#she is literally Jessica irl

[lunamond]

RIP Olympias of Macedon

Myrtale would have loved Alicent hightower and Lady Jessica.

[punkeropercyjackson]

To me Hobie being a mature teenager instead of an adult is in the same sitch as Gwen being trans instead of a trans ally.Often you see people say Hobie is an adult because that's what the Spiderverse crew originally planned like how you see people also often saying Gwen was originally cis so she still is but it makes a lot more sense both in the story and from an irl context for them to be a kid who was just forced to grow up too fast and a teen trans girl

The argument that Hobie 'acts nothing like a teenager' is literally a lie based off nothing and i know this because i've befriended a lot of black teens through the fandoms i'm in and some of us have gotten so close that we consider eachother family and the ones who're traumatized,be it by abusive parents or something else,have the exact same personality as him and he even reminds me of myself when i was in high school if i'd been more outgoing.Because that's just the thing-Hobie isn't supposed to be a NORMAL teenager,he's supposed to be a black traumatized one because that's who he's rep for,just like how Gwen is supposed to be rep for TRANS teen girls instead of cis ones so that's why she dosen't act or look like a cis girl either

The reason Hobie does stuff like extreme rebellion and direct action and even underaged drinking(see the pub line)and takes the parent friend role in the Spiderband is that he had his childhood almost entierly taken away from him but still has traits of a teen like getting along best with people his age and his sense of humor is that at the end of the day,he's still a child mentally and physically.The reason Gwen has a trans flag with 'protect trans kids' on it in her room and her dad has a trans flag patch on his jacket and the crew adjusted her design to give her stronger features and had her say 'People only know half of who i am' is that they wanted to take her accidental trans coding from her previous in incarnations and make it canon for presentation

That's one of the biggest goal's of Spiderverse:Representation.They choose to make Miles the protag because he's afrolatino and took the racist writings from his comics and fixed it by making it accurate to us irl,they changed Pavitr's costume to perfectly reflect his indian heritage,they wrote Rio as exactly like irl afrolatina moms and made Jessica black and Margo a member of the Spiderband to show black women onscreen.Obviously there's flaws in the writing like what they did to Peni(Like making her go from Nge-inspired to moefiying her)and i'll never not critique them but are Hobie being just an adult and Earth 65 Peter being the trans one really the better options and also the ones that makes the most sense?Are they really?

[cheemscakecat]

Oh… OH.

Guys hear me out… BLU Spy is a film buff who likes the Film Noir genre.

If you haven’t heard of/watched film noir, it’s 40s-50s era detective movies. If you’ve watched Who Framed Roger Rabbit, you basically get the gist of what the genre is like. Jessica Rabbit is a subversion of the fem fatale trope of a shrexy lady who works for the bad guys or is the main bad guy of the movie. Judge Doom is the crooked cop/official, R.K. Maroon is another corrupt party that allied with Doom. And Eddie Valiant is our cynical and jaded detective protagonist.

Now think about movies for a minute. How many times does the protagonist do something impossible because it looks cool? Be honest, John Wick is doing some maneuvers that make zero sense to real martial artists and government agents. Now think about how BLU Spy acts in Em Blue and Meet the Spy.

How many times does a detective/cop/agent protagonist go fight a dangerous person alone, and win? Usually there’s a struggle, but they still win. Spy didn’t though. Imagine he’s having a nightmare where one of the aspects is literally “You’re not that guy pal. Trust me, you’re not that guy.”

This is not the time to make demands, this is the time to shoot the guy with a bigger, faster gun before he can get you. But the good guy usually manages to shoot first or dodge, so he can have the confidence to do something this risky. Except it doesn’t work for Spy.

I can’t help but wonder if one of the reasons is that Soldier is an actual war veteran and not crazy like RED; remember how I mentioned real experts before? What if Solly’s fighter logic is cancelling out Hollywood logic in the scenes where he and Spy are together? Of course, that’s not the only reason why Spy can’t do the cool things he’s trying; it’s insecurity.

What happens in Meet the Spy?

So BLU Spy decided to do the dramatic thing and monologue to his teammates about the RED Spy in base, knowing darn well that one of them is probably said Spy. Carrying literal dead weight with the RED’s weapon lodged in it. With full confidence.

Some people think he knew “Scout” was RED Spy, but I actually think he fell for it. Why else would he say “nothing. Nothing like the man currently inside this building!” and then give said abnormally skilled and dangerous Spy his knife back? And that’s not the only reason he didn’t know, either.

This folder of dirty pictures is BLU Spy’s trump card. Yeah, showing it to RED to humiliate him would be funny… but not the most satisfying outcome. Giving it to the Admin for enemy team blackmail? More satisfying. Giving it to one of RED Spy’s enemies so they can kidnap BLU Ma or study the layout of that room? Devilishly satisfying. But that’s still not his end goal.

Scout is the youngest member of the team with the most to learn. You’re telling me that the same Administrator who hired a Director to get dirt on RED team, and doesn’t even care much for Pauling, doesn’t have two-faced Spies on both sides? BLU and RED teammates willing to sell their team’s secrets for bonuses or their own protection? Oh they exist.

This BLU Spy is not one of these double crossers IRL; but he does look for dirt on RED team. He was probably taking the dirtier pictures to get shot of RED without his mask, but he left it on. But he found out BLU Ma is consorting with an enemy teammate, and that’s very important. He wasn't showing this to Scout just to assert dominance as an older teammate, he was saying “Look, your mama can’t be trusted. Don’t give her your information.”

“PATTY CAKE? PATTY CAKE?! I don’t believe it! [cries]”

“Believe it sister, she played Patty Cake.”

It’s the same thing but more disrespectful, he’s trying to wise the real BLU Scout up about mercenary work.

And before anyone asks, no, BLU Spy is not BLU Scout’s daddy. No sane parent would show those pictures to their child, even if he’s an adult and his mama cheated. Besides that, Spy shows literally zero interest in romance during Em Blue, even when he’s telling Archibald what promotions he wants. That’s… not a normal occurrence in Film Noirs.

I’m not saying getting tricked by RED Spy and loosing those pictures before the real Scout could see them is the reason BLU Spy doubts his own abilities. But it’s at least a factor in the bigger reason.

