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#so much good is happening right now. karma is finally getting to me and I'm talking about the good one.
wally-franks · 1 year
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So, this is gonna be a bit corny but.. Thank you. Just thank you.
I wish to thank everyone who has left a kind comment and shown their love for my character designs and just my art in general... I wish to thank everyone that engages with my stuff. I with to thank everyone for just everything. It means so much to me that people take the time of their day to appreciate and share my work. And it even means more to me whenever people want to know more about my designs and interpretations of the characters. (I'm unfortunately too shy and too ashamed to share much but.. Maybe someday..) I'm so grateful whenever people talk to me and stuffs..
You are all are such kind souls and all your sweet and loving words have touched me deeply. I truly appreciate the support and I am extremely grateful for everything that has happend the past months. (time flies by so fast.)
Not just that, but I also appreciate the people I met during that time. I want to take a quick moment to express my gratitude for the amazing friends and mutuals I've made over the past few months. You all have made such a positive impact on my time being here and I truly appreciate your presence and support.
Thank you for being there for me and for sticking around. I feel lucky to have you all in my life and I'm excited to see where our friendships go from here!
Thank you.
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astonmartinii · 9 months
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witchy business | oscar piastri social media au
pairing: reader x oscar piastri
oscar's gf is a lil kooky but she puts solstice to good use and mainfests some luck for her bf
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yourusername: you're not really sisters if you've never done a ritual together ...
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user1 she's so mother
user2 i can't wrap my head around how her and oscar came to be but i love it
oscarpiastri don't have too much fun without me :(
yourusername tell your team to take out the no ritual clause from your contract i swear they're safe landonorris i heard your latin once IT IS NOT SAFE yourusername falsehoods !!
user3 does this girl have a job or is she just cosplaying ahs coven full time
yourusername i'm a florist, do you want my social security number and tax returns too?
danielricciardo any way you could like turn me into a real honey badger for a couple hours that sounds fun?
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oscarpiastri: some time off well spent with my love
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user10 i am once again asking - how did this happen?
user11 it's actually a really cute story they apparently went to school together and she still does a weekly bouquet for his mum and grandma. they're og sweethearts all that opposites attract jazz
landonorris don't even get a photo credit with all the trauma i experienced for that pic
oscarpiastri bro you barged into my room and took a photo? landonorris i didn't see any sock on the door oscarpiastri it was my own house?
yourusername i love every moment together with you
oscarpiastri that sentiment goes both ways xx user12 god i am so alone
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f1teaandgossip: with lando and oscar being reported as frustrated, how long do you think it'll be until they're linked with moves elsewhere and do you think the updates will improve the car?
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user15 they don't deserve this
user16 i don't wanna be that person but this is karma for what they did to daniel
user17 i honestly think magic might be our only chance
user18 @yourusername pls work some magic
yourusername on it 🫡 user19 now that's my favourite wag
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yourusername: the full moon is here and i'm bringing some luck to my baby
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user20 mother is here to save the day i know that's right
landonorris if this works i'll never say you're scary ever again
yourusername *when it works have some faith in the moon lando landonorris yeah i don't think i wanna mess with the moon
user21 that moment when the mcl60 is so bad that you start to believe in witchcraft
oscarpiastri i love you so much (p.s. thank you to the girls as well, i'll cover the next candle order)
yourusername i love you too honey - we're rooting for you yourbff1 we love you oscar yourbff2 i don't understand your sport but i love the wages cause candles !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
charles_leclerc so are you adept in curses? asking for a friend....
maxverstappen1 sure. yourusername i don't (but i can give you a good luck crystal) charles_leclerc i'll take anything at this point
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mclaren: WOOOOOOOOOOOO WE TAKE A 2 - 3 FINISH IN HUNGARY 🇭🇺 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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user26 i am bamboozled
user27 so .... it worked?
landonorris i have never said a bad word about y/n's hobby NEVER I LOVE YOU Y/N AND I LOVE THE MOON
oscarpiastri she's still MY girlfriend mate landonorris i am aware i am merely stating my appreciation for her
user28 i know the team just finally got their shit together... but YAAAAS WITCH SLAY
yourusername so so happy for you guys
oscarpiastri i love you so so so so much xxxxxxxx
user29 y/n is my driver of the day
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yourusername: i love you so. forever proud.
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user31 fave couple FOR REAL
landonorris fine yall are so cute
oscarpiastri finally, only took a few months
user32 i need something like this in my life
oscarpiastri i love you more.
yourusername anything for you. even asking the moon for help with cars.
danielricciardo once again i am asking to be turned into a real honey badger for a couple hours
maxverstappen1 i think it's time to give up danny
note: idk what this is but lol i had fun - i shall get to the requests next, hope you enjoy !!!
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runningfrom2am · 7 months
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all i think about is karma
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summary: you and rafe take on a mainland bush party where he knows no one, and you know too many people for his liking.
this can be read as a stand-alone but it's technically a part four to getaway car, big reputation, and this is why we can’t have nice things.
pairing: rafe x fem!reader
wc: 2.1k
tags/warnings: jealous!rafe, highschool au, (some) nondescript nudity, cursing, mean kook!reader, underage drinking, (i think that’s it??)
a/n: hey y’all!! sorry i haven’t posted anything in a little while, i’ve been busy but now im back home and on my usual schedule so there shouldn’t be any serious interruptions for a little while. i missed y’all and i hope you like this! this is what won my getaway car poll quite some time ago so im so happy to finally get it out!
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"No, Y/N/N, I'll be fine. I don't want to dampen your week, you'll have so much fun!" Bella insists, adjusting where her phone is laying in her lap while she lays in bed, surrounded by tissues and snack wrappers. She came down with the flu at the worst possible time: right before you were meant to go on your spring break trip.
"It won't be the same without you! I should just stay home, I can come over and we can have a movie marathon or something. That'll be just as fun." You reply, watching her through the facetime camera while you sit at your vanity.
"No. Absolutely not. You're going- and you'll get to hangout with Rafe! It's worth it for me to get all the juicy details after." Bella giggles, sniffling and quickly wiping her nose.
You roll your eyes, rubbing your forehead. "Okay, yeah, but nothings gonna happen- you know I swore that off."
"Yeah, whatever. The two of you, alone, drunk and sharing a tent? Whatever you say." Your friend teases you. "It's actually worth it for me to stay home so you can come back with tea."
"Okay, fine," You agree, not admitting that the idea is very tempting. "But I'm not sleeping with him again."
"No! Of course not." Bella laughs, shaking her head. "But if you did, at least be safe this time. We don't need a repeat of what happened last time-"
"Okay! Okay! Bye, Bella I'll call you later!" You quickly cut her off, hanging up the phone.
Several long hours after texting Rafe the update that Bella wasn't going to make it, you found yourself in his truck on the mainland, driving into what seems to be the middle of nowhere for a bush party you caught word of from some friends you met playing soccer on a local team. You were excited to see them, and meet some new people, but you're honestly so glad Rafe still wanted to go. You'd rather not go alone if you didn't have to.
Judging by the large space in front of you full of various groups of kids your age putting tents together or starting fires around makeshift campsites at the edge of the water, you assume you're in the right place and get to work setting up your own tent off near the edge of the lake.
It wasn't long before the sun started to set over the abandoned gravel pit, and you just finish up when you crack open your first drink from the cooler. "So like... are we actually going to talk to anyone or just hide over here and be weird all night?" Rafe asks as you bring the can to your lips.
You roll your eyes a little and nod. "Well, duh. My friends are coming. I don't know what your plans are." Rafe looks around at that, seeing if there's anyone he might be able to talk to, but he was counting on hanging out with you.
"Wow, you're ditching me?" He asks, reaching into the cooler as well and grabbing a beer. "Cold."
You go to reply with a matching, somewhat snarky attitude the two of you almost always share when you recognize the purple jeep that's pulling in. "That's them! Good luck making friends!" You call back, jogging over to where they parked.
Rafe flips you off as you turn your full attention to your friends, sighing a little to himself as he lays eyes on a group of local boys who look enough like his friends that he's comfortable talking to them.
By the time that the area is lit only by the orange glow coming from the several cooking fires and the large bonfire everyone is centered around, you're already stumbling over your feet with a half-drank bottle of some liquor you didn't bring, and you're not even sure where you got it.
Rafe has been trying to keep an eye on you from a distance, but now he's lost you. He's drunk himself, so he's not overly concerned, but he would just at least like to know where you were. He looks around frantically, trying to keep his cool as the boys around him are laughing about something he didn't care to pay attention to. His eyes land on some figures out in the lake, and he squints to see if he can make out the shape of your hair in the dark. He takes a few steps away to get a closer look, hearing you laughing and shouting over the music coming from an on shore speaker. He walks down to the shore with a smug look on his face, polishing off his beer when he looks down and notices piles of clothes on the shore. Are you naked?
"Hey, Y/N!" Rafe shouts, waving to you in an attempt to grab your attention.
"Rafe!" You shout back, smile never fading as you push your wet hair out of your face. With the liquor warming you, the water feels amazing and so soft on your skin. "Come out here! Come join us!"
Rafe sighs as he finds your stuff, relieved to find only your shirt, shorts, and bra. At least you weren't fully naked in front of all these strangers. He strips of everything but his boxers and grabs your bra, wading out into the cool lake water to you and your friends as they cheer and laugh.
"Rafe! Where have you been?" You giggle, throwing your arms over his shoulders once he gets close enough for you to reach.
"I've been around- apparently I should have been babysitting you ladies." He chuckles, trying to hide any frustration in his tone as he avoids looking at your friends who are just as well clothed as you are. "Put this on, at least." He adds, pulling away from you and handing you the article of clothing, crossing his arms to watch you put it on despite his better judgement.
"Hey! Girls! Come on in, we're going to play chandelier!" One of the guys Rafe had the pleasure of talking to for the last couple hours shouts, and quickly everyone makes their way in to shore.
"Y/N, hey, we don't want you to get sick. Come warm up." Rafe turns his head as he gets his shirt back on, watching as one of the other guys, Jesse, is quickly wrapping you in a small blanket and guiding you up to the bonfire with a hand on your lower back. He scowls at the two of you behind your back, following as he urges you up the small hill and towards the large fire pit ahead.
You walk side by side with the boy, until you can feel the warmth of the flames on your skin where you stop and stand to dry off both your skin and what little clothing you have on. You don't know you're shivering until Jesse is tugging on the blanket around your shoulders. "Here, let me help you warm up.." He chuckles, wrapping his arms around you from behind and draping the blanket over both of you.
"Oh, thanks, Jesse." You say, teeth chattering from the soft breeze. You lean back into him, swaying from the alcohol still in your system and he steadies you.
"Anytime, sweetheart." He mumbles, pressing his lips to the back of your head.
You are well aware of his hands wandering, fiddling with the waistband of your underwear as you have your arms crossed tightly over your chest. You pull your bottom lip between your teeth as you gaze across the fire and your eyes land on Rafe, who's staring at you intently.
You smile and wave at him, but he just rolls his eyes in response and looks away. Is he upset with you for ditching him? In hindsight it wasn't very nice, even if that is the kind of relationship you normally have. If it was you you'd be upset- he didn't know anyone, and he was left to fend for himself, granted; he was clearly fine.
"Hey, Ashley?" You find yourself calling over to your other friend, but she doesn't hear you as your eyes well up with tears. Why do you feel so bad right now? Does Rafe being upset with you really bother you that much? You've hardly felt like this before.
"Ashley?" You ask again, but she hardly glances at you as she's got another boy draped over her shoulder- one who is definitely not the girls boyfriend.
"You okay?" Jesse asks, leaning his head over your shoulder to get a better look at you.
"Uhm, yeah, I just have to go to the bathroom and I was hoping she would come with me." You explain, watching Rafe again as he buries himself in conversation with the two girls standing next to him.
"I'll take you." Jesse offers. "Come on, I won't watch. Swear." He says, already guiding you away and tossing the blanket back to his friend.
You glance back at Rafe over your shoulder as Jesse walks you off into the dark. Just as you look forward again to try and watch your step, Jesse's hand is smacking your butt playfully, making you jump. You laugh it off and give him a shove, but he's grabbing your hand and pulling you in the direction of his truck.
The swing of Jesse's arm to where his hand hit your exposed skin drew Rafe's attention again fully, and he furrows his brow as he watches you stumble away. You were sharing a tent with him and you were really about to hook up with that mainland loser? He quickly downs the rest of his beer and storms after you, fists clenched at his sides after discarding the bottle on a nearby pong table.
"Hey!" Rafe shouts, making the two of you turn just as Jesse backs you up against the side of his truck and starts kissing down your neck. You're confused, but not one to turn down an opportunity like this- especially when you never have to see him again. As soon as Jesse turns his head, though, it's snapped back again with the contact of Rafe's fist into his nose.
He groans and quickly brings his hands up to his face, tipping his head back as blood pours from between his fingers. You gasp, reaching out for him but hesitating, not sure what to do.
"You think you can hook up with any girl who accepts a blanket from you when she's cold? She came here with me." Rafe spits, and you feel your features pull into an expression of anger as you quickly step towards him and shove him back. "What?"
"Come on." You mutter, grabbing his arm and pulling him away from the now bleeding boy. "What the fuck was that about?" You ask, storming back to where your shared tent was in the corner. "Do you think you have some stupid claim over me just because you drove me here?"
