#someone left a comment saying they thought my fanfic would be weird but that they ended up being hooked

[misshugs]

part two of that one drabble where reader has a poltergeist friend

[back]

"So, you're telling me that... you... basically live with a ghost?" Colby asked, trying to comprehend the situation right infront of him.

Looking at the floor, cheeks red by the sheer embarassment you felt for some reason, you nodded.

"That's... the coolest shit I've heard AND seen!" Sam exclaimed, clearly excited by the thought of this whole situation. "We're sorry if we're being too pushy over this, it's just... it's a first, you now?"

"Yeah, no, it's alright. I get it, I think." You chuckled. "It's just that... no one really knows about... this."

"But why haven't you told anyone? I would go crazy if a friend of mine told me about this." Colby commented.

"Well... you know, it's not the same. You guys are used to it. Meanwhile... what do you think a normal person would think if I say something around the lines of 'oh I have a ghost friend that moves things around in my house'? I don't think they might... uh... think about it as cool."

"Oh. I see your point. You're right." He laughed and you nodded.

"Still, not even a friend or something of the sorts?" Sam asked. "I'm sorry, it just sounds like something that would for sure be viral."

"No... I haven't told anyone about it. The attention might not be worth it if i can't hang out with her."

A draft of air passed through them, which made them shiver. Soon enough, a lamp started flickering.

"Woah! Holy shit!" Sam smiled, amazed at how in queue everything seemed. "It's almost hard to believe even though it's so obvious."

"Yeah, it's why I don't talk about it."

The same notepad that threw you into this mess began moving towards the guys through the table. Their expressions making you giggle; it was a once in a lifetime where you could finally talk about this one piece of your life to someone, and it felt good.

Another object started moving, a pencil. As if it was some sci-fi movie magic, it began writing on the paper.

"You've got to be kidding me." Colby expressed, unable to wipe off the smile from his face whilst looking at this unexplainable evidence of paranormal activity.

It seemed to be writing... no. Drawing something? It looked like a heart...? Wait.

"OH, NO!" You yelled, frantically taking the notepad onto your possession. You knew what she was trying to do, and you weren't going to let them see it.

She argued otherwise it seemed, as you kept on fighting this invisible force for a piece of paper. The force suddenly stopped and you were left with no balance to hold yourself up, gaining a first class ticket towards the hard floor.

As much as they wanted to laugh at how weird this whole situation was, they were still worried. Hurriedly standing up and walking towards you, asking if you were alright.

Luckily you were, since it wasn't that bad of a fall anyways. They helped you up and you grabbed onto the notepad, noticing some new words written underneath the unfinished piece of art.

"You're welcome."

That bitch. She knew what you wanted; and you were debating yourself if you were glad or frustrated.

Perhaps it was both.

i'll make it a decent fanfic soon enough, i just need to throw out some things beforehand

[teafromthemicrowave]

someone already wrote you a loveletter in regards of the ny-alt-band-polycule so why shouldnt i do it too? i have no shame left and a critically low level of common sense. and bad english. they're so gender. so beautiful. gorgeus. dashing even. I may not be goth but im still a massive synth and cold wave enjoyer and i spent a lot of time of my preteen and early teen years listening to random shitsongs recorded on nokia and uploaded to yt to appreaciete (oh god its my 3rd attempt to write this word and every time it looks even less correct but i give up) your au. if you ever decide to write a fanfic with it or smth then i will send you my first son in gratitude. i love that john went from cunt in yellow to cunt in black. my eldritch being entered his emo teen phase and im so proud of him. he would rock corpse makeup and i know it. and aw, matching earrings. love it. arhtur. i want to say something normal but he gives me the vibe that he would try to give me radioactive brown sugar behind the milky bar in exchange to listen to his band. its a positive comment and also a reference to a polish band and their album about balls deep depression and addictions. very arthur core. i highly recomend it. OSCAR. im losing my mind. he looks just like i wanted to look like when i was 14 and incredibly fixated on vampires and gothic lit. his little hat. his little hat stays on during sex and i respect him for that. RED HAIRED METALHEAD NOEL. it may be the fact that i have soft spot for redhead metalheads or the fact that noel is my favourite character in malevolent but. but i need to stop rambling. because i dont know words in english to describe what i feel of his design. its simply perfect.

I hope that what i just wrote isnt too weird. Im not good with words.

my god this is awesome! I LOVE THESE ASKS SEEING YOU GUYS RAMBLE ABOUT MY BELOVED GOTH MEN. i cant YOUR THOUGHTS ON ALL OF THEM ARE PERFECT, ESPECIALLY ARTHUR AHBRUJWBI i am screaming in delight i love you guys

so don't worry, this wasn't weird at all. and. i can tell you. I started writing a fic two days ago and i am 3k words in. It might have multiple chapters even. THE LORE IS TOO MUCH FOR ONE

I AM SO HAPPY SO SO HAPPY. oahhhh the obsession with this au is real

[tiredfox64]

Oh, what’s this? Does my persona have something new in her hands?

Ah yes, she has my followers. And how many do we have?

Over 50?!?!?!?! What the fu-

So yes I gained over 50 followers (now it’s over 60 since I woke up) which some might think that’s too little to celebrate. But if you put them all in one room I sure would panic from that so i say that is a big amount. Tbh I’m shocked because I only meant to drop some Rain fics since I wasn’t seeing enough and just dip. But we can all see that it has become more than that and now I write fics. I knew it would happen one of these days and it has. So as a little celebration I will show you some of my recent art because I did say I do that in my pinned post. Alright, let’s go!

Phen my dear

The story behind this is that I made a post on Reddit and it got a bunch of upvotes which was a shock. I basically asked why he stands so weird and everyone yelled that he serves cunt. Someone drew it out for me as well which is where I even thought of the quote. So I quickly drew him up cause i couldn’t stop thinking about it and yeah. And if you saw this on Reddit that means you also found my Reddit account. Not so fun fact I had a dream where I wrote a fanfic about him and people were eating it up. I fear it may come true with the things I’ve seen.

Are you a fox or a fairy

Let me admit I’m not the greatest artist. The corner picture was a trial run to see how I wanted her to look. Basically this was me making my Tumblr into a person (does that make sense). I don’t like the hair that much maybe a split would do better. I’m also not the best with backgrounds. But she is still cute, don’t have a true name for her tho.

False God

I take a writing class and this was part of my short story. The teeth are supposed to look fucked up like that which someone said grossed them out when they critiqued it lol. I know the mouth is a bit wonky but what can ya do. What’s done is done. Also I got distracted while working on him that I forgot to go to my asl class 💀.

And yeah that’s about it. Not much but it’s because I’ve only gained motivation recently. Hope when summer hits I can do some more.

Once again thank you everyone for following, liking and reposting, even taking time to comment. This might go unnoticed since I am only known as of now for doing MK fanfics which is fine. I just thought I would share some stuff. Like I said I’m not the greatest artist (it’s not the program there is someone else on here who is a master in my eyes).

Just so y’all know I have about two and half weeks left of this semester. Maybe in the summer time I will be quicker with popping this out (I act like i haven’t been posting everyday). I do plan to slow down a little because I think it’s a lot for me. When I’m writing fanfics in my dreams that means I need to step away. I don’t want to burn myself out too early especially since part of my major is writing. Hopefully no one jumps me for wanting to slow down if I ever do. I’m a people pleaser I will literally walk on hot sand so y’all can wear my flip flops.

But yeah, I have nothing else to really say. I hope no one unfollows me because I posted art but that might be my anxiety trying to scare me into not posting this. Adiós!

[rosesradio]

fanfic ask game

i saw this ask game i wasn’t tagged in so let’s do it 🤠 & i’ll tag whoever wants to do it as well

1. how many works do you have on Ao3?