[weirdthoughtsandideas]

A liveblog of a rewatch of my favorite lesbian film (Fucking Åmål)

Agnes having a "secret diary" on her computer it's so 90s.

"I am subtle about my crush on Elin" Meanwhile her diary:

It's so fucking funny how the first scene with Elin is her just POURING MILK OVER HER SISTER BECAUSE SHE DARED TO TAKE THE LAST OBOY (that's a chocolate drink) She's so impulsive and just says and does stuff all the time.

Everyone has known someone like Elin. And she was often the really annoying girl irl, but she's also just so young and naive and you can see there's just something else behind all of that.

Agnes' mom wanting her to have a party and AGNES DOESN'T WANT TOOOO AAAAUGGGHHH AND SHE DOES THIS BECAUSE OF HER MOM

Johan is so fucking awkward. He really tries to hit on Elin and she just disses him. Literally she doesn't want a ride and he's like "but you can carry the helmet if you want" HELP

NOT THE GIRAFFE NECK GIRL

Her name is Camilla but I call her giraffe neck girl because

Agnes... girl... stop doodling Elin's name you're not subtle

Victoria is so deeply afraid Agnes is gonna hit on her. Like. Agnes: So the french word for "bus"? Victoria: PUSS?! (this is the swedish word for "kiss") Agnes: ?? Agnes: Bus. Victoria: OH

Elin's lines in the cafeteria always cracks me up so much

Tfw you're grounded because you "accidentally had no pants on"

Listen like. I understand Agnes' mom, she just wants her daughter to have some friends. But she really does not understand her.

Oh no not the ableism... yikes

Agnes :((

Agnes litting up when she finds out Jessica and Elin have come over awwwwwwww

Not her mom giving them wine????

AGNES' COMPUTER IS ON AGNES HONEY GET A PASSWORD good thing Elin didn't see her diary cause.

Elin hearing the rumour about Agnes being a lesbian and her immediate thought is "Cool. I'm gonna be that too".

The 90s homophobia is strong, but some of these lines are so funny for no reason?? like?? Elin: What do I get if I kiss her? Jessica: AIDS, probably

Agnes' reaction to getting kissed by Elin isn't "omg I got kissed by my crush" it's shock, it's "what the fuck happened", and then when Elin and Jessica laugh and run away she just sits there. Not knowing how to feel. It's realistic.

Noooo Elin feeling so bad about it immediately and wanting to go back to apologize :(

Elin: *vomits* Johan: Fuck, you're so hot Elin:

Honestly same because who tf says this after you just have thrown up

Also how is this not a meme:

Fuck the self harm scene... aaaaaaaa I always forget it exists

Elin throwing rocks at the window :3

Ok I decided to translate my favorite exchange cause it's sooo

Tag your ship

Omg their talk about what they wanna be when they grow up <33

Elin: Do you think I am pretty enough to be a model?

Elin: Why are you so weird. Sorry for asking, but... you are weird. Agnes: You're weird, too. Elin: I want to be weird. Or... not weird, but I don't wanna be like everyone else. This exchange <33 They can be weird together

"It's just because you live in fucking Åmål" OOOOOOO

Elin is here with her dumb questions and Agnes is just

Let's go spontaneous trip to Stockholm woooooo

Imagine what would've happened if they actually went to Stockholm. THAT would have been a different movie.

AGNES GIVING HER A LITTLE KISS BEFORE GOING HOME

Not Jessica eating up all the chips because "otherwise their mom will wonder" and Elin is like "?? can't we be home without having eaten chips?"

ELIN MOANING IN HER SLEEP

Victoria is such a savage tbh.

"Good luck with Elin"

AAAAAAAAAAA JESSICA STOP BEING SO NOSY LET HER CALL HER!!

And Agnes will wonder why Elin isn't calling :( And Elin just WANTS to call but her nosy (but rightfully protective) sister is in the way :(

AND NOW ELIN HAS TO PRETEND SHE'S INTO JOHAN

Elin: Mom, I'm a lesbian Her mom: What?! Elin: Elin: Elin: Nah, I'm just joking

Not the random 30 second masturbation scene?? I mean this film has a very realistic portrayal of teenagers but. Well. At least it was just a zoom in on her eyes and not much else.

God living in a small town like these... everyone knows everyone...

NOT ELIN HANGING UP WHEN AGNES CALLS NOOOO her internalized homophobia :(

Agnes' dad sees so well that something is wrong and she can't tell himmmm

Elin: I wanna be a psychologist Jessica: YOU NEVER TOLD ME THAT

So I know Jessica is just looking out for her, they kind of only have each other, but also she needs to give her some fucking privacy

Jessica: You get everything you want Elin: WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT THAT? WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT WHAT I WANT? THE ANGST

Agnes' mom reading her diary AAAAAAAAAAAAAA WHYYYY

You know there's nothing to do in the small town when the teenagers play BINGO

Elin calling Johan from the OTHER ROOM to break up with him

Not the "you can't stand on an A-well because it means bad"

"No, I'm not feeling anything. No anal sex."

"I'm in love with someone else" AAAAAAA

THE CINEMATIC MIRROR WHEN AGNES HAS BEEN STARRING AT HER SCHOOL PHOTO ALL MOVIE AND NOW ELIN DOES THE SAME

Elin wanting to throw rocks at the window again and BREAKING THE WINDOW AND THE MUSIC JUST ABRUPTLY STOPS

TOILET CONFRONTATION LET'S GOOOO

Elin is so bad with words but god she tries... honey...

UGH and everyone outside banging on the door thinking she has a boy in there.

In this movie, no one comes out of the closet, they come out of the school restroom

"Ta da! Here is me, and this is my new girl! Could you move? We're gonna go and fuck!"

Wrote history!

"Fucking" means drinking oboy lmao

Elin just infodumping how she has too much chocolate powder in her milk

I really wonder what happens later. When they go back to school the next morning. When Agnes goes home to her mom who has read her diary. When Jessica finds out. But at the same time, it ends so sweetly. Right now it's only them and no one else.

This movie is really cheaply made. It's shot like it's some secret person recording these kids. It's awkward zooms and hectic cuts. But it also adds to the charm. It makes it feel... real. Like we're seeing them right now in these moments, not putting up an act.

