The Detective and the Tech Guy Meet Baby
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The last time he’d been this tired was in his senior year at Stanford, when he’d stayed up ’til two in the morning studying for his final exam, then worked on some of the coding for his dad’s newest project at B.E.C. ’til the sun came out. He’d relied on a frat buddy sitting behind him to regularly kick his chair to wake him up so that he could finish the exam that day.
Chuck pushed his notebook out of the way and folded his arms on his desk, lowering his forehead to rest on his forearm and letting his eyes shut. Just five minutes, maybe, and then he could get back to work.
If this conference was going to be successful, he needed to figure out ways to sell it to sponsors. He’d thought about just fronting his own money, and a lot of it would come out of his own pocket. But he couldn’t pay for everything. Not for something this big, something this unprecedented.
It was going to be the San Diego Comic Con of underprivileged boys and girls learning about STEM.
Or at least…that was his plan.
But then there was a knock on his office door. It was a knock he recognized and it made his heart skip a beat. “Come in,” he mumbled, his voice muffled by his arms.
The door opened and there was silence for a second. And then he slowly rolled his head to the side and peeked up at his girlfriend. “Oh, hi.”
“Okay and this is why I came over here.”
He squinted. “Hmm?”
“Honestly, Chuck. You’re going to kill yourself doing this so often. Let me guess,” she said, stepping inside all the way and shutting the door behind her as she moved to the other side of his desk. “You were going to take a short nap at…” She glanced at her watch. “…almost ten o’clock. And then get right back to your work. Am I right?”
Chuck blinked. “I mean…maybe.”
She smiled, rolled her eyes, and shook her head. “Come on. We’re going.”
“How’d you know I was here?”
“I went to your place and you weren’t there. Only other options were here or some other woman’s place. And I have it on good authority said other woman is currently four hours into her sleep cycle.”
“Would that good authority happen to be Mr. Paranoia McGee?”
“If by Mr. Paranoia McGee you mean your brother-in-law, then yes. Yes, he’s my good authority. I texted her and he texted me back.”
“Sweet of him.”
“Isn’t it?”
“But as much as I love you showing up and spicing up my night,” she raised an eyebrow at that, smirking, “I’ve got a lot to figure out for the conference.” He immediately switched his brain to his work and rushed out, “What do you think about this? Tell me the truth. Back when you were a sophomore in high school, would you have wanted to go to a conference called ‘The STEM of the Future’?”
She pressed her lips together and winced. She didn’t have to answer.
“No,” he breathed. “No. W-What about just STEMCon? Keep it simple. No flowery language. Haaaa. Get it? STEM? Flowery? I’m really tired.”
“I know.” She giggled. And then she leaned over the desk and cupped his face, her hands cool against his cheeks. He nearly hummed at how nice it felt. “Let’s get out of here.” She took her hands away and stood up straight again. “You can get back to work in the morning. But I know for a fact you didn’t sleep last night. I went to sleep in an empty bed and woke up this morning in an empty bed again.”
“Well, how do you know I didn’t just go to bed later than you and wake up earlier than you?” He hadn’t. He hadn’t even touched his bed, as inviting as seeing her all wrapped up in his sheets, cuddling his side of the bed, had been. He’d just wanted to crawl in there with her. But he hadn’t. There was so much to do still.
“Because I can feel when you’re in bed with me? Even when I’m asleep?” she said, her voice lifting at the end of each sentence. “It’s a…weird…couple thing. I dunno.” She shook her head. “Come on. Get your jacket. Put your shoes on if they’re off.”
“They’re on.”
“Good. Let’s go back to your place. You can take a shower, I’ll make the martinis,” he popped his eyebrows at that, “and then we’ll drink in bed and fall asleep before midnight like old retired people who have a lot of money.”
“Can we have QVC on in the other room?”
“Mmm and an electric blanket at the end of the bed since, you know, old people are always cold.”
Chuck smirked, which turned into a chuckle. How could he say no to that? There was also the fact that his assistant had picked him up and taken him to work because Ellie borrowed his car for a road trip down to San Diego with Devon. Even though she’d come back earlier today, she still had the car parked at her condo and he was technically stranded.
He’d meant to call a cab eventually, but here was his knight in shining armor, tall and proud in her jeans and navy blue zip up sweatshirt that made her eyes look simply majestic.
But for the first time since she’d walked into his office, he actually looked at her eyes—really looked—and he saw that particular thread of tiredness there.
And it wasn’t the same tired he was experiencing. This wasn’t physical exhaustion. It was emotional, mental, spiritual. It was much deeper.
He knew why it was there, too.
Sarah Walker, P.I. needed a client. And she needed one soon. Each day that passed had her sinking further into a professional depression, as much as she tried to hide it from him.