27 :-)

2. what's your total Ao3 word count?

466,409 (oh cool i’ll most likely hit 500k by the end of the year 💪)

3. what fandoms do you write for?

currently pjo & once in a blue moon hsmtmts, but i have written for like 10-12 different fandoms in my life

4. what are your top five fics by kudos?

ceaseless eve 🌙 (a leo, nico, & piper quest + valdangelo)

camp triple pine 🌲 (a lawrusso summer camp au with fwb 👀)

talk to me, deep in the night (& i’d tell you something i never thought i’d admit) 🏕️ (a surprisingly non-smutty first caswen fic in which ricky talks with ej about how he works too hard, written in s3 era)

Cobra Kai/Karate Kid one shots 🥋 (fluff, humor, angst, smut…what it says on the tin 🤠)

he’s only here for one thing, but (so am i) 🔥 (valdangelo college au smut + camboy nico 👀)

(because i can’t tell a lie, i did skip over one or two stranger things fics on this list. i have complex feelings about them & keeping them up due to the controversy, but also abandoning them or deleting them…i’m sentimental, and i procrastinate lol. i’m glad a higher volume of people enjoyed them by nature of it being a more popular fandom, but i also feel like the kudos aren’t as genuine or earned as they are for my longfics in less popular fandoms for that reason. at least To Me. i hope that makes sense 🧍)

5. do you respond to comments?

i try to reply to every comment around the first week of posting something (because by then it’s an “old work” and it’s “weird” to comment on it, but that’s another post 😐). i still haven’t replied to the last of the ceaseless eve comments & i feel terrible, the sentimentality of it all overwhelms me but know i appreciate it 😭 i wish there was like a code word though that people could comment that lets you know if they want you to respond or not, because it’s hard to know if people want an author response or if it’ll scare them off yk

6. Which of your fics has the angstiest ending?

i don’t do a lot of angst, but when i do, i do (meaning i lay it on too melodramatically thick lmao) but i thought i’d give a list of some of my angstiest/darkest fics 🤠

the moonlace & the sunflower 🌻 (in which grover dies protecting a demigod, so the empathy link causes percy to pass away as well)

games long lost 🌳 (in which luke must drink annabeth’s blood for kronos’s reformation, it covers the dark lukabeth of it all & there’s some death)

the smallest casualty ♟️ (in which it’s slowly revealed over the course of a luke & annabeth chess game that the gods lost the war, and percy & friends have been subjected to dark magic experiments to make them compliant to luke’s fantasy)

rewired 🤖 (okay. i usually try to be humble or self deprecating or whatever but this 1400 word fic is an actual fucking masterpiece to me idc. it just came out of me and makes me physically nauseous to this day. showing this to my hypothetical therapist etc etc. oh wait what’s it about lmao—the concept of daniel rewiring his brain & morals to fit into silver’s desires. ft that sick sick silverusso dynamic)

7. Which of your fics has the happiest ending?

i have a variety of fluffy fics, but i’d have to say my happiest most sugar coated ending is—

who said anybody would? (a ej/gina/ricky road trip fic that literally ends with an ot3 picnic scene 😭 it’s just too much 🫶)

8. Do you get hate on fics?

i’ve gotten unwarranted criticism (i like to ask for constructive crit comments at the end if it’s like a longfic) that’s been surprisingly rude…i won’t say which fic but someone got so mad at one of my chapters they left a lengthy mocking crit comment and then stopped reading 😭 but that’s their prerogative, i hope they found something they enjoyed afterwards. other than that, surprisingly considering some of the controversial dark fics i’ve written…no sign of flames, so thanks! 😅

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

i have four different smut fics (hopefully a fifth if i can ever finish it up)…i fear they’re repetitive but also not really, they cover different fandoms and explore different kinks. i’m not really sure what to say about them, hopefully people find them hot ! or whatever !

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

i’m not a fan of crossovers currently, but my longest fic i wrote when i was 15 (it’s 97k i’m beating it someday 😭) was a crossover between sanders sides, voltron, miraculous ladybug, and gravity falls (doesn’t that feel like a kick in the gut lmao—did i mention i was 15? 😅)

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that i know of 👁️👁️

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

not that i know of 👁️👁️

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

i tried, myself and another author had a shared Google doc & everything…but we both just didn’t commit. i don’t think i’d work well with another writer…i don’t mind bouncing ideas around with a beta reader/editor (like @heavens-vault 🤠) but ultimately i’d prefer to write on my own

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

it changes—it’s currently valdangelo, but the ones I’ve written the most over the years are: prinxiety (😐), lawrusso, caswen, and valdangelo. i’m excited to explore a bunch of other ships as i continue writing as well

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

oh gosh, i mean i hope i don’t have any like longfics in question…i hope i can finish + deliver on Ivory Rain, but i’m sure I’ll manage even if it takes a while. i haven’t really mentioned this a whole lot to “the public” but i have what i call a “scrap fic” i’m working on, with a bunch of like 800 word chapters i just kinda bounce around when i have time. the concept is really exciting but the execution still needs work, so i’m kinda seeing how that’s gonna play out, it might not be posted. i hope it will though !

16. What are your writing strengths?

i think i’m pretty good at characterization, good romantic moments with good buildup, and humor :-)

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

action scenes i hate you so much 😭 why do i insist on writing pjo fics when i can hardly write a fight scene

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

i should do it more, i hate that i don’t, especially considering nico being Italian and leo’s native language being Spanish. but I’ve used & been disappointed by Google translate too many times…perhaps I’ll find another way to translate to include that for more character accuracy

19. First fandom you wrote for?

actually i think percy jackson, i’ve come full circle. the first fic i posted was sanders sides, but i remember when i was probably nine or so i wrote with pencil and paper and stapled a book together with a hand drawn cover 😭 it was about a son of Apollo, a satyr, and a daughter of Demeter on a quest…so really, richard took some creative liberties from my hand written fanfic i think 👀

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

like the ships, it changes—I love all my fics, it’s hard to explain how there’s little fractures of me at different points in my life at any given time in my works. no amount of over-explaining could make anyone understand how i express myself through my character’s emotions and desires and fears and journeys.

at the moment, my favorite fic is CE. it just got completed, myself and others are excited for the sequel. i think all my pjo works in particular are pretty good, and of course i tend to shy away from my older works because my writing…probably wasn’t as good. but that just means I’ve improved, so that’s good.

that’s all the questions, but this was fun ! :-)

[sortanonymous]

A vent about my uncertain writing (distant) future that really doesn't matter much

You know, it's weird whenever I think about what I could write after Meta Knightmare is over (which I'll just say that I know when that ending will come). I mean I could just eek out some more side stuff, some of which I've wanted to make for a while (might even include some Kirby stuff not connected to MKM), and I would like to make YouTube videos of whatever I want instead of just lounging on AO3 forever. But I keep thinking up ideas of fics I could make for other things I love like Steven Universe and especially Angry Birds (definitely have some thoughts for the latter). At the same time though, with what ideas I have for those, I'm worried that it would just be too much like a retread of Meta Knightmare. I might just make another action-tinted dramedy filled with so many crazy AU ideas with varying amounts of canon compliance that it borders on crackfic, yet tons of heart and found family stuff at the same time. Who knows if I'd even move on past the outline format? Granted, I love using those tropes with Kirby, but I'm worried that if I apply it to those other things, then I may as well just be writing Meta Knightmare again but with a new coat of paint like it's a new LEGO game. Not to mention that it feels comfortable with Kirby because not only is there plenty of material in the base games, but the lore is so extensive while leaving plenty of stuff wide open to the point where even flipping fundamental canon on its head feels suprisingly alright. But while Angry Birds has the characters to potentially work in my style, the world and stuff is nowhere near as extensive to have an easy time fitting into something good unless I try to just rip off the movie or maybe go straight for Angry Birds Stella (which I love, but I'd like to give the main flock some love first, especially the found family idea with ALL OF THEM, even the more forgotten ones). Steven Universe, which I haven't even thought that much about, kinda has the opposite problem in that while it has tons of lore, it's largely open and shut in a way that it isn't that fun to imagine changes to it. Not to mention that even if I tried some of that family theme stuff, a lot of that in my existing work is kinda inspired heavily by SU in the first place. It'd be kinda like if a growing rock band with heavy inspiration from the Beatles tried covering the Beatles and trying to make it sound way different from either of them while still respecting the feel of the originals. Good luck with that. (Admittedly though, I did just come up with a Spinel AU idea that absolutely blew my mind, but I'm not so sure if I'll still have the mood for it by the time MKM's over, which won't be for quite a while. I might just throw it out there for someone else to write in the comments if anyone asks.)

