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Dean Winchester x F!SLAYER!Reader

Title: “A Hunter & A Slayer.”

Character(s): Dean Winchester x f!Slayer!Reader, Sam Winchester, Bobby Singer mentioned.

Warnings: Mentions of smut, not enough to be considered smutty. Pregnancy is talked about.

*I do not own pictures, nor the characters. Slayer is based off of Buffy, but it’s not Buffy if that makes sense.*

When Dean was dragged to hell by a hellhound, it felt like my lungs had collapsed. My heart was ripped in two, and it felt like my soul had been torn from me.

I watched Sam hold Dean’s lifeless body. All I could think about was Dean’s last words to me:

“Listen to me. You are going to be fine. Live your life, baby. I’m going to be okay.” He said with tears in his eyes. I turned my gaze away from him.

Deans hands cupped my cheeks as his thumbs caught my tears. “Look at me, Y/N. Please.” He pleaded with me, until my eyes looked into his. “You are one of the best things that has ever happened to me. Who would’ve thought a slayer and a hunter could be together.” He said which a sad chuckle. “The day you laid me out on the cement, that was when I knew I’d end up falling in with love you. Even though you had a wooden stake near my heart, it turned me on in more ways than one.”

I smiled and he brought my forehead to his lips. Dean pressed his head against mine, “I love you.” He said as he ran his fingers through my long hair. “I know I didn’t say it as often as I should have, but I love you. I love you now and I’ll love you even when I’m dead and gone. I will always remember your eyes, your smile, and your hair.”

Before he let me speak, he pressed a firm, loving kiss to my lips. “Take care of Sammy.” He whispered, and those were the last words I heard, before my world stopped.

—

Sam cried over his body, “No…No…No, Dean.” Anger had taken over my sadness, and I marched out the front door, and climbed up into my jeep. I slammed the door shut and started the ignition. But before I could put the Jeep in drive, Sam pulled open my driver side door. “Where are you going? Wait for me to get Dean and we-we can go.” He said and I shook my head as I clipped my seatbelt.

“Sam, go get Dean. Take him to Bobby. I will be there as soon as I can.” I said wiping the hot tears from my cheeks. Sam wasn’t stupid. He knew me just as well as Dean did.

“No. Where are you going? Are you seriously going to sell your… this is what got us here in the first place, Y/N.” He couldn’t bring himself to say the word. Soul. I stared at the road in front of me. “They will take it in a matter of seconds, Sammy. I’m the slayer. I have pissed off a lot of demons, and they would love nothing more than to drag me to hell.” I whisper and Sam picked up my hand.

“Dean wouldn’t want you to do it, Y/N. He- he loved you. He would be angry that you would book yourself a one way trip to hell.” He said and I couldn’t hold my tears back anymore.

“I can’t live without him, Sam! He is and will always be my first love. I can never love anyone like I loved Dean! My teenage years got ripped out right from under me- I’m the slayer! I’m supposed to do this for the rest of my life, and he understood me. He understood me better than anyone.” I say as I hit the steering wheel with my fists, and Sam unbuckled my seat belt and pulled me out of the Jeep. I started kicking the side of it, “If anyone could have stopped that demon bitch, it was me! I was strong enough!” I said as my hand went through the glass of the rear view mirror.

Sam grabbed me from behind and held my shaking body. “I didn’t even get to tell him he was going to be a father.” I said out of breath, and Sam fell to the ground, cradling my body, as I cradled my bloodied hand.

His silent tears had turned into sobs, and he buried his face in my hair. We mourned his death on that ground, for more than an hour. Sam was the one who had to load Dean’s body- I couldn’t bear the thought of seeing his body torn and mangled.

Instead, I got into my Jeep, and I bundled myself up in Dean’s leather jacket. It still smelled like him, and that entire ride to Bobby’s— all I could do was cry. My baby was going to be fatherless, and I was going to be alone. How was I going to do this? Be a slayer and be a mother?

The two worlds didn’t mesh, and it would never work out. I have to go through this alone. Sammy and Bobby would be there, but I needed Dean. If Sam wasn’t following right behind me, I would have found a cross road by now.

-

When we got to Bobby’s, it was like the wound was ripped opened all over again. The next day, Bobby had cleaned up Dean’s body and put clean clothes on his body. Sam took off Dean’s amulet, and he gave me his ring. I put Dean’s ring on a necklace and wore it every day after that. But then, the two men started arguing on what to do with Dean’s body.

“We need to give him a hunters burial. You know that Sam.” Bobby said.

“No, we need his body. We’re just going to bury him, and believe me, I will get Dean back.” Sam argued, and finally I had stood up from the couch.

“Let’s just bury him for now. If we want to salt and burn him later, we can. But let’s not argue. This is not the time or the place.” I say as I looked between Bobby and Sam.

Bobby scoffed, “You’re the calmest pregnant woman I have ever met.” He said as he turned around and held on to the back of the chair. “Fine. We will just bury him. Come on. Let’s go find a good spot.”

___

After that, everyone had spread far apart. Sam was somewhere in Illinois, and I went back to Texas. I found a good rental house, and started a new life in a small town where every one knew every one. My slayer duties went on the back burner.

Sam came down every time I had a doctor’s appointment, and held my hand throughout this new journey. At this point, I didn’t correct the nurses when they asked if he was the baby’s father. A new glimpse of hope had opened for Sam, and I had never seen him smile so big as he smiled at the tiny fetus on the screen.

It had been four months since Dean had died, and I was now five months pregnant. My belly was still small, but if I wore a tight fitting shirt, it looked more rounded and bigger.

Sam had left the day before and I had the day off from new job at a law firm. I hated having days off because my mind would go straight to Dean, and I would find myself in a depressive episode. The only comfort I could find was by wearing one of his old t-shirts. I had one left that still smelled like his cologne, and his scent.

I sat on the couch wiping a tear from my cheek, when a knock on the door startled me. I rubbed my face, trying to hide the fact that I was crying. When I opened the door, I took a step back.

“Y/N, it’s- it’s me.” Dean said as he took in my surroundings, and I continued to step back. I don’t know what hellish nightmare I was living it, but I didn’t stay shocked for long.

I ripped the “decorative” scythe off of the wall, and began swinging it. “Get back!” I shouted with tears running down my face. “Dean” held out his hands towards me,

“Baby, it’s me. I know this is probably freaky as hell, but imagine how I feel.”

I swung the scythe once more, and when he didn’t back up, I ran towards him. Quickly, I swiped the demon of his feet, and stood above him with the wooden end of the scythe pressed firmly where his heart was.

Staring down at the face that had been stolen, I couldn’t help but to choke back a sob. “You have to be a shifter.” I say through gritted teeth, and “Dean” held the end of the scythe.

“Baby. It’s me. It’s Dean. Just listen to me, before you kill me! Your full name is Y/N Y/M/N Y/L/N.” When I started to not buy it, “Dean” started talking faster.

“You had long hair before I died, and before I died I told you that I wish I would have told you how much I loved you.” He whispered. “You have this small heart shaped birth mark on your collar bone. And uh, you make this sweet little sound when you get ready to..”

I dropped the scythe to the floor and I fell right on top of Dean. He sat up to where his back was leaning up against the side of my couch, and I wrapped my arms around his neck, and I wrapped my legs around his waist. I couldn’t stop the tears or my sobs that left my lips.

“Dee…. How..How could this have happened? How are you here right now?” My body was shaking, and his arms tightened around me.

“I’m trying to figure that out. All I remember is that it was lights out for me. And then strangely enough, these memories of me and you were floating around in my head, and bam, I was back.” He said, and I heard a sniffle come from him. We sat there in silence until his finger tips started combing through my hair. “Your hair…. Why did you cut it?” He asked, and I finally had the courage to look him in the face.

His green eyes were brighter than ever. He was beautiful- glowy, almost. “Because. Well, I don’t know. After we buried you, all of these emotions- I just couldn’t stand myself.” I said, and I looked up at him.

I had to be honest with him. Because what if one of those demons snatched my soul and I didn’t even know?

“I tried to make a deal. With a crossroad demon. Sam told me not to, but one night, I just couldn’t take it anymore. I needed you.”

——

The red eyed demon circled around me, with a proud smile on his face. “A slayer. Making a deal with the likes of me. So uncommon, and rare, might I add.” He said as his fingers ran through my hair. “A beautiful little thing. No wonder, why Dean was so fond of you.”

I pulled away from his grasp. “You know why I am here. Are we going to make a deal or not?” I asked, and the demon tsked. “Of course. But that pretty little soul of yours will only have seven years with Winchester. So is it worth it? I swear with you people, it is a never ending cycle.” He said with a smirk. “Can you imagine the glory and applause I will get when I drag a pretty little slayer to hell?”

Before I could agree to the terms and conditions, another demon showed up, but this time in a woman’s body. “Oh Claudius. What are we doing here with her?” She asked looking me up and down.

“Making a trade. Her slayer soul for Winchester.” He said, and she shook her head. “Are you stupid?” She asked and the Claudius shook his head. “I’ve been in the game longer than you, Tabitha. I know what I’m doing.” He said through gritted teeth.

Her sharp cheek bones sucked in, and she gave him a devilish smile. “Oh, really? You do realize that after she’s dead and gone, another slayer will take her place, right?” She questioned and Claudius took a step back from me. “I didn’t think so. Now come on. Pack it up and let’s go. We have other people dying to sell their soul.” Tabitha said.

Before I could even protest, they disappeared and I was left alone. In the dark. Alone. With a feeling of loss. And guilt.

___

After I finished telling Dean what happened, he sat there staring at me. “What the hell is wrong with you?” He asked, and I was taken back by his question. “Dean, you would’ve done the same thing for me.” I said, and he stood up and sat me down on the couch.

“This is the whole reason we were in that mess in the first place. I don’t want you to ever experience what I went through.” He said, and his eyes were filled with terror. “I couldn’t live with myself, knowing you sold your soul, only to get me for seven years.”

I stood up and pulled a small picture out of a book on the coffee table. I handed it to Dean, “Maybe not. But this baby would’ve given you something to live for Dean.” I said and Dean’s fingers held up the picture.

He fell back onto the couch, and his hand rubbed against his cheek. “You’re…You’re pregnant?” He asked and I nodded with tear filled eyes.

“I found out the day before… before we lost you.” I say and Dean got up and pressed his lips to mine. This kiss was different from his “I’m back” kiss. This kiss was hungry, full of adoration, and want and need.

He held my neck firmly, and I started to get weak in the knees. The four months he was gone, felt like an eternity, and the smell of his cologne clouded my senses.

Dean lifted me up off the ground, and I knew the drill. I wrapped my legs around his waste; slowly he pulled his lips away from mine. “Where’s the bedroom?” He asked.

“Down the hall, last door on the right.” I say and he grinned.

“Why Texas?” He asked and I shrugged. “This is where you kissed me for the first time.” I say and his lips slammed against mine again. Dean was good at multitasking; he kicked the bedroom door opened, then closed it behind us.

He pressed my back up against the bedroom door, and my legs were still wrapped around him. I removed his band t-shirt, exposing my breasts, and Dean let out a groan. “Seeing you like this never gets old.” He whispered against my lips.

Dean switched between opened mouthed kisses, and nipping at my neck. His hands massaged my breasts as he took each nipple between his fingers.

Slowly he pulled me away from the door and laid me down on the bed. “You’re wearing too much.” I said as I stood on my knees and helped remove his t-shirt.

When the t-shirt was discarded to the floor, I was shocked to see his bare chest. The scars that littered his chest, were no longer there. He was new. There was one scar in particular that I would kiss, because he always stated how ugly it looked.

I still pressed a kiss to where it used to be and he smiled. “I’m good as new, baby.” He said and I ran my fingers through his hair, and pressed another kiss to his lips.

I couldn’t get enough of him. If I could sit here and kiss him forever, I would. This was my version of heaven. Him. All I need was him, and my life was perfect. His hands snaked around my bare back, and he laid me down, climbing on top of me, with one knee between my legs, and the other on the outside of my body.

He kissed from my cheek, to my lips, all the way down to my belly button. Then he quickly pulled away. “What’s the matter?” I ask, and I look down and he’s staring at the very small bump.

I smiled and grabbed his hand and placed it on the bump. Deans eyes were bright, and he was in shock. The shock had finally sat in. “Dean are you-”

His look of disbelief had turned into a smile. “My God, you are beautiful. This really is happenin’, huh?” He questioned and I smiled up at him.

“Yeah—yeah, I guess it is.” I replied and he hovered over me, holding himself up on his left arm, while his right hand remained on my belly.

This kiss he pressed to my lips, was even more gentle than the ones before that. “Who would’ve thought. A hunter and a slayer. Having a baby. You and I, we’re having a baby.” He whispered with the biggest smile on his face.

His forehead was pressed to mine- and I was taken back to the tears that rolled down my cheeks when he told me to take care of Sammy. How was this my reality? I wondered, and my hand traced up to his left bicep.

Dean hissed at the feeling of my palm, and I removed my hand and looked at his bicep. A red hand print was burned into the skin, and my hand went to my mouth. “What happened?” I asked, and Dean looked back down at me.

“I don’t know. When I crawled out of that pine box, it was there.” He said with a look of disgust. I sat up and I pressed kiss to the red mark.

Dean looked at me and smiled. “I love you, Y/N.” He said and I pressed a kiss to his lips. “I love you more.” I said back and his cheeks turned red.

“I’m fixing to show you how much I love you.” He said with a chuckle, and as he pulled down my sweatpants he asked, “This isn’t going to hurt the baby, right?”

I laughed. “No. It won’t. Now come here, we have four months of catching up to do.” I say and Dean mumbled, “More like forty-years..”

I didn’t question what he meant by that. I was just happy to have Dean back in my arms. Who would’ve thought; a hunter and a slayer. Having a baby.

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I hope you guys enjoyed this random Supernatural x reader! Maybe a part 2 on how they met? 👀let me know in the comments!

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Whump Prompt #1084

Submitted by Anon - thanks!

How about whumpee who gets rescued, but whumper shows up to get them back, and caretaker is about to kill whumper, but whumpee doesn’t let care taker kill whumpee. And then when whumper is locked up in the brig (think the waverider brig in lot) whumpee has to deal with the fear of whumper somehow escaping, despite the team trying desperately to reassure whumpee that whumper can’t escape.

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The Absence Of Sound - Freefall, Chapter 3 || The Bad Batch x Jedi!Reader

Summary: The Batch catch a lead of where you might be, but is it too good to be true? And a certain angsty clone realises he doesn't have a heart of ice after all.

Warnings: nicknamed reader (Ghost), sleazy guy who cant say no, unwanted touch (a hand on the neck), swearing, canon weapons, The Boys being hot, Reader being a badass, arguing, tension of the spicy kind, mention of slight panic

A/N: The chapters in this series are split into sections, Before and After. The before chapters are set during the Clone Wars, before TBB, with a slight AU. Just a little heads up in advance for chapter 4... You have been warned. 🥲

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Tags: @arctrooper69

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“Well, I gotta say boys, I’ve seen scum in the depths of prisons look happier than you.” Cid strolled into the parlour, dropping a box of credits on the table, payment for their latest mission. 

None of them answered her, barely even acknowledged her, or the credits. As it had been for the past four months, the table was covered in maps, scraps of information, datapads old and new, bounty pucks, everything. Any hint of information, any part of anything that could be relevant. 

For four months now, in every spare second they had, The Bad Batch were searching. Hunting. 

Seeking out their lost companion, their fallen partner. 

You were more than just a member of their tight-knit, rag-tag collection. 

You were a part of them. 

And they couldn’t leave another behind, not again. 

“There seems to have been a lot of activity across these three systems,” Tech flicked through the information on his data pad, the holo in the middle of the table reflecting the same data, “Activity that would not be explained by our usual kind of enemies. Unexplained attacks at any given point of time, surges of energy that people cannot explain, sightings of someone that no-one can quite remember.” He adjusted his goggles, rolling his shoulders a little.

Echo was poring over a collection of bounty pucks, brow furrowed in concentration, “Would she have been that obvious though? I mean, we know her. We know how she operates, how she thinks… She’s our Ghost, if she’s in hiding, why is she letting herself be seen?” The answer already hung there in his words, but it felt like a curse to bring it to light, to snuff out a possibility before it even had the chance to be real.

“Because she knows we’re looking for her. She’s ready to be found. She’s telling us where she is so we can go and rip apart whoever is keeping her.” Wrecker growled a little, thumping on fist into the plan of the other hand, his grey eye smouldering.

“Hunter? What do you think?” Tech turned his attention to his brother, his sergeant, the one he looked up to. 

Hunter was staring at the scattered research across the table, rubbing his fingertips along his jaw over and over again, those senses of his telling him something, telling him this wasn’t right. He shook his head, “No…” It was a soft murmur, before he realised Tech had spoken to him, “No. Something about this isn’t right.”

Tech looked down at the data, ticking it over, “If we leave now, we will be at Moraband in less than two rotations. I can get us through jump points that limit the amount of time we waste. We can go to the planet and inspect for ourselves, what is going on.” 

Wrecker’s head followed the conversation, turning to each brother in turn before he rose from his seat, rolling his neck, “I say we do it. If she’s there, we find her. If not, we bust some heads until someone tells us where she is.” 

Hunter sighed heavily through his nose, skin prickling again but he nodded once, “Get everything you need, we leave in ten.” He just couldn’t shake the feeling that they were wrong about his.

Before

You had to hand it to yourself - you’d managed to make something out of the mess your life might have handed up being. 

That’s not to say your time in the Jedi Temple was unpleasant or unhappy, it wasn’t. They were some of the happiest memories you ever had, learning how to harness the Force and wield the legendary weapons you’d always dreamed of touching. 

Of course, you did come to the Temple under more devastating circumstances. An attack on your home planet when you were young caused chaos and destruction, turning your once peaceful surroundings into that of fire and blood. 

You vividly remember the moment it all happened, the moment the world turned in on its head and your parents ran with you through the wreckage of the town square, trying to make sure you didn’t look too closely at the scarlet staining the pretty cobblestones like oil.  