And Chuck didn’t blame her from trying to hide it. He knew it wasn’t just that she didn’t want to confide in him. It was that she wasn’t used to confiding in people. And he knew she didn’t like pushing her troubles onto him.
He’d gladly take her troubles on his own shoulders, carry her burdens.
But instead, he pretended he didn’t see it.
For now.
And he let her grab his hand and pull him out from behind his desk. He grumbled good-naturedly and let himself be guided through the door, Sarah having reached over and snagged his jacket for him.
“Have your wallet? Keys? Car keys?”
“Ellie has my car keys.”
“Oh, yeah. She borrowed your car. Forgot.”
“God, Sarah. Get your shit together.”
She laughed, even as she pinched him on the ass, making him yelp as they walked past Chuck’s assistant’s empty desk.
The journey back to Chuck’s condo was filled with Chuck bouncing a few of his ideas about the conference off of her, since his dad had given him the order to make it his number one priority.
Finally, Chuck turned to look at his girlfriend, the streetlights flooding her face with light for just a moment every couple of seconds as they passed under them. “Why’d you go to my place earlier?”
She gave him a look. “What do you mean?”
“Well, you-you said you went to my condo and I wasn’t there so you came to my office. Is something wrong? I mean, you showing up at my condo at, like, almost ten o’clock makes me feel like maybe something’s wrong.” It just occurred to him and he felt like an awful boyfriend for taking this long. He shifted in the seat, sitting up a bit straighter and turning his body towards her as best he could under the constraints of his seatbelt.
“Nothing’s wrong,” she said, smiling and looking over at him. “Can’t a girl go to her boy’s place after nine o’clock on a Thursday night?”
“Sure she can,” he said with a shrug. “You know you can show up any damn time you feel like it. I just mean…it’s a little later than you usually come over.”
“What if it was a booty call?”
He choked a little. “Was it?”
“Nah.” She shook her head, the smirk dying a little as the seconds went by. “Simpler than that and a little less X-Rated. I just wanted to see you, I guess.”
“Okay, first of all…the fact that you gave our potential sex an X-rating is super hot. Secondly, ‘I just wanted to see you, I guess’ isn’t always entirely believable.” He winced, afraid she’d lash out at him for insinuating she was lying about her needs.
She didn’t, though. She just sighed.
They finally pulled into his extra space in his building’s garage and climbed out of the car.
When Sarah shut her car door, she spoke again. “I’m telling the truth,” she finally said. “I did want to see you. But it was because I needed to.”
“Needed to?” They walked into the elevator arm in arm and he pushed the button for his floor. “I repeat, did something happen?”
She rolled her eyes—more at herself than at him, he thought—and leaned against the railing next to him. “No, nothing happened. And that’s the problem.”
Ah. Yes. So he was sort of right.
“I’ve spent too much money for getting only one damn client. And while my paycheck was nice and sizable, I need more.”
“Well, I know some peop—”
“No.”
“But—”
“No.”
He held his hands up. “Okay, fine. But I was thinking last night while I was not-sleeping—”
“Aha!” She pointed at him. “You didn’t sleep. What’d I tell you?”
“Fine. You got me. I didn’t sleep last night. But I was thinking, Sarah. You gotta let me work on your website.”
“No—”
“Seriously. I could show you how to market to the right people. Less corny business hack, more Hercules Poirot.” She gave him a flat look and he sighed. “With the website you have now, it’s very simple, simple colors, simple layout, not a whole lot of information or links to click…And the phone number is kinda…clunky.” Her flat look was starting to get miffed but he continued on, pretending he didn’t see it. She needed his help, after all. “It looks a lot like those commercials on TV for lawyers who you can call when you get into a car accident and some peasant law student ends up as your lawyer in court for all the money you cough up.”
“Are you saying my website makes me look like a con artist?” She lifted an eyebrow.
“What? No, no! No. I’m just saying, there’s a way you can make it look less…”
“Unprofessional.” She crossed her arms, her jaw clenching. Woops.
“Not that, no. But B.E.C. has a killer rad website. Which I’m sure you looked at when you were first assigned to our case, It’s killer rad, right?” She didn’t answer, and he could tell she wasn’t exactly happy with him. “I’ve got some of the best marketing pros working for me. They all love you. They think you’re great. They’d totally help. You can work with them and get your site looking super professional, like you’ve been doing this for years. Which you have! Just…not on your own, you know?” he reasoned, holding the elevator doors for her.
They finally stepped into his condo and Sarah’s frown hadn’t subsided.
“Did I offend you?” he asked with a wince as he turned on the lights and shut his door. “I offended you, didn’t I? I didn’t mean to. I’m just trying to help.”
“No,” she sighed. “You didn’t offend me. I am not a marketing expert. I know I’m not. And my site isn’t great. I know that, too. But I have to figure this stuff out on my own.”
