#their dynamic is too sweet in my brain i am not ready...

[angelltheninth]

Hello my babe~ are you still into twisted wonderland?? (I follow you before I saw your kinktober masterlist with Jamil and Rook, and honestly it was like a full meal to me~) Can you please do a lost virginity kink with Jamil?

I'm still every into Twisted Wonderland. And feel free to call me any cute pet name you want, it really makes those happy hormones flow in my brain.

Pairing: Jamil Viper x Fem!Reader

Tags: nsfw, smut, virginity loss, guidance, dom/sub dynamics, handjob, blowjob, cunnilingus, gentle sex turns into rougher sex, clit stimulation, kink negotiation, praise

A/N: Whenever I look at Jamil I always think how he's really nice and supportive, but then he can get that smoldering look in his eyes and I'm ready to drop you know.

From the moment you started dating Jamil had treated you like a princess, every gesture and word perfectly thought out to make your heart beat faster and to make you swoon

He wanted you to be as comfortable as possible with the relationship before taking the next step

You no noticed a few times that he wanted to ask you to go further but always pulled away, which while sweet was also a little annoying

He's not the only one pent up as hell

"You've been what? Oh. To me? Why are you telling me this now?" He can't help but put tiny bit less distance between the two of you when you bring up the subject of you having dirty thoughts about him, "No, of course I think of you too. I think of you every night princess."

"Do you want to try? I won't push you. Honestly my hand is more then enough to take care of this later." You shake your head and reach out to touch his bulge, it's warmer then you figured it be, and it pulses under your fingers as they flex around it "Have you ever done this before? Just this."

He doesn't laugh or groan in disappointment when you admit that no you haven't been intimate with anyone before, you've been a little scared to

"You don't have to be scared of me. We can start with getting familiar with each others bodies. How about we take our clothes off and go from there. We'll do it together." His hand takes yours and brings it to his lips, his kisses gentle and reassuring on your knuckles

Even though he says that you're very aware of his eyes drink you in, moving over every inch of naked skin, every curve, over your breast and stopping to look between your legs as he licks his lips

"You're a dream." He walks up to you, completely confident in his naked self, his slim but toned body pressing against yours in a hug

And... oh, his cock, of course, you look at it from above, seeing the dark head looking back at you, you can't help but wonder what he tastes like

Your train of through is cut short as you feel his hand making it's way down your back, massaging your ass and just barely fingering your slit

"As excited as I am I see." He bites your ear, his tongue immediately flicking out to soothe the bite "I want to eat you out. Let me have my fill of you my beautiful rose." He's already dropping on his knees before you, his hair falling now free and falling over his back and face

The way he's looking at you now makes you think he really will eat you at some point tonight, that he'll make you beg, but for now he's letting you have control

You give him a sheepish nod and let him hook his hand under your knee while you smooth his hair out of his face and grip it tight

At first he's only kissing you, kissing around and over your folds, gentle pulling back your hood to reveal your clit, the first lick of his tongue over it feels like stars exploding and mending back together

It's so good, so different from your fingers and toys, so slow and calculated, he knows what he's doing and while there's a small spark of jealousy there you also can't help but feel possessive, he's doing this for you now, he's worshiping you, his cock is hard for you

The knowledge of that makes you grind against his mouth, makes you ask for his fingers, you want to know how they feel in your pussy

He's very enthusiastic to eat you out exactly how you want while his thumb is on your clit, pressing and tapping on it, "Tell me you want me to make you come and I will."

It might have been worded like a suggestion but it made something submissive inside you flare up instead, he wanted you to say it, you chanted it instead while you bucked your hips into him and felt yourself clenching and pulsing around his fingers only for him to withdraw them right as your orgasm hit, leaving your cunt empty and wanting

Jamil grabbed handfuls of your ass and hoisted you up to carry you onto the bed, all the while providing you with his cock to slide up against

"Was that good my sweet?" He sure enjoyed it by the way he licked up your juices from his lips and sucked his fingers clean with a loud pop

It was good but you wanted more, you wanted it again

"Happy to oblige. Only I think we should both get something out of this. I'm going to try something, you tell me if it's too much." You watch with curious eyes as he turns around and straddles your face, his cock right above you as he pulls your hips and ass into the air and folds you toward him, "Good?" He asks while he licks your clit and circles his finger around your pussyhole

You moan a low yes as you lean up and run an experimental lick around his cockhead, "Go ahead princess, it's all yours now." He smiles against your thigh before he pushes his finger inside of you

You want to please him as best as you can, to take his whole cock into your mouth but your inexperience and the way he keeps licking and fingering at you make it hard to concentrate

"Take your time. I'm more than happy with this." His licks get faster, one finger becoming two, "You taste so damn good. Your pussy is- ouch! Hey careful around the tip, it's really sensitive. Hmmn, that's better circle me with your tongue. Use your hand around the base."

The two of you start moving in rhythm, he's now three fingers deep inside of you and you still want more, you want his cock, it's taste is making you dizzy, his cum trickling down and onto your tongue and chin

Right as you feel yourself about to come again he pulls away with one final kiss on your cunt

He holds you by your thighs so you don't fall back forward and bends down right over you, his hard cock nudging at your hole, "Hm, you kind of look like a little pussytoy like this." He chuckles as he looks back at you and sinks his cock into you hole all the way to his balls, "You feel better then one though." He looks forward and tilts his head back in pleasure

You could only moan as the feeling of his cock filling you up over and over flooded your mind, "What's this? Did you get excited over being called my pussytoy. Interesting, we'll be exploring that kink of yours later. Now just focus on feeling how deep my cock goes. Can you feel how well we fit together, my pretty little rose?"

You did feel it, the two of you being one, your pleasures building up and amplifying each other

You saw the sweat flowing down Jamil's toned back, his hair wild and flowing as his breathing became more and more labored, he pulled out before he could spill inside of you, instead shooting his cum all over your stomach as his mouth closed around your pussy and his tongue finished the job his cock started, sending you over the edge again

"Fuck. I'm sorry about that. I forgot the condoms. Next time I promise I'll stay inside okay?" He placed one last kiss, making your hips jerk and twitch before he lowered them back onto the bed, "Look at this mess. You look kind of pretty wearing my cum." You liked wearing it

He was about to turn and kiss you but his stomach growling interrupted him, "Ah. Right. We have to actually eat don't we? Are you okay with getting cleaned up while I get us some food? After we get some energy back we can try again. Maybe see how far I can take it with that degradation kink you seem to have."

Jamil leaned over to kiss you, soft and light before he walked, without even bothering to put his clothes back on, out of the bedroom, humming a happy tune

[claymorexpunisher]

Brats Have More Fun (Ch.4/?) (18+ Fic)

Disclaimer: This is NSFW. If that's not your thing, keep scrolling. I try to tag my work appropriately, so if you choose to click on my work regardless, use your own discretion. Thank you for the love always and enjoy this cheesy porno! 🥂

Pairing(s): Finn Balor/Fem. Reader

Summary: Bratty Reader has a tough day at work and takes it out on Finn. Sometimes punishments aren't what a bratty sub needs, and luckily Finn knows that...

Tag(s): 18+, bratting, Dom/sub dynamic, oral sex (f receiving), a bit of angst, fluff.

Chapter Word Count: 1,090

Prev. Chapter

I tried not to think about the incredibly shitty day I had at work today.

I really did.

But the second I got home to my boyfriend and Dom, Finn who had a couple of days off from his own job, I knew it was hopeless.

I was irritated with my now former boss and with the rest of the world, and Finn was unfortunately going to have to deal with it.

Still, I greeted my boyfriend when I walked into our home, kissing him on the lips and answering vaguely when he asked how work was.

Finn could tell that something was off. It was written all over our faces and Finn wasn’t having my attitude.

I didn’t wanna talk about it. I didn’t even wanna think about it.

But my brain and my mouth had other plans and Finn was going to get to the bottom of it.

“Grab me a water while you’re in there, babe.” He said as I walked towards our kitchen.

That… that set me off.

I usually took orders at work.

From customers, from my boss, etc.

So, for me, putting up a bit of a fight at home with my boyfriend/Dom felt like the most natural thing in the world.

But Finn would quickly realize that today was different.

I was looking for some release that I knew I should ask Finn for, but I just didn’t know how.

“Why don’t you get up and get it yourself?” I scoffed, immediately feeling terrible.

