#the grass is always greener on the other side

[lastsecondsquirrel]

The grass is so much less anxious on the other side

Like fucking clinically. Shut the fuck up about "well everyone's anxious"

it took me fucking 7 therapists at least one of which did more harm than good until someone took my shit seriously. That was 11 years for me. My hot years man. I think I might have been cute. And I'm still fucking agoraphobic.

[howifeltabouthim]

. . . he had some sense that other people had it better.

Taffy Brodesser-Akner, from Fleishman is in Trouble

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[iconwannabe]

finals season makes me regret quitting youtube back in 6th grade man i could've been somewhere else today screw insecurities screw laziness screw it get your ass up besties and work

[nunichuu]

[ There's a gentle knock on Nuni's door. ]

"Nuni? Are you in there?"

"that depends, who's askin'?"

[nuni presses their head against the door of their dorm.]

[prince-liest]

🌻 and 🎈

-🦌

🌻what makes you want to give up on writing? what makes you keep going?

Give up: Nothing! Unless you count external factors that temporarily stop me, such as being tired/burned out/not having time. But that's not giving up on writing, that's a "hey if you suddenly feel totally unmotivated to write then maybe you're more stressed than you realize!" red flag I literally made a rule for myself about back in college so that I'd pay better attention to my own stress levels, HAH.

As for keeping going, it's pretty much just hyperfixation and cooking my own food wrt what I want to see in fandom, with a smaller side of socialization, haha. I am, perhaps, not very complicated in my motivations.

🎈describe your style as a writer; is it fixed? does it change?

Lots of "show, don't tell," character-driven, and heavy on the emotions / light on the plot! Good at both feels and humor.

It's changed over time to be less lengthy, actually! If I wrote The Sword of Damocles is Swinging today, it wouldn't be 60k words, that's for sure, haha, and a lot of what I learned in the writing of it is why I haven't ever written anything that long since!

From this ask meme!

[kutyozh]

the sexual tension between me and Polish is so fucking insane rn

[flashys-corner]

the grass is always greeneronTHRE GREENER GREENER TALLYHALL YOU FIT JUST AROUND RIGHT NEXT TO ME AUAHFJHAB WHEEREVER YOU GO IS BREAKING ME SLOWLY DONT LEAVE IT AONE

[toadsrbutch]

I think the empty depression feeling is worse than the sad depression feeling tbh… pls let me just feel something rn

[samuhelll]

spires: yhara, the mouth & sepulcur, keeper of souls.

yhara, the mouth, is as her title suggests. as the mouth of Death, she is responsible for conveying his command, judgement, and rules with no biases and without interpretation. as she is his only means of communication, she is fastened by his side at all times and has been from the dawn of all creation. will be for all eternity.

it is believed that the original yhara was "excised" for dissenting to the destruction of another Spire, badulf, the failed usurper, and as punishment, she had her voice removed and fashioned into a music box, her body destroyed and remade with the only thing she left behind: a cut of Death's tongue. this new yhara, the current yhara, inherits none of the original's memories.

now, used and powerless, voiceless in every way except through the music box of her last self, yhara is barred from having any autonomy or thoughts of her own, existing solely as Death's mouthpiece. inside, she yearns for the day she is able to roam and feel as freely as sam does. she yearns to remember who she was.

sepulcur, keeper of souls. (pr. like the word "sepulcher") sepulcur's title, too, speaks for itself, although sepulcur's ultimate purpose is to construct a new moon out of all the collected souls in an attempt to revive the Maiden — Death's decree. sepulcur can be found in a rotting, impossibly tall watchtower where he is surrounded by the blinding powder-white lights of the souls, exposed every second of his isolated life to the smearing murmurs of their laments in life, their woes and their stories, their wishes and whom they miss.

this ceaseless exposure, being fed the whispers of the dead ad nauseam, have caused him to go mad, his memories and sense of self all merged and confused with those of the departed.

(i imagine sepulcur to look similarly to mi//colash of bl//oodborne [below] with a cage for a head.)

[aeide-thea]

every time an article of men's clothing is a little ill-fitted on me and there's an almost-identical women's version i wonder if i ought to just suck it up and get that instead—and that voice is the devil* talking

because (a) the ways it would 'fit me better' are also the ways it would be depressingly distractingly feminizing, like, that non-adherence to my actual form is doing important gender-affirming work for me! and (b) even if it looks like a plausibly androgynous garment on the female model, it always turns out to be noticeably not-actually-androgynous once i get it on—a scoopier neckline is the most common culprit but there's always something >:(

⸻ * disclaimer that i don't believe in the devil and i do generally want to avoid casually regurgitating christian turns of phrase but. you know. joci causa.

[the-monkey-ruler]

Dong Yue is such a troll because from the wiki I got this

At the end of the novel, the author lists twelve hypothetical questions that a reader might ask and answers them. Some of the answers are very similar in nature and, sometimes, contradictory.