“But I can help. People can help.”
“I will let you know when I need your help, Chuck. Okay?”
He couldn’t help being confused. What did it matter if her boyfriend sat down with one of his marketing associates and figured out how best to work her site to make it playable to professionals who needed professional investigating?
Why was she so resistant about receiving help?
It didn’t make sense. He knew she was independent, self-reliant. But he kept forgetting that he didn’t entirely know all there was to know about her. He didn’t know her background. She went to Harvard for law school and left for Pinkerton. He’d picked up on that much. And not even because she’d outwardly told him.
He knew absolutely nothing about her parents, where they were, if they were anywhere. Did she have parents?
“Sarah, it’s not really…” He cleared his throat when she gave him a look. It was the look that would usually make him stop asking, stop pushing. But he kept going. It was important. He wouldn’t be muzzled tonight. “It’s not that big of a deal, having someone help with your website. It’s not your specialty. Investigating, being a bad ass, finding bad dudes and ladies, arresting them, saving lives…that’s your specialty. You need someone with a marketing talent to—”
“Chuck, I don’t need help. I’ll fix the website if it needs touching up. But I’ve got it.”
“I’m just giving you advice. I’ve been watching and working for my dad all this time, and I know how businesses get off the ground. Good marketing is key.”
“I don’t want advice right now. Okay?” There was an edge to her voice as she toed her shoes off and walked down the steps towards the bar. “I’ll start making the martinis. You shower and get comfortable.”
“Sarah…” He followed her but stayed a few feet away. “I know you don’t think you need help. But…when you do, I’m here.”
“Okay.”
She dug around in the cabinet at the bar, very obviously done with the conversation.
Chuck felt the sting of it as he stuck his hands in his pockets. “Sorry I even brought it up then. I’ll, uh, go take my shower.”
And he left her side, heading for the shower. It was going to be a long one. He needed it to be a long one. Because he didn’t want to be angry when he got out again.
Her resistance to his help made him mad. Not knowing why she resisted made him mad. Her innate ability to cut him off and make him feel in the wrong for even asking questions made him mad.
So he stepped into the spray of the shower and let it flood over him, standing there for a while, making his mind go blank.
The air felt charged with words that needed to be said when he came back down again, seeing her sitting on the couch with both martinis on the table in front of her.
Her blue eyes lifted to watch him approach. There was regret in her pretty features then as she lowered her gaze to her lap for a second, rubbing a hand down her jeans. “Hey, um…”
Sarah stood and walked around the table to stand in front of him. “I’m sorry.” She winced. “This agency—It-It has to be my own work, you know? I-I need this to be all me. Even the tiny things. Otherwise it-it doesn’t feel real, you know?”
He nodded, still not really understanding her logic. What was so wrong about asking for help, or accepting it when it was given? He had so many resources that were hers to use if only she asked him.
“I didn’t mean for it to be an argument,” he said, furrowing his brow.
“I didn’t mean to make it into one. Just—You get it, right? I don’t need help. I’ve got to do this. Just me.”
Chuck nodded again, even though he didn’t get it, even though none of this was sitting right, even though he still felt the tension. “Yeah,” was all he could give her.
And it seemed to be enough for her as she smiled softly at him, which was…a little annoying. All he’d said was yeah and it wasn’t even enthusiastic or particularly genuine, but she accepted it and was ready to move on.
He was trying to be okay with her emotional hang-ups, trying to understand, but it was getting harder, the more time went on without him really knowing anything concrete about her background, her past, what she’d been through. He felt like he didn’t know anything.
But tonight wasn’t the time to drudge all of that up.
So he did what he thought would calm him down, the thing he knew always did wonders for him when he was tense or unsettled.
He leaned in, stroked his fingers down her cheek softly, and kissed her, just as softly.
It did the job. The unsettled feeling in him settled, and when her arms went around his neck, while he didn’t feel like the tension was gone, he did feel their connection, the one that made all of this seem trivial. He was upset, but she was still his, and he was hers. No matter what happened between them, there was always that.
She finally pulled away, looking glad that they had cleared it up even though he didn’t entirely feel like they had, and she reached down to pick up their martinis.
“So, these won’t be as good as if you’d made them, since no one can make a martini like you do,” she said with a wink as he plucked one of the martinis from her fingers, “but a martini is a martini, right?”
He held his up for her to clink hers against, and when she did, he brought it to his lips and sipped it, smacking his lips, narrowing his eyes. “Nope, that’s pretty damn good. Well done, Walker.”
“Yessssss!” She did an excited fist pump and he nearly let the rest of tonight’s baggage slide, it was so damned cute. “Success.” She sipped hers and hummed. “It’s good, but I prefer yours.”