Running, running, running. 

Endless running until another explosion rocked the very ground beneath you, throwing you off your feet and ripping you away from your parents. Something pushed into you when you tried to stand, some kind of invisible, weightless energy that kept you down, hidden, seconds before a wave of those awful creatures tore through the plaza, gunning down everything in their path. 

There was so much dust, so much smoke. 

So much screaming and pain. 

When it cleared, the silence was terrifying, like all the life had been sucked out of the world… because it had. 

Your parents had drawn the attention of the monsters so they wouldn’t find you, clutching each other's hands in the growing pool of blood painting the floor. 

Such agony and rage and confusion, all shooting through your body, grief, helplessness - a whirling torment growing wilder and wilder, like the churning sky of a storm before it snapped and that same energy had burst out of you. 

It blew everything away in a ten-foot radius, leaving you in the centre, sobbing and clawing at the ruins of your home world. 

That was how the Jedi had found you when they came to help survivors. Sitting in the centre of a storm, near passed out from exhaustion and grief.

They took you back to the Temple, running a few tests on your Midichlorian count, and to see if you were okay. 

And everything went from there. 

You became part of Anakin Skywalker’s little unit, becoming best friends with his Padawan, Ahsoka Tano, and causing just as much mischief for General Obi-Wan Kenobi. 

The four of you were inseparable, working together in a beautiful, coalescent unit, and you even became close with Anakin’s Clone unit, the 501st, led by Captain Rex. 

Ah, how you adored Rex. His easy way of looking at the world, the endless calm that flowed out of him like water whenever you reached out with the Force. 

He commanded his men more like brothers, worked side-by-side with Anakin as though they shared the same blood too. 

Not to mention, he always had a soft spot for you and Ahsoka, and he was one of the first people to notice that you processed the world differently, after Ani mentioned it. 

Perhaps it was this difference that he saw, this unsettled, frantic energy thrumming consistently through your blood that made Rex suggest something. 

That something happened to be by way of a unit of five, Clone Force 99. 

The Bad Batch. 

A group of ‘defective’ clones born and bred for their differences and altered skills, who were efficient and always successful, even if their methods looked like one of Anakin’s mission plans. 

They owned the fact that they didn’t fit it, accepting their differences and turning them into their strengths and pride. 

Rex begged for help on the mission on Anaxes, considering you were the only one who believed his theories about Echo without hesitation.  

And it was there that you slotted in like the sixth puzzle piece. 

The boys were fascinated by you, and you were in turn fascinated by them. 

You weren’t as uptight as other Jedi Commanders they’d met. You felt things and expressed them in ways they’d never seen before. 

You laughed brightly, teasing them with a mouth that could have shocked some of the General’s they’d seen. 

You fought like a whirlwind, your grace and skill honed until you became a blur of light on the battlefield, leaving the Batch staring after you with wide eyes and parted lips. 

They witnessed your anger at the state of Echo, your friend, watched you tear through the enemy with your sabers flashing like bolts of lightning, your fury threatening to rumble the skies. 

Hunter marvelled at your efficiency, something they’d seen only in the brief time they’d known Anakin, but there you were, burning as fiercely as he did yet eyes skipped over you when it mattered. 

A storm, he called you. Always feeling and thinking so intensely, crackling with life yet no one knew when you were going to explode into light next.  

It was after that mission, when you were watching Echo choose to stay with the boys that you realised how right things felt with them, how you didn’t have to mask the fact that you saw the world through an altered lens. You didn’t have to master the emotions that sometimes bubbled over with no warning and dragged you through the undertow. 

Rex must have seen it too, must already have known and spoken to Hunter, because he took you aside and suggested that you stay right where you are, with them. With people who you burn brightly with and not be dimmed. 

And although you missed your friends, missed this family that had held you back from the precipice of oblivion… 

This felt right. 

This felt like home. 

They felt like home. 

The sounds of the cantina were a pleasant hum in the background, dulling your senses and providing a sort of blanket to dissociate into. 

It was another successful mission under your belts, another tally to add to your repertoires. 

The Marauder was being refuelled, so Hunter suggested you all do the same - considering Wrecker had again eaten through everyone’s ration packs… Again.

All the boys were seated at a table, relaxing after the mission but still with that keen alertness. 

It was your round of drinks, and you’d slipped through the crowd to the bar, ordering from the droid and just listening to the hum of everything around you. 

You watched the droid potter around preparing your drinks, toying with your credits on the bartop, flipping them in and out of your fingers absently, just to offset a bit of that lingering energy leftover from escaping possibly another near death experience.

Really, it was like being back with Anakin and the others, there was a remarkable similarity with plans having to be changed right at the almost moment for some reason or another.

The thought brought a faint smile to your lips, how you’d gotten a similar family yet one completely different, one that you fit snugly into and wouldn’t change for the world. 

“Now, there’s a smile I could get used to seeing.” An unfamiliar voice broke your haze, your sensitivity alerting you too late that someone was next to you, bordering on too close. 

Clearly, you’d disassociated harder than you meant to, since you were usually so aware of your surroundings and space, hating it when people you didn’t trust came too close.

Exhaling softly through your nose, you turned your head to the side, examining the male that had bothered you. 

He was human, older by the looks of his greying stubble and the flecks through his hair which was swept back with careless abandon but clearly styled as an attempt to look rumpled. 

He had pale green eyes which lingered on you with too much curiosity, too much weight that didn’t sit well on your skin. 

“Ah, well. Unfortunately for you, this will be the first and only time you get to see it.” You turned to face the droid again, senses now in complete focus but you put off reading his signature yet, not wanting to know what lived in his head before you gave him the chance to walk away. 

The man frowned a little, letting his head fall to one side against his shoulder, elbow resting on the bar with his chest open to you - a cliche sign of dominance if ever you saw it. “Aw, cmon now don’t be like that, I’m just playing.” He ducked his head further, that ridiculous smile on his lips that reminded you of a slimy beast.  

Patience. Calm. That’s what we’re practising right now. 

“I’m only going to say this one more time, and I’ll make it super clear for you.” You didn’t even look at him, instead nodding thanks to the droid as your drinks were placed in front of you, “You will not be leaving this place with me hanging off your arm like another trophy to add to your collection. You’ll be leaving on your own, okay?” 

The man visibly bristled from the corner of your eye, rising up to his full height and he sidled even closer, so close you could smell the alcohol on his breath, the stale sweat clinging to his clothes as they brushed your armour, “Is it because of those boys you’re runnin’ with? Those clones?” He scoffed, looking over at your boys and then back at you, “You realise they’re expendable, right? They’re all the same. You’re never gonna get anythin’ different. Whereas with me,” he actually gestured to himself, “You’ll have somethin’ you’ll never forget.” Then, as if he had bantha dung for brains, he rested his hand on the back of your neck. 

Every muscle in your body wanted to jump and rip his hand off you, to snarl in his face and laugh when he realised what he’d done.

But such anger isn’t the Jedi way, is it, Ghost? We shouldn’t be giving into such feelings of darkness. 

You rolled your eyes internally at yourself and then gazed at your unwanted friend with a stare that Ani and Rex used to say made Hoth look like the sands of Tatooine, “Are you really that dim, or are you just planning on losing a hand tonight?”

Your boys would make a meal out of him. 

Come to think of it, you’d make a meal out of him whilst they watched.

His hand flexed on the back of your neck, making your skin crawl, your stomach roil and you visibly saw the cogs turning over in his mind, trying to work out how to play this at an angle that you supposed would have you falling to your knees for him. 

The feeling of your skin crawling was suddenly soothed, senses pinging and alerting you to a familiar presence. A deadly one. 

The feel of howling winds and low burning fury, the cold crackle of something waiting to be unleashed. 

“I suggest you remove your hand from the Commander’s neck. She isn’t known for her patience.” The cool, liquid rasp of Crosshair emerged from thin air, arm extended and unwavering as he almost delicately pushed the muzzle of his blaster into the cheek of your ‘admirer’.

Despite the position he now found himself in, this guy still seemed determined to stick to his stupidity, “You think I’m afraid of a little girl? What are you, her bodyguard?”

Your body was suddenly washed over by the crackle of fires, of strength as hard as durasteel, the creeping awareness of another type of predator in your midst. And beneath that? A fierce protectiveness and loyalty. 

Hunter prowled over from the table, pausing just a few feet away. He was all broad shoulders and glinting eyes, one hand occupied with the casual flip of his knife, “You’re not all that smart, are you?” He moved between you and the older man, weight settled in one hip.

Said man in question scoffed again, hands held up in surrender as the tangy taste of fear began to spill at the edges of your senses, “Like I said, you think I’m afraid of you? You’re just some kinda jumped experiment, hard to be afraid of something with no life.”

Crosshair laughed softly, the velvet hum of a knife on steel, “I can’t wait to see how this ends.”  

His amber eyes flicked over to you, silently checking you were okay, that no harm had come to you. He probably didn’t even realise he was doing it. 

Hunter had that predator's gaze locked firmly on the man’s, pinning him with that smokey stare, just daring him to move, “Oh, we’re not the ones you should be afraid of.” He jerked his head backward, motioning to where you sat behind him at the bar still, head resting on your fist now, “It’s her you need to watch out for.” 

A smirk crossed your lips as Hunter mimicked exactly what you’d thought earlier, and you merely shrugged at the man with no attempt at disagreeing, sipping your drink as you watched the scene play out in front of you, “He’s not wrong there.” You slipped the edge of your cloak back, revealing just a small percentage of the glittering weapons strapped to your body, not to mention the sabers hanging at your hips. 

The man paled, his cheeks hollowing and skin turning sallow, “You - you’re a Jedi.” He opened his mouth, swallowed. Swallowed again. Then he licked his lips, a bead of sweat tracking down his temple, “I didn’t realise.” 

You were still for a moment, then slowly swivelled your chair round before hopping lightly to the floor, stalking toward him on footsteps that were silent, even though the bar was now quiet, bated, “So, you only would have stopped if you knew I was a Jedi?” You reached Hunter’s shoulder and he moved back a pace, allowing you in front of him without a single hesitation, “You're saying if I weren’t a Jedi, you wouldn’t have cared if I said no?” 

Crosshair hummed, pushing the muzzle of the blazer deeper into the flesh of the man’s cheek, cocking his head, “I’d be careful. You’re digging yourself into a hole you most certainly won’t be climbing out of now.”

He sputtered, opened his mouth, closed it again, trembling head to know now as he met that stormy, ice cold look, “I- I didn’t - I wouldn’t-“ He broke off with a noise, casting a glance around for someone to help him. 

But no one would. The other patrons of the bar had clocked you all as soon as you’d walked in, the painted armour of the boys and yourself, Wrecker’s size, Crosshair’s predatory sweep of the room, the sabers dangling at your hips, as well as every other weapon on your body. 

They wouldn’t help this man, not now. 

You smiled at him, a smile that was all fangs and fury, the silence of the bar allowing that smoky, dark voice to be heard within you, “You, you, what?” You laughed, hand barely twitching and Hunter’s knife slipped free from his vambrace into your waiting fingers. 

Hunter didn’t even flinch, merely rolling his shoulders and allowing a smirk to cross his features when you took his knife. It was a move practised dozens of times now.

The blade glinted in the dim light as you traced the tip along the man’s jaw, “You might be thinking because I’m a Jedi, I’ll be lenient on you.” Your eyes tracked the movement of the blade before flicking to meet his, “If I could be bothered to show you, you’d see the colour blade I carry and why you’d be better off with an actual Jedi.” 

He barely breathed as you nicked the edge of his lip with the blade, probably praying to every single thing he could think of right now. 

You heaved a sigh, a soft pout, “As it stands, I just came from a particularly difficult mission and I don’t really have the energy to waste on bottom-level scum like you.” A careless shrug, “Shame really.” You dropped your hand, still holding eye contact as Hunter extended his arm, allowing you to slip the knife back into the vambrace. 

The man sagged in relief, but only a few centimetres considering Crosshair’s blaster was still jammed into the side of his face. Then he snickered softly under his breath, “Knew it. All show. Just a pretty face tha’ keeps their beds warm.” 

Your foot paused before it hit the ground, body held with perfect poise and stillness, “Cross?” The tone of your voice was so light, you could have been asking for the weather.

There was the barest whistle through the air, a solid thump of knuckles impacting flesh and then a body hitting the floor heavily. 

A soft smile graced your lips now as the three of you walked back to your seats, “I’m starving. Let’s get something to eat.” 

Wrecker’s crow of delight filled the space, sparking conversation again as if the previous moment had never happened, and as if one of the patrons wasn’t being dragged outside spitting out teeth.

Now

He became aware of the footsteps trailing him fifteen minutes ago. Whoever it was must have thought they were doing a good job, or they didn’t realise exactly who it was they were following - as if the sleek grey armour wasn’t enough.

Still, he allowed it, if only to feed the curiosity tickling the back of his mind, the thrill that he hadn’t experienced in a while. If he was being trailed by an attacker, he’d have them incapacitated and on the ground before they could even blink… But maybe he would allow them a small chance first, just for entertainment. 

Just to feel something else other than the hounding desolation and anger constantly assaulting his mind.

And that itching, nagging feeling at his skin that had shaken him from his bed, the atmosphere in the room too tight, too charged. It was pressing on his skin, reminding him of not so long ago of the way the air would feel when you were wound up, on the verge of cracking.

Three more blocks, the wall of the fallen soldiers, his brothers, coming up before him and then the uneven thump of those feet was starting to grate on his already shredded nerves, igniting the cold temper he had always been known for. He slowed under the pretence of examining the names carved into the wall, each one clanging hollowly in his skull. 

One breath, then another, then - 

He swung round, blaster aimed, arm unwavering at the hooded figure lingering behind him who raised their hands quickly, “I suggest you think of a reason for following me very quickly. I would hate to have to ruin these floor-stones with the inside of your head.” The tone of voice didn’t even change, if anything he just came across bored. Empty. 

The figure shook their head, the hood shimmering with the movement but still keeping the face in shadow, “Forgive me, sir!! I wasn’t sure when best to approach you, my employer - they said not to give this information to anyone else, but also to approach with caution as-”

He flicked the toothpick from his lips with a near silent agitated grunt, ”Spit it out, my hand is starting to get tired.” A muscle twitched in his jaw, but his grip was unwavering. He had spent hours upon hours with a target in sight, hand curled around his weapon with his finger resting on the trigger, a trigger which needed only the barest touch from him before his enemy was on the ground. Hours spent willing his body into complete stillness, ready to burst into action at a moment’s notice.

A faint whimper, a half step back, “There is a storm coming.”

Everything in him turned to stone, the ice that usually encased his heart now sending splinters through his chest.

He hadn’t heard those words ever. Not once.

He didn’t even speak, simply sheathed his weapon, the memories threatening to break free of their confinement in his head. He turned away from the messenger, not caring who sent him or why.

There was nothing inside him but a raging, snarling, howling beast, clawing at its cage.

Desperate to be free, to hurt, to protect. 

And then, Crosshair ran.

As his feet pounded on the ground, he was battered with another memory, another flash of the past where you had been so alive, so vibrant, burning through the galaxy as you should do.

Every moment, both awake and asleep, he was given memories of you, even now, even when he could feel that your life was at stake, hanging in the balance. 

He wouldn’t know peace until you were okay.

~

Then

“What’s your problem, Crosshair?”, Your voice echoed sharply around the clearing, the sunset bouncing off the hull of the Marauder, the pounding music of 79’s a soft hum in the background. 

What was supposed to be a relaxing evening off after a mission had quickly turned south, leaving you and Crosshair hissing at each other in the club until the barman asked you to take it outside. 

Gladly. 

Crosshair was leaning against it, long legs crossed over each other at the ankles as he cleaned his rifle, “Problem? Oh, I’m not the one with the problem, Shade.” His words were all poison honey, dripping and lethal. He didn’t look at you, gaze focused on his task, a toothpick in the corner of his mouth as usual. 

Shade. That nickname only he called you, ever. 

You scoffed, pausing in front of him and crossing your arms, “No? Then what was that little comment about back there, huh?” Your gaze was all crackling electricity this time, ready to spit and spark, “What was it again? Oh, yes.” You held your fingers up to make air-quotes, “I’ll just run along to the next person that tells me I’m not bad?” 

He barely glanced at you, a careless thing that he knew just riled you up even more, “Is it not true?” 

That damn unruffled drawl, it made you want to shake him. Or strangle him. 

Maybe you would. 

“No. It isn’t true. You know I am very aware of what lives inside me, I don’t need anyone to validate that. No one.” The bones of your knuckles ached with how tightly you gripped your arms, if only to stop yourself from throttling him. 

How dare he? 

Now he finally looked up, spitting out his toothpick, “No? Then why do you go running to Hunter every time you need validation that you’re good?” He spat the word out like it offended him, pushing off from the ship and taking a step forward, towering over you. 

You refused to back down, meeting his glare with one of your own, even as you tipped your head back to look up at him, “You think I need validation that I’m good?” Stars, you were so angry. It pulsed through your body, making your heart rage and your blood heat inexplicably. 

Crosshair smirked, tilting his head, amber eyes fixed on you, reading every little expression on your face that he knew so well. “I know you do, Shade. What did you did today - that is who you are. I watched you tear through those traitors without a second's hesitation, without thought.” That liquid velvet if his voice was oh so tempting, drawing you in, wrapping you in his arms and coaxing you toward the truth. 

An ache was radiating out from your jaw where you clenched it so tightly, feeling that smokey darkness prick its head at Crosshair’s words, “Enough.”

He wasn’t finished. He stepped even closer, fully blotting out your vision, your senses with that velvet voice, “You were unstoppable. Ferocious. That is who you should be. Not bound by the rules of the Jedi you no longer follow. You should be using everything you have, everything you are.” The rise and fall of his chest was the only indication he was just as affected as you, “You have a beast inside you, Shade. Just like me. I’ve seen it. Time and time again. On the battle in Anaxes, when you tore through the people keeping Echo. Every mission after, I see that beast try to come out, but you deny it. Deny who you are.” With every word, his tone got snider, more sullen, more like a bite than a word. 