Also, campy movies are the best movies :D

[violet-yimlat]

A bit about me! I meant to do this for a while but Procrastination!

Hi I’m Violent I mean Violent I mean Violent I mean Violet I mean Violent I mean Violet Morningstar (but more on that later). I’m 16 and my birthday is in October. I have ADHD and Autism. I’m Asexual. My Myers-Briggs type is INTP and my Eneagram is four. I’m a Libra, but that means literally nothing.

I’m female, I use She and It pronouns, and I identify as a demon. I use the demonkin and fallen angelkin labels.

And now it’s later. I have quite an odd family life because, like several others here on Tumblr I have been adopted by @morningbloodystar because that just seems to be what he does.

So that’s my dad. Which makes @chloe-decker-lapd my sort of mom.

My irl mom is also on Tumblr. I won’t @ her, but in the event of an actual emergency, she’s cakeomatic.

My siblings, the best and only internet siblings (and exclusively online friends) I’ve ever had in order of age are;

@ask-eric-the-disposable-demon Eric Morningstar. I’m pretty sure that he’s closest in age to our dad (like, how big are the age gaps between angels anyway?) but whatever, he’s our brother. He can turn into a rabbit and multiply like them too (when did you guys get the “multiplying like rabbits” joke in Zootropolis?)

@e-w-w-morningstar Eddie W.W Morningstar, who is sometimes a termite and crawled out of the ground in the 18 something-somethings. He has several children including @jessica-woodson-morningstar , my favourite niece.

@janeway-lover Abby Morningstar. She’s “the sensible one”, and apparently she’s cool with that. Big sister energy. One of these days, she’s going to end up saving all of our asses. @urielwiththegoodhair’s partner. SIMPS.

@helphowdoiusethis Jay Morningstar. God of glitter, Quing of ducklings (almost wrote dicklings lol) and somehow an ancient entity of stardust with a traumatic backstory while also being about a year older than me.

Me. I accidentally turned into a demon. And now a cursed book called “Evil Wizardry for Beginners” won’t leave me alone. My familiar is @barrythebabyturnip.

@echosghoast Echo Morningstar. Chaos sibling supreme. The younger sibling I never had, and much less annoying than the one I actually do. Can’t wait to commit a crime with you lol.

@hivemindofevilbats Hive. Literally vampire bats.

@adam-n-dog Adam Young. Nearly caused the apocalypse that one time. Great at naming dogs. He has a dog named Dog. Good boy! Good hellhound!

Last but certainly not least, @three-surnames Trixie Espinosa Decker Morningstar. Awesome little sister? Yes. In complete denial about the nature of reality? Also yes.

Also more siblings?

@angel-and-the-serpent @fallen-starmaker @vans-ghost

Then there are my other relatives.

@the-almighty-lucifer Dad from another reality who’s decided that he’s our uncle.

@one-coming-is-enough The aforementioned Uncle J.

@god-in-the-basement said she’d be our weird aunt but I guess she’s our great aunt?

@g00brielandbeez my uncle and how do we feel about Titi? In Spanish tia and tio are aunt and uncle so that’s the combination and it works.

I’m going to list some fandoms I’m in now;

Good Omens

Discworld

Helluva Boss and Hazbin Hotel

Lucifer

Heaven’s Design Team

Certain literature like Paradise Lost, Dante’s Inferno and Lucifer (as in the 17th century Dutch play)

Obey Me!

Yes, I’m into theology. And mythology. I’m an atheistic Satanist btw.

I like reading, listening to music and drawing, but I haven’t felt very inspired lately. I also like identity theft cosplay.

Well, those are the facts about me, and if none of them make you hate me, then maybe we should hang out sometime!

Always up for shenanigans.

[daphnebowen]

more season four episode one things

okay guys because I’m obsessed I’m rewatching season four this time actually recording things because last time I just did what I could remember. That was also from a while ago (when i originally wrote it) some stuff might be the same but do I care? No. I was gonna jump right to episode three but then I thought “am I really gonna miss ‘maybe this time’ and ‘puppy love’ for this? No.” So yeah. Here we go! FYI, most of these just might be quotes because I’m basically brain dead right now.

THE RINA CUEEEEEE and ginas proud little smile

I absolutely love Ryan’s sparkly suit

Monique, Corbin, kaycee, and Lucas sound soooo good!!! Lucas especially he is really belting

“they have been silent in the group chat” 💀 gets me every time

ms Darbus sounds the exact. same.

EW. EW. MACK IS - UGH 😑

Richard is screaming. I mean, I get it, I would too if my girlfriend was kissing someone else, but chill dude

“no boys?” Girl. Gina’s super smart. She can handle a boyfriend and worry about her future. I hate her so much.

mike 💀 RICKY PAY ATTENTION - I hope those clothes were clean~

AWWW HE HAS GINA IN A PHOTO ON HIS DESK <3

”be safe” is crazy 💀

”don’t… try not to mess that up.”

”that would have been thoughtful” he’s not slacking in the boyfriend department at all

”just kept us for us” is sooooo freakingggg sweeeeeetttt “as long as we’re an us” AHHH FIND ME A MAN LIKE RICHARD BOWEN

gina: shushing Ricky. Ricky: proceeds to make more noise on his way out of the window 🤦🏼‍♀️ what is wrong with him

kourtney and Carlos are slaying

”we need to sign him up and get him educated” girl same

Ashlyn is so lost lmao

miss Jenn gets their attention so flawlessly my teachers could never

I wanna see Richard bowen’s senior prank… 😃

theyre so disappointed about doing hsm again lmao “high school musicale?!”

the east high leopards mascot is actually so disturbing

”mentally I’m not here” lmao sameeee!