“Just because you like kicking your feet up and watching while I do the work,” he sassed with a teasing smirk.
“No!” she argued, slipping her hand into his and guiding him back to the stairs. “Although, the view is really nice.”
“Are you referring to my bum?”
“I am,” she giggled, and she led him up the stairs to the bedroom.
——————
Chuck yawned widely as he stared at his computer screen. STEMCon was what he’d settled on. He just couldn’t figure out if he wanted a space between STEM and Con, or if he wanted to smash the words together.
Either way, there was the small matter of getting enough people together who could be on panels, who could lead workshops. He had to find a way to get the technology there, to get sponsors there, and to figure out just how many tablets, laptops, jump drives, and other pieces of tech he’d need for the students.
He huffed in frustration and sat back against his chair, looking at the ceiling and groaning to himself.
It didn’t help that he wasn’t feeling very inspired today. All day, he’d been bothered by how strained the morning was when he’d woken up next to Sarah. Like their little make-up talk after his shower had just been an armistice.
Her smiles were tentative, her mien distracted. He’d kissed her and sped off to work, wanting to leave the tense atmosphere as quickly as possible.
She’d offered to make him breakfast but he’d feigned having an early meeting, which he’d then felt guilty about. When had he ever run away from her and not spent as much time with her as possible?
He needed to get over it. He was dating a woman who had some struggles with feelings. So she was a little closed-off sometimes, but…so were a lot of people. Just because he wasn’t that way, didn’t mean he should project his own personality onto her.
He just had to be there for her when she needed him. Just like she always was when he needed her.
Feeling a bit better, but also wanting to call her and talk to her, he picked up his phone. He wanted to tell her…
He didn’t know what he’d tell her. So he set his phone back down.
And just when he did, the door to his office slammed open. His mom stood there, his concerned assistant standing wide-eyed behind her.
“Chuck, it’s time!”
He smiled a little, amused. “What are you—? Oh!” The smile died and he jumped to his feet so violently that his chair tipped. “Oh! Oh my God. Is it Ellie?”
“What else?!” his mom snarked, her face pinched in unease and nerves. “Come on, hurry up. We need to get to the hospital.”
His mind flooded with thoughts of Sarah. He needed to get to her, she needed to be there, he needed her to share in this.
He grabbed his cell phone and coat, shrugging it on, shutting down his computer. “Adisa?”
His assistant perked up. “I got it, Chuck. Cancel all of your meetings for at least today. Just keep us all updated on what’s going on with Ellie.”
“I absolutely will.” He thumped the younger man on the back. “Thanks, Adisa. I’ll keep you posted.” Then he turned to his mom as they swept out into the hallway. “Did Ellie call you?”
“She texted your dad. He’s already on his way to the hospital from his meeting in Anaheim. Now come on! I’ve got the car out front.”
“I’ll drive. We’re getting Sarah on the way to the hospital. ”
His mother stalled behind him. “She can meet us there.”
“No. She can’t. We’re picking her up.”
“We’re not going out of the way to pick up your girlfriend, Charles! Your sister is in labor!” she snapped as she continued to follow him through the hallway to the elevator.
They climbed in and Chuck clenched his jaw, wanting to keep from snapping at his mom on this day of all days.
The doors opened again on the ground floor.
“Charles. Are you listening to me?”
Chuck spun on his mom and snagged the car keys from her hand, holding them up. “I’ve got the keys. If you have a problem with picking Sarah up on the way to the hospital, you can call a Lyft.”
He saw he’d won almost immediately. His mother would never Lyft or Uber. Not even to avoid being in the car with Sarah Walker, the woman she’d apparently taken offense to for some stupid reason.
The drive to Sarah’s office was quick, and honestly it was a toss-up as to whether or not she’d even be there in the first place. He knew she tried to keep a schedule, going to her office as many days during the week as she could. He knew she worked there even if she could do the same work from home.
He was surprised when his mom got out of the car with him once they’d screeched to a halt at the curb in front of Sarah’s office building. But he paid her no mind as he rushed into the building and climbed into the old-fashioned elevator.
Once they reached Sarah’s floor and started down the hallway, he spotted the light shining through the door of her agency and knew she was there. Relieved, he hurried his step even more, hearing his mom huff and puff behind him.
And then he burst into Sarah’s agency, a little breathless himself as he rushed through the small lobby and stopped in the threshold to her personal office.
She was on the floor with papers spread all around her, her eyes wide as she looked up at him. “Chuck! What—? What’s going on?”
He frowned at the mess, knowing she wasn’t typically the messy type. And she looked down to follow his gaze. “Oh. Um, yeah. This. I was sorting my paperwork to file it so that I know where everything is. I can find it easier that way, you know?”