Yet secretly a spark of excitement erupted in my chest as I heard Finn’s footsteps immediately following me into the kitchen.

“What?” I heard him ask.

“You heard me, Sir. Get it your damned self. I’m not your maid.” I responded, shrugging as my defiant gaze met his stormy features.

“Who said anything about you being my ma-…” Finn trailed off, suddenly grabbing my wrists.

He practically dragged me to our room, quite literally kicking and screaming, before he picked up my wriggling body and carried me the rest of the way.

I let out a soft ‘oof’ as Finn deposited me unceremoniously onto the bed, both of us starting to pant as we struggled for control until he straddled my torso.

He had much more muscle than I did, and honestly, the day at work left me too exhausted to really put up a fight.

Another red flag for him.

“Are you ready to talk, love?” Finn asked softly, in a sweet tone I wasn’t really prepared for.

Shit.

No.

I could feel a knot in my throat, and I immediately cleared it away, willing my eyes not to water and Finn’s eyes softened even more, making me even angrier. But I knew it wasn’t gonna last.  

“Talk about what, Finn?” I snapped but it was as half hearted as the warning Finn replied with.

“Enough… I know something’s wrong, darlin’. Was it your boss? Did he do something?” He asked and that opened up the floodgates.

Tears poured and poured from my eyes and onto the pillowcase at an alarming rate no matter how much I wiped my eyes once Finn let my wrists go.

He carefully lifted himself off my torso and pulled me closer to his chest and I felt myself melt almost immediately.

“…I quit. I couldn’t take his shit anymore, so I quit.” I finally confessed. “Now what the fuck am I gonna do? I hated that job- he was a raging dickhead but-“ I sobbed but Finn gently shushed me and kissed the crown of my head several times.

“Now, we’re gonna calm down, and you’re gonna relax-“ Finn said, his tone and gaze now playful as I shot up from his chest to look at him.

He never did take life all that seriously and that was partly why I was head over heels for him.

In this moment I needed the reminder that things would be fine. And that I did the right thing in quitting.

He chuckled, rubbing my arms and my back.

“Lay back, love.”

For once I did what I was told, though I was still slightly perturbed by the fact that I wasn’t being punished.

I let Finn peel off the pj’s I had changed into upon returning home early from work and I softly bit my lip as he slowly spread my legs, trailing soft kisses along my inner thighs and along my abdomen.

His beard grazed over my ticklish stomach, making it visibly flutter and causing him to smile.

I matched his smile as I looked down at him and I grasped one of his hands in mine, gasping softly as his mouth began to trail over my waiting pussy.

My eyes fluttered shut and my back arched as Finn’s tongue teased along the outside of my pussy before he brought his tongue up toward my clit and back again, chuckling as I let out a soft whine.

But I didn’t urge him forward.

No, I wanted to bask in this for once.

The slower pace felt like a nice change of pace despite my impatience, and I secretly loved the way Finn was taking care of me, making my accelerated thoughts settle and focus on something much, much better, and sweeter.

Him.

I sighed deeply, sinking into our bed as his mouth finally closed over my clit, sucking lightly even as his tongue began circling that little, tiny switch that made my toes curl.

“Fuck…” I whined, clutching Finn’s hand firmly with one hand and holding the back of his head with the other and he slowly and with all the patience in the world, tasted me.

“There we go… I know you need to destress, love, and I’m happy to do that for you.” he said, pulling his mouth away from between my legs momentarily and replacing it with his fingers.

I could feel his eyes on me without even looking and when I opened my eyes for all of a second and locked them with his.

My thighs trembled at the sight of Finn’s quirked lips as his fingers slowly pumped in out of my inviting pussy.

“I’m such a good Dom- such a good boyfriend. Aren’t I, baby?” Finn chuckled as my body began to writhe even more.

“The best...!” I moaned.

As I finally reached my peak with a choked off scream, a kaleidoscope of colors exploded behind my eyelids as Finn mouth slowly toyed with my clit once again, intensifying the onslaught of sensations coursing through my body…

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[ryttu3k]

BECAUSE I AM DUMB (and it is almost 2am) I sent you an astarion ask for the ship ask, but my brain meant wyllstarion! (apparently my brain decided that astarion is intrinsically connected to wyllstarion)

Haha, all good! <3

[ship meme]

Ship It

1. What made you ship it?

lmao it was a post about that clip saying that Astarion used to dream of marrying a man like Wyll. Just the thought of Astarion feeling like he's too old and jaded and cynical for this very pure romance, but Wyll still being young and idealistic and intensely romantic and, you know what, he's going to woo the heck out of this mysterious and charming elf he's crushing on.

2. What are your favorite things about the ship?

Okay so. I have a List.

They bring out the best in each other. Wyll encourages Astarion, by his actions, to help people, to do good, to be heroic. Wyll so wholeheartedly believes in being a hero that it just... starts rubbing off on Astarion too. Conversely, Wyll can be selfless to a fault, and Astarion can sort of reel him back a bit, get him to think about himself and his own needs. I absolutely believe that left on his own, Wyll would agree to Mizora's deal and sacrifice his own freedom for his father, and Astarion is probably the one best positioned to get Wyll to think about his own future and reject the pact.

The contrasts and parallels in their story. The obvious contrast, monster vs monster hunter, starting out (more or less) chaotic evil vs lawful good, but eventually meeting somewhere in the middle (see: above point about bringing out the best in each other). And then the parallels - both of them are heavily under the influence of someone else, seemingly abandoned by the gods and any other important support structures (Astarion being cut off by Cazador from any kind of support, Wyll being disowned by Ulder who I still haven't forgiven, he was seventeen years old!!), and their main narrative arc is about breaking free from their respective tormentors, and working out who they can be as their own free people. Why not do that together?

The romance is so healing for Astarion. More one-sided here, in that it's more of a benefit for Astarion than it is for Wyll, but a slow courtship is exactly what Astarion needs, with this foundation of trust building, knowing that Wyll cares about him for more than just what he can do in bed.

The mutual attraction. They're so down bad for each other. Using your own post here, Astarion critically fails a charisma roll and Wyll is just. Lucky for you I'm into that shit.

The hands the hands. The hands!

3. Is there an unpopular opinion you have on your ship?

Honestly, I think they genuinely do work best as a poly ship (or like, a QPP thing) with Karlach. I love all three relationships individually, but I also love them together (there's a lovely post on their dynamic as a trio here, looking at them platonically, but it still holds out for a romance). Wyll and Karlach's storylines are intrinsically bound together, and indeed the only way for Karlach to have a happy ending at this point is with Wyll and/or a love interest accompanying her back to Avernus. I... can't really see Wyll being able to brush off not helping Karlach, leading to her death; I think if she does die, he'd be deeply depressed and feel a lot of guilt for it.

Astarion, too, really values Karlach. He's the most gentle about her if Tav is torn between them, there's just this very sweet dynamic between them. And Karlach clearly adores both of them too! She and Wyll become best friends, she's basically ready to go to war against Cazador to protect Astarion, there's just... so much love and care between the three of them that I can't see any one of them wanting to leave one of the others behind. My 'canon' ending for them would be all three going to Avernus (which Wyll openly offers to do and which Astarion is 100% willing to do as well), finding a solution for Karlach's engine and Astarion's sun issues, and then returning to Baldur's Gate to start working out a future - together.

So in conclusion:

Astarion/Wyll: Good shit.

Wyll/Karlach: Good shit.

Karlach/Astarion: Good shit (but please fix the Origin spawn Astarion ending, Larian!!)