Rafe rolls his eyes, stopping with you next to the tent as you drop his arm and turn to face him. "He was taking advantage of you!"
You scoff, shaking your head and crossing your arms. "No, Rafe. He wasn't. Did you ever consider that maybe I wanted that?"
"Whatever, Y/N- don't act like you weren't eyeing me up for the whole drive here."
"Oh. My. God." You find yourself laughing suddenly, realizing what this is about. "You were jealous."
"What? No I wasn't." Rafe replies defensively.
You smile at him cockily, tilting your head and waiting for him to spiral on it.
"I wasn't! I tried to help. That's what I get, I guess!" Rafe throws his hands up.
"And here I was thinking you were mad at me for ditching you. Turns out you were just horny." You smirk, knowing you were just pushing his buttons this time for fun.
"Oh, fuck off, Y/N, you're just trying to piss me off now for fun."
"You're not denying it." You shrug, looking back over to the fire for a moment, seeing Jesse sitting there with paper towel pressed to his nose and a few girls surrounding him.
"You're making it difficult not to be when you’re walking around like that.��� He replies, smirking as he looks you up and down.
“Don’t be gross, Rafe.” You smile, dropping your arms from they were crossed over your chest.
He takes a step closer at that, delicately placing his hands on your hips. “You love it, Y/N/N, you know you do.”
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modern-day-bard · 2 months
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Worth The Feeling
Content Warning: 18+
This story includes explicit smut, intimidation, and an age gap relationship (MC is 26, Pedro is in his 40s). Minors, do not interact.
Chapter 10
I had to change my shirt twice before leaving for the airport. Every time I thought about getting onto the plane, I started to sweat so much that I must be dehydrated several times over by now. And maybe I was, maybe that's why I felt so lightheaded standing in front of my gate. That combined with the fact that I refuse to sit down. I feel like hopping from foot to foot will keep my anxiety at bay.
I start to see some familiar faces trickle in, which helps a little. Most of the hair and makeup team are here now. I gave a weak wave to Sophie who returned it, but didn't seem to take it as a friendly enough invitation to come over. I see a few other PAs, most of whom are trying to sleep on the floor before we board. Maybe I wasn't the only one who took advantage of the lack of call time this morning. Their green-ish hue screamed 'hangover'. I know that I don't look much better, though my green has nothing to do with alcohol. By the time it's ten minutes to board, my anxiety is kicked into overdrive. I haven't seen anyone from the sound crew come over to our terminal. I take out my phone and notice I have three missed calls from Lana.
Shit. I call her back immediately.
"Ava?" She sounds worried as soon as she answers.
"Hey!" I do my best to sound cheerful.
"Shit, you're freaking out. Ava, I am so sorry. I've been trying to call you. They switched sound and lighting's flight last minute. I have no idea why."
I do. I mean I must have done something horrible to have this much bad karma back to back. I feel my arms go tingly. I had been dreading the flight enough, even knowing that Lana would be next to me to hold my hand. Now what do I do?
"I did what I could but...you know. I don't exactly carry a lot of power around here." She lets out a small, curt laugh. I know she's trying to ease my tension, and my heart squeezes at her effort, but it hasn't slowed down.
"Are you okay?" Lana asks, softer now.
"Oh, yeah. Thank you for letting me know. But, you know, I can find someone who can, you know. Yeah."
"Okay you don't sound good."
"I'm sorry, um...when are you going to get to Italy?" I feel like I'm going to cry, and I should probably ask something else if I want to prevent that from happening.
"I'll be there tomorrow at the earliest. I think Lloyd will have the airline's head on a stick if the crew isn't there by tomorrow night."
"Right," I take a deep breath.
"You know how much I wish I could hold your hand. But you've done this before. You have a lot of the crew with you. You'll be okay."
"Right," I repeat.
"Is Barb there?"
"She was supposed to be, but I don't see her." I do a quick glance at the other people waiting at my gate, but I don't really register any faces.
"Well maybe she'll be nearby. And at the very least, you know she's there with you and I'm right behind you."
"Yeah. Yeah, I'll look for Barb. Thanks Lana...I'm sorry your flight is switched."
"Me too, babes. Good luck and I'll talk to you when you land. You've got this."
"Alright, bye."
As soon as I hang up the phone, boarding begins. At this point, I'm wondering how badly I need my shitty PA salary. Pretty badly, since I live alone and am currently paying for school. Could I drop out? Could I walk to the other side of America and take a ferry over to Europe? I've always wanted to go to Italy, truthfully. But getting there is a whole other story. And as they call my section for boarding, my legs get increasingly shaky with each step I take toward the plane.
I don't hear the flight attendants as they welcome me, and I feel like a zombie walking past first class. I'm almost all the way at the back of the plane, and by the time I finally see my seat, it's the first time I feel like I really want to sit down. I think I need to sit down, because the longer I stand the tighter the walls seem.
I settle in, putting my backpack under the seat in front of me before resting my head back. I close my eyes and try to picture a wide open space and soft, safe ground. Ground that will soon be about ten thousand feet below me. I feel like I'm going to be sick. I squeeze my eyes tighter and grip the arm rests. I know one of these seats would have belonged to Lana, and I'm not sure if her seat would have been sold. I hope not. I think I would rather be alone than flying next to a stranger.
I can hear an attendant begin the safety announcements, and I think it's best to tune it out. I can barely function when the plane is on the ground, so I have no hope for myself in a disaster scenario, even if I do pay attention now. Maybe I should put my headphones in or something to drown it out. But then I remember the rule about turning off cellphones during take off, and I decide just to stay frozen in the position I'm in, my hands straining against the plastic.
But then I hear shuffling next to my little row, and I send up silent prayers that whoever it is won't be joining me on either of the seats beside me. I don't have to pray for long, because my hopes are dashed when I feel someone settled next to me on my left. Great. Now I might have to give up one of the arm rests, relinquishing my stress toy. Maybe that would be a good thing, my hands already feel sore. I take a deep breath and try to focus on easing my grip, and I get a waft of something alluring and familiar. Something musky and... cedarwood.
I crack my eyes open just to peek, and sure enough, a pair of very concerned brown eyes are watching me carefully. My eyes fully fly open now.
"I thought you might need some company." Javi says softly.
"I...you're in first class. You...I didn't even know talent was on this flight." God, it was already hard to breathe before he was here. I try looking at him out of the corner of my eye instead.
"I was in first class, but I felt like making a trade today."
"A trade?"
Javi nods, "With Barb. I would have been here sooner but the airline gave us a hard time about switching."
"I bet she was ecstatic."
"She had already finished two mini bottles by the time I left first class." His smile is playful, and despite my nerves, I laugh.
"I'm not sure which seat was Lana's, but the one I actually swapped Barb for is a few rows back. I'm assuming Lana isn't coming though."
I nod, laying my head back again as I remember that we're about to take off.
"You don't want the window?" Javi asks.
I shake my head. "I would like the opposite of being reminded of how high up we're going to be."
"In that case..." Javi steps over me, sitting in the window seat, and promptly closing the blind. He then positions himself in front of the covered window. "There. Now you only have to deal with this," He gestures to his face and gives me a devilish smile. I start giggling, but that quickly makes tears spring to my eyes.
"Hey, hey..." Javi leans toward me, and gently pries my right hand off of the arm rest, placing our then entwined hands in his lap.
"I know it's ridiculous," my voice is sputtery, and I'm trying really hard not to let the tears overflow now.
"It's not." He whispers.
The plane starts to move, and I close my eyes again. I can feel us bumping along the tarmac, and I know the worst part, takeoff, is coming up. Subconsciously, I squeeze Javi's hand. He gives me three light squeezes back before running small circles across the back of my hand with his thumb. We start picking up speed, and with it my breathing hitches. I'm worried this is going to turn into a full-blown panic attack now.
"Ava," Javi says quietly.
"Mhm?" My lips remain a tight line, my eyes still screwed shut.
"Did I ever tell you I can read palms?"
"Um, what? No..." Why is he talking about this right now?
"I can. I'm really good at it." He flips my hand, resting it in his left palm. He separates our fingers, and brings his right hand on top of mine. "I was on location for a film a few years back, and one of the locals taught me and my co-star. She said that the art of palm reading had been passed down from generation to generation in her family. It's a very old art, and they believe it to be one of the most accurate ways of telling one's future."
He starts drawing indecipherable shapes on my palm with his forefinger. The movement makes me open my eyes, curious if I can figure out what shape he's drawing if I can actually see it.
"This right here," He draws a line at the top of my palm, "is your heart line. Yours is quite long, meaning that you will have many friends and possibly lovers throughout your life. It also means that you have a big heart, lots of compassion."
I just stare at him, confused. He barely looks up before he continues, unfazed.
"This," he draws a line vertically, "is your health line. You will have excellent health, but suffer from the common cold a lot more often than those around you."
I let out a brief laugh. "That's true, actually."
"I told you I'm good." He gives me a brief, sly smile. "Finally, this is your life line. It's also quite long. Meaning that you will land safely in Italy and all of this will just be a silly memory."
He continues to brush his fingers over my palm, and I narrow my eyes at him.
"You made all of that up."
"Oh, all of it," he says matter-of-factly.
"So you're a liar?"
"No. I'm a damn good distraction."
I look at him, puzzled.
"You did it, Ava. You're in the air. It's all smooth sailing from here."
I look around, not like that will necessarily help me discern where we are, but when I take in the feeling of the plane around me and the seat underneath me, I realize that we are in fact flying. We're not even climbing at a steep rate right now, it feels like we've almost leveled out.
I feel like I can look at him now without having an onslaught of heart palpitations.
"Thank you." I say sincerely.
He just gives me a knowing smile.
"How did you know?" I ask.
"You mentioned it to me when we went to dinner."
I hadn't even remembered that. I must've said it in passing.
"Oh my god, and Barb mentioned you had asked about what plane the crew was on. You're sneaky."
"All I'm hearing is that you and Barb were talking about me." His smile turns flirtatious, teasing. My heart tugs, remembering our last conversation before this one. And how nothing has changed. We still can't risk each other's careers, and it's probably not even wise of us to be holding hands on a flight with at least one hundred strangers surrounding us.
He must have noticed that my face fell, because he pulls my chin toward him, making me look him in the eyes.
"Let's not think about it," he whispers. "At least not for now."
I search his eyes for a moment, trying to figure out why he would even bother doing this for me. Why give up his fancy first class seat? Why risk watchful eyes seeing our entangled hands? Why play with my heart if we both know how this ends?
Despite all of those things, I still find myself nodding. "Okay."
"How do you think you're feeling now? Still anxious?" He asks.
"Oh yeah. I'll be anxious the whole flight, that's usually how it goes."
"It's a redeye. Can you sleep on planes?"
"Usually no, but sometimes I think my body gets so tired of being anxious that it will shut down."
"Ahh," He presses his lips together, nodding. "In that case, I'd like to distract you a little longer if that's alright with you."
I smirk at him. "What distractions did you have in mind?" I don't mean it to sound suggestive, but it's like my vocal chords protest against an appropriate tone when I'm talking to Javi.
"Tell me about your parents," he looks sincere and relaxed, leaning back in his seat a little. His hand is still holding mine.
Okay, that question will definitely keep things PG.
"Oh. Um...they're pretty great, actually." I smile to myself.
"Yeah?"
"Yeah. I don't get to see them as much as I'd like. Flights across the country aren't exactly cheap and with work and school I probably wouldn't have the time even if I had the money. But we call each other every so often. They're both accountants so it was a very creative household," my voice drips in sarcasm, "They don't really understand my love for the industry. But they're supportive, they ask questions."
"How'd they feel about the move to California?"
"They weren't thrilled. New York was a lot easier to stomach for them than the other side of the country. They also really loved John, so they weren't thrilled with that situation either. I think it was kind of like losing a son for them. They'd known him for a long time."
Javi's gaze hardens for a minute, but he nods, still looking to take in information.
"Do you have any siblings?" he asks after a moment.
"Nope. I'm a spoiled only child."
"I don't get the spoiled vibe from you."
"What tipped you off? The fact that you've already seen me rewear the same five outfits about twenty times?" I do a little shimmy, referencing downward to my classic PA wear of jeans and a t-shirt.
He chuckles lightly. "I was more so thinking of the way that you treat people. Barb spoke very highly of you."
I scoff, "I'm not buying it. Barb doesn't speak highly of anyone."
"Okay fine," he chuckles again, "It was more of what she didn't say. She can complain about anyone on set, but she had nothing bad to say about you. And she did say you're a hard worker and she's never heard you complain. She said the last part in sort of an irritated way though."
I laugh a little now, too. "She would probably like me more if I complained with her. And if you ask Lana, she'll tell you I complain plenty."
"You two are really close, huh?"
I nod, "Lana's my family out here. I know she felt horrible that she couldn't come with me today, but it's not even her fault."
Javi's thumb starts rubbing circles on my hand again, looking a little bit concerned. I imagine he's hoping I don't start with the tears again. But strangely, that feeling seems really far away right now.
"It's your turn," I say.
"My turn for what?"
"To tell me about your family. You always want me to do all the talking," I tease.
"Not true. And you still haven't Googled?"
"Nope. I told you, inhumane."
He smiles, maybe even a little relieved that I hadn't researched him still. Not that any of that would matter to me. There couldn't be anything online about him that would alter the man in front of me. I bet they didn't even know he could read palms.