Why am I even talking about this? I've got 12 of the 26 chapters of MKMIII left to write with 4 already published! If I'm no more than halfway through my first fanfic project, then maybe I shouldn't be thinking just yet about my next project. Also now Magolor's in the fic and with how much Magolor instantly makes fans flock to any fic, I may as well bask in the hits while I can! A big thank you to my readers, by the way!

[azriona]

Twenty Questions for Fic Writers

Tagged by @paula-in-dreamland.

1. how many works do you have on AO3?

178.

2. what's your total AO3 word count?

1.3 million

3. what fandoms do you write for?

Currently the only fandom I’m writing in is MCU. It’s weird, I’ve almost always been a one-fandom-at-a-time person; I rarely, rarely write for more than one at once.

4. top five fics by kudos:

Timing, Those Three Words, Mise en Place, What I Forgot to Tell You, and The Next Level. What’s particularly crazy about that list (to me) is that Timing has five times as many kudos as it does words. (TNL is the longest thing I’ve ever written, and will probably never have as many kudos as it does words.)

5. do you respond to comments?

I used to do this all the time; I dropped off about six years ago. I’m trying to pick it back up again.

6. what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Oh man. I try not to write angsty endings. But probably 3:07 a.m. That’s the one with the most “omg what have you done to me” comments, anyway.

7. what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Like, absolutely drowning in fluff and happiness and sheer joy? Probably The Next Level. The current sex pollen accidental pregnancy fic is definitely up there, too.

8. do you get hate on fics?

Not generally. I do get some… questionable comments sometimes, but for the most part I ignore them.

9. do you write smut?

BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA yes.

10. craziest crossover?

Oh man. The Broadway Musicals were absolutely the craziest of the crazy, back in my HP days. But those were more parodies than crossovers.

11. have you ever had a fic stolen?

Yeah, I remember someone on ff.net stole one of my fics once. Bunch of my regular readers spotted it, left tons of reviews along the lines of “This was great when AZRIONA POSTED IT A YEAR AGO. Thief.” We got it taken down in pretty short order.

12. have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes, several times, in multiple languages. Always a thrill. 😊

13. have you ever co-written a fic before?

The first fanfic I wrote/posted was co-written with my friend Noel. HP, though, so no longer accessible.

14. all time favorite ship?

…all of them?

15. what's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I would have loved to finish Fiddle in the Band, but when I knew I couldn’t, I posted a wrap-up with incomplete scenes and where I thought I would have gone. But the other big one is probably the Medieval Omegaverse series (Fornicatio Autem); I can’t even do that much for it because I only had the sketchiest of plans for it.

16. what are your writing strengths?

Dialogue and writing kids, or so I’m told. 😊

17. what are your writing weaknesses?

Starting sentences with “But” and “And”. Also overuse of ellipses and dashes.

18. thoughts on dialogue in another language?

I have done this before! I have definite preferences, and I’ve done this scores of times in different ways. Currently, I don’t mind if dialogue is in a different language, but if I’m supposed to know what’s being said, I want to know immediately, I don’t want to have to wait until the end of the chapter for a translation. If the character knows what’s being said, I want to know what’s being said, otherwise I get thrown out of a story very quickly. These days, I don’t really bother with translation for full sentences; I’ll say they’re speaking in French or Italian or whatever, and then write in English as normal. Unless I don’t want the reader to know what’s being said, then it’s in the language and you don’t get a translation. I’m reading a series now where the author did exactly this for Bucky’s early Winter Soldier years – he doesn’t understand the Russian, therefore we’re meant to be just as confused as he is. In that context, no translation makes total sense, and I wasn’t thrown out at all.

19. first fandom you wrote in?

Phantom of the Opera back when I was 13. It’s not online because this was before the internet really existed (or when I had access to it).

20. favorite fic you've written?

Whichever one I’m working on at the moment. 😊

Tagging whichever writers want to play along. :)

[sorcerous-caress]

hey I’m glad you’re not weirded out or anything by the tickling stuff (I’m the anon by the way) I might write something with my tav after I’m done with the “my tav as a companion” part 2 with the list questions you made after my first one but I don’t how long that’ll take since I kinda feel weird writing about my tav in that way since they are based off myself not that I don’t want to do it I would like to write stuff like that for an OC I’ve never done it before but it kinda feels like I’d be doing something “naughty” which I guess I would be but anyways I’ll write something I’m gonna try and get over the awkward feeling so I can go more in depth with the “my tav as a companion” romance part because I feel like I can touch more on that

(sorry for ranting, longer than I thought it’d be)

I get what you're feeling exactly, and my only advice to that is to embrace it.

All writing in some form or another, is based on yourself. Every character you've written fanfics about, every OC you've made, every small headcanon, all of them are connected to you.

All of them, hold a small part of you in them, a small truth that you might not be unaware of. Writers can only write about their own experiences and emotions, even in fantasy and imaginary scenarios, you have to base it around something you're familiar with to be able to comprehend it.

I'm aromatic yet I write romantic stories, I have never felt romantic love so I base all of my romantic stories on how platonic love felt to me and mix it with what I think romantic love should be like based on what other people said.

I get the feeling of vulnerability when revealing things about an OC that holds a lot of your own cores as a human, that was based on your own image. That's why it's good to remember that everything else was also based on your own image, you just weren't aware of it. You've left a trace of your personality and your fingerprints on every character and subject you've touched.

Honestly, I am not in the best state health wise to answer this, but I didn't want to leave it sitting for long.

There is a fear of being cringe, I genuinely truly get it. I still feel it too a lot of times, fear of being too weird or off putting. It's so easy to tell someone to "just express themselves" until that self expression manifests in a way that doesn't fit the socially acceptable ideas of other people.

Who gives a shit if I don't like tickle stuff? What right do I have to judge you? What right does anyone have to judge you? None of us matters when it comes to your own writing and self expression, only you matter.

Likewise for me, I like cringe worthy stuff too! And I subtily microdose them into my writing because I don't have the courage to come outright and say it. I am afraid. You are braver than me in that aspect and honesty kudos to you for being yourself unapologetically.

I had an old writing blog where I only wrote tame fluffy stuff that everyone wanted, only expressed myself within social acceptable limits, only showed the most clean and sanitized versions of my art.

And you know that phrase about if you don't like what you're writing then other people won't? It's a huge fucking lie. That blog was so much bigger and more popular than this blog in a shorter amount of time.

I had triple the followers I have now, so many nice comments and reblogs, too many requests than I could keep track of. People loved the sanitized version of my writing.

I didn't, I hated it. It was empty and souless and I had to force myself to sit down and write it. Scrub away all traces of my own personality from it and make it the most appealing to the general public.

Words never flowed like they do to me now, I dreaded opening my requests back then, I dreaded checking on my notes.

And so I left it at the height of its popularity, didn't even say a thing just slowly ghosted away.