Karlach/Wyll/Astarion: 👌👀👌👀👌👀👌👀👌👀 good shit go౦ԁ sHit👌 thats ✔ some good👌👌shit right👌👌there👌👌👌 right✔there ✔✔if i do ƽaү so my self 💯 i say so 💯 thats what im talking about right there right there (chorus: ʳᶦᵍʰᵗ ᵗʰᵉʳᵉ) mMMMMᎷМ💯 👌👌 👌НO0ОଠOOOOOОଠଠOoooᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒᵒ👌 👌👌 👌 💯 👌 👀 👀 👀 👌👌Good shit

[sugarsnappeases]

omg kara I love seeing all of ur art thoughts!!! May I ask who your fave artists are?? hope you’re having a lovely night 💕

aaaa hi skye!!!!

ur so sweet and yes ofc you can but i feel like my thoughts are a bit… idk i feel it’s an odd selection

first of all, and also maybe obviously, my baby, vincent van gogh which i feel like is just… i mean of course he’s my favourite but like… that man, right, like he drives me insane. like this is maybe fairly self-explanatory, everyone loves van gogh

then, and this is also fairly obvious, or to me at least, i am a HUGE michelangelo girly, likeeee the way he views the body is just soooo. it’s exquisite actually and i’m studying his poetry at uni next term which i’m SO excited about!!!! get ready for me to be SO annoying about him

i also had this one artist in my brain for so long and i couldn’t remember her name but it came to me yesterday!! it’s flora yukhnovich and i just love how like dynamic her work is, like nods to classics w this fun kinda twist

umm who else… another more modern artist, aida tomescu, i love her so much, there’s just Something about her pieces, also when i was doing my art a level i looked into her a lot bc i was thinking about process art and that sort of thing which was all really interesting to me

also i think i mentioned this another time but jenny holzer i LOVE, and dante gabriel rossetti (absolute icon like imagine loving dante so much, you change ur name to match his i love him), i also really like modigliani, him and those long necked women lmao, oh and OFC caravaggio i LOVE him (if u couldn’t tell i’m a Major renaissance girly)

anyway these are all just off the top of my head and there are many many more but i’m gonna shut up now lol tysm for asking, hope you’re having a lovely night too <33

[fuckyeahdindjarin]

i never really understood why everyone was so into agent whiskey and just never looked in deeper but i read all of palomino recently (i’ve been a fan of yours since the beginning of consent though) and… girl. GIRL. a work of ART. i suddenly love whiskey. you’ve made me understand the hype

SWEET ANON. Thank you for this message, you really came for me 😭 I’ll be honest, even when I started writing Palomino, I didn’t expect to fall head over heels for this cowboy. But there’s something about him. He's written as so one-dimensional in the movie, but that monologue in the diner? It gives me goosebumps every time. And it just makes me want to give him all the happiness he deserves.

I am so, so honoured to be the one converting you to Whiskey 🥹 It is my mission to spread the Jack love! Now, I'll be remiss if I don't mention a few of my favourites Jack fics. Since many Whiskey fics in the fandom fall under a particular kink that I'm not into (no judgement, I just don't read it), I'm very picky and I haven't read too many, but these are all amazing:

Cognitive Dissonance by @prolix-yuy is the Jack fic that converted me to Whiskey in the first place. It's one of my favourite series hands down - LJ knows how crazy I am about her cowboy! She has also written some other excellent Jack oneshots, including the super hot Jack x Reader x Marcus Pike threesome Two Truths and a Lie.

Stars Hit The Ceiling by @jazzelsaur I'm pretty sure was the first threesome fic I ever read, and it is still one of my faves. Her Whiskey is delicious and is written so beautifully and sensitively. I can't get enough of the dynamics between these three.

Salty Caramel by @iamskyereads is such a fun and sexy action piece. I remember when Skye mentioned this Whiskey and sex pollen idea to me and my brain literally short-circuited before I even read it. I love everything Skye writes and her Whiskey is no exception!

Over Ice by @haylzcyon is like a warm fuzzy winter coat. This adorable fic gives me all the feels, and Hayley was kind enough to entertain my request for the follow-up Shaken Not Stirred. I love this universe so much!

Under Marula Trees by @deadhumourist sends me on safari vacation with Whiskey and all the gang? Yes please! I love this fic to bits, and I'm ready to dive back in whenever Ani is!

[emonydeborah]

SNW and DISCO spoilers

so I watched the Una episodes of discovery with no other context. So it’s just the episode where they find the sphere and the last two episodes of season two.

they really go buckwild on this ship. Tilly is being eaten by fungus and no one tells anyone. Jett and the mushroom man get high and slap each other out of it. Also did Jett appear from the vents? Michael is having a family crisis. Saru asked his friend to help him commit ritual suicide and I think a part of his brain fell out. Also I didn’t know he spoke so many languages so that was cool.

they are so dramatic here. The shocked and horrified stares around at each other made the finale an hour long otherwise it would have been like 30 minutes. I expect this from Chris but good grief. The letters goodbye one bye one? Sarek and Amanda somehow showing up ahead of a whole fleet to tell Michael they love her? The sibling fight as the ship is being fired upon? (that one tracks actually) I like it for the big moments but are they always like this?? And is the “eyes up” thing a thing and why doesn’t Chris do it anymore?

I do like the found familyness I am sensing. The whole fam banding together to go with Michael was sweet. And their goodbye to Chris. This is the level of found family where I’d expect to find at least a few of those foster kid fanfics where they refuse to leave each other and the foster parents get six kids at once. I have not looked but I would be disappointed if there aren’t any.

Pike’s stepdad energy is so strong. The whole crew does what they want and loop him in when they feel like it. They are fine without him and have their own system and dynamics going on. He knows it, too, which is hilarious to watch from just knowing him from snw. He really just intervenes to keep his genius stepchildren from straying too far off the mission. They are running around like overexcited puppies (“the sphere is trying to communicate!!!!”) and he keeps them from gnawing on the walls. But he is a good stepdad in that he is ready to throw hands and use his ship as a shield so they can get away from section 31.

then as soon as he gets back to enterprise he brings all of the evil fbi apparently. Una is not surprised and has tricked out the whole ship and the shuttles for battle without prompt. She went Chris was out of my sight for too long we need to be ready to fight the galaxy.

and some more Una notes: Katrina Cornwell seemed tall and commanding until she stood next to Una and it was hilarious how small she was. Took me out of the dramatic bomb defusing moment but I still had fun. And Chris knew someone was going to die from that torpedo and got Una out as soon as he knew there were no other options. My pikeuna heart.

And Una choosing violence with the interrogation sent me. SNW fans know she has been hiding and afraid of scrutiny her whole life, and this is how she shows it. What a woman. She did not even tell them her name. Did we know she was Una at this point or was she Number One all the way until snw premiered?

“Follow the queen.” *Chris immediately looks at Una* I see you Chris.

it is obvious that they did not know how they were going to open snw with Chris being depressed and Una going missing but I liked their shock and happiness when Spock showed up beardless.

idk if I am intrigued enough to watch this whole show but I like Georgiou being their personal annoying gremlin. “Everybody hates you. Congratulations.” Also queen Po going if I die I die.

did not like Una going “in English please” to literally another navigator. We know she’s a genius let her be one y’all. If it were a science person going off a thousand words a minute I would allow it. But Una was talking to a pilot. Do better.

IN GENERAL, a good time. I was there for Una and she was not there much, but that was expected I guess. I was not prepared for how emotional discovery's crew would be. They are all in their feelings at all times. I liked them as a crew and maybe I will return one day.

[hekateinhell]

sending this well after you've probably gone to bed HOWEVER i am always ready to report for louis/armand/lestat duty so HERE GOES:

Every time they get in a petty fight, someone rearranges the vinyl collection at Trinity Gate. Louis organizes alphabetically by artist, Armand organizes by genre, and Lestat organizes chronologically. The music room is a goddamn war zone.

When Lestat is an Extra Extra Good Boy (or just in need of some tlc in general) Louis and Armand make the best mani-pedi team. Louis takes a foot and Armand takes a hand, then they switch for the opposite side. 

Somehow Armand gets ahold of the tattered old TVL band shirt that Louis used to sleep in. He lounges around the house in it and has both Lestat and Louis drooling in SECONDS (bonus smut points if Louis and Lestat both take turns fucking him in it)

Also this is just Louis/Armand but listen i've been thinking a lot lately of how strong Armand is!!! Like I know the fun thing about his character is that he's got the craziest mental tenacity for someone trapped in a small/young body, but I do think people sleep on how physically strong he is as well. Anyway, all I'm saying is: I want to see him hoist Louis up against a wall and fuck him <3 I want Louis to get overpowered and dicked down by someone half a foot shorter than him LOL it would be good for him!!!!!!

ASHLEYYYYY OH MY GOD I LOVE ALL THESE SO MUCH YOU ALWAYS HIT ME WHERE I LIVE!!! 😭😭😭

i love thinking about what their domestic life would look like LMAO canon or human AU because all three of them complement and contrast each other so fucking well, i'm all over that all day every day!!!! asksfkdsgj rip the music room 💀 i hope to god nobody gets petty enough to fuck with the library and louis's meticulously thought out system of displaying his books that only he knows (lestat gets petty enough, armand knows better -- tbh idk if he actually ever gets mad at louis? as easily as lestat sets him off, louis has the opposite effect. but for argument's sake, i think if louis did piss armand off, armand would react by pretending he's fine but he would immediately start being infantilizing and weird. really, really emphasizing the "sweet, dusty louis" every other sentence like he's marius talking to a wain victorian orphan).