"Well, they're also pretty great," His face brightens, smiling to himself about memories only available to him. "They're also in New York, and I also don't get to see them very often. Not in pursuit of a master's degree, of course, but this job can get sort of hectic. As you know. But we talk on the phone a lot, too."
"Siblings?"
"Two of them. Two sisters, and I have three nieces now, too."
"You're close with them." It wasn't a question, I could tell by his expression and how his voice softened mentioning them. His soft voice was starting to lull me a little, and I felt a yawn creeping up on me. I didn't want to release it in fear that Javi would think I didn't want to know about his family. Truthfully, hearing about them was relaxing. Hearing his voice talk about something he loved was soothing, and I feel like my body was finally coming out of fight or flight.
"Very much so."
"They must think you're pretty cool, first class tickets and red carpets." That yawn is really threatening me now. My lip trembles.
"Would you just yawn already please?" I look up at him, embarrassed, but his smile is full of affection.
"No, I want to hear your stories."
"I can see your eyelids drooping."
"You just don't want me to know all your secrets. You're trying to force me to Google you."
"I'm glad you haven't..." he starts to brush his fingers up and down my arm, and I worry that I'll get goosebumps. "But I would still like you to try to sleep."
At the mention of the word, I finally let my yawn come out. I rest my head back against the headrest once more, finally out of exhaustion instead of panic.
"Who said I was even tired?" I joke.
"You'd feel better if your first day in Italy wasn't consumed by jet lag. You know I'm right." I can hear the smugness in his voice, but my eyes continue to drift shut.
"Fine. You're right." I fully shut my eyes now, already feeling my head nodding to one side. Javi continues brushing his fingertips up and down my arm, and I sigh.
"You are wrong about one thing though," I say, fighting sleep.
"What's that?" I can hear his smile even in his whisper.
"This won't be a silly memory... You remembered I was afraid of flying... And you helped me."
I'm vaguely aware of my head drooping to my right, and landing on Javi's shoulder. And I swear I hear him murmur something against my temple, but sleep has already found me.
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Thank you for doing a matchup trade with me <3 here's my matchup!
FANDOM: I would like a ADULT MALE MATCHUP for hazbin hotel, genshin impact and black butler please! I don't wanna be matched with angel dust or husk I have no problem but I don't see myself being romantic partners with them)
ABOUT ME: My name is Jaxrel! People call me "Jax" for short. also use other names like Himawari, Rin, etc, He/Him (They/Them is acceptable), I'm a Trans Man who's pansexual and I've been diagnosed with mental illness and disorders that I do not wish sharing ATM.
Personality(+ Notes): I'm a ENTP Ravenclaw, 5w4, Extroverted. I'm a very chill and intelligent person, I'm very polite and sweet! at first awkward, shy and distant when meeting people, extremely independent, when comfortable I talk about a lot of stuff for hours, loud talker, emotions come off as sarcastic or silly (due to autism), confident, straightforward (I have a urge to correct someone of faulty information), uses "big" words, good sense of humor, playful, entertaining, optimistic, mischievous, curious(l'm nosy and I love gossip), i can be a rule breaker(sometimes don't mean to), dad/ tharapist friend, when | go out | bring water bottles, first aid kit, chapsticks) just in case, chill but some people would say I have some "repressed anger issues, get a reallyyy overractive Brain, tend to get deep and philosophical when I'm left on my own for to long, I can be verbally aggressive when prevoked. If this helps more the characters I kin a lot are: Victor Nikiforov (Yuri On Ice), Tei (Nameless), Cutthroat (Akudama Drive, Except the Bloodlust cutthroat has.), Ranpo Edogawa (Bungo Stray Dogs), Dazai Osamu (Bungo Stray Dogs), Space Ishtar (Fate), Okita Souji (Fate), Langa Hasegawa (Sk8 The Infinity), Sherlock Holmes (TGAA), Zack (Final Fantasy 7), Vash The Stampede (Trigun), Roy Mustang (Fullmetal Alchemist), Otonashi Yuzuru (Angel Beats), Karma Akabane (Assassination Classroom), Vanitas (Study Case of Vanitas), Zoe Hange (AOT), Shinoa Hiragi (Seraph of The End) + more
things I love about myself: when someone is going through anything or needs help with anything they will call me before anyone else, i have an ugly laugh so guaranteed if i laugh someone else will as well, how much i love animals if i see a stray around my house i will adopt it immediately, if i see a stranger crying in public my eyes will not leave them alone until i get the courage to walk up to them and ask whats wrong, i am very confrontational i will always stand up for whats right no matter how scary the situation may be, how greedy i am for money but when i love someone i will spend the world on them, how excited i get for little things like when someone buys me redbull, monster, cherry pepsi or chocolate pretzels/strawberries my day cant be ruined, how in touch i am with being grateful if someone helps me in anyway or does something in general to benefit me i will never forget it, dont take people for granted, ive been told anytime someone hangs out with me that being with me feels safe and peaceful, pay attention to the little things, how even though i dont care about plushies i have been given some and i make sure to kiss them all goodnight in case they are actually real and see what happens, if i know someone is having a hard mental health day i will clean for them/ get them icecream and be patient till they are ready to talk about it, without fail a quiet person will always be loud with me, i am the type of person who just wants people i love to be happy even if its not with me, i will always choose them i dont say i love you until i mean it i will celebrate the people i love, i am very observant if i see that someone wants something i will get it for them no matter what, i will make it my mission to compliment a stranger that looks like they are having a hard time so their day is a little better, how i say i love kids btw i will protect them with my life and im so gentle with them, I am not ashamed of what i love like anime for example even though when I was teased for it when I was little i never once hid that i loved it even if i dont like a song that someone shows me i will be hyper while listening to it so they dont feel small and embarrassed around me, how soft i become when someone holds my hand, I love psychical affection a lot so it's not a problem for me, i love how hardworking i am, whether its how much i love actually working or just getting out of bed knowing how hard my mind is fighting i love how i have gotten up everyday despite how challenging it is to, i am an emotional person but i will always cry for a sad scene in a movie, if i love someone, they'll be seen.
MORE KINS: hiyori tomoe (enstars), yoosung kim (mystic messenger), jumin han (mystic messenger), hanako (tbhk), felix kranken (twf), albedo (genshin impact), shoya ishida (a silent voice), tom (eddsworld). eridan (homestuck), karkat (homestuck), shu itsuki (enstars), miyamura izumi (horimiya), micheal afton (FNAF), lolbit (FNAF), mangle (FNAF), natsume sakasaki (enstars), sora harukawa (enstars), urumi akamaki (alice in borderland), V (mystic messenger), hagumi kitazawa (bandori), matsubara kanon (bandori), shinji ikari (neon genesis evangelion), rei ayanami (neon genesis evangelion), minami kotobuki (oshi no ko), lain iwakura (serial experiments lain), hajime hinata (danganronpa), k-angel (needy streamer overdose) and more :)
Looks: Half Polish and Vietnamese and Half Middle Eastern(Iraqi)/Filipino, I'm very skinny like I look mostly flat, I have hazel eyes and some slight flecks of amber and blue, I have upturned eyes but they seem like they are almond shaped but they aren't too noticeable, I think I have a heart shaped face but from different angles it looks more diamond shaped(?), I'm approximately 5'8, I have a dimple only on my chin, I have dyed black hair, I also have bangs too, my clothing style tends to stretch widely from comfy to... a lot like this! I wear gyaru (hime gal, himekaji, agejo, gyaruo, rokku, manba, banba, kogal, tsuyome, and kigurumi), goth (trad goth, romantic goth, mall goth, cyber goth, and victorian goth), scenemo/emo (ofc), & vkei ouji and lolita, I can also pull off a kpop idol look, i also wear a lot of cool dresses and suits, I also wear Y2K and I also dress in alternative clothing a LOT, I wear a lot of other harajuku styles such as, jirai kei, decora and more so on.
hobbies: gaming, anthropology, pathology, theology, zoology, music, dancing, filmmaking, art (drawing, painting, pottery, digital art, etc), learning different instruments/languages, cosplaying, skateboarding, tabletop RPG's, taking pictures of things that I think are pretty, collecting figurines/stuffed animals and puppetry, science/history, soccer(football)/volleyball/ basketball and swimming, cooking/baking, art is definitely my main hobby I dedicate a lot of time to it, I can play 5 instruments which is the piano, cello, koto and bass/electric guitar, I know 6 languages and I'm learning more right now.
Likes: Chocolate, Strawberries, Iced Coffee and Boba Tea, Anime/ Manga, Music, Food, Winning in arguments online or irl, Reading, Cats, Sharks, Animals in general, Cold/or Rainy Weather, Shopping, Playing Tabletop RPG's, Abstract or Romance movies, Kdrama(pretty much any asian dramas), Spicy or Sweet Food, Ramen.
Dislikes: Loud Noises, Slow Walkers, People who don't know when to close their mouths when chewing and hot weather.
Love Languages: physical touch, acts of service & words of affirmation(pretty much everything LOL) (giving). gift giving, words of affirmation & physical touch (receiving)
Thank you so much! Have a good day!
HEY HUN!!! IM SO GLAD WE ARE DOING IT!!
Im so happy someone asked for black butler finally!!
I’ve decided to pair you with……. GRELLE, AJAX & LUCIFER!
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She would LOVE that you are extroverted.
She finally has someone to talk to who isn’t boring !!
She also loves that you are independent! It’s what attracted her to you!
It also allows her to be able to do her job without having to worry too much for you- but DONT get me wrong. She LOVES to take care of you.
She loves to listen to you, all day every day. Talk about your day to her. My girl always has an ear out. Honestly she probably has a sixth sense when it comes to you.
She definitely is nosy asf. She wants to get in EVERYONES BUSINESS !! You guys could probably spend a week on gossiping about the same person.
She honestly also has her own problems- and DEFINITELY forgets shit to bring or do. She will rely on you 24/7. She needs someone to rant to sometimes- being a grim reaper is so harrrd!
She definitely does not mind the anger issues. Sebastian was mean enough- if anything she definitely would like it if you yelled at her!!
She probably would laugh a little bit if you started to get philosophical with her- but thats also because she literally will have no clue on whats happening. - she’d beg you to explain it to her too.
If you have an ugly laugh- she does too. You both would be CACKLING 24/7.
She loves that you care for other people- and animals too! It would warm her heart so much. Although she’d be jealous!! She wants most of your attention.
She’d buy you anything or do anything to see you happy. She loves whenever you get happy!! She’d totally buy you shit like chocolate covered pretzels and watch you eat them with a HUGE grin on her face.
Not gonna lie though. She HATES kids. But she’ll try for you 🩷
She genuinely loves that you take care of other people- and kiss your plushies?? Thats so CUTE- HER NEXT???!!
If you told her you loved her? You would hear it maybe like 1600x times a day. She’s def super clingy.
If you went out of your way to try and make her happy- she would literally want to take a BITE put of you. How came she resist?? You are just too sweet :)
She will always be there next to you in the mornings, when you have a tough time getting up. She’s been there on her hard days. She doesn’t want the same thing to happen to you.
With all those hobbies?? She’d definitely make you help her learn stuff. Piano? Teach her !!! Guitar? Oh my god ?!! LANGUAGES?? Speak to her and even if you called her a donkey she’d be all over you.
She’d love to hear about your special interests or more about your hobbies. Like ?? Teach me to skateboard?!!!
She’d cosplay with you. She’d love to do it!!
She LOVES your sense of style. Its so different compared to what she’d normally see? Like pick me? Choose me ? Love me?
Whenever you choose a new style- she’s always in the back supporting you. She loves to show off to other people too. Like- thats MY man.
She literally loves any love language. SHE IS INLOVE WITH HER S/O AND WOULD DO ANYTHINNGGG FOR THEM!!
She definitely would want to bake with you tho. She cant bake for shit, but she tries.
She also will definitely LOVE your art. She needs pictures and photographs constantly. She’d probably hang them on the fridge or put them in her pockets to look at whenever shes working.
Now to Tartie
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My man….
Ajax was definitely drawn in at first by your sense of style. He would’ve been staring from across the street with a smirk on his face.
Until he see’s you again. He HAS to say something this time!
He definitely wants to listen to you talk !
You love kids?? God he already loves you? He has so many siblings! And honestly he probably wants a big ass family.
He started to become drawn in by your personality. He needs someone who can be independent while he’s constantly working with the fatui.
Let’s be honest. This man is a GOSSIP. He finna chat chat chat with you all day every day. He mever shuts up.
He loves to hear you laugh. It brings him so much joy Everytime.
Although he feels safe constantly- he knows he can trust his siblings around you,
He definitely would be more reserved when it comes to himself, he’d love that you are the dad friend.
He’s totally gonna forget shit to do- and he can’t always take care of his siblings!
He loves that you have a big heart. Not many people do anymore- it caused him to truly become attached.
He’s so happy that you aren’t ashamed to like what you like- neither is he! Be proud!!
He loves physical affection too- but unfortunately is never really around much for it. He’d always give you tons of kisses on the forehead in the morning before he leaves though.
He’d also try to make ip to you with a bitch ton of presents and gifts for you. Like “ I’m so sorry sweetheart- but i hope this puts a smile on your face :)”
But if he stays at home? He’s gonna want to rot in bed with you and cuddle!
