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thenixkat · 1 year
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Anyway, if you aren’t Black don’t use any variation of woke. I don’t care what conservatives are calling fuckers/using as the new sjw/political correctness/what have you.
If you know what fuckers mean use what they mean, and if you don’t why are you copying what people are saying?
Woke ain’t for you. If the discussion isn’t about Black people being aware of and/or educating other Black people about racism/antiblackness/structural inequality/all the other bullshit then it doesn’t need to be used in the discussion.
#nix meows#aave#woke#aave misuse#apparently that one post i made where i directly mentioned how i don't wanna see boogleech no more showed up in his tags#which is generally how tumblr's search function works; if a word in there it shows up#anyway i do wish a motherfucker would learn to take a hint that i do not wish to continue a conversation#cause all i'm getting is excuses about how he's just paraphrasing so its fine#that other people don't have an issue and not 'to shoot the messenger#my wigga i was forced to see the word 'wokeist' (yall know i can't spell) on a post from someone i know is white#who's posts show up everyfucking where in the corner of tumblr i generally operate in#why would i give a damn what the rest of the post was about when a wigga shouldn't be using words like that period#aint no fucking changing my mind#ya ruined my night and i don't wanna see ya#i aint ask nobody to block you or some shit like that#i personally don't wanna get microaggressed on my own damn dash cause my white mutuals (who mean well but dont all ways catch shit)#decided to reblog it untagged#like yeah its pretty easy to drop a bitch i only occasionally interacted with over the course of a few years over#it just on the innitial 'it's not an issue' dismissal#told me everything i needed to know#bogleech#may as well actually tag them cause I've been feeling a lot less charitible given how they handled shit and kept trying to shut me up#plus they're a vote blue no matter who fucker like genocide joe is harm reduction
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mbti-notes · 6 months
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Anon wrote: Hi, I want to ask for perspective on my working method as I've been getting complaints about my "behaviors". I'm an XXTJ. A doctor, confident in his expertise with great experience. I'm respected for my competency. I work in a big hospital where I'm well paid by the patients that want my service. This job is suitable for me because I can be professional without bringing up personal life. Being a senior doctor, I see myself as someone who has well-established working method and ethics.
But when I told my nurse so, she refuted, which took me by surprise & ruffled my feathers. She said that I was good as a health worker but bad as a doctor! Going further she explained that my way of never explaining anything to the patients whenever I give patients prescription is condescending, evoking insecurity & worries to them.
She went further by saying that some patients who had to visit my room said I was their last choice as they were afraid of me, & even reminded me of those who stopped using my service half-way to shift to another doctor who was better at “soothing them”. She dared to compare me with other potentially more incompetent doctors that could be only a “better” doctor due to her subjective, personal feelings ‘fueled’ judgments. “Some explanations should be fine, but you didn’t even bother” - she said.
Why would I have to explain about medicine to people who have zero knowledge on that? Wouldn’t their further questions be stupid irrational insecurities that they would project onto the ask? Why do I have to deal with that? They can’t heal themselves, so they find me. What you don’t know, you listen to authorities. I know what I’m doing, so listen to me. Don’t want to, don’t use my services. This has worked since I’ve been a doctor. I feel personally attacked because a nurse who doesn’t have expertise on medicine dares to comment on my ethics, her status doesn’t grant her authority to say that freely.
[addendum] I feel personally attacked because a nurse who doesn’t have expertise on medicine dares to comment on my ethics, her status doesn’t grant her authority to say that freely. But then, as she dared to comment on my pride, I went further by asking colleagues I respect about my method to prove her wrong. Disappointingly, some gave similar comments with the nurse. What would explaining things patients don't understand contribute to my working life, be It either productivity or moral obligations? Thank you.
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I get more questions than I have time to answer, so I have to be selective, and I usually reject ones like yours. Among the many factors I examine to determine whether it is worth my time to respond, one of the most important is the person has to display a genuine motivation to realize more of their positive potential.
You not only don't display such motivation, you seem to be actively searching for excuses to avoid change. You even brag about doing the same thing for years, without realizing that it actually indicates an unhealthy resistance to improvement and progress.
Against my better judgment, I chose to respond, not because I believe it will benefit you, but because I feel for the people around you. If there is even a small chance that something I say can lead you to reduce the suffering/harm done to the people who experience your "behavior", my ethics requires me to take the chance.
One of the best ways to get the "perspective" you are after is to actively make the effort to see yourself through the eyes of others, by being open to their feedback and criticism. The nurse has helpfully provided some perspective for you without getting very nasty about it, but you have chosen to discredit her in a childish act of shooting the messenger, just because your feelings got hurt. If I end up agreeing with her, will you shoot me as well?
It seems the main issue underlying your predicament is you suffer from extremely low self-awareness. An important aspect of self-awareness is being able to perceive and evaluate yourself accurately and objectively. The feedback you have received, now from multiple people in agreement about the facts, indicates that there is a huge discrepancy between how you see yourself and how others see you. This is almost always a sign of a deeper psychological issue.
The degree to which you lack self-awareness is troubling because it is akin to blindness. You live in your own little bubble of distorted reality and your self-concept is built upon false/problematic beliefs. In this aspect, I do feel for you, because I know it is painful to be blindsided and experience a break in the protective bubble you have carefully curated for yourself. I think the evidence speaks for itself, if you can manage to be objective about it:
You believe you do no wrong despite the fact that you have to rationalize away a pattern of patients literally fleeing from you.
You believe you are competent despite the fact that you have no understanding of the mental health of your patients and the major impact it has on the maintenance of their physical health.
You believe you are ethical despite the fact that you celebrate a cold and detached attitude that discourages patients from fully entrusting themselves to your "care".
You believe you "keep the personal to yourself" without fail despite the fact that your personality flaws are obvious to many people and produce negative social consequences.
You believe the nurse is being "subjective" despite the fact that, in a classic case of projection, you are the one who has repeatedly exhibited a refusal to acknowledge any perspective but your own.
You believe the nurse is only speaking from "feelings" despite the fact that she is relaying actual details of what has transpired among your patients.
You believe the nurse is unqualified to speak despite the fact that her job places her in an excellent position to objectively observe and understand your relationship with your patients.
You believe the nurse doesn't know anything despite the fact that the manner in which you reacted to being criticized only proved that every word of her critique is true - a testament to her people-reading skills.
You believe you have integrity despite the fact that you harbor biases and prejudices against people based on outdated notions of social superiority. The condescending manner in which you speak about your patients and especially about the nurse, who is your colleague and your equal as a fellow human being, should evoke moral revulsion in anyone with a proper moral conscience.
If you don't know your exact type, the first thing you ought to do is figure it out before contacting me, otherwise, you might have trouble understanding what I say about function development. You exhibit many of the common manifestations of unhealthy Te-Fi including:
insensitivity
egotism
small-mindedness
arrogance
pridefulness
condescension
pompousness
willful ignorance about the experiences of others (that deters anyone from speaking the truth and bursting one's bubble)
The remedy to Te-Fi misuse requires self-development. Restore proper balance between the functions through learning how to use them more appropriately. In your case, there should be a particular focus on learning and nurturing genuine humility, objectivity, empathy, and compassion. Consult previous posts about these development issues in TJs.
Ideally, medicine is supposed to be a noble helping profession, but reality tends to fall short of the ideal. Unfortunately, because of its imperfect reward system, the field sometimes attracts the wrong kinds of people, i.e., people who don't actually possess a strong motivation to be of help and service to others. I don't believe you are a terrible or evil person. I believe that you believe you have done your best to be a good doctor. However, you seem to be lacking the one fundamental quality that all members of a helping profession should possess: empathy. It is unclear as to why you lack empathy. This is something you need to reflect on and figure out for the sake of your own personal growth.
Reeducate yourself about what it means to be a good doctor. Your idea of what makes a good doctor is remarkably narrow and self-serving in only including your own perceived strengths yet conveniently excluding everything related to the personality weaknesses you don't want to acknowledge, especially with regard to Fi. You glorify the idea of core competency when it is really just the basic/minimal requirement of the profession. A truly "good" doctor must meet many more criteria than that.