“I said enough!!” You growled at him, pushing your hands hard against his chest plate with a pulse of the Force, your own breathing heavier now as that beast in question shone through your eyes, seeing the world for what it was before you quelled it, stuffing it back down. “I’m not you, Crosshair.” 

You couldn’t. 

You couldn’t give in and let people get hurt again, no matter how good it felt, no matter how strong you felt. 

“No. You’re not. Because I wouldn’t have lied to myself over and over, I’d have accepted the truth.” Crosshair watched your internal struggle, watched you deny that half of your soul and he scoffed, shaking his head and stalking off to the steps of the Marauder, shoulders tense and agitation rippling off of him, “Typical. Why don’t you run along to Hunter? I’m sure he’ll pat your head and tell you it’s okay.” You’d never heard such viciousness in his tone. He knew where and how to cut you deep. 

Fury choked you for a second, along with something else, something seductive and intense and you chased after him, “The truth?! You talk of the truth, but what about you, Crosshair?!” You were right on his heels, the quiet of the ship enveloping you even as your combined emotions flooded the space. 

The walls, the chairs, everything rattled as a wave of force energy slipped from your control, butting up against him but it didn’t hurt him. As much as you wanted to strangle him right now, you didn’t want to hurt him. 

Crosshair didn’t even look over his shoulder, long legs stalking across the floor towards… anywhere, “What about me, Shade?” He even had the audacity to sound bored, like all of this was beneath him and you were just wasting his time. 

You growled at him, “You know exactly what I’m talking about. I see the looks, the comments, the way you clam up when someone else comes by us.” You grabbed his arm, spinning him round to face you, glaring up at him despite the seductive heat pounding through your veins, the tension thick, heavy, “Why do you hide that you care about me, huh?” 

The muscles in his jaw rippled, his entire body turning rigid and those honey eyes hardened to pure, solid gold. “Hide?” His voice was soft, caressing the word in such a way that you felt you were staring down a Loth-wollf about to bite. 

But you had just as much of that beast inside you, didn’t you? 

And you would never back down. “Yes, Cross. You hide beneath that mask of cold indifference, like everyone is beneath you, like you don’t care.” 

Crosshair cocked his head, hands clenching into fists before he folded his arms across his chest, his forearms brushing your own, “And what makes you think I do care?” His voice was still quiet, but you didn’t need to read his presence in the Force to know he was lying through his teeth, and almost succeeding. 

But you were too similar, the same sides of the coin, the same shock of lightning. 

“Bullshit.” You cut him off again, a laugh in your throat that was anything but humorous, only serving to irritate the pair of you even more, “I can see it. I can feel it through the Force yet you still act like this. You can’t try and convince me this is real. You’re lying to yourself, not just to me.” Your words cut like the edges of blades but you didn’t care.  

There was a beat of silence, a single heartbeat. 

Then he moved, pushing you harshly against the hull of the Marauder, a hand round your throat to pin you there as his other fist banged into the metal loud enough to have it ring in your ears, “I’m not the one lying to myself, Shade. You talk about seeing?” He was breathing heavily, head tilted down to yours, caging you in tightly, your mingled fury charging and choking the air, “Well I see what you so blatantly try to ignore when you look in the mirror. I see that beast inside you that wants to tear into everyone, to make them pay for you losing everything. I see it in the way you tear down fields of enemies without a second hesitation. And that’s what scares you. That I’ve seen is and I’m not afraid. Because I’m like you.”

You shook your head, opening your mouth to speak but then his hand tightening around your throat, thumb pushing into the soft flesh underneath your jaw to keep you there. It might have cut off your air slightly, but you couldn’t hide the faint hum of fiery pleasure, knowing full well it tumbled against his palm but you were both too furious to notice. 

Besides, he wasn’t finished. 

“You could be as… ferocious, as powerful as that all the time, if you just let yourself feel it. But you don’t.” His eyes were livid gold still and he leaned in, his words dancing across your face, hitting straight to the core of you, “You let go and yet still run to Hunter and let him tell you it was okay, it was just a slip of control, you’re still good.” His chest rose and fell sharply, “I would never make you be someone you’re not.” 

Your head spun, his words echoing in your mind, fuelling that confusion, that anger and you snarled at him, lashing out with the force but he held strong, “Why do you care so much, Crosshair? Why do you care what I am, what I do?” You couldn't lean forward so you pinned him with a stare, trying to catch your breath, “Why do you care so much that I go to Hunter instead?” 

Crosshair’s head twitched a little, as if he were going to shake it, “Don’t start down this path, Shade. You aren’t going to like where it leads.” His hand tightened reflexively, making you gasp a little and his eyes dropped to your lips, drinking in that noise hungrily. 

“Backing down from a fight, Cross? That’s not like you.” You narrowed your eyes at him, “You started this. You don’t get to run away just because the tables have turned on you. If you have something to say, say it.” The last two words were a hiss. 

He stared at you, then his face contorted in anger and something else you didn’t recognise, before he moved, his hand drawing into a fist and then he slammed it into the wall beside your head. The ship groaned in protest but he barely flinched, not even when he pulled that hand back and pointed at you, “I have been. But you haven’t been listening.” He held there for a moment longer, looking you up and down before he scoffed and walked away, a flash of something in his eyes… hurt? 

~

Now.

Crosshair didn’t even know where to begin unravelling what he felt around you, but he knew what he felt in this moment. What he would do.

He would tear apart every planet in the galaxy to bring you back from that monster that took you. He wouldn’t stop.

Ever. 

[hunter-sylvester]

I know you do character analysis, would you be alright elaborating about Hunter and his relationship with his parents? Everyone says he has mommy issues, but it looks like it could be a mixture of daddy issues as well.

I would fucking love to, Anon.

(Ao3 Character Analysis Series about Hunter)

I do think it’s very clear that he has mommy issues. From the small handful of references there are to her, it’s obvious. While he has clear on-screen issues with his father, he still keeps a picture of him and his dad on his bookshelf. His mother- however, is violently ripped from it. Something that can easily be read as a visual metaphor for how he feels about her absence from his life. Although I personally tend to write her as having been directly abusive which creates a slightly different whirlwind of issues, in either case she abandoned him. And we clearly see him display a fear of abandonment around Kevin. There’s a clear cause and effect there.

But I entirely agree that he also has daddy issues. It’s a noxious cocktail of neither parent being someone that understands him or knows how to make him feel at home. And it’s precisely that cocktail of issues that makes Hunter make so much sense to me as a character.

It’s not exactly my style to give fathers a lot of sympathy, but even without doing so, it's easy to see that everything Alan Sylvester does in canon shows he just has no idea what to do with Hunter. (Most notably when he literally gives up on parenting him in favor of dumping him in rehab).

He completely fumbles any weak attempts he does make at connecting with/parenting him and they all end in screaming matches.

“Sorry you’re just a little late with the whole ‘parenting’ thing” (when I tell you I feel that line)

Growing up with a parent (partially more, since his mother was around until 7th grade) present without anyone actually bothering to parent you, you end up growing crooked.

Can’t go any other way. Even if his parents were never mentioned, we’d know they were shitty parents based purely on Hunter’s issues.

In my mind, they’re both obviously neglectful. Evident both from the aforementioned quote as well as just the way that Hunter acts.

Each in their respective ways. His mother by literally removing herself from his life. His father by neglecting him emotionally, not hugging him, etc. (I'm assuming he never hugs Hunter based on the deeply awkward shoulder tap during the last scene of the film.) Also, this is a bit of a stretch based on vibes alone. But can you picture Alan cooking for Hunter? Can you picture them having dinner together? I can’t. It’s a bit of a headcanon but I personally believe Hunter has been making his own food for years. (note: this does not necessarily imply that he is a good cook)

Let’s also not forget that Hunter is just a seventeen year old boy. He is still a child (in canon). And a fucking troubled one at that.

One that likely grew up with nobody telling him it was ok to be him. No-one telling him he belonged. No-one showing him how to healthily handle his emotions. (This is one I blame heavily on the father.)

He had to figure everything out for himself. Reinvent the wheel at every step. Of course he’s gonna fuck up along the way. He’s just a kid.

Of course he freaks out when he thinks he’s losing Kevin, he’s already been shown that he can be discarded- and by one of the primary people that are supposed to be there for him.

Of course he’s a bit of a bitch about alcohol when he watches his father drink all the time and he would probably rather die than turn out like him.

I wouldn’t be surprised if Alan also contributed to Hunter’s inability to accept his sexuality. At the very lightest he’d be homophobic in that casual way dads are. The “I don’t care what they do behind closed doors” followed by the most homophobic ‘joke’ you can think of twenty minutes, if not seconds, later. But I wouldn't rule out more blatant queerphobia.

In any case, it’s a clear & constant signal that being queer is not something that’s acceptable for a Sylvester. And as much as Hunter fights his father, as much as I think he dreads being like him, he’s the only parent he has left at this point.

He still wants to be loved. He’s a kid. He needs a loving parent. Even if he, realistically, doesn’t really have one that’s worth appeasing.

Consciously, he’ll rebel. Subconsciously, he still looks up at his father and wants to be told he did well. He wants someone to be proud of him, he wants to be enough.

Call me a pessimist but I think at this point, even if Alan tried, the relationship is so laden with barbed wire that nothing is possibly getting through.

Anything would be too little & too fucking late.

Sorry that got a little fucking bleak...it's me, it's what happens lol Thank you for asking, Anon 🤘

[sillspore]

Rippling Pawsteps Outline (so far!)

i’ve been talking about my rewrite for a little bit now, and i think i’ll be calling it rippling pawsteps! or tagged ripples au for short. so far, i’ve covered the first two arcs vaguely. nothing much has been changed, mostly minor things and setups for arc 3. nothing is completely set in stone, so feel free to give me suggestions and requests anytime! i won’t be able to do all of them, but i love hearing what others think about my stuff and exchanging ideas :)

outlines below the cut! beware, it’s so long. oh and entirely raw. unedited. i wrote the outlines for the first arc as i read the books, and the outlines for the second as i watched moonkitti’s “i spoil” videos for them lmao

OUTLINES

INTO THE WILD

- Prologue is the same, sunningrocks battle (NOT the one Redtail dies in.), Spottedleaf delivers the “Fire alone can save our clan” prophecy

- Timeline is moved up a bit, Rusty is 5 months old, not 6 —same with Graypaw. When Rusty walks into the forest to hunt, he’s jumped by Sandpaw, who was followed by Whitestorm and Bluestar. Same conversation about joining the clan commences, but Bluestar comments that Rusty looks small and finds out he’s only 5 moons.

- The next day, Rusty is taken to camp, but by Whitestorm and Redtail. Redtail is still having empty nest syndrome after Sandpaw was apprenticed, so he’s super interested in Rusty. The same “test” getting to camp is done, but much less intense.

- They arrive at camp, same as canon. When Darkstripe and Longpaw threaten Rusty, however, Redtail threatens to body him because this is Redtail’s new baby, back off.

- Bluestar says shhh let them duke it out and rusty beats the shit out of longpaw and gets his collar ripped off

- Redtail takes the newly named Firekit to the nursery and introduces him to Graykit, who’s waiting for his mother Willowpelt to come back. Fire and Gray are instant bffs.

- For the next moon, until Fire and Gray are apprenticed, Fire learns his way around camp and clan life, and gets to bond a lot with Redtail. From what Redtail’s said, Fire will be apprenticed to him.

- Also during this time, Fire sees Longpaw’s warrior ceremony

- Firepaw is indeed apprenticed to Redtail, and they have fun for a single day before the sunningrocks battle where Redtail is killed. When Ravenpaw bursts into camp announcing Redtail’s death, Firepaw, Sandpaw, and Runningnose are wailing, and this is how the story introduces 1) the mystery and 2) clan culture’s death rituals and grieving process

- Lionheart is made deputy

- Bluestar takes over Firepaw’s apprenticeship, but Firepaw is held back because he just misses redtail :(

- Through this, Tigerclaw is very soothing to Firepaw and Sandpaw, trying to instill loyalty in them, so Firepaw has a relatively favorable opinion of Firepaw

- Firepaw and Goldenflower have a kind of nice aunty thing going on, she loves him, he loves her a lot too

- 2 moons into training, Firepaw is a natural hunter and while a bit slower at picking up fighting, doing very well regardless

- Frostfur and Lionheart have the babies: Brightkit, Thornkit, Cinderkit and Brackenkit

- Firepaw and Graypaw are hunting together at sunningrocks and Fire is angsty about it. Firepaw notes that it looks like there had been a rock slide, but Tigerclaw hadn’t mentioned that in the report

- Riverclan apprentices Silverpaw, Heavypaw and Shadepaw show up at sunningrocks, and get into a verbal spat with the boys

- Fire is aggressive, this clan killed Redtail. He screams for them to leave, or Tigerclaw will kill more than just their deputy. River kids are pissed, but one of em goes “huh???? Tigerclaw didn’t kill Oakheart. He died in the rockslide” Graypaw is like “what are you on??? Tigerclaw killed Oakheart in revenge after Oakheart killed redtail.” River kids are ???? no man oakheart never killed redtail. Redtail killed oakheart.

- Firepaw is upset, and tries to write it off, but the way the Riverclan ‘paws seemed really confused, not angry

- Next day, Firepaw finds Yellowfang and feeds her, Tigerclaw is furious with him because she has a bad rep, but Bluestar is pleased

- Yellowfang is a healet, and they are sacred: Firepaw did good in bringing her here and feeding her, but bad bc he also ate the rabbit

- Firepaw is grounded until the next gathering, taking care of Yellowfang, and learning Lore from her and forming the cute relationship we all know and love. Also Shadowclan things

- Gathering: Windclan is missing, Brokenstar yowls that Yellowfang is disgraced, and declares that they’re the ones who chased WindClan out of their territory,

- Firepaw notes how small the Shadowclan apprentices are, hmmm….. Here is where he learns about Littlepaw’s Law

- After the gathering, tigerclaw and gang + the queens are in an uproar over yellowfang, and darkstripe and longtail drag her out of her nest

- Bluestar admonishes them, saying Yellowfang is welcome in Thunderclan and she will not tolerate any harm against her. Darkstripe and tigerclaw look disgruntled, but longtail is SO shameful

- Bluestar announces her moonstone visit! Same group as canon, they travel but firepaw is soooo weirded out by tigerclaw like he’s being so weird

- During the sleepy time bluestar insists firepaw commune with StarClan too. He does, and redtail visits him, cue cute reunion, dream ends with redtail trying to tell firepaw what happened, “Tigerclaw…” bluestar then wakes the boy up

- Same visit, bluestar has the dream, loses a life to the rats. Firepaw notes that tigerclaw is oddly apathetic about bluestar losing a life right in front of him

- They race back to thunderclan, everyone be fighting fr

- Firepaw beats the shit out of a shadowclan she-cat, and witnesses blackfoot killing rosetail and trying to steal frostfur’s kits

- Yellowfang fucks blackfoot UP protecting the babies

- Yellowfang is made a full member of ThunderClan, and offers to help Spottedleaf with post-battle healing, hooray

- Lionheart was killed during battle, and bluestar makes Tigerclaw deputy. Ravenpaw is HORRIFIED, and Firepaw is uneasy due to his recent dream from redtail

- Ravenpaw finally tells firepaw the whole story, then they tell graypaw together

- Brindleface gives birth to ashkit and fernkit

- Bluestar tells firepaw she’s only got 2 more lives left, not 4

- Frostfur’s kits go missing :000

- Tigerclaw blames yellowfang cause she’d also missing, then the gang finds spottedleaf—firepaw is horrified, he wasn’t close to spottedleaf but they’d bonded over redtail after his death and he’s devastated that she’s dead now too

- The storm begins—Bluestar forbids a patrol to go out for the kits until the storm is over, tigerclaw pushes his “there’s a traitor in thunderclan” argument again, frostfur is increasingly paranoid and strikes ravenpaw when he comes too close to the nursery to check on brindleface’s kits

- Bluestar asks Firepaw to go find Yellowfang before Tigerclaw can, because she has a feeling he’d “put the clan’s wants above the code” = kill Yellowfang

- Firepaw goes to do just that, but sees the clan turning on Ravenpaw and decides to bring him to get him somewhere safe first. Graypaw sees and tags along with them

- They drop Ravenpaw off at the edge of WindClan territory to go live with Barley, and this takes like half a day before the boys are tracking Yellowfang

- They find her and it goes as in canon, she tells them Clawface took the kits and they tell her that he also killed Spottedleaf. They run into the ThunderClan patrol(which this time around includes Sandpaw and Dustpaw), Yellowfang gets the ShadowClan elders, they execute their plan.

- During the battle, Firepaw beats the shit out of Boulder and Clawface, Whitestorm stops him from killing Clawface but Firepaw still adds another deep scar to his face before sending Clawface running

- Firepaw helps Yellowfang with Brokenstar before he and the rogues leave, and they check on the kits. Cinderkit and Brackenkit are okay, but Thornkit and Brightkit have some nasty cuts

- They go back to camp, the kits are tended to by Yellowfang, Yellowfang is made ThunderClan’s official healer

- Bluestar names Firepaw, Graypaw, Sandpaw, and Dustpaw warriors, they are now Fireheart, Graystripe, Sandstorm, and Dustpelt.

- Fireheart and Graystripe declare Ravenpaw dead, found in ShadowClan, and Yellowfang obv knows they’re lying and is confused but doesn’t say anything cause she’s fucking based

- The book ends with Fireheart sitting vigil after unsuccessfully trying to tell Bluestar about Tigerclaw’s crimes, Tigerclaw glaring at him threateningly. He knows Fireheart knows.