Honestly. He’d probably also have a shit ton of plushies too. But he’d get jealous if you gave them all kisses and not him!!
He isn’t really emotional- but he’ll definitely try to comfort you! I think at first he’d suck- but he has so many siblings he knows what to do!!
Your hobbies?? Always keeps him doing something with you! Like talk to me in a different language?
He’d LOVE to challenge you to sports!! Although he’ll definitely become a tadd bitt too competitive . He just gets lost in it!
He definitely makes you do some pottery with him, and drinks or eats out of the stuff you guys make together.
Probably will fall off a skateboard 16 different times.
He LOVES watching movies with you. I think he’d genuinely enjoy K dramas. This man is DRAMATIC.
He would buy you so many things to make up for lost time together :((
Luci’s Turn!
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I mean come on… how could I not.
He was drawn into everything about you. Your style- your heart??
He saw the way you treated Charlie and he was like “that’s mine now.”
He would LOVE to listen to you talk while he’s making some ducks!!
I think you’d both have some rotting in bed moments though!!
Let’s be honest. He needs someone to take care of him. He won’t do it by himself. He’s too scared to even call his daughter.
He will definitely confide in you about EVERYTHING. He has nobody else that he trusts. (Other than charlie but….)
He loves to hear about anything! Gossip to him.. even though hes an old man he’d be like “she did WHATTTT?? NO WAYYY”
I think Lucifer would be pretty hard to get mad at honestly.
He also loves to hear your philosophy stuff! He’s always asking what you think about, and why. He want’s to hear the thought process behind it.
He LOVES that you are also so sweet to Charlie. It makes his heart swell.
Honestly he’s huge on physical touch. If he could he’d always have you touching him in some way. Whether it be cuddling in bed with your 1000 plushies, or having you sit on his laps while he makes a duck that looks like you!!
He LOVES your style. It makes him feel like he has something new to look forward to everyday. He also likes to guess which you’ll wear!
Personally i think Lucifer probably knows every language known to man- but he’d want you to talk to him in a different language! He’d definitely flirt with you!
Play music for this old man please!! He’d love to hear you strum the guitar while he’s doing something!
Or art!! He’d make paintings with you- although he sucks. He’d hang up pictures or drawings that you took, and frame them.
He loves that you aren’t afraid to do what you want! Or speak what you want! It allows him to feel free.
He thinks puppetry is SO COOL. Like honestly- teach me NOW. He’d probably get the strings knotted though.
He’d love to listen about your love for animals- he’d probably buy you one too. As long as it makes you happy.
He’d do anything to see a smile on your face. Buy chocolates, red bull, more plushies, strawberries? He is already on it.
Also wants you to kiss him to sleep.
He doesn’t go anywhere ever- so he’ll always be for you during your low times. He’ll help you through everything.
He’s super clingy too. He’d want you to give him quality time!
He’d beg you to watch movies or shows with you. He’d also get ADDICTED to them. Probably starts SOBBING during K-Dramas.
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HI LOVE!! I HOPE THIS WAS OKAY FOR YOU!! I ENJOYED THIS SO MUCH ! 🩷🩷
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Anna?? Would you be ok doing either Bob Floyd or Rhett Abbott for the Valentine's Day asks? I have an idea in mind but I'm not sure if you'd wanna do it or not.
Either character being married to their beloved wifey!reader having a couple of boys in the family and finally having their first baby girl on Valentine's Day??
If you want me to do anything for you, I can, my inbox hit a bad dry spell again.
FOREVER VALENTINE aka It's A Girl!
The cutest presents come wrapped in pretty pink bows.
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Pairing Rhett Abbott x female!reader
Theme fluff fluff fluff! Plus a drop of angst (it's Rhett)
Warnings childbirth (nothing graphic)
Word Count 667
Note this actually made me realize I miss writing about Rhett!!! And ugh this was such a cute idea, thank you so much for requesting it, love! I hope you enjoy it 💗
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Peaceful silence filled the room, a stark contrast from the maddening chaos that ensued just mere minutes ago.
On your bed, Rhett’s arm was wrapped gently around your shoulder as you cradled your newborn daughter.
Daughter.
Rhett never thought he’d ever be a father to a little girl—no one did, really, considering his previous reputation. A reputation he worked hard to grow from and buried the moment he laid his eyes on you. It was safe to say he was more than successful in doing so, considering the three older boys you had together in twelve years of marriage (and counting).
There were a lot of things Rhett never believed in prior to you, one of them being karma. He never had a real reason to. Life’s a bull, he used to say, you can take it by the reins all you want and it can still find a million ways to fuck you up. He certainly didn’t understand what good he did in his life to deserve you, or what supernatural forces conspired to make that happen, though Cecelia called it an answered prayer. But right now, as he felt the tiniest fingers he ever felt hold on to one of his own, he knew that every wrong turn he made led him to this right one. The one—well, fifth one—he promises to do right by till his last breath.
“She’s beautiful,” you whispered as you began to stir from your brief rest.
“More than,” he agreed. “Oh, you’re gonna give me so much trouble, baby girl. So, so much,” his voice was soft and low as he spoke to the baby, and he couldn’t wipe the smile off his face. “Lucky for you, your momma’s smart enough to sniff out the danger. And bossy enough to tell me what to do when it comes.”
You scoffed playfully at his comment, but he made up for it quickly with a firm kiss to your temple. “And lucky for you, baby,” you continued, “your daddy’s smart enough to listen.”
“But you don’t gotta worry about that just yet,” he mused, “they gotta get through your brothers first before they deal with me. Ryder’s the gentle one, but he can be real tough when protecting someone.”
Your heart tugged at the mention of your sons. “Emmett can be rowdy, but he’d never hurt a fly. And Callum’s so excited to play with you, he already put some of his toys out.”
“Don’t forget about your cousin Amy,” you pointed out.
“Oh no, we can’t, can we? Lord knows she waited a long time for another girl in the family,” he laughed.
As your daughter stirred in your arms, her little hand still wrapped around Rhett’s finger, a soft smile graced her lips. It was brief, but it was the most beautiful thing he's ever seen.
“I miss them,” you sighed, wanting nothing more than for your boys to meet their baby sister.
Rhett pressed his lips to your head once again as he reached for his phone. “I’ll call Ma to let ‘em know they can come home.”
As he walked to his charging phone at your dresser, you adjusted your baby’s swaddle to make sure she was secure.
“You got me beat, darlin’,” Rhett mused as he made his way back to you.
“What do you mean, Abbott?” you raised your eyebrow playfully.
He wrapped his arm around you again like he did before, “I think our baby girl might be the best gift you’ve ever given me. I don’t know how I can top that.”
“You being here was more than enough,” you laughed softly, as you baby wriggled once again. Rhett took her in his free arm and kissed her head, while you rested your head on his shoulder.
“Happy first Valentine’s, baby girl. I’m always gonna love you.”
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OKAY I guess I'm doing this. While working on my fic Ananke, which is an exploration of Manfred von Karma's perspective from DL-6 all the way to Turnabout Goodbyes, I've been having so, so many thoughts about him that I realised they didn't actually all hold into my fic. So I thought that maybe I should make them a tumblr piece. This thought has kinda just hovered at the back of my mind flaring from time to time, but eventually I decided to jump the gun. (No pun intended.) (That's a lie.)
So, um. Manfred von Karma character analysis time, I guess?
(Warning: this turned out to be LONG.)
The question I see pop up a whole lot when it comes to this guy is: Is he a good father? I'll be honest from the beginning: I'm not going to give an answer to that question here. What this is going to be is a somewhat larger examination of his character, which naturally does involve, in great part, his influence on Miles and Franziska. But I don't want to lock myself in the false binary of a yes/no question when there's so much else to talk about.
So I want to, sure, talk about him as a father a little, but mostly as a piece of the narrative, as a mentor, as a legacy-holder, and as a bringer of destiny - because he is not called Karma for nothing.
We first hear about him from Edgeworth in Turnabout Goodbyes, right as his trial is about to begin. Edgeworth seems utterly terrified of him prosecuting his case. "He is a god of prosecution, Wright, a god," he tells us. "He taught me what it means to prosecute. Imagine a prosecutor as ruthless as me, times twenty." Considering Edgeworth has been giving us a bit of trouble himself, between witness coaching and updated autopsy reports, that's quite the introduction.
And the man lives up to his reputation. He barely lets us align two words before interrupting us and scoffing at us, he's the first one to make the judge give us a penalty for pressing a testimony in the wrong place, when pressing testimonies had been such an important way of getting information up until then, he's dismissive and memeishly funny and a piece of shit and an absolutely great final boss... and then he also happens to be the culprit of DL-6. The case that has been underlying the whole game, and whose repercussions are going to be felt for the next two ones. Discovering him and taking him down is one of the best pay-offs ever after a masterful, game-long build-up.
Tumblr user trlsvn wrote a very thoughtful post in answer to an ask, making the point that von Karma is a story element before being a person. His primary purpose is to drive the plot to its conclusion, more than being psychologically developed as a character. Our antagonist up until now has been Edgeworth, but Edgeworth is being given a redemption arc, and so von Karma stands as the evil behind him.
The writers make the decision to humanize [Edgeworth], make him not just a character that represents a wrong idea but a person who has a backstory and some good in his heart [...]. This is where we start to question what exactly made him like this - this is why Miles gets a tragic backstory. He is meant to be explained, he is meant to be human, he is meant to be more. So Manfred von Karma becomes the answer. He is the reason, he is the influence, the part of Miles's life that made him like this and the part that he starts to oppose.
I recommend reading the post for more thoughts about his narrative role as a mirror to Edgeworth and a symbol of what he could have become. Von Karma is, like Redd White and later Damon Gant, the personification of the corruption of the courts that we've been fighting. He represents everything that Phoenix stands against, he is a willing and willful cog in the system that convicts people for crimes they did not commit. His metaphorical crimes, the innocents he sends to death row or to life in prison, all culminate and cristallise into an actual, legally defined crime: the murder of defence attorney Gregory Edgeworth, who represents - quite literally, in court - all those innocents.
Turnabout Goodbyes is possibly my favourite case in the entire series, because on top of having incredible pacing and wrapping up the first game wonderfully, it is so very dramatic. There is theatre in there; I may be getting ahead of myself in this but I find it Shakespearean. There is an atmosphere of supernatural mystery on the misty lake, with those two gunshots resounding in the silence and the ominous shape of "Robert Hammond" disappearing in the water without a trace. The slowly unveiled connection to DL-6, Edgeworth's recurring nightmare, the wound of the unsolved crime fifteen years festering, the guilt of patricide.
And, at the centre of it all, von Karma. The prosecutor who was Edgeworth's mentor and who has been making our job difficult every step of the way - it turns out he is behind everything. His overly complicated revenge scheme makes him something of an Iago. The murder, the blood on his hands, something of a Macbeth. The place he then took in Edgeworth's life, something of a Claudius.
The localisation also did something that I find very interesting with him: they made him German nobility. His Japanese name is Karuma Gou; "Karuma" is basically "Karma," and "Gou" according to the wiki could mean "great" or "excellent," or "fires of hell" or "the effect of karma." The localisation took back Karma, added the particle "von" to it and made the rest of his name basically a reference to Manfred von Richthofen, the Red Baron. Von Richthofen was a German pilot during WWI; he is famous for being basically undefeated for years, having a nearly unmatched victory record, and being brought down by a single bullet. Sounds familiar?
There's probably something to be said about Mei, Franziska in the original version, being a Japanese immigrant practising law in the USA burdened by her father's legacy into expecting impossible perfection of herself, but I am nowhere near qualified to make that point, so I am going to stick with the localisation from here on. Making the von Karmas nobility is interesting to me because the nobility as a social class is one of declining power. They once had power, and they still hold a certain social prestige, but their political power is in fact gone as the system that supported them is no longer in action, and most of them are losing their money or already ruined. As a reaction, many nobles (not all of them, but this is again about archetypes) stay among themselves, hold conservative values and sometimes somewhat of a superiority complex due to their education. Nobility's core value, by its very structure, is that of family, so although this was more the case at the time where they were the ruling class, there can be an emphasis on upholding one's legacy and being worthy of the family name. All of those elements suit the von Karmas extremely well.
And Manfred, the patriarch, holds a particular place in that family. He is defined by his power. He is the establishment, the system you're fighting against. He is the nepotism and the corruption, and he holds all the prestige that makes taking him down extremely difficult.
So von Karma holds a strategic place in the narrative as the literal and symbolic obstacle you must take down, but... when it comes to his motivations, we get nothing. We know, for a fact, that perfection is the most important thing to him. We know he was so shocked at receiving a penalty that he dissociated for at least five hours afterwards, and that plus the pain of a bullet in his shoulder was enough to drive him to kill a man. We know that he mentored Edgeworth, his enemy and murder victim's son. We know that fifteen years later, he framed Edgeworth for murder with the intention of falsely revealing Edgeworth as his father's killer, in a plot that was a significant risk to himself, and which ended up uncovering him as the true culprit the very day before he would have been free forever. Later on, we learn that he not only taught Edgeworth his work, but took him in and raised him, so that his daughter saw Edgeworth as a brother.
Put together, those aren't actions that are logical or make any sense. The whole thing is actually completely insane. And the game doesn't offer us the slightest explanation as to why he did them.
