#syspunk

[kaboom--bitch]

Treating your headmates like separate people isn't worsening your condition by default by the way. Treating them with respect isn't making you dissociate more. Final fusion is a fine thing to try and achieve, but people need to understand that functional multiplicity is a thing you can work to achieve in therapy too. Please stop pushing the idea that you need to treat your headmates like a disorder or curse in order to heal. You can be happily multiple if you want that.

[freezingcoldsystemtakes]

The only system is of a down

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[vixdesl]

"woah this post looks creepy who would like this??"

it's not for you

"this art piece makes no sense and is so ugly"

it's not for you

"this post is so weird I have never thought like that?"

it's not for you

"what they identify as an animal? no one does that?"

it's not for you

the world doesn't revolve around you

neither does the internet.

we exist, cringe culture is dead, fuck normality

[august-zip]

DID is more than just having parts. Its also,

• amnesia

• confusion

• headaches

• nausea

• repeated childhood trauma

• anxiety

• spikes in fear. Anger. Or shame

• mood swings from parts

• body dysphoria

• depersonalization

• derealization

• self puzzlement

• loss of control

• flashbacks

• dizziness

And more.

DID is not "friends in your head" its traumatic, scary and uncomfortable. Its not fun it's a terrifying TRAUMA BASED disorder. And it should never be romanticized - Vesper

[plurapony]

"omg you're a system!!! it just be so fun to have friends in your head!!!"

Yeah. They are my friends but you know what's really not fucking fun? Seeing how intelligent an alter is and how much they want to pursue their dream career but they can't because we share a body. Seeing how creative and talented alters are but we can't spend hours and hours drawing because we share a body and the body has to work. Seeing that an alter really wants to do something and we just don't have time, they say it's okay but we share a body and I know how they really feel.

Yeah I have friends in my head and I'm constantly letting them down because the things we all want aren't physically possible. Yeah that's really fun.

okay making an edit because this was months ago:

i was not mourning the fact someone can't do a career. this post was about feeling like a useless shitty fucking host that for some unknown reason needs to be the host of this system of genuinely incredible parts.

and yes, this is the least of my issues. there is so much fucking shit I go through bc of this disorder i don't talk about. but this is the internet and my blog. im allowed to vent.

(also this post originally was made at a time where part separation was hard/before we started did therapy. we didn't know much about our system back then)

[syscultureis]

System with imposter syndrome culture is what if I'm just not a systems and am just gender fluid and sexuality fluid and Fictionkin and really indecisive, with a really bad memory instead of being a system

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[grusgammamonn]

has this been done before

[three-racoons-in-a-trenchcoat]

GOOD LUCK WITH THAT- I ONLY HAVE TWO THINGS TO MY FRIGGIN NAME AND THATS POCKET LINT AND A QUARTER

To all male alters trapped in a female body and wonderibg where their thinglaling went. It was me. I ate it :3

tasted like beef jerky btw

[cassiopeacollective]

"You need to listen to the little voice in your head"

No I will not because one is telling me to fuck off, an other one wants me to jump out of the car and the third one wants to eat grass.

[horrorcrew-diary]

*remembers something from our childhood I had forgotten about*

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[poet-guy]

The future should not be plural.

The future should accommodate for those with dissociative disorders.

The future should have further more thorough research in dissociative disorders.

The future should be more accepting of dissociative disorders.

BUT

The future should not be plural.

That means children are getting repeatedly traumatised at an impressionable age.

That means children don't have healthy coping mechanisms.

That means children AREN'T SAFE.

The future should not be plural, but it should be respectful and accepting to those who are.

[sophieinwonderland]

I don't know the full extent of the drama that happened yesterday... So I'm just going to react to Rottingsys's posts.

OH? They're old enough to know that people can get harassed when you mention their name in a post???

Gee! Maybe the person making a "toxic system blacklist" should have been aware of that?

Just to be clear, your standards here are "it's fine if we name your blog and put it on a list of bad people with false accusations about you, but you're the bad guy if you try to correct those false accusations, even when specifically telling people not to harass the ones spreading the lies about you!"

That's a truly wild standard you got there!

Also, littles aren't literally children!

I mean, if you're a minor, yours are... But minor-identifying alters in adult bodies are still adults. They have all the legal rights of adults. They have the hormones and body parts of adults when they front!

Like, if you're 17, do you understand that there are DID systems in their 40s? Do you understand that a 5-year-old "little" in a 40-year-old system, that formed when the body was 5, has lived more than twice as long as your entire body???