FIRE AND ICE

- Book begins with the morning after the vigil, fireheart checks on the kits with Yellowfang. Thornkit and Brightkit will have their apprenticeships delayed while they heal, but Cinderkit and Brackenkit will be ready soon

- Fireheart doesn’t try to tell bluestar the truth yet, he doesn’t think he has the whole story bc he knew redtail so he knows redtail would never kill

- Gathering, nighpelt asks to keep the loaned riverclan territory, Crokkedstar calls him fucking crazy like what

- Bluestar reprimands Nightpelt, then says WindClan must be brought back, the other two fight back about it but in the end agree WindClan would be brought home

- Next day, Bluestar gives fireheart and graystripe the mission of finding the windy cats

- This goes exactly the same as in canon, including the gorge fight where whiteclaw dies rip to that bitch but i haven’t read leopardstar’s honor so i don’t even know his personality

- Fire and gray are given Cinder and Bracken as apprentices, and just like in canon Gray falls in the river and meets Silverstream

- Most of this book goes the same as canon, tbh. Tigerclaw is slightly less aggressive though bc it adds Layers

- Fireheart finds out about graystripe sneaking off to meet his riverclan babe and is HEARTBROKEN (this will be able to be read both romantic and platonic)

- Like fireheart is so upset and betrayed, he yells at graystripe for disloyalty

- Gray is a stubborn ass and yells back, continues to use his excuse of a cold to not do his mentor or warrior duties and instead lay about and meet with silverstream

- Fireheart takes over mentoring for both Cinderpaw and Brackenpaw, Runningwind helps sometimes and the two bond over Redtail a little

- Tigerclaw sets the thunderpath trap for Bluestar while she is recovering from greencough/losing a life, cinderpaw goes and falls into it instead while fireheart is getting catnip from twolegplace

- Fireheart is, once more, devastated. Graystripe arrives back in camp, fireheart glares at him, graystripe snarls and doesn;t talk to him

- Throughout the book i want tiny longfire interactions and firesand interactions, but firesand is sibling coded here due to fire’s relationship with redtail

- Next morning, graystripe has the same argument with fireheart as in canon, why didnt you tell me bluestar lost a life?! And fire’s like well you didnt want to speak with me…

- It goes similar to canon, but more aggressive on fireheart’s side—this man is petty and heartbroken and so, so sad. His pseudo grandmother mother mentor is so close to death and his little sister apprentice kid is on the verge of death and his best friend was too busy galivanting by the river with a pretty girl to care

- Fireheart blows up about how he wasn’t in camp when cinderpaw was in danger and if he had been he could’ve been fast enough to stop her from leaving, and about how graystripe has completely abandoned brackenpaw

- Graystripe calls him a disloyal untrusting jerk and this hurts fireheart soooo bad

- Graystripe is definitely in the wrong here but i want fireheart to have some spice too, he’s gotta have some sass to contend with longtail lfmao

- The argument was heard by the clan, most thunderclan cats are feeling weird about graystripe and how often he’s gone

- Sandstorm beckons fireheart to sit with her, dustpelt, and longtail, who are kind of a little friend group within the clan

- Dustpelt is still pretty aggressive with fireheart, but sandstorm is downright friendly after he saved her at the gorge and longtail is still sassy but not in the kitty racism way, so fireheart is surprised that he enjoys talking to longtail

- Soon after, fireheart goes to princess for more catnip and she hands over baby Cloudkit, woohoo

- Tigerclaw and darkstripe are PISSED, and most of the clan is relatively hostile about gaining a new member

- Graystripe sticks up for fireheart a little, but sandstorm sticks up for him too and that does it for bluestar

- Brindleface agrees to nurse him anf frostfur is super nice to fireheart, bluestar names cloudkit, bur refuses him a ceremony. Fireheart begins to feel a bit jaded, his best friend is betraying him, tigerclaw is a fucking kitty racist murderer, cinderpaw almost died, and bluestar is not mothering like mother used to. Mother is mothering like MY mother, which is never a good thing to be. Do better, bluestar.

- After this things continue pretty similarly to canon

- Brokenstar leads all warriors except fireheart out of camp and attacks, fireheart, sandstorm, and dustpelt defend that shit

- They are Praised

- Brokentail is blinded and now prisoner

- At the end, we have the shadowclan and riverclan vs windclan and thunderclan in the WindClan camp, fighting goes hard fr

- Leopardfur tries to literally kill fireheart, he asks tigerclaw to help, tigerclaw just stares at him blankly and watches. Fireheart manages to get away, attacking nightstar and going to help whitestorm, but he’s stopped by silverstream

- This battle goes a little different than in canon, bc fireheart actually hates her guts for taking graystripe away from him

- So when she comes to her senses and stops fighting him, he just hisses and swipes at her before she runs away. Tiny, but big effect on his and graystripe’s relationship. The boys are FIGHTING

- I want this to drive fireheart to seek out company in sand, dust, and long, so their bonds will be solid when graystripe comes to his senses and stops putting riverclan pussy over his home and family ?! long and dust are still iffy but sandstorm and fireheart become bros

FOREST OF SECRETS

- Opens with the next gathering, Fireheart and Graystripe are friends again but fireheart openly disapproves of graystripe’s choices, he insists this will end badly

- Gathering goes as normal, fireheart overhears elders talking about bluestar’s missing kits

- After the gathering, fireheart and graystripe go to see ravenpaw to ask for more information, when ravenpaw says oakheart died via convenient rocks fireheart is relieved and goes to tell bluestar

- On the way back, they hunt a lil and so tigerclaw doesn’t give them the punishment in canon, just yells at them and calls them names and stuff

- Brightpaw and thornpaw are finally made apprentices, their wounds have healed and they are strong, given to whitestorm and mousefur like in canon

- Ask silverstream about the rockslide, who gets mistyfoot who confirms the story

- Talks to graypool about the weird thing oakheart said, she tells gim mistyfoot and stonefur were thunderclan kits yadayadayada

- Fireheart goes to talk to Bluestar, tells her about the story, bluestar is completely unreceptive, snarls at him for accusing tigerclaw of such crimes but says she’ll let it slide because she knows he misses redtail and is just looking for answers. Fireheart finds this incredibly patronizing

- Fireheart and cinderpaw go looking for herbs, cloudpaw comes with and learns about deathberries

- All fireheart’s prophetic dreams are delivered by redtail and not spottedleaf

- Next morning graystripe is still knee deep in riverclan pussy so fireheart trains brackenpaw and saves cloudkit from that badger with sandstorm, tigerclaw punishes cloudkit for this. Fireheart is filled with rage.

- Fireheart sees tigerclaw sneakin to twolegplace????

- River floods, fireheart and graystripe report it to bluestar who is Oddly Worried

- Fireheart and graystripe go back out to patrol the river border and find two kits, save them, bring them back to riverclan. Every riverclan cat ever is super ungrateful about it, especially leopardfur, who is a bitch (i hate her. I hate her so mucg)

- Mistyfoot puts them in their place and thanks the boys, who promise to hunt for them

- I’m not doing the plot where they hunt from thunderclan territory tho

- Idk how yet but i’ll have them hunting outside of it and bringing that prey to riverclan

- Riverclan is grateful, but cloudkit followed them and tigerclaw used that to find out and bring them back to camp yelling traitor!!!! Traitor!! Bwuetsar he huwt my feewings by feeding stawving wiverclan cats :(

- Bluestar punishes them lightly for not telling her and sneaking around, but praises them for helping riverclan

- She sends then out to hunt and forbids them to eat until next sunrise, like apprentices, and longtail gloats a little calling fireheart firepaw and fireheart threatens to rip his other ear and longtsail shuts up bc he’s scared and also a little attracted, i think

- Before the next gathering, the stream thunderclan usually has to cross is too inflated due to the flood. Tigerclaw makes fireheart test a branch to get across, fireheart falls and almost drowns, longtail saves him though and genuinely seemed concerned for fireheart’s safety

- Fireheart locks eyes with murderclaw and knows he was trying to kill him yippee

- Cinderpaw becomes yellowfang’s official apprentice

- Gathering comes, bluestar takes most warriors and they get to the gathering by crossing through shadowclan territory, bc there is no other way

- At the gathering, nightstar reveals bluestar is sheltering brokentail, windclan and shadowclan are piiiiiissed and threaten to attack

- Shadowclan refuses to let thunderclan get home through their territory

- Riverclan lets them use theirs, fireheart notices how similar bluestar, mistyfoot, and stonefur look

- Fireheart is once again training graystripe’s apprentice when brackenpaw sees the windclan and shadowclan cats getting ready to attack them so they race to camp, commence the attack

- Brokentail lives, thunderclan wins the attack

- Brackenfur is made a warrior, thanks fireheart but not graystripe bc brackenfur hates him why would he not wtf

- Graystripe leaves and silverstream is given birth, cinderpaw helps and tigerclaw witnesses it and clearly hates children

- Silverstream dies. Rip

- Fireheart and cinderpaw take the kits back to camp, and goldenflower agrees to nurse them

- Bluestar talks to fireheart and she knew this would happen bc she too fell foe the charms of riverclan pussy, here goes her backstory bc fireheart figured her shit out

- Graystripe has buried silverstream and says where are the kits to bury and firehearts like wtf they're alive and graystripe goes :0

- Cloudpaw is firehearts new apprentice that’s crazy

- They visit princess, who tells them about strange cats in twolegplace

- Back in thunderclan, riverclan wants silverstreams babies

- Fuck you says fireheart

- Maybe not fuck you says bluestar

- Later, on a hunting mission sees tigerclaw meeting with cats from twolegplace, fireheart realizes they’re going to attack thunderclan and goes home to warm them

- Attack, wow

- Tigerclaw slips into bluestar’s den to kill her and reveals his evil plan but fireheart stops him, oh em gee

- Fight’s over, sandstorm and graystripe are holding tigerclaw down bc he has like fucking rabies idk that bitch is crazy

- Bluestar tells fireheart to reveal all he knows about tigerclaw to the clan

- Tigerclaw is exiled, asks each of his lackeys to go with him

- Ummmm. You left me out of this plot and i’m upset with you so no - darkstripe

- What the fuck. You tried to kill bluestar??? No???? - Longtail

- Bitch you killed my mentor??? What??? - dustpelt

- Rip tigerclaw he was funny (sike)

- Fireheart sees yellowfang kill brokentail

- Right before moonhigh, bluestar makes fireheart deputy

- Everyone is shocked but most of the clan has a good opinion of fireheart atm bc he saved bluestar

- Riverclan comes to take the kits, bluestar says fuck you but graystripe says no fuck me :( i will give riverclan my babiees

- Fireheart helps him take the babies to the border, graystripe reveals he’s going to riverclsan too, fireheart is sad

RISING STORM

- Opens the same as canon, fireheart out hunting with cloudpaw — cloudpaw is being a little shit, disobeying and acting very egotistical. Cloudpaw calls fireheat a loser. Fireheart watches as cloudpaw storms off to go hunt and so he heads back to camp

- He assigns some patrols, fumbling a little, poor boy is struggling and not used to being in charge

- Whitestorm tells him ashkit and fernkit are ready to be apprenticed, so fireheart goes off to tell bluestar

- Like in canon, bluestar asks if he or graystripe can mentor them, even though fireheart already has cloudpaw and graystripe is gone. Bluestar is losing it, and doesn't trust anyone in clan

- Fireheart tries to work out who should be mentors for the kiddos, and choses dustpelt and sandstorm. Yes in canon yellowfang tells him it’s not a good idea to have two inexperienced warriors mentoring at the same time, but like bluestar did it in fire and ice with fireheart and graystripe so i disagree. Give sandstorm that apprentice

- Fireheart has the moment where bramblekit’s eyes scare the bejeezus out of him, goldenflower makes her slay threat to kill anyone who hurts her babies

- Apprentice ceremony, darkstripe is irritated about the lack of an apprentice

- Sandstorm is over the MOON

- Fireheart is irritated with Cloudpaw, Longtail sits next to him and they Converse, Longtail says not to worry, that some apprentices are just rebellious and need time

- Cloudpaw finally comes back that night, with one piece of prey. Fireheart is pissed and scolds him, forbidding him from eating from the prey pile and cloudpaw is outraged

- Bluestar decides to go to the Moonstone, takes only fireheart bc she only trusts him

- Mudclaw stops them on the way there, Fireheart says they’re breaking the warrior code by preventing Bluestar from communing with StarClan, Mudclaw doesn;t care

- Fireheart and Bluestar turn back, and soon the next gathering is held

- While they were gone, Cloudpaw was supposed to be training with Runningwind but he ran off on his own

- Fireheart tries to convince Bluestar to tell Tallstar of his warrior’s conduct, but she refuses

- Gathering, bluestar announces Brokentail is dead and Fireheart is the new deputy. She refuses to tell anyone what happened with Tigerclaw, Fireheart assumes it is because of shame

- Littlecloud and Whitethroat are found by the Owl Tree, begging for food and herbs. Like in canon, Bluestar is worryingly suspicious, and Yellowfang says they have an old ShadowClan disease that is known to wipe clans and they’re kicked out

- Sandstorm and Fireheart accompany them to the border, discovering the thunderpath tunnel

- Fireheart notices how fat Cloudpaw is getting lmao

- Joint apprentice training sesh with fireheart, cloudpaw, longtail, and swiftpaw. Fireheart notices how kind longtail is to swiftpaw….hmmm…….

- He sees Cloudpaw begging for kittypet food, he is HORRIFIED

- Fireheart sees this as an attack on him and how hard he’s worked for the clan to see him as loyal — he completely blows up on Cloudpaw, worse than in canon

- Cloudpaw is completely nonchalant, he thinks he should be able to do whatever he wants

- Fireheart tries to lecture him about the warrior code, to no avail

- Willowpelt gives birth to Sootkit, Rainkit, and Sorrelkit

- Drought, fireheart goes to get wet moss hoping to run into graystripe, instead he stumbles upon the sickly ShadowClan cats. He’s a lot nicer to Cinderpelt about this issue than in canon bc like damn there was no need

- Sandstorm and fireheart follow cloudpaw to Twolegplace like canon, seeing the twoleg take Cloudpaw away in the monster

- Fireheart says now he has no kin and his adoptive sister Sandstorm is super offended

- Ashpaw misses cloudpaw :(

- Redtail dream again

- Cinderpelt says his dreams are dumb stop focusing on the past and start focusing on the NOW, fireheart!!! Fireheart says huh??? Cinderpelt says oh my god you’re so stupid i don’t understand why longtail likes you so bad

- Fireheart is strangely flustered by this information

- Himbo energy

- Mousefur, runningwind, and thornpaw were attacked by rogues, including tigerclaw, tigerclaw nerfs runningwind

- Fireheart is So sad. Poor boy

- Like in canon, whitethroat dies via car while being chased by fireheart

- Tigerclaw and fireheart go at it, tigerclaw is insufferable like usual

- This makes bluestar Worse

- The whole saving cloudpaw happens exactly as canon, ravenpaw tells em he’s in a house near highstones and they yoink him home, on the way back fire sand and cloud beat the fuck outta those windclan guys

- Cloudpaw says he was stolen and everyone believes him

- Bluestar gets worse

- Everyone’s eepy until Redtail comes to Fireheart in his dreams again, and Fireheart smells smoke oh no smoke?!?!

- During this fireheart and longtail have a Moment

- SO tempted to make fireheart save yellowfang instead of bramblekit here bc god do i find that guy insufferable but firebaby would never

- Yellowfang death scene :( bluestar is losing it 🙁

- After going back to camp, bluestar hides away and fireheart is the defacto leader

- Gathering! Tigerclaw is now tigerstar and oh shit uh that’s bad uh oh

A DANGEROUS PATH

- Gathering, just as in canon, Fireheart freaking out over Tigerstar, Tallstar is uneasy

- Graystripe disobeys Leopardfur to give ThunderClan free fish slay

- Cinderpelt gets the “pack, pack, kill, kill” dream, Fireheart takes this much more serious than in canon

- Fireheart tries to get Bluestar to make Cloudpaw, Swiftpaw, Brightpaw, and Thornpaw warriors. She does not

- Brackenfur notices Snowkit is not like the other girls

- Med cat meeting Littlecloud is now becoming a doctor! Congrats, you gay little kitty you

- Graystripe tells how Tigerstar and Leopardfur are talking in secret

- Graypool missing, fireheart sees her reveal that oakheart has two thunderclan kits before he kills her rip that cool old lady

- Bramblekit catches a mouse :)

- Snowkit is Deaf, but with much less ableism than in the books??? Bluestar is a little ableist but it’s because she’s losing it. Speckletail is angry

- Thornpaw scent dogs wow

- Tell bluestar, she says that would never happen thats crazy talk why would dogs be in the woods lmaoooo

- Hawk attempts to drag snowkit off. Brackenfur says fuck you i adopted him already so snowkit does NOT die but he does get some gnarly scars

- Bluestar claims starclan must be taking revenge on the clan

- Cloudpaw doesnt believe in starclan cray

- Gathering we get strangely emotionally connected to Gorsepaw from WindClan. Nothing bad will happen to him i’m sure

- Leopardstar is a leader now, and sucks just as much.

- Bluestar accuses windclan of prey stealing, snarling occurs, yadayada

- Next day fireheart catches darkstripe taking tigerstar’s murder babies to meet him at the border. Wtf

- fireheart rallies the warriors to disobey bluestar and prevent the fight, he uses ravenpaw to arrange the fourtrees meeting, peace is secured but bluestar is pisseddddd

- Same losing it talk as in canon that shit went hard

- Fireheart and longtail anguish about bluestar losing it, longtail’s upset over swiftpaw’s lack of promotion, and fireheart confides in him about her mental decline

- Bluestar leads patrol sunningrocks leopardstar tries to take it cue fight

- Mistyfoot and stonefur try to kill Bluestar, but Fireheart goes wait no shes your mama!!!!!

- Graystripe is reabsorbed into ThunderClan

- After the battle, Bluestar makes only Cloudtail a warrior because he doesn’t believe in StarClan and she likes that about him

- Swiftpaw and brightpaw are enraged

- They go after the dogs as in canon, they go after the dogs — but in my rewrite they both survive fuck you!

- Bluestar gives them their warrior names on their deathbeds, Lostface and Dogscar. Fun, but nobody likes this.