”the whole gang” mins Troy Gabriella and Sharpay as per the first five minutes of the show right?

coach literally spit while saying “America’s favorite couple”

woke. I can’t.

bart Johnson is so hyped

”if it’s Mack somebody stop me before I flirt with him” “Carlos!” “Yeah, Carlos!” Ricky is so jealous omg

”Mr bluh?”

miss Jenn looks like she’s about to pass out when Monique and Lucas walk in 😭

JESSICA IS CRAZY

poor Ricky I just want him to be happy

“if Alcatraz and 7-11 had a baby” Quinn 💀

they’re dead. The farm is heaven. Why did he say that so bluntly???? The way Gina’s face fell was so sad too

”I bet he sheds a lot” PLEASE

can I just say I think Ricky is way better looking and just way better than Mack??? Like this boy has nothing to worry about.

Kourtney turned British there for a moment lmao

gina cannot improvise holy crap

“opposites do attract” THE LOVE IN HIS EYES I CANT

HOMECOMING I CANT THEY ACTUALLY LOOK THE SAME

the fact that they made Ricky’s hair darker for the Valentine’s Day part is actually crazy

“wow” part 1

Raisenets are nasty

i wanna see kourtneys instagram like I bet it’s so cute

why the freak does Dani want to know about Ricky like hop off he’s in a very serious relationship

”WISH WE WERE CUDDLING” omg WHAT (tho tbh… that would be sooo cute. I want a spin-off of just rina. No one else. Just rina one shots irl)

[mayorofclowntown]

Hello!

I made an Au!

Oh of what you may be asking? What silly silly clown man made an au o

Twilight. I made a twilight au. I'm not even kidding.

What is the au about?

The au is STILL around Bella Swan moving to Forks with her dad but it's not a love story between Edward or Jacob. She gets with Tyler Crowley.

What's different?

Everything.

Cullen's aren't siblings.

Jacob isn't a big dog.

They're in college.

There's more than vampires and wolves because that's BORING!!!! (Tyler is a Gargoyle!!! But they're a bunch of forest critters and all that.)

because Bella doesn't get with Edward almost immediately, the newborn army is because James died and Victoria mourns horribly. Laurent doesn't go after Bella for this reason, and is alive.

Bree (that sad, scared newborn Riley turned) lives and is Edwards adoptive sibling who is hidden with Carlisle and Esme. Because I said so. Jane doesn't need her dead tbh.

Aro's ending fight happens, but not because of an immortal child (bc Bella doesn't get preggos), still figuring out what happens tho.

Irl Notes for the AU!!

Bella and Tyler (guy who hits her with the car) get together because 🫶🫶🫶

Uhhhhhhhh Edward does NOT like Bella, he's just very hungry

Cullen siblings are not siblings, but still dating, they are all just roomies, I'll give them different last names;

Edward Cullen and his parents.

Alice Visão (Vision) (Portuguese)

Jasper Manouver (spelt officially Manœuver, a different way to say Manipulate.) (French)

Emmet Síla (Strong) (Czech)

Rosalie Belle (Pretty) (French) [ends up as Rosalie Belle-Síla]

Jacob is protector zoned, but it's like a "💜?" "no your a big dog, that's weird. You can protect me tho" "I'll take it."

The story isn't just about Edward and Bella, but like Edward, Bella, Jacob, Tyler, and whatever. Story mode

Will focus on vampire stuff but also like, other stuff bc fuck vampires.

Tyler's group are gargoyle Esque, because they're canon hippes. (Get it? Stoners-- do you get it-)

Modern Age because I don't wanna go back to 2008.

They're in college, they have specific majors;

Bella: Botany (plants)

Tyler: Botany (weed)

Edward: music

Jessica: she's like, a model energy so some fashion degree

Eric: idk I don't care about this guy tbh

jacob: not in college

the girl Eric is dating: photography

Mike: some football jock

There's like a part in the movie where Bella is like heavily depressed and a adrenaline junk??? I'm making it about the near death trauma she had, not the fact Edward leaves. She literally goes to therapy.

There is no monster racism, just the whole *someone in your family killed someone in my family and by traditional stances I should hate you but you're fine ig*. So Jacob and Edward are besties.

Jacob doesn't tell Edward someone's dead. because Bella isn't with Edward 100% of the time, she doesn't have to go to fucking Italy for something stupid tbh.

Victoria doesn't start a newborn army bc of Bella (because she's not dating Edward), she's starting it to make sure the Cullen family and roomies are outnumbered for takeover (but Laurent doesn't die)

Bree (teenager) doesn't die, she lives with the Cullen, specifically Esme and Carlisle.

Bella isn't a vampire, so the reason why vampires can't affect her is because sometimes,,, it doesn't affect everyone. It pisses off Edward because he's "curious" about her but she just can't be read. Tyler can't have his thoughts read because he's a gargoyle, that's all.

What Now?

I don't know. I'm sharing my au. That's all. I might make a side blog for it 🫶

[angelxd-3303]

Me at Wales comic con with Jessica Darrow! She is such a sweet person irl, a literal cinnamon roll and her ass is amazing! I was cosplaying as Jorge with the bucket and trowel but that bucket got way too hot.

I'm getting back into the Encanto fandom after a rough few weeks with an Encanto discord and it's making me happy again. I said something to a friend and all that was in my head was Antonio when he gets his gift.

"I understand you."

*chirps*

"Of course they can come!"

*squawks*

*animals come like circle of life and there's the panpipe music and the door glows*

"We have a new gift!"

*Choir starts and Antonio looks amazed*

"It's bigger on the inside?!"

*Parce yeets Antonio onto his back and climbs the tree, cue me aggressively stimming*

Encanto is very much my hyperfixation and I love it, it was the right film at the right time.

Also you cannot tell me that Bruno, Pepa and Julieta dress as the characters from don't hug me I'm scared. Pepa will be Dave I think it is? "We live in an enternal NIGHTMARE!!!!!"

Aww! You guys both look so adorable! I love the poncho! The Encanto fanbase can be a bit chaotic to say the least, but I'm glad you're still able to draw happiness from this masterpiece! And yeah, that would be an interesting crossover. It'd be interesting to see how the triplets react to the trio, and vise versa. Hmm...filing this idea away for the future...

