#then cue ace getting crushed by it again

[pandoa]

if deuce overblots, would there just be a bunch of cauldrons being summoned from mid-air?

[bidisastersanji]

Circus One Piece AU with sword swallower/knife thrower Zoro and tightrope walker/aerial act Sanji please and thank you

They (and the rest of the crew) grew up in the « Thousand Sunny » circus together:

Sanji’s adoptive dad, Zeff, is the circus cook who always tells a different, wild story about how he lost his leg (it often involves a lion, even though the circus doesn’t use animals in its show, despite its lion logo)

Zoro’s parents both died in an accident when he was young and his relatives (Shimotsuki) took him in. His childhood friend Kuina had an accident and is now a wheelchair user- she handles the circus social media and marketing with Nami

They both have had crushes on each other for years but don’t dare to fo anything because not only what if the other feels the same but what if it doesn’t work out and they have to leave their circus family- so instead they keep bickering and pigtail pulling

I think it’s common for circus performers to have many abilities but specializing in certain things so let’s just assume most of them are good at basic acrobatic/circus things

Sanji is an aerial artist (aerial silks, hoops etc) and tightrope walker and Zoro is good at sword swallowing, stage combat and knife throwing

A lot of the crew are orphans who were adopted into the circus family from many countries the circus has passed through, so they have little accents and have the best time celebrating everyone’s different traditions and holidays

Usopp is a magician, Vivi does diabolo, Franky a strongman, Robin does Trapeze, Luffy is known for his contortionist act but also does some clowning, Ace and Sabo do fire performances, Brook is their communal grandpa in charge of music, Jinbei is the cool dependable uncle in charge of setting everything up to regulation and navigating their caravan where Nami tells them to go

Although she does Chinese pole, Nami is growing up to be the person who’ll take over the circus management/strategy- she wants them to make bank and strategizes on what acts they do, innovative acts and staging they can do etc

Luffy’s dream is for their circus to be the best in the world - they’re already going around different countries but he wants a full international tour, eager to take over after his grandpa (ringmaster) passes it on to him

Chopper is the adoptive son of the troupe doctor (Kureha) who does some equestrian tricks (voltige) but mostly studies hard to be a doctor too. He’s still a kid but everyone is else is an adult

Sanji often gets really distracted by Zoro during practice times- their outfits are revealing and he’s so buff and like what else can he do with his mouth goddamn

He only once called Zoro a « sword swallower » when he was a (still closeted) teen to try and bully his friend/rival but Zoro just grinned at him and said « proudly » and Sanji almost died from that mental image and never used that insult again (he might have gotten a nosebleed)

Naturally Zoro is also dumbstruck by Sanji’s beauty and grace on the regular- and he often gets in trouble for watching Sanji’s act and almost missing cues

The gang always gets into so many shenanigans in every new city they travel to and they love each other so dearly

One day a video of Zoro practicing goes viral (because he’s hot and talented) and Sanji is definitely not responsible for a few dozen views on that video

Zoro always gets a little jealous and annoyed when he finds Sanji flirting with local girls

And that’s all the ideas I have for now! Please feel free to add to this!! I’d love to see what you guys would be fun to have in the circus AU

[twisted-wonderland-but-gayer]

I- WOOPS- dang it I feel so embarrassed now-

My deepest apologies, I didn't mean to do that! XD

I really should check twice next time, huh?-

But... Honestly? Now that you mentioned it, I would actually love to see your take on it!

So may I please request your interpretation on any of the boys falling for a male mc?

Thank you and once again I'm really sorry, I'll make sure to double check next time-

Silver, Deuce, Ace, Epel Realizing They Gay/Bi Af

Silver is short because he is the Middle Child of TW with his lack of character traits and screentime. Decided to cut out Riddle cause I wasn't feeling it.

Yuu is male and is heavily implied to be Yuuken. I didn't decide a sexuality for any of them as its not my style but they Def fruity. Crack lmao.

Silver

It will take a while to even realize he has a crush. Silver didn’t get the nickname ‘Jellyfish’ for no reason. He isn’t the brightest with social cues and takes everything literally. It’s amusing, infuriating, and endearing all at once. One can only wonder how the wise and mischievous Lilia raised such a boy.

With that being said, if it wasn’t for his father, he would have never even realized he had a crush. The old fae would often watch from afar as he watched the young man that enamored his son, positively tickled at what interactions unfolded.

Silver simply thinks that they are both just friends, like how he and Sebek are. I mean sure, he does find himself genuinely smiling when you wait for him to wake up, and sometimes he finds the look in your eyes when parrying his sword invigorates him, but that's no big deal. He just looks up to Yuu and admires him is all.

It wasn't until one day when Yuu was changing in front of him that it set in. The sight of his bare, muscular back drenched in sweat after another heavy training session had him staring, not even realizing he was out of breath from how he was holding. Lilia is laughing so hard internally rn.

When Silver eventually approaches his father and tell him about these strange feeling he gets whenever he's around Yuu does it click. Mostly because Lilia spelled it out for him. “You're in love, son.” Now Lilia is actually snickering at Silver's shocked face as he skips over all the stages of grief straight to acceptance. He closes his eyes in a mix of embarrassment and shame as he puts it all together.

No wonder he would stare at his butt a lot.

Deuce

Oh boy, this poor thing is so confused.

You see back when he was in his bad boy phase he had no time for love. It would make him look dumb and weak. He was supposed to be cool.

And now here he is madly in love with his classmate— his friend. It was all on that fateful day in the mines.

Despite it being his mess Yuu still decides to help him. They went into the mines and risked their life for him. He came up with a brilliant plan and fight that strange monster that attacked them just for his sake.

And even then they continued to be so kind and sweet. They helped him study and pass his classes! They sparred together, worked out, went on jogs. They talked about cars and blastcycles and machines. They were a perfect match.

It definitely didn't help that Yuu had a defined body from himself as well, with beautiful features accompanying his face. With arms and body built from kendo drills and dueling blots, he was like a work of art.

Definitely doesn't understand what's happening to him when he feels his face get warm from looking at them, of how his chest tightens whenever he sees them chopping it up with another man.