Don't do what I did, is what I'm saying. You have a lovely OC and if you want to put more of your own self and your own interests in them then so be it. I promise other people won't know and even if they connect the dots, they'd have to be actual weirdos to make judgments on a real human being based on an imaginary doll they move around.

Give Sean the tickle kink if you want that's perfectly okay. Base all of his companion answers around yourself if you want, make him an extension of you. Maybe he will slowly take what you've given him and evolve to his own character, maybe he will always remain a beautiful reflection of you, both of these outcomes are welcomed as long as they make you happy.

I did it with Sol, bpd isn't the best, and making an OC that represents all the worst traits I saw in myself and showing them love and care helpled me unimaginably. And fuck yeah I definitely base their answers around myself, every writer bases their writing around themselves, how else are you supposed to create originality? Your mind is the only completely original source that only YOU have access to!

It's a fucking gold mine, an exclusive library of experiences and moments that no one else but you know about. And you want to ignore it and put 13 layers of irony between you and everything you create? For whAT?

Kids love plushies and get attached to them because the plushies are their own OCs in a way, the dolls represent an extension of their inner psyche. So when kids hug and shower their plushies with love, or even get reinact a dramatic sad story with their dolls, it's them talking to themselves.

Art is communication, whether it be with an audience or with yourself. self-indulgence is the thing that makes art worth making. It's what gives it a soul, it's what sets it apart form AI bullshit.

And some people will see themselves in Sean. Did I tell you that the tickle fic requests I wrote had likes and reblogs from other people? I would've never imagined someone would like it besides the requester yet there were others.

We're all really weird, inside. If you're going to be original and create art that you like then it will be weird and cringy, same goes for me, same goes for everyone.

Embrace it, peel the layers of irony, be yourself unapologetically. You are worth it.

And side note, I really enjoy your requests and reading what you send me about Sean. But my own enjoyment always comes after your own comfort and boundaries. You don't have to answer any questions that make you uncomfortable in the "as a companion part 2" list.

I will always view these answers through Sean and as a reflection of him, never a reflection of the author. That's a right only you have and a line only you can draw.

[kitthepurplepotato]

hey love!!! it's me! i dont know if you remember me, but i've been liking, reposting, commenting and following the series 'my weird roomate boyfriend' and i absolutly adore your work and writing, and for a while now i haven't heard updates from you, not about the fanfic but about you, and i just remembered you and wanted to ask how are you. i've been a little worried, and we really dont know each other and there's no reason for you to trust me but i really just wanted to make sure if you're doing any better or just need someone to talk to, im here if you need a friend!

im sending you lots of hugs and sweets and lots of lots of good!

i will understand completly if you decide to not answer this, but im really just worried for my favourite author and would be more then happy if you could give me an update for how are you doing!

have a wonderfull day and a wonderfull week and please please please dont forget to drink, eat, and rest and remember to not overwork yourself!!! love, me!

Oh my god, of course I remember you, silly! I absolutely adore you 💜💜💜💜💜

Also, perfect timing because I wanted to post an update on my situation but I wasn’t sure how to start or if it’s even needed?

Thankfully, things are getting better now, I just got sick from all the stress and the constant meltdowns I’ve had almost every day (yes, I just had Covid 3 weeks ago yet here I am, sick again, love my life.)

/warning for everyone - mentions of death, depression, suicidal thoughts and other bad stuff, also, a lot of TMI/

I’m not going to lie, this was the hardest week of my life and I don’t say that lightly (I lost my father suddenly a year before, and my grandma died in a house fire just a few months back.)

I had a really hard time understanding that all these terrible things do not mean that I’m not good enough to live and they aren’t signs that I shouldn’t exist in this world. I felt like life’s trying to force me out of its territory by terrorizing me until I break down, taking everything I love and cherish and it all felt so unfair. I really thought I’m old enough to not go back to that terrible place I crawled out of when I was 17, but this “thing” was the last straw.

With that said, I want to thank you guys for all the kind words and also my best friend @porusuniverse who woke up at 2 fucking AM when she had to wake up at 5, just to keep me company after having the worst nightmare of my fucking life and also for the ridiculous amount of hours she had spent with me and kept me fucking alive while this thing got sorted. She is an absolute legend.

I’m not going to lie and say everything is 100% alright, but I’m getting there.

/TMI OVER/

I am slowly getting back into writing, I have half a chapter of the Izuku one and the Aizawa one is almost finished! Also have a half chapter of the Bakugou one. I wanted to finish at least one of them tomorrow but then I got sick, so we will see when I’ll be able to post any of them. I’m trying to concentrate on the Aizawa one now as there’s only one chapter left and then I can give the other two the attention they deserve, but I’m also trying not to FORCE myself to write but rather just do what I enjoy so will see which one wins, eyy!

I can’t wait to be back. Like honestly, I miss Tumblr, your comments and writing in general soooo sooo much 💜

See you soon and thank you for being so kind! I’ll definitely bug you the next time I manage to go down the rabbit hole but let’s hope I won’t because I don’t think I have the mental energy for another round 😂

Cheers, everyone! 🥦

Kit 💥

[alexdelray1]

Gwen x Fem Reader

Warnings!: Little bit of Angst, short fanfic.

I hope you'll like it ;).

-Gwen!- I exclaimed and hugged my friend.

My name is Reader, I go to Brooklyn Visions Academy. This summer I turned 16 and I'm going to the second grade of this school. There's nothing special about me except being the lead singer of the Mary Janes. I was born on July 13, 1976 (It's 1992) in a not very rich family, but it doesn't bother me that much. It's just the way I live. A week ago my best friend and a crush disappeared from the face of the earth. Just! I thought maybe someone killed her or something because there are a lot of things going on here in NYC. I was so worried about her! I asked her dad, but he knew as much as I did and he was looking for her.

-Where were you!?- the other girls from the team joined in the hug.

-Take it easy, one by one!- she said, giving us a big hug. After a while we moved away from her.

-Tell me what happened and where you were!- I demanded with small tears in my eyes.

-Okay okay. So it happened that during the Spider-Girl fight, the building I was in collapsed and only the day before yesterday they freed me from the rubble, and last night they released me from the hospital. - Gwen explained with a slight smile.

Something doesn't feel right to me. If she had been imprisoned in Georgia for 5 days, she would have had some wounds and would have been much thinner. She's still skinny, but not as if she hadn't eaten anything for 5 days.

-It was terrible, don't do that to us again, otherwise we'll die of fear.- said MJ and lightly punched Gweny (I'm just saying, Głenia) on the shoulder.

-Okay, so let's do a test? - Gwen asked.

-Well, it looks like some debris hit your head.- Glory commented and crossed her arms.

-Girl, you need to rest, you just got out of the hospital. "Reader, take her home," Betty said.

-No, girls.- Gwen tried to deny.

-No, not girls. We know that sometimes you overwork yourself and that's okay, but this is too much. You go home and try to rest, only then can you come to the next rehearsal. - Glory decided.

-Definitely? We're playing soon and… - Gwen didn't finish.

-Don't worry, we know you know the song by heart, now go. And don't you dare come back tired. - MJ demanded and wagged her finger.

-Okay, okay, bye. - Gwen said goodbye and left the building with me.

I looked at her curiously.

-So you were trapped under the building for 5 days? - I asked her.

-Yes, very unpleasant experience.- she commented as we headed to her house.

-Must have, strange that Spider-woman was nowhere to be found at the same time. Don't you think?- I asked with a raised eyebrow.

-Yeah…. Weird…- Gwen commented awkwardly. I dragged her by the hand into the alley.

-What are you doing?- Gwen asked, confused.

-You're Spider-woman.- I said and crossed my arms.

-What????? Me????!!!!! Impossible! - Gwen replied, showing her not-so-great acting.

