[ HMS. WHAT DO YOU THINK THEIR FEAR ALIGNMENT IS. -👁️ ]
i might break this down into 3 separate posts to get my thoughts together; so here's Heart's.
Heart -
Eye. Unironically. And that's not a joke about his blindness, though the blindness is apart of it.
Heart would be scared of being watched, since he wouldn't be able to see who or where, but he'd also be afraid of being judged. He's emotional, and he doesn't always have everything under control, he's afraid Soul or Mind would judge him for that.
Even moreso because he knows Mind is judging him constantly.
On the topic of knowing, he'd definitely be afraid of not knowing that he's being judged or otherwise criticized. He can feel when someone's looking at him, sure, but he can't feel if they're talking about him where he can't hear. It's a constant worry of his, one that also fuels his frustration and stress and therefore emotional instability to a degree.
He tries to keep himself together, and yet even when he's doing his best, he's terrified that the others are still judging him, watching and waiting for a slip up so they can criticize him for it. Because the fact of the matter is that, no matter what it is, be it an angry outburst or a breakdown or even if he's just happy, he knows that one of the others will be just waiting for him to slip up. Even if he could see, that fear would still be there, if not amplified because he'd be able to see their expressions and tell just what they're thinking about him.
take the ending of Good Day for reference.
Fine I'll play the happy version
Free from sadness and perversion
Eyes be blocked from devastation
All to see is self-elation
Birds and bees and television
Cardboard boxes, x-ray vision
You don't want to see the truth
What's convenient will do
Telephones and silly games
Periods and lots and lots of question marks
Oh no
if you think about it, it could be taken as Heart putting up a facade of happiness and being fine, a "sunshine and rainbows" illusion to keep the others for judging him for not being the most stable,
("Fine I'll play the happy version
Free from sadness and perversion
Eyes be blocked from devastation
All to see is self-elation")
but he quickly realizes that it's pointless, not only because it hurts him, but because they're still going to be judging him. no matter what he does to try and avoid it. sure, him pretending to be happy is convenient for them, because they'll probably view it as less stress on "Whole". but it still changes nothing, and it's a painful reality that he doesn't know how to accept without just becoming overwhelmingly frustrated about it all, and so the cycle repeats.
If you could relive any of your memories, which would it be?
Mock prom, December 2022. Dancing with our partner, by the door. The room seemed to fall away as we looked into each other’s eyes, the world become nothing but the two of us, our spot on the gym room floor where we stood, and the stars surrounding us. The moment I think we fell in love.
[ID: A captioned Tiktok by @nextdreadpirate. A comment in the middle of the screen says, "Always tip the maid" as a skinny white man trots into the middle of the screen. He's wearing a frilly maid's dress and cap and holding a notebook and pen. The comment disappears as he says, "Hi! Welcome to the maid cafe where we're-" He turns to the right, does the nya hand gesture with each hand, then kicks up a heel, showing off a black pump. "-cuter than kittens!" He finishes, then drops the pose and turns back to face the camera, shuffling a bit closer and leaning in as he talks. "I'm the diversity hire, Bryson. Are you here for the gamer discount?"
A door opens in the background, and Bryson stands up and turns to the left, holding out a warning hand. "Okay, I can explain," he says to people offscreen, starting to laugh. Someone laughingly says, "Oh my god," and another person starts laughing as the video ends. End ID]
Drawn in Photoshop, animated in Spine Pro. The final art piece I made for my bachelor thesis on GIF as a medium for art.
I've been researching digital art in the context of modern folk art, outside institutional or commercial art. I analysed almost 500 art GIFs across Tumblr, Artstation and GIPHY.
There's almost no academic research on art GIFs, so it was important to me to examine and document it. I also examined the optimisation of GIFs and how it relates to web sustainability.
And because the bachelor program was focused on art practice, I then created my own art GIFs, and it seemed only right that I should do it through fanart of something I've been really into lately. Thanks @samreich and the rest of Dropout for giving me some unhinged content as inspiration. Watch 'Game Changer' everyone, it's great.
i watched one episode of death note and this show is soooo funny for opening on skull demon guys and youre like oh shit its the evil freaks and then theyre just like chilling playing cards. and then you meet your mild mannered middle schooler boy protag and hes like i want to kill everyone forever
Learning to internalize the message above, but art is in all of our bones. If you feel afraid to create art because it won't be "good enough," it's worth it to explore why you feel that fear. Creating art is one of the basic impulses of people, and if you want to create art, then you absolutely must.