#soap's journal

[ohgeesoap]

Soap talks recovery, focus and fitness.

Journal entries typed out beneath the cut.

A few ask. Most don't.

They see I'm 22nd and no one prods. I lay around and listen -- let them talk; About their injuries. About the headlines. Apparently world thinks Russian warheads were a Russian test. They think the cargo ship was "lost at sea".

Gaz's family deserves to know.

So I focus on getting better. On my PT. At one point, chopper pilot was reading my kill number. Exfil'd as urgent surgical. Now adding another set of push-ups every day. Plan is pretty simple: get stronger than before.

I do what I can to push out the distractions. Nikolai doesn't help. Always bringing by friends. Lady friends. Guess Russian women love doting on us wounded, and I can't say the men mind one bit. Mix in a little vodka, too much free time, oxycodone...hard for most to get back into shape.

So I carry Price's pistol. Focus on disassembling it, cleaning it. I obsess over every scratch.

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Back in Credenhill and training harder than ever. I run with selection candidates, hit the o-course and range, lift...basically put myself through day-long circuits.

Thing is, I'm enjoying it. For a while there, lived in a daze.

Between the morphine auto-injector on-site, the morphine IV drip at the field hospital, and all the oxycodone during rehab, it was hard to get my bearings, let alone get fit.

Suppose I should be happy with no nerve damage. But won't be happy until I'm 100% fit.

Circuit: 2 min/station; 1 min rest b/w; 2 loops

Pull ups

Planks

Tire/Sledgehammer

Kettle lifts

[thepixelagora]

Soap's journal from when he met Ghost for the first time, likely shortly before the mess in Las Almas.

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[fixfoxnox]

I FINALLY GOT MY GRUBBY LITTLE HANDS ON SOAP'S JOURNAL!!!

Oh boy oh boy oh boy, guys there is so much in this bad boy that NO ONE has mentioned!! The SoapRoach content in here is off the walls!! Why is all I ever see the like 2 moments Soap mentioned Ghost??? There so much Roach and Price and Gaz content here, so here are some random bits from Soap's journal:

MW:

Embarrassed that Price helped him up and caught him from the plane during Crew Expendable mission

Mentions needing to buy Price "a bottle" as a gift afterward

Upset he missed the first shot on the helicopter during Hunted, says it was "inexcusable, especially considering SAM'S shoot themselves"

Put into the infirmary by a dog bite, too embarrassed to tell Gaz or Price (only Nikolai knows)

Call's Price's mustache both a "dick-tickler" and "Price's precious whiskers"

Blames himself for Gaz, Griggs, and Price's deaths (he believes Price died on the high way) and tries to come up with other ways they could have moved through that would have let the men live

Get's stuck/angry over the image of Zhakaev's blood mixing with Gaz's on the bridge

Nik brought women to see him while he was recovering in Russia

Begins mentioning his struggles with pain killers like morphine and alcohol

He becomes almost obsessive with cleaning and caring for Price's pistol as a way to distract himself from becoming addicted

Tries horse racing and betting to cope, but eventually turns to smoking

MW2:

Soap is the one who sought out the formation of TF141, Shepherd merely backed the idea

Describes Roach as "Raw, skilled, loyal to a fault" (implied he and Ghost are absolutes for the team)

On the other end, Ghost gets a simple "what the hell kind of name is Ghost" and no other information akdndjdhjdhd

Roach has the highest score on the rifle test, a whole 18 points over Ghost

Ghost beats Roach on PFT, but only by 3 points

"Have been looking forward to breaking Roach in" during Kazakhstan

"Feel even more comfortable with him than Price must have with me" omg

Roach has a journal that Soap spots him writing in, he wonders what he's writing

Adds to the end wondering if Roach is "wondering what villa claras taste like" which is clearly a reference to Soap's own admiration of Price and wondering if Roach feels the same as that, but boy oh boy Soap was that a gay way to put it ajdjfjdbhd

Makarov weighs 184 pounds and is 5'11 I'm wheezing what a little wet rat of a man I love him

Mentions the death of Meat, so far one of the only deaths he hasn't blamed himself for

Mentions needing to trust Roach and his instinct more, essentially tells himself to cool it with the constant reminders and stuff

Plans to put Roach on circuits and crossfit because he wasn't fast enough lmao

Says he would have crashed the plane before leaving Roach on the rooftops in Brazil 🥺

Blames himself for Roach almost not making the jump to the plane

Says that Ghost "knows something about interrogation"

Mentions that the team didn't bat an eye to him torturing Rojas for information, Soap draws a comparison between himself torturing Rojas to Price torturing Al Asad.

