#that Ill never be able to fill

[wolfsnake]

Feeling homesick for a country Ive never been too

[blooming-cecilia]

5 am feeling emotional over venti out of nowhere thinking about how good and kind and loving and full of hope he is and how every action of his expresses that and how he always encourages peace and love and happiness and it sounds cheesy as shit but dear god i would not have him any other way and i am so glad and happy he is the way he is and he brings me hope and happiness and makes me feel at ease and looking at him makes me feel like everything is okay and im actually literally close to tears and i love him very much

[piploopsy]

boom. angry demon. wrath.

[kuruk]

I can save and use csp normally now but sadly I've literally jusr made peace with the fact that it would all be erased as it's actually a bit ugly and I actually feel that not being able to save might have been beneficial to my growth as one of my biggest problems preventing me from improving my art is that I get too attached to everything and I don't like changing things so every mediocre sketch I do I have to keep it that way instead of erasing and trying a new pose or composition or whatever and if I donr like it enough to do anything with I just have to make a new layer on top of it and hide the old one because I can't bear to part with it but then I get overwhelmed by how many layers of sketches I have hidden while I'm trying to draw and also it forces me to only draw more mediocre sketches because my real drawings have to be separate from files with multiple layers because I hate layers it's too much I can't stand looking at a file with layers so I save and then make a new canvas and then I do that all over again without committing to a real drawing becayse of my sentimwntal soul. or something.

[seariii]

I love when pretty people are gay about their fictional blorbos, please keep filling my dash with your love for them <3 we're in the same boat

[tamagotchikgs]

looking at the scar on my arm everyday feels like a reminder im never going to be ok, im never going to be human i ruined it after all the years i held myself back i finally severed the line i had at any chance of one day belonging

[toastsnaffler]

everyone say thank u to my roommate for going to visit her parents this weekend so I can jack it loud and nasty 🙏

[spiltcandycoatedpunkblood]

i forgot how much abandonment and loneliness has affected me and then i watch doctor who videos where the doctor talks about losing people and getting tired and losing his mind and then i'm reminded of the fresh trauma of the last few years and then i want to fucking sob my eyes out

[pigeonwhumps]

Questions

BBU Community Days: Day 2

@bbu-on-the-side

So one aspect about the BBU I've thought about a bit but would love some other opinions on is second languages. Specifically for pets.

So like, would they be conditioned into forgetting they can speak it, somehow? Certainly reading/writing it I imagine working the same way conditioning does to stop them reading/writing their first language, but what about speaking? What if, as in my OC Lea's case, the handlers don't know they speak another language? Do they forget they can, but are still able to? Alternatively, do they forget the language entirely, or do they know they can speak it? Or do WRU (or other companies) use those pets, train pets that offer translation services?

I think they'd want to replace people sign languages with a simpler sign language designed for pets, as well as definitely keeping lip-reading to make things easier, but for other languages... how would it work? I mean, I can't imagine a lot of owners liking their pet speaking a language they can't, right? What if their pet insults them *gasp*? Can't have the... uh... good name of WRU being damaged, now, can we?

So, yeah. Second languages! Languages in general! How would they work for pets?

[not-poignant]

I just opened utb to read the latest chapter and saw your notes- before I go any further I wanted to say I’m sorry to hear about your latest medical news. I know you’ve been living with these kind of conditions for a while but I’m sure it’s still difficult and I hope you can find some respite between things. If it’s any comfort, your writing always brings me a lot of joy x

Hi anon,

Thank you so much <3

Unfortunately it never gets easier, and a lot of the time it gets harder. I've gone onto 3 new prescription medications this year, putting me up to about 9-10 daily prescription medicines (not including supplements). They don't always play nice with each other, and it's tough kind of balancing it all.

I'm also just tired of seeing specialists and paying for them. Australia has some socialised welfare, but then otherwise it's all full price and I have no medical insurance (a lot of people here don't, because workplaces don't offer it, and it's not standard). In some cases, I have to choose to see a specialist privately and pay $350 for an appointment, so that I'm not waiting 6-9 months to see a specialist for something urgent, and get the scans publicly, which means the scans and tests are free. And while I'm lucky to have that, I've had to see a lot of specialists this year, and I'm like...the most financially broke I've been in over a decade, and it's not about to end any time soon. :(

Next year, among other things, I'll have to see a pulmonary/lung specialist and attend a respiratory clinic, and I'll be finding out if I have pulmonary hypertension on top of COPD (which I was diagnosed with this week). I need to still get head/neck MRIs for my tumours. Blood tests on a regular basis. I need an iron infusion because I'm anemic again. I need a knee MRI. I need a triphasic hepatic CT scan. My doctor doesn't want to give me many more tests with radiation because I've had 6 weeks of head/neck radiotherapy in the past, as well as multiple PET, CT scans and X-rays, and I'm very much at the 'the tests we're giving you will give you cancer' stage.

But anyway, not only is it difficult, it becomes more and more difficult the more illnesses there are. I've been diagnosed with two more progressive and incurable diseases on top of everything else this week, and have to get a scan to rule out possible liver cancer (I'm hoping it's not that, but my head/neck tumours can metastasise at any point, so it...could be that).

2022 has been an extremely unkind year, and at this rate, 2023 isn't shaping up to be any kinder. :(

I'm glad I can do the writing, but actually, this month I am not really pressuring myself to write at all, and haven't written anything yet. Y'all are just really lucky that I wrote some chapters in advance and can keep up a steady pace for December. But I have nothing for January, lol. x.x

[moonstandardtime]

love my digital art class but god it is filling me with rage and hatred for adobe.

[treypug]

💊

[please-bequiet]

My hyperfixations really just repeatedly have me in a state of "could you imagine if you someone loved and cared about you very deeply"

[locus]

just remembered i had this dream the other night where i was like. hangin out with some of the rta/h guys and i was like “sorry i havent watched any of ur videos in like 2 years” and they were like “thats okay man.”

[truexman]

you know what makes me still so undeniably angry?

We got Makoto Tsukauchi and her lie detector quirk. Confirmed. Shown to be using it in vigilantes. they even give her a little backstory and everything. We got AFO alluding to taking a truth quirk from one of Nao's ancestors/family members years and years prior

we still have not gotten an official quirk for Nao

[nfnfnfnfndnfkfjfndksjsndnxjsojsn]

i feel like more people need to realize we are all share the same sky and none of us are truly ever alone