- Bramblepaw apprenticed to fireheart and tawnypaw to brackenfur

- Fireheart tells the kids the truth about their dad, they’re heartbroken

- Next gathering tigerstar demands his babies, bluestar says maybe next month idk

- Longtail warns Fireheart that he’s found a trail of rabbits, fireheart’s like fuck

- From here it proceeds exactly as canon, with Brindleface’s death and the plan to kill the dogs. Bluestar dies, and tigerstar watches angrily

- Fireheart better get ready for his imminent promotion

THE DARKEST HOUR

- Oh look it’s his imminent promotion! Hello firestar! Mourning bluestar times and then highstones journey (lives from lionheart, redtail, spottedleaf, runningwind, bluestar, yellowfang, rosetail, brindleface, and either gorsepaw or silverstream)

- Prophecy

- Tigerstar meeting with scourge so cute

- Whitestorm, i promote thee to deputy

- Bramblepaw and firestar bond training

- Darkstripe fucking feeds sorrelkit deathberries what a bitch

- Get exiled loser

- Tawnypaw is sad

- Ceremonies! Thornclaw is a big boy now. Lostface and Dogscar are now Brightheart and Swiftscar :)

- bright/cloud/swift is very clearly A Thing

- Longtail and firestar are very obviously mates

- Gathering, tigerclan is a thing now. Thunder and wind are Offended, clouds on the damn moon prevent Firestar from sharing Tigerstar’s emo backstory with the clans

- Tigerstar is scary

- firestar , graystripe, and ravenpaw save featherpaw, mistyfoot and stormpaw from tigerclan. Rip stonefur

- Tawnypaw is gone?? Wtf tawnypaw >:(

- Tigerclan attacks windclan, tigerstar kills gorsepaw, thunderclan gets there too late

- Tigerstar asked tallstar and firestar to meet at fourtrees to talk about joining him. The boys are concerned

- Tawnypaw is with Tigerstar at fourtrees, bramblepaw is upset

- Tigerstar introduces bloodclan, who don’t listen to his orders

- Firestar tells everyone Tigerstar’s crimes, and scourge decides to instant k.o. Tigerclaw and fucks off before telling everyone he will come back to take the forest in three days

- Training montage. sandstorm trains the kits to kill

- Whitestorm kinda wants to leave instead of fighting

- Firestar gets riverclan and shadowclan to fight with him, minus darkstripe cause he’s a bitch

- Lionclan at war fr

- Darkstripe attemps to kill fireheart but graystripe kills him instead :0

- The apprentices maul bone in revenge for whitestorm’s death

- Firestar saved onewhisker from the scary baby but loses a life rip

- Scourge is like hehe i won but when he turns around ed sheeran gets up

- What??!!!!??!?

- I have god, says Firestar.

- Scourge dies

- Bloodclan leaves

- Mistyfoot deputy of riverclan <3

- Blackfoot is NOT leader of shadowclan, because he’s fucking evil???

- I say we promote Darkflower because she’s a slay and also unknown so easy to make antagonistic

MIDNIGHT

- Leafpaw and Crowpaw pov

- Squirrel and bramble fight so much

- Bramble comes to leafpaw about a weird starclan dream he had…..

- Cut to crowpaw, having the same weird dream

- The journey cats meet, through crowpaw’s eyes. Scathing commentary on everyone srs

- Crowpaw hates everyone and wants to never be spoken to

- Crushes on feathertail so hard

- Brambleshade collects everyone to tell them they need to go on the journey

- Cinderpelts prophecy thing…..

- Leafpaw gives em herbs and squirrel and bramble take off

- Leafpaw has a crush on mothwing and it’s so obvious

- Purdy helps the travelling cats! Crowpaw opens up to feathertail

- rats . uh oh

- Squirrelpaw knows the herb to help bc leafpaw is a nerd and infodumps her all the time

- They meet badger!

- Leave the forest. The forest is dying. Uh oh.

- End with Leafpaw pov in ThunderClan, uh oh tractors

- At some point during this book snowpaw becomes a warrior. Snowsight??? His eyes would be his best sense idk

STARLIGHT

- Stormfur and feathertail pov

- Stormfur is upset that crowpaw likes feathertail, because he knows how badly half-clan relations usually end

- Purdy is helping, midnight fucks him up, group goes to the mountains

- Stormfur is attacked by a bird. Yikes.

- Everyones swept away by water aw man

- They are freezing to death, tribe helps them as long as they let them keep stormfur. Brambleshade and feathertail are upset about this

- Stormfur finding out about the cougar fr

- Brook! Brook and stormfur

- Brambleshade is edgy

- Tribe tells stormfur to kill their cougar and they’ll let his friends go

- The group is allowed to leave, without stormfur

- Come back to save stormfur when cougar is fucking around

- Brambleshade is apathetic about the tribe’s lives

- Tribe found their hideout. Starclan shames stormfur for not facing the mountain lion

- Squirrelpaw says deathberries?

- Cougar!!!! Sharptooth!!!!!

- Feathertail and sharptooth impaledcore

- Stormfur is heartbroken

- Decide to go home

- Epilogue, leafpaw pov again. Everyone is starving and dying and leafpaw gets trapped by twolegs with like sorreltail i think

DAWN

- Tawnypelt and squirrelpaw pov

- Leafpaw in a cage fr

- Sasha!!!

- gathering/meeting, journey cats arguing ensues

- Leopardstar and darkstar are very against leaving, tallstar is contemplative, and firestar is anxious

- Squirrelpaw and sorreltail save leafpaw, graystripe gets yoinked

- Larchkit and hollykit die. So does Shrewpaw

- Leafpaw and cinderpelt go to riverclan bc mudfur is dying rip

- Windclan and tawnypelt ask thunderclan for help, they r dying

- Evacuating shadowclan

- All clans hang at sunningrocks

- Elders stay behind to die

- Sasha wants her kids. Announces they were fathered by tigerstar. This changes nothing

- So much walking

- Over the mountain!!!! Crazy

- Mudclaw sucks ass

- Apprentice dies. Rip

- Brackenfur smacks a hawk and saves a kit

- Leafpaw looks into tribe water thing meets their ancestors

- Crowpaw is now crowfeather.

- Stormfur stays with the tribe and his wife and his sister’s grave

- brambleshade and squirrelpaw are becoming friendly

- Lake!

STARLIGHT

- Crowfeather. Crowfeather and leafpaw pov

- Clans sit near horceplace, firestar tries to be a leader, mudclaw spits at him

- Squirrelpaw evolves into Squirrelflight

- Prophecy kitties walk around the lake. Plus mistyfoot

- Crowfeather notices leafpaw and mothwing hanging out

- Mistyfoot finds riverclan territory

- Kittypet attack

- Squirrelflight finds thunderclan camp

- Brambleshade and hawkfrost are friends now. Ew, says squirrelflight

- Squirrelflight is love bombed by ashfur

- Tallstar is dying. Tallstar does not want mudfur to lead windclan. He promotes onewhisker

- They announce this. Crowfeather is unhappy. Mudclaw is unhappy.

- Hawkfrost wants that islandQ!!!! Ugh!!!!!!

- Hawkfrost and brambleshade are besties

- Spiderpaw now spiderleg. Mousefur retires

- Mothwing is an atheist

- Spottedleaf tells leafpaw to go find the moonpool

- Sorreltail comes with her

- Leafpaw sips moon water

- Squirrel and bramble r fightingggg

- Crowfeather in the windclan civil war

- Leafpaw is leafpool

- Hawkfrost and mudclaw tag team attack windclan, thunderclan comes to help and mudclaw gets smited by god

- This lets everyone meet for gatherings at fourtrees

- Crowfeather is emo

TWILIGHT

- Squirrelflight pov, leafpool pov

- Squirrel is worried about brambleshade’s loyalties bc of hawkfrost, and hangs with ashfur and gang.

- Bramble is being weird

- Everyone attacks a badger

- Leafpool is in love with mothwing. Sorreltail is pregnant. Leafpool is pregnant.

- Squirrel and ashfur fight, ashfur is being fucking weird

- Thunderclan visit windclan, onestar hurts firestar’s feelings

- Feathertail tells leafpool she should totally run away with mothwing

- Birchkit apprenticed to ashfur. squirrelflight is grateful bc this makes him leave her alone a little

- Cinderpelt is mad at leafpool for sneaking off all the time (she’s visiting her wife, mothwing, who’s babies she starts having during their argument)

- Babies. The three are born. The clan is curious, and suspicious, but under the code leafpool doesn’t have to tell anyone where her kits came from

- Brambleshade and squirrelflight are still fighting

- Medicine cats have scary dreams

- Daisy brings her kits to thunderclan. Spiderleg is mad

- Leafpool goes to have mothwing with riverclan’s issues

- Cinderpelt tries to convince leafpool not to run off, but leafpool takes her kits and meets up with mothwing, about to run away

- Squirrelflight is looking for leafpool. Brambleshade and squirrelflight are tired of fighting

- Midnight tells leafpool to go back to the clans they r dying of badgers

- Sorreltail is giving birth, cinderpelt dies protecting them, leafpool gets back just in time to watch her die

- Midnight makes the badgers stop

- Stormfur and brook appear

SUNSET

- Brambleshade pov. Finally. leaf pov

- We immediately see he’s training in the dark forest with tigerstar, tawnypelt, and hawkfrost

- We also see that he wants to be deputy SO bad, and wonders why longtail couldn’t have just stepped down when he was blinded

- Stormfur and brook are visiting in thunderclan

- Sorreltail’s babies, yay

- Midnight implies stormfur is important

- Brambleshade tries to make up with squirrelflight, who is receptive

- Leafpool is incredibly busy, having babies and a full time job

- Foxtrap. yea

- Squirrel asks leaf if she can trust brambleshade, leafpool says yes

- Brambleshade has doubts during dark forest training

- Berrykit loses his tail to a fox trap

- Mothwing has an apprentice, willowpaw

- Tawnypelt tells brambleshade hawkfrost is evil

- Hawkfrost makes mothwing tell the clans about a sign

- Mothwing tells leafpool how hawkfrost faked the sign that made mothwing a healer

- Tawnypelt curses out tigerstar, says she only trained with him to become a better ShadowClan warrior

- Tigerstar rants about brambleshade becoming deputy then leader. This is something brambleshadw wants, but doesn’t want firestar, the guy who basically raised him, to die for

- Leafpool gets the sign about the brambles, tells squirrel it means he’s good and will protect the clan, but worries if he’ll strangle it instead

- Hawkfrost tells brambleshade to meet him by the lake at sunset

- Leafpool visits cinderpelt at the moonpool yay

- Hawkfrost punches brambleshade

- Hawkfrost is trying to kill firestar with a foxtrap

- Meanwhile, leafpool is helping sorreltail with her kits, ashfur bursts into camp and says firestar is dying

- Brambleshade proves himself by beating the shit out of hawkfrost

- Switch back to bramble pov

- Tigerstar urges brambleshade to kill firestar, brambleshade immeadiately says no and kills hawkfrost instead, saving firestar. Firestar says thanks son and brambleshade feels warm and fuzzy and decides he doesn’t need to be deputy to be happy

- He just needs his wife :)

[sociopath-analysis]

Sociopath Profile: Makima

From the manga series Chainsaw Man (2018-present*) and its 2022 anime adaptation Voiced by Tomori Kusunoki (JP) and Suzie Yeung (EN) *Valid as of late February 2023*

I feel that she needs no introduction, but I'll still do my best. Makima is the head of the Public Safety Devil Hunters Bureau Division 4. I don't think it's much of a spoiler to mention that she is a sociopath considering how many red flags she sets off from the beginning. Her presence already comes off as very domineering in a subtle way. However, the extent to which she fits certainly will be a bit more surprising for those just starting out the series.

[SPOILERS FOR PART 1 BELOW]

To get this out of the way now for those who likely have read the series, she is later revealed to be the Control Devil. Which really does explain a lot about her sociopathic tendencies. Sociopaths tend to have a need to control others, so it explains a lot about Makima's thought processes and disposition. She can control anyone she believes is inferior to her and that seems to be most individuals in her mind.

The only way she can connect with other individuals is through manipulating them. While it is part of her nature as the Control Devil, the treatment she got from the Japanese government to be trained as a weapon forced her to develop relationships based on manipulation. This can range from subtle wording and threats to outright commanding people with her powers. She is very versatile in how she does this. Her treatment of Denji may be the biggest manipulation of Part 1 with her stringing him along with a happy life only to rip it away from him for a chance of obtaining the power of the Chainsaw Devil.

"Any source of happiness you [Denji] experience? I'll be the one to create and destroy it all. You helped me kill Power. There might have been a way for you to save Hayakawa, but you killed him too. You even murdered your own father. Someone like you has no right to wish for a normal life, do they?"

As mentioned before, her main concern is herself. She may say that she wants to use Pochita for improving the world, but it's only her vision of what she wants the world to be. She sees herself as a necessary evil to keep everyone safe by ridding the world of things like war, hunger, and death. However, Denji exposes how selfish she is when he asks her if her new world would still have crappy movies. When she says the world would be better off without them, that's when he knows she can't succeed if she just decides what trivial things she deems unnecessary. When she tells Kishibe that her goal is to make a world that is safe from Devils after he suspects her of setting up the attack on Division 4, his response is quite succinct and accurate:

"You're full of shit."

Makima displays flat affect since she rarely changes expressions from the calm stoic front. Whether she is brutally murdering people or having a casual conversation, she never changes. There have only been two times where she has shown any actual emotions. One is when she watches a movie with Denji and cries when she sees a happy family. Likely because she knows she can't ever have that for herself. The second is when she cruelly reveals that she was the grand architect of his happy life as well as its gradual destruction, revealing how sadistic she can be.

Even with her lofty goals, Makima can engage in some pointless cruelty. When she recruited Angel, she made him kill the tribe he was living with simply to see how his powers work. With his recruitment into Public Safety, she repressed his memories to make sure he only had loyalty for her and never thought about his loved ones ever again. And of course, she definitely makes a show of ruining Denji. As said before, her laughing in his face about how distraught he was is one of the only moments of genuine emotion from her in the series. And what it says about her is that while she will destroy everything you love in the name of the greater good, she'll still enjoy it all the same.

All of this leads to the primary trait, a lack of empathy. She doesn't see other individuals as beings worth acknowledging beyond being tools for her manipulations or obstacles to overcome to reach her goals. She says she has affection for humans, but she has no respect for them and only cares because they love her. Aki and Denji both respect and revere her as well as have a romantic attraction to her. Despite this, she never returns any of it. Denji specifically is an example since she can so casually build up his happy life for the purpose of ruining it and driving him to despair. Never once did she see him as a person and only wanted him for the Chainsaw Devil which was trapped inside of him. Even Pochita, who she essentially worships, is seen as a potential tool to be used for her own gain.

Makima is an example who shows how the effects of both nature and nurture came together to end up making her what we see her as in the series. With her growing up under government supervision, she never got the chance to figure out how to see people as anything else. While part of it comes from her inherent nature as the Control Devil, the lack of nurturing plays a part in how she turned out. This is why her reincarnation in Nayuta is hoped to turn out better under Denji's care. An early intervention to prevent her worst traits from manifesting.

Female Sociopath List

[poltergeist-coffee]

Pls talk about your InsaneDuo mermaid au

HEYYY ANON THANK YOU ENABELING ME <33

okay, so i have to give a little context for me and my friends mermaid au. it's just us taking the qsmp members and dunking them in the ocean. some of them became mermaids and some stayed as boring humans, what can you do?

the favela five are all mermaids in our au + richas is a human child they 'adopt' essentially!! This au is not......realistic at all because some mermaids are inspired by real sea animals (Cellbit is an octopus for example) and some are just like......... Ariel/fantasy mermaids (Forever is just a fish. his tail looks like a koi fish for the aesthetic but he's not. he's just a mermaid with a pretty tail and covered in scars) (his tail is dark gray with red/white splotches on it to look like his mc skin). all mermaids also have the cute ear fins you see in art sometimes? (if u know jrwi think of gillion-esque ear fins i don't know how to explain it)

Me and my friend also made an entire "courting ritual" and how mermaids do romance and stuff but that can be a separate post. what YOU need to know is that for mermaids to be "married" essentially they will have to rip one of the scales on their tail off and give it to the person they want to marry!!! married mermaids will take the scale from their partner and put it on their tail where they took their scale off to symbolize how they are together !!

basically, all i really wanted to tell you is that insaneduo in the mermaid au are married NDSAVKJASK they're in a pod (family) with the rest of the Favela five but their relationship is super close just like in the qsmp. they basically go everywhere with each other and even if they don't they're never far from one another. They just care about each other so much!!!

after one incident with forever being taken by mermaid hunters (he escaped dw) he had a bunch of large cuts and injuries on his tail because they wanted his scales. Since he lost a bunch of scales he just took one off him and gave it to cellbit because he loves him and wants him to know that he means a lot to him. cellbit was in shock for all of 5 seconds needing to process that his best friend is fucking bleeding and dying and also being the equivalent of proposed too. Cellbit then proceeded to rip one of his own scales off (octopuses don't have scales but please don't think too hard about it, its cute please suspend your disbelief) and gave it to forever. i think forever would probably start yelling at cellbit like “WHAT ARE YOU DOING THAT HURTS!!! DONT GIVE ME YOUR SCALE IDIOT!!” and cellbit is laughing at him (also in pain but that’s less important)

them trading scales is less of romantic marriage and more like "i love you and care about you a lot. i want to show my devotion to you and that i am willing to sacrifice things for you to be happy". cellbit wears forever's scale as a ring and forever keeps cellbit's on a bracelet instead of the traditional way.

also, did you know octopuses eat their own tentacles when stressed? right after the thing where forever got hurt and was having to rest to heal cellbit refused to leave him if he could help it. he nearly chewed off one of his own tentacles from worry because forever was so hurt and forever def scolded him for it after waking up.

TDLR: insaneduo in the mermaid au are best friends and the equivalent of married and care about each other so so much it makes me want to jump off a building

last thing id like to mention: cellbit is very curious about humans and wants to learn more about them! At the same time he is very weary of them because of what happened with forever and when forever meets phil he's very >:[[ about it. he doesn't think forever should be trying to talk with a fisherman so much because he could get hurt again!! it doesn't matter if this "Phil" is so nice and kind to him!! he might just want to hurt forever or keep him in a tank or take his scales!!