-Come on, take it. Gweny, whenever Spider-Woman is there, you're gone. And when you disappear for a week, so does she. And what's more, your silhouettes are exactly the same. Don't lie anymore.- I said.

-It's kind of true. But it doesn't mean anything.- Gwen defended herself. I could read in her eyes that she was afraid of the truth.

-Okay, no, is no. You only lie. - I said furiously and started to walk alone to the exit from the alley.

-Reader!- Gwen called my name and grabbed my hand. I turned to her and she kissed me.

After a while, I kissed him back. When we ran out of air, we separated our mouths and started taking deep breaths. Gwen hugged me tightly.

-Please stay.- she said sadly.

-I'll stay, don't worry.- I reassured the girl.

Forever…

[bookwyrminspiration]

I think a part of their being less fanfics is that a some of people who wrote fanfic left the fandom due to the long gaps between unlocked and Stellarlune, as well as them not liking Stellarlune.

This is shown in the way that there is a lot of AU fics or post-canon fics. While a lot fo people do enjoy writing canon-complimentary fics, it’s not something everyone is interested in, plus canon right now is kind of weird so it’s easier to just ignore it.

Also, it seems that a lot of the fandom is older now, so we are more critical of our work and have less time/motivation to write fanfic, even if we want to. Plus, as people get older, they are more aware of how characters are out of character in our writing and they therefore feel the need to make them all in character.

To add on to that, the hits to likes/kudos to comments ratio is so freaking off it’s not even funny. There’s less engagement, which leads people to believe that they are not good at writing, which means that they shouldn’t post anything.

I know what I said isn’t true for everyone, but that does feel like that’s what is happening. I am just speaking based off of what I see and experience. Feel free to correct me if I am wrong.

What are your thoughts on this Quil? Do you agree or disagree? Do you think this will continue or will it be resolved with the next book?

Sincerely, ⚙️

(PS I wanted to say that I did read your Kam one shot and while I didn’t really fully process what was going on, I did enjoy reading it. You did a good job at nailing their characters. When I have the time, I will properly explain every feeling that I have.)

That's a fair observation--the one thing I'd say to your comments about older fandom members leaving and current older members having less time is that fandom is always in flux. There's always new people joining and others leaving, at least here, but it doesn't seem like as many of the newer people are fic writers. Like there were some popular fanartists who aren't in the fandom anymore, but we still have popular fanartists who have joined since. And my anecdotal observation is that that doesn't seem to be happening with fic writers as much--but again, that's a casual observation not a vetted one so I may be off or just not seeing new writers myself

Though our fandom is in a weird place right now with longer wait times and the story taking an unexpected direction, so I'm sure that also has an impact. I don't think there's any one thing that's responsible, there's an intersection of different things that impact people in different ways. I'm really just focusing on one that we have more control over. We can't control all the other factors, but we can collaboratively make a supportive, encouraging space for writers of all skill levels and interests! And I think it would be neat to do so!

As for the hit/like/kudos ratio, it is disheartening at times. Though I do think we shouldn't be basing our self-worth and opinions of our writing on interaction. If someone feels shitty about their writing/skill level because of low interaction I believe they should reflect and work to disconnect that sense of self from others' opinions, not that we need to interact to make them feel better. That is something for them to work through for themselves

But at the same time, it would be naive to completely ignore how interaction shapes writing and creation in general in fandom spaces. Because it does play a role for many. Fandom spaces are a community, and community is built on interaction and support!

I have no way of knowing what will happen with the next book or what the fandom will look like--like I said, it's always changing, and my time blindness makes it very difficult for me personally to see and understand the cycle of slumps and activity. But I think we, as a fandom, do have the opportunity to take some measure of control over this.

We can choose how to react to what we see and what kind of space we want to create. We could wait for the next book and just kinda see what happens, or we could make an active effort now to interact with writers and their work when we read it, and to separate our sense of worth from the amount of interaction we get.

That doesn't mean everyone has to go out and read tons of fic and leave the longest comments in the world, just that I think many of us (and this 100% includes me too) could put in a small amount of more effort to interact with fics and writers to support fic in fandoms in a variety of ways.

I'll leave it there for now, but there is always more to be said so don't take everything as the entirety of my thoughts. The main point of my post commenting on how I saw less fic was me going "hmm, I can't control everything else happening, but interaction and encouragement is very helpful for writers and something within my control and I want to support writers more than I do currently". I'm not intending to make some grand sweeping statement or push others to do things, it's just what I've reflected on and what I want to do about it :)

[caffine-addict-living-in-gotham]

A conversation.

"It's weird how many balcony related talks we are having nowadays" Damian said. Christel was sitting on the reiling of their main room's balcony. Damian suddenly joining her.

Christel was wearing the cardigan that hecate has leant her along with an old jacket christel had stolen taken from Damian. It was about 30 minutes since Doctor Leslie left their apartment, along with it being an hour since hecate left for home.

"Do you want to talk about where you stopped or are we putting it up for something you would speak about on your later days" Damian asked. Looking at the night view. He could see a few police cars running somewhere.. Nothing his brothers couldn't deal with.

"I am sorry. I know you would say it's not my fault. But I still feel guilty. You entered the place and he was on top of me.. And then he kissed me prior.. I know I had no control but still" Christel begun. Damian hummed as she continued. "It's a weird feeling. Not being in control of your anatomy I mean. When he threw the wine bottle at me. I just.. Wanted to call for my dad. But he wasn't around. I thought I would just never be.. Me again. Be forced to live as someone's wife. Someone who I knew in the past but who has changed" Christel side eyed Damian. Who was listening calmly.

"The whole situation was so shitty. I don't even know what to feel about Michael's death." Christel said as she finished explaining her feelings.

Damian glanced at her. "I am happy you know, it wasn't your fault and that you don't deserve it.. Your self imagine and how important it is to you is one of the reasons why I want to be with you.. It's actually the reason why I believed that you wouldn't leave me for micheal. Truth be told when I saw that letter, it was laced with strong magic that did cloud my judgement.. But it couldn't cloud the fact that you christel would never breakup by a letter. You aren't a coward" Christel for the first time since coming home chuckled.

Damian smiled at her. "I should also be sorry for doubting you. Even though I myself didn't have control over the magic. I still thought it... So we both can feel guilty together. That's what we do don't we? Feel everything together?" Christel's eyes widened as she exhaled.

"I guess that is us.."

Damian nodded. "I can't say I will protect you or that things like this wouldn't happen but.. I will be here for it all. I know that much" Christel bite her lips as she smiled. "And don't feel bad about not having feelings towards Micheal's death. Possessed or not, he did what he thought. Which wasn't great.. Like you said a very shitty situation"

Christel nodded "yeah.. That's our life isn't it?"

"Exactly.. Life of a witch and a vigilante, if you may"

"They could write a book about us.."

"It would be the best one"

They were sitting in silence until Robin got a message from the gotham-witch blog tagging him. He raised an eyebrow. Christel glanced at him.

"What's up?" Damian looked at her.

"Gotham-witch blog just tagged me in a private message" He replied opening it and letting whoever was texting him know that no hecate wasn't with them. Christel chuckled, coming closer to see.

"Must be kam with some fanfic--" Christel stopped once she read the conversation "huh? They aren't home yet. They really take their sweet time going home then they do coming to our house" Christel lightly joked. Damian hummed continuing to type what she just said.

"Oi don't quote me!"

Damian rolled his eyes.

[ Awww look the girlfriends are having a reuniting hug! ]

[ Are you going to narrate the kiss next? Wait who am I talking to? ]

"Don't be mean. It's kam" Christel lectured. Damian shook his head. "No it's not" As the texting continued.

[ Oh this is Kam. Me and the gfs are the only ones awake right now. ]

Christel smirked as Damian sighed very loudly. "He should be asleep. He has a show and tell tomorrow.. To which I hope he doesn't bring a magic artificial." Christel commented. Damian shook his head. No the boy was certainly planning that. At least he would have.