Like many people with ego development issues, you conflate the two separate and distinct concepts of "smart" (i.e. knowledge) versus "good" (i.e. values), which means you don't really understand what it means to be moral or ethical. To be a moral person is, first and foremost, to CARE. Care arises from a willingness to feel and an openness to understanding how people feel. But you treat feelings as a burden and something to be avoided, even derided, because you really only care about benefiting yourself. In the absence of care, your own desires will always conflict with others', which renders you incapable of fully understanding what another person needs for health and well-being. Until you can remedy this, perhaps you are better suited to positions in the medical field that don't require you to interact with vulnerable people on a regular basis, i.e., positions that make good use of your intellectual skills but do not require good people skills as well.
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notanastrologer · 10 months
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Hi again!
Quick warning:
Your Future spouse has a LOT to say...
I'm here for the future spouse reading.
I'll place my tarot reading about your future spouse here
Future spouse description:
Warning: Some NSFW (Don't shoot the messenger)
Ace of swords reversed, Nine of cups reversed, Devil reversed, Hierophant
First thing came into my mind is: mentally chaotic. Nicer way of saying it: quite eccentric. They have a peculiar way of doing things and they're quite unyielding to outside opinion when opinion came from random strangers. But if it's from people they're close with, then they may still be a bit stubborn but eventually they'll consider other ways of doing things.
I've also noticed how they felt like the world is always against them so they felt unlovable and unwanted. They feel like people only approach them for their resources. (might be monetarily loaded). So, this person may have trust issues and tend to keep people at a safe distance. I'm hearing "you can't hurt and use me if you can't even get near me." this is so sad! I feel like your future spouse feels rather hopeless that you'll even want to be with him when you two finally meet.
I also pick up something about recovering from an addiction, could be smoking or addicted to their job. To numb the emptiness in their heart, they fill the void with material possessions and big career achievements. I seriously get the vibes of like a workaholic CEO that gave up on love so he just puts all his focus on getting the bag. Seriously!! Why is this giving me Grumpy Closed off CEO from a Smut literature vibes.
(side note : you might actually be into reading spicy literature ; no shame, because they seriously give me "Written by Female spicy literature Author" vibes. I'll do my best to keep it PG going forward.
Seriously, when I saw the Hierophant, I'm was, "Future Husbando is a traditional provider alpha male". I'm like, in terms of work ethic and his beliefs, he believes that he should work hard and bring the bacon home so that his Future spouse (YOU) don't have to worry about the money. He just wants to provide for you, both in SFW, especially in NSFW aspects of life.
But seriously, Miss Ma'am, your Future spouse has this "Aim to Please" only towards you. But he has a "TRY if me, if you wanna die" vibe towards the rest of the world. Seriously, I'm trying to be PG here!!! SIR!!! Tone down the hormones, I GET IT! You have breeding Kink!! There!! I TOLD YOUR FUTURE SPOUSE (YOU) THAT NOW. SHEEESH...
Seriously, I worry that your future spouse might be into having lots of kids with you/ and/or they just are unable to keep there big hands off of you. Giving me, "Whipped for my Wife" vibes even though people they work with would be terrified to even be in the same elevator as your future spouse.
So word of the wise: always bring protection.
Now that the tea has been spilt. On to the next part...
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Marriage life:
Temperance, Three of cups, Eight of wands reversed, Moon, Ace of cups reversed
First word came to mind: harmonious.
It's like you both know how to have a balanced give and take. If one is sick, the other picks up what needs to be done and doesn't complain. It's like it's automatic for you to just work seamlessly. Even with this agreements, you two may butt heads but it's both of you VS the problem, never about you vs him.
Also giving me friends to lovers vibe. Like you may be a part of the same community or you moved somewhere and became a part of your future spouse's community. Happiness of both parties will always be each other's priority. You don't hold each other back, whether career wise or personal development.
There are moments where you or your future spouse feel like you two make decisions either on a state of panic or anxiety, or you or your future spouse feel like you both are slow to decide like for example, when are you guys having kids?
Your dynamics as a married couple feel like it was divinely orchestrated because you both struggle to believe that what did anyone of you did that you deserve this level of happiness. It's like you both can't believe how amazing the others person is. Like, it's giving, "Did I save the world in my past life? What did I do to deserve to be married to such an amazing human being? Is this person even human? Is this real?? Am I dreaming? If so, I will not hesitate to torture the MFkr who dared separate me from my Future Spouse." seriously, your dynamics are so freaking precious!!
Ace of cups reversed is what it be like if they lost you.
It's giving me, "What's the point of living without my Future spouse?!" seriously giving me, "Not even rehab and can save me from this pain." seriously!!! The devotion of your future spouse!!! You two are seriously so freaking precious!!!! Put a ring on that person quickly!!
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How you'll meet:
Queen of Wands, Judgement, World, Magician
This is giving me, assertive approach vibes. Like your future spouse is a go getter. So he might come onto you a bit too strong but that's just because your future spouse is that sure about you. It's also giving me, "I manifested future spouse (YOU) into my life." awwwwww!!! This person is literally wishing for you!!! Like future spouse was going through an awakening of sorts because he intuitively knows the world conspires to bring you together.
This whole segment is shrouded in myself because the cards are basically saying, "We don't wanna ruin the surprise for you." and I hear little children giggling as if they know something you dont.
Last words from this segment: YOU are meant to be surprised by how the universe works to bribg you closer together.
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Dating dynamics
Eight of cups reversed, Fool, 10 of coins reversed, Seven of cups, Ace of wands reversed
Okaaaaaay now this is interesting. Someone is stubborn on needing to walk away from something/someone toxic. Just because they stuck around, that don't mean they good for any of you two. So it can be you or your future spouse. Either one of you are reluctant to change. High chance it's your future spouse. Remember when I mentioned he is hopeless? Yup, that stubborn ass is dead set of being, "I'm too negative for her. I'm too much for her. So that means, I'll hurt her less if we didn't start dating. It's better this way. Because I might hurt her more if we actually took the next step."
Seriously, your future spouse is pessimistic when he first meets you. Like he knows you're his future spouse during first meeting, but he's also feels unworthy of you. So you guys might not start dating immediately. Lack of self worth hidden behind successful career persona. Again, giving me GRUMPY SEXY CEO vibes.
But here's the cute turn of events, in his head, he's like, "I don't deserve her(YOU)" but he's behaving like lovestruck teenager. My god, hold this big baby in your arms! Your future spouse is in desperate need of a genuine love and affection. Seriously! I honestly think that people that came before you just approach your future spouse for his looks, money and success. So he doesn't know how to behave accordingly around you.
Now the actual cute thing once you're dating.
Since he feels that how he currently will be at that time of finally deciding of dating you, your future spouse is like, "I need to be someone the need and deserve. So I have to start working on myself. For my future spouse (YOU). Because they feel you are surrounded by alot of other suitors!! Which tends to make them feel not enough for you. Seriously put a ring on this big soft floof!!
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Channeled message cards
Hangman, Chariot Reversed, Five of coins reversed, Three of swords, Seven of swords reversed, Sun, Seven of coins, Wheel of Fortune Reversed, King of Coins
Okaaaaaay not comes the juicy part.
Currently, they feel stagnant. Like they think their plans are not going as they should. Seriously giving me career crisis. Specifically, it's like recovering from some recent financial loss. So yeahhhhhhhh, I honestly don't sense any romantic attachments. More like, people around him want him but he dgaf. Basically, he only got money on his mind right now.
The loss was really heartbreaking for him but it was a hard lesson for him that he will greatly learn from.
There are moments before he falls asleep where he lets himself entertain the idea of you. Like what are you like, how will you meet, will you accept him as he is, etc. But he will never admit it to another living soul. But he dreams about a life with you, that's for sure.
He feels bad about being so focused on money and not doing anything to find you. Like it's like a push and pull. He gets the bag because he doesn't have you. But he wants you yet he doesn't do anything because he feels hopeless. To the point that your future spouse feels the only way he will meet you is in your dreams. Dammmnnn this misunderstood floof!!
His hard work is slowly but surely paying off. Because all he wants to do right now is to prepare in providing a financially free married life with you.