[nerves-nebula]

i am so tired so apologies for spelling mistakes but..

what do yoi thijnk of the idea that hunter views himself as a sort of equal-mix of belos/philip and caleb? hunter didnt want to look like caleb and worries becoming him in some way (why else would it matter if he was cloned fro, a witxch hunter??).

hunter also really doesnt want to look like belos and has the most expreience with being what belos wants him to be (possibly with the illusion that he had a xhoice and wouldn/t be killed if he failed? rip hunter's trust)

to him he doesnt know what being himselof is like and without that worries that he'll turn into tthe two that created him (soto speak, he's the result of a creator and the muse)

seconds if oyu have thoughts do you think this wpiuld apply to your kidnaspped caleb au at all?

love yuour stuuf, you awesome, good luck with cool kids college, peace

Thank you for the compliments, i am also very tired! And don't worry about spelling mistakes, I don't really care about them so long as I can tell what you're tryna say :)

i think you're spot on about how hunter thinks of himself as part Belos, part Caleb. It doesn't help that all he knows about Caleb is that the guy was a witch hunter, it might not scare him as much if he knew how Caleb had changed and stopped witch hunting but, oh well!

FUNNY you should mention the AU, because it's a similar situation there! Sort of.

See, all Philip has told Hunter about his dad is that he was a bad person who abandoned his kid. Hunter thinks his bio dad was a cruel, selfish man ruled by vices. At least, that's what Philips told him. So for most of his life, the threat of being compared to Caleb hangs over his head. He spends a lot more of his life trying to make up for his bio dads mistakes and proving he's different, than he does hating Philip. So when he finds out that Philip kidnapped him, he now feels like BOTH his dad and his uncle are terrible people and he's going to inevitably turn out horrible too.

It's only after he becomes more ok with not being like either of them, and actually meets Caleb for the first time, that he realizes Caleb isn't that bad!

But by that point he's had a bit of time to become His Own Person. Still, its kind of a shock to his worldview, because he spent his entire life thinking Caleb was a Garbage Human Being. And since he was Caleb Jr. that meant he had to make up for it.

[lovedaisy02]

I think I finally have my rating rating on AOT after so many ups and downs. I had to cool off first from the disappointment because it's really not as low of a show as I make it sound at times. I think solid 6.5/10

(Review contains slight spoilers without specifics)

Unfortunately, AOT is a show that has a lot of strong parts and scenes (Erens mothers death, Erwin's speech etc) but it's weak looked at as a whole. Unlike shows that have the opposite problem such as ATLA, each book individually isn't very strong but when looked at together in a progression creates a solid beautiful story. The second major flaw of AOT is it's plot, writing and overall narrative. Poor writing can be hidden behind a good narrative (not to keep using ATLA verse but some of the writing isn't very good at times especially in LOK but the narrative is good.) AOT suffers from a lack of character development and pacing issues. While Eren gets a lot of development he's still one dimensional which is not rare for an anime but the supporting cast has nothing of substance to give than what they are written for. The only character that does is Reiner and he experiences a better character arc than the main character. This, I believe, contributes to the poor storytelling because the author can't write their characters doing day to day nonsense things (until Levi comes along with his quirks on cleaning). This is something long stories like Gintama, One Piece or even Hunter Hunter benefit from. The world and cast are so in depth and rich the authors can buy time from writing plot points by writing their characters simply interacting. AOT can't benefit from that because the world and characters are limited which wouldn't be a problem if the narrative was strong enough for it not to matter. Which causes the main issue, time skips.

Time skips are used often in storytelling, it allows the speaker/author/storyteller to get where they want the characters without having to explain every step of the way. It's used all the time in small increments usually skipping a few days, hours, or just minutes. AOT skips large amounts of time, years, without explanation in order to hide the weakness of the narrative. It's use after the second time makes it obvious it's a crutch for the writer and unfortunately makes the story come off as underdeveloped,(which proven by the ending, it is underdeveloped.) I don't blame the mangaka because mangaka are often put under intense pressure to continue their story as fast as possible to the point of hospitalization.

Finally, the time travel. It doesn't logically work and fictions number one rule is that it **has to make sense**. It wouldn't be possible for Eren to influence his father unless the type of time traveled used is alternate timelines which is not proven nor mentioned. As far as the story it's present as linear or even in a circle or perhaps happening simultaneously which doesn't make sense. So if this newest part doesn't show an alternate timeline was created, then that is a huge huge flaw.

And there's no narrative driven reason for Eren to do what he did at the end. He could've had a five minute conversation that would've lead to a better ending. We've spent the entire story setting up that Armin is the smartest person to walk in that world, he somehow figured out many things that he shouldnt have been able to figure out, but you couldn't ask his opinion? If you're going to go that route you must provide a narrative driven reason why.

The animation is amazing the story is shocking thrilling the speeches are good but it is unfortunately not going to be able to be up there with Code Geass which it emulated and eventually blatantly ripped off, Cowboy Bebop, or FMA.

This is just a side note, but killing characters off screen that were part of the major cast for a while to me is really the low of the low for storytelling and reserved for episodic TV shows that need to replace actors not for anything else but that's more subjective than objective so I won't include it in the major issues.

Do I still recommend this anime? Not really. If you've watched anime for a while and/or if you've seen any Gundam and Code Geass I would pass. I would only recommend AOT to new anime fans or to those that care about seeing generationally important shows. This show made an impact on people no matter how it went.

[crookshanks23]

Season 1, Episode 34: Dedicated Involved Loving Fathers

(Note: This is a long one y'all. I ended up typing out all of my thoughts on this one)

Favorite Moment: The entire phone call with Beth May.

General Thoughts:

All right: because I'm really curious, I want to sit and log my feelings as I listen to this. As I mentioned in my previous post, this is the one episode that I've not been able to relisten to because it set me off the first time I heard it. I was listening to the podcast in the car, because I was doing a lot of commuting, and I was so confused by this episode that I exited out of the episode a couple of different times, sure that I had accidentally skipped an episode. And that confusion has just really put me off from this episode. Looking back on the episode, it's very clever, from what I can remember of it, but it bothered me so much. Maybe it's because I was driving, and so instead of just being a fun time, it became this huge distraction.

So, what I remember of this episode, is that there is a fight with bounty hunters and somehow they end up riding on a bunch of animals. And there are some shenanigans with Dennis. But that's it. Most of the details of this episode are not in my brain anymore.

So here we go, let's see how I feel about this one on my second go-around. (By the way, I finished episode 33 over a week ago, have hit play on this episode three times, and have been unable to listen to it. But now it's time. I'm going to do this.)

This intro is very dumb, but very funny. And I love a good "flip to side two" joke. It makes my old millennial heart happy.

The whole table talk and Dad fact portion does a great job of integrating Ashley naturally. So flawless it threw me.

Grant's nickname is shooter? Oh no. The context of that now is unfortunately not a funny baby poop joke. Oof.

Again, so nonchalant in with the Dennis stuff. And I didn't realize that he was also a rogue. No wonder Ron doesn't like him.

His anchor is at the librarium decepticus? That's so smart.

Thanks Ron, for saying all the things I felt listening to this the first time.

Okay, enjoying the episode so far. Doing a quick check-in on how I'm feeling. Maybe it's just me and this horrible bias I have against this episode, but it feels different. It's still enjoyable and I'm still smiling while I'm listening, but it's more that I'm enjoying the heat between Ron and Dennis. I don't know, this is a weird experience.

Ron fell on to his dagger? There's definitely some shenanigans happening here. Accident? I think not!

Poor Grant. Why give him an axe? I had forgotten about all of the additional trauma that happens to this boy in this episode.

Dennis has always been Paeden's favorite? Ugh. Feels awful. Poor Darryl.

Ron doing what Dennis does is great.

RIP jug. It was a cool, useful item.

I'm just happy to be here. Ok, that was flawless. Hats off to Ashley for that one.

So much shade being thrown towards Ron AND Beth. I don't like it. But I like it.

The energy. Is so weird.

It's not bad, for a combat episode. But doesn't feel like how they do combat. More like how actual combat goes in a DnD game.

Okay, another feelings check in. I really do love the Ron anti-Dennis heat. It is very funny.

So we're now 30 minutes from the end of the episode, and the combat is over. And I have no idea what is left because I don't remember anything else from this episode.

Ok, the entire Beth May phone call is hysterical.

Love that Erin hates Dennis too. Oh wait. Nope. She's playing hard to get. That is pretty funny.

Mr. Mustache meets Terry! And Terry finally believes Ron!

Dennis brings up Scam... And reveals himself as Mark. Glenn's line of "Mark- what did you do with Dennis?" Very funny. He's revealed and then disappears.

And there's some planning and apologizing and that's it. I did it!

And next time, we get to what I consider the official start of Arc 2. Let's go get some anchors!

[katyahina]

Caryll Runes designs are pretty smart

There are even things easy to see through visuals, like

Lake is interesting on its own - it resembles how in reflection of the water way more things are seen than just what is above, as Lake is a symbol of line between 'reality' and 'arcane' and this rune itself refers to seeking beyond.

But Clawmark for me looks like 'tilted' Lake Rune, which works to symbolise how line between humans and beasts blurs when Moon descends - it has similar designs with stripes separated by a line, but on Clawmark practically all of them are seen in "reflection"!

Meanwhile Guidance and Beast Runes have similar 'curled' base that is not seen on any other Rune, and in fact their similarity makes sense - it is as if Guidance is 'unfinished' Beast Rune, as Ludwig was clearly held in the dark about purpose and the result of his divine 'guidance'!

This one is very interesting - the second Rune is found on Clocktower Dial and resembles Impurity a lot, however is not exact copy. Besides, we know Impurity Rune was "found within a forbidden Beast Eater" (who IS Valtr) and that nobody outside of the League have seen Vermin (which you can only see with Impurity), so definitely this bootleg Impurity rune is not Valtr's.

(Headcanon moment? Since Vermin reflects evil within men, I think a Rune like this is more of a 'concept' - everyone who tried to envision this concept would draw a similar Rune, but everyone would end up with a unique symbol since every individual has their own idea of what evil is! The rune placed on the Clocktower Dial is most likely envisioned by Caryll as they are practically CEO of Runes and it would make sense to use their vision as general idea.

I think there is dispersion, too - people who aim to heal/fix evil more envision evil as weeds and flowers (referring to Tomb Molds and Coldblood Flowers, yes), but those who seek to exterminate evil more envision pest insects. Someone's unique vision indeed can be shared with another person, and Yamamura is an example of the idea of justice colliding - Impurity did not work right on him as deep down he is a way more sentimental and humane person and seeks to heal evil rather than destroy, so him going insane grasping for the concept his own personality repels was only a matter of time.)

Again, smart design resemblance because of this shape in the center of both Moon and Communion. Moon refers to the Nightmare ritual that needs a newborn (Mergo in this case), and Communion is the symbol of the Healing Church that likely took design inspiration from what they did with stolen Orphan of Kos. You know, the:

( x )

So this shape in the middle must mean divine infant?

(Image from here ( x ), I don't think a better one exists yet)

In this case, the most interesting Rune is this one:

This is created from three curved lines, which I think could refer to how you need to consume three Eye Cords to properly ascend, and also resemble the flowing tentacles of Flora herself. (Needless to mention I personally don't think it refers to Metamophosis at all...)

On only mildly-interesting note, both of Oedon-related Runes are also the only non-oath Runes that appear to be drawn with blood! Even then, they look more 'fresh' than Impurity, Hunter, Beast's Embrace and Corruption! I suppose it is because Oedon's true nature is said to manifest within bloodspill.

(Another headcanon moment - I like to think that Oedon Writhe likewise looking like many tentacles and Formless Oedon having 'three dots' like Communion is not accidental either! We find through Dungeons that something similar to ministration that ruined Yharnam happened once,

,also Flora has her guts ripped, also it is implied she was lured in with Eye Cord found in the Workshop because she lost her own child, also Arianna has a baby from Oedon known as Celestial Child - whose internal name is 'Larva of the Moon' ( x ), meanwhile this type of infants has Ebrietas' wings, and Ebrietas herself is internally known as 'Bastard of the Moon'...

So I like to think that Oedon IS unborn child of Flora, used in ministration of previous civilisation and not having physical form as a result but rather living within humanity's very blood as presence for as long as they use the old blood. Flora, Ebrietas and Oedon are Father, Son and Holy Spirit!)

Well this post ended up being more headcanoney than I expected, my bad- But yeah the core point stands, I love how Bloodborne manages to tell more story bits even through such subtle things as designs of the Runes, rather than just drawing random mysterious symbols and relying only on description alone o:

[bonny-kookoo]

Jungkook: Aggressor 🔞 (9)

In which Jungkook doesn't care what needs to be done, or what bones need to be broken. He'll do anything, if it means he gets to put food on the table- and gets to keep you safe. He promised, after all.

Tags/warnings: violence, angst, blood and wounds, mentions of abandonment and homelessness, bounty hunter!Jungkook, guns, wanted!Reader, crimes, murder, reader canceled someone's life subscription in self defense oops, jungkook is a little cold but he's soft inside trust me, I know it doesn't seem like it, there is a little fluff if you squint, put your contacts in its there I promise, swearing, listen it's not a children's tale haha, smut, protected bc yes, we wrap it even as criminals, handjob in a bathroom oops², dark humor, Jeon Bam as the best bodyguard of all times

Additional Chapter Warnings: hippity hoppity oc is now jungkooks property, smut, cunnilingus, rip clothes, like Jesus kook the dress has a zipper for a reason but ok go off I guess

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You haven't said much after he'd told you about the whole deal he'd been proposed.

You're unsure what he thinks of you now; does he keep you around just for the money now? Or did his kisses mean something? You don't even notice how he watches you wash the dishes. He knows something is up- he noticed instantly.

He gets up with a sigh, reaching over your hand to turn off the water, your back against his front as you stay still. "Something's up." He mumbles, looking at you from over your shoulder. You can see his reflection a little in the metal spoon you're holding; upside down, and blurry, but its there.

"Do you.."you start, unsure how to phrase it. "Was what happened, you know, a few days ago.." you begin to explain, mumbling a little more than usual. But he understands you clearly, proximity to you making it easy to hear your voice. "Do you own me now?" You say, cringing at the sound of it. "Ugh no, I don't know how to explain-" you start, and he simply reaches to the kitchen towel, drying your hands for you before he turns you around to face him.

"Taehyung told me the deal the day we kissed- I took you in because I wanted to, if that's whats worrying you." He says, before he lifts your head at your chin. "The only one who owns you is yourself." He tells you, and you nod after a moment- before he looks down to your lips.

"What if I.." you softly say, "want you to own me though?" You ask, and he looks at you for a second, before he leans in.

"Then I'll gladly take it all." He tells you, before he hungrily kisses you yet again, hands on your thighs moving underneath the hem of your dress, before he picks you up, over his shoulder. "I'm not making that mistake twice." He mumbles to himself, as he carries you into his bedroom, door closing roughly as his boot kicks it shut.

You squeal a bit in surprise when he drops you onto the creaking mattress, as he crawls over you, impatiently trying to pull your dress higher- noticing how that won't work, he simply grabs both sides of the front, distinctive sound of fabric tearing filling the room. "You look better in my clothes anyways." He growls, as his hands brush over your skin, holding onto your hips while he can't stop kissing you. Biting your lower lip teasingly, he slowly sheds his own clothes- revealing his inked skin underneath, scars new and old decorating his skin together with the dark ink on his arm.

Your hand instantly traves the lines and edges of the designs on his arm, while he undoes your underwear, finally laying you bare beneath him. "Move over baby."He gently commands, as you nod, moving further onto the bed while he gets a condom from the bedside table.

He's surprisingly gentle as he even places the sheets over your bodies, before leaning down again capturing your lips and breath again. You're squirming underneath his hands, making him chuckle- a sound you haven't heard before from him. He looks a lot younger like this you notice, face relaxed and even a small smile on his lips as he watches you underneath him.

You're warm, and inviting, and he can't help but sigh out in bliss as he carefully enters you. You hold onto him as he fills you up, not used to the way he handles you- up until this point, you haven't experienced something slow and steady like this. You feel treasured and protected in a way, as if he's hiding you from the whole world in that moment- and maybe he is.

"Remember when I said I'll protect you?" He hums out, hips steady as he presses himself deep inside you. You nod.

"You said you won't keep it." You sigh out, growing a bit Impatient by his slow pace.

He chuckles, a hand pinning your hips down. "I take it back." He mumbles into your ear, kissing the crook of your neck before teasingly biting, hips snapping into you once, twice, begone he chuckles at your whining. "I promise I'll keep you safe from now on." He says.

"You mean it?" You wonder, looking at him as his gaze meets yours.

"I mean it." He reassures, before he pushes your legs more apart, pace quickening as he chases his high with you. He presses himself inside you as he cums, spilling into the condom inside you with a groan falling from his lips. You're already calming down, used to not having your own moment of high- but he suddenly slips out, begins to kiss down the valley of your breasts, over your lower stomach, before he places his mouth onto your sensitive core.

Your toes curl as he sucks and swallows hungrily, tongue expertly drawing patterns onto your pearl- breath quickening as you grab onto nothing- finding his hands you instantly hold onto, head thrown back unto the mattress below as usual reach your high.

He licks his lips almost teasingly with an impish smile on his face, making you hide behind your hands- leading to him pulling them away, before he kisses your cheeks playfully.

He really isn't the big bad dog you thought all men to be.

[hunter-sylvester]

I was talking with my friend about Hunter’s emotional state throughout the film (as you do) and we came to the following conclusion.

Disclaimer: I know full well that Metal Lords (2022) is a lighthearted comedy & coming-of-age film of which Kevin is the main character. Like, I get why the film goes the way it goes and I love it as it is. However, I obviously hyper-focus on a certain character and I just like exploring the ‘ifs’ in films & shows, so here’s the thing:

Getting dumped at rehab by his dad should have triggered a Macbeth level breakdown in Hunter and here’s why.