“Well, we gotta go,” he said, nodding in understanding. He watched Sarah’s eyes fall on his mother who stood at his shoulder, and he could see she was embarrassed the older woman was seeing this mess. It made his chest ache in a good way, and in a bad way. Mostly bad.
“What do you mean, we gotta go? For what? What’s happened?”
“Ellie’s in labor.”
Her blue eyes popped, shining brightly as she jumped to her feet and clasped her hands together. “Oh, my God. It’s happening?”
“Yeah.” He let out a breathless chuckle and felt the beginning of tears. He just barely blinked them away as Sarah closed the distance and cupped his face in her hands. “I’m gonna be an uncle.”
The tension and strain that had been there this morning wasn’t in the room anymore. There was nothing between them but the deep affection and sweeping adoration that had always been there. And then she moved up to the tip toes of her pumps and kissed him.
He wrapped his arms around her and chuckled into the kiss, fighting the emotions, clinging to her.
When he heard the loud “AHEM” behind him, he pulled Sarah even closer, and as amused as he could tell Sarah was by the move, she was the one who pulled back, blushing in spite of everything.
“Let’s go,” she breathed, sliding her hand into his.
He had half a mind to ask if she needed to put any of this away, but she seemed so unconcerned by it as she rushed past him and snagged her coat, shrugging it on and pulling her hair out of the collar, that he shut his mouth and ushered his mom out.
Sarah took only a moment to lock up and then they were in the elevator, running out of the building, climbing into his mom’s car, and speeding the rest of the way to the hospital.
——————
Sarah followed Chuck and his mom through the maze-like hospital and turned the corner, stopping a little at the sight.
The hallway was crowded with well-wishers who’d heard about Ellie Woodcomb’s momentous news. All of them were dressed in scrubs or wearing doctor’s coats.
They were patting an overwhelmed Devon on the back, grabbing his hand and shaking it vigorously, and then leaving to go back to work.
His blue eyes lifted to see his brother-in-law and mother-in-law walking towards him and he beamed.
Without either of them saying a single word, Sarah watched Chuck and Devon embrace the way she imagined brothers might. Devon thumped her boyfriend on the back a few times and pulled away, then let loose with that booming laugh. “Dude. Awesome. And terrifying. But awesome.”
Chuck just laughed and grabbed him by the biceps. “What are you doing out here, man? Get in there with Ellie.”
“Y-Yeah. I’m—Well, she actually, um, she kicked me out.” He switched his gaze to Mary and immediately moved around his brother-in-law to sweep her up in a tight hug. It was obviously not what she was expecting as she let out an awkward “Oh” and held onto his shoulders with a wide-eyed, confused look.
When he set her down again, he called her “Grandma” and the slight look of begrudging amusement fell to a stony look. It almost made Sarah laugh.
But then Devon had her wrapped up in a tight, strong hug. “Congratulations,” she said, her voice a little strangled since she couldn’t exactly breathe. She had to resist getting misty when he pulled away and exhaled softly, dragging a hand down his face.
“Hey, what do you mean Ellie kicked you out?” Chuck asked.
“Um…I was kind of…” He winced. “Spiraling.”
Chuck let out a laugh and shook his head. “Come on, man. What’s got you spiraling?”
“Besides my wife pushing a living breathing baby out of her womb? Um, and the fact that I forgot my Push-Mix at home? And the comfy little pillow thing I bought that you put behind her head to make giving labor easier? Yeah, that’s at home, too.”
Sarah watched as the younger of the two men put his hands on Devon’s shoulders, meeting his gaze solidly. “Awesome, you’re awesome. Remember? I don’t call you the captain of awesome for nothing. You don’t need music. You don’t need a dumb little pillow. Ellie definitely doesn’t need those things. Pull yourself together and get back in there. She needs you. Not Captain Spiraling. Captain Awesome.” He saluted the blonde with a military flourish and Sarah melted a bit.
“Yeah. Yeah, you’re right.” Devon’s features became steely and determined, and he stood up straighter, like an Olympic statue or something. Or maybe a superhero. Considering what she knew about Chuck’s brother-in-law, he was a bit of a superhero, wasn’t he? “Thanks, bro. I’ll see you all on the other side.”
He turned and walked away from them, meeting one of the delivery nurses at the swinging doors and letting her deck him out in his surgical gown, handing him a cap. Then they disappeared inside.
Sarah heard Mary let out a stressed huff of air, and as she watched the almost-grandmother out of the corner of her eye, she saw the worried slump in her shoulders.
“Ellie’s strong,” Chuck said, looking over his shoulder. “We’ll meet Clara soon, I have no doubt of it.”
“She’s a bad ass,” Sarah added, a little breathless. “Seriously.”