Until then, he'll be this cutthroat unfuckwithable Grumpy CEO that no one would dare mess with.
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Fun fact about future spouse : Knight of coins reversed
I find this funny rather than fun. It's like, he is working his ass off currently. Bloody knuckles, sweating abs and all that sexy ass, so that you both can just live a life of financial freedom. Basically, work till you break now and by lazy with future waifu (YOU) later. So cute!
Bottom of deck energy : Empress reversed
Basically, he's feeling empty and listless. Like a workaholic zombie, without you in his life.
That concludes my reading!!!
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Now for my charts
This is my emoji: 🐆
My natal chart:
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And finally my Groom Persona chart:
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Thank you for letting me read you!! This was fun!!!
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Hi! Ok first off OMG I love every bit of it aaah grumpy ceo from smut hahah you wouldn't believe how many readings i have gotten ceo and rich all of them atleast rich, provider, breeding kink lmao all matches previous readings, married life omfg this like so precious and i am in lovve i would want that, us vs the problem and them manifesting me(this part always makes me giddy makes me feel so special aww hehe) i love when you said universe wants to bring us will be a suprise i would want to experience that NGL and all of it the way your write and the gifs immaculate precious stuff ✨
Your future spouse is nurturing, youthful and possibly carefree person. Although Ido feel carefree is just a persona but deep down they think and care a lot, focuses on all important things and is deeply connected to a lot of things, especially people they might have grown up with, or a certain lifestyle or habits taht were there while growing up. They might look intimidating too, possibly because they might be really intelligent and has a good reputation of being clever and skilled so people might actually be jealous and fearful like what if they do someone and your future spouse will judge them, they can have certain authoritative behaviour in some areas, school and career might be one of them. They can be controlling and protective towards loved ones especially partner, may like teasing their partners and likes spontaneity with partners. They could be someone who values creativity and imagination and probably has big dreams and aspirations and values alone time. May wants to pursue something creative and is fascinated by new things and experiences. There could be challenges with beliefs and different ideas, they may be adamant and i get the feel they are an artist or musician or enjoys music a lot, they make be someone who thinks and values their career a lot, it's important to them. I see they can eclectic tastes as well, very unique and something that separates them from their peers.
Sign- Cancer/Gemini/leo/pisces/Scorpio
Feedback and interaction is compulsory 🌻
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beskarxclad · 1 year
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maryflowerw · 2 years
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A couple of months ago you said they dumped Lucy like they dumped other fans before her, now you make it look like they love her and one of your followers is even insinuating she's got her "job" back just because she is following Gillian around Europe like a duckling. Lucy's questionable behavior isn't the topic, it's that you lie about people just because you so deperately want to believe in a romantic relationship between David and Gillian, and that's where all your critics are right.
The biggest issue here is the lack of reading comprehension skills in this fandom. The fact you interpret I implied they love her is yours, not mine. Whatever my followers insinuate is their take, not mine. I don't dictate what they have to say, believe or think. Lucy's questionable behavior IS a big topic you are trying to disuade people from believing because it just taints the sainthood of the celebrities you decided to put on a pedestal. Instead, it's easier to shoot the messenger. It would be so much easier if D and G had never got involved in real life. Not my fault if they are nuts.
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wild-battlebond · 8 months
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kalos crisis arc notes! the kalos crisis… is always cooler than expected.
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given that the mega evolution energy (i think that's what they shoot at it) overclocks Z2's dislike for humans, did lysandre ever really have control over it at all? or does that just reflect and therefore resonate with lysandre's distain for humanity (latter probably makes more sense because mega evolution?)
hooray overgrowth representing destruction 👏👏👏
it is pretty unique (for the anime at least) to have the evil team's plan overlap the league
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like in other similar crises throughout the series, it's trainers who have the capability to keep the vines at bay and protect other people (this, too, is "balance"… it's people and pokémon working together that can protect others)
james points out that it doesn't look like a natural disaster. which, again, is fun contrast given that it's vines
i do think that alain going dead silent while ash gets kidnapped is kind of compelling. also don't they try to crucify ash
WHERE'D TEAM ROCKET GET A HELICOPTER FROM
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basically he took control of a god & took away its free will and now says that it just so happens to be doing exactly what he'd like it to be doing. like basically he's displaying himself to the world as a messenger of a god when he's the one controlling it. he refers to zygarde as a being of creation 🤔 (which is kinda more xerneas's thing? are life and creation the same thing… could be an instance of a team leader getting the function of a legendary pokémon mixed up? although zygarde does destroy then create, a form of balance. and then you could also say one core is creation & the other is destruction etc etc…)
"we have forgotten how to share" maybe you should have just funded a new care bears show or something then. instead of all this
i think alain could have been more effective if he was written as more of an older brother-type character instead of a brooding mean guy. oh well.
lysandre calls the people he's keeping the "chosen ones" - implying an ancient legend, except it's something he made up
i also think squishy's cries out to Z2 are compelling. trying to contact one's other half that won't respond (and is destroying a city)
it's also sweet how bonnie can sense what squishy's doing
yknow this is kind of like a worse gates to infinity
THEY DO CRUCIFY HIM HAHAHAHA. GABUMON MOMENTS
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how does alain's mega ring even store the mega evolution energy. it's so small. anyways this is on him for being kind of a tool
it is pretty messed up that he shoots ash (and greninja) with a beam that has an effect. and tries to make them the chosen ones of a new world. and the fact that he breaks out just through the emotion of loving the world… another rare xy cinema moment. it's like hugtto precure.
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SO TRUE!!
this really seems like a him issue. like yeah I'm pretty sure that people do have a right to welfare. i think you're just bad at running a charity
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thus far it doesn't seem like they're doing anything with it but i do find it interesting that ash's team (and alain's charizard i guess) are battling again only a few hours after the league match… it must be rough well i guess they do start dropping like flies as an indication of this, but i mean like if they had visible signs of exhaustion or hindrance by untreated injuries.. so forth. but maybe that would have made this too complicated
it's nice that clemont gets a Moment. the youthful ideal of a world where people only build things that benefit others…
BOO I FORGOT STEVEN SHOWED UP. GO BACK TO ROCK CAVERN
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ALSO SO TRUE.
it really is so awesome that bonnie is so closely tied to a legendary pokémon like zygarde
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(GUY WHO'S ONLY SEEN APPMON VOICE) WOW THIS IS JUST LIKE APPMON. because this is similar to appmon it stings a lot more than the first time i watched this episode
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it's kinda weird chespie becomes the center of the Giant Rock
the sundial came from space… so mega evolution is tied to space?!
frogs who can sense things
'serena! stay here and watch over the kids' shut up for real
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getting the gym leaders involved is cool. also a first for the anime & i do like 'sacrifice relay' kinds of things where everyone gets picked off to let the protagonist through
oh was everyone saying "let's go" originally ikuze. like in the song
oh i forgot lysandre survived jumping off the building
100% forme… is actually cooler looking than i remembered. (is this, too, due to the impact of digimon…? did xros wars make me too used to incredibly ugly giant mech-things)
100% forme being a fusion of the two cores is an extention of XY's theme of two binaries fusing to become one (e.g. mega evolution and bond phenomenon)
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it's kind of awesome that the cores say they want to rest IN the sun
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martian-garden · 11 months
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Honestly one of the most infuriating things for me is when I see someone make a good faith post about an issue with a lot of nuance and the notes are total carnage because everyone is upset. Like stop! Stop fighting amongst yourselves, you're not upset at each other, you're upset at a shitty situation and shit life syndrome. FFS engage assuming good faith, and if you want to be angry take it out on the fucks who put us in the situation in the first place (capitalism, awful businesses, substandard healthcare, shit government, whatever it is). It's really, REALLY hard to do, but don't shoot the messenger or somebody who wants to have a conversation about an issue and didn't use the exact framing or wording you liked. I'm not trying to say you're wrong for having feelings, but think about where you direct them. The internet is all some people have, but it will make you think that you can get angry at people out of context and out of chronology. That's not a good habit to get into.