He thinks it's just very strong admiration he feels for them at first! Of course, he likes you! You've always been there for him! You're his friend! And yet when his homosexual thoughts continue he doesn't understand.

Asks Ace to punch him. "Woah bro, are you serious?! I mean I have no problem with punching you, but what's this about?" "It's nothing, just do it!"

Ace finds out and absolutely teases Deuce, making kissing noises whenever he catches him looking at Yuu. 

Calls his mother like the Chad he is and talks about it. As he's ranting about how great Yuu is and how they helped him grow as a person, and how he wants to be the very best he can be, Mama Spade starts crying a bit.

"Ah, Mom?! I'm sorry! I didn't-" "Oh Deuce…" Mama Spade supremacy. She's so supportive and happy he came out and found a man that makes him happy! She is giving all sorts of advice to her baby and wishes him the best. 

With all that Deuce is now much more confident about pursuing his crush! But first, he must become the very best he can be for them! He promises to better himself for his sake!

Epel

Help him. No, seriously he is pissed.

He already struggles with toxic masculinity, this is just going to make it worse. He can't be gay! It would be expected! He’s already short and girly already, of course, everyone would assume he's gay!

He will avoid you like the plague for a while until Vil snaps some sense into him. Vil can sense it from a mile away, this is just embarrassing. After a very embarrassing lecture, made worse by Rook's unneeded commentary, he accepts it. It is still a bit awkward for a bit afterward since Yuu doesn't understand why the hell Epel is staring at him so intently.

Epel will try to overcompensate for these feelings of feminity still by working out. Surely if he gets bigger and more muscular, it would be more surprising and unexpected for him to like men! Vil is sighing but knows that Epel will have to learn this lesson the hard way.

Poor Epel is trying to impress Yuu so bad too with his strength, flexing his muscles as Yuu looks on with a blank face. Curse them and their stupid height, and stupidly their huge muscles and their handsome… masculine features… He means stupid!

I do think he would talk to his mom about it too, telling her that there's some fellow that has him feeling some sort of way and ends up being super surprised by how happy his mother is for him. Of course, she does still say to be a gentleman and also ends up lecturing him.

Even though he's still a bit confused, that call has him much more ready to accept his feeling. Ah, but how is he going to confess…

He also asked Ace to smack him.

Ace

The disaster baby bi/gay himself. This man is so far in the closet that he is at a gay bar in Narnia, someone help him. (Average Ginger Behavior)

Deny. Deny. Deny. Sorry but there is no way he is in love, especially with some dude. He’s tried dating in High School and Middle School and it always sucked. He cringes at the memory of ghosting his homecoming sweetheart after the dance comes back to him. She was so… boring, that entire relationship was. Plus it's not like he really liked her either.

But hypothetically, if he did like dudes, then that would make his past relationships make a lot of sense… But wait, what if just liked both like Cater or Vil does? Nah he's not feminine enough… Wait, it's not feminine to like men, if anything it's more masculine— wait…

Maybe he should ask Azul’s gay ass. He's seen the way he looks at Jamil.

He hates these stupid mushy gushy feelings inside of him. Going soft or turning into a lovestruck fool is so not like him. Yet here he was, face tinted pink as he watches Yuu and Silver practice their blade work against each other. the way those strong forearms refused to waiver, how his posture remained perfect, and his stance stood powerfully amongst his foe. 

How he would love those hands around him— Okay fine, maybe he does like them! But even then how would he go about asking Yuu out?! He finds himself staring intensely at Yuu’s back as they walk back to Ramshackle with Grim tucked into their side. Deuce just awkwardly stared at Ace. “Um… Are you okay?” “IT’S NOTHING!’

And now since Deuce was confused he was back at square one: denial. At this point, Yuu shouldn't be surprised if Ace one day takes him by the hand and skips with him deep into the closet together as they seal their lips together with a ‘no homo’ whispered between them.

[beangusu]

Please please please share your reinako fic recommendations! I absolutely adore all your art of them 💗

THANK U SO MUCH <3 AND OMG I HAVE SO MANY... u have unlocked my reinako fic floodgates but i will try to be normal and keep it to like 5-10 recs

just a warning, two of these have nsfw in them (In The Corner of Her Mind and Heartfelt Obligation) but are skippable, so if you’re like me and aren’t a fan of that then you can just skip the chapter!

In The Corner of Her Mind - this ones an oldie but i read it time and time again bc it breaks my heart in the BEST way possible especially since its set in the PGSM universe :'D if u want an amnesia reinako au fic, this one ticks all the boxes Point Not Taken - also a really old fic, but oh my god Victoria G's fics make me kick my feet and giggle and knowing they were a co-writer for the Carmilla web-series just makes so much sense bc i was obsessed with hollstein..... pls read their reinako fics they make me wanna throw up (affectionate) Through the Fire (Through Whatever, Come What May) - this one's not finished yet but the way the author writes the reinako dynamic is SO THEMMMM 🥰🥰 i adore when people write the reinako dynamic just right and this fic hits that spot for me red on my tongue (the red of your tongue) - i am so obsessed with fics that are abt present reinako finding out abt love affairs between silver millennium mars & venus which either cue their realization moment or push them to confess :3 this one has to be my fav out of all of YNK’s reinako fics, it made me tear up so bad at some parts like they are so Soulmates it makes me insane. pls read all of YNK's reinako fics after this i promise u wont regret it Heartfelt Obligation - ofc i had to link the mandatory princess/bodyguard au set in the silver millennium where they dislike each other at first but then slowly start catching feelings :33 it's incomplete but i love the silly banter and how they warm up to each other in this fic, its so cute 🥺 i like the burning sun (because i'm running with you) - small oneshot thats also so cute where they're just normal teens with crushes on each other,,, minako is so whipped for rei and rei is so stupid god bless

She's the tear in my heart, I'm on fire - the gay yearning in this one is so UNBELIEVEABLY off the charts it's so sweet and fills that slice of life highschool trope hole if u like that!! minako does get stoned in this one, not during the whole fic, but i figured i would warn anyways in case that makes anyone uncomfy Past Loves And Current Problems - ending this with this cute fic of minako finding out about greek mythology regarding mars and venus being lovers teehee ^_^ this fic also talks about ace's "curse" on venus from the codename sailor v manga AND I LOVE THAT i wish more fics talked abt that.... i have so so so many more i want to talk about and show everyone but i feel bad for this wall of text so i will leave that for a pt2/pt3 in the future mayb... i am filled with reinako brainrot and its never going away im so sorry u guys 💔