You have "littles" right now. Maybe yours aren't interested in anything sexual yet. Maybe they won't ever be! And if they aren't, that's fine for your system! But do you know if this will still be true when you're 30? When you're 40? 60?

Should they be cut off from that part of your system's life just because of the age they internally identify as? Is it moral to? Is it healthy to?

Keep in mind that a big part of recovery for DID systems is tearing down dissociative barriers! That's going to mean that the more you go to therapy, the more you connect with other members of your system, the less separation there is between the memories and emotions of alters. And the more likely minor-identifying headmates might end up taking interest in that part of your life.

And in some systems, the host is a minor-identifying headmate! Do you believe that they should not be allowed sex because of the age the host internally identifies???

Bodily age being all that matters is something everyone agrees going the other way too! A minor with an adult-identifying headmate is still a minor.

But if that's the standard, you can't have it both ways where the body matters for minors but the inner-age matters for adult-bodied systems.

For all these reasons and more, let's shout this from the rooftops:

Littles should not be treated as actual children!

I cannot overstate the harm that your ideology can cause other systems!

But... you DID in an earlier post. See below:

And frankly, calling them a predator really isn't any better.

YOU'RE SEVENTEEN!

You're old enough drive! To get a job! You can get married in most states! You are MONTHS away from legally being an adult!

Don't make a bunch of false accusations about people, and then try to pull this "but I'm just a poou widdle baby" nonsense when you get blowback!

You are going to be an adult very soon.

Start acting like it and grow some backbone!

[freezingcoldsystemtakes]

How many systems does it take to change a lightbulb? well,, NONE!!! ytheir too busy. their origibs

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[sparkssystem]

Abandoned

The first time I opened my eyes, I was alone and starving. I saw other pokemon hunting and getting food and I ate what they left behind. When I was confident enough in what I'd learned from watching, I started hunting myself. I remember the first time I saw another shinx. Before that, my life seemed normal, like this must've been how everyone started out. But when I saw those shinx, about my size, all playing together as what seemed to be their parent brought them food, I realized I was different. Their fur was blue, mine was yellow.

I tried to find a yellow shinx, or a yellow luxray, where I must have come from, but I never found anyone that looked like me. Unfortunately for me, my search brought me up a mountain where a staraptor was looking for their next meal. I ran as fast as I could, I got swiped at a bunch, I tumbled down the cliff. I should have died, but I happened to land in front of a human, who scared the staraptor off and took me back to his village with him.

After I was healed enough, he brought out his other pokemon. It was scary at first, but they were able to explain what was going on, and answer my lifelong question. The reason I couldn't find my family of yellow shinx is because they didn't exist. I was abandoned because I was different. The humans understand why I was yellow, but my family must've thought I was sick. I'd be cared for here. So I stayed. There were some weird things about my human compared to the other humans there, but I was weird too, we got along really well. He and the other pokemon he had were like a family. 

Eventually I had evolution explained to me, and I was asked if I was excited to evolve. I didn't want to. I was thrown out by my pack because of how I looked, they probably assumed I was too weak to survive. But I did survive and found a new family that liked how I looked. I didn't want to evolve out of spite for being abandoned, but also appreciation that everyone I knew now said I could do anything. I was going to do everything as the weak shinx that was left to die, because I could.

Fast forward a year, and I helped my new family save the world, complete the journal of information on every pokemon, and even defeat the god of all pokemon, Arceus! I had it all, everything I could have ever dreamed of! I was strong, I was a hero, I had the best family and the most amazing human.

And then suddenly…I lost everything. My human disappeared. A few days after our battle with Arceus, he just vanished. He seemed off after the battle, none of us knew why, and then he was gone. We waited. Some pokemon went out to look for him, they came back after a while. We waited. A few decided they would be off with other humans, that they could still be of use. The others followed on their own time. I waited. Some humans came into the house I was now alone in and gave me food. I waited. He never came back. I waited.

Now, I'm here. Next life. Where I'm a fictional character from a fictional game. Now I'm here and I know why he disappeared. He was weird compared to other humans because he wasn't from that era and Arceus sent him home. Maybe he tried to tell me and I didn't understand. Did he really have to go? Why couldn't he have stayed? Why did I have to be abandoned again? Why would Arceus do that to me? I waited.

[miskio]

If you grew up constantly apologizing and then apologizing for apologizing and you were/are afraid (or unable) to express your emotions and feelings because it was seen as “manipulative”, or for any reason, I love you and I hope you’re having a good day