He specifically has Roach handle the C4 after seeing how well he did with it during Kazakhstan

"Ghost hacked at a snails pace" LMAO REAL

"Funny thing watching Roach get taken down by Price" listen sir, give your boyfriend a break please

Very excited and cathartic for him to give Price his pistol back

Says that Price returning and taking over command was the "best demotion imaginable" 🥺

Was just happy following Price and Roach because he "got to listen to the two of them working together like we once did"

Says it was nice to see Price taking Roach under his wing

"For all that coaching, Roach did a shit job with the bodies" listen here sir...thats not a mechanic in the game give the boy a break akdndjjdhd

Knew that Price was up to some bullshit as soon as his comms went off

Kill shepherd: "For Ghost. Roach" 😭 throwing myself from a cliff

"Loyalty doesn't operate on a sliding scale. It's a safety. On or off."

MW3:

Nikolai and Yuri go way back, potentially from Nik's time as an ultranationalist?

Nik rescuing Soap again and Soap saying he owes him a pallet of Imperia for it akdjjdjd

"Knife would healing too slowly for tastes" baby....

Nikolai providing him with antibiotics and pain medication 😬 Soap describes them as "providing inspiration" which does not sound good

Mentions how the ultranationalists have become more violent then they were under Zhakaev

Soap lost friends during the terrorist attack in London

Final thoughts:

Omg my husband

He struggles a lot a lot with guilt from very early on

Put a shit ton of pressure on himself and blames himself for anything that goes wrong. Especially blames himself for the deaths of other characters.

Seems to have had a struggle/struggles with coping with that guilt. It appears to have manifested a bit in struggles with pain killers and alcohol that he manages through almost compulsively taking care of Price's pistol.

Attempts to cope through horse racing (and gambling?) But what ends up working is smoking.

Definitely had a lot of care for his team, particularly Roach seemed to get a lot of his attention.

Much closer to Nikolai then I think people realize. Nik saves his life numerous times and the two work together even with Price not around. Definitely helps to fill in some gaps on why Nik sticks around at the end of mw2

Looks up to Price so very much. Like stars in his eyes this man can do no wrong type of thing.

[forestshadow-wolf]

Zombie apocalypse au

As it turns out guns usually aren't particularly useful, not unless you have a shotgun and a shit load of buck shot. You want to take down a zombie in one shot, maybe two if you're lucky. And a bullet doesn't really do that, even a head shot. See there's something about the- well we're not really sure what it is so we've just taken to calling it a pathogen- anyway something about the pathogen keeps the brain functioning even after sustaining what should be life ending damage. And in addition to that they don't seem to react the same to physical trauma. You need to deal alot of damage that is just not efficient with singular bullets.

What you really want is a weapon that can immobilize. Zombs can't turn you if they can't move. Buckshot works great because you can hit a large area with a lot of force, and if nothing else it's good for holding them back long enough to get their legs. It works in a pinch if you're caught in a hoard- been there, not fun.

Most of the guys have taken to handheld weapons. A sledgehammer works great to break bone- which seems to be stronger due to the pathogen- and basically any sharp object to cut theough the flesh.

Trash can lids, as cliché as it is, work great as an impromptu shield.

Sadly the only real way to kill them is starvation, they can the pathogen needs fresh hosts to survive, after 2 weeks the body becomes weak, 2 weeks after that the pathogen officially goes doemant. Not dead, dormant- Seen too many people make that mistake. That's why you immobilize them. 'Course the host was already dead the moment the pathogen reached the brain, so it's too late for them.

[une-femme-de-lettres]

So I've started reading Soap's Journal...

And I'm on page three and I'm already losing my mind!!!

"It's me, the 'Fucking New Guy'. Since selection, that's all anyone calls me: FNG this, FNG that. Figured it was time the FNG got himself a fresh FNJ - a Fucking New Journal. Credenhill's hell. Nothing to do but train, doodle in this FNJ, train some more."

Baby 🥺🥺 People are mean to him, I can't 😭😭

He's so fucking funny, though!!! I love him, Your Honor.