[warrenwaskilledbyadeer]

Okayyy get ready because the time has come and we are doing this (disclaimer: these are just my personal views and I'm not trying to convince anybody to agree with me, this is just me listing which characters I think are aroacespec and why)

Amnesia aroacespec headcanons in order of least to most controversial

#4 - Henri Clement

Henri being aromantic just makes sense to me. Romance doesn't ever come up in his story, it's all about him and his best friend! An incident with a barmaid is mentioned, though unspecified, so I just don't really know what that's about??? But also the Bunker was released just around the same time as the first-ever international aromantic day of visibility, sooo... Also I don't know if he's also ace, but personally I think he probably is, he's at least the one on this list who in my opinion is the closest to being fully aroace (like me :D)

#3 - Justine Florbelle

Now I know we've already jumped to a ridiculously controversial character here, so you know the last two are really gonna be a doozy haha, but ANYway, Justine obviously loves having people be attracted to her, but she herself never experiences any attraction to any of her Suitors. She just loves to feel loved and feel "beautiful," but she doesn't love any of them in return. I don't know about her being ace honestly, I considered sex positive ace for her but maybe she does feel the sexual attraction but not the romantic? Definitely romance favorable aro, but I'm interested in other people's opinions on the sexual attraction part of it. But last but not least, let's address the elephant in the room- Clarice. I personally believe that Justine and Clarice are in an alterous relationship. It's not necessarily romantic but it's not necessarily platonic, it just is what it is between them and what's important to them is that they love each other, not exactly what kind of love that is. That's my take

#2 - Alexander von Brennenburg

Ohhh yeah here's where I'm really gonna lose people, but I'm gonna be totally honest... I don't understand why everyone in the fandom sees Alexander as a slut??? I don't see that in him in the game at all, he's CLEARLY wholly devoted to his love (who I personally believe to be Temaku based on a note in Rebirth). Everything Alexander does, spending hundreds of years just to open this portal, is all just to be with his love again. So why would he be sleeping around and falling in love with Agrippa, Weyer, Daniel, or ANYone? I don't get the fandom interpretation of Alexander being a whore or polyamorous, I think in the game he's monogamous to a disturbing and unhealthy degree and it's part of what makes his character... who he is. So in my eyes, Alexander is demigay (I do understand the take that Alexander seduced Daniel to manipulate him without actually being in love with Daniel, but not Alexander falling in love with him for real)

Last but not least...

#1 - Daniel

Cue the screaming

Look. LOOK. Okay. Every single protagonist, even the two others I've mentioned here, have mention of sex and/or romance in their personal stories. Justine, obviously, Oswald, ALL THE TIME, Tasi, had a husband and children, Henri, incident with the barmaid, but Daniel.... nothing. Zip. Zilch. Zero. Nada. It never comes up, and to me that's because he's not ever.. thinking about it. It's not something that's on his mind because it's not something that he feels or desires. He just really likes archeology and history and his sister and that's all :)

That being said...

I do think Daniel is not 100% aroace. I see him more in the gray or demi area, but it's very very very rare for him. Case in point, I do think he had a bit of a crush on Alexander, but I think that was his first crush so he didn't recognize what those feelings were or why he was feeling them. I think Alexander could tell that Daniel had a crush on him though, and thought it was cute and funny but also used it to his advantage (though not by outright seducing him since Daniel didn't know he had a crush). So Daniel in my head is also demigay, or graygay, but most of the time is pretty much aroace

Plus honorable mention - Tihana!! I think it fits with what little we hear about her backstory

Those are my thoughts and feelings I've been sitting on for a year because I'm tired of people bashing aroace headcanons, but that's been happening less and less the last couple years and I've been going through a lot so I think I deserve to indulge myself a little

Also just a reminder that I'm not claiming these to be canon or trying to convince anybody to see things my way! This is just what I think and why :))

[ihhfhonao3]

fic where klavier speaks german to apollo a lot but apollo is fluent in the language?

Here ya go!! Under the cut :)

“Ach, I hope I’ll see you later, mein Liebling,” Klavier said coolly as he headed to exit the courthouse. “And take care, ja?”

“Yeah, you too,” Apollo mumbled. It sounded cruel, but he really just wanted Klavier to go away and leave him alone.

Klavier didn’t take the hint at Apollo’s disdain, but smiled fondly at Apollo and then exited the courthouse. Once he was gone, Apollo let out a huge sigh of relief.

“God, I thought he’d never leave,” Apollo grumbled, rubbing his forehead and trying to stop himself from blushing. 

Their banter and pseudo-flirting had been going on for a while now. Apollo couldn’t remember when Klavier first started calling him by German pet names, but he did know one thing… that somehow, someway, he… kind of liked them. Apollo was convinced, however, that Klavier still had no idea that Apollo was fluent in German just like he was- Apollo having learned it from a young age and only enhancing his abilities by talking with his co-worker, Athena. Fortunately or unfortunately, Apollo being fluent meant that he secretly understood everything Klavier said to him. From calling him bunny, to asking him out, to saying he looked beautiful, all compliments and loving affirmations were hidden behind a different language that Klavier thought Apollo didn’t know. But even if he was fluent in German, part of Apollo still didn’t know what any of it meant. He knew the meaning of each word and its English translation, heck, he could understand what Klavier was saying completely! But he didn’t know how Klavier meant it… were the nicknames meant to be platonic? Were they supposed to be teasing? Were they possibly… romantic? Apollo shook his head vigorously. No, no falling in love with Klavier Gavin. None of that. No star-crossed lovers allowed, rivals are rivals and are never anything more.

But Apollo had to wonder. Maybe he was denying and refusing to address his own feelings towards Klavier, but… what if Klavier actually liked him like that? What if the names were intended to be romantic?