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September's Kingdom of Dreams
Chapter 7
September woke up in the dead of the night, shaking and sweaty. She stared wide-eyed at the ceiling, until she realized that she was safe. This was her bedroom. It had only been a dream.
She sat up and rubbed her brown eyes. Another one of those dreams. The same forest, the same strange lights. But this time, she'd seen people. Or rather...no, they couldn't have been human. But she knew why they'd seemed familiar.
She jumped up, walked over to her shelf and grabbed volume six of the Queen Nauria books. Finding the right page was easy - she'd read these books so often she knew them word by word.
And then she stared at the illustration, a grey-skinned, beautiful creature with six slender arms and dark hair. September recognized it's face. It was the woman she'd dreamed about.
"What the fuck?!", she mumbled.
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The Hill of Peace was a quiet place. Many years had passed since the massacre of Tewüs dre Chärswez, and the people living on the border, many of which had still witnessed those gentle beings, had built a memorial on the hilltop. Surrounded by softly glowing desert flowers, a statue of snow white marble was standing there, glimmering like embers in the setting sun. It was the only thing left of what had once been an empire.
Canis arrived the top of the hill and bowed, almost tripping over her own feet. "Your majesty."
Princess Crimson of Calderia was sitting on the dry grass, a beautiful girl of seventeen years. The red evening sun made her short blonde curls and silver armour glow like they were on fire. She was wearing a red glove on her left hand, covering the silver prosthetics that had replaced two of her fingers.
The princess turned her head a little. "Hello Canis. You know I hate it when you call me that."
"Sorry." Canis landed next to her and yawned.
"Anything important you had to tell me?", Crimson asked, raising an eyebrow.
"Not really." Canis shrugged her shoulders. "Except..."
"Ah, there it is." Crimson smiled a little. A rare sight. "Except what?"
"There's been some rumours, going from sirens over the pirates over the humans living by Nior Ase - I'm saying this so you know they're highly unlikely - that there might be a new dreamer."
Crimson furrowed her brows. "Elaborate."
"Some people claimed to have seen a girl who used all that slang from the other side, the typical stuff you don't hear anyone except dreamers say around here. And her clothes were...off."
"How old?", Crimson asked. "She shouldn't be older than ten, that was when the last dreamer..." She didn't finish the sentence.
"Rumours say not much younger than you or Val."
Crimson shook her head. "Canis, that's impossible. There is always one dreamer, and they're reincarnated when the previous one dies. And that was ten years ago, not more."
Canis shrugged her shoulders. "Don't shoot, I'm just the messenger. I think it's just rumours."
"I'd keep an eye on it."
"Sure."
There was a moment of silence, during which Crimson plucked one of the softly glowing flowers on the hill. She glanced at it, before tossing it aside with a sigh.
"There used to be giants living here," the princess mumbled. She glanced at Canis out of the corner of her eye. "Have you ever seen a giant?"
Canis furrowed her brows. "I'm not sure... maybe, when I was a child. Us shapeshifters never really interacted with anyone else. We tend to keep to ourselves."
"They were magnificent." Crimson's voice was as soft as a feather. "Their art, their music, their architecture...their capitol was a wonderland, it was like stepping into a fantasy. City of Stars, that's what everyone called it. Gems and glass at every corner...it was beautiful. And at the same time they were never arrogant or stuck up, always gentle and willing to help..." She sighed. "Then the Nightmares attacked."
Canis bit her lip. She already knew what was coming.
Crimson's voice was hoarse when she continued. "They slaughtered everyone. Men, women, children. A little girl, six maybe, made it to a farmhouse at the border and told them everything. She died just a few hours later."
Canis swallowed hard, unsure what to say.
"Lord Gardan and a group of other aristocrats came to the capitol. The streets were black with blood. There were dead giants everywhere. The king and queen were dead, the servants ripped to pieces...they never found the prince."
"Was he a friend of yours?", Canis asked.
Crimson's lip quivered. "My closest."
"Do you miss him?"
Her voice cracked. "Not a single day passes when I don't."
They sat in silence for a while. Canis was unsure what to say.
"Sometimes the prince's wyvern comes here when the evening dawns," Crimson whispered. "It's still waiting for his return."
As if on cue they heard a roar echo through the desert. Canis shivered. The world was big and terrifying, and she was just a shapeshifter with anxiety issues who'd joined the resistance. An ant in the streets of Somnium, or maybe lost in the dunes of Tewüs dre Chärswez, where the bones of the giants bleached in the merciless sun and the ruins of cities told of forlorn glory.
"Keep an eye on that dreamer thing," Crimson noted while getting up. "I'm gonna go check on Val and Grey."
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RNM 2x08 - Say It Ain't So
EPISODE SUMMARY:
JAMIE CLAYTON GUEST STARS — Despite promising Liz (Jeanine Mason) that he’ll take things easy with his new heart, Max (Nathan Dean) sets out to find Cameron after learning that she’s gone missing. Michael (Michael Vlamis) grows concerned about Maria (Heather Hemmens) after a surprising discovery about her family history leaves her vulnerable. Elsewhere, ready to move on, Alex (Tyler Blackburn) goes on a date with Forrest (guest star Christian Antidormi), and Rosa (Amber Midthunder) makes a decision about her future. Rachel Raimist directed the episode written by Eva McKenna & Christopher Hollier (#208). Original airdate 5/4/2020. 
DETAILS:
Rosa's secret identity:
"...Cousin Rosalinda from Arizona. My mom married a minor league baseball player, but when he got relocated to a team in Florida…"
"Okay, you know what, let's just go with, they're dead."
This is a Twilight reference.
Rosa about the Mean Girl's art in the cave:
"That reminds me of Stephen Powers before he sold out."
Stephen Powers is a former street artist who went commercial. Some examples of his older work here:
Other examples of his newer, more commercial work here:
By the way, speaking of the cave:
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And this is some fabulous visual storytelling right here:
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Max is working at the Wild Pony. Temporarily, of course.
"Turns out debt collectors don't care if you've been half dead in a glowing pod for a few months."
So much for the headcanon that Max "I've been driving the same car since high school and am a homeowner before 30" Evans is good with his money. 😆 Debt collectors don't show up that fast… not that I know from experience or anything.  😳 *backs slowly away*
Iris refers to the cave as the go to hang spot for all the artsy weirdos. So it isn't like it was specifically Rosa's cave/hidden spot.
It's the first time we've seen this particular cave other than in 2008 flashbacks.
Iris Sanchez & Rosa Ortecho. Flower, Mexican family name. 😭 The hint is there!
Also 👀 from:
The iris earned its name from the ancient Greek Goddess Iris, a messenger to the gods who was thought to use the rainbow as a bridge between heaven and earth...these flowers were named to honor the Rainbow Goddess and bring favor upon the earth.
Mimi made Maria take back the necklace.
"She said that it was too late for her and that I needed it more."
Michael has seen the necklace before, but he didn't know what the flower was when he fixed the clasp and returned it to her in 1x10.  It was 1x11 when they learned of the existence of the anti alien pollen. Michael reminds us:
"I know this flower.  Its pollen has a paralytic effect on alien abilities."
Once Maria takes it off, she can name every card Michael pulls from the deck.
Maria lists off a bunch of necklace facts from past episodes that fandom has previously noted...
Her powers were heightened when Michael had the necklace in 1x10. 
She wasn't wearing it when Noah invaded her at the gala.
And she wasn't wearing it at Woman As Warrior in 2x02 when she sensed that Isobel was pregnant.
"Kyle said you aren't an alien."
Fact. Kyle did say that.  It doesn't mean that it's a fact that Maria doesn't have alien DNA in her though.
Kyle determined that her blood doesn't carry the alien protein that's in the Pod Squad and Rosa. He is making an assumption that the protein is tied to being an alien.
He said he ran other tests, but the results would take longer to come in. 
Also, just a personal theory, what else do Rosa and the Pod Squad (and Noah) all have in common? They all spent significant time marinating in a pod full of goo. Rosa (10 years), Pod Squad (at least 50 years), Noah (60 years). Kyle has not studied any samples of alien biology from an alien who didn't spend time in pod goo. It's possible the protein is related to the pod goo, moreso than the alien biology. Again, just speculation on my part.