[anothersebastianblog]

they tweeted this before the nominations were known and all for Elizabeth to not get the nomination>>I saw that lol I don't know what Seb has to do with Elizabeth, these people are a bunch of idiots obsessed with Sebastian. // Elizabeth Olsen? Is that whose fans we are talking about? That's funny because, while I think EO is a WILDLY talented actress (the acting in that trailer for her recent show alone was smth else), she is guilty of very similar things that make people dislike Sebastian. She literally got criticised for talking about the person she played (an irl murderer), as if she was some sort of girl boss. 😬

Also jessica biel are her up in Candy which is the same and Love&Death and came out a year ago

[vole-mon-amour]

TW death, description of death & its 'symptoms'. This is very personal, so be nice or simply avoid. I'm writing this for me, not for you.

He literally investigates suspicious deaths. You really think he's that dumb? Ugh.

The way I started nervously laughing. She died seven weeks ago & they only called them now. Same, my dudes, same.

The movie gives me more fear as I watch it. It's only the second victim and Amy tries to resurrect the patient, but no luck (obviously). And when Charlie was washing the body of a patient he killed, it triggered me quite bad. Made me think of my mum dying in the ICU & how they must have washed her when she was alive and her body when she died. It's been more than a year & I'm still coming to terms with my parents' death and death, as something that happens and how it looks in general.

And I feel so bad for Amy as well. Not only because of all the stress and her working with a killer without knowing about it, but also because of her medical condition. My dad's heart just stopped at one point & the emergency doctors couldn't get it beating again. And he was slowly losing breath, too, before dying, so it's a general heart condition & I'm... How Amy loses the ability to heart, to breath, to function, to stay conscious. Yeah, I feel this movie on a very personal level.

Every day I try to move forward with my life & I'm succeeding most of the time. But there are days, little moments like this, even, that trigger me & make me think about all that's happened. How it all was. Of all the brief and nervous conversations we had about death and him dying, and then how it came true in the same manner. I should probably start watching this movie, but I can't. It's way too important for me to process all that's happened.

I decided to watch this movie instead of another episode of CM & look where that got me. What can I say, it's a trauma that reminds of itself and hurts you really bad from time to time.

On a less personal note: the moments with the police (in the movie) digging more information on Charlie reminds me of Mindhunter on Netflix. Bill and Holden doing all the work, digging some new information as well.

Eight weeks on "investigation". Honestly, who the hell is Charlie?

This is very hard to watch and absolutely heartbreaking.

Most of the times that I watch Jessica in different projects, I understand more and more her interview where says that her secret is working hard. She does work hard. I used to think that acting is maybe not a real job, something silly, something not worth being paid that amount a money, but people like her make me think that maybe it is (aside from maybe the amount of money. I still think it's a LOT. I dislike celebrity culture in general.) Still, it's often hard, and she is really, really good at it. She gives all her characters their own life.

This scene, too. This movie is just one huge trauma. Makes me think a lot.

I'm so mad at her. She understand everything and tries to get rid of him for a silly reason. She doesn't want to arrest him. Doesn't want to cooperate with the police. Doesn't want to stop a killer from killing more innocent people. She just wants her ass covered and the hospital's record clean. And yes, it's her (?) fault for not checking with previous hospitals Charlie worked at to know more about the person she's (?) hiring. Of course it's her fault and doesn't want to be blamed, but man, people like that? One of the worst.

"Why?"

"They didn't stop me."

This @ that blonde above. I mean, yeah, it is no one's fault, really, that the killer killers, but he could've been stopped. And it's a common reason, really. Many irl killers said that they should/could have been stopped earlier. That the police could've prevented this. But they didn't, and it got to the killers' minds that they can just do it and walk away free. I wish the "I didn't forget your goodness" part of the confession was more believable, but overall, yeah. Reminds me of real cases (hi to Kemper and Dahmer, for example). The motivation is still a bit unclear to me, though. He wanted to kill because of what? Usually it has some kind of motivation. Rage. Getting at your ex/relative. Mental disorder. Many reasons, tbh. I still would like to know. I guess it'll be left unknown.

Holy shit. Made me think of Bundy and Manson immediately. I mean, what they did was in no way better. Their murders were brutal. The number of victims, however...

Wow. Just wow.

I am so mad.

As a side note: nice headboard. Maybe I need one.

[gayjaytodd]

nothing better than reading a series of historical murder mystery books only to find out in the last book that several of the main characters are fascists and at least two become personal friends of hitler

[give-grian-rights]

If you don't mind me asking, what's the problem with Aphmau? I've only heard a few things about fetishizing a year or so ago, but aren't sure on other things.

A bullet point of some. highlights

-one of her few POC characters is a human trafficker who drugged, transformed, and sold Aphmau and Laurence

-Mystreet had a three-four season long storyline that's plot twist turned out to be INCEST. Aphmau's half-brother stalking, drugging, mindcontrolling, and marrying(?) her .

-Jessica (Aphmau's cc) has had her children voice act in her series and has their full names on the internet.

-Jessica made Mystreet's Aphmau and Aaron based on how Jessica met her husband. by being younger than a freshmen talking online to a senior in high school and falling in love. along with many other Redflags throughout that series

-her very-much-so "child" channel which features her irl children has consistent themes of sexual harassment, sexual assault(grabbing asses) stalking, and misogyny (FOR SOME REASON??) as a joke and acceptable thing (Kattelyn and Travis, Kawaii~Chan stalking and taking pictures of Aarmau dates, etc)

-again this lady literally has i THINK all of her children's names, ages, and pictures on the internet, has them voice-act in her series, that has incest, sexual harassment, drugging, humantrafficking, all for her child audience.

also she wrote nsfw for the characters but i don't think that's SUPER awful since it's. her ocs. just a bit weird considering AGAIN. CHILDREN CHANNEL

[love-toxin]

I swear Emma was the most irritating character ever. If you keep her alive all she does is go back to the lodge and hide. That's it. While everyone else is out there helping each other or trying to find a way out, all she does is hide. After that I let her die immediately on my second playthrough!