The eighth asks how it's possible for Monkey to have a wife and children. He states that the book is simply a dream.

Since the Supplement is about Wukong’s desires, it would be funny if Wukong subconsciously thought Princess Iron Fan was pretty and that Demon Bull King didn’t deserve her (therefore uncle) and that she’d make a good mom for his 5 sons that he also apparently desired? Wukong desiring Tang to be a warlord though XD

Anyway bad timeline where everyone is OOC because it’s a fever dream sounds crazy awesome I wish I could read it.

Sometimes people are all about allegories, and nothing about substance! Which nothing wrong as long as it is entertaining. I do like how he anticipated the question because he knew himself, but he didn't explain them well enough. Also that Red Boy also doesn't exist in the book as it was said that these were Princess Iron Fan's first kids so its like Wukong willed Red Boy from ever existing as well! THAT IS FUNNY! He wanted a big family and no annoying nephew! Nooooo!

But you can read it actually it’s in English!

Here’s a link!

You are going to make a profile but still. Even comes with audio options if you want it out loud.

Have fun with the crazy fever dream!

While I will admit it is absolutely insane. I myself hope one day to have a script of how to make it into something of substance because I think there is a lot to work with. Time travel and inter-dimensional transportation aren't anything new but to know that this was one of the first 'time travel' books out there is pretty fun! It’s somewhere between a dream and a nightmare, where the dreams become so intense that they just go overboard. I feel like nowadays a lot could be played with, especially with how to look into what Wukong really wants and what he is willing to do to take it when in the middle of his journey. Like to measure himself mentally where he has changed from being willing to do anything in his power to get what he wants verse actually seeing the consequences of his desire affecting those around him that he has grown to care about and how their lives are ruined as well.

Sanzang becoming a general probably is too farfetched but the idea is that he becoming controlled by a Evil King because Wukong left and Sanzang lost his way. Now THAT can be interesting. Bajie tries to go back to Gao but as expected by rejected and thus he also joins the Evil Army. THAT is a cool take. Wujing being lost in all this and going back to hire hermit lifestyle, THAT IS SAD. BaiLong been forever, forgotten by his family and force the roam the Earth has a horse. THAT IS ALSO SO SAD. I don't know why people look any further for angst when if this story could be put in a more cohesive manner without the loose plot point or useless quests could be an interesting introspective of Wukong's desires have how they have changed from what he thought he wants versus what he wants now.

I do feel like a lot of the takes are more out of character but that is what makes it kind of scary and a bad timeline way. To think that because you (Wukong) can push people to new means. Maybe Wukong just wanted a big family before and missed his monkey, projecting that onto Princess Iron Fan who is deprived of both a son and husband and he understood that missing family. And maybe he feels responsible for both Bajie and Wujing on his journey to keep them together else they lose their ways and just go back to being forgotten criminals of heaven, nothing better than canon fodder. And his greatest fear of Sanzang losing his way... and becoming more like him. Choosing violence as the real answer to his problems, similar to Wukong. Any little desire he wished for Sanzang to be "more like him" taken to the extreme of him being a general sending out armies.

And it's that image of King Paramita, his desire for a family verse General Sanzang, his desire for Sanzang to be stronger (or rather just a little bit crueler to their enemies) being forced to confront each other in the climax!

Like I said there are a lot of wishy-washy side quests in the middle that really lead nowhere and are more of a commentary of the times and certain historical figures but there CAN be a lot of interesting plot points that could be SO MUCH FUN to play with! Wukong is always some of the first to say that he is a monk that left the family but maybe he still has that desire to be more than a grandpa to his monkeys and he a family man, but is that worth the cost of the friends he made along the way? I like to think that a lot of dreams are more his distorted desires which is what a lot of the book is. He even meets himself in a human form in the book which helps him out of his red strong of desire to help see reason.

It is only at the end when he sees the son he never knew kill Sanzang does he lose his mind, going into his giant form as he tries to destroy everything around him in a second.

But he can't.

Because he finally starts to wake up.

And when he sees that Fake Fish coming in as their "new" fellow disciples.

Man does NOT hesitate to snap his neck for messing with his dreams like that.

Have to admit that is definitely one way to end a story! But why anyone that is interested I definitely recommend it a read if anyone has the time!

[howifeltabouthim]

Are the only lives we want the ones were aren't living?

Anna Dorn, from Vagablonde

[isaut]

[immortal-cataclysm]

Thinking Abt bandee n how the first few dark matter attacks really did just forever alter his brain n he hasn't really "recovered" since

[thesunsethour]

imagine living somewhere where you can just. exist outside. like have meals outside and do work outside and it’s warm and even if it’s not warm it’s pleasant. for the majority of the year. i’m so jealous and low in vitamin d

[gramarobin]