Maria confirms that her mom started getting sick when she was 18, just after she passed the necklace on to Maria.
"If this prevents you from having more episodes, it probably stops the neurodegeneration process too. It's not kryptonite, Maria. This is preventative medicine. Keep it on."
In 2x06 it was established that in addition to Sanders' place being a junkyard and a mechanic/auto shop, they also do tow truck service.  Now that comes into play again as Michael was hired to bring Cam's car back to Roswell for the investigation into her disappearance.  He brought it to the junk yard first though to give Max and Liz an hour to check the car for clues before the sheriff's department comes to collect it.
Max is smart too, in his own way. He quickly identified that "Agent Powell" was driving a rental car and that her gun wasn't government issue. 
However, it's only when he sees her tattoo (which Cam told him about in 1x07) that he confirms that she's actually Charlie Cameron!
(10 points to fandom!)
Max & Liz's conversation with Charlie is mostly just reminding us what we know about Charlie and Jenna's relationship. 
Liz indicates that Jenna had been looking for Charlie for months.  Charlie responds that she didn't want to be found (both things we learned in 2x04 through Cam's discussion with Jesse Manes.
Max indicates that Jenna thought that Charlie hated her, a call back to us first learning about Charlie and the matching tattoos in 1x07.
"I worked on a controversial project a while back. A lot of dangerous people want to know what I know."
(Again, stuff we learned in 2x04).
They learn through Cam's text history that she was looking for Jesse Manes (which we already knew, because...2x04).
"I'm just a guy standing in front of a tourist trap asking a history buff to shoot him with high velocity paint."
Tongue-in-cheek reference to the movie Notting Hill.
"So, you're cool playing war? Doesn't bring anything up?"
"Oh, yeah, my PTSD triggers are a little more complicated. Suffice to say, this war zone is the only place that my family actually got along when I was a kid."
"Yeah, some of my old platoon buddies actually play in leagues."
"I didn't know that you served."
"Yeah I wouldn't go bragging about it to a guy with a Purple Heart. I might have googled you."
New information… both that Forrest served, that he looked into Alex (which could be innocent OR sketchy…).
And of course this is the first open discussion about Alex's PTSD issues.
Cowboys versus aliens paintball… Alex is the cowboy, so Forrest must be the alien.
The call that interrupted Forrest's attempt to kiss Alex was from the hospital. Hence why Alex goes there to see Jesse.
"Look, if I had a little lucky charm that could stop people like Noah from messing with me, I would have that surgically implanted into my décolletage."
Have to admit, I wasn't sure what décolletage meant, so in case anyone else isn't familiar: 
"These abilities are a part of me. I'm not gonna just throw away the chance to learn about who I am. That make sense to you?"
"Yeah, actually, it does."
"You've gotten stronger this year, right?  Can you teach me to train? Learn how to control it all?"
"Look, it took a lot of practice before I could do anything without puking and guzzling acetone to kill the pain.  And you can't practice, because according to Kyle, every time you do it eats your brain."
"Look, I'll stop before it goes that far, okay? I know the signs. Besides, if you help me, maybe I can help you. There must be something that you want to know about your future."
"What about my past?"
Max meeting with Jesse at the Crashdown. This is super interesting because it's the first time Max has sat down, face to face, with a hostile human who knows he's an alien. 
"My uncle used to bring me here. That was back when it catered to a more civil clientele. People who actually respected the history of this town."
This is likely foreshadowing what's to come next week, based on the promo pics released.
Again, similar to the scene with Charlie at the junkyard, much of this exchange between Max and Jesse is just reminding us of stuff we learned in 1x04.
"The last time I saw her she came to me with questions about her sister.  And I told her that the people most interested in Charlie's device were a black ops group based out of Los Alamos. They're called Deep Sky. This is their logo. Paramilitary. And I told Jenna that what she was getting into was gonna be dangerous. But apparently she didn't listen.
Note: in case any of you are unaware, in Los Alamos there's a US DOE lab that has a long, sketchy history of weapons development.  Makes perfect since that it's where a paramilitary organization interested in Charlie's research would be based there.
The Deep Sky Logo
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I compared this to a number of screenshots of alien symbols (like the ones we saw in Jim Valenti's letters in 1x12) and there were no matches.
However, fandom has already noted that the logo matches Trevor's ring in 2x06 (see that episode's details post for the photo).
"Charlie Cameron's mind is a unique specimen. Kind of like you. And there's always someone in the shadows waiting to crack those open."
"What did you do to Jenna?"
"I told her the truth. Which is more than you ever did. You're kind of a wolf in sheep's clothing, aren't you?"
"And what are you? Do you feel like a hero? All those people you tortured, all those people you killed. Turns out none of them were an enemy.  They were refugees. So you're not just a murderer, you're a failure."
"Yeah, I know. I am. But I tell you, something shifted in my brain when I had the stroke.  All the hate's gone out of me. All the fight. Caulfield is over and my son Flint has been reassigned. Look at me. I can barely walk."
Liz and Charlie in the car:
"Waitressing's really got to blow when you've grown a fully functioning heart muscle in a lab.  Or are you not the same Elizabeth Ortecho who co-authored a 2013 paper on cellular reprogramming? Some people build model trains; I do my homework.  Your boyfriend seems more like the train type."
"What is that supposed to mean?"
"We've discovered new worlds and changed the course of mankind from a microscope. Should I go Netflix and chill with my boyfriend or stay in the lab, architecting the future?"
"No offense, but if it's true that you've been in prison and in hiding, it does not seem like you've seen much of the inside of a lab either."
"I went too far.  I thought I was building something with real value. The thing is, anything that has the potential to create real change, it scares people. And anything that scares people is inherently dangerous no matter what your intention is."
"You could start over. Get a new identity, work at a research university."
"I've done extraordinary things. Everything ordinary is ruined now."
More exposition that we already know as Max catches Charlie and Liz up on what he learns from Jesse.
"He said Cam is headed to Los Alamos to investigate a group called Deep Sky. Does that mean anything to you?"
"No. Let me reach out to some of my military contacts, do some recon. Give me a day, we'll go from there."
Liz and Michael, in the lab, on The Science:
"I'm looking for the sample of yellow pollen."
"The stuff I swept off the floor after throwing it at Noah? I don't know. I didn't see it while we were packing up."
"Well it was here a few months back.  Did I miss an experiment where it grew legs and a fondness for the outdoors?"
"Could have been accidentally thrown away. Sample was too oxidized to be of much use, and I've been trying to get my hands on fresh flowers, but it's impossible. I think they might be extinct. Why are you freaking out?"
"Because I have a math problem. There's only one flower in Maria's necklace, but there are two DeLuca women and apparently the flower is the key to preventing their illness. This is everything from the Caulfield drives and the experiments done on Maria's grandmother. A lot of it was lost in a lab fire in the '80s, but…"
"I'll take a look."
(Aside… 👀 Lab fire in the '80s. I have a feeling that's more foreshadowing.)
"I just want you to see if anything done could be undone. I don't want you to, like, Dr. Frankenstein it. The experiments were very bad."
"My days as an alien scientist are officially over."
"Why don't I believe you?"
"'Cause it's hard not to think about the far-reaching implications of this kind of research. You don't get sick on this planet. If I could figure out why, I could eradicate all illness."
"But you can't. Because that would expose us."
"Which I would obviously never do. It's over."
Arturo's text to Liz:
Have you seen our little mouse?
"Rosalinda" is late for her first shift.
Isobel and Maria go to Michael's trailer and Isobel shows Maria the newspaper clip of Michael's mom to try to trigger a vision.
"It's not working. And I don't feel great going through this stuff without Michael knowing."
"Why not? One day this palace might all be yours."
"It's not working.  I have a business to run, and you need to go Instagram something."
"Says the social media revitalizer. Listen, word to the wise, every time Max saw Liz in a skirt and tried not to pop a bulb, he wound up setting off a fire alarm. Everytime I push myself too hard, I miss time, or wind up accidentally realizing that my mom still thinks about her ex-boyfriend Rocco, like, in vivid detail."
"Okay, where are you going with this?"