Apollo pinched his arm in an attempt to break out of his funk and speed-walked out the courthouse doors. He unlocked his bike and hopped on it, then started to ride back to his apartment. I have to tell Klavier about this eventually, right? Apollo thought to himself. It’d be embarrassing for him if I just kept letting him call me seemingly romantic pet names without telling him that I know what he’s saying. But what good does telling him do? It’s not that I want to date him or anything… right?

Apollo suddenly stopped his bike and looked out at the sunset falling across the city’s skyline. Looking out at it, his mind was suddenly, as if on cue, flooded with vivid images of him spending time with Klavier. Holding Klavier’s hand, getting ice cream with him, eating dinner with him… kissing him under the sunset… soft lips touching and embracing each other. Apollo felt an immense heat rise to his cheeks with each passing image.

Holy fuck, Apollo thought. I have a crush on Klavier Gavin.

Apollo started biking again, pedaling at a faster pace than before, trying to reach home as fast as possible so he could eat and fall asleep and never think about this again. But the images wouldn’t go away. As he was eating his instant ramen dinner, he imagined sharing his meal with the prosecutor. As he got ready for bed, he imagined brushing his teeth by the prosecutor’s side. He went to sleep and dreamt about Klavier giving him a beautiful bouquet of roses and lilacs, and upon finding out about Apollo’s pollen allergy, planting the flowers in the garden and giving him a box of delicious chocolates. Apollo’s dream continued with him feeding Klavier some of the chocolates, the blonde man’s tan cheeks turning pink at his love for Apollo.

The dream caused Apollo to wake up wishing for some more air conditioning. He woke up late enough for him to be up for the day, so Apollo rose from his bed and went to shower, attempting to forget his dream in the process (with little success).

The thoughts and dreams about his rival continued for a couple weeks, changing in their intensity and lust. Some nights, Apollo dreamed about sitting in the park with Klavier and sharing some street food, other nights he dreamed about holding hands with Klavier and kissing him on the beach, and some nights… Well, some nights came with dreams that made Apollo’s bed sticky and wet in the morning, much to his disdain and irritation with his own body. But each dream was similar in how they all featured Klavier calling Apollo those beautiful German pet names with his beautiful voice.

Eventually, Apollo reached a point where he couldn’t bear any of this anymore. The dreams, the thoughts, the feelings, the secret wishes, they all frustrated Apollo immensely and fueled his desire to do something about all of it. It took some thinking and some self-confidence exercises, but Apollo eventually decided that he was going to ask Klavier out. Unfortunately for him, he couldn’t back out of it now, because a certain rookie attorney in his office had a knack for always knowing how he was feeling.

“You’ve gotta tell him about all of this, Apollo!” Athena squealed. “This could be the start of something… wonderful…” Athena sighed dreamily.

“How romantic!” Widget chimed.

Apollo slumped over his desk. “No, I don’t really have to tell prosecutor Gavin anything. He doesn’t know. We should keep it that way.”

“You better make a move soon, Polly,” Athena giggled. “Or else me and Trucy are gonna tell Klavier ourselves since you’re so hopeless.”

“NO!” Apollo shouted. “No, uh… there will be no need for you to tell him anything.”

“So does that mean that you’ll tell him yourself?” Athena questioned.

Apollo sighed. “I really hope so.”