NO BUT THIS IS SO SWEET!!! not to get too serious but for canon fic i think about court era!lestat a lot and like how he comes right out and says to marius "you don't want a prince in me, you want a figurehead, you would be the ruler here" and really just all the times he sounds so Tired & Done™️ in general with everything. lestat getting some TLC from his consort and madame de pompadour on the regular is harm reduction at its finest lbr. i wanna see armand and louis giving him a perfumed bath a la QotD but without the trauma (and like in Air Catcher too now that i've triggered the memory, i love your brain so much DO YOU KNOW HOW OFTEN I REREAD THAT FIC 🥹)

OH MY GOD STOP PLEASE!!! i wanna know like was armand intentional about wearing louis's lestat shirt? in his mind, is this The Next Logical Step in their threesome relationship? was he expecting a reaction or was he just looking to self-soothe and instead of going for one of louis's baggy sweaters that would hit the thigh on armand, he just grabbed the shirt? regardless, i hope they dped him 🫶🏼 (i totally need this to happen both in canon verse and in teen au future verse)

NO ASHLEY YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND LMAO NOBODY KNOWS BECAUSE I HAVE TOO MUCH GOING ON TO ACTUALLY WRITE BUT THE SMUT MACHINE NEVER STOPS AND LATELY I JUST WANT ARMAND TO TOP EVERYONE!!!! i wanna see the short king bend back those long legs and go to town on these catholic boys! 🤧 armand is the ultimate switch and he is, in his own words, NOT A WAIF. he can lift that bag of bones easily!!! ❤️ and i remember we talked about like top/bottom dynamics with lestat and louis--either physically or just energy wise--and how it would probably take a considerable amount of time and effort for louis to heal enough to relinquish that control to lestat again following the RR years and all that went down... i'm thinking like if i wanted squish armand in there and I DO, it would be a good step in that direction for louis to practice being open (get it? i'll see myself out) with armand first (literally expanding on PL canon here just adding the sex LMAO). tl;dr: it would be good for both of them if armand fucked that sad, wet man (as a treat) ALSO ALSO SEE MY FAVE "ARMAND FUCKS LOUIS" FICLET THAT IS WAY TOO FUCKING SHORT

[halfmoth-halfman]

I want to start off by saying I’m so happy you’re back! Hope your brain got the rest it needed before it reigns terror on us. Last chapter was fantastic! There’s too much for me to write down and analyze so i’m just doing my fav moments (i’m still writing a damn essay on this series after it’s done). Btw I wrote this in my notes at 4 am so very mush brained incoherent.

I loved seeing Canary’s quick wit make it’s appearance again when she stood up to Adler, he gave her tools but no instruction manual just said “figure it out” and him blaming her for his failure just shows he’s only her donor, not her father in my book,I can just imagine her mom whooping his ass after he died, “you did what to my baby!?”. Her biting back was like the first step to justice for herself because she’s coming back stronger than ever, she’s healing. Yes queen, use that tongue of steel (one of my mom’s saying, “we don’t have silver tongues, we have tongues of steel bc we spark when we speak and slice when we need to”).

Canary is finally finding her fighting spirit again and I can’t wait for her to rain some brimstone on her enemies, or just be comfortable in herself and know she regained her autonomy. Finally Price in jail made me laugh because all I could see was Canary in the “I lived bitch” meme.

As always you’re one of my favorite authors and will forever have me running to your blog when I get your alerts- 🔥

i'm happy you're happy, but you're like the third person to say they're happy i'm back and i??? never left??? did i get shadowbanned for criticizing staff LMAO

anon pls know i already love the asks you send me and i will cry if you write an essay on this series

canary def got her wit and quick comebacks from adler, it was kind of a necessity given how he raised her and what he was raising her to be. you're so right, he gave her the tools but never told her what to do with them. he expected her to be smart enough to know how to use them, but she didn't have the same life experiences he did so of course she wouldn't do things exactly how he wanted. and i think his blame for her stems from a disappointment and anger toward himself because deep down i think he knows the responsibility of her failures fall back on him. and canary's at the point now where she's not afraid to tell him that.

i can say that canary's mom will only be mentioned once or twice more, so this isn't really a spoiler. adler is very much the way he is/was with canary because of her mother's death. had she lived, this would've been a very, very different story because i think of adler and his wife's relationship much like price and canary's (though maybe a bit more possessive on adler's end). adler would've (and did) move mountains and burn down empires for his wife. she was his entire life, and he would've left everything behind and started living a mob free life if she asked him to. i headcanon that if she lived, canary's mother would've wanted adler to step down and settle somewhere peaceful and quiet and away from the blood and chaos. and i think adler would've done it in a heartbeat.

her mother would've been much more hands on and open with canary, but adler would've been like those dads that don't talk much and are kind of awkward with their kids but still love them very much. he'd still run his gang, but from afar with not as much input and leaving the big decisions to someone he trusted. canary would've grown up with a much more solid family dynamic, growing into a confident and proud woman, and (in my own little headcanon) would've met price at a gala hosted by one of her adler's friends and they'd have a series of casual flings before getting serious and eventually married.

canary's finally decided enough is enough and she's so ready to get her revenge and begin to heal from everything she's gone through and i love that for her honestly.

asdlaksdlkj i just imagine like gaz playing into canary's not-death just like-

gaz: this year, i lost my dear, sweet canary

canary: quit telling everyone i'm dead! >:(

gaz: sometimes, i can still hear her voice

or he'd just send a blurry bigfoot-style picture of her to price with a text that's like "manor's haunted"

thank you so much babes, please know i always appreciate your asks and i hope you have a wonderful day!! 💜

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I completely agree with you about Sweets! His death was such a shame. How do you think he would have changed the dynamics in seasons 10 through 12 if he was still alive with the plots and characters (like Aubrey and Karen)?

AUBREY: im an aubrey-sweets friendship truther at heart, so first thing to acknowledge is the thing with aubreys dad.

We all know sweets has a slight obsession/ interest (depending on the perspective) with his friends childhoods, and that’s understandable. I can see him really helping him out at that time, and providing a perspective that would hopefully relieve the guilt he experiences after turning his dad in. also really random idea that popped into my brain!! aubrey is the most adhd coded guy ive ever seen, so i can see sweets waltzing past his desk and dropping off snacks and drinks to help him focus :)

i just think those two could have got super close. Aubrey clearly felt out of place when he first joined, a feeling that sweets shared and grew from so maybe he would have just provided that extra support for him!

KAREN: i havent got so much on this, cause i dont know her as well as i should, however; i know those ‘is psychology a real science’ debates would have got way more heated!!! its now 2v2, b&b and sweets and karen, i can see them sitting in the diner having the most heated debate ever seen and the rest of the diner is just sat silently like ‘what the fuck 0-0’.

I also think at first, sweets struggled having someone who pushed him and knew a lot about ‘his’ field, which comes with lots of special interests. (i get quite stressed if i meet a person who is into the same fields of physics that i am, especially if i am the person who is known for liking it amongst my group, and i think sweets probably has the same think). But he learns to talk with her and infodump about their theories and cases together! a form of healthy competition forms i think, one that eventually encourages them to work harder.

ZACK: i felt like it was important to mention him,even though i mentioned him in the last one, so ill just expand on this one a bit.

I just want to know what the team would have thought about sweets knowing all along that zack was innocent. What would they have felt? betrayed? understanding? sad? Maybe sweets would never have told them during this time, maybe he kept it a secret until he testified on the stand.

Sometimes i think the death of sweets is what prompted Zack to admit to never having killed anyone, so maybe if he was still alive Zack would still be there and no-one would ever know. That could give way for another new plot line where sweets lets it slip that zack was innocent, but maybe not. who knows :)

(now an extra cause i wanted to do him hes the loml)

HODGINS: this is a big one, cause the poor guy really goes through it (*cough* the doom in the boom *cough*). I love this arc, it gets way to much hate. disabled hodgins for the win!!

I think sweets totally understands his anger, and allows him to feel it (as he should!). But i think he would have put a stop to him taking it out on angela, cause it’s counterproductive to build barriers between those you love when you’re struggling. I can see hodgins (after the usual pestering from sweets for a while) just rocking up at his office looking ready to murder someone (so real) and sweets just lets him talk, and shout and probably cry a bit too.