"Effort doesn't equal control. So if you want to do this you're gonna have to embrace your inner ice queen and let it go."
"I'm not great at letting things go."
"Yeah, I know.  That's hard…"
Maria's vision:
Triggered by a t-shirt hanging in the trailer.
Louise is hanging laundry
Walt runs up to her and gives her a little windmill with her name on it. (Initially I thought her name was pressed or punched into the metal, but on second viewing, it looks like it might be puff paint or something similar.)
Walt runs off to find Nora and Louise goes back to hanging laundry.
After the vision Maria's nose starts bleeding.
Max goes after Charlie to stop her from turning herself in.
I wonder if his tire screeching action guy driving is supposed to be emphasizing to the audience that he's not being as cautious as he should be? 
Deep Sky said that if Charlie "...wasn't at Sutter's grain depot by 11pm, that they would torture (Cam) to death."
Charlie heard on the call:
A train rolling by
A demonic laugh
And somehow that's enough for Max to magically know exactly where Cam is.
Alex and Jesse at the hospital:
"Hey, they said that you mixed whiskey with your medications.  That's not like you."
"What the hell are you doing here?"
"I don't know. I mean, you're my father. I can't seem to shake you."
"Yeah. I failed."
"Yes. But in what way specifically?"
"Uncle Tripp. I let him down. I never could figure out what he needed of me. And tonight I went to the bunker.  And I keep trying to crack the code."
"Liz said that you spoke to Max Evans. She said that you were half decent to him. Is that what this is about?"
"One of them killed Tripp, you know."
"An alien? Yeah. Then he hunted them. He dragged them to a torture chamber. I'm not surprised one of them…" 
Jesse slams his cane.
"He was the best man I ever knew.
Jesse tries to stand and falls into Alex, then continues to walk away.
The location that Deep Sky is holding Cam looks like a rodeo or horse arena or racetrack with a big grandstand.
There are nearby train tracks, and a warehouse where a mechanic repairs old carnival rides.
As Max and Charlie are scoping out the area you can hear both sounds softly in the background.
The sniper was watching and shooting at them from the grandstand.
Charlie is shot in the leg.
"Let me go get her."
"No. Deep Sky wants me alive. Your brain is worth considerably less to them which means it'll be splattered all over the dirt."
(Oh the irony...confirming that Charlie doesn't know that Max is an alien.)
"If anything goes wrong, call Liz. No doctors."
Max does shoot the sniper!
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And then uses his powers to knock out the power (and instantly feeling it in his heart when he starts to use his powers!!!!!!) which, as @angsty-aliens very eloquently pointed out, is absurd because there was a big red lever that would have done the same thing. *facepalm*
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Cam on her kidnapping:
"The last thing I remember is this weird sound. It made the hairs on my arm stand up. And this bright light, and the pain in the back of my neck like you wouldn't believe."
Cam's burn is fractals.  Like Liz's burn from Max's powers in 1x03. Top is Liz's fresh burn in 1x03, bottom is Cam's not-so-fresh burn in 2x08. Keep in mind, we don't know how long Cam was missing for.
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Rosa and Iris at the "art show".
"So you said you're from Roswell?"
"Oh, I was from Roswell.  I got out and went to art school as soon as I graduated. I work for an artist now. I help her run her gallery. Yeah, I used to want to be a painter, but then I realized I loved curating art way more than I ever loved making it."
👀 I wonder what this says about Rosa's internal motivation. If Iris is the life she wishes that she had, does she not want to be a painter? Or is that her internal insecurity rearing its head.  Like, she can't even dream about that possibility because it's what she really wants above all else.  Which is why Iris then motivates her to paint and prove to her inner self that she is an artist? 
Speaking of which, here's Rosa's painting from the episode. Mucho gracias to @rosaortecho for giffing it for me since it wasn't cap-able in a single shot.
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Iris's assessment of Rosa's art:
"This piece is you outrunning your demons. This is amazing. That's what you have to do.  You have to capture them and rattle the cage.  This is art. This is what you're meant to do, Rosa!"
Rosa's hallucination starts to fall apart as they dance.  She starts coughing and having trouble breathing.
"Your star sign's just out of whack."
Play on lyrics from God of Wine by Third Eye Blind, which was heavily referenced in 1x02. 
The direct quote is "your star sign's out of whack" and the next lyric is "a fraudulent zodiac"
Which, of course, is what Rosa had written on her hand before she died in 2008 and is a reference to Ophiuchus, which was Noah's zodiac obsession.
And then Liz finds her overdosing in the cave. 
The coughing in Rosa's hallucination was from smoke inhalation.  Because while passed out she started a fire with her powers.
Feels like a good time to point out that it's the same cave that she died in back in 2008, and she would have died there again if Liz hadn't found her. 😭
At the hospital Rosa tells Liz that she wants to go to rehab, but she knows she can't since she can't control her powers. 
Liz gives her Maria's necklace to borrow since it will suppress her powers and allow her to go to rehab.
Alex and Forrest at the Wild Pony:
"I still have my dad's voice in my head telling me that being seen with a man in public is an embarrassment. To my name and my uniform."
"Well, there's nothing like a dad voice to mess up a perfectly good date."
"It's also just that...I mean, Roswell's so conservative. This bar is filled with cowboys. If you want to go someplace private…"
"Look, I like you. But I don't want to climb into somebody else's closet."
"I cannot tell you how badly I want to be done with this frickin' closet."
"But you're not. And that's okay. Really. Listen, if that voice in your head ever shuts up, give me a call. Because between you and me, making out with a hot guy in public is only made hotter when it pisses off all the bigots and homophobes."
Charlie took off and left a note for Jenna. According to Jenna it says she's gonna disappear again and not to look for her.
Arturo is taking Rosa to a rehab center that Kyle set her up with "a few hours away".
Max tells Liz "let's go home." So… did she move in with him??
Liz says no though.  She says she has to open the diner and cry alone.  But instead she goes to the secret lab.  
Both Max and Liz were evading the truth a little bit here.  Liz didn't tell Max that she wanted to go to the secret lab.  Max didn't tell Liz that his heart did wonk out after using his powers and he did overdo it going after Cam. Bad Echo!!
Liz goes back to packing the secret lab up initially, but then her eyes fall into the Caulfield folders, and she stops. 
She unpacks her stolen equipment (genetic sequencer?), puts on her lab coat, and sits down to start reading the file.
Isobel brings Michael beer as a peace offering, since she's coming to admit that she helped Maria trigger a vision.  She thinks Michael will be mad, but he isn't because he and Maria already worked it out.
So Isobel tells him about the vision and seeing Louise, and specifically about Walt giving Louise the windmill. 
Michael immediately reacts, goes to a shelf, and grabs a similar windmill.
Turns out Walt is Sanders.  He pulls up in his car and Michael immediately confronts Sanders.
"It was you. You're Walt. You're the little boy in the photo.  You knew my mother."
And Sanders nods.
10 more points to fandom.
Max goes to Charlie's hotel to confront her about turning herself in to Deep Sky.
The windmill in both scenes. Until I put this together I didn't think they were the same one (because Louise's name isn't on Michael's. But other details (like the word weight on one of the legs) are the same.
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"You think Deep Sky needs to have Jenna by the throat to kill her? Okay, the only way that I can protect her is from the inside."
Then the "abduction scene" happens.
It mirrors what happened to Jenna in 2x04, only to Max and Charlie.