“Wimp!” Widget complained. Apollo scowled at the comment and groaned in despair.

~~~

It took another week and a little bit of alcohol for Apollo to finally text Klavier to ask him out on a date, to which Klavier accepted eagerly (to nobody’s surprise). The two planned on taking a walk in People Park. Apollo thought it would be a nice callback to the first time he and Klavier met, and the perfect place to finally tell Klavier that he knew how he felt… and that he felt the same way.

The days passed quicker than Apollo thought, and soon enough, Apollo found himself waiting in People Park nervously fiddling with his jacket as he waited for his date to show up. Apollo arrived at the park a bit earlier than their planned time just to be sure he wouldn't be late, but he found that that only made him more paranoid that Klavier wouldn’t show up. He checked his phone. Five minutes before their date. He checked it again. Still five minutes to go. Apollo groaned.

“I can’t do this!” he said to nobody in particular.

A frustrated Apollo sat down on a rock and continued to wait, trying to think about different things to keep his mind occupied. Unfortunately, he realized too soon that he could only spend so much time thinking about his cat before his thoughts just went back to Klavier. Apollo found himself thinking about the best possible way to approach Klavier in telling him that he knew what his nicknames meant all along. Hey prosecutor Gavin, just by the way, I know that you’re calling me German pet names and hey! I actually like them, can we date please? Apollo ruled that one out. Prosecutor Gavin, when you call someone ‘bunny’ in German, does that mean you’re close with them as a friend or does that mean you want to kiss them? No go. 

Apollo thought for a moment. What if I was kinda… smug about it?

In the middle of Apollo’s thought process, Klavier showed up to people park.

“Ah, hallo Hase!” Klavier said upon seeing Apollo.

Apollo flinched. Bunny. “Erm, hello to you too… Klavier.”

Apollo got up from his spot and started to walk around the park with Klavier. They chatted about simple things, talking about their pets, their latest cases, and their workplaces. Apollo learned that Klavier had a dog named Vongole, and that the prosecutors went out for team dinners every now and then, much like how the agency celebrated its victories by going to Eldoon’s noodle stand. Apollo would never admit it, but walking with Klavier felt very natural and normal, and Apollo almost completely forgot about his second task at hand. The two eventually went to get some coffee together, and then prepared to part ways.

“Well, this was very nice,” Apollo said. “I hope we can do this again sometime.”

“Ja, indeed,” Klavier smiled and started to head to his motorbike. “It was nice spending time with you today, Schatzi.”

Treasure. Apollo was instantly reminded of his mission.

“W-wait!” Apollo called. “Klavier, um… before you go.”

“Hmm?” Klavier stopped and turned around.

Apollo coughed curtly and mustered all his strength to switch into the hidden smug demeanor that he reserved for when he was winning a case. However, he felt that he really had to use it now in order for his plan to work. Apollo inhaled and then forced his smile into a sly smirk.

“So, Klavier,” Apollo said coolly. “I just wanted to say… you sure like calling me random names in German, don’t you?”

“Ja, I really didn’t think you actually noticed,” Klavier said, confused. “But yes, I guess that is a true statement. Why?”

Apollo’s smirk broadened. “I actually did notice the names, actually. Would you mind telling me what they mean?”

Klavier’s face turned slightly pink. “Ah, they mean… er… they mean friend, partner, rival… and other… similar phrases…”

Apollo’s bracelet tightened at Klavier’s statement. Apollo was almost amazed by how easy this was. “You’re lying.”

“Was?”

“I know that that isn’t what they mean.”

“...What do you think they mean?”

“Schatzi is treasure. Hase is bunny. Mein Liebling is my darling, and so on.”

Klavier gasped and looked purely embarrassed. “...How long have you known all of this?!”

“Ever since you started calling me by them,” Apollo smirked. “I’ve always been fluent in German.”

“Wh…Why did you never tell me?” Klavier asked, near mortified.

“I guess I thought it was kinda funny,” Apollo said nonchalantly. “And I guess part of me thought that that was just how you talked with your friends.”

It was now Klavier’s turn to smirk. He stepped forward, using his height to tower above Apollo. “Well then, do you like them at least?”

“Wha…what?” Apollo stammered as his smug facade started to fall. Now he was the nervous one.

“I asked, do you like my nicknames for you? Do they make you feel… funny inside? Make you… nervous? Make you… think about things that you’d never share with anyone?”

Klavier moved to put his hand to wrap around Apollo’s back, his other hand sliding Apollo’s hair behind his ear.

“Um… I mean…” Apollo said nervously. The park suddenly felt very warm.

Apollo swallowed and tried to regain himself. “I actually do. I like your nicknames.”

“Ah, really?” Klavier said as seductively as possible, his face inching closer to Apollo’s. “...That means we like each other then, does it not?”

“I guess it does…” Apollo trailed off. There was barely an inch of space between their lips now.

There was a pause.

“Can I kiss you?” Apollo whispered. Klavier nodded slowly.

With that, Apollo got rid of the last bit of space between them, gently pressing his lips to Klavier’s in a small yet sweet kiss. Their arms wrapped around each other, gently touching and locking them together. They stood there, at the entrance gates of People Park, not caring about who might come by and who might see them. None of that mattered to them. They were kissing. They were kissing! Both men felt like a weight had been lifted off of their shoulders, like a thing they had been waiting for since forever was now given to them and was just as wonderful as they both had expected it to be.

They pulled apart after a minute or so, still in each other’s arms, now looking into each other’s eyes with love and fondness.

“So…” Klavier started. “How long have you been fluent in German?”

Apollo chuckled. “I started learning at a young age, and Athena helped me brush up on any I forgot. It’s pretty useful to know a second language, you know?”

The two resorted to simply holding hands as they walked back to their vehicles.

[tulipscomeinallsortsofcolors]

Hi!! I've been making my way through all of UT writing on ao3 again, and I just re read aces in the laoft-verse. It's so good!!!! I was wondering if u could tell us more about Andy and Teagan's relationship? I always love ur take on qpp's. (It can be a prompt if u want to write about it, but even some spare headcannons would be swell lol). Thanks!!!

halfway between hcs and bullet fic it is

initially they bond a lot over being aspec - andy is aroace, and teagan is asexual biromantic

and then teagan gets a crush on andy

which sucks

they feel REALLY BAD ABOUT IT because they know Andy's aro, so theyre in this really uncomfy soup of pining + guilty about being pining + angsting about how theres No Possible Way anything could work out

and then andy asks them on a date

cue bluescreen

teagan: pardon?

andy: yeah i think we're really compatible i'd like to give it a shot

teagan: pardon?

tee eventually manages to cotton on that andy is asking them if they want to be in a qpr (a term that tee, as an alloromantic, is not 100% solid on) and teagan admits that theyre romantically attracted to andy complete with a lot of self-flagellating

andy: oh thats fine

teagan: PARDON?

andy's pretty romance-neutral in the sense that he doesnt care if tees romantically attracted to him, as long as tee's sure theyre not going to be unhappy (with the relationship or him) about the fact that he's never going to reciprocate

and teagan was honestly not sure at first if they would be! and andy said that was fine, and that they could think about it, and if teagan decided they wanted to give ThemTM a shot the ball was in their court.

now teagans freaking out because how do you ask someone out in a Strictly Non-Romantic Way