I just think the adjustment wouldn’t have been easier, but he would have had a way to handle it better and that would mean so much!!!

okay cool im done (for now- i might revisit this idea later with a few other characters) :)

[lookwhatyoumademedohaha]

Alright since I'm fucking heartbroken and exhausted about what they did to Byler and to us, my hurt brain came up with a few ideas you all are free to turn to fics and fix everything.

Five Hargreeves meeting Will Byers. Both of them being sassy little shits. Five taking an immediate liking to Will and has big 'I've had Will Byers for one day but if anything happens to him, I will kill everyone in this room and then myself' energy. Both of them becoming good friends who go on road trips singing out loudly visiting all the roadside attractions and visit art galleries with big smiles and loud laughs. They get kicked out of some places for being too chaotic and Five being lippy but they are having the time of their lives.

Will making senior citizen jokes about Five. Five rolling his eyes affectionately every time Will mentions he's got a serious coffee addiction and Will having to listen to Five talk about why coffee is the best. So many inside jokes and teasing each other. Five being a maniac and Will being sweet and everyone wonders how they are friends.

Five and Will bonding over their trauma which brings them closer together. Five and Will understanding each other on a deeper level because they know how it feels to be different, grief and loneliness.

Five and Will comforting each other when they have nightmares.

Five appreciating Will every single day. Will letting Five know that he's not alone and that he's not insignificant. Will coming out to Five who is truly happy for him. Though he is cool with it, it really means a lot to him that Will decided to trust him. Five doesn't want to make a big deal out of it but it's Will who has spent his whole life feeling like a second choice, a mistake, worthless so Five plans something to celebrate to show Will that he is loved.

Will and Five drunk dancing together. Five being proud of Will whenever he does anything from finishing a painting to standing up for himself.

Five getting mad at vending machines and Will laughs in amusement at first but then goes to help him out as they both have their snacks together.

Five being protective of Will especially when Mike comes around because if this gibber idiot can't see how special Will is, then he doesn't deserve him. Five ready to throw hands when Mike says something stupid to Will, fuming and mad because no one gets away with treating Will like he's worthless and Will has to physically stop Five from fighting Mike with an axe.

"Will, I'm about to beat this bitch up for treating you like garbage." "FIVE PUT THE AXE DOWN!" "Why does your crazy friend have an axe?" "OH YEAH, THAT'S RIGHT, MIKE WHEELER! MY FRIEND IS FUCKING CRAZY AND HE WILL KILL YOU!" "Thanks Will. Make your peace with God Mike -" "Not today, Five. Maybe later." "Fine. But if you're am asshole to Will one more time and I don't care what Will says, I will kill you myself. Do not test me."

Will standing up for Five telling the Hargreeves that they should appreciate Five more because he literally saved them all. Five enjoys this but is surprised and moved. Basically now all the Hargreeves siblings have adopted Will and Five has to fight to get to spend time with his friend.

Five and Will getting into all these adventures. Will possessing Joyce's crazy fierce spirit and Five's absolute badassery make them a dynamic duo to be reckoned with. At the end of the day, they look out for each other and when they get wounded, they take care of each other.

Will and Five bickering like an old married couple. Will is stubborn and so is Five. Both of them have arguments which don't last for long because dammit Will, Five doesn't want to see him sad and Will might be right and dammit Five, you might be right too. Both of them are back together in a matter of minutes and find a way together.

Five isn't really into physical affection but Will is into physical affection. They hold hands, hug each other, ruffle each others hair, hold each other when they are crying or had a nightmare and even random cheek or forehead kisses.

Five: Will, you're a genius! I've got to go! Will: Aren't you forgetting something? Five:.... Um (Kisses Will on the forehead) Will: NO! Pay the bill! Damn, who raised you?

Will and Five calling each other nicknames but also just little things like 'darling' or 'sweetheart' just slips out. They'd be speaking with each other and just call each other those nicknames so naturally and normally that they don't see others smirking or raising eyebrows. (Especially Mike who is confused and jealous of this awesome dynamic)

Five and Will getting drunk together. Five's 'fuck it' attitude has rubbed on Will who doesn't care. When both of them get drunk, chaos ensued and they have a wonderful time together.

Five and Will wanting each other to be happy because they have been hurt and miserable for too long and they both deserve happiness and relaxation and friendship. This means Five and Will trick and treating together. Five dressing up as himself out of retirement to annoy Will who put thought into his costume. But Five has a backup costume which he actually put thought to and they have a good time.

Basically Will and Five being platonic chaotic besties that they both deserve and maybe even more as time goes on. This is how I see them

[mamachasesmayhem]

Hang Your Halo • Eighteen

Master | Seventeen | Nineteen

Pairing: Jake “Hangman” Seresin x OC Beckham “Halo” Teague

Series Warnings: 18+ ONLY, minors DNI. Eventual sexy times. Brief descriptions of combat. Kidnapping. Mentions of drug and weapons trafficking. Violence. Smut with kinks (spitting, throat grabbing, hair pulling, spanking, soft dom/brat dynamics, so much dirty talk) aplenty.

God, her eyes are piercing and she's got some piercings.  She looks like she's got some secrets that are worth hearing.  Time is moving slower as she's getting closer, I don't think I'd make it if she ever said it's over

My Type (Little Attitude) x Bryce Savage

Jake

While Beck was unpacking and organizing, I pulled up the map of our neighborhood and planned a route for us to take that'll pass by the Cole's house without being too conspicuous.  I walk back into the master bedroom, mine and Beck's bedroom, and find her playing Morgan Wallen.  That girl loves her some Morgan and physically can't keep herself from singing and dancing along and it's one of my favorite things about her.  I don't have to try to sneak up on her since she's so caught up in the music, and the startled squeak she lets out as I slide my hands across her stomach is so cute.  I quickly grab her and spin her out then back into me, loving how effortlessly we fall into a rhythm together.  My heart lurches when I realize just how attached to her I am. 

Leaning down, I press a kiss to her hair and then rest my head atop hers.  I leave my head where it is as I start my next sentence. "You're the only one I want in my passenger seat, you know that?  My favorite copilot and the only one I trust to have my back no matter what."

As I look down, her hazel eyes lock onto my green ones and I see everything she's feeling in them.  She leans in to kiss me and I can feel the emotions she can't express into words through her lips.  Not wanting to ruin the sweet moment she just gave me, I pull back before I make it dirty.  I head into the closet to change and call into the next room to see if Beck is ready to head out.  I tried to time it to where the sun won't be too low, but we also won't melt in the heat.  She tells me she just needs to change, and I move to dart out of the closet in hopes of catching her half naked, forgetting I was halfway into pulling my shorts on.  I stumble into the doorway, my arm taking the brunt of the doorframe and keeping me from falling flat on my face. 

Beckham laughs when I mumble about almost being taken out by some fuckin mesh shorts as I sit on the bed to pull my shoes onto my feet.  I look up to send her a snarky comment about laughing at my pain, but all of my thoughts come screeching to a halt when I see what she's wearing.  I take my time dragging my gaze from the tip of her running shoe clad toes, over her gorgeous muscular legs wrapped in black leggings, and stopping at her boobs tucked tightly into a Nike sports bra.  I swear I tried to move my eyes all the way up to her face, but they weren't communicating with my brain and they locked in on where I could see her piercings through the material, making my mouth water.  I'm very much looking forward to watching her incredible figure running until I realize other dickheads will get to see her too.  I let her know as much when my eyes finally catch up and connect with hers.  I'm sure they're blown wide, because my body is screaming for her.  She makes it so much worse when she tells me that my lack of a shirt is getting to her too, then promises to "work hard and fuck harder."   Great, now I get to run with a hard on.  Her smart mouth is gonna send me into an early grave, and when I tell her this, she slaps my ass and heads to the door.  I meet her at the door and make sure she's looking at me as I obviously adjust my dick in my pants, making her lips part on a sharp inhale.

"Fucking hell, Hangman.  We just might be the death of each other," she groans at me and I smile. 

I lock the door, tuck the key into my zipper pocket, and lead the way for our run.  We keep our eyes peeled for anything remotely abnormal, but the weirdest thing we come across is a Yorkie dog wearing tennis shoes and being pushed in a baby stroller.  We stop and introduce ourselves to anyone we see, which is mostly trophy wives with their kids or dogs.  Beckham informs me that they'll most likely be the best people to gather intel from and I scrunch my eyebrows together, wordlessly asking to elaborate. 