She spun on her heels when she heard footsteps rushing down the hallway. Morgan was practically a tornado, sprinting towards them. Sarah caught Stephen walking a safe distance behind him, shaking his head in amusement, holding a large bag of something, and…for the first time since she’d met him…ever…wearing jeans, a T-shirt, a sweatshirt, and a dusty old baseball cap. It was…kind of nice, seeing him like that.
“Is she okay? Is she alright? Am I late?” Morgan rushed. He grabbed Sarah’s arms, since she was closest to him. “Oh my God, I’m gonna be an uncle!”
Mary scoffed and rolled her eyes, though she seemed amused at the same time.
Chuck made a high pitched, doubtful “mmmmm” sound over Sarah’s shoulder that made her giggle.
“Morgan, she’s fine. She’s probably still in the contractions phase,” she explained, patting his shoulder.
“So I can’t hold Clara yet…is what you’re saying.”
“No, buddy. Not yet,” Chuck explained.
He sighed and stepped back, shoving his hands in his pockets. “Man. When Sarah called me, I was sure it meant she was already here. Clara, I mean. I left in the middle of an onion volcano.” His eyes widened. “Oh, crap. I need to call Jing and make sure my restaurant didn’t burn down!”
As he scurried off, he nearly ran into Stephen, but somehow managed to divert his trajectory into the wall. “I’M OKAY!” he bellowed as he pulled his cell out and scampered around the corner again.
“You can always count on Grimes to add levity into any situation,” Stephen said as he walked up to them and lifted the bag. “I bought a bunch of snacks, both healthy and unhealthy. If Eleanor’s anything like her mother, we might be here awhile.”
“I did not take that long,” his wife argued, smiling at him.
“Welllll…” His shrug looked a lot like the one she’d seen plenty of times from his son.
His wife smacked his shoulder.
Morgan chose that moment to come back around the corner. “It’s still standing! All is well!! And I only got a little bit of boiling oil on one of our customers. So we’re good.”
“Uhhhhh…” Sarah felt Chuck slide his arm around her shoulders. “Buddy, that’s not exactly…” He stopped when she elbowed him in the side. “Never mind.”
Just then, they heard, “Mr. Bartowski? Which one of you is Ellie’s father?”
They all turned as one to face the nurse who’d crept up on them. Everyone turned their heads to look at Stephen. “Uh, th-that’s me. I’m the dad. Well, no. The mom’s dad. The grandpa.” Sarah wondered if it was the first time he’d said it out loud, because he looked a little choked up for a second.
“Oh. Good. One person is allowed in the room with her—besides the husband. At least for right now. And she asked for you.”
There was an awkward silence then. And Sarah told herself not to look at Mary. Don’t look don’t look.
She looked. She couldn’t help it. Everyone had turned to face the older woman.
And she looked like she’d been kicked in the gut. But then she slid a mask over the hurt and raised her eyebrows, folding her hands together and looking away.
“Uh…alright. Yeah. I’m comin’.” He passed the bag of snacks to Morgan and thanked him, then slipped past his wife. Sarah spotted the way he put his hand on her shoulder, squeezing comfortingly. And then he disappeared with the nurse.
The uncomfortable silence continued for at least a minute, until Chuck spoke up. It was like someone had pulled a plug and his voice spilled out. “I just realized I haven’t had my coffee today. I’m getting a coffee. Anybody else want one?”
“I do.” She looked up at him.
“Great. Anybody else?” Mary didn’t even acknowledge he’d spoken and Morgan shook his head slowly. “Kay, here I go.”
“I’m coming, too.”
“Okay.”
And Chuck and Sarah strolled down the hallway as she slipped her hand into his, squeezing tightly the entire way until they stepped into the elevator and he pressed the button for the food court. When the doors shut, they both exhaled and Sarah slumped against his shoulder.
“She did it to herself.”
Sarah raised her eyebrow at him. He shrugged.
“It’s true. Hate to be harsh, but it’s true. My mom’s the leader of the smear campaign against Ellie’s husband slash the father of her child. She really expects Ellie to want her in there with her after these years of tension and disagreements? I’m sure Ellie’s thinking about the time my mom told her Devon wasn’t allowed in our family home. Well? Now my mom isn’t allowed in the delivery room. Bam.”
“Yeah.” Sarah paused. “I’m not exactly your mom’s biggest fan…” The doors opened and they stepped out into the hallway, moving towards the food court. “And she’s definitely not mine—”
“Nope! That’s my title.” He grinned toothily and she rolled her eyes good-naturedly.
“But I felt really awful for her up there. She looked like she’d been punched in the stomach. Did you see her face? She was really hurt.”
“I know.” He shrugged. “She needs to be nicer to people. She’s alienated her own daughter because of this paranoia about people using her children to get to our money. Ellie’s not even in the family business. Both Ellie and Devon have massive salaries as surgeons. Her issues with him are completely illogical.”