MUSIC:
1.  Hole "Celebrity Skin"
2.  Lukas Nelson & Promise Of The Real "Die Alone"
3.  Shelly Fairchild "Worry No More"
4.  Marc Danzeisen "Some Things Last Forever"
5.  Joey Sykes "Sign Of The Times"
6.  I AM ORFA "Like That Look"
7.  Danny Ayer "Set Us Free"
8.  Hamish Anderson "Trouble"
9.  OMC "How Bizarre"
10.  Muscadine Bloodline "Movin' On"
11.  Little May "Hide"
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I had Top Surgery! (Post Op 1 1/2 Weeks pics)
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Suprise! I had top surgery almost 2 weeks ago. It was a bit of a process to get to that point and i was literally counting down the hours til i went under. I kept joking to people i was most excited about my "induced 4 hour nap" more than anything. I got to my day surgery clinic early in the morning, to which i got changed into scrubs, was told to wait under a blanket to keep my body warm, and met with the nurse, anesthetist and my surgeon for pre op discussions. Then i was escorted into the operation theatre where i hopped on the table, got nice and comfy with blankets, tubes, oxygen mask annnnddd.... woke up 4 hours later forgetting i had surgery 🤣
I did this in my last surgery (which in comparission was more terrifying cause i had blood in my mouth and couldnt remember what happened to me), but i woke up and couldn't work out where i was, why i felt so dizzy and how i got clothed 🤣 i spent about 2 hours in the recovery room sat in a recliner chair dozing off, except to eat (cause i had been fasting prior) and drink. I did try to pee but couldn't which was frustrating 😅 then i was taken home, where i promptly went to sleep lol
I had my drains in for 72 hours and they were the worst part of recovery. I carried bottles in a pillow case and they had be be positioned lower than my chest at all times. Luckily i wasn't able to move much and while i was on strong pain medication i mainly slept. I had my mum stay with me for a week and i'm thankful she did cause she really saved my butt by doing everything for me (i really had to let go of my control which was weirdly hard, i just felt bad making her do things for me but she was happy to). The drains were uncomfortable and by the morning there were to be taken out i was really hurting where they were inserted. After they were taken out it was a blessing and recovery got A LOT easier. I had shallow baths every few days and my mum helped me was my hair. I had baby wipes for my armpits and chest area which again saved me from being stinky. I still mainly slept, or watched tv shows with my mum up until she left. She prepped me a LOT of meals before she left so i wouldn't have to cook.
Sleeping on my back was probably the most uncomfortable part (after the drains), because i'm a stomach sleeper. I have been managing to sleep though which has been nice (and Maple has been good, sleeping beside me all through the night!). I've been sleeping elevated to help with swelling. I actually got told off by my nurse while doing my week post op check up cause i was still doing too much. I went to Uni for a 6 hour workshop that day too and went to a costume showcase that night. Safe to safe i was exhausted the next day and didnt do much but sleep.
So i'm still quite swollen and bruised 1 1/2 weeks in, which will eventually settle down. my nipples seem to be taking well so crossing fingers the blood returns. I was worried about puckering but being able to closely examine my chest it's due to the swelling at the moment so hopefully that goes down too.
All in all i can't stop smiling at my chest - i finally feel like myself 😁
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Some tips for those looking to have Top Surgery based on my experience:
MEDICINE
I have a high pain threshold - i was willing to go to uni a week post op because i could stand to - would recommend people booking off at LEAST 3 weeks prior to work/study if you can help it. I have only one class per week at the moment and its only theory so thats why i was able to travel and even then i was taken pain killers ever 4 hours.
In my mother's words "don't be a hero, if you need to take pain relief, do it". Best advice. I've weened myself off pain killers to 2 just before bed (panadine forte), or before i need to go out and do things (genral paracetamol). If you need to take more just do it - also write down when you've taken things (because its good to know how much you've had per day!) You can take iburofen and paracetamol intermittedly in 4 hour intervals (eg. Iburofen at 12pm, paracetamol at 2pm, another dose of iburofen at 4pm, etc).
You'll also be taking antibiotics - generally 3 times a day with meals. I also took probiotics 2 hours after taking my antibiotics to avoid the sideaffects of them (eg. Mouth Ulcers (which i did get dang it), thrush, etc).
I was also taking strong pain killers (for the first few days i took 2 every 4 hours then weened down to one per night). Be careful with strong pain killers - the thing doctors/people don't tend to mention is that they can be addictive/dependent drugs. Sometimes you would prefer to keep taking them and that can be an issue. I asked my surgeon at my 1 week if i could please get one more script of something a little stronger than paracetamol to take a night and it took a bit more of a discussion to get it. If you can try to get by on the paracetamol alone do so and remember you can alternate with iburofen every two hours.
WEIRD BOWELS
With all these medications you'll more than likely get constipated so adding to the list of medications i also took good ol' laxatives. The first poop after surgery was like 3 days later and it hurt 😅 the laxatives helped me after to soften my stools (cheat mode is when you're lactose intolerent and you eat a bunch of cheesecake whoops 😅). Also peeing was weird for the first week due to the anesthestics in me. It took me ages to pee, sometimes i had the feeling of needing to pee but nothing happened, and i was peeing like, every hour.
SUPPORT
Both in furniture sense and people sense.
My mum was my main support especially in the first week. She looked after me, my house and my cat. She grabbed things i couldn't access, drove me to my appointments, managed my medicine, cooked me food and generally just helped me around the place. Originally i only wanted her there for a few days but im glad she was there cause i was sore and out of it most of the time. Alongside her my two best friends were also a massive help - coming over to keep me company, drive me places, help me do my grocery shopping, tell me off for overdoing it, gave me plenty of entertainment (thanks to katie i finished wind waker!). Get yourself some support and let go of that control, you will honestly be too tired and sore to do anything anyway.
Make sure you get yourself some comfy pillows. I got myself a U shaped pillow and it has so far saved my neck so much pain. I sleep elevated which means more pillows to prop myself up. And pillows for my couch.
WASHING
So for the first 72 hours i was just a gross gremlin with dry shampoo because of the drains. My chest was covered in bandages so i couldn't wash that area anyway. After the drains were removed i was told i could have showers, but i opted for shallow bathes anyway. I was able to wash myself fine (just go slow), then i would put pants on and get my mum to help wash my hair. After my 1 week check up i started having showers, but stood out of the stream. I only have tape to cover my stitches now (i took them off for the photo) so am able to carefully wash parts of my chest and back i couldnt get to before. I can now wash my hair (slowly). Raising my arms is still not easily fesable but i can lift them to a certain point.
EMOTIONAL
Now, i wasn't as emotional as i thought i was going to be but i do know other trans guys who said they went through bouts of depression after their surgery. Its something to look out for. For me, it was emotionally draining to talk to people about it constantly. I didn't mind though and it was nice people checked up on me but it did wear me out. Its always good though to check in with your emotional state throughout to see how youre feeling. It's not an inmediate grattification, the swelling and bruising is a lot and it won't look right for a while. Also leading up to surgery people can feel fearful and doubtful, always chat to a loved one about your feelings! Personally i had no nerves leading up to surgery but afterwards i was constantly worried that i wasn't healing right. Talking to your surgeon will HELP trust me!
SCARRING
Ok this was a big shock to me so i hope this helps other people but scar medication/ointments don't actually work. I asked my surgeon about it and as a skin professional who has been studying the effects of scarring for over 40 years - this is a beauty scam you don't need to bite into.
"Time and your genetic biology are the only ways that help your scars heal, sorry to burst your bubble but save your money on that placebo".
Looking after yourself the first few months post op will help you get good results later.
Of course i understand if people will still want to buy scarring products but thought i would post the words of a professional too 😅 don't shoot the messenger on this one. And if you do decide to use the stuff then wait 6 months before doing so.
I think that's all i can think of at the moment. There's a really good private facebook group for top surgery and i got a lot of my info from there. If people are curious feel free to DM me, send me an inbox and i'd be happy to chat as best i can! My experience is based in Australia so people might have different expectations/experiences in different countries!
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Cupid Inc.
(Working Title)
Chapter 1 & 2. 
sorry It has taken me so long to upload anything. As usual my brain started jumping from idea to idea very quickly and I finally managed to settle on this one. 
the premise is about a young woman being targeted by a world wide organization where the snipers working there shoot love bullets (playing on the concept of cupid but as many people with sniper rifles instead of only one guy with a bow and arrow) the agents mission is always the same of course. go around making people fall in love. 
the story as I have it in my head so far deals with a sniper going out to do his job but this woman for whatever reason (faith will have it I guess) just keeps avoiding the bullets or missing the opportunity to meet her match after the breakup she has with her boyfriend and gets contacted by the organization because they are polite and let you know you are going to fall in love motherfucker. 
but at the end I will figure out a way for the bullet to hit “cupid” and have him fall in love with her, or have them both fall in love with each other without the aid of magic idk yet. but of course Agents aren’t allowed to fall in love they are just the messengers. I don't have everything worked out yet, just bits and peaces of the skeleton but I'm taking it chapter by chapter rn as the full idea reveals itself to me and I get a clearer idea of what exactly is going on lol.
feel free to let me know any criticism you guys have. this is the first draft I’ve continuously worked on in years and feel HELLA RUSTY  writing this in the last few days have felt super alien but hey I am doing it xD 
hope that if nothing else you enjoy the concept.