Quite early in the film it’s established that Hunter’s mom left. The only explicit text we get on the subject is in Kevin’s voice-over. “He’s been into a lot of things since I’ve known him, but he’s stuck with metal longer than any of them. When his mom left in seventh grade, he decided it was the key to everything.” And two shots of the picture frame Hunter has in his room that his mom has literally been ripped out of.

So there isn’t much to go off, but there’s implications. You could just read it as him being a temperamental little shit that ripped up a photo in anger. But I think it’s more interesting to go a little further.

We know how Hunter feels about his dad, once again being something touched on in part by Kevin’s voice-over. “Sometimes he’s not so nice to people when he’s uncomfortable. And being around his dad makes him uncomfortable” It’s a line that is cut off by Hunter being a little shit in DnD but we know the word is uncomfortable. Then, obviously, Hunter and his dad are mostly seen mid-shouting match. They don’t get along. They can’t communicate productively. They just don’t get each other. There’s a lot of yelling and his dad makes him uncomfortable.

And with all of that he still has a photo of him and his dad on his shelf. What that tells me is that Hunter has to fucking hate his mom. We don’t get much of an indication as to why but one factor that would make sense is that she abandoned him. She left. And she left him.

If we assume that Hunter and his dad have always butted heads to some degree, his mom leaving him with his dad would be even worse. She rejected him, she didn’t want him and now all he has is someone who makes him incredibly uncomfortable to be around. His dad is a cunt, but at least he didn’t abandon him.

Now, Kevin. Bare with me here, it’s about to get gay. That’s how I see the character, however, it can still apply if you do see Hunter as straight (I don’t know how you manage it, but go off, cis)

Hunter is clearly very very attached to Kevin. Possessive of him, even. I think it beams off the screen that Hunter is in love with Kevin. But even that isn’t entirely necessary to acknowledge for it to be clear that Hunter sees Kevin and himself as a package deal.

“We’re Skullfucker” Skullfucker isn’t just their band to Hunter. It is them. It’s them against the world. They’re not particularly shown to have many/any other friends. One can infer that Hunter has people he plays DnD with. But that doesn’t necessarily make them his friends.

“you are afraid of everybody” It doesn’t matter that Kevin says this in the heat of a fight. I think he’s dead on.

Kevin is the only person Hunter feels safe with. The only person he’s not scared of. And then Kevin abandons him too. Not explicitly. Not to Kevin. But Hunter deeply feels like he has. Kevin getting a girlfriend, trying to get her to be a part of the band. Not to mention drumming for a different band. It would shatter the image Hunter has in his mind of their band being them. Of them, and their bond, and the time they spend together being something uniquely special. 

And then his dad is so fed up with him he dumps him at a rehab facility for no other reason than just not wanting to deal with him anymore.

I don’t buy even for a second that Hunter was dropped off at rehab for being ‘addicted to metal’. His dad didn’t wanna deal with trying to be a parent to a delinquent child that stole his fucking credit card. So he dumped him somewhere where he wouldn’t have to deal with him. In a “they’ll fix him” kind of move.

What I buy even less is that it fucking works. Hunter is portrayed as doing better after rehab. Like it was a wake-up call to someone whose main issue was just being an asshole.

No. Fuck that.

That was the last person he could rely on abandoning him too.

His mom doesn’t want him. His best friend/crush doesn’t want him. His dad doesn’t want him. There is no way in hell he is doing better after that. Hunter spends the entire movie an anxious (autistic) mess that automatically shoves down any emotion that isn’t anger. Being abandoned by everyone he had left would have been more than enough to break him.

There is just no fucking way that Hunter is okay.

[telehxhtrash]

A masterpost on Togashi’s gay subtext and why it’s intentional.

Hi ! After seeing so many posts about Togashi dropping subtext about Killua's possible romantic feelings for Gon, I thought it'd be a good idea to make a sort of "masterpost" with all the subtext that Togashi has included into his work.

I usually see a lot of people trying to say that HxH isn't about romance and that Togashi isn't interested in writing romance into the manga, but when you analyze all the subtext that's been going on the further Gon and Killua's relationship progresses, I think it's incorrect to say that Togashi has never hinted at the possibility of romance in HxH.

This is going to be a long post, enjoy your read!

Also, please note that I will only base this analysis on the manga, so there can be no mistake that "maybe this is just something the anime made gayer" : i want to prove that the subtext is 100% intentional on Togashi's part.

I'd also like to mention, although I will analyze it further after listing the subtext, that Togashi is a VERY smart man. There are always little details in the story and/or foreshadowing that are easily missed at first but when you notice them, it truly makes you understand how much attention and care Togashi puts into his work. There are countless details and symbolism that are analyzed daily through wonderful meta posts, from the main 4′s birthdays and their link to their character or the religious symbolism in Kurapika’s story arc.... Togashi loves to foreshadow and plant little details into his work, so when Togashi plants subtext, I'm sure he 100% knows that he's writing it, and it can't be seen as unintentional.

I'll also link all my references for this post at the end of it, so feel free to read all the additional textposts and content if you want to know more.

Well, let's get into it!

EDIT : i can’t believe this post is still being used as a reference it makes me so happy... thank you so much !!! i edited this to tweak it a bit because i wrote this a while ago and the phrasing seemed off to me, so if you’re reading or re-reading this post, hi, welcome to masterpost on gay subtext 2.0 !

GREED ISLAND ARC

Greed Island is to me the arc that lays down the nature of Killua and Gon's relationship. It's during this arc that we get to see a bit more of what Killua thinks, how he's lucky to have met Gon and that he feels really grateful. Gon’s behavior in this arc is also very affectionate, with him always reassuring Killua about his place next to him. While the scene where Killua thinks "You've got it backwards, Gon, I'm the one that's glad I met you." can't be considered as subtext, I think it's something that lets the reader know a bit more about how Killua feels towards Gon. 

But other than this scene, which can clearly be dismissed as platonic, there are 2 more moments in the Greed Island arc that are layered in subtext.

• The Rainbow Diamond (chapter 151)

During their time in Dorias, Killua uses Risky Dice to gain cards from the slot machines. The first card that Killua gains is called "Rainbow Diamond", the description of the card being "A diamond that shines in a rainbow of colors. Propose with this diamond and she is guaranteed to say "yes"". 

There are 3 different things we can take from this panel. First, the card is a marriage proposal card, so it's obviously romantic in nature. Second, the object is a RAINBOW diamond. And third, Killua, wanting to keep the card safe, gifts it to Gon.

In short, Togashi sat down at his desk, decided to draw Killua winning a MARRIAGE PROPOSAL CARD (it could've been any card, but Togashi CHOSE to make Killua win a marriage proposal card) that has a RAINBOW diamond on it and made Killua gift it to Gon. 

While I personally don't think that subtext can be used to 100% ascert that Killua has romantic feelings for Gon, I think it's a funny little touch from Togashi, and I'm even gonna say a sort of hint towards how Killua's feelings for Gon are going to evolve in this arc and the next.

• “It has to be Killua” (chapter 166)

Now this is a scene that I've never seen anyone talk about, at least on Tumblr, but when I read a bit of analysis on it I was 100% convinced this was intentional subtext. I'm basically quoting here what this article explains, so if you want more detail, I recommend reading it.

As you probably recall, during their deadly dodgeball game against Razor, Killua decides to sacrifice his hands to ensure that Gon could use all his strength. When confronted about it, Killua insists that it's nothing, and Gon shocks him by saying that he knew all along that he was hurting himself for his sake. 

Gon then says that it can only be Killua holding the ball, and that it has to be Killua, resulting in Killua being absolutely awestruck and embarassed. I'm also going to talk about the anime adaptation for this one, because it's perfectly executed and translates extremely well the nuance that the second sentence bears. If you want to rewatch it, this scene happens in episode 70. It's worth noting that in the anime, we see Killua not reacting to Gon's first sentence, but losing his composure entirely when Gon says the second sentence. But why ?

The reason was lost in translation. His exact words are "Booru wa Killua ga motte-kurenai to. Killua ja nakya dame nan da.". Both sentences basically say the same thing : It has to be Killua holding the ball. That second sentence can be translated literally as "If it's not Killua, that won't do." However, the second sentence, in a different context, can also be used to say a totally different thing. 

While it's certain that Gon used this sentence in the context of the dodgeball match, the sentence "~ja nakya dame nan da" also serves as a confession of one's feelings in japanese. It's basically the equivalent to "you're the one for me". When you google the sentence, it turns up romantic songs, forum posts asking what it would translate to in English and posts on how to confess to someone. 

The sentence basically drowns in romantic subtext. As mentioned before, Killua has no reaction to the first sentence "Booru wa Killua ga motte-kurenai to.", but loses his composure at the second one, and I think that was a very deliberate thing Togashi wanted to convey : this sentence has an additional layer, and clearly Killua is taking it to heart.

I will come back to this specific subtext in a bit, because we can parallel it with another subtext-y situation, so please keep it in mind for now.

CHIMERA ANT ARC

Now onto the sad gay arc! This arc is so RIDDLED in subtext and parallels that it's making me lose my mind.

• Gon, you are light. (chapter 199)

This scene is just... So romantic in nature. I’m not too objective on this, but I really do believe that this moment is the exact moment Killua fell in love with Gon and started to realize he felt a bit more than friendship towards him. It’s Killua respecting Gon for who he is, realizing that he’s light and he’s always been, he’s the one who saved him and who’s always been so bright and optimistic and always makes the best out of any situation. In this scene, Killua lets himself drown in Gon’s light, allows himself to feel this “wow” moment of pure admiration and love, and it’s absolutely beautiful.

It's extremely important to take the context of this scene into account. What happened is that Killua, who has been struggling mentally for the entire series with the fact that he's always running away, ran away once more, leaving Kite to die with Pitou. This ENTIRE chapter is literally adults absolutely DESTROYING Killua, first Kite's troupe bashing him for leaving Kite behind, and then Netero, Morel and Knov coming in like icing on the cake telling Killua that "After all, he's just a kid", and that he should hurry up to his mommy. 

Killua is beating himself up for running away again, got destroyed by Kite's team and 3 extremely strong pro hunters. His morale is down in the drains right now. He expects Gon to be mad at him for betraying Kite, for running away once again, for leaving Kite to die alone and ripping Gon away from Kite : he expects that he'll lose Gon for his cowardice.

HOWEVER, the first thing that Gon says to Killua after having been passed out for god knows how many hours is "Thank you". 

Gon woke up and instantly eased up all of Killua's fears : he wasn't a loser for running away, and Gon was actually thankful for him. Gon, at this moment, was the only one that showed kindness, understanding and gratefulness towards Killua. Gon even goes so far as saying that he knows that Kite isn't dead, and that they have to help him. At this instant, Gon is truly Killua's saving grace. He's the one that trusts him with his entire heart, and believes in his choices when even he can't believe in himself. Gon is truly Killua's light at this precise moment, because he was the only one who supported him, trusted him and reassured him in this awful situation.

How can someone shine so bright in such a terrible situation ? How can someone be so positive that nothing bad will happen ? 

Gon asserting all of this makes Killua respect him a lot. Keep this word in mind, because it’s going to be important in the next piece of subtext I’m analyzing, because those two scenes canonically follow each other and are basically Togashi highlighting that something special happened when Killua called Gon his light, and that his feelings deepened.

• Introduction to Palm's character (chapter 200)

This piece of subtext is very very easy to miss but it's one of the most important subtext-y scene, because coupled with the “Gon, you are light” scene, it’s very clear that this dialogue is deliberately highlighting Killua’s feelings.

This chapter introduces Palm's character (which, imo, is a character introduced for the sole intent of being a catalyst to Killua's feelings towards Gon, but I'll talk about it in my post talking about the CAA parallels) - edit: i talked about this briefly here.

So, Killua having looked into Gon's eyes for like 10min straight and concluded that Gon was the light of his life a chapter ago, is now chilling with Gon as they meet Palm. 

Palm takes them to a café and STRAIGHT OFF THE BAT harasses them about how much she's in love with Knov. Like when I say harassing, it's literally a whole page of her explaining her feelings towards Knov. 

There are two interesting things that can be drawn from this interaction.

First, it's extremely easy to draw parallels between Palm's situation towards Knov and Killua's situation towards Gon. Palm starts by saying how amazing her master is, that she probably has special feelings for him but the most important thing is to respect the other person. Remember how I talked about how this last scene was Killua having a surge of deep, deep respect for Gon ? Palm makes sure to highlight that special word, that it’s important to respect someone when it comes to love.

She then goes on to say that she hasn't said anything to Knov, and never will. All of this adds nothing to the story, it's empty dialogue, Togashi could've introduced Palm in virtually any other way possible, but he chose to drag her and the gay duo to a café and make her have a monologue about love RIGHT after the extremely emotional panel of Killua declaring that Gon is his light just a chapter ago.

But there's more. Not only does Palm monologue for a while about love, but after finishing her monologue, this happens :

This panel features ONLY Palm and Killua, her looking at him like the psycho she is, and straight up telling him that "love can suddenly spark out of nowhere, don't you think so?". 

What's so interesting about this is the fact that Togashi made the deliberate choice to have Palm say this to Killua and Killua ONLY, which after the gay existential crisis he had last chapter, can very much be applied to his situation. Love DID spark out of nowhere, and Togashi wants you to notice. Togashi could've made Palm say this to herself, with no distinct listener like the last panel, but he made the conscious choice to draw this panel with Palm adressing herself to Killua SPECIFICALLY. 

Those two pieces of subtext, that fit perfectly together, make me believe 100% that Togashi knows what he's doing and he's not unintentionally planting gay subtext in his work. The fact that Togashi sat at his desk, drew Killua calling Gon his light, and then followed this scene with the introduction to a character who picks Killua apart to tell him that "love is something that just happens, don't you think?" is 100% proof that Togashi knows what he's doing.

• Date with Palm (chapters 217 and 218)

I think this situation has many layers, but many people still dismiss it as bro behavior so I'm gonna try my best to counter argue. First of all, and although that's not proof of anything, Killua looks EXTREMELY distressed by the prospect of Gon going on a date with Palm, but that can be counter-argued by saying that Killua is just worried because Palm is completely crazy. 

What I want to talk about is the scene that happens right after, when Gon and Killua go to the gym (because theyre DUDES YEAH WE WORK OUT NO HOMO), and the conversation casually drifts to Killua asking Gon if he's ever been on a date before, valid question considering what just happened previously. There are multiple things here :

1) Killua seems distressed that Gon has been on dates before. While it can be argued that it's a normal reaction because Gon has and he hasn't, I believe that Killua - who is in no way a normal person who would get flustered about "not having been on dates before a certain age" - would not feel uncomfortable that his friend is more experienced than him - especially when literal seconds later, he monologues about how he doesn’t care about dates and just wants to stick with Gon.

2) Gon then proceeds to ask Killua if he's ever been on a date, to which Killua responds :

What I want to highlight is the panel where Killua says "And the truth is, I want to stay by your side... Always...". Basically, what Killua is saying, is that he doesn't care about dates, all he wants to do is be with Gon.

I don't think this can be counter-argued as bro behavior, but with all the subtext I've explained before, this right here is pretty gay. Togashi put this panel deliberately to show that Killua doesn't give a crap about dates when he can stay with Gon, and with the "gon you are light" scene and everything in mind, this is another intentional subtext.

There's also the fact that Killua stalks the date like a jealous girlfriend - but I'm not gonna count that as subtext because it can be argued that he's just worried about Gon because Palm is insane.

• Gon is my best friend ! (chapter 219)

Remember how I told you to keep the "It has to be Killua" subtext in mind because I was gonna come back to it later ? Well.

During Palm's date with Gon, Killua runs into Rammot, who would definitely have ran into Palm and nenless Gon. Killua is forced to confront his worst fear : this is the moment where he knows that if he runs away again, Gon WILL die. Killua is literally overcoming his "programming", the physical representation of years of abuse out of love and care for Gon. He's ripping out the needle from his forehead out of pure, genuine care for Gon, because if he doesn't, then he'll lose him forever. 

Now, what I actually wanna talk about is this panel :

What we see is Killua thinking happy thoughts about all his adventures with Gon because he can't - won't - doesn't want to run away anymore, and all this for his sake. But what I wanna draw attention to is the dodgeball panel that's bigger than all the others, and the only one where you can actually clearly make out what's written : "Killua ja nakya dame nan da". 

Now, isn't that interesting that the panel that takes a bigger place in the whole panel is the one with this particular sentence? Remember what I talked about a bit earlier, about how "~ ja nakya dame nan da" is a sentence with a lot of romantic connotations (would pretty much equal to "you're the one for me" in English). Clearly this particular sentence stuck with Killua. 

I'm not completely objective on this matter since I firmly believe that at this point, Killua has romantic feelings for Gon, but I interpret this as another deliberate thing Togashi did : putting the panel bigger so we can see that it has a particularly significant importance to Killua, and Killua's state of mind right now (not wanting to lose Gon). 

In my opinion, two things happened here: One, Killua remembers this specific interaction because he knows how much Gon trusts him and he doesn't want to betray his trust. But I also firmly believe that Killua remembered this specific interaction because of the romantic connotation the sentence "Killua ja nakya dame nan da" has. Those words clearly shocked him, and I think he remembers them in this life-threatening situation, after the "gon you are light" scene, Palm talking about "love just happens", the "i want to stay with you, always" because he realizes that he wishes Gon would say that sentence in a romantic context, and not in the context of the dodgeball match, thus leading him to surpass himself to prove his love and perhaps live to see the day where Gon could say those words in that romantic context.

Now, of course, all of this is my interpretation, so it's really up to debate, but I really wanna highlight the fact that Togashi deliberately CHOSE to highlight this particular interaction between Gon and Killua, this sentence with romantic subtext, to lead Killua to finally break his chains and be able to be protect Gon fully. It’s also interesting to note that the 2011 anime adaptation also makes it a point to emphasize how deep these words stuck to Killua by making it the last flashback that makes Killua effectively rip out the needle out of his head. 