"Suburban housewives are literally fountains of knowledge with how much they gossip.  You'd be surprised at how much they actually know," she tells me with a smirk. 

Note to self, tell no wives anything.  We're stopped a few more times by more neighbors and enjoy every conversation...right up until the last one.  The neighbor in question is an overly bleached blonde with obvious cosmetic work to her face and ridiculously fake tits.  Who even thinks that she's attractive?  She's probably got so much plastic and filler in her, that her sheer existence is a danger to the ozone.  She introduces herself as Karrie, making very sure we know it's pronounced "car-e" and not "Carrie."   That alone wouldn't have been too terrible, but she just had to go and be overly flirtatious with me, making my brain work hard to find a subtle way out of this situation.  She kept trying to find a reason to touch my arms and attempted to touch my hair.  Beckham was having absolutely zero to do with her bullshit and could sense I was uncomfortable.  Being the smooth operator she is, she grabbed my hand in hers and slightly tugged to shift me behind her.  I stepped to the side and directly behind her, then wrapped my arms around her shoulders, leaning down resting my chin on top of her head.  She reaches up and holds onto my forearm with the hand not already interlaced with mine, lovingly running her thumb up and down.  To anyone else, it would look like we were just being affectionate, but we both knew we were marking our territory.  Beckham was clearly asserting I belonged to her and I wanted to make it known I didn't want to be with anyone else. 

We were finally able to part ways, Karrie making us promise to bring our friends and join at the block party they were hosting this weekend.  I'd rather have an ingrown toenail removed without local anesthetic than go to that, but that will be an optimal place to learn more about everyone and I'd be a moron to miss that chance.  Unfortunately. Beckham and I are finally able to pick up the pace and break into an actual running stride now that we're on a road with longer stretches between houses.  Soon, we're running up to where the Coles live.  Our only intention is to just scope the place out, but we're pleasantly surprised when we find Kate Cole checking the mailbox.  We slow to a walk as we get closer, and Beckham quickly introduces herself. 

"Hi!  I'm Greer Tate and this is my husband, Drew!   We just moved in down the road with our best friends and I wanted to say hi before you thought we were nefarious characters running around this gorgeous neighborhood at night," she giggles as she sticks her hand out. 

Kate returns her laugh and reaches her hand out to shake Greer's first then mine.

"I'm Kate and my husband Jensen should be pulling up any second now!  I heard we had two new young couples in the neighborhood, I'm glad to put half the faces to names," she replies with a broad smile.  "Who all have you met so far?"

We go back over the handful of people we've seen tonight and I try and fail to hide my slight grimace at the mention of Karrie and the block party.  Kate notices and it makes her grin wryly at me. 

"Ah, I know that face.  That's the 'Karrie doesn't know how to keep her hands off a man that isn't hers' face.  Her respect for boundaries would be a little stronger if her Xanax consumption was lower.  Jens almost always uses me as a human shield if he can't avoid her," she says with a genuine laugh. 

"I wasn't gonna say anything, but she definitely did not get the hint that I'm happily married to this little bombshell, no matter how many non subtle hints I dropped!" I chuckled and wrapped my arm around Beckham's waist, making her pretend to gag and pull away from me.

"Ewww you're all sweaty!" She fake pouts. 

She wasn't wrong, since we were finally able to run at a steady speed, we both worked up a sweat.

"Aw, c'mon babe!  Don't pretend like you don't love my pheromones!" I tease and move to shove her face in my armpit, making her squeal and duck away. 

This makes Kate smile at us and say "you two remind me of Jensen and I at your age and it's so sweet.  If you can keep that playful side alive, you'll go the distance.  How long have y'all been married?"

"Coming up on 6 years next month!  We met my freshman, his sophomore year of college and started dating a few months later.  My lifelong best friend fell in love with his lifelong best friend, and we've been the fantastic four ever since," Beckham smiles with a wistful look in her eye. 

She's so damn good at this, and I should not be turned on by it.  But I am.  Thankfully, the moment is broken by the sound of a car arriving behind us.  Kate's face breaks into a loving smile as the car parks and the driver's side door opens.  Out steps Jensen Cole, the man behind the curtain of the operation.  He shuts his door and makes his way over to his wife, dropping a kiss on her lips before turning back to us. 

"Hi, Jensen Cole.  I see you've met my wife Kate already," he shoots an intimidating look at me.  A lesser man would probably cower in response, but a lesser man I am not, not everyone has the skill and corresponding ego I do. 

"Drew Tate," I stick my hand out to shake, my signature cocky grin as Beck has coined it, cracking across my face. "This is my wife Greer, we just moved in down the road with our best friends and business partners, Allie and Kyle Anderson." 

He lets the cold look drop as he shakes Beckham's hand, smiling.

"We were just out for a run and have been making introductions since it's our first night in town.  We'll let y'all get inside since I'm sure you and the missus would like to catch up.  Karrie invited us to the block party this weekend, so maybe we'll see y'all there?  It was nice meeting ya" I tell him as my native Texan comes out in full force. 

Beckham and I wave and take off towards the house.  Once we get home, Beck sends Nix a text to let them know we're back.  She says they'll pick up dinner and bring it over in the next hour and we can debrief as we eat.  Beckham and I shower together and she bravely fends off my advances with claims we don't have the time.  I hate it when she's right, so I pout for the entirety of the shower. 

"But you're so damn pretty, darlin', and I've been hard since before we went on a run" I whine at her as I rinse the soap off my body. 

"If you can behave, I'll keep my promise of 'work hard, play harder' when Nix and Roo leave.  Deal?"

This makes my eyes light up as I smile and kiss her forehead while we towel off, "you got yourself a deal, angel!"

Nineteen

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[104thsquadfam]

what keith thinks about marco:

"it is always the same thing with new cadets. they live in a world of dreams. they dream, because they are still young enough to dream, despite their rather hard lives. some have stopped - like those that witnessed titans first hand. but most of them haven't. they have no idea what they sign up for, should they ever end up in the scout regiment.

when i train my kids, i train them as best i can, hoping most of them will choose either the MPs or the garrison regiment. some still pick the scouts. like nifa, who i told she was better suited in the interior, but she wouldn't listen.

there's this boy in my class now. his name is bott marco. he swore to give life and service to the king. a noble thing to say and i fully believed him when he said. it's always hard having to crush young people's dreams in a matter of seconds. but i'd rather confront them with the harsh truth about this world than send them out there totally delusional and being blamed for it. where do they learn their first survival skills after all? certainly not by the king himself...

he is a diligent boy. quiet. observant. not quite like arlert. but i think if he keeps at it, him and arlert could be leading figures. sometimes it's not all about strength - something i get the feeling jäger doesn't seem to understand. sometimes it's about having brains. bott shows an understanding about group dynamics and he's pretty sensitive too. he makes friends easily, which is a good thing. but it will most definitely kill him out there. the sooner he learns not to get too attached, the better.

i'll drive it out of him. i'll help him get ready for his seat in the army."

(picture keith utterly devastated after wall maria, when he found out about marco's death. over time, keith took a liking to him. marco became one of his favorite students. he considered him a bit of a son and i am sure they talked a lot outside of classes too. about marco's future and dream about joining the military police)

Tell my muse what your muse honestly thinks of them. Be long and descriptive or as short and sweet as you want

-This was lovely to read thank you so much for sending it, you're the only Keith Shadis account I've seen and it's nice to see what he himself thought of his cadets. Loved reading it ! Also ouch my heart AH

[blindedguilt]

|[ Leonard and Caim. Because reasons. ]|

YOU ALREADY KNOW MY ANSWER TO THIS, BRI.

Alright so to note before anything I had a literal essay typed out and ready to go at about,,, 1???? AM???? The night this was sent

but then I forgot mobile Tumblr hates me right now so I hit post and lost it forever 😔

Then I wrote this but fell asleep in the process at about 4AM and woke up the following morning, and after days of working on NOTHING else on Tumblr but this, finished it after a lot of on and off work (I was still resentful and petty about losing my first one), and am praying the gods won't get in the way of my thoughts on this because good LORD

I've tried to include everything my original post did (albeit a lot less messy) but....