Sarah nodded as they got in line at the coffee shop in the corner of the food court. She didn’t voice it, but she couldn’t help thinking that while Ellie wasn’t a part of the family business, Chuck was. He was Stephen’s heir. And while Mary’s distrust of Devon was unfounded, it was less so as far as Sarah was concerned. She was the one faltering in getting her private investigation agency off the ground, dating a man who was worth more money than honestly any one person should be worth.
They each got the largest size of coffee, black, and she pushed in front of Chuck to pay. He made a sound of protest but she ignored him, exchanging a quick smile with the young barista.
As they stepped aside to wait for their drinks, Sarah grabbed a handful of sugar packets and subtly slipped them into her pocket. Chuck gave her a weird look. “What? We’re going to be here for awhile. I might need all of this sugar.”
He chuckled and gave her a one armed hug, kissing the top of her head. “I love you.”
“You better. …the shit I put up with,” she teased, and he chuckled again.
They got their coffees and moved to a corner table that was away from others, sitting across from one another and staying in comfortable silence for a few minutes, sipping their hot brew, people watching.
“You know what really gets me?” She lifted her gaze to his face as he squinted off to the side thoughtfully. “Devon was probably in there advocating for my mom to Ellie.”
Sarah smiled and nodded. “I’m sure he was.”
And then she watched closely as he lowered his gaze to his cup and furrowed his brow thoughtfully. “Sarah…?”
“What?” She tilted her head as his eyes swept back up to meet hers. And then she felt a spike of nerves at the way he bit his lip and let her see a half-wince. She knew the look well. He was definitely about to address something he thought she’d be less than enthused about. And if it was what she feared it might be about, he’d be right.
“I just want to…” He licked his lips and sighed. “This morning, there was still some…tension. Between us. From last night, I mean.”
A bit of a mask slid over her features and she caught herself. There were still things she had to teach herself. Like how not to immediately close up to avoid conflict. That specific reaction was her. It was how she dealt with things. It was what she was used to. But she didn’t try to pretend everything was fine or brush it off the way she might have months and months ago, in the very beginning. She was upfront and candid with him, instead. Honest. Open.
Because she trusted him with all of it. Everything.
“I know there was,” she said. “I’ll take some responsibility for that. I could feel last night that you really didn’t get what I was saying and you were just agreeing because you didn’t want a fight. And while I appreciated that because I also didn’t want to fight, I couldn’t get it out of my head this morning and it made things…” She sighed. “Tense.”
“Yeah.” He nodded, and he slowly slid his hand across the table towards hers. She reached out and met him halfway, their fingers intwined. “I honestly…I’m trying to understand and let it go. It’s something I’ll have to work at and kind of, I dunno…” He shrugged. “Remind myself, I guess?”
“I don’t get why it’s so hard for you to understand,” she said, leaning in and squeezing his fingers in hers. And she was genuinely confused. Why was it so difficult for him to let her do all of this on her own? Why was he so offended by her need to start her business without anyone else’s assistance?
Chuck huffed, nibbling his lip, looking troubled. She wanted to reach across the table and rub a finger over the wrinkles between his brow, iron them out, see that clear, happy look of his again. “I don’t know. I’m—I have this thing, maybe, that I feel like I need to help everyone. Ellie said I’m always trying to save the world. It sounds like a good trait, but it isn’t really. It’s…I don’t know what it is.” Before she could respond, he rushed on. “I’m sorry, Sarah. I am. I truly don’t mean to butt in so much.” He gently stroked his thumb over the back of her hand. “I just care. A lot. About you. About your dreams. About…all of this working out for you. Your happiness and success. And it just seems like such a simple thing, getting my people to help you make your website more accessible for potential clients, and, you know, marketing your services.”
“That’s just it, Chuck. It is a simple thing. It feels like I’m taking the easy way out.” Like she was too dependent. And being dependent was never a good thing. She’d learned that the hard way. Too many times. “I don’t want that feeling. I want to know this is all stuff I got for myself, on my own, that I get to a successful place through my own hard work,” she emphasized.
It didn’t occur to her to tell him why, because deep down, she wasn’t even sure why. Maybe it was all of the times she’d been burned when she’d relied on others for help. The only times she hadn’t been burned were when she allowed herself to take the reins, when she pushed others out and handled her life on her own. This wasn’t about Chuck, this was about her. This was about her needing to know that she was capable, yes, but more than that, she couldn’t let herself depend on others. She couldn’t let that be the narrative around her success again. Because the resulting fall had been catastrophic for her family and she just couldn’t let it happen again. She couldn’t let it ruin this.
But she couldn’t tell him that. She couldn’t find her voice. And so much was happening today that was important. His sister was having her baby. Nobody had time for this intense, deep conversation.