[wombywoo]

soaps 🧼

[call-of-duty-incorrect-quotes]

Soap’s journal. Entry #371

Dear diary journal. I’m still trying to crack the How’s it going Ghost code. These are my findings so far:

If he says Not Bad it means it’s Bad.

If he says Can’t complain it means week’s ruined.

If he says It’s going it means Worst day in a while.

If he says Another day in paradise I don’t know what happened, but he said that while drinking coffee for the first time in three years.

If he says Ahhh, you know... he will be stealing a car and some Semtex at the end of the day.

[verdantcreek]

soaps journal 🧼

[shortnotsweet]

In a Week by Hozier ft. Karen Cowley

“The raven is death, obviously. When I die, I want a good tombstone—something right spooky. LT’s got something against the underground, though you’d think that would be just his kind of place. That’s alright. He needs to, he can cremate me. It’s not exactly Catholic, and Mam would turn in her grave, but God is a unicorn and no one is pure anymore, so. What’s all that got to do with me?”

Johnny “Soap” McTavish has a journal. Had. It is his no longer.

Simon “Ghost” Riley had dreams—awful ones, the kind that sank claws into his lungs, dragged him into sleep, and then sent him careening out of it. He still has dreams, but they’re different, now. Better. Johnny’s pages have folded themselves under his eyes and gotten into his head, brighter and more infectious than anything else has ever been. It’s more than the past, that rotting carcass behind him, and more than now. Now is nothing. Now is ash. It’s like, it’s like—blinding, is what it is. He’s a blind man.

It is biblical now. Ghost has read it backward and forward and sideways and inside out. When he runs out of things to read, he reads them again, and when that is not enough, he reads between the lines.

[gold0kapi]

Some teaser pics from a Soap's Journal project based on the new game

(Full versions will be posted on Patr3on)

[ghcstao3]

being well aware of ghost’s standards of privacy while also enjoying drawing the lieutenant far more than could be considered healthy, soap keeps a separate journal solely for ghost sketches—and lets ghost hold onto it for great safekeeping. it’s a way of reassuring ghost of keeping his image nonexistent in any captured medium, and maybe soap likes having to talk to ghost every time he wants to see about creating a new sketch

that’s definitely all it is. of course.

and ghost definitely doesn’t look through it ever. he definitely doesn’t because he definitely doesn’t like seeing how soap sees him, and soap definitely doesn’t know about this, and definitely doesn’t make it yet another reason to fill the journal

[ohgeesoap]

Soap's journal entries concerning dogs. Typed out under the cut in case they're difficult to read.

Consider me a cat man now.

We overcame ultranationalists, chopper crashes, danger close with gunships, but a goddamn dog is what'll get me into an infirmary? Rabies, ridiculous. What a waste of time. Obviously can't tell Price or Gaz. Nikolai seems capable of keeping a secret. Probably keeps vials of vaccine vaulted with manifest intel, secretive bastard.

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And no, I haven't exactly been on my booster shots. Think Nikolai said every two years but didn't think I'd be back in Russia so bloody soon. So yeah, was happy to follow Price and Roach over the net. Not just because it meant I was far from the mutts, but because I got to listen to the two of them working together like we once did. There was the same option: take out the target or let them him pass. Nice to hear Price taking Roach under his wing. Know the effect it can have.

[thepixelagora]

Soap knows what's up between these two.

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[thunderous-aesthetics]

A Dungeon Meshi Marcille Donato stimboard.

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[s0fter-sin]

i know it's just bc your character doesn't talk in the og mw trilogy but the way mactavish is completely silent in mw2's final mission with price after being so talkative the entire game is just haunting

he's lost his entire team and not even price being back can cut through his grief

the whole game, he gives orders and comments on things but after losing everyone, after trying to get any kind of reassurance from price just to get a sanctimonious monologue back at him, he doesn't say a word

just shuts down, only caring about the mission, only following orders

all of his growth throughout mw2, the five years he spent becoming a captain and building his own team and the second price calls him “soap” it’s all gone; he regresses back to the sergeant

voiceless. faceless

soap

[une-femme-de-lettres]

My brain : Yeah that Soap journal is so cool, but it's decades old and we can't get it anywhere now. What are we gonna do...?

Me : What we do best, brain........ MAKE IT 💪

Ka-freakin'-boom Baby... 🧼

I'm so happy, it looks so good !!!!!! 🥰🥰

And I also made a blank copy to write my own things in ! I'm excited !