they eventually decided on one of those unfoldable letter booklets that said "platonically date me bro"

andy thought it was obnoxious and loved it

they don't kiss but they do cuddle and hold hands (andy is especially prone to just like. picking teagan up like a plush and cuddling them aggressively to relieve his anxiety)

they are good for each other, but there is a bit of stutter-stopping in the beginning with teagan trying Way Too Hard to stay strictly within "the boundaries" of qpr/Non-RomanceTM without really understanding that a qpr is specifically outside of relationship boxes, not A New Box

they do eventually get married but in the "we went to the court house and filled out paperwork to be each others next of kin" kinda way

[gottawriteanegoortwo]

Acting Attorney: The Props that Shape Our World

When you step out into the world on your own in university, there are many new challenges to face as part of growing up. 

But what do you do when you have a crush on your best friend’s childhood friend? And worse… What do you do when your best friend knows?

Word Count: 2,655

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University was a strange place. Uncharted territory. Countless unknowns. You found you were constantly bracing yourself for the worst. Someone would pull the rug out from under you and deem you unworthy of attending this course. Someone would come up from behind and stab you in the back while taking what little savings you had. Something, inevitably, would happen, and these safe spaces that you were only starting to get used to would be lost forever. This was all too good to be true.

The betrayal you were expecting. But never from Damien. Never about Mark.

The first meeting had not gone well. Mark had specially travelled to the campus for a visit. His academic hours were far fewer, allowing him more time to make the short journey to where you and Damien were staying. You were left with a sour taste in your mouth because Mark oozed rich kid energy and seemed so out of touch with reality. You could have said the same about Damien, but Damien at least was raised in an overly sheltered, narrow-minded environment. Mark didn't have that same excuse.

You would have left it there, but you couldn't disappoint your friend. It was a begrudging promise that paid off. The second time Mark came over, it was to get out of his own place for a little while. He was stressed, pacing back and forth across the tiny living room with such intensity that you were surprised a path hadn't been worn into the floor by the time you arrived. He had his first performance exam coming up, and the nerves were kicking in. Damien had quietly explained to you that Mark always hated exams, especially auditions, even though he was more than capable. When he stepped out to fetch drinks, you had stepped in to help.

Somehow, you had pried the book from Mark's hands and began to guide him through the soliloquy he was assigned. Damien was right - Mark was confident in the performance, but it was the worry of ruining an opportunity that was eating him alive. When Damien returned with three glasses of water, you suggested that the legal students should pretend to be an audition panel, even going as far as pulling out the heavy winter scarves and messing each other’s hair to complete your "disguises". It had been so ridiculous, but it worked. Mark couldn't stop snickering, and afterward had questioned whether you had missed your calling in the theatrical world.

His grateful smile after it all stuck with you for some time. Just when you thought you could box everything up and move on, Mark would swing by, and you'd have to start all over again. You'd keep this to yourself. You had more important things to focus on. A crush was not one of them!

But Damien. Your best friend, your worst traitor. He grew up in the legal world. He was an ace in reading body language and subtle cues. When you tried to insist you saw Mark simply as a friend, you knew he didn't believe you (truthfully, you didn't believe yourself either). You had never seen him give such a mischievous smirk when he was presented with clear proof of your infatuation from your disastrous attempts to lie. When you pleaded with him not to say anything, Damien had promised you he'd never initiate such a conversation with the man of the hour.

Nothing more was said.

Trusting Damien to leave it in the past was a mistake.

-

Your course was on break for a week, and he decided that the two of you should pay Mark a visit for a chance. It was in the same city, nothing a short bus trip couldn't handle. However, he immediately set off toward the main campus instead of what looked like the residential area.

"Mark mentioned in his last letter to me that he was helping his tutor go through the storage backstage," Damien explained as he pushed one of the doors open. "I'd hazard a guess he's still poking around here. If he had any excuse to spend more time around props when we were children, he'd take it. Otherwise, we follow the, uh…" He trailed off, passing the page he had been carrying to you. Instead of writing out an address and directions, Mark had opted to draw a map.

Ordinarily, a map would be a fantastic aid, a guide through the labyrinth of buildings and streets to help lost travellers find their way. Unfortunately, in his excitement of potentially having visitors, Mark had made what was frankly the worst map you had ever seen:

It was made in a hurry by someone with a heavy colouring pencil and no eraser. The road outline was scribbled over several times to try and hide a mistake. One building had an extra piece attached to it, while another had a corner that was slightly scribbled out. His pencil had even made a small hole in the paper from the pressure. Finally, the rectangle in the top-right had a poorly drawn face with two bold arrows pointing to it. However, Mark had neglected to label a single thing. Without suitable directions (or even any sort of visual landmark), you understood why the university was the safer option.

You handed it back with a grimace and Damien swiftly pocketed it. At least the floorplan in the main entrance hall was easier to navigate than Mark’s diagram of lines and boxes.

-

The auditorium was nothing like the lecture halls you attended. While those were tiered seating with built-in chairs and long tables, this was a single level hall with a large stage at the back. Chairs were set up in neat rows, with a gap in the middle for the main aisle. You did recall Mark talking about lectures happening here. Without even a small table clipped onto the side of the chair, you felt sorry for the students that would try to take notes here. Surely students couldn’t take notes here, right? They would have terrible back strain! 

Damien had approached an older lady and asked her if she had seen Mark. She pointed to the back and said he would be finishing up soon. Once she had hurried off, he led the way backstage.

-

"Really, Mrs Butterly. I told you I can manage this just - Damien!" Mark scrambled out of the prop set he was tangled up in so he could charge over and pull the law student into a tight hug. Then, as he pulled back, he noticed you standing just behind Damien. There was a flash of confusion that was quickly replaced with a grin. "I thought Damien said you had study classes today. Come here!"

As you were pulled into a hug, you glared at Damien. In response, he shrugged with feigned innocence. "Apologies. I must have misremembered my dates. Mayhaps that is happening next week?"

"To-may-to, to-mah-to. Doesn't matter. You're both here! And it's the perfect time to do so. Once I finish here, I'll be free for the day. Is there anything at all you want to do?"

"Find a bathroom," Damien unceremoniously answered when Mark moved back toward the boxes.

"Oh! That's simple. Go back out the auditorium the way you came, then take the left corridor beside the steps. You should see the door signs from there."

"Thank you. Won't be long."

It wasn't until Damien was gone that you realised you had been betrayed. He left you! Alone! With Mark! How on earth were you going to get out of this??

