#so I just gotta shimmy underneath these two smaller blankets and hope the zzzs hit me again | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

catcatb0y · 2 years

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Not being to regulate my emotions properly is so wild, like

Loss? Death? Inevitable.

Realizing that I will never be able to properly live as a fully function human because of my disabilities? Been there, realized that.

What would normally cause a large emotional spiral? Shut down.

The pants that I want to wear getting dirty shortly after I washed them? Absolutely devastating. Terrible. Horrible. I will never recover. I'm already tearing up.

#seriously though I JUST washed those #they're the only sweatpants I have that fit perfectly #and they're soft and fuzzy #all of my other sweatpants aren't fuzzy and the waist fits weird #I was not expecting to do fucking farm chores in my goddamned sweatpants #and I JUST FUCKING WASHED THEM #I finally got them back and now they're useless #like I can't just curl up under a big blanket to make the cold go away because my only big blanket #either got washed too much or not washed enough and that killed the fuzz #so now it's matted and itchy even after being washed #and I'm fucking cold after being dragged out into the snow for hours with no wake up period #but I don't have cozy pants #or a big warm blanket #so I just gotta shimmy underneath these two smaller blankets and hope the zzzs hit me again

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