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[bigboobyhalo]

biggest starhalo issue is sex for etoiles is PVP (badboyhalo avoids PVP with etoiles like the plague) and sex for badboyhalo is find the button (find the button makes etoiles want to kill himself)

[samble-moved]

i thought you guys were joking when you said the staff imply that people being "mean" in feedback is responsible for them being suicidal. are you serious. it was real. they left the comment up publicly??

[lovesby]

december blue early (SBY, december 2023)

[Text, in all caps: I kill myself via inaction and then find myself awake on a Saturday morning while snow falls unthinkingly to melt on the pavement outside and I look at my sweaty and god-given palms and wonder what a strange and terrible blessing it is to be alive.]

[librarycards]

have you read alexandre baril's "Suicidism: A new theoretical framework to conceptualize suicide from an anti-oppressive perspective"? it was a really powerful read for me as a suicidal person & the first (and tbh only) place I've seen someone discuss suicidal people as an oppressed group and not as people who need their autonomy taken away & any complaints they have abt treatment should be ignored

Haha indeed I have! Baril is a close colleague, coauthor, and former research advisor of mine. I helped him compile resources for that article while it was a WIP, so suffice it to say I’m very familiar. And yes, it’s a crucial intervention into a largely taboo part of disability / Mad discourse, and has been hugely influential on my thinking around disorderly eating too.

[switchcase]

I've been struggling with living day to day after being SA'd and finding reasons to live. How do you have the motivation for life and recovery after surviving so much?

I'll be very honest with you. The answer is primarily that killing yourself is incredibly difficult. Most suicide methods have a high rate of failure. And failure comes with a lot of side effects.

In lieu of that, my options are: 1) be miserable for whatever time I have left or 2) attempt to carve my own life out of the shit I've been handed. Of course, it's not as easy as this sentence makes it sound, and there are certainly times where I have been both miserable and trying at the same time or just miserable. Also, I personally find my symptoms to be largely annoying and exhausting, and I would rather not be annoyed and exhausted, so I find ways to manage my symptoms.

As far as meanings, you can find little meanings everywhere, but they are all specific to you. You can say for example that you want to live long enough to finish this book. Or live long enough to learn a new skill. Live long enough to see if going on this date will be fun. Etc. It doesn't have to be a grandiose or long lasting purpose, though it certainly can. It doesn't have to positive--I survived out of spite for a long while.

Community and friends can help but the kicker is that you have to actually care about them. If you hang around other people without caring about them, you will be frustrated and feel lonelier because they have their own feelings and will not just cater to you. I've watched people do this and no matter how many people they surround themselves with they are not happy because they're bouncing from person to person trying to get something from them that you can only get through actual human connection. And people can eventually tell when you don't care about them, and they will not want to be your friend.

Probably not the philosophically deep answer you were looking for, but I hope it helps. I hope it eases soon.

[dateamonster]

having watched nope, logan pauls tirade on twitter is sooo much funnier now. jordan peele rly said exploitation for the sake of spectacle will have you selling yours and other peoples trauma back to them in a neverending cycle until the day it kills you and logan "filmed a real dead body in a forest famous for suicides" paul was like

except additionally he had the AW DA CITY to claim that the movie painstakingly explaining this point to him was bad and didnt make any sense PLEASE BOY

[crimeronan]

[forgetting i went to bed with a migraine and probably woke up still having a migraine] i'm gonna break up with my entire polycule drive to the coast find a rip tide and let the cold january sea take me in its violent frothing jaws. there is no other way to solve any of my problems.

[saturnmortis]

I feel like people aren’t talking about this enough

[cannabisbutch]

Idk how to describe to able bodied ND people how fucking painful it is to see you stomp all over the cpunk community like this. The creator of cripplepunk was the first person i ever met w (one of) my disabilities, and the severness of said disabilities includinf the one we share led them to end their life. And to see y'all say that their principles of the movement THEY FUCKING CREATED are wrong is so violent i cant describe it. Fuck all of you

[eyeballcommander]

Hey remember when Bishop Percival dipped his hand in my wound and drank it? That was fun.

An-y-ways if any watchdogs-- especially soldiers-- give blood at the Glornists' blood drives I will kill you. This is not an empty threat.

If you gave blood before that bastard lapped up my blood you're fine I guess. Still an idiot who fueled their shady rituals for cookies or whatever. Can't really remove liabilities there without throwing myself out the airlock...

[dappersautismcreature]

if waystones are permanently disabled im killing myself

[bigboobyhalo]

from liveblogs it sounds like q!BBH did not just pass on the cannibalism to cellbit but also the whole “killing yourself for what you perceive to be the greater good” thing . he could not have had a worse mentor

[samble-moved]

god is a fourteen year old girl who committed a quasi altruistic suicide for all of magical-girlkind. her (angel?) secretaries are another fourteen year old girl who's also a mermaid and an elementary schooler who's really into cheese, who is known for decapitating another girl. god's girlfriend became the devil after being trapped for over a decade in a timeloop, and she likes lizards and teeth.

[meteorherd]

the canon in which sonic is king arthur is the same one where knuckles is so ashamed at not defeating sonic that he almost kills himself by the way. i love sonic lore

[librarycards]

for my upcoming newsletter, i was trying to find any sources at all discussing palestinians struggling with suicide - their own thoughts/attempts, those of loved ones, anything.

in response to my search query, i got western handwringing about suicide bombings; 'terrorism.'

there is no language on earth in which i can accurately articulate my disgust, rage, and horror. my shock. my lack of surprise.