[ You should go to sleep, it's very late for you. Christel said something about you having a show and tell tomorrow. ]

Christel smile dropped as she saw the next text.

[ HOLY FUCK I DID NOT SEE THAT COMING ]

Both Christel and Damian were off the reiling and into the apartment as Damian texted back.

[ Kam? What happened? ]

[ HANG ON TRYING TO CHASE A BITCH GIMMIE A MINUTE ]

Damian was immediately reaching out for his jacket, so was christel with her shoes. Damian stopped and glared at her. "Absolutely not"

"Damian it can be--" "No it is not" Damian cut her of while typing ahead in front of her.

[ Who are you chasing???? Kam reply fast. You know christel can't deal with stress anymore. ]

Christel was again besides Damian reading the texts. Damian took her hand to calm her down.

[ Long story short, we don’t like Sera]

Damian frowned as christel whispered "what the fuck did sera do??"

[ I don't want the short version? Wait give me a min, I am coming there. ]

Damian let go of christel's hand but christel took it again as they saw the next messages in stunted silence.

[ Sera sticks them with a syringe thingy, they’re unconscious, and the bitch portaled away when I chased her ]

"She WHAT-" Christel yelled out as Damian sent a "...what the fuck?' Christel looked at Damian before looking at the phone. " Not another Victoria situation-- no no Michael-"

"habibti... Calm down, it's fine. Sera wouldn't hurt hecate from what we have seen" Damian squeezed her hand. Christel stared at their hands before nodding.

"Yes yes.. You're right.. She wouldn't"

[ This happened in the span of two minutes, I’m still confused ]

[ Where is Grelitia? ]

Damian kept frowning as the conversation continued he asked for zatanna or John and was met with Zatanna.

[ What's going on with Hecate? Are they okay? Christel isn't allowed to use her phone yet. Doctor Leslie's instructions. So she is just nervously standing next to me. ]

Christel took a deep breath. "Yeah this isn't good for me" She let go of his hand and sat on the couch. Damian glanced at the look he was receiving and sat next to her, letting her see the messages.

[ Oh, right, of course. She should listen to that, and I’m glad she is. Currently, we’re looking through everything we can. So far, we deduced that nothing foreign was introduced into their system, but if that’s the case then something haven’t had to be taken.]

Christel took Damian's hand again as she said "check for potions. Not magic. Just potions" Damian looked confused. "Not all potions are made of magic. Some are just made of pure Mana in things. Like upgraded science" Christel explained.

[ Christel just said to check where potions are inside their veins. Not magic, potions. ]

The conversation took a turn when zatanna stopped it with a oh no.

[ Zatanna don't break off like that. Come on. What's wrong?? ]

Christel started to feel light headed. Damian realized it, taking a hold on her shoulder and letting her head rest on his shoulders.

[ Give the phone to John then. ]

Christel fell unconscious. Shit.

[ Christel just fainted. Wait wait. ]

So much for it to be a normal night.

[zinzinina]

Hey, Sam!! For the fanfic asks, can I submit:

🌿 how does creating make you feel?

🍭 why did you start writing?

💋 when you leave comments on a fic, do you want to hear back from the writer?

Hope the new week is a kind one to you 😊💜

Hi Sam, thank you so much! I'm so sorry this is so late; I'm having a weird week. I really hope you've been doing well! x

🌿 how does creating make you feel?

Answered here! (tldr: sometimes wonderful, sometimes very frustrated haha)

🍭 why did you start writing?

I really just had a story in my head that I wanted to read, and nobody else had written it yet. I'd been wanting to start writing for a long time and had always struggled with a lot of imposter syndrome and feeling afraid of how awful it would make me feel if people were brutally unkind haha, but I'm so glad I took the chance because I've learned a lot about being bad at something while I'm learning and having fun without the need to be good and developing a slightly thicker skin.

💋 when you leave comments on a fic, do you want to hear back from the writer?

I love hearing back from authors, but I never mind or get offended if I don't. I'm definitely guilty of not always responding right away (I've been procrastinating with my AO3 inbox for months) just because it takes time and energy and sometimes it's just difficult knowing what to say, especially if someone has left a really thoughtful and detailed comment, because no response seems to adequately capture how much that person's comment meant to me and I'm a chronic overthinker dflkjl.

fanfic asks

[desmond-the-queer-dragon]

Me waking up and seeing my Fanfic on AO3 has at least 2 likes on it when I convinced myself that it was too niche and would get none:

[familyfriendlyweed]

makeup sessions (karl jacobs x fem reader)

a/n : hi! this is my first tumblr post. i have written stuff on wattpad in the past, but it’s still quite new to me, so please be nice :]] i accept positive critism and advice, as that most definitely will help me grow as a writer!

 Y/n let out something between a squeal and a scream at the same time when she saw Karl's tweet. her face was beat red and her lips couldn't help but curl into the stupidest grin ever.

the tweet read :

hey @) y/nhasursocks wanna do my makeup at my stream today :]]

 it was the simplest tweet, yet it meant so much to the girl. Karl and Y/n were always really good friends, they often streamed minecraft together, but never in a million years did he yet ask her to be in his stream in real life.

 Y/n picked up the phone with trembling hands, already seeing a bunch of likes, comments and retweets to Karl's tweet. before answering, she got curious to know what the people say. cautiously opening the comments section, the girl scanned it through with her eyes. a bunch of "awwwwws" and hearts could be seen, which worsened her already red cheeks.

With her heart thumping hard against her ribs, she started writing her reply :

sounds great! <3

 for a moment Y/n hesitated to press the "reply" button with the "<3" emoticon in the comment, but then she figured she and Karl sent lovey dovey emojis/emoticons in the past to each other anyways, so, she pressed the "reply" button at last.

 in an instant, her reply started gaining more and more likes, comments and retweets. Y/n was never really popular, having her clout was only because of Karl being her friend, so seeing this much attention was weird to her. but she didn't care about that right now. all that Y/n cared about at the moment was the fact that Karl appreciated her enough to actually invite her over.

 a little bit later in the day, Y/n received a private message from Karl, which said :

hey Y/n! I'm really glad you're up to stream together <3 i planned on starting the stream at 4 pm, but you can change the time if you're busy :] here is my address (don't tell anyone! :D) - (random address lol)

 Y/n answered :