An idea hit you as you stepped over a box and asked what Mark was even doing.

"I volunteered to help one of my lecturers go through some of the props we store backstage. They want to take inventory to see what we can keep and what we can throw away to replace. It's a treasure trove, and we've barely scratched the surface. I'm just putting all these items away."

A large assortment of items were scattered around the floor surrounding the three large boxes: mugs, books, gardening tools, board game pieces, empty photo frames, folded cloth, and that was at a glance. A fourth box was behind Mark, the flaps on top loosely closing it. In the distance, you could make out other large containers stacked against the walls. 

You offered to help tidy things away, and Mark was delighted to have another pair of hands. As you gathered the pieces of a chess set, Mark explained that there was currently no system as to where to return items. The plan over the upcoming summer break was to renovate the storage space, and then better homes would be assigned for items in the fall.

You admitted it sounded like a lot of work, and Mark agreed.

"You don't realise how much goes into acting. In order to recreate the feeling of watching life unfold, you need everyday items." As an example, he lifted an empty tool bag, "But with so many stories, there are so many props. It's a world all its own. It follows the rules we expect, but has its own laws." As he lowered the bag into one of the boxes, you found yourself unable to look away from the sweet, wistful smile on his lips that often appeared when he could talk about the arts. "It's easy to lose yourself in all the things you can find. Life seems so much simpler in a story, and yet… It's a weird world. We found two broken tubas this morning. Not even Mrs Butterly, the head of drama, could tell me why they were here."

The ridiculous example, along with Mark turning his attention to you, wasn't what you expected, and it brought out a surprised snort. The moment seemed to spur inspiration that brought joy to Mark's face.

When you later found a set of thimbles, questioning why actors needed something so tiny that the audience wouldn't even see, Mark reached over and snatched one out of the box, along with his coat. In moments, he had created a scene of an older lady standing by the window, trying to focus on her sewing when she knew her granddaughter was in the maternity ward. His hand shook, miming the needle pricking his hand despite the thimble.

"- which symbolises that despite the familiar security, the suspense for big news has her distracted." He carefully returned the thimble to its place once he had finished demonstrating his improvised scene, and dumped the coat back on the ground. "Even if the audience can't see it, it helps the actor portray a scene to the best of their ability. You get what I mean?" Chocolate eyes glanced to the side to look you in the eye, and you nodded with a breath caught in your throat. Whatever he saw on your face was enough to prompt Mark to drop to his knees and rummage through the box. 

"It's like, uh…" Several things were lifted and taken out. Mark was muttering, stalling for time while searching for something. You stayed on your feet as you peered into the box, like you could somehow magically know what he was looking for. It meant that you could see the way his face lit up when he grabbed a small box and presented it up to you.

"Like this! To the audience, this box could be anything, but you and I can see the fake glass in the lid to allow us to peer in and see what's really inside." You gasped. It was a beautiful golden pocket watch. The face was a pale cream with bold, black Roman numerals circling it. The hands were stuck at half-past two, but that didn't matter. "It adds to the surprise when the audience sees what your character is excited about, only having to wait a moment for you to open it and share the discovery with them."

"Something to share with me?" A new voice startled you both, heads spinning to see Damien leaning against the wall with arms crossed. "Well, I didn't think you'd propose quite this fast, Mark."

Your head whipped back to look at Mark, suddenly keenly aware of the situation. Him, kneeling on one leg with the other raised and foot on the ground for better support. You, standing as you hold a generic jewellery box. You felt your face heat up as you watched Mark's cheeks begin to turn rosy, only to glance away and try to admire a ladder resting against the wall when Mark caught your eye. Anything was better than looking at Damien's smug face. He was probably relishing seeing his two friends caught right in the middle of a moment.

"I, uh, well, it's more that…" Mark fumbled over his words as the ability to give a reasonable explanation was surprisingly sparse. It was as though something was very suddenly on the forefront of his mind and he was trying very hard not to blurt something out about it. "We were - we were acting! Testing their ability to react to a present."

"Uh huh…." Damien wasn't convinced, even if it was the truth. "So, do I get to be best man?"

"Damien, you are one of the best men I know."

"You're still kneeling."

That, finally, prompted you and Mark to break from the prolonged freeze-frame and scrambled to his feet with such haste that he nearly tripped into the crate. Dropping the jewellery box back where it belonged, uncaring whether it landed safely, you surged forward to help rescue Mark before he became part of the prop inventory.

"Hey, uh… sorry. For putting you in that situation, I mean. I didn't realise what I was doing…"

"Living out your daydreams?"

"Can you stop being a third wheel for ten seconds, Damien?"

Your gaze lowered for a moment while you struggle to think of a response. Was Mark apologising for the embarrassing situation, or for having feelings for you? 

"Are you okay?" Cautiously, Mark rested a hand on your shoulder. Your silence had made him grow hesitant. "I've made you uncomfortable, haven't I?" You shook your head, deciding to redirect focus back to him with your question of whether he was uncomfortable. "Me? I, um, I don't want you to think that I am at all because, well -"

"He wants to ask you out for drinks."

"DAMIEN!!"

"What? You said ten seconds. I gave you fifteen!" Damien raised his hands in self-defense, but you knew that smile was one that was tinged with evil. He was enjoying every minute of this. "Look. You've both danced around this for weeks. And since you've both foolishly confided in me, I decided to take matters into my own hands instead of subjecting myself to any more of this farce. The feelings are mutual, so we should hurry up and get this tidied up so you two can go out and enjoy yourselves."

In all the time you knew Damien, you never expected him to be so blunt about a matter like this. Judging by how Mark's mouth was gaping open like a fish, he was thinking the same. Damien casually stepped around the two of you and began lifting the scattered props like he hadn’t just dropped the biggest secret you and Mark had been desperately trying to hide from one another out of fear of rejection.

"Would you be okay with that?" Mark's whisper caught your attention. When you confirmed as much, Mark leaned over to kiss your cheek. "We'll plan something nice when we're back at my place." He turned away with the intention to help Damien. But when you didn’t move, seemingly still trying to comprehend the last few minutes with eyes lowered, he returned to your side and gently squeezed your hand.

You looked up at him. He smiled.

Somehow, you knew that smile read ‘I love you’.

[italoniponic]

Hello again! It is I- Swimmy back to pester you again! Unfortunately the fanfiction I was writing got deleted from my Tumblr drafts. 😭 So to cheer myself up I came up with more of the proposal headcanons I sent you a while back and I remembered you enjoyed them, so I decided to share the new ones as well! (Also I noticed one person that replied to the first post knew exactly what old TV show I was referencing and I nearly died laughing over it).