Most of the fandom runs on the idea that framing Edgeworth, presumably having him convicted for Hammond's murder, and compelling him into confessing to his father's murder afterwards was his plan from the very moment he decided to take Edgeworth in. That's not a groundless idea but it isn't actually canon. It's a theory that was formulated by Marvin Grossberg:
Maya: B-but how could von Karma know about Mr. Edgeworth's past like that? Even Mr. Edgeworth thought it was just a nightmare! Grossberg: Hmm... That, I do not know. Yet I do know that von Karma is both persistent... and a perfectionist. He may be seeking to satisfy a grudge against Gregory Edgeworth by hurting his son.
But von Karma himself gives us nothing.
Phoenix: Why did you take his son under your wing afterwards? The son of your most bitter rival? Karma: ... That, my dear attorney, is none of your business.
So it could be Grossberg was right and this really was a fifteen-year-old revenge plot in the making. It could also be that von Karma, a father himself, felt enough guilt at the thought that his impulsive crime had orphaned this kid that he decided he should take him in. Equally, there is the possibility he realised the third person in the elevator that day was a potential witness of his crime, and that he took Miles in to surveil and control him. Or it could be yet another thing - the point is, we do not know. The game gives us nothing.
(The theory I chose to explore in Ananke is a mix of several things: that it started with good intentions, then as he realised Miles was a potential witness, hatred and paranoia grew in him until they spiralled into framing him for murder as a desperate attempt to erase him from his life. But there are many possibilities.)
In fact, except for Edgeworth and Franziska's clear admiration of their mentor and father, the main games also don't give us anything about their dynamic with him. Edgeworth and he never interact directly in Turnabout Goodbyes, unless you count von Karma's breakdown, and after that he is in prison. Franziska first appears in the story after he's been locked up. To see them interact, we need to turn towards other media. There are little bits and pieces in interviews and official manga but the main media featuring them are two: Ace Attorney Investigations, the spin-off game starring Miles Edgeworth, and one episode of the Ace Attorney anime, Sound the Turnabout Melody.
And what's interesting is that von Karma's characterisation in those two pieces of media is at first glance completely different. It is my theory that this is the reason for this insane controversy around the character's parenting skills. They're not contradictory, as such, but it definitely takes some brain power in order to reconcile the two - and as such it opens wider possibilities of interpretation.
(Spoilers ahead for both cases.)
In Turnabout Reminiscence, the fourth case of Ace Attorney Investigations and a flashback case from Edgeworth's early career, von Karma acts as the main source of exposition. Edgeworth has just been assigned the very first case of his career by way of hasty reassignment after the previous prosecutor was compromised, and von Karma quizzes him to make sure he knows the facts of the case perfectly. Then of course, shenanigans happen, and by shenanigans I mean murder because this is Ace Attorney. Edgeworth investigates, he is joined by Franziska, and the case progresses.
Mostly, von Karma acts in a rather neutral way. He prompts Edgeworth into giving information, praises him when the information is correct, completes his information with some of his own, all peppered with various "Hmph!"s and "Bah!"s and other expressions of contempt, with a few quips full of dramatic irony here and there ("Criminals have a way of incriminating themselves, don't they?") and many, many demands for perfection - as well as internal oaths from Edgeworth to uphold it, bless him. He dismisses Franziska when she asks him if he will come to see her court debut ("... I'll consider it") and calls Edgeworth worthless when Edgeworth asks to do something Manfred isn't keen on seeing him do. In fact the whole exchange is pretty interesting in terms of the dynamic between the three of them:
Edgeworth: ...Sir, if I may, please allow me to continue with my investigation. Manfred: Whatever for? Edgeworth: I know that there is already a suspect in the murder of Mr. Faraday and Mr. Rell... ...however, there is not enough evidence to prove that it was he who committed the crime. I'd like to continue investigating in order to find the perfect proof of his guilt. Manfred: The perfect proof? Don't make me laugh! A worthless person like you has no right to claim such a thing as perfection! Edgeworth: .................. Franziska: .........Umm, Papa? Who do you think is the real culprit behind these murders? Manfred: .................. Franziska: Miles and I, we're competing to see who can find the real killer first. Plus, being able to investigate a real crime scene is a really rare opportunity. It would give us some real-life experience, wouldn't you agree? Manfred: ...Hmph! If you want to investigate this case that much, then do as you wish. Edgeworth: Then, you're allowing us to continue...? Manfred: In court, your top priority is to win, and a solid investigation is one of the keys to winning. We have to make sure you become recognized as a first-rate prosecutor, don't we? .........It wouldn't be very interesting otherwise.
To be noted that on that last line, Manfred is smirking.
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While there are several reasons why he could be saying that, the smirk specifically, to me, establishes it firmly as a reference to his plan to frame Edgeworth for the murder of Robert Hammond in Turnabout Goodbyes.
All in all, his characterisation here is pretty much in line from what we saw of him in Turnabout Goodbyes and what we could infer from Franziska's words in Justice for All - in all his Sunday cartoon villain glory. But since this is a completely different case, his motivations for either taking Edgeworth in or framing him for murder are still a complete mystery.
Now let's turn to the anime. Surprisingly, it is an entirely different beast.
The sixth episode of the second season, Sound the Turnabout Melody, is a flashback case from when Miles was twelve years old. The anime is the first media that actually establishes that Edgeworth grew up in the von Karma household, as opposed to being merely von Karma's student and Franziska's (somewhat one-sided) rival. Miles is still struggling with the grief and trauma of his father's death, waking up from his nightmare alone and crying in a huge bed under a high ceiling. Franziska is desperate to cheer him up and make him smile. She convinces her father to take them to see one of their trials, then they go to the mall to have pancakes. During the outing, Miles's dog gets lost. There are shenanigans (murder-free this time) involving another lost dog, reward money and a radio message from Phoenix, after which Edgeworth corners a woman trying to steal the other lost dog for the reward money while von Karma is watching his budding prosecutorial skills from the corner. At the end of the episode von Karma cancels the orphanage application he'd been filing for Miles, ties a cravat around his neck, and Miles gives a bright and wide smile for the first time in the episode at the sign of acceptance, which makes Franziska quietly happy in the corner in turn.
If, while reading this, you were imagining a charming "slice of life" story, a feel-good little piece that establishes dynamics and in which nothing truly bad happens... you would be right. The episode is centred on Miles, showing him as he adapts to his new life and starts to think about his path in life. DL-6 is, of course, alluded to, but only in passing: Miles has the nightmare, he is shown questioning whether he really wants to follow in Gregory's footsteps, von Karma mentions to him after his trial that "if only your father were my opponent, I would have enjoyed myself a little." A rather baffling statement, considering the entire reason Gregory can't be von Karma's opponent is that von Karma ensured that himself, but I digress. In fact von Karma is only there in the background, although he too undergoes an arc of sorts, from being in the process of sending Miles to an orphanage to deciding to let him stay with them. We do, however, get a glimpse of his thoughts for the first time:
Von Karma: I didn't know myself why I decided to adopt that boy three years ago. But I think I caught a glimpse of the reason why today. It wasn't out of guilt. I simply wanted to see what path the pain I had taken on would take. That is my karma.
This is the translation of the subtitles, but the dubbed version is a little different:
I wanted to see where the path of pain would lead us, and how it would eventually develop. Karma has a strange way of showing itself...
What this actually means is quite mysterious, but fascinating. What does he mean by "the path of pain/the path the pain I had taken on would take?" Why is that his karma, if guilt didn't spur him to act? The words ask more questions than they answer.
All in all, factually it doesn't contradict anything previously established. Von Karma lies to the journalists about the fact that his win record doesn't matter to him, only bringing criminals to justice, because again if that had been the truth he would never have killed Gregory Edgeworth, but for the rest, it is all pretty consistent with the games.
But the gentle tone of the episode, especially if you're coming fresh off of "you and your father are my curse," is jarring. There are different ways to reconcile that. First of all, neither the anime nor Ace Attorney: Investigations are the mainline game series, and as far as I know the writing team of the main game series worked on neither of those two things, which probably explains the discrepancies. The canon status of the anime especially is arguable. Secondly, both of those pieces of media have their ambiguities. When it comes to the anime, a friend over Discord told me that to them it read like "the honeymoon phase in an abusive cycle," with as evidence the pointed comments about Miles's father which can be read as derisive and willfully undermining, Miles's overall downcast attitude around the von Karmas, and some "noose imagery" in the scene where von Karma ties the cravat around his neck.
That interpretation, of course, is only that; it is in no way canon. In fact, you could absolutely make the opposite case of taking the cute, heartwarming tone of the anime at face value, and arguing that it is in the Investigations case that the tonal dissonance resides. I don't have a source for this except the hearsay of Japanese-speaking friends, but the Japanese word which was translated into "worthless" in AAI would apparently be less harsh in the original version, being closer to meaning "amateur," or “a person without experience.” (It is to be reminded that in Turnabout Goodbyes, von Karma called Edgeworth “an amateur and a romanticist” when talking about him with Phoenix, so that could absolutely be a reference to his characterisation in that case.) And aside from that line, von Karma's behaviour towards Miles is overall neutral.
Those are the two most extreme interpretations, but naturally there are many ways in-between to read those two pieces of media. My point is that the range of the characterisation is actually very wide. Various manga, interviews, promotional material travel in that gap: between victory family karaoke sessions on the tune of My Way, joke strips where Phoenix manages to make von Karma burst into tears by mentioning his daughter leaving the nest, and Edgeworth being roped by his mentor into being a chauffeur for an impromptu shopping trip on his day off, the different insights into the creators' imagined dynamics of the family do not help paint a more cohesive image.
And we still have no answer regarding his motivations.
What we do have is the perspective of his wards on how he shaped them into who they are today. His influence on them is felt even years after his downfall, something they aren't shy about; but they aren't exactly open about their feelings about him, either.
It's obvious for Franziska, of course, whose mentions of the von Karma name in Justice for All might as well be a drinking game. Interestingly, though, when it comes to her feelings for her father himself, she is remarkably guarded.
Maya: Why do you keep giving Nick the evil eye!? It doesn't matter if you prove the defendant guilty tomorrow... Nothing will be able to bring your dad back! von Karma: ... My... Dad? You must mean the esteemed Manfred von Karma. Maya: Of course! Your dad! I know you miss him... von Karma: Enough out of you... One more word and you'll get a mouthful of whip. Now. When did I ever bring up my papa's name in this, or any other conversation...?
It's only to Edgeworth that she confesses about how much her family legacy weighs on her in the post-credits scene of the same case.
von Karma: Shut up! You don't understand a thing! You can't possibly understand what it means to be "Manfred von Karma's daughter"! Edgeworth: Franziska... von Karma: So many expectations from everyone around me... Expectations I must fulfill! I'm expected to win no matter what. And failure? Such a thing is not an option for me! My father was a genius. There's no doubt about that! But... But me... I'm no genius. I've always known that. Edgeworth: ... von Karma: But I... I had to be one. I had to.
(Franziska beloved. You became a criminal prosecutor at 13 years old. Kindly shut up about not being a genius <3)
In contrast, this is what she has to say about being the daughter of Manfred von Karma in Bridge to the Turnabout:
Judge: V-Von Karma, you say…? Perchance, you wouldn't be of any relation to the legendary prosecutor Manfred von Karma? von Karma: … Legends are a thing of the past. I am a Von Karma. That is all.
And then she also has a few lines about it in Ace Attorney Investigations 2. The lines are ostensibly about another character's struggle, but you know they refer to her own.
From The Forgotten Turnabout:
Franziska: However... one must be able to accept the mistakes of their father... ...no matter how much they may look up to him...
And from The Grand Turnabout:
Franziska: "Going up against your own father..." It won't be easy.
Regarding Edgeworth, he is about as quiet about it. He briefly says this upon his return in Farewell, My Turnabout:
Edgeworth: A lot of things may have happened, however Manfred von Karma was still my mentor. And a "perfect win record" is proof of a Von Karma.
He also has this conversation with Ernest Amano in The Kidnapped Turnabout:
Ernest: Ah... Seeing that badge reminds me of Manfred. Now HE was one fine prosecutor, the best of the best. Edgeworth: ...Yes, I can't disagree with you there. Ernest: Hmm... I sense that you don't really want to talk about him. Edgeworth: How I feel about him... It's hard for me to be truthful about that with another person. Ernest: Your hard countenance... I don't know what you're thinking or feeling... ...but mark my words, I think you are Manfred's true successor. I really do. Edgeworth: ..................
When it comes to Edgeworth and his complicated double legacy especially, I really really recommend this post by lorillee, a long meta piece on that specific topic in Ace Attorney: Investigations 2 which gave me a lot of food for thought.
What we see here in this whole load of quotes is that Miles and Franziska have slightly different, yet still very similar ways to talk about about Manfred. Both of them readily admit to his skill as a prosecutor and don't shy away from the way he influenced them. However they also do not open up at all when it comes to their actual feelings about him. Edgeworth puts that reluctance into words in his own thoughts; we unfortunately aren't privy to Franziska's, but the way she outright refuses to talk about her experience, unless it is a snide reference made about another's struggle, makes it clear she is in the same situation.
I don't really have any clever observation to wrap up this already much too long post. But it is really interesting to me how deep an influence on the narrative this character has, despite a limited amount of appearances in the series and practically non-existent insight into his own motivations. Miles's and Franziska's perspectives on him are a fascinating exploration of the themes of family, of legacy, of how even the worst betrayal by the most awful criminal doesn't cut their influence away from you; how even gods of prosecution remain, in the end, human, and keep a very human place in the life of the people close to them.