 thanks for inviting me bestie!! 4 pm is cool, I'll be there! <33

 she set the phone down, unable to remove the blissful smile from her face. she has never felt this way before - it was really weird, but the constant butterflies in her tummy reminded her that it's a good feeling. taking a few deep breaths, Y/n reminded to herself that all she has to do is to go to Karl's house and have a good time AS FRIENDS - no romantic stuff is needed.

  ~~~~~time skip~~~~~

  Y/n got off from the bus at 15:50, but she still had about 5 minutes to reach Karl's house. in what felt like forever, the girl felt a sting of what was unmistakably fear and guilt - what if she was late? and what if Karl would be annoyed with her for that?

 slowly she broke into a panicky run. passing careless citizens, who all looked at her fear-stricken face curiously, she finally made it to the front door of Karl's home. Y/n pulled out her phone and found the code that she was supposed to enter next the main door. she quickly dialed it, a beep beep beep was heard and she entered.  

 finally making it to Karl's apartment, Y/n stopped to smooth her hair and straighten her clothes so she doesn't look too shabby. her body seemed to be moving on its own - her finger pressed the doorbell automatically.

 Karl opened the door almost in an instant - he wore a warm smile and before Y/n could stutter a "hello", he pulled the girl into a big welcoming hug.

 "hey Y/n! it's so cool you made it!" Karl exclaimed, still holding her close.

Y/n's head was spinning, she needed more time to process what was happening. but nevertheless, she finally lifted her own arms and hugged the guy. burying her face into his sweater, she inhaled Karl's scent deeply - he smelled something like honey and warm days.

"hello, Karl." she mumbled with a grin on her face.

"come on, do you want to eat something before the stream?" Karl asked, letting go of the girl and taking her hand into his instead, leading Y/n into the house.

"oh no, I'm full. let's get straight to business." she answered, the blissful smile and content blush never leaving her face.

"alrighty! you already know, but we'll have an eventful makeup session, and then I thought maybe play some minecraft so the stream isn't too short?" the guy asked, opening his bedroom door.

"sounds great!"

Karl smiled and went to his computer :

"you ready? I'll start the stream now."

the girl quickly fixed her hair again and gave him thumbs up :

"ready."

Karl started the stream with facecam on and as soon as the chat saw Y/n, it went absolutely wild.

"guys, give her a rest, poor girl just came!" he laughed, drawing her a chair. Y/n thanked quietly and sat, waving to the chat timidly. in the corner of her eye, she saw comments like "she's so adorable" and "look at Karl being a gentleman" in the chat and her cheeks grew more red, but this time from satisfaction.

"well, as you guys know, Y/n agreed to be in my stream today, and since some of you don't really know her, she's a really good friend of mine who also streams and does youtube videos - so go support her!"

from that moment Y/n relaxed more and more with each minute. it was fifteen minutes into the stream when she already felt as if at home.

"Karl, you have a hell lot of lipsticks, where did that come from?"

"uhhhh, I only bought them for the stream today!"

"oh really? why are they all used, then?" Y/n asked giggling and showing them to the stream.

"hey- don't expose me like that!"

"chat, clip it, CLIP IT!"

all was going really well, Y/n was having a really good time with Karl AS FRIENDS. it was really nice. but all hell broke loose when the time to put eyeliner came.

"alright, I have no idea why, but you have four eyeliners."

"they're my sister's."

"haha, yeah, yeah, alright. Which one do you want big man?"

"hmmm, the one in your left hand!"

Y/n set the other eyeliners on the table, quickly glancing at the chat. her cheeks grew very very red…

"Y/N DO THE MEME SIT ON HIS LAP" "SIT ON HIS LAP" "THE MEME, DO THE MEME!!!"

  a/n: if anyone is confused, this is an example of the meme i’m talking about :

the girl tried to act as if she hadn't seen the comments, but Karl was already by her side, reading them with her.

"meme… what meme?" he wondered out loud. Y/n got the impression that he was genuinely confused.

'chat, shut the fuck up, please shut the fuck up.' thought Y/n, but of course chat was just being chat.

"SHE SHOULD SIT ON UR LAP" "THERE'S A MEME WHERE A GIRL DOES A GUY'S EYELINER WHILE SITTING ON HIS LAP" "WE'RE NOT FORCING BUT YOU GUYS WOULD LOOK SO CUTE"

Y/n hid her face in her hands, unable to control her blushing. Karl just chuckled sweetly :

"chat, calm down, she's going to die from blushing."

he put on the "please stand by" screen and scooted over Y/n :

"hey, it's fine. we won't do it if you don't want to," Karl then leaned closer and whispered, "I'd be pretty glad if you agreed, though."

Y/n lowered her hands, showing off the big red hue on her cheeks. for a split second Karl's eyes widened -  she looked really adorable.

"I'd also be glad." the girl said, almost not believing her own words.

Karl's adorable smile came back and he leaned back:

"well then, come here."

Y/n stood up shyly and straddled his legs, grabbing the eyeliner in the process.

"do you want me to turn on the facecam?" Karl asked quietly.

the girl nodded :

"I don't mind."

he turned it on and put his hands onto Y/n's hips. even without looking at it, Y/n knew the chat was blowing up at the moment.

"you guys better subscribe, because we're providing very good fanservice." said Karl jokingly and Y/n laughed. turning to him, she opened the eyeliner and put it next to his eye, only to find him staring at her in an awe. the girl blushed as a strong urge to kiss him kicked in. it looked as if Karl wanted the same thing.

at the precise same time, they both leaned in and pressed their lips together, Y/n putting her hands onto Karl's cheeks to hide the view from the chat. the kiss was very short and with no tongue included - but it was the most sweet kiss Y/n has ever shared with someone. she pulled away, an identical grin to Karl's on her face and hugged him very tight - they almost fell off the chair.

laughing, she continued to do Karl's makeup as if nothing happened and everyone watching the stream wasn't fainting and clipping the kiss. this will be talked about for a long time, but as before, Y/n didn't care about that, and nor did Karl.

a/n : anddddd cut! it’s quite wonky, but i believe it’s pretty swell for my first mcyt fanfic :]] let me know what you think of it and if you have any tips or advice on how to make my future stories more enjoyable! thanks for reading and i hope to see you around <3

[fanficwritersinterviewed]

MCM, Bunnywest & DiscontentedWinter

<<This post is a part of a longer conversation about fanfic writers, how they view fanfic, and their writing process. All views are the fanfic writers’ own, and whatever fanfic they choose to write is entirely their own decision. No judgement value will be placed on fic content. These conversations are meant to provide insight for other fanfic writers in whatever stage they are at in their writing life>>

Meet-Cute Monday

(with Bunnywest & DiscontentedWinter, @bunnywest & @thisdiscontentedwinter) 

AO3 Stats:

Pseud: Bunnywest Pronouns: she/her Current fandoms: Teen Wolf Current pairings: Steter (Stiles/Peter), Stargent (Stiles/Chris), Petopher (Peter/Chris) How many total fic: 178 How many fandoms: 1 Total word count: 1,658,496 Longest fic word count: 111,578 Shortest: 280 Highest kudo count: 5,034 Lowest: 106

Pseud: DiscontentedWinter Pronouns: she/her Current fandoms: Teen Wolf Current pairings: Sterek (Stiles/Derek), Steter (Stiles/Peter), Stetopher (Stiles/Peter/Chris) How many total fic: 86 How many fandoms: 2 Total word count: 1,484,562 Longest fic word count: 80,022 Shortest: 932 Highest kudo count: 18,673 Lowest: 97

What's the story behind your writing pseuds? DW: No story at all except I was on a Shakespeare kick at the time, and someone already had "WinterofDiscontent."

B: I honestly can't remember the exact origin, I think it was back in the days of IIRC and triviachat. I was Ladywest because I'm from western Australia, and then it was Easter so I made it Bunnywest and it just sort of stuck.

DW:That's super cute. I should have made up a super cute story!

How long have you been reading and writing fanfic? B:Ooooh, I wanna say ten years reading? My kid sent me a link to a Stucky fic when I was recovering from surgery, because she knew I'd love it, and also it was T rated so it didn't weird her out too much sharing it. I've been writing since May 2017. There was a really great bit of fanart and I commented that it would be great if there was a story and they said "you could write it," and at first I was "Haha, no," but then the idea wormed into my brain.

I legitimately thought I'd write this 400 word thing and be done, and then people started commenting and asking for more, and I'm a whore for validation. Who knew? So I kept going. And the more I wrote, the more I found my stress levels dropping, and the more fun Peter Hale was to play with. I literally write to empty the brain pan of bullshit. If I go too long without writing now, I have weird stress dreams. And I do so love the endorphin rush of posting at bedtime and waking up to fifty something comments.