So to start, whoever came up with the idea that a ship is "good" based off of how pleasantly compatible and not toxic/problematic the people involved are is a fucking liar

I don't talk a LOT about shipping given the nature of this blog and that the topic doesn't come up very much??? At least on Tumblr lmao

But what some people might not know is that while I'm someone who believes that literally everything and everyone is inherently,,, "pairable" (It feels better to say than shippable), no matter how little they've interacted or how unconventional/potentially problematic may be, I am also VERY picky about shipping to where there's only been a handful I've ever really been invested in (2 OC pairings, 2 pairings involving canon characters) and the rest I usually bump off either for taking up feed space and not really caring or not being slightly moved at because my brain is picking at it too much.

Whether I like a ship or not ultimately comes down to two things:

1. Is the dynamic THERE? or are the two characters just trope fodder

When it comes to the happy couple, power couple, sunshine/grumpy, etc. etc. I DO enjoy these tropes, but more often than not they end up being boring for that being next to everything about the characters themselves. I'm always eager to know stuff like what drew them to each other and continues to draw them to each other, what caused/how their previously established dynamic was able to evolve to where it is now, what fuels their particular dynamic, and ofc their own established characters outside of it. I don't often indulge in romance-type things outside of those campy us romcoms from the 00's but I've seen a few very forgettable couples in media (I won't blame Disney for being targeted more towards children, but you'd expect more out of couples like Cent and Two ESPECIALLY for that's more or less just "They're in love!" And I'm just,,,, yeah. that's been established 😭

2. The actual portrayal of the ship. My autism brain is VERY stringent about this, literally you could have everything what was just discussed and if it doesn't stack up in a way that really makes sense, it will stick in my mind like an itch I can't reach and I likely won't shut up about it for the next month.

I dunno how to explain it, when you have a certain pair/set of characters (Who are made of differentiating backgrounds, circumstances, etc. which may affect them in different ways), and they gradually get to understand/learn more about each other as time passes and in turn grow some semblance of a bond/care as humans do to the point it could be deemed a romantic(?)/intense enough "bond" that could manifest itself in any which way depending on what's been established in those characters backgrounds, how they already and HAVE interacted with each other, their current circumstances, etc. etc.

Sometimes, especially in a darker piece of media like Drakengard, the way they manifest as a "ship" or "pair" isn't always a conventional or even healthy so much as it is a result/consequence of those raised emotions and their bond. When I see something that should stack up to be toxic or potentially even twisted and problematic be written as something undeservingly sweet and "cute" it gets under my skin like nothing else. Like differentiating Nabokov's Lolita, which is an absolutely GUT-WRENCHING book about CSA and the effect it has on the victim later on in life, and lolisho circles, which are.... Yeah. It's also why the all too popular good girl/bad boy trope gets under my skin for how often it's just putting up with a guy's shitty behaviour and then him magically changing at the end to "justify" it and ughhhhhh you know the spiel

ANYWAYS, WITH ALL THAT ESTABLISHED. THEM.

I think what really strikes me most about Leonard and Caim's whole relationship without even considering shipping is just how much there is to compare/contrast, like...

As far as differences go, they're nearly polar opposites in just about fucking everything, resulting in the all too well-known clash in personality we like to write lmao. There's a lot to be said in these two different aspects of their characters, like the spontaneity/suppression, deflection/guilt, revenge/recompense, fighting to live/fighting to die, sadism/masochism, reckless bravery/reckless cowardice, and it's goes into their backgrounds as well, with Caim's upbringing in royalty and Leonard's likely in peasantry/coming from the general lowerclass before even his life as a hermit, and even in design (the blond/brunet contrast is a VERY popular design choice in a lot of fiction, usually with the blond being established as the "good conscience"/more naive/comic relief/etc. of the two and brunet, ironically, usually being an established lead or main character with more of an idea/maturity/so on in contrast.)

And while it's easy enough to just say opposites attract and use that as argument enough, what I think really would pull them together as far as shipping is concerned is much more in what they share in common (what little they fullheartedly understand of each other) in contrast

The biggest points I think are definitely sharing the role of older brother, which Caim (at least, I think, you'll have to tell me) kinda carries more subconsciously and/or at the back of his mind while consciously going "Older brother? Oh yeah... That thing. That's the thing I am" and Leonard eventually carries both consciously and subconsciously down to his very mannerisms (And of course, mainly in my Leonard's case where these smaller scenes are more relevant), often adopts that role of caretaker to just about anyone and anything whether he knows it or not — Seere, Arioch, Caim, etc...)

What REALLY interests me between them is their shared background, though. The thing Caim and Leonard both (possibly?) really know or at least have a hunch about is that both of their family was lost to the Empire. And THIS, whether it's actual knowledge or just a hunch, I think is not just the general basis for the two of their characters, but is largely the stem for the friction between the two.

To explain, it's mostly their role/perceived role in the tragedies of Caim's parents/Leonard's brother's that makes for their character schism — The difference between action, in Leonard's case where he's thinking "If only I hadn't done that" and inaction, in what I'm guessing is Caim's case, where he (may) be thinking "If only I had done something". Whether either would have actually changed anything aside, I think that whole action/inaction perception being what led to their families' deaths in this occasion is largely what leads into the people they are by the time they meet, of course, but also like

It's the reason they're so tense with each other in the sense that, at either's core, they see in the other exactly what led to their losing everything to begin with. And being near that is terrifying for them, whether it's Leonard's apparent indifference towards life or the prospect of wanting to live digging up that sense of "There's a threat and I need to do something about it" or possibly some insecurity about the lengths he takes that "Fight" between the fight or flight response for him, or if it's Caim's apparent insensitivity that brings up a sort of reminder not only of what he did as far as involvement in his brothers deaths, but a terrifying glimpse at the callousness and harm he could cause by just... Not caring for anything but himself.

So naturally, seeing a far much worse version both of what they could be and in a way, what they were stemmed from just about the same circumstances nonetheless is a major contributor to their issue with one another. A giant case of seeing their own insecurity/fears reflected in the actions the other's taking specifically to avoid their own past "fault" and going "How can you be as foolish as I was at what was more or less the only point of similarity in our lives?"

So this is where it gets into actual shipping talks, and MAN

im so sorry it took so long lmao

But explaining it in the case of shipping, on top of the growing fondness for people who are placed in these kinds of survival and/or traumatic situations being a thing that humans tend to do, like... It's what I just explained as that mutual fear/agitation with each other is even somewhat based in a vague fondness (perhaps not as personal) in not wanting to see their tragedy reappear again.

I typically believe that when developing attractions beyond anything platonic, the more you see of people and their humanity beforehand, especially in stressful and/or potentially lightening situations, the quicker you end up getting closer to each other (or at least, from one side you might) ESPECIALLY when you can play a part in helping and aiding another's life yourself for both ends. I kinda mentioned it earlier ofc to but I also think that ESPECIALLY when it comes to fictional ships, the way those feelings grow is (or maybe, should) be like growth of their pre-existing feelings of what's been established already — Growing more intense and/or obsessive with perception of a person of interest, and changing with understanding — that is, assuming they want to change/understand.

A looooong long time ago you mentioned the idea of Caim's growing violence towards Leonard the more he realises he might care (gods forbid), and honestly, that's exactly it — it comes together PERFECTLY for all the points mentioned earlier. There's not much I can say given it's mostly been throwing darts at a board for ideas and seeing what's just "neat" and what looks like the headlights of the train that may or may not be approaching to run us over but the other thing I can really pick at is the "unrequited" aspect which is where things get messy but veeeeeery interesting

I mostly see this on Leonard's part, given he has not only a few ✨pre-existing conditions✨ (to put it mildly) and what he feels for Caim I think may be a platonic/familial fondness at best, or downright terror and resentment at worst. It was briefly mentioned a while ago, once again, the idea that Caim, who generally grazes as he pleases and is ever the conniving little lad, may try and approach him out of convenience (I imagine both as a quick and easy way to dodge anything serious while also, of course, getting that a vague sense of satisfaction/fulfilment from it?) And generally depending on exactly how this is done, Leonard's full-hearted involvement is spotty at best

The chance of him actually returning or even understanding that he's an increasingly obsessed-over object of "affections" (however you may like to call them) is very low compared to him just,,, going along with it as most shit that happens, either citing the whole "fix him" bit himself and taking anything that happens afterwards as "punishment" fodder into his ever-evolving guilt complex. Where it could go from there is generally a mystery, but there's one thing I'll say: I don't think the general thing will be pleasant lmao and im not saying that negatively, mind, just the opposite

SO.