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7 (laughing kiss) + Jily!
(Inspired by this art by the one and amazing @constancezin)
There are tears of joy shining on James' eyes as he retells the story. "And then — I'm not kidding you — Sirius takes a step back, hits the shirt he had just thrown on the floor, slides backward and lands inside his own trunk — and the trunk closes down, locking him inside!"
She laughs heartily. "And his wand—"
"On the mattress, where he left off because he was so busy stripping down."
"That's what I call instant karma."
"That's what he gets for making fun of us," James replies smoothly, and his hand, until then just laying next to hers, twitch close. His pink finger reaches for hers; a caress that Lily accepts, her heart pumping quick now and it's not because of the shared amusement.
"How long did you let him locked up?"
"A few minutes." He winks at her, his cheeks flushing. "I was in a good mood yesterday."
"Ohhh." Her voice is light, fun, a smile playing on her lips. "Did you have a good day?"
"The best."
"My friends kept teasing me also," she says. Her hand turns up, allowing for their fingers to intertwine. "I didn't think about locking them up though."
"You should—it's as if no one has ever seen two people going on a date before."
"A date? Oh, I hadn't noticed we were on a date."
James' eyes twinkle; anticipation builds inside her, something that drives her to the edge of a cliff she very much wants to jump in. That smile on her lips seems unbearable now; Lily wants to laugh for no other reason than her excellent mood—and his presence. Lately all her good moods have been associated with James.
"Well," he begins, in an attempt of a serious voice that's cut by the fact he is clearly holding back a laugh. "We went to Hogsmeade, shared a few butterbeers at the Three Broomsticks, walked down the street—hand-in-hand, mind you."
"But we were not alone—your friends kept running into us. Hogsmeade is a surprisingly small place."
"Luckily I knew just the right shortcuts."
She laughs freely. "Did you see Sirius' face when he realised he had lost us from sight?"
James chuckles lowly. "I wasn't noticing him, not really," he says. His face is still wrinkled in his laugh as he pulls strands of her hair out of her face and approaches her, his eyes questioning her just as they did the day before.
And just like then, Lily answers by pulling him closer, her hands buried into his hair as they lips touch. It's not a deep desperate first kiss as they shared the day before, neither quite believing it was finally happening; it's a somewhat sloppy kiss, messed because of the smile that neither can drop from their lips as if I am so happy this is happening.
Perhaps James can sense this is a lost battle, for he breaks apart to trail a path of kisses down her jaw, her throat; it tickles her skin, but that's not the reason why she is laughing, and he knows it.
"You know," she says, bending her neck to give him an ever better access, "Sirius' retell of our first date wasn't that bad — he missed some details—" James chuckles, his breathing cooling her skin. Lily sighs gladly. "And you didn't strip down."
"If you want me to, all you gotta do is ask, Evans."
Lily laughs, pulling his head up. "We can consider that for the second date," she suggests, and moves closer to kiss him properly.
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hawkdaddy1111 · 2 years
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DESTINY OF A YAKSHA
Xiao x reader
You're aware, that as Yashkas, you were destined to misery, but just as the hourglass was running out, you decided to cut your karmic dept medication short. Unable to move forward, that was until an ex-lover of yours decided to interrupt your brutal plan.
Implies: Angst, hurt/comfort, fluff, Suicide references, intrusive thoughts, basically just giving up, suggestive themes
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"I know that she has been saying that she's okay, whatsoever, but I can't help but feel my guts twist."
"Traveler, you don't understand the severity of this situation, I'm certainly not doubting your abilities, I'm scared that something would happen to you guys so just leave!" Your chin quivered as your voice broke mid-sentence, you were currently fighting against the karma within you with all your might, just so they could leave in one piece.
"You're aware that nothing is going on between us anymore. We ended it years ago." She heard him say as he averted his eyes to the ground.
"Then what happens to you…?" Aether questioned, worry written all over his face as paimon floated behind him.
"I'm aware! But this isn't about your history with her. This is more concerning…" he frowned his eyebrows, finally looking at her "...your destiny as Yakshas."
"It doesn't matter, it's my destiny as a Yaksha after all…"
"What are you saying." His question sounded more like an order.
"(Y/n), we won't leave you here, certainly not like this."
"Earlier, she seemed in pain, I knew that she was trying to hide it from me." She looked up at him, examining his facial expressions which only help something unreadable. "And lately, I noticed more monsters tainted with her karma."
"I know when to trust my instincts, what I'm getting is that she…– the clock is ticking, and we need to do something about it, at least, med to go."
"(Y/n)...?" Your eyes began closing, feeling yourself slide back against the ground, unable to move.
You couldn't see what was happening around you, all you heard were multiple voices and two hands caressing both sides of your face, it felt… comforting.
The next time you woke up, you found yourself in a room, feeling a fuzzy blanket covering the rest of your body that had the scent of Qinxgin flowers filling the air around you, this scent wasn't something unfamiliar, in fact, you knew damn well that this was somebody's bed that you had slept in before.
That wasn't exactly reassuring, since you knew exactly where you were right now, Wangshu inn.
Just as you were about to sit up, a piercing pain struck your head; you immediately felt dizzy.
"Don't move too much, your body must be sore."
Your eyes widened.
Fuck.
All though you didn't dare to look in his direction, though, you could pretty much see his exact position right from the corner of your eyes, arms crossed rigorously against his chest as he was leaning against the walls right next to the door, almost as if he was making sure you wouldn't escape.
"Right…"
Silence fell upon you two, though, what did you expect? What could you possibly tell to your ex-lover?
"Why am I here?" You asked, still not looking at him but the blanket covering you.
"It seems like you had a small inconvenience while dealing with some Hilichurls." He emphasized it on small, making it obvious that it was his plain old sarcasm swirling among his words. – "No, how did you find me?"
"The traveler called out for me."
"Ah." You knew it was a bad idea.
Just how are you supposed to get out of here without him imposing multiple questions? You need to get out of here as fast as possible.
"(Y/n)." The way your name rolled on his tongue never failed to raise goosebumps all over your skin, ever since you two first met. 'Get over yourself' you thought, he was your ex for fuck's sake.
"All thought I have a pretty good idea of what really occurred back then, I'll still need you to explain yourself." That was it, you immediately rose up to your feet, eyes still avoiding his gaze as you began putting on your shoes at a fast pace.
"Sorry to disappoint but nothing really happened, I was selfish to my own bodily needs and overworked myself to the bitter end." He heard you say, your back completely facing him as you supported yourself with a hand while you were putting on your left pair of shoes.
The last person you'd admit your plan to was him.
"Are you sure?"
"That's the honest truth." Just as those words left your mouth, you heard a familiar wisp of wind emerge right behind you.
"If that was your so-called truth," you heard him say right against your ears, as he continued "why is it that you're so persistent on avoiding my eyes?"
"I don't see why I'm obligated to look at you."
"Or is it because you're scared to jeopardize your truth the moment I look at you? Cause I know exactly how you are when you're being dishonest." You gritted your teeth, "I've known you for several hundreds of years, (Y/n)."
"For fuck's sake, Nothing happened! You're making a big deal out of nothing!"
"I wouldn't give a single damn if it was simply nothing."
"Then why do you care so much?!"
"Because I don't want to lose you too."
Your eyes widened, remaining silent as if you were making sure the words you just heard were nothing but a simple fantasy, you struggled to even breathe for a moment.
Xiao was a man of small but sharp words, he always spoke up whenever it was necessary, in fact, his words were anything but mendacious. So you knew damn well that there was no shot he would be untruthful at this right moment.
You slowly turned your head, your eyes gradually slithering upwards, noting his clenched jaw, and tense posture along the way till you were met with his golden, cat-like eyes looking at you carefully with an expression you've never seen before.
Just as you were about to say something, a loud bang echoed in the room, both of you glanced right in the direction of the sound, looking at the door entirely open as Hu tao and the traveler surged from it.
You felt two arms envelop you in a hug, as you just sat there, frozen, eyes just staring at those who sought yours from the very beginning. It still felt like the two of you were still alone, standing before each other as everything surrounding you two was a complete void.
He was right, you felt exposed at the mere sight of his eyes, but that didn't last long enough, since the next time you blinked; there was nothing but teal-like wind dissipating from where he was standing.
You've never felt so alone, and you still can't lay a finger on how he could say such things when he was the one who left, the one who decided to move along with life as you just stood frigid in the same spot.
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✧ my lovely love 𖥔˙̣
07. the talk
IN WHICH, choi y/n after finally landing a job after many many interviews finds out his new boss is the boy that broke his heart many years ago in highschool. can the two become friends again and maybe more or will it once again end in tragedy with y/n crying on the floor of his room for days left to pick up the pieces of his once again broken heart.
⌗ warningz — angst probably idk :: wc — 620
⌗ lowercase intended
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"hey y/n, can we talk?" its jay.
oh. jay. i really don't wanna talk with him. but i guess i have to man up and live my life. i turn towards him, "yes mr. park? what would you like to talk about?" he looks a bit surprised for whatever reason. "could you follow me into my office so we can speak privately?" i nod and follow him into his office, people are staring. jay locks the door as we enter the office. he looks a bit scared. his face reminds me of the one he had that day.
i don't know what to do here. why did he want to talk. we stare at eachother for a moment, "y/n.." he hesitates for a second and just stares at me, "do you wanna take a seat?" he pulls out a chair for me. "..okay" i sit down. all i can do is stare. he's still so pretty. i should hate him. he broke my heart. why does my heart ache seeing him? "y/n" he starts, "i'm sorry." "for what?" i want him to say it. admit what you did to my face. tell me you know what you did to me. he looks taken aback. "for everything. i know i hurt you all those years ago. i know i was stupid and i know how much i hurt you." i can hear his voice tremble a bit. my eyes start to gloss over and i think i'm about to cry. i really don't want to cry in front of him. "oh." is all i can get out without sobbing and suddenly i feel a tear drop slide down my face. before i know it i'm crying. jay apologizes a few more times i can hear the struggle in his voice. it's like every memory of us floods back to me.
jay takes a deep breath in and speaks again, "i know we haven't spoken since that day but i promise i didn't want any of that to happen." "why did you do it then? we were good together, we could've made it work." he opens his mouth as to speak but he immediately stops. he opens his mouth to speak again and this time as he talks he makes the slightest bit of sense to me, "y/n, i really wanted to please believe me. i just couldn't stay with you because my parents moved me away because of you. there hasn't been a single day since then i haven't thought about you, please forgive me." he sounds like he's about to cry. "jay.." i don't know what to say to him. there wasn't one day since then where i haven't thought about him.
"there hasn't been a day since where i haven't thought about you. i don't know if i have it in me right now to forgive you." my voice cracks and i can see tears coming from his eyes. he makes it so hard. i look down at my hands, i can't look at him. "i want to forgive you jay i really do, and now we have to work with each other and i get that it would be easier if i could just get over it but what you did and what we were made an impact on me." "i.. understand. i'm sorry again. do you think we could take it one step at a time? become friends again? please y/n. i'll do anything." i can hear the pain in his voice. "okay. let's start over, become friends again. just.. don't bring this up again, okay?" he looks at me with glossy eyes and an appreciative smile on his face, "of course. anything for you."
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takiartepa · 2 years
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FAN VENT about MIDPOLLO
I want my Eclipse back and happy
This is about how DC is treating #Midpollo lately. I will put related links to things (scenes from comics, spoilers) and other vents of mine with images; and subtitles for order. Advertence: LOT OF TEXT. I'm angry and anxious. Sorry for the English mistakes, not my mother language.
-This is exclusively personal. If you don’t like it, please go your way. As I said, is a VENT, I’m being SUBJECTIVE-
Did you read the next Action comics chapter synopsis? Well, to start:
⚠⚠ WARNING SPOILERS ⚠⚠
The origins of Mongul, his mysterious champions, and Midnighter’s underground rebellion stand revealed! When another of Superman’s truest allies is killed, will the tragic loss end the rebellion before it begins? Or will it be the spark that finally unites Superman’s forces against the unstoppable Mongul? The Warworld Revolution begins! Also featuring the finale to the epic Martian Manhunter backup series!
Extracted from here. Action Comics #1042.
Well. I think you get my point by speaking about this. And yes, it's not good. Do you need it clear? Here: "When another of Superman’s truest allies is killed (…)"
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. I FEAR WHAT'S GONNA HAPPEN
And more, I have the fear I know what's gonna happen. I mean, you already saw how they just disappeared Apollo for some chapters (or didn't show us WTF was happening with him). That's the trope "Out of Focus". And that's not a good signal. I fear... we will have Midnighter and Apollo separated. UNJUSTLY separated. AGAIN. And with that, DC having the perfect excuse to write them OUT of the story (the "Put on a bus" trope). I hope I'm mistaken, but... 🙃
. We have the historical record for me to fear what's gonna happen next: do you know how many times Apollo had deaths in comics until now? Yeah, sorry for the cruel realization if you didn't know. And for worst, the number is slowly approaching the two digits. Do you think on any other character that DC seems to LOVE killing it again and again because they think fans are used to it already? (or they are a piece of 💩 that enjoy it and don't know a new story to write without that). Yeah, Jason Todd. Red Hood. The second Robin in the story of Batman. One of the first victims of the now called "Bucky clause", accompanied by Aunt Ben. So, how could I don't think of the possibility of OTHER characters falling into this d4mn karma? . I don't think DC has that right, not even when Apollo is called that, Apollo. And you know: greek mythology = tragedy. But, WHY THE F*CK don't we have the RIGHT to see a gay character be happy?? WHY CAN'T WE SEE A GAY couple BE HAPPY TOGETHER???? ANSWER ME THAT. So much "queer coding" DC says to have, pieces of 💩, yeah, only to earn money. But you always remember the "bury your gays" for the drama..