DW: I was always aware fanfic was a thing, but Sterek was definitely my gateway drug. In about 2014, a bunch of people I knew on Goodreads started recommending Sterek fanfic, and I was hooked from that moment. In late 2014 a BNF (Big Name Fan) writer wrote a post about how fanfic shouldn't be put on Goodreads, which led to a lot of fic writers demanding GR remove their fics, under the mistaken idea fics were being hosted there, not just linked. And a lot of fans on GR were very upset when their reviews all disappeared without warning. They were also upset to be told that they weren't "real" fans. So I decided to write a Sterek fic for them, which they could talk about on GR and I wouldn't demand it get taken down. I thought that it'd be just that group that would read it, mostly, but suddenly I had an inbox full of comments. So I kept writing more, whenever I had the time between my professional writing projects.

What’s your meet-cute story? DW: I think we'd maybe commented on a few of each other's fics? But then our mutual fandom friend introduced us, and all three of us decided at one point to write a fic together.

B: Our actual meet-cute was Daisy's elephants. Winter posted about her dog's obsession with a particular stuffed toy that she disemboweled on the reg, and lamented that she only had a couple left in her stash. My local reject shop had a shit ton so I sent them to her, and in return she sent me some of her books. We haven't actually met, I think I should point out.

DW: No. We had plans for this month, but... pandemic and closed borders.

Which came first for you: original content writing or fanfic writing? DW: Original writing. I've been writing original characters for as long as I can remember, and I was published first before I posted fanfic anywhere. We wrote our first fanfic collab in September 2019. At some point Bunny said something about how writing a novel was harder, or different, and I bullied her into writing one with me to prove that it wasn't. I mean, it's a bit different, but if you can turn out 50k fanfics in a few weeks, there is nothing stopping you from writing a novel. I eased her in with self publishing, then, in case she thought that was a fluke, with our next series I submitted it to a publisher and it got accepted!

B: Oh fanfic for me. I wanna say we wrote [our first novel] in April 2020 because we both had two weeks off? Winter bullied...lovingly cajoled... me into attempting it just to prove to me I could.

DW: And I was right!

Wow! So this is very much a pandemic collaboration. Because I checked out your self publishing and there was so much, I assumed it must have been over a long time. B: Oh Winter is a machine. She has, I wanna say, fifty odd books? But it’s hard to keep count, only because she keeps releasing more. I have to keep reminding myself that she's the Spiders Georg of writing and three books in a year is perfectly respectable.

DW: Ha! Nah, there are people out there who are writing a lot faster than me!

So I’m absolutely fascinated by the fact the two of you self publish and write fanfic at the same time. I think there is this assumption in writing that fanfic is a nice little stepping stone and then one day you’ll become A Writer. And when you’re A Writer you will have no need for writing fanfiction. B: There absolutely is that assumption that 'real writers' graduate from fanfic. Winter did it backwards because she's just Like That.

DW: For me, fanfic takes the pressure off. I have work writing, and I have fun writing. Fanfic is fun writing, and I reward myself with it when I've got the work writing out of the way. After wrangling characters and plotlines all day, it's fun to go back to fanfic and just let it go in any crazy direction it wants--my fanfics have the tendency to do that!

Also, with fanfic I can write and post a chapter in a day, and tomorrow there will be a bunch of excited comments, which gives me the motivation to jump back in. With original writing, I don't get that immediate and enthusiastic feedback, so sometimes it feels like a lot more of a slog. I'm sure I could write twice as fast if I had a cheer squad for my original writing! So, I'm always going to need fanfic, I think. Not as a stepping stone, but as a fun place to play.

B: This. Case in point: we have two completed books right now that won't be published till the middle of next year, which is a LONG time to wait for validation for that one joke you're really proud of. But fanfic? Write today, post today, feedback immediately!

How has the fanfic community fueled your writing? DW: It's the enthusiasm. It's an incredible feeling when people leave comments about how excited they are to see where this story is going, or where they think it might be. And sometimes reading the comments section just makes me laugh, because I might be in the middle of a fairly shitty day, but a keysmash comment with a flailing Kermit gif? I love making people happy with my fics, or even making them yell at me because of an evil cliffhanger. That enthusiasm is wonderful, and always gives me a push.

B: The rush of getting comments definitely keeps me going-- whether it's the excited flailing for the next chapter with a hundred theories as to what's going to happen, or a simple “IM DED”-- I love it all

DW: Same! It's accountability, too, though not in a formal sense. You want to finish because you don't want to leave anyone hanging!

B: Basically, fanfic is stress relief and original works, while still fun to write, carry slightly more responsibility to turn out, y'know, not shit.

DW: This! Lol!

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Hey all, this is my first attempt at a fanfic. It's a slow burn type read, very enemies to friends to lovers-esque.

Prompt: After not interacting for years, a shared glance in the cafeteria snow balls into budding friendship... and more?

Show: Stranger Things

Pairing: Eddie Munson x femalereader

Chapter One

"Okay so final semester of senior year, how you feeling?" Lila asks, as we walk into the cafeteria, MUCH too early in the day (like seriously, after only two classes? Who would want to eat this early?).

"I'm unbelievably ready to get out of this dump." I roll my eyes as we get in line and grab our trays. "Just waiting on my acceptance letter to Northwestern"

"I still can't believe you want to go that far away from home, always thought we'd grow old and senile together running our little bakery" Lila grimaces as the lunch lady slaps down a piece of what I can only say is meatloaf onto her tray. Lila and I grew up next door and would constantly bake cookies for the neighbors (and ourselves of course, too many cookies were eaten in our childhood).

"We can definitely still do that, just please not in Hawkins. We have to get out of this tiny town." I despised the fact that everyone knew everyone's business.

We get out of the lunch line, and walk towards our table, which is already filled with the rest of my friends... well, more like peers. Being part of the mathletes meant all of us sitting together at lunch every day. They were all great people, very silly and awkward but damn are they nerdy. Don't get me wrong, I consider myself quite a nerd, I have straight A's, am in the marching band, and absolute rock it in the mathletes (first chair thank you very much), but I like to have a personality outside of school - these kids don't. Lila and I take a seat at the table and start light conversation with the other mathletes, and I start to slowly tune out all their comments.

I've lived here in Hawkins my whole life, and I've hated every moment of it. Well, that's a lie, when I was little I enjoyed my childhood, at least when my mom was around. But ever since she left when I was 7, leaving me in the hands of my anger-riden stepfather, I've been miserable, finding just about any reason to escape. Luckily I found my escape through school, I figured if my grades were good enough, it would be ticket to any school far away from here. I'm so unbelievably ready to leave this stupid town, the nosy people, the fake friends, the weird obsession with sp-

"Right Amelia?" Lila calls. I suddenly snap out of my trance only to realize my eyes had completely wandered from the mathletes gang all the way over to the Hell's Fire table, just kiddy-corner from ours. My eyes were staring right into Eddie Munson's, leader of the club. He was giving me a weird look, couldn't really tell if it was concern or disgust. I could feel the color drain from my face. Holy crap, how long was I staring at him before he noticed? How long was he staring back? I don't think we've exchanged glances in years, this is weird. I wonder if he still remembers -

"Yeah Lila what's up?" I whip my head around to look at her, only to see a look of concern coming from her.

"I said [highschool] has no chance winning the final mathletes competition with you as first chair... right?" She hesitated getting the last word out as she looked my face up and down. "Are you okay? Where was your brain a second ago? Have you not listened to a single word we said? And why were you looking at the freak table?" She tends to bable when she's worried.

"My mind was wandering, just a lot on my brain. And I didn't realize I was looking over in their direction... I- uh- forgot I need to get something out of my locker." I get up to leave and could feel someone's eyes on me. I look out of the corner of my eye and see Eddie looking at me again, but this time I didn't bother processing it, I just took my backpack and headed out of the cafeteria. "Meli wait-" I could hear Lila trying to get my attention, but she didn't follow me out, she knows to leave me be. I don't know what came over me in this moment, but I turned around one more time before stepping out of the cafeteria and in that same moment he turned his over to meet my gaze. I wonder if he still hates me, and it crushes me I'll never know why.