#the book My Policeman

[dogsliampaynedoesntinstagram]

From Harry I honestly don't get that he wants to be 'officially out', but the MP thing makes me think he does not want to lose time playing pretend forever. And the reactions to Holivia were so vile (towards Olivia), that must be hurtful to a people pleaser like Harry, too. Anyway, for his mental health I hope he'll do what's best for himself, also to show others that a life in the closet can be a good life.

I always want to be super careful about how I talk about this - because there are many different components and I think talking about what Harry wants flattens them.

If we go back to the two parts of the closet that I just talked about - when it comes to what people want. The first is how Harry feels about the assumption that he is straight. There's a lot that goes into that - how Harry wants his sexuality to be understood, how much he wants to be perceived or not perceived, how he feels about his image as a public figure and how he wants to be seen and influenced in the world.

Then there's the question of the penalty for coming out. As he's selling out stadiums to a fantasy boyfriend audience, it's really obvious what at least part of that penalty is and why he doesn't want to pay it. And along those lines - I don't think he has much choice about playing pretend if he's going to remain in the closet. I suspect Harry's different desires conflict with each other. And while we can't know exactly how that works out - I do worry for him.

The idea that he can show others that a life in the closet can be a good life doesn't resonate with me at all. I'm not quite sure what you think needs to be shown. But for anyone who is interested there's a lot of evidence that celebrities can live a reasonable open private life, experience a lot of success, and be understood as straight by the public. I don't think the fact that that reality exists for celebrities really makes much difference to most people who describe themselves as in the closet.

[finexbright]

the people who have read the book would know how much two dimensional tom's character is and how we only get to know him through marion and patrick, both unreliable narrators because of their skewed perspective of love. neither of them are in love with tom, they're in love with the idea of tom. they're in love with this ideal, this fantasy and because of that, there's no layers to tom's character. however, the movie does a brilliant job of giving us those layers, in tiny increments, but significant nevertheless. it's in the way they show us tom heading towards patrick's house for the first time, the little nervous excitedness; in the way there's a clear contrast in the sex scenes; in the way the anxiety and fear and overwhelm that's shown when patrick and tom get intimate for the first time; in the way a drunk tom returns to patrick right after he had a brush with policemen and almost got caught; in the way he burns the uniform after patrick is arrested — the very thing he was proud of and wanted to keep ended up taking away this all encompassing feeling that he cherished even more; the way older tom sees a gay couple in public and completely crumples because he's reminiscing of the love that he lost and the helplessness of it (and to think that the it's only a matter of couple decades and how if it weren't for the choices they all made and the circumstances thrown their way, he and patrick could have been like the gay couple at the store, just older, but still ever in love); in the way he finally returns to patrick, puts his fear and guilt aside, and caresses him the same way as the first time and just feels it all. and all of this amounted to tom being a key character, a real person, rather than a culmination of other people's projection, completely changing the narrative of the story and both harry and linus roache did a brilliant, brilliant job of encapsulating this and in a way bringing tom to life.

[julessatelliteart]

I'm still not sure what I think about my art, but I have an angel who makes me feel stronger and more confident, so let's give it a try ♡

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[darkacademianew]

10 dark academia movies you might not know (part 4):

The Perks of Being a Wallflower

My Policeman

Becoming Jane

Larks on a String

Submarine

The Danish Girl

Jeux d'enfants

The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society

Szarlatan

Brideshead Revisited

[slutfortbsl]

“touch has a memory.”

[evenasyoungastheyare]

My Policeman

My Policeman Book Club Wrap up 

Thank you W!  @wendersfive

[whozkay]

✨🌊 first :') reading of february: my policeman by bethan roberts.

01.28.24 ~ 02.14.24

i watched the movie first, and i loved it so so so much! a friend of mine gave me the book as a birthday gift since e watched the movie together for the first time.

i cried so hard watching it and when it was about reading, it was even worse!

marion can be a terrible person, but i know all the three ones were victims of society.

the worst part for me was that, even this being a fictional story, a lot of people had the same end as patrick :(

a really sad, but romantic story

🎧 soundtrack:

[catrawhispers]

just read my policeman and it healed my art block but broke something within me (my soul).

[larrylimericks]

3Nov22

**My Policeman spoilers**

Their love lived in whispers and hushes, Thieved glances and soft hidden touches. A graze of a finger For decades would linger — Time lost then time found ’tween brave brushes.

[louehlaufeyson]

[halos-little-freak]

He had to laugh at the love of his life being convicted whilst being terrified for himself and Patrick.

This part felt so much more cruel.

[tj-aesthetic]

[finexbright]

the last scene of my policeman is so poignant not because tom and patrick get to reunite and come full circle but because despite everything patrick's been through, he was still hopeful for this, maybe in dreams alone, but he held onto this. the only memory patrick has is of younger tom and when he feels that familiar touch at his neck, he completely crumples and reminisces about how tender tom was to him ages ago. patrick once lost a lover to the abusive ways of the system and then eventually lost himself to it and despite having been abused for his identity, he still just held onto hope and love because that was the only good thing, that was the only thing to get him through his horrific time. and when tom caresses his neck in the same, familiar way that it all started, you can physically see his soul relax and all the hurt leave his body. he fought for so, so long alone by himself that he just wanted to be held and when he was, he felt so much at peace. there is definitely something to be said about muscle memory and physical touch and the familiarity yet newness of it all, because while before it was the wistful longing and hope of seeing tom again, now it's replaced by this sated longing and hope of getting to see tom and live his last days with the love of his life. it's the reflectiveness and contrast of yearning and hope and longing and time and love and just this myriad of human emotions.

[1digyourcinema]

"Then he took my fingers from his lips and, pressing them against his groin, he asked, “Can you share?” “Share?” “Can you share me?” I felt him harden, and I nodded. “If that’s what it takes. Yes. I can share.” And then I was on my knees before him."

My Policeman

Harry Styles and David Dawson in My Policeman movie.

[ineffablemurderhusband]

sometimes i feel like I’m “not gay enough” to say i’m gay(I’m pansexual)cause when i catch feelings for girls its SOOOO much more different then when i like boys, with boys its exciting, if we accidentally touch hands i blush and start heating up, but when that happens with girls all that happens is i lose my breath, nothing as exciting. But then, i have a preference for girls(??)like, i need to get my shit together

[rainbowdefenceless]

"this love, is all consuming. i pity people who don’t know what it feels like to be this in love"

Movie: My policeman