Would it be unrequited? Most likely.

Would it be toxic? Definitely.

Would it look a little like this cursed-ass video I stumbled across on YouTube that hasn't left my mind for three days? We'll have to see.

But most importantly — It's INTERESTING, the dynamics are there and always have been, and it goes without saying I don't have to worry about your portrayal skills in the least. 20/10.

I am begging for a Caionard sweep this summer please you don't understand 😭

[schrodingers-hoarding-problem]

Moonlight Chicken Ep. 2

I really am taking forever to get through this episodes, I don't even know why but anyways

im gonna go thro this episode by pairing instead of chronologically because my brain is all over the place

first of all leng is really having some big things happen like damn his gf getting pregnant sure is a big life event, but oh the found family of it all with Jim giving him the necklace to use as dowry also hell yeah I also don't want to study and just want to be rich

and leng & Gaia's fun banter? love it so much I need so much more of Khaotung but ik he's gonna be going thro it later this show and im so not ready for it like ik he's amazing at the emotional scenes but babes I am already way too emotionally attached ok

then to our (at least my) favorites, heart and li ming! we've got a reason for them to be interacting now and I just love their dynamic so far. started out very accurate teen stubbornness and now they're being sweet and friendly, you love to see it

and now for jim & wen. continuing with their sorta awkward tension, especially that scene with gaipa? my social anxiety would kill me

but then at the end of the episode? wen is just full of so much confidence and charisma I could never

sidenote: it might just be the bitch in me but that lady from when they backed up into the motorcycle was overreacting a bit. like, you're leg is not broken you are standing just fine, you would be in much more pain if it was

but anyways, still an amazing show but when will my guy first show up

[sharpth1ng]

OMG YOURE BOTH BIG DICK RANDY AND HW? BIG BRAIN SHIT. - I AM and bahaha thank you. I have like 20 minutes to myself rn, so speed typing this on my phone and apologizing for the incoming spam that's about to come your way because I'm going to respond to both Randy's monster cock and the HW stuff separately. (really need to get my shit together and find a username) First tho, your tags on that other post abt the dicks and Hank Williams. Iconic. and this tag thanks for the great chats as always - is so sweet and back at you!😊 1/2 He’s like “No I’m just not a fucking cocksucker” (red face). - he totally does which draws more attention to him not less (then he has the audacity to lecture Stu abt subtlety smh...)

(AND YES AT STUS MEAN GIRL ENERGY! that’s my favourite tbh like that’s the scene (aside from the kitchen) where it feels like, the most undeniable that they’re fucking.) YES that scene and the kitchen are truly amazing. I love how Randy is just there being used like a human barrier to keep them jumping on each other in the damn store. HIS EXPRESSION TOO. Every scene where those two interact it's like they're fucking in their own way with their go between. Even by the fountain and at the door.

why am I starting to think it’s funnier if Billy is average sized and just really insecure about it? - exactly what my thought process was lmao, like because A) he's dramatic about it (boy needs that a little bit dramatic shirt Regina wore in Mean Girls which I'm now picturing him wearing in the final act for his dying swan/falling down the stairs scene and the entire kitchen scene) and B) hates Randy, so this is just another thing for him to be pissed about. (speaking of I have always headcanoned he hates Randy because he's jealous of Stu's friendship with him, not because Randy is into Sid like he lets Randy believe. I could even imagine him asking Sid out in the first place when Stu starts up with Casey, just to one up Randy). I'm also loving the idea of Stu saying something about Randy's dick size at some point just to bait Billy and it fucking works (Billy thinks he's in control of this relationship but this entire lap dog scenario Randy speaks of is mutual and deep down Billy knows it and is pissed about that too! fdsjkfds)

Bless you Big Dick Hank Williams (hows that for a username lmao)

And LMAO you're welcome for the tags, I do my best.

Billy is CONSTANTLY lecturing Stu on subtlety and then going around being the most obvious cocksucker, its absurd really.

RANDY THE HUMAN BARRIER THO. I hc that theres been a whole lot of tension between them for years at this point, and they've both probably used Randy to buffer that before they were really ready to deal with it, and before it was even a sexual thing. He went to so many horribly awkward middle school sleepovers.

And OK but I've been thinking that Randy and Billy knew each other before Stu, like they were in preschool together and prob didn't get along that well but didn't hate each other. Then Stu started at their school in grade 1 or 2 and made friends with both of them and suddenly Billy just became the WORST to Randy.

I might write some one shot with them as kids tbh i've been interested in that dynamic and how it changes as they get older OH GOD I HAVE SO MUCH WRITTING TO DO

And tbh? I love the idea that he decided to start dating Sid because he knew Randy liked her, like Billy might not have even realized that that was what he was doing but that do be what he did. I think Stu's been dating for a while, probably started dating before Billy so I think Billy also decided he just needed to be dating some girl at a certain point.

ALSO HOLY SHIT THE MEAN GIRLS SHIRT LMAO. At this point i just have a mental collection of 'time out' shirts for Billy.

LOL also ya Stu baiting Billy about Randy's dick size would bring the furies of hell down on him but we know he's into that tbh so y'know.

[dottores]

I don't believe I have told you how much I love your writing.

This is the third time I read the most recent chapter of LDA. What can I say

You've rendered me speechless yet again

The way you touch on character development. I have to tell you right now. I never, not once, understood why she would ghost them for 8 years.

But the previous chapter and this one really go into the complexity that it was to leave them behind, her companions, her friends.

I wholeheartedly believe that Izana and YN could have ruled the world if things would have been different for him.

It's devastating when she finds out that Izana is dead. The anxiety and the build up to that moment is perfect. Throwing in the face that she has a small sort of relief when she notices that Rin and Ran are both okay.

She doesn't get to grieve the loss of who I believe is to be her best friend. Instead she has to make herself cold and hard as steel to deal with South, the person responsible for all of them being in the infirmary.

♥

When you write the soft scenes, I'm floored. It is not just softness, but also the inner turmoil that we all feel as individuals in times like these. Unable to stop our brains from wanting to destroy such a perfect moment. To believe that something so good would happen to someone with blood in their hands, even when we can't control the situation and we have to roll with the punches.

To believe that Rindou may be a figment of her imagination and her need to touch him to make sure he is real 🥺

The way they both hang on to her as if she is seafoam, ready to disappear in their hands as the water draws back.

The sweet banter they all have going on before things take a turn for the worst. I have to say, they are all so alike and so different, always wanting to do what is best for the group even if it means giving themselves up.

The fact that Ran seriously says to leave him behind, like ahhhh!!! It had me screaming and throwing my phone, only for YN to do the same thing at the end of the chapter.

The way she almost hesitated with the first kill ever. Not because she was taking a human life, but because she was taken back by the fact she was not the target!!!! She killed to protect them, she had gotten her hands dirty more than once for them, and it doesn't surprise me that she will do it again and again.

I can't stop thinking of the way Ran begs her not to go. The way that Rin wants to stop her but he has to think of his brother too. It's all just too much, so much pain and all of it trying to be rational about the situation.

I love them, all three of them. Their dynamic. I'm beyond thrilled, excited and heartbroken for what I know will come with the story.

You are a wonderful writer and I am so happy you share your works with us in this godforsaken app. Thank you, sending lots of love!

^ actual image of me when this ask came in

THEY WOULD HAVE BRO THEY WOULD HAVE — i headcanon in the toman timeline where naoto got killed by kakucho and izana, yn was working with them in that timeline. she was handling the more legit business side of things and feeding them money and information and technology while izana handled the shadier sides of things. they deserved so much better </3 i have so many headcanons on the two of them pls

THEY WOULD HAVE BRO THEY WOULD HAVE — i headcanon in the toman timeline where naoto got killed by kakucho and izana, yn was working with them in that timeline. she was handling the more legit business side of things and feeding them money and information and technology while izana handled the shadier sides of things. they deserved so much better </3 i have so many headcanons on the two of them pls

THEY DO THEY ALL CLING ONTO EACH OTHER SO MUCH NONE OF THEM BELIEVE THAT ANY OF THIS IS REAL YET THEY ALL THINK ITS SOME SICK DREAM

she would literally do anything for them </3 and they would do anything for her 🥹

and rin :((( poor rin had to let her go, i can’t wait to get into his thoughts next chapter sobs sobs sobs

i love you sm 🥹🥹🥹thank you for sending this