(spoilers + until dawn spoilers)

DUDE WHAT........listen.......if you're gonna make a mean, bitchy character, you gotta commit. at least for a character like abi it's understandable that she wants to hide, but even when she does so in the storm shelter while dylan and kaitlyn are off at the scrapyard she still can make herself useful by giving kaitlyn the bullets she finds later on. the fact that emma just hides (and that her reunion with jacob goes how I've seen it does) is just such a waste of a character imo!!

im gonna be insufferable and compare it to until dawn again, but like cmon!!! emily was also a bitchy character, but she showed empathy for her friends when they needed it most and fell off a wholeass fire tower, survived, and got through the mines to get out while also finding the body of her friend in the process. mike was overconfident and hardheaded but it worked for his character when he went searching through the full sanitorium, came back alive, and went back again just to avenge jessica and save his friends. jessica got dragged around a mountain and fell down a mineshaft and even when she was half-dead she had enough strength to not only defend herself with a shovel, but escape with matt and hide from the wendigo successfully.

like, in a game like this, it's so imperative to use each character's flaws and strengths to their advantage, otherwise why even give them character traits in the first place? if emma's gonna be a mean character then at least make her somewhat of a badass. and as bad as it would sound IRL, it would've been way better if they really showed how the trauma affects each character and causes them to grow throughout the story, because until dawn did it so well and the quarry just fell kinda flat on it. like dylan literally gets his hand cut off with a chainsaw and is completely fine, like they use the excuse that he's "in shock" and then he has almost no complications later on, emotionally or physically. so when emma gets chased by a literal monster out of the blue when she's been separated and has no idea what's going on, i would've expected her to eventually buckle down and decide that she needs to help her friends survive the night. having her hide just makes her seem mean and a coward, which just totally eliminates the appeal for me for her character.

[yeristrophyhusband]

as devastated as i am that i got fucked over for the twice concert i’ve decided that idk if i want to redo the taeny storyline completely or keep the original?

and if you weren’t on my old blog here’s what taeny au was—

taeyeon:

taeyeon is 23 and is in school for architecture and works for key and onew’s contracting company. they build and remodel literally anything. their team consist of kibum, jinki, seulgi, wendy, taeyeon, and taemin. key, onew, and taemin are the same age as they are in IRL. seulgi is the same age and wendy is a years younger.

she lives with jessica and krystal in an apartment idk where i haven’t decided yet. krystal is the same age as taeyeon and jessica is a year older than them. they also have seohyun (same age as krys and tae) but she lives on her own. all go to same college, jessica majors in biochemistry, krystal in teaching, and seohyun in interior design (idk what thats called).

jessica is works under a paid internship. krystal is a teachers aid. and seohyun makes a lot of money doing only fans by also using underwear brands in her videos (taeyeon has starred in some videos but shhh)

all of them are extroverts except taeyeon. she would be a workaholic if jessica didn’t limit how much she worked by asking her bosses to. a homebody and has only had two long term relationships. taeyeon only has experience in the sex department bc of her exes and mostly seohyun.

tiffany:

tiffany just turned 30. her life consists of managing her co owned lingerie and underwear brand with sooyoung (CLARIFYING SNSD SOOYOUNG) and irene. a very dedicated aunt for her niece and nephew yeji and hyunjin (i made them twins bc i can) so she is either working or spending time with them. hasn’t dated in YEARS. lives on her own in a sexy penthouse.

an ambivert, while her besties sooyoung and irene are antisocial. is she’s not with the twins, she with them. they all personally model every now and then for the lingerie and underwear stuff. they all also really need to get laid but sooyoung is till in love with her ex yuri and irene refers herself as a “lone wolf”

how did taeny originally meet?

at a little market place when yeji approached taeyeon so they could talk about their crochet animals. tiffany apologizes for yeji “bothering her” but all taeyeon can think about is she’s a milf. after that encounter tiffany actually hires key and onew’s company to remodel her kitchen and bathrooms—taeyeon accepts the job without knowledge.

during the duration of it they talk and get to know each other and it’s obvious they’re very into each other. one day when it’s just taeyeon doing the final touches tiffany (who has a studio in her penthouse to do photoshoots bc she’s a control freak) runs into a problem when both of their models end up having to back out, so when tiffany asks taeyeon if she can model with her girlie agrees quickly. then they have chemistry blah blah and then taeyeon gets a blow job.

that part seems plain actually 🤔but they do have a lot of tension so idk what do yall think

[mattelektras]

I want to know why you didn't like Jessica having a baby? I really don't have an opinion on it because I don't really know the character but maybe it wasn't a good idea to make her a mom.

personally baby stories are almost always a hard no for me like. its just not something that even slightly appeals to me probably because of my irl feelings towards it so thats kind of a me problem. pregnancy creeps me the fuck out physically and theoretically n it always has so i'll try to be objective here

just. why. literally why. what does it add to her as a person who has never shown any interest in having a family and even if they were, ISNT in the position to have one.

why would a woman who goes out every night to fight crime, possible be beaten up a little (miscarriages dont exist) have god knows what happen to them, possibly DIE without anyone knowing, want a kid????? ive seen people explain it with regards to when she was abducted by skrulls and she thought no one cared or noticed she was missing and she just wants someone to need her. and its like. oh thats healthy is it. for her to literally have a whole human depend on her. jess has trauma from so many things and has always been a character whose mental experiences impact her stories and they did not play into this at all. the baby cured all of her issues. thank you so much that does so much for women as a whole. have a baby that'll fix it

the covers were just.... uncomfortable none of these people have ever seen or spoken to a pregnant woman before

your spine queen???? if she straightened up her torso would be like 3 miles long

every cover's only purpose is to exaggerate the stomach like maybe this is my baby allergies again but it feels kind of. fetishy. u know freaks on the internet had a great time w these

how is she this far along and still not wearing maternity clothes like thats not comfortable. i find it hard to believe any pregnant person would just continue wearing normal clothes that visibly dont fit and expose half their stomach

people change when theyre pregnant!!!! ur face gets chubby!!! your boobs get huge!!! all of you gets bloated and u feel gross!!! other than the stomach there is literally NOTHING different about jess. she still has a beautiful face, skinny legs etc etc. which i feel kind of feeds into the fetishy vibe of it all. like they made sure we all know she's still attractive and skinny and sexually appealing. shes got other stuff going on right now. shes growing a whole human. shes not gonna fuck you.

