DATE: 07.24 - 07.30
lAST DAY WC: 259
TOTAL WC: 2,114
CHAPTERS DONE: 1/2
THOUGHTS
The pressure of logging apparently helps me get things done, huh. I've got a very clear picture of the first and second chapter, so the flow of the first half is very easy and nice. I'm kinda satisfied with the opening scene, and I finally let myself edit during writing (or not being completely done with the chapter or draft itself), so I take that as a little success. Lonel's character is not neccessarily the kind I first intended, but I believe he'll evolve with time. While thinking about his personality, I almost strayed to work a little bit on Sasin, the story that will connect to this one, but I ended up not doing that.
I also very much enjoy the research on forensic jobs. Didn't even know there were vlogs about it? That sounds pretty extra, but oh well.
INSPIRATION SPARK: The Bear, Sons of Anarchy.
Honestly, the latter is so 2000s, it's painful and nostalgic in the same time. It also feels pretty boring, but there is something that tickles my brain in the right way to add to Lonel a lot. While The Bear is just so good, I re-watched it twice now. Lonel has some things in common with Carmy, and his journey helped me come up with the opening chapter, so.
i truly am baffled by some of the cr fandom when it comes to the topic of the gods and c1 and death in general because. the raven queen didn’t kill vax. in fact she gave him more time. she Does get the blame from keyleth and some from vex but even those two by the end were more so just holding grudges wrapped up in their own issues that were exacerbated by vax’s choices. but it was always vax’s choice. which, y’know, i’m aware of a portion of the cr fandom’s propensity for dismantling every interesting choice a character makes into something forced upon them, but the role of fate in exandria has never been like bad faith you must adhere to the path chosen for you, it’s much more like what brennan has spoken about wrt specificity: as one makes more choices they become more particular to a given outcome. but that’s not some curse by the gods that dooms characters that’s literally just. what living is.
and of course death is a complicated thing that everyone approaches differently but. god the amount of people who view vax’s dynamic with the raven queen as an injustice or his death as some unforgivable thing the raven queen caused some how? in the words of laura bailey, Were We Watching The Same Orb? it isn’t an injustice that vax, completely willing to pay whatever it cost him to save his sister, was bound to the Deal He Agreed To. his role as the champion was one he found meaning and purpose in. further, it was the raven queen that allowed him to be resurrected later in the campaign. like, it isn’t fair that vax had so little time but it is time he chose and time he was given, but vox machina tends to fall on the reaping the benefits side of unfairness of power in exandria. if what makes the gods — particularly the matron of ravens — irredeemable is that they have the power to make choices that mortals can’t like denying someone’s resurrection, how irredeemable must the group of heroes called vox machina (whose members drop like flies to be revived moments later) be to the everyday person who just has to watch the people they love die and make peace with it?
of course it sucks that vax could not have a happy ending or epilogue like the rest of vm, except of course, vex has a family and is happy and loved, and keyleth is strong and alive and protected, and i think that looks a lot like what vax wanted most.
oh btw heres a normal ref lineup of them and also they're naked
notes:
TR
- thinner limbs
- lean
- little bit of a gut
AGS
- short limbs
- stubby tail
- strong legs
- very fat (you know this)
ATT
- healthy combination of muscle and body fat
- broader shouldered
- long tail
- barely any long frills
SL
- short legs, long arms
- long neck
- surprisingly strong for a corpse?
UP
- weighs almost nothing
- acrobatic
- tiny
DF
- lower half of body is sluglike wires
- no skin
- large hands