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APOLLO DESERVES MORE
I fear for Apollo because Midnighter is always the main point here so he has fewer possibilities of being in a problem. Sorry Lulu, but there is no balance. Apollo deserves more but DC still ignores Apollo as much as Wildstorm always did. I thought DC would do best for him, BUT NO, and that makes me angry. . And it's always like Apollo is used like a f*cking plot device, the same karma that a lot of female characters have to live. How surprising, because DC is writing him to be better known as "Midnighter's partner" than "Apollo" itself, with the stereotypical "female character/perfect spouse" traits. And I also don't like that. Apollo needs an independent life, too. We have enough female characters fighting for a place to have ALSO a gay male character suffering the same sh*t because of that idea that in a gay couple there is always a "female" part and "male" part. Heteronormative and binary sh*t. I despise that thing of stereotypes, don't agree with any of that. I don't mean these characteristics are "bad" for a man (when they are just, characteristics). The point is Apollo doesn't exist to be Midnighter's trophy and we need to see more of him being UNIQUE. . Do you know Apollo could have had a solo series? But it never happened 😭
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YOU DON'T FEEL THE LOVE
DC just continues taking things from us, Midpollo fans that started to love them by their original comics (The Authority, StormWatch from WildStorm, etc). DC keeps ruining it. We lately don't have kisses. We don't have the caresses, touches, or hugs. NOT EVEN the physical nearness. We don't have lovely words from one to the other. They don't even act as if they love each other. It's funny how they had more chemistry in the chaos of the ORIGINAL AUTHORITY than here.
. And that said, this isn't the Authority we remember and liked. I like Superman but I feel DC just did something stupid by making him "leader" of a bad "Authority" imitation team. I don't feel the nostalgia and I don't feel happy about that. Superman itself takes all the focus on himself 🙄 and the Authority was great because you felt how EVERY MEMBER was relevant. Not the "leader" alone. . But let's return to the point! It's IRONIC we are supposed to be in a generation where we could celebrate diversity in fiction without censorship or fear. BUT DC is making us get Midpollo's love WITH A DROPPER. And them being a gay couple DOESN'T MEAN they only could express themselves freely in a pride comic. I FEEL LIKE DC DOES THAT. They only put Midpollo being genuinely in love in these comics, but in comics where they aren't main characters, bye-bye. (And even, in Midnighter comic and Midnighter and Apollo comic you feel something is lacking). . Hypocrisy, because if they were a straight couple, and even more, of the main character (for example, Batman and Catwoman) sure, "let's ALSO show clearly they have s3x there and here because straight couples are always acceptable". But if they are not straight DC is like "LET'S CENSOR Apollo's butt, so ph0bics doesn't feel uncomfortable!" (??????). Yeah, this happened, and so recently you can't just believe it. (And look at this time DC censored a kiss. And the audacity of them with the "old friend" phrase. Ugh)
Midpollo in current comics say they love each other but you don't feel anything. DC goes like "let's put them saying it" to fulfill an objective. And nothing more. You don't feel it, you don't sense it.
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COMPARISONS
And that shit of comparing them. I mean, now Midnighter is not only compared with Batman, ALSO SUPERMAN. WTF? Because sure, OF COURSE, let's not forget WHO ARE THE STARS here. They will never let Apollo have more importance than Superman (for example). Yes, Superman is the main character of the comic but that doesn't mean you have to nerf and make a character be so OOC to "protect your symbol". Ugh. I like Superman but all of this makes me angry. . And APOLLO IS UNIQUE. Here they started making him act just as a Superman fanboy that said that he "always wanted to be like him". They keep making us believe they will develop Apollo's past AT LAST, but NO, HAHAHA, no. They keep making him only say things, not show them. You feel nothing. And they only keep comparing them. The same 💩 as the people outside the fandom that doesn't know anything about Midpollo and only see them as the "canon Superbat" or the couple that's the excuse to say to Superbat fans they don't have the right to dream with Superbat being canon (and that is also disgusting; let Superbat shippers BE). .
I'm happy Midpollo is part of the ONLY original The Authority members that still SURVIVE the DCU migration, but I can't feel completely happy at the same time (I miss WildStorm's The Authority). I feel DC still treat them so unjustly, DC remember them only for pride, use them for drama factor, or to be the characters that bother the main ones 😒🙄 or as a filler.
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THE CRISIS IS NO EXCUSE
"But, do you know DC is gonna enter a crisis event? A lot of characters are going to die 🙄"
I-DON'T-F*CKING-CARE
DC had already k1lled Midpollo to only avoid writing them, as it happened in The New 52: Futures End Vol 1 #1 (2014) comic. Because The Authority would have ended all the problems in a blink, so they were another "problem" 😒 . But Wildstorm demonstrated in a crisis Midpollo can have their love STRONGER than ever. Yeah, I speak of The Authority Volume 4. And you say they have the right to continue ruining Midpollo only because there comes a crisis? No. It's because they don't want them shinning more than Superman or Batman 🤬 or any other character created originally by DC. . They don't respect Midpollo. You maybe saw how they JUST started being a couple in StormWatch's modern run... and next, from one moment to another, Midnighter comic BROKE THE COUPLE UP with a completely stupid and ridiculous excuse (where they changed Apollo's personality to make him disagree with Midnighter every time). .
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THIS IS NOT THE SAME APOLLO WE KNEW
I don't care if they have the right to retcon Midpollo. I'm hating the changes they are doing on them. And because the changes don't make sense with the Midpollo they presented in Stormwatch modern run, where Midnighter fell for Apollo because Apollo could be cruel to evil people. THAT'S HOW APOLLO ALWAYS WAS until DC decided that stupid change of making him more a copy of the supermen, all like "we don't k1ll" and "Midnighter, don't kill, we are better than this". Wtf? DC, did you even read The Authority original comics? Are you so cowardly now about the "kill or don't kill" dilemma even when you continuously torture your own characters and go all proud of being recognized by your supposed "obscure" stories? . The Apollo I love was capable of incinerating a man's test1cles to make him speak 👿 -yeah, this is real, happened in the Wildstorm era and Midnighter always LOVED 😏 these moments of the savage Apollo raising- They were aggressive with who deserved it, without ruining what they sought, and without losing the focus of what they wanted to be (more than Bendix's created human weapons). They were made for a thing, and they transformed it to be better. I also miss the real origin of Midpollo and how DC ruined the opportunity of developing more from it.
(And, also Bendix is being a victim of DC retcons. New readers that never read The Authority will never know how a piece of 💩 he really was. Now he seems a joke. I miss hating him).
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It's ironic and indignant how the fandom is making better content for Midpollo (with fanfics/fanart/fan comics) than the own official comic industry lately. And how THEY SEEM TO KEEP IGNORING US, THE OWN MIDPOLLO FANDOM, from WHAT WE WANT. Is like we don't exist. I feel that, I don't know if you too. I hope I'm not alone in this.
And I'm not gonna stay shut, as you see.
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polaroidbills · 1 year
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20. new guy
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pairing! - non-idol!jungwon x fem!reader
synopsis! - inspired by reckless by madison beer - jungwon promised y/n to never break her already damaged heart, but can he really keep it?
word count! - 702
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october 22, 2021
(y/n's pov)
"good morning class, today i want to introduce you to our two new students! please introduce yourselves," the teacher starts the morning.
i look beside her and spot the same two boys from the mall.
"good morning! my name is choi beomgyu. i'm excited to get to know you guys!"
"good morning! i'm hwang hyunjin. i hope we get along with each other!" he's kind of cute...
"okay you guys can sit next to... minnie and y/n, please raise your hands," we both raise our hands.
as they walk towards us, they smile, realizing we've already met.
hyunjin sits on my right, while minnie on my left sits next to beomgyu.
"hey."
"hi," i smile at him.
"so now i'd like to announce that you guys will be doing a partner assignment. now this is worth 15% of your mark and you will be presenting it. i will be choosing your partners and handing out your rubrics and criteria."
great. just what i needed. i lower my head feeling tired and not in the mood. i tune out the voice of my teacher for a little bit. thinking. thinking about how much i don't want jungwon as my partner.
"....minnie and beomgyu, jay and heeseung, y/n and..."
"please no please no please no," i mumble under my breath.
"hyunjin."
yes! i turn to him and high five him.
"jungwon and chaeyeon," i hear celebrations from chaeyeon and see her happliy walking behind us to sit next to him.
the rest of the class was boring and tiring. a bunch of nonsensical chatter oozing from the teachers mouth, talk about the assignment and the expectations for it.
the bell rings for lunch and i grab my things walking out with minnie, to the washroom.
"soo the new guys?" she raises her eyebrows, looking at me suspiciously.
"hyunjin's cute i guess. i'd definitely like to get to know him through this project," i say while fixing my hair.
"you know i've been thinking..."
"yeah? about what?"
"about how at this point in you life, you shouldn't be sulking over some stupid boy. i think you should put yourself out there more, instead of moping around all day. i mean, that's why chaeyeon and his friends did all of this. plus, karma will get to them eventually," she says, touching up her makeup.
i pause what i'm doing to let her words sink into me, i need time to absorb what she's saying.
i turn to her, "you know what? you do have a point."
"i know i'm so smart," she flips her hair sassily.
"i can forgive but i definitely cannot forget," we walk out of the bathroom after cleaning up our stuff.
as we step out of the room, our eyes are met with beomgyu and hyunjin.
"oh, hey guys!" beomgyu greets us.
"hey."
"do you guys wanna eat lunch together?" minnie questions the tall boys.
"uh sure! we don't know anyone else anyway," hyunjin laughs.
his laugh is so charming and cute.
(jungwon's pov)
back in class.
i watch as one of the new boys smiles at y/n as if they already know each other.
"y/n and..." please be me please be me please be me.
"hyunjin."
and as if them sitting and smiling together couldn't get worse. they're partners for this stupid project.
"jungwon and chaeyeon."
no no no no. this can't be happening right now. someone pinch me, am i dreaming?
she strides over to me, placing herself on the chair next to me. i scooch away a little.
the lunch bell rings and i get up to leave.
walking into the halls, i stop by my locker to place my books down and switch them.
as i finish, i over hear a conversation.
"oh, hey guys!"
"hey!" that voice is a little too familiar.
"do you guys wanna eat lunch together?"
"uh sure! we don't know anyone else anyway,"
i close my locker, finally seeing who it is. beomgyu and hyunjin talking to minnie and y/n.
of course they already know each other.
i watch as the walk off to the cafeteria, smiling and laughing with one another.
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author's note! - new guy alert !
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justaredheadf1fan · 11 months
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Trouble's definitely Bak-u for this one!
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Seriously, why did I have to miss this weekend? I've been catching up on my home after work and holy hell! I'll say what I already have in mind if I confirm it after watching all the Sprint content from today.
Sprint Shootout - Saturday
Well, so for now what I can gather is that this crap is meant to be a Quali 2.0, for the Sprint race. That's what's so especial about it? Anyway, let's see how this goes.
Quite a few cars through that escape/way out (how do people actually refer to this in English???? I'm at a loss right now 🤣).
Aaaaand Sargeant hit the barrier and destroyed his right rear and he can barely move the car. Causes a Red Flag and Q1 is not gonna get restarted now. I now Williams retired him for the Sprint and honestly, I get it. That looks BAD.
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10 minutes for Q2 and it's looking a little calmer than Q1 for now. And it definitely is, Stroll almost got lost in the mix but finally made it through. Pretty quiet, this one.
Time for Q3, i'm about to see Charles crushing it again today before the disasterclass 🥲 What a beaut. funny though I've just seen him crash 🤪 This guy's gonna end me, seriously. I have no clue how he even got the car to its rightful place. What a guy.
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Onto the circus now.
Sprint Race - Saturday
Let's see now what everyone has been talking about for the last few hours.
HAHAHAHA George serving cunt right from the start. WHAT A KING! And Crystappen complaining about something he's done a thousand times to everyone, especially Lewis??? Oh boy, am I enjoying the karma!!!!
Omg Yuki noooooooo!!!! VSC deployed, that tyre right in the middle... Good thing they've already slowed down. Safety Car now deployed after Yuki's tyres haven't been properly fitted or is it that the car's is fucked? Damn.
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Whoa what a restart!! What's going on with Fernando, what did he take!? 🤣
Sharl had nothing to do against Checo, that illegal car is just too much. He didn't even need to try, he just got there and ate him up. And Sid's engineer is just so funny, telling him he's done a good job not making contact with George, really on point tbh. Crybaby needs a reality check, even if it's that subtle.
Haas on Haas violence? I need popcorn for this! I'm just waiting for this to really devolve in a couple races 💀 And now that's a good overtake by Lance, good job my darling!!