Also let's quickly mention the irony in the situation here : while Gon is on a romantic date, Killua fights to protect him, overcoming his weakness to prove his love. It’s not Palm who deserves that date, it’s Killua.

• A lovers’ suicide (chapter 286)

Now, onto the most important piece of subtext, that can not be counterargued as platonic in any way, shape or form. During the palace invasion, Killua leaves Gon's side, proceeds to go kick Youpi's butt only to have to fall back because he used up all his electricity nen. When Killua is charging up, he meets with Meleoron, and tells him that once he's done charging, he'll go back to Gon's side. 

They briefly exchange information about the battle, and then Meleoron proceeds to ask Killua what's the plan for him and Gon. That's when Killua explains that "Once Gon is like this, he won't budge an inch. Worst case scenario, it'll be a double suicide.". At worst they both die, cool. They “go down in flames together”. It’s actually much, much more meaningful than that.

The specific word that Killua uses for double suicide is "心中" (shinjuu), which is a heavily romantically connotated word in japanese. Shinjuu, also translated as "lovers’ suicide", is when two people die out of love, by the same method, because there's a belief that this'll allow those two people to spend eternity together. Shinjuu is a major theme of Japanese literature, and it is always used romantically. It's a very uncommon word to use to refer to two people dying together, because of its heavy romantic connotation, and because it always refers to double suicide committed by people bound by love. In literature, it always refers to two lovers, in love. If you want to read more on shinjuu, i suggest this and this, those articles explain its historic roots and the definition, also emphasizing the feeling of "oneness" that characterizes shinjuu. If you’re interested, I also suggest reading the japanese article that defines shinjuu, and hitting the google translate button, it has some pretty interesting sentences like “Shinjuu is traditionally committed by men and women out of mutual love, in the hope that they will be connected in the afterlife because they can't be together in this world.”

So basically, what Killua is saying is that he wants to go back to Gon's side to die with him, committing a "lovers’ suicide" because he doesn't want to leave Gon to die alone, and wants to die with him.

I also want to emphasize how special this word is to Killua, and that he and everyone around him know the special meaning of this word - In chapter 300, Ikalgo literally says "We were... No, KILLUA was ready to commit shinjuu with Gon". Ikalgo is really highlighting the fact that this word holds special meaning, especially to Killua, and that it was HIM who was willing to commit shinjuu by staying with Gon. Ikalgo and company dying with Gon wouldn't be shinjuu, but Killua dying with Gon would be, and Togashi emphasizes this through Ikalgo's thoughts.

This is pretty much the gist of it, but I suggest reading the wonderful post I linked in the references below if you want to know more about this specific subtext.

(edit : i actually wrote a post going a bit more into detail on Killua’s shinjuu wish if you want to read it here ! :3)

• “The one that Gon needs the most is you” (chapter 294)

I will go into this subtext more in details when I write the post about parallels in CAA, but I still want to talk about it briefly here.

Like I said before, to me, Palm was introduced as a catalyst for Killua's feelings towards Gon. Togashi purposefully wrote Palm as having romantic feelings for Gon to foil Killua's feelings for Gon and make him show jealousy towards Palm. 

To Killua, Palm is someone who stole Gon from him, he sees her as a threat because maybe she'll make Gon happier than he does ? (ofc we all know thats not true but Killua is baby) - Basically, Killua thinks Palm might be more important to Gon than Killua is, because he believes they are romantically involved. That's why when he sees her again later on, after Gon rejected his help, leaving Killua helpess as to how to save his dear friend, Killua sees Palm as a saving grace. 

He knows that if Gon sees Palm as a chimera ant, he will spiral down even more, so he tries to reason with her to get her to be gentle to Gon, because if not her, then who could? Palm would clearly be able to comfort Gon, with whom Killua believes is romantically involved with, better than him, right ? If Gon rejected Killua, then clearly Palm could help, since she seems closer to Gon (BECAUSE HE BELIEVES THEYRE DATING), right? 

This confrontation between Palm and Killua closely ressembles a situation like an ex confronting a new girlfriend - and I think this is exactly why Togashi wrote Palm this way. He wanted Killua to confront who he thought was a threat to their relationship, making him believe that this person who's """"dating"""” Gon is more important to him than himself, only to have her openly admit that she means nothing to Gon. The only one Gon needs is Killua.

And that, my friends, coming from someone you believe is romantically involved with your best friend (who you probably have a crush on), someone you're jealous of, the one you thought was the person most important to him, that's a pretty meaningful statement. 

Basically, what's happening, is that Palm reaffirms that Gon holds Killua closer than a potential romantic partner. And that's why Killua is so, so happy to hear that. He was questioning his entire relationship, questioning if Gon even cared about him, because he rejected him a few minutes before, but then his "rival" comes in and reaffirms that even she knows that no one comes close to Killua to Gon.

I also want to mention that this act of pure love (Killua only thinking of saving Gon when in a life threatening situation) is what made Palm come back to her human senses. d'awwwwww

• Illumi and Hisoka’s parallel on lovers who die of Alluka’s requests. (chapter 323)

Now onto the final significant subtext - while I don't particularly think of it as subtext-y, I know a lot of people have so I still want to include it here.

When Illumi explains Alluka's powers to Hisoka, he explains that there are two different types of linked deaths when a request is failed : 1) the person who failed + the person they love the most 2) the person who failed + the people they spent most of their time with. 

When applied to Killua, Hisoka naturally comes to the conclusion that no matter the outcome, Gon would always be the one dying with Killua, because he's spent so much time with him, and because he's the one that Killua loves the most. In the panel where Illumi explains this, we see a romantic, heterosexual couple  demonstrating the effects of not completing one of Alluka's requests, and thus the "most important person dying". 

While not making any true parallels, the fact that Hisoka, and the readers, are drawn to compare a heterosexual, romantic pairing to Killua dying with Gon because he's his "most important person" is an interesting piece of subtext.

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I want to finish by talking about Killua's birthday and how significant it is in my opinion. All the main 4 characters have birthdays that fall on specific dates, related to Japanese tradition, and often with events that can be associated to their character. Gon's is 5/5, which is Children's Day. Kurapika's is 4/4, the number 4 being considered an unlucky number, and this being an unlucky day to have a child. Leorio's is 3/3, Hinamatsuri (not really any main parallels here but still). But Killua's birthday is 7/7, and is the Japanese day to celebrate Tanabata. 

If you are not familiar with Tanabata, the story is as follows : Orihime is a princess who works for her father, working hard and well, but she laments the fact that because of her hard work she can't meet someone and fall in love. Her father arranges for her to meet Hikoboshi, allowing Orihime to leave because he expects her to come back to work for him, but the two immediately fall in love and get married, and she never returns. I won't get into the rest of the story as it's this part that interests me the most, but if you want to read more about Killua and Tanabata I suggest reading the post I referenced below.

Does the story of Orihime remind you of anyone ? Killua also works for his father, but laments the fact that he can't go outside and meet someone. His father then lets him go, saying, and i quote: "he will come back, because he's my son". Doesn't this remind you of the tale of Tanabata ? Killua's story references the tale of Orihime perfectly, and I believe this is intentional : Killua's birthday isn't of any importance to the plot, so why make it Tanabata, a day that celebrates a love story that closely ressembles Killua's story ? The answer is simple : subtext.

With all this in mind, I think it's pretty clear that Togashi is writing intentional subtext to hint at Killua's feelings being romantic in nature. Togashi is a master writer, he has years of experience, and I strongly believe he knows what he's doing and not planting unintentional subtext. He's a very smart man, and knows how all of this can be interpreted.

I will finish by saying that Togashi is NOT an author that would deliberately queerbait his readers. So many people dismiss the possibility of having gay subtext leading onto an actual canon gay relationship because "it's not like the author would ever have gay main characters". While this holds true for a lot of manga authors, especially shonen manga authors, it does NOT apply to Togashi. 

Togashi has always displayed interest in queer subjects and queer representation, putting trans characters in all of his major works (Miyuki in YYH, Mikihisa in Level E and Alluka in HxH). There were also canonically gay characters in his previous works : Itsuki in YYH, and a character named Kuramoto in Level E. 

Togashi also always had interest in mangas having BL elements, citing Maya Mineo's "Patalliro!" as a manga he was attracted to during High School. If you're unfamiliar with Patalliro, the story focuses on the main character's love life as a gay man.  He also admitted to basing Hiei's (YYH) design off a character from that manga. 

Last but not least, Togashi mentioned in a note included in volume 1 of YYH that he wanted to write a sports manga, called The Trouble Quartet, where basically all the characters are gay. Togashi said he based it off his own interests as a writer, and that while it was refused by Shonen Jump, he got deeply attached to the project and that he would love to explore this project in a different shape once he made a name for himself. I suggest reading this post because the parallels between The Trouble Quartet and HxH are HILARIOUSLY accurate.

In short, Togashi has always had interest in queer matters, and was always interested in putting queer representation in his work. After YYH, which was a terrible experience for Togashi as a writer, he managed to snatch a contract that basically allows him to do whatever he wants with HxH. Having always held dear BL matters but never being able to explore it to his full intent, I believe Togashi is exploring queer identity further with HxH, because Shonen Jump basically lets him do anything.

To conclude, with Togashi's past experience and skill, his interest in queer representation, and the amount of subtext surrounding Killua, I honestly believe that Togashi is trying to explore further queer representation, and I wouldn't be surprised if HxH ends with Gon and Killua becoming a canon pairing, whether it be delivered in an ambiguous manner or not. 

Edit : I actually wrote a post on why I believe it won’t be ambiguous, and that it’s truly never been ambiguous, just developing : here.

I hope you enjoyed the read, thank you for reading all of this, and feel free to show this to anyone who denies subtext in HxH !

REFERENCES

- "It has to be Killua" - Medium article, "Impossibilities in Translating Queerness : The Dodgeball Dilemma" 

- Palm's Date Scene - Reddit post, "Togashi's love of Ambiguity: Chapters 217 and 218" 

-A thematic analysis of Palm’s character : ”The Issue With Palm”

- Shinjuu - Tumblr post by hunterxhell, "A lovers' suicide, I guess." :  + the post that mentions Ikalgo talking about shinjuu 

- An analysis on different subtext-y situations

- Illumi and Hisoka’s parallel : here and here 

- Killua’s birthday : "Killua, July 7th, and the significance of his birthdate”

- Togashi's interview mentioning Mineo's Patalliro 

[bugsy-maria]

Winchester's x Demon Sister! Reader

Warnings: Mention of burning alive, mention of torture and abusive past

"You know I find it hard to believe that you don't recognize your own Daughter," I played with the blade of John's hunting knife, "Were you that much of an absent father?" I looked up at the three hunters I hold hostage. my black eyes staring at them, a deadpanned look across my may face.

"I don't have a daughter!" he lost his cool fast. he yelled at me and I barely said anything.

"Of course you do," I bent down to his eye level, "You just forgot about her in the fire."

~~~~~22 years before~~~~~

3rd POV

Marry had just tucked in her two latest pride and joys. today was their six-month birthdays and something about that felt familiar to Marry as she forgot about it. as she walked out of the room after kissing the twins goodnight, she dismissed the feeling.

Mary passes John as she leaves the nursery, he's on his way to put Dean to bed. Once all children were put to bed, the adults of the house decided that it was their turn to turn in fr the night.

About an hour or two later, Mary stirs in her sleep. the noise from the baby monitor keeping her from sleeping. he sat up ready to make her way to the nursery to see little Sammy and precious (Y/N). she walked through the hall and sees a dim light coming from the TV downstairs.

Mary looks into the room in which the baby duo occupied, just to see the silhouette of her husband standing over the crib both babies slept in. they hadn't expected twins so they had only used the one that Dean used.

"John?" Mary spoke up, "Are they hungry?" she queried.

"Shh." her Husband shushed, she took it as a sign that he had just managed to put the two tots to bed. Mary made her way downstairs to turn off the TV, once she made her way to the bottom of the wooded steps she saw the last thing she expected to see.

On the couch was her husband sleeping, but in the room was John putting the babies to sleep. Marry quickly darted up the stairs turning on the lights to her own death. John awoke to the sounds of his wife screaming.

John saw the sight of the fire in the nursery, he also saw Dean standing in the hall scared.

"Get your siblings!" he shouted at the poor child. as he ran down the stairs to call for help.

~~~~~Present day~~~~~

(Y/N)'s POV

"(Y/N)?" his voice shook.

"Ding! Ding! ding!" I stood straight, "We have a winner!" I pointed at him.

"Get out of her, you black-eyed bitch!" I heard Dean speak up from the end of the line.

"Oh Dee," I chuckled, "I am your sister, I'm just upgraded." I smiled, looking back down at the knife I'm now twisting in my palm.

"You're not my sister, you're just a girl I met at school." his voice turned down yet sterned.

~~~~~9 years before~~~~~

Another day, another motel, another school. I never knew why we moved around a lot. all I knew was that it was for dad's work. I woke up to a single-bed hotel room once again. why only one bed you may ask? well, my dad is a crossroads demon for Hell so he's never around, but when he is I get new marks on my skin.

I got ready for school, I put on a black sweater with a white-collar shirt underneath. I slid my legs into a pair of ripped black jeans and tied my dirt-stained white converse. I slung my bag over my shoulder and walked to the school.

the day went by miserably slow. I was walking to the lunchroom, books safely tucked into my locker. I wasn't going to eat anything, I just had to be there. I felt someone's shoulder knock into mine.

"Sorry." I squeaked out, my frame folding into itself. I looked at the person I ran into. he looked to be a senior, 6' 7" and built like a chad.

"You think you can just push me around?" his voice boomed throughout the hall, making everyone stop.

"n-no," I stuttered. I felt my shoulder get grabbed and my back gets pushed up against the locker.

"I'm gonna make you pay for even laying eyes on me short stack!" he reeled his fist back, I closed my eyes waiting for the impact.

"You wanna think about that again?" a stern voice spoke up. I opened my eyes to see a familiar face, he had light freckles on his skin, dark brown hair, and an old leather jacket. he was always at every school I went to, and always managed to get the reputation of the bad boy everyone was scared of.

the giant quickly scurried off, leaving Dean and me in the same spot.

"You okay?" he looked at me.

"mm." I hummed, "Thanks, Dean." I quietly thanked about to make my way to the lunchroom.

"You know me?" he stopped me.

"Of course, you're always at every school I go to." I looked back at him, "Almost like you follow me." I smiled. most are scared of him, but when you see him almost every day for 13 years you tend to not be as scared.

~~~~~Present day~~~~~

Ever since that day he protected me from bullies and on occasion tended to my wounds caused by my father.

"That happens to also be your sister." I smiled at him. "I swear we crossed paths so many times. I was left to burn in a fire, saved by a demon instead of my own father, always in the same motel just one room over, in the same class as Sam, always saved by Dean, always kicked out by John, and always left behind for the wolves." I walked around them.

"The demon did this to you," Sam concluded.

"You'd think that wouldn't you?" I kneeled in front of him, my knife gliding across his jaw. "Sam it always was you, you were the one to push me over the edge."

~~~~~5 Years Before~~~~~

"You might have had Dean fooled but I'm not!" sam yelled at me. I was hoping Dee would be at their room so he could help me sew up a deep gash I got on my arm. a wound that was being held closed by an old tee-shirt. "I know you are one of those things that killed our mother!"

"Sammy what are you talking about?" tears of pain dried upon my face, but new tears forming on my face. how could Same think I'm a monster?

"Don't call me that!" he pushed me back a little from my shoulders. the harsh movement caused a sting in my wound, but I won't let any pain show now. "I hate you I always have! You're nothing but a monster!" he grabbed my uninjured arm and shoved me out of the room. I stood outside as he slammed the door in my face.

something changed in me that day. something big broke. I hated what I was, so I changed in that split second. my eyes turned black that night.

~~~~~Present day~~~~~

"You know you don't have to watch me." I stood up and looked in the direction of Crowley, the demon who found me burning. "I've been planing this since I was 17." I smiled, watching him disappear. I looked around the room, making sure that he was absolutely gone.

"Thank Lucifer he's gone!" I smiled, I quickly walked over to Dean undoing his restraints.

"What are you doing?" he asked.

"I may be a demon now, but I still care about you Dee," I said standing up hugging him after dropping the knife.

"I know." he hugged back.

"Dean are you crazy? She's a demon?!" I heard John yell.

"And you left your child to burn alive so it's not like you're all that good either." I went over to sam to undo his restraints too.

"How do we know we can trust you?"

"Well you never did before, so don't know." I smiled, crawling over to John's chair.

"Sam, get the Colt." I heard Sam listen to John.

"Wrong direction Sammy boy." I pulled the gun out of my pants while I stood up.

"So you planned to get the gun from us?" john stood up, facing me.

"no, I'll give it back once you guys are out of  here." I looked him in the eyes.

"She wouldn't hurt us, dad." I heard Dean speak from his spot near Sam.

"And how can we trust her?" venom leaked from the old man's words.

"Fine." I sighed, "Let's make a deal." I smiled at them.

"For what our souls, you might as well kill us now then." sam sounded angry

"No of course not. I'm a demon there for I have to keep the deals I make, I let you escape if you shoot me, not dead but in the shoulder."

"Why?"

"I don't want to hurt you guys, so I need to make it seem like you escaped on your own without my help."

"And you thought I wouldn't notice?" I heard crowly say from behind me.

"I'm not going to hurt them." I looked at him.

"No you were always too sensitive, it's the human in you." I threw the colt at Dee.

"And it what has kept me alive." I smile at him.

"It's what's going to kill you,"

"But you haven't killed me, I think that's your human side." he stepped in front of me.

"You better choose your next words very wisely," he advised

"If you wanted to kill you would have by know, face it. you care for me a little bit." he snapped his fingers and I was back in hell. in my room, well more like a holding cell.

"Argue with Crowley again?" a demon asked me from outside from my cell.

"Mmhmm." I slumped on the floor in the corner of the small cement room. just hoping that my brothers would come and save me this time.