getting a couple 
“and here you are living, despite it all” -rupi kaur
“You are shaking fists & trembling teeth. I know: You did not mean to be cruel.That does not mean you were kind” -venetta octavia
*“what i wanna know is: am I allowed to hold “woman” at arm’s length, and still love it, like my favorite dress? am i allowed to put it down when it is too heavy to carry?” -ashe vernon
“a kingdom, or this?” -cs pacat from the captive prince series (i know i’m trash ok)
“like any unloved thing, i don’t know if i’m real when i’m not being touched” -natalie wee
“make me a paradox, wrap me in your beautiful contradiction. tell me i’m beautiful with your hands around my throat, that i’m bad when you reach for my hand. let’s be the filthy in silk, animals in a church, dark-alley saints. i’ll be the scream in a whisper, and you be the teeth in a kiss” -daniella michallen
and I can’t find my other sierra demulder book but it’s the poem about fucking during the end of the world. all of that one. 
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