Thank you so much for reading.  
                             Sniper
Rough hands put out a cigarette, crushing it against a rustic metal sill from the opened window.
 The nuzzle of his rifle pokes out as a young man dressed in a dark t-shirt and jeans with dark hair opening a car door comes into view on the crosshairs of the scope. 
The sniper's hand positions itself, his index finger firm against the trigger.
A muffled "Pat" follows and the man in the black shirt falls against the opened car door. 
The man groans, confused as he stands up straight. 
His hand traveling to the back of his shoulder as fading soreness dissipates. 
Looking around he shrugs as he sees no one around that could have…… 
What exactly had happened? 
Not coming up with an explanation himself he is about to get in the car when a droplet of water interrupts his train of thought and he decides against it. 
Muttering something to the driver he shakes his head and closes the door before turning around to go get his umbrella. 
As he does a young woman riding a bicycle with a large potted plant obstructing the majority of her view  in front of her on the messenger's basket; rides into him knocking him, the plant and herself down.
The man blinks startled. 
Standing up an amused and bewildered smile grows on his face as he watches her  picking up the majority of the plant that spilled a good portion of it’s dirt on the ground. Walking over to her bicycle  he helps her pick it up.
“ what were you thinking? Who, ever told you it was a good idea to ride a bicycle with a plant so big you can't even see ahead of you?”
He chuckles offering her his hand.
 As the woman looks up at him, her cheeks blush with a soft shade of pink  she gives him her hand.
“Thank you….”
She breaths
“I am sorry I thought it wasn’t going to be that much of an issue” 
She smiles a little. 
Her eyes, apologetic but soft.
Gazing,  they both feel a bolt of electricity run through them as  their bodies become warm and an overwhelming sense of calm and familiarity surrounds them.
From the crosshairs of the scope the sniper watches as the two interact. 
The man leaves for a moment coming back out of his house with an umbrella. 
Opening it up the two share it as they walk in the direction the woman was originally going. 
A smirk tugs at the sniper’s lips pulling out his phone. 
Cupid Inc.
The mission was a success. 
                         -C.
Packing his rifle he locks the case and begins making his way down the staircase when his phone vibrates with a text notification. 
Sighing he stops right before exiting the building, pulling it out reading what he already knew. 
Cupid Inc.
Got a new target. Sending the coordinates and the file.
“Every time…” the man mutters , clicking off the phone.
 Sliding it inside his jeans pulling out car keys. 
He opens the trunk to a black SUV. 
Packing away his equipment he climbs inside plucking the coordinates  into the car’s GPS taking off.
                          10 Minutes Late
A young woman looking out the window into the rain, caressing her phone in her hand as the driver curses under his breath at the bottle up forming ahead as they reach downtown. 
The woman flinches as the phone vibrates and a notification brings to life the black screen. 
Cupid's Arrow
you have been matched……
The screen reads.
Confused, the woman cocks her head slightly; swiping her thumb across the screen to read the entire message.
Comes to a complete stand still the driver sighs, running his hand through his hair before apologetically turning back, to face the young girl. 
"I am sorry love, I don't think I can drive you any further, we will be stuck here for two hours, at least if we are lucky…….. do you mind…." he sighs.
"Is fine, I'll walk from here, thank you!" 
The  woman smiles brightly almost . 
Sliding her phone in her pocket without reading the full message she pays and 
Gets out of the car. 
As she walks down the few blocks to the restaurant her phone goes off again. 
Pulling it out she sees her boyfriend's name pop up unlocking it, she clicks the message. 
where are you? I am at the restaurant, will you be long? I am starving!
Sighing, the woman stops to reply. 
I am close, will arrive in 10 minutes, you can start ordering the appetizers if you want, won't be long. I love you
Clicking off the message she slides the phone back in her coat and continues hurriedly down the street. 
She feels her phone going off a few more times but ignores it; knowing it was Chuck growing impatient. 
Entering the restaurant she looks around looking for him. 
Not being able to find him she grows anxious. 
Walking up to the hostess that welcomed her as she entered she asks if she had seen him and describes him. 
As she pulls out her phone to show her a picture of him the messages flash across her eyes as the screen revives.  
As she clicks the top message the hostess apologizes mumbling something about getting someone else to help her as she gets called away but Laura doesn’t hear her as her stomach sinks reading the words on the screen.
Charlie
I am sorry I can’t wait around anymore, I wanted to do this formally but there is really no point. I have thought about this carefully for weeks and although we had some great times together…..I just…..We aren’t right for each other anymore Laura, we have to end this. I am sorry….I didn’t want to do this through text. Hope you understand.
 A tear falls against the illuminated screen and she frightens herself at the sound of her own jagged breathing as her body remembers to breath. 
She blinks rapidly, trying to suppress the waterfalls as she remembers she is in public. 
Quickly stuffing the phone away once again she hurriedly exits the restaurant walking down the street in a haze. 
Ashes fall from the window of a parked SUV. 
The man inside watches as the woman leaves the restaurant and slowly begins tailing her without her noticing. 
As she walks hugging herself tightly 
He holds onto the steering wheel with one hand as he pulls up a handgun with the other to the edge of the window covering it with a coat waiting on an open window to shoot her. 
As she waits to cross the street he takes aim and shoots but suddenly a jogger pushes her to the side, rubbing against her while he ran. 
As a result the bullet hits him instead. 
“Damn it” 
The sniper growls under his breath, lowering the gun. 
A loud hunk from behind jolts him out of his thoughts. 
Rolling his eyes he steps on the gas, moving again after the traffic light had turned green for less than two seconds. 
Sighing 
He pulls to the side of the road, losing view on the woman as he sends a request for damage control on the man in the jogging suit.
As he does the woman’s would be Soulmate according to the highly knowledgeable corporation has finished exchanging a few words with her as he had run to check on her after seeing the man knock into her. 
Dismissing his concern she reassured him she would be fine and the two parted ways missing the moment the deeply rooted bond should have been made in their brains. 
The man continues walking and enters a cafe clocking in for his shift, forgetting about the woman and the jogger.
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I think it's clear to see that you have done your best to be the middle man. The phrase 'don't shoot the messenger' totally applies to this situation. Unfortunately, you are the communications line to the site owner; Who, to be frank is shit at their job. The problem lies within the validity of the information the shit owner gives you (that you literally have to hound them for), which is likely false and meant to pacify the readers/writers. The biggest issue for me is not the time it has taken
Pt 2. But the pure fact that the owner has neglected to perform basic upkeep on the site correctly. Yes, sites loose info all the time. In fact it's happened to 1dff before. So the same mistakes keep being made and it's that repetition that's angering people. It's not your fault. I have a feeling if you had more control we wouldn't be in this mess. I feel sorry for all the writers who had stories/reads/reviews wiped. That can't be replaced. thank you for your time and positivity.            
I completely understand. I lost stories/reviews/chapters myself in this, though it’s not as much as others have, and I will have lost all the work I did to the site in terms of warnings/tags/etc, the many accounts deleted, the stories deleted, and so on. Everything has lost something and I just feel absolutely awful that it’s come down to this. It’s hard to stay positive when you’ve lost something, but I’m just trying to think about how at least the site is coming back at all.
Also, in terms of everything else you’ve said... I do have many feelings and opinions on the matter and things have been said, but something has been set in place for the second the site is back and I think people will be very pleased with it. I do hope, like I’ve also said, I will be able to fix the reputation of the site. And it’s not even about the site not making the money like it used to, it’s about the community and showcasing your art and whatnot. If there’s a negative reputation, people aren’t going to come back and they sure aren’t going to tell their friends about it. I only hope I can fix that!
-- Leesh
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