“I can get behind that, Sarah,” he said. “That’s one of the things I struggle with working for the family business. This wasn’t something I worked hard for. This is all my dad’s. It’s his legacy.” He huffed. “And it gets to me sometimes. So I understand your wanting to know you succeeded on your own, without help.”
“Chuck, it isn’t like you just sit around all day and milk B.E.C.’s money like a Hilton child or something. You work harder than anyone I know. I had to rescue you last night because you worked through the night before and you were falling asleep at your desk,” she argued, reaching over with her other hand and clasping it over both of their hands on the top of the table. “Sorry, I know that isn’t the point of what you were saying. I just…I don’t like the idea of you thinking you didn’t earn this, like you haven’t worked your ass off to be successful. A corporation is not an easy thing to maintain, Chuck.”
His eyes widened a little, and then he chuckled softly. She was warmed by the affection as his features softened. “Thanks for that. Didn’t realize I needed it until you said it.”
Sarah gave him a one shoulder shrug. “S’what I’m here for. Amongst other things,” she tacked on with a head tilt.
“I know. And I appreciate that. But I’m also here for you. And…” He took a deep breath. “And I understand if this particular area is not a thing you want me to be here for. I mean, I don’t—I don’t get why. But I guess I don’t need to…I mean, I don’t need to know the why to still be able to support your decision.”
She felt the slow smile stretch over her lips, and it was laced with a bit of a pout because that was easily the most supportive and thoughtful thing anybody had ever said to her.
“I’m sorry if I’m butting in or being pushy about this. I just love you. I care a lot. And I know I can help. But if you don’t want it…” He pulled his hand out of both of hers and held his arms up by his head in surrender. “I get that. I won’t push anymore. As long as you remember I’m here. When you need me.”
“I do need you,” she rushed out. She could still see he was hurt by her insistence he let her tackle her business alone, and she needed him not to take it personally. She needed to erase the hurt he was trying to hide behind that warm smile of his.
“C’mere,” she breathed, making grabby hands across the table until he gave her his hands. She took them and squeezed, making sure she had his full attention before she continued. “Chuck, I do need you. I need you for so many things on a daily basis. I’ve always needed you. Even when I was here working on your dad’s case—on your case—I would find myself at your office or at your condo at the end of a long day and…” She huffed, shaking her head. “I managed to convince everybody—even myself—that it was because I was doing protection detail, checking on you, making sure you were safe. And yeah, that was part of it. But it was mostly that I needed to end my days with…Well, with you.” She felt her cheeks redden, heat coming up from the collar of her blouse. But she kept going. “You made me feel good. About myself. About…life in general. It was just nice being reminded that someone like you exists in a world that can sometimes be full of hatred and greed and corruption. You’d make me laugh or you’d just…you’d look at me in ways nobody had ever looked at me before.”
Sarah shook herself a little and giggled. “I know it’s sappy but I also know you love sappy, so…”
He grinned and squeezed her hands. “My insides currently feel like sunshine.”
That made her laugh, shaking her head at him. “Sap.”
“You, too!” he accused.
“Yep. And I’ll fully own that right now.” She nodded emphatically. “And if I needed you then, you have to know, it’s gotten so much worse ever since. It’s not just that I need you for martinis, though that’s a big one.” He chuckled. “Anytime I make a misstep or I…fall on my face…” She rolled her eyes and huffed. “Which is going to happen a lot with this agency, I can just see it…I’m going to need your support.”
“You’ll have it. You know that,” he answered quickly and easily.
“I know,” she said. And she did know. “You give me confidence in so many things every day, Chuck Bartowski. In you. In us. In life. In myself. I need that. I will accept and cherish your help everywhere else. But in this, it has to be me. It’s very important to me that this is my achievement. If it ends up being an achievement and not a colossal failure,” she said with a wince.
“I get it. And I’m ten thousand percent ready to be here for you in whatever ways you need me to be. However, wherever, whenever, whatever. Whyever?” He made a face and she let out a bubbly giggle. “Not whomever, though.”
“No.” She shook her head in faux seriousness.
“I only really know how to be myself.”
“Okay, Chuck, I got it.”
“Yeeeeah.” He wrinkled his nose and they laughed together. “I’m glad we had this talk.”
“Me, too. And…And can we please continue to be open and honest with each other like this? And not do what we both did last night slash this morning? The tiptoeing and pretending there wasn’t tension in the room. It felt…”
“Gross?”
“Yes.”
“We absolutely can be open and honest with each other like this. Yes. Please. I’d prefer it.”
“Good.”
“Good,” he repeated, and then he leaned over the table towards her. She met him halfway, kissing him deeply, lifting a hand to the back of his head and taking her time tasting the coffee on his lips.
If they could both just keep to that promise, she knew they’d be all right. Everything would be all right.
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