IN ADDITION. the run where it happened, was the run/s that started with the notoriously vile milo manara doing this variant cover

so as a whole i find it hard to believe the creative team would ever be trying to make a point about how pregnant women are strong as fuck and can do shit whilst going through such huge bodily changes. we have to know she's fuckable first and foremost. like yeah of course pregnant women can be sexy but theres a fine line between shes hot!! and whatever the covers for this run were doing. especially when the interior was so adverse to the variants. javier rodriguez is a great artist who depicts women very realistically so what the fuck happened here i genuinely couldnt tell you. the cover is what people see first so to make sure thats sexualised to high heaven says a lot about the motives here. the whole thing started with greg fucking land who is famous for the exact opposite of child bearing hips

and just again on the impracticalities of it all.... she literally gave birth and got up straight away and fought skrulls. absolutely no shot in any universe thats physically possible. infections???? needing stitches??? exhaustion???? honestly marvel writes shit i dont like personally all the time but if they do research and speak to people who k ow what theyre talking about then i cant be mad but this is exactly the opposite. youre telling me there were NO writers who had experience with pregnancy or had experienced it themselves who you could even SPEAK to or ask a question???? it had to be dennis fucking hopeless??? of avengers arena???? THAT dennis hopeless??

tl;dr female superheroes do not exist to have babies solely for drama purposes. the big mystery isnt who the father is. even if she were a character that a baby makes sense for, it literally doesnt matter. the father isnt around. women having kids doesnt revolve around who the father is. it was a deliberate sales gimmick that pretty much just said that the real point of this woman's story is to find out which man impregnated her

[amphtaminedreams]

Farewell to Spooky Season, AHS Style: Lookbook no.12

Hi to anyone reading,

Happy belated Halloween!

I capitalise it because if I'm gonna recognise any day as sacred, it’s the spookiest one of the year! Halloween 2020 obviously hasn’t been as exciting as usual, parties and club nights being banned has meant there’s been far less opportunities to dress up, but I still managed to get out for the night before they announced the upcoming second lockdown and do a couple of spooky movie nights (and carve a pumpkin!)!

I originally intended for this lookbook to be last minute halloween costume inspo but I was lazy and didn’t manage to get it out on time-a lot of these looks minus the makeup and maybe an accessory or two could work on any day or night out so I thought I’d go ahead and post it now anyway. Celebrating the fashion moments of American Horror Story is something I’ve wanted to do for a while; it’s probably not the first show you’d think of for sartorial inspiration but Mr. Ryan Murphy has fucking fantastic taste in stylists and the first five seasons of AHS in particular, which I’ll be focussing on in this post, have given us SO many amazing looks. The man may be guilty of many things-subjecting us to the character of Will Schuester, trying to turn Richard Ramirez into a thirst trap, embarrassing everyone who raved about how good Scream Queens was when he wrote season 2-but costume related laziness is not one of them. We see more consistency in a Ryan Murphy character’s wardrobe than we do in their story arcs and I respect that because honestly, as much as I love joining in when it comes to ripping into his ability to cohesively bring an AHS season to a close when it airs, I’d probably be the same; if you put Lady Gaga in front of me and told me to write her lines I’d probably end up getting overly invested in what her character was going to be wearing in the scene too. 

So! Enough Ryan Murphy bashing from me! I’ll get on with it! Starting with 3 season 1 inspired looks:

Murder House: Elizabeth Short, Tate Langdon and Violet Harmon

-striped jumper from caitlinlark on Depop, kick flare jeans from ellagray-

When it comes to reflecting on season 1 of American Horror Story, all I can say do is thank the internet overlords that Tumblr has moved on from the romanticising school shooters and wearing normal people scare me tops phase to instead collectively taking the piss out of the “GO AWAY, TATE!”, “YOU’RE ALL THAT I WANTTT! YOU’RE ALL THAT I HAVEEE!” exchange. 

In terms of fashion *moments*, whilst season 1 doesn’t stand out as much as the seasons that come after, Violet and Tate’s wardrobes did give birth to a bit of a 90s grunge renaissance with their oversized knits and faded jeans and layering of textures. It did also give us good costumes in the form of Alexandra Breckenridge’s Moira O’Hara and Mena Suvari’s portrayal of the Black Dahlia, Elizabeth Short; unfortunately, I didn’t have a slutty maid costume lying around so I did the best I could at giving the outfit Elizabeth wears when she makes that fateful visit to the Murder House a modern, more party appropriate update.

In terms of season rankings, Murder House isn’t my favourite. It starts off really great but lulls a bit towards the end and I could never get behind Violet and Tate as a couple because you know, one of them is a school shooter who sexually assaults the other’s mum, and that’s a hurdle that I think most couples might struggle to get over irl. That being said, it was the season that started it all and showcased some of the most innovative writing and directing on TV, and it opened up a spot for horror on primetime television which as far as I know was kind of unheard of before then. Back when I first watched it, I had no idea what to expect not only because I’d never seen horror in a serial format but also because it seemed to be able to get away with the kind of storylines you’d expect network executives to fire people over. It introduced us to Jessica Lange and Sarah Paulson and Evan Peters and Denis O’Hare who would go on to make the show what it is today and more importantly, through Jessica’s glorious portrayal of Constance Langdon, provide us with an endlessly versatile meme format for this trying time.

Asylum: ‘60s Lana Winters, ‘70s Lana Winters, and Sister Mary Eunice McKee

-afghan coat from louisemarcella on Depop, red AA skater dress from julietramage, pink gingham co-ord from zshamim-

I think we can all agree: Asylum would’ve been a perfect series of television if it wasn’t for the completely unnecessary alien storyline. Like, I get that they fit in with the whole good vs. evil theme as a kind of non-biblical alternative to the idea of a higher, all-powerful being but there was already so much going on that it just wasn’t needed. Aside from that, I think the general consensus amongst watchers of the show is that Asylum has the best writing of any season and I think I’d tend to agree. It’s not my favourite because it’s too depressing to rewatch but if we’re talking the first time round, this is the series that had me hooked. Lana Winters?

Iconic. 

Sister Mary Eunice? Iconic. The Name Game? Iconic. Remember when you couldn’t go a day on Facebook without seeing that one photo of Naomi Grossman as Pepper used as the go to “what I really look like” photo in one of those “expectation vs. reality” style posts on your newsfeed? Those were simpler times.