Well, good thing Sharl could keep the fraud at bay at least, since there was no catching Checo.
I'm amused at how our dear friend the baby could have the nerve to tell George off about the crash. Are you serious, dude? And threatening him with crashing against him ON PURPOSE. Nobody sees the problem here? Honestly, I couldn't be prouder of George after his response. King. He chose violence and stuck to it today. Good for him.
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And that's it, that's the most interesting thing that happened on the Sprint day and basically it went down right afterwards.
I seriously believe that FIA are not even thinking about the sport, they haven't been for quite some time now. Doing this at a track such a Baku, it's very risky. It might not be as dangerous as Jeddah, but it's still a pretty complicated or tricky race. Doing the Sprint there is just for the sake of the circus that can happen after the race itself since it's pretty damn boring otherwise.
Someday the worst will happen and someone will truly get hurt (if not killed) in one of these at a complicated track, and then we'll all cry. But clearly the FIA only think about the $ and the spectacle for the sake of the spectacle instead of thinking straight.
That's MY opinion. Feel free to disagree. But I really hate this crappy ideas.
Race - Sunday
I'm finally back from work so I'm gonna watch the clown show now. I know more or less what happened so not very excited about it, but I like to suffer.
Good start from Sharl and both RBR alost hitting each other. Why is it always "almost"? So unfair. Good start from Lewis and Lance. This is gonna last so little...
So, absolutely no one will mention the fact that IT'S NOT NORMAL to pass someone that fast even with DRS? Jesus, it's fucking insane.
Lance saying that he's not gonna attack Fernando. What a class act, this boy. Fernando, you know you don't deserve this kid. My poor baby, he might not know yet Fernando will definitely sacrifice hm given the chance if it means he'll get any advantage at all.
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Pretty clean and boring race so far and it's only been 8 laps. Where is the exciting Formula 1 we were promised with the regulation change last year? Because I don't see it. I miss the actual Formula 1, the one we used to see years ago, so much rawer and chaotic in many ways. They wanted to take out Mercedes at all costs and they made this sport a huge crap. I remember how nervous and ecstatic I used to be watching this every race weekend. I really did have bad timing when I decided to come back to this.
Very clean pit stop for Lewis, thank goodness. Now we can see the RBR fighting, due to some trouble going on for Sid the Sloth. And De Vries broke his wheel, we get a Safety Car on the track now. What a surprise.
That restart will be so bad. I'm seeing it before I even have it on my screen. Aaaaand there we go. Lewis almost hitting the barriers, Fernando eating up Carlos like he's nothing (he really isn't), Lance right there too. And Lewis takes George!
But seriously, Carlos? How sad was that? Ouch, Lance touched the barrier! Hope he's good, he's doing a fantastic job today!! What happened in the pit lane with George? Didn't notice.
Okay, how hard is that Aston Martin? What kind of concrete did they use to build it? 🤣 Lance made a mistake now and went wide, and nos Lewis eats him up! Sorry, Lance, but this was bound to happen eventually!!
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Pretty boring last few laps, like literally one of the most boring races in the last few months (counting 2022 too) because nothing is happening. And there's still almost half the race to be completed. Yikes.
Still 11 laps to go, and I can't yawn more than I already am. What a bore. Seriously, why am I like this? Why do I need to see this? And for what!? At this point I'm just thinking that as soon as this is done, I need to hang my clean clothes to dry, since I've left them in the washing machine until the races ends. This is saying A LOT.
George pitting in lap 50? Mmmm... WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED WHEN OCON WAS ENTERING THE PITS!? And no where comes George getting Fastest Lap!!!! Yes baby, he started off the weekend doing nothing of substance and now here he comes!
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I just shut off the streaming since it's been enough. Too much, actually.
All in all, it was a crappy race. Really disappointed since this track is one of my faves.
Same plan next week, I'll watch after work, whenever that is since I have no clue what my schedules are 🤣 I'm too tired now to even check this before posting so...
Peace out!
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Completing Hard Rain on expert difficulty
I don't even have a witty tagline for this one, this was just terrible
Day 1.
Once again joined by Tabitha, most god gamer alive. Today Ellis is wearing an outfit called 'Neon Slasher'. No idea what it is but it looks dope as hell.
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So the first map wasn't so bad, that's how it usually goes with this challenge. We only died once, but we had used up quite a few health kits. By the time we got to the saferoom we were all out. So uh, yeah we didn't have a lot of supplies going into the next map.
Still, we tried our best! On maybe our second or third attempt, I got a message from our very good friend Black who asked if he could play too. Hell, why not? A third human survivor oughta increase our odds, right?
Well, not under these circumstances.
Y'know how I told you we used up all our medkits before getting to this saferoom? Yeah, we really needed those. We decided pretty quickly that we should just restart the campaign from the beginning and try to save as much resources as possible.
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Luckily, we did just that! We got to the saferoom again without dying and we had three health kits to spare!
Now came the real challenge. We had the supplies. We had the audacity. All we needed to do was get through the sugar mill, and the rest of the campaign would be smooth sailing... Hopefully.
Let me tell you man, it was rough. I don't know how many witches we startled but I do know that I'll have that terrifying choir music ringing in my ears forever. I think avoiding the witches is the most difficult part of this entire campaign, if not this entire expert challange.
It was nice to cuddle my homies in a corner in terror as the witch killed the bot, though. Love canoodling with my homies.
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On one attempt, I threw a Molotov at a tank right when Tabitha got incapped. So... yeah, she burnt to death. My bad. I immediately got my karma though, as a smoker dragged me into my own fire. I didn't get a screenshot of it, but here's an artistic recreation of the scene.
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At some point, Black threw a pipe bomb and it blew up almost this entire shed. Like, it's just a skeleton now. I don't know why but that was for some reason really funny to me. Look at it. He turned it into a gazebo.
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On another attempt, I had accidentally friendly fired at Tabitha, incapping her. I then immediately friendly fired at Black after that, incapping him as well. I also somehow managed to startle a witch in the process. This all happened within the span of a few seconds. I don't know how I managed to fuck up this badly. I really don't. I swear to god I'm usually much better than this.
I didn't even fight the witch that was running towards me. I accepted my fate. This was my punishment for what I had done.
I swear not every death was my fault, we all had our fair share of fuckups. I just had to bring up my blunders because even though it was painful it was also kinda hilarious.
Thank god there's like 8 respawn closets on this map. Like, there was one around literally every corner. I've got no idea how many times we had to rescue each other, but I know we had at least one or two revivals per attempt.
At least whenever I died I got to look at Nick's amazing outfit. The pink and yellow glasses are really a serve. Absolute fashion king over here.
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Sadly, after about 15 deaths, we had to call it for the night.
We managed to get to the bottom of the elevator once, but I died juuuust across the street from the gas station. Maybe if I had an adrenaline or a bit more health I could've made it. At least we know it's possible! If we can do it once, we can do it again.
We're all pretty certain the sugar mill is the most difficult part of the campaign, no way the run back or the finale would be more cruel than this.
I'll look up some strategies from other players who've attempted this, and we'll try again tomorrow. Stay tuned for part 2!
In the meantime, look at my spray. I completely forgot I had it LMAO
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Since the new Chris Portal documentary showed the true and nasty side of KB/Mike and TheMeatly, are you still gonna Say "we don't know the full story"?. We as a fanbase were treated as shitty as the employees they fired and abused, they don't deserve respect anymore.
uh i dont know where you've been but that video hasn't uncovered much new to me aside from some details from the two interviews near the end of the vid but like all of that stuff has already been known, it is just the first instance of someone compiling it into a coherent video (like the stupid games for kids said by mike we already knew in 2019 which i would not exactly say is the same as experiencing work abuse lol)
and idk why you're being so hostile at me, i've never been one to defend mike nor meatly but tried to find and share as much of the information as i could find about their wrongdoings, like dude i was fucking there pointing out that a lot of employees dont have "kindlybeast employee" in their twitter bios which then got screenshot and that post went on reddit where actual ex employees started sharing stuff (which freaked me out cuz i didnt want to have my "face" on the post dedicated to that) so like maybe turn that down a little
i feel like there's a lot of people new to some things unraveling in this controversy but as for me i've already made up my mind what i think of it, so i'm not so up in arms to scream about things that we already screamed about 2-3 years ago and that might make people think that i don't care or wanna brush it off which is not true
kindly beast / joey drew studios inc / mike and meatly deserve all the criticism aimed towards them, and on the day it was known about the lawsuit i laughed that karma finally got to them because i had thoughts "for all the shit they did to people, they deserve to fail and lose everything, to start over"
but i also think this is an opportunity for them to improve, learn and do better, sooooo i'm just kind of waiting for the next thing to happen i guess
in case they don't improve, welp, they can honestly fuck off
death of the author, whatever, it is anyone's personal call if they wanna keep on supporting some creators or not, and well as for me i think there's so much more and worse stuff that we (we as... gaming community... fandoms...?) tolerate that this seems just... small in comparison. i'm NOT saying it's not a big deal, it has me wishing lowkey that i just wasn't into batim lmao so i could just go. like for example i'm much more disgusted at sc/ott caw/thons wrongdoings cause they actually influence politics so i'm actively trying to keep myself away from engaging with fnaf or that one pirate gay show that i was like holy shit a cool gay couple but then read some yikes things about a character being based on actual real life guy who was a slave owner and that just had me nope out. i guess what i'm saying is i try not to support problematic things but if i were to suport only those purely unproblematic thatd kinda leave me with nothing idk society capitalism something something so you know i just try to weigh if something is actively harmful to people or if there is something that happened that i absolutely cannot forgive and based on that i get into something or not
does that make me a hypocrite? maybe but if i focus on boycotting what matters in the grand scheme of things and indulge a little in indie game fandom that's rapidly losing popularity i think i can personally live with that
sorry for going off about this, truth be told there's a lot of things happening in the world right now that put me in a very doomer mode lmao i mean we all see whats happening, shits pretty fucked and it was hard for me to even spare some focus on this, its really not good to get so desensitized so i also apologize for the harsh tone but yeah
anyways, i agree that we should make them feel like they need to apologize and do better, meatly still havent said a word publicly about anything that has happened and that fucking sucks
i still do not like harassing them over releasing batdr, thats part of crunch culture and all that jazz and i think we shouldnt lower the standards for that for anyone because [insert that image of you doing something bad to someone you dislike but it deflecting into someone you like]
but we should keep them on their toes and not let them think that we will just forget and let them get away with it because wow they've been massive assholes
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i've had a tough week at uni, i'm still taking final papers and exams. not finished yet, but i went back and watched the series and fragments and i have a question what's going on in yargi?
i'm not taking this study out anymore, so here's a few words about what i think of the latest developments in this series.
ceylin. she is my comfortable character, my favorite character and in general i just love to think about her personality and actions. her attempt to send parla abroad and lie to ilgaz is not the best decision she could have made. but i am not going to judge her for that. i don't condone her, but i do understand. somewhere in episode 10 she talks about the way she is: choosing what seems right and beneficial to her at the time; not wanting to be judged for those choices. she thinks about the future and says something like "i won't stop, he won't change. trouble will knock on our doors again and we can't handle it". that's exactly what's happening now.
i don't agree that her character has no development. ceylin has never received professional psychological help in all her time. if you have never dealt with psychological problems, then i can only congratulate you. sometimes people cannot change just because they want to. sometimes it takes years of work with a therapist. ilgaz is very good, but he is not a universal pill that can cure all of ceylin's psychological problems just by love. that is not how it works.
ceylin has a huge amount of trauma related to family. she became the backbone of this family very early on, working 2 jobs to support inji's studies. being the sister of a mother who lost a child. replacing the mother for parla. and replacing the father for them all. she is not separated from her family. she cannot say "no" to them and is willing to give them everything, even at the cost of her own life and marriage.
her family is manipulative. aylin blackmailed ceylin with her own suicide. everyone remember ceylin's breakdown in the middle of the night when she thought her mother wasn't breathing? i was once blackmailed with the death of a family member too, it has a nightmarish effect on a person.
ceylin tried to do what she thought was right. how others react to her action is their decision. life is not a straight line. the show needed this situation because you can't hide the problem under kisses and hugs, even though they are sincere, and think it will go away on its own. they have to figure it out.
me personal opinion: teenagers should be held accountable. they are involved in drug trafficking, mafia activities, and eventually murder. it's time for them to think about what they are doing.
opinion #2: the adults should answer as well. the idiots who took the lynching. even if they went to serdar, they could have called the police a hundred times on the way. they could have called the police and ambulance later. but yes, team cleanup after the murder is clearly better.
i am sad for both ilgaz and ceylin. they are very unlucky with their families.
yekta. my favorite annoying yekta. sooner or later karma will catch up with him. he might be the victim from the 6 month arc.
yekta's son is very strange, i don't have an opinion on him yet.
pars and derya. i really liked pars wedding proposal. it's a very beautiful monologue and far from corny as i expected. that scene is very nice, really. waiting very much for their wedding.
that's it for now. i'm really looking forward to the episode on sunday and hope i can watch it live. i'll get back to writing "1095 days for you" in the new year, now i have absolutely no resources for either the fluff of the first chapters or the angst of the last one.
enjoy the show. discussions are great (it means sema and the whole team are doing a good job and we have something to discuss), but don't take it personally. i believe everything will be solved. thanks for reading it, btw.
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