#spn s15e18

[drulalovescas]

There's something about the Winchesters watching the love of their lives being killed by powerful cosmic entities and not being able to save them

[no-nightingalez]

[stellernorth]

With the Empty and Billie closing in there's only ONE THING LEFT TO DO and they both know it. What's their course of action?

[f-rgetregret]

just saw 15x18 for the first time, and i am a mess!!! dean had no time to say anything. cas was so right to confess his feelings. sam sees everyone he cares about disappear in front of his eyes. jack went from having three dads to ???is anyone left alive besides us??? and how is dean supposed to answer his phone right now. what can he say. what does it matter if sam knows he's alive or not? he might as well be dead with cas gone. i am so sorry, baby girl. i know you had it worked out differently in your head. billie was gonna kill the both of you. but cas always has something up his sleeve to change the plan. don't do this cas. i love you, dean.

[m-artsoul]

01/04/23

despair  the complete loss or absence of hope

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NOTE: in one of my classes we had to do a presentation about a story so of course i chose to make it about spn. li had to also make a poster but ofc i couldn’t be chill about it. so for anyone interested, here’s the original version:

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[melanieathene]

It Only Took a Second

It only took a second to change everything. The words “I love you” hung in the air between them. Three little words that found lodging in Dean's heart as no other words ever had.

In that breathless second, Death and the Empty's presence were forgotten. The world narrowed down to the blue of Castiel's eyes, the tears that trickled down his smiling face. Joyful tears. A joy so deep it transcended time and place.

In that frozen moment, everything Dean had ever wanted (but had never hoped to find) was within his grasp.

And then it all was ripped away.

[annmariethrush]

Suptober Day 1: Liminal

On AO3 or after the break

Even after millions of years, Castiel remembers what the world was like in the beginning. He remembers how, before stars, the sky stretched inky black and endless above him; uninterrupted by light or celestial bodies. And the earth, covered entirely in glassy water, spread below him. Smooth and dark, it rippled only when disturbed by the luminous presence of a passing angel; only the faint glow of their true form catching in a gentle shimmer on the wake as they flew by. Most of all, Castiel remembers the peacefulness that came from the darkness surrounding him both above and below. It was spacious but not vacant, like a farm house with vaulted ceilings; quiet but not silent, like a remote meadow with a gentle breeze.

Now Castiel knows what it is like at the end of the world too, at least for him. For all intents and purposes, it is the same as the beginning. Above him is inky black expanse, imperceptibly vast and impossibly dark. Below him, the slightest ripples of dark liquid which emit at his presence. However, it could not feel more different to him. Here the darkness is stifling and intrudes upon him from every direction. Instead of gently floating above deep waters in endless space, Castiel is plastered against stiff ground beneath the thinnest layer of sticky shadow masquerading as a liquid. He is no longer able to angelically perceive depth leaving him with the sense that he is stuck in a Jimmy Novak shaped box. This darkness is vacant, like an old office building that was stripped but never sold; it is silent in a deafening way, like when you freeze in the dead of night after imagining a sound.

There are many names for this darkness. Sheol. The Void. The Empty. He thought of it as Sheol when he believed it would be a place of rest. Darkness like when humans close their eyes and their mind wanders off to let their body recoup. Peaceful and placid, like a night spent in a warm motel bed after a cold day’s drive. The mindless feeling of contentment sitting in the chair across from Dean’s bed while he sleeps, knowing that being there means he is safe. This was not Sheol any longer. Castiel lays awake in this inky blackness, aware of all the other angelic and demonic presences that must surround him somewhere just out of view. This is the Void, where darkness consumes him and every other being who lays here, trapping them in skintight coffins like people drowned in tar. But to him, it was quickly ceasing to be the Void either.

Castiel thinks of all the other beings who lay in this place with him, but his thoughts linger on all of those who are here because of him. His mind goes through every angel he has killed over the past decade. All those who had sided with Raphael. All those who had worked against Dean Winchester at some time or another whom he had murdered with hardly a thought. All who had fought at his side and paid the price for his mistakes. When his mind runs out of siblings he can name who had died at his hand or in his name, his thoughts return to where they always do. Dean Winchester. Castiel’s mind replays Dean’s face as he confessed his love, vivid as though his eyes were projecting it onto the opaque screen of darkness before him. The joy of his confession had long since left his body, seeping out into the shadows drip by drip with each time he replayed it, consumed by the blackness. Now, all that remains as it plays once more is the devastating feeling of unrequited love, hammered home by the deadened look in Dean’s eyes as he said the words. The feeling inside his chest as though he had been hollowed out. A retired scarecrow lying deflated on a shelf, waiting to be filled with new straw that will never come. This is the Empty.

[seratonintriggers]

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[myinfinitevariety]

i will never admit to him that his love feels like a tease from god.

- death wish by john alex baker

[thefrogsthewaterturnedgay]

Spn finale- three years later

So i know i might be a little late to this but i have just finished binging supernatural. After s15e20 i have some thoughts.

First off: Cas. Where is he? In heaven Bobby mentioned Cas "helped jack" when fixing heaven. Does that mean Cas is in heaven? I thought he couldnt come back from the Empty? If he is in heaven then why dont we see him? If he is in the Empty then why did Bobby say that??? Its never brought up.

And then theres Cas' death. It's hardly mentioned past episode 18, and its mentioned like once in 20.

And they never mention or acknowledge the love confession!!!!!!!

Second: What about Jody and Claire and Donna and Kaia and other world bobby and charlie and all the other people they cared about? Only Donna is really in 18 and none of them are past that. Did they ever come back after Chuck got defeated? Presumably they did. But why don't they ever show up? Wouldn't Claire probably want to be there when Sam burns dean's body? Wouldn't Jody? The point the show tried to make was that Sam didn't have anybody left? so they just ignored these other characters????

Third: After all those years 15 years Dean dies from a RUSTY NAIL??? ON A CASUAL RANDOM JUST ANOTHER WEDNESDAY VAMPIRE HUNT??????????????

WHO SAID THAT WAS A GOOD IDEA????

Finally: Wasn't the whole point of everything they did for 15 seasons, all those apocalypses and not-quite-deaths free will? Wasn't the whole point of defeating Chuck them finally getting out of the hamster wheel and living their own lives? Then dean dies like immediately after, and the whole thing is framed like sam has no one left and has to build a whole new life. Not even acknowledging the people they lost along the way (CAS?!?!) Or the people he still has left (see: second point).

So in conclusion, total shit finale, so many things weren't addressed or just tied up terribly.

Please, I need some good fix-it fics so if you have recs please tell me.

[drulalovescas]

Forever obsessed with the contrast between Castiel's introduction (light) and his departure (darkness).

[no-nightingalez]

fixed version :3

[stellernorth]

look at this. dean says "don't do this, cas" lookin like this, dry eyes

then he turns to look at the empty and we cut back to him and he is Crying

they are lying to me there is secret footage out there where he is crying more and earlier and that is just apparent

[fandom-specific]

destiel: dean winchester's very public breakdown

After Castiel's 'final' death, the remaining members of tfw try to move on and just live. One day, Dean goes out on a solo hunt to silence the thoughts in his head.

While trying to solve the case, he has a hard time accepting what happened in Cas's final moments and cannot seem to focus. Terrible consequences arise from a distracted Dean and he can't hide his emotions.

A kind stranger helps him out.

[folie-a-winchester]

OH MY GOD DESTIEL CANON FOR 1000 DAYS?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!