Because this season was mostly situated within the hospital, we didn’t get that many proper outfits but when we did, they were stunning; if I had to state my absolute favourite AHS character of the entire show I’d probably go with Lana Winters and the part her wardrobe played in her characterisation would 100% play a part in that. The late 60s/early 70s was such a wonderful period for fashion and through her character we get to see both of those explored a little. Of course there’s also *that* Sister Mary Eunice scene with the red slip dress and suspenders too which yes, could be a perfect halloween costume, but I also strongly believe should be a perfectly acceptable outfit for any day of the year. 

Coven: Misty Day, Madison Montgomery, and Zoe Benson

-chiffon dress from rags_to_riches on Depop, pinstripe corset from hanpiercey, and tennis skirt from mollie_morton-

I hate to be a basic bitch but I have to say it: Coven is my favourite season of American Horror Story. Once you get over the complete waste of Evan Peters’ acting capabilities that resulted from the *choice* to have him play Kyle, the unnecessary rehash of the Evan/Taissa pairing from season 1 in what I can only assume was an attempt to capitalise on the popularity of the questionable Tate/Violet relationship, and the subsequent sacrifice of any interesting character arc we could’ve foreseen for Zoe Benson beyond her obsessing over a resurrected, non-verbal frat boy, it’s a perfect season. A supreme (heh) balance of horror, humour, and character drama, as well as the stunning aesthetics and forever quotable dialogue, make it my go-to season if I’m ever considering a rewatch. And if you disagree, let me jog your memory with the most mainstream (not to get all “normal people scare me” and suggest AHS is not a mainstream show, I literally just mean in the sense that even those who have never watched the show will have seen this)  reaction GIF set any FX show has even spawned:

Buzzfeed employees had a field day, Emma Roberts enthusiasts (I mean me) finally saw her cemented as the pop culture icon Scream Queens has since showed us she deserves to be (because not enough people have seen Unfabulous, Nancy Drew or Scream 4) and the gays everywhere rejoiced at the year’s worth of meme fodder they’d been provided with. It was Madison Montgomery’s world and we were truly just living in it.

And the fashion! I mean, Stevie Nicks meets 21st century teenage witches! Come on! 

Freakshow: Dandy Mott, Maggie Esmerelda and Elsa Mars

-olive green satin skirt from morganogle on Depop, headscarf from tonijordan, platform sandals from elliefewt, PVC skirt from bethpin_, corset top from sadieflinter, beret from house_of_erotique, flame detail platform boots from mad_rags_vintage-

When people talk about the declining quality of AHS, they usually point to Freakshow as the beginning of the end, but I have to completely disagree. I wasn’t a fan the first time round but on rewatch it’s probably the most emotional season of them all; no, there aren’t as many “horrifying” moments as in other seasons and Elsa is probably Jessica’s worst performance (which is still an incredible one by anybody else’s standards), however it makes up for it with the most sympathetic bunch of characters yet, and on the flip side, also one of the most amusingly depraved with Finn Wittrock’s Dandy Mott. Fans usually argue that the season went downhill once *SPOILER* Twisty the Clown was killed off but for me, he really primarily served as the catalyst for the far more interesting devolution of Dandy, who, imo, is the show’s strongest villain to date, rivalled only by Bloody Face. Then there was the episode Orphans too which made me cry buckets, the sole AHS episode to do so. 

We got a lot of great fashion content in this season too: the theatrical opulence of Elsa Mars’ wardrobe, “Maggie”’s nomadic fortune teller costumes, and all those twee suits we saw Finn Wittrock in. Highly underrated if you ask me. It seems an odd choice for me to use Elsa’s Dominatrix look as an inspiration for one of my looks here when we have that Life on Mars performance outfit and all the extravagant robes Jessica got to waltz around in for reference buuuut I didn’t really have anything to do the vibrancy of either of those justice so I went with the black leather option which is much more me. Am I saying I moonlight as a dominatrix? Maybe. Lol, no. I wish. It’s not for lack of trying. WHERE ARE ALL THE GENUINE TWITTER PAYPIGS AT!? Your girl wants to insult creepy men and get some new clothes out of it xoxo

Hotel: Hypodermic Sally, Liz Taylor, and The Countess

-silk white bralet from xlibby_maix on Depop-

Hotel is another season that I liked a lottttt more upon rewatch, once I knew I was okay to tune out the (completely predictable and utterly nonsensical) Ten Commandments Killer storyline that so much of the season initially seems to hinge on. I love Chloë Sevigny but the fact that her and Wes Bentley’s wooden John and Alex Lowe are positioned as the protagonists at the expense of the far more interesting Liz Taylor, James March and Hypodermic Sally really does a disservice to what is an otherwise great season upon initial viewing.

The visuals this season are magnificent and I think if I had to pick one character’s wardrobe to steal from the entire cast of AHS characters, it would be The Countess (a toss up between her and Misty Day tbh, so I kinda just settle for low-key channelling both). No fucking idea where I'd wear any of her clothes to but I’d make it work. Liz Taylor and Hypodermic Sally have some amazing looks too-there’s just honestly so much to choose from; that being said, this post wouldn’t be complete without a specific ode to the vampire goddess Elizabeth Bathory, who is everything I want to be in life minus the murderous qualities:

Everything. EVER-Y-THING. LOOK AT HER!

Lady Gaga is really a fucking goddess isn’t she. And people were claiming before they’d even seen it that she couldn’t act? A patriarchal society doesn’t like women that can do it all. Just saying. 

Anyways!

That’s it for now! I hope you enjoyed the post if you did read til the end! Sorry I couldn’t get this out before Halloween, I was typing and Picmonkey-ing madly from 2 in the afternoon on the 31st but I taking fucking forever to get ready and had to abandon all hope of getting it out on the day by 4PM. I’ve got so much content planned and it sucks because a couple of them are lookbooks which now feel completely redundant given we’re heading into a second lockdown, but maybe I should just do it anyway? The grunge inspired moodboard I just did seemed to get a good reception too so I’ve got some more of them planned. 

As always, hope everyone is keeping well, and feel free to inbox me with any suggestions, queries or even just to say hi if you need someone to talk to! I check here quite a lot so I should see it. Lots of love to everyone in this time!

Lauren x