So in my last submission, I mentioned Floyd basically tricking you into a proposal, right? Well I can see Jade definitely doing something similar, but much more subtle than his twin. He'd be more like, "do you like this pearl? Yes yes, it is beautiful... do you want to keep it?" and you're like "yes! thanks, Jade!" but then Floyd starts squeezing you and talking about how you're going to be in-laws... cue panic. "JADE YOU CAN HAVE THE RING BACK." And Azul is already drafting a prenuptial agreement for you and Jade. 🤣

I know last time aside from Kalim I only really talked about the mer-people, the beastmen, and the fae But who says the humans can't have odd proposals as well? Or there could just be some miscommunication. Like Trey bringing you a cupcake or something from his family's bakery. But unfortunately, Trey accidentally grabbed a special cupcake that was meant for a customer's proposal, and there is a ring hidden inside... so you either bite the ring and nearly break a tooth, nearly choke on the ring or you manage to spot it and pull it out of the cupcake. Either way, you're looking at Trey like "we haven't even gone on a first date???? this is a little fast!!!"

Riddle, poor, poor awkward Riddle. I like to imagine that flowers have significant meaning in Twisted Wonderland, and maybe a certain bouquet can be viewed as a marriage offer? And you somehow aquire say bouquet/arrangement and bring it to Riddle as a gift. "Here, I know how much you enjoy flowers. :)" "... WHAT?!" and he thinks you're messing with him even though you're genuinely clueless, but he can't even do "off with your head" as punishment because you don't have magic so it basically does nothing to you.

I also had the idea that maybe Ace tries to convince you to "fake marry" him so he can tell his family that he's got a partner. I didn't have anything for Cater or Deuce. 😭

Kalim got some attention last time, and he's gonna get more attention for Jamil's part, actually. Even through everything that has happened with them, Kalim obviously still loves Jamil like his own family. And family doesn't let family end up alone. Kalim also knows Jamil fairly well and has definitely noticed the way Jamil's gaze lingers on you a little longer than anyone else. So Kalim takes matters into his own hands... he brings you various treasures from Scarabia and kneels before you... "will you... MARRY JAMIL?" Jamil wants to throw himself off of a cliff and you're completely lost because you thought Kalim and Jamil had invited you over for a game night??? But in a different scenario, Kalim just asks Jamil to give you some specific gifts and deliver them directly. It doesn't occur to Jamil until *after* you've accepted them that he basically just gave you a bunch of proposal and marriage related stuff and now he's on his way to murder Kamil.

On the topic of being proposed to for someone else: Ortho. You can't tell me that this kid wouldn't catch onto Idia's big huge crush on you as soon as it developed. I think it's canon that he can see Idia's heart rate and stuff? I can't remember but either way, the Ignihyde leader nearly goes into cardiac arrest when he's near you. So Ortho being the sweet kid he is, basically brings you back to Idia's dorm and says something like, "you may kiss the bride" and Idia just freakin' passes out. You're confused and Ortho is like "did I do a good job?"

I'm gonna throw Malleus in here again, because I'm still laughing over the thought of just roaming around his castle like "ooh this place is nice :)" and not even noticing the fact that it's literally being decorated for a wedding.

I don't know a whole lot about Silver, but I wonder if he sleep talks? He falls asleep while reading and you're sitting next to him. He's repeating the last few lines that be has read from his book before dozing off, and one of them happens to be "will you marry me" and you panic and say yes because it was so sudden. If it had just been the two or you, you probably would have told Silver once he woke up, you both could have laughed awkwardly and then moved on... but dammit if Lilia wasn't eavesdropping!!! He's ecstatic!!! A wedding between his precious son and you? AND POTENTIAL GRANDBABIES??? You can't come back from this now. It's been ten minutes and Lilia already has your "save the date" cards being sent out and he's picked a venue.

Now if it were Lilia... I couldn't see him being sneaky about a proposal since he's canonly apparently older than dirt. I also don't think he'd accidentally propose either, but maybe he just happens to find a gorgeous ring somehow and gives it to you as a gift, not knowing the ring was an engagement ring. You find it find and try to explain to him what kind of ring it is and just rolls with it like "oh, okay. Will you marry me then?" and have no chance at saying no because in his head he's choreographing your first dance together naming all twelve of your future children.

What if you were asked to help Vil practice lines for an upcoming movie or something, and he has to "propose" to you in the scene? Somehow or another, paparazzi manage to get a photo of you assisting him and they take the story and run with it. It's all over the news, "Vil engaged to mystery woman?!" And he's getting so much publicity on it that he's considering *not* making a statement clearing up the situation... I mean, you should feel HONORED, really!!

Rook is pretty "flowery" with his words. I feel like he could just talk to you for a few minutes and propose without you even realizing it, like "would you walk with me to the very end?" and you think he's just asked you to go on a literal walk and you're like "yes Rook, of course". He swoops you up bridal style and is just overjoyed that you said yes!!! No take backs!

And Epel, bless his heart. I can just see his family all being like "when are ya'll getting married" because he talks about you so much and doesn't have the heart to correct anyone. Maybe at one they manage to pawn off the family ring on him and it leaves him with no other choice than to propose. There's no motivation like peer pressure!

I'm struggling to remember who all I had HCs for in my first submission, I don't wanna repeat anyone and be boring but I don't wanna miss anyone either. So much potential. 🤣 it's also almost 4am where I live and I can't sleep. I apologize for grammar errors and the length!

-🏊‍♀️ Swimmy

Welcome back, Swimmy! <3 For those who doesn't know or remember, it's the anon from this ask about proposal headcanons (there: Azul, Floyd, Leona, Ruggie (but not much), Jack, Sebek, Kalim, Malleus). I also want to correct myself bc talking about Jamil in Kalim's part, it was meant to be "you can't marry someone after so little time" but I didn't noticed it was typed "you can" lol

Ooh, my sweetie, I'm so sorry! I hope you can rewrite it somehow. idk if you can, but use google docs to write. It has automatic saving (or you can set it, i think) and even if the internet goes off suddenly, it doesn't take much from the actual work and you can fastly copy-paste to other archive just to keep it safe in these cases. I know bc this happened to me a lot of times. Hope everything turns out okay <3

I really enjoyed! idk how it shows but for my mobile, it's one of my popular posts alongside two Malleus requests! And its all thanks to you <3 Thanks again for blessing us again with these beautiful (and funny) hcs

(I also know That's So Raven but it's been so much time that if you put a reference, I possibly didn't noticed lol)

Jade being sneaky even in this. Why I'm not surprised? I love how Floyd is 100% subtle in everything he does and OMG AZUL DOING THE PRENUPTIAL AGREEMENT I'M DYING LMAO

ngl this would be a great idea for a Trey scenario! The reader's quote and then Trey being all panicked and embarrassed bc well, he thinks about it in rare times and since it's you, why not??? 10/10 best story for the wedding party three months later

I LOVED this idea with the flower bouquet. Riddle being a total flustered mess and it just doubles when Ace and Deuce give you two their greetings in "this, oh so lovely, celebration of love" (Ace knows you're clueless and he's gonna enjoy this + Deuce actually thinks you just proposed and it's trying to be supportive). Eventually someone explains to you what that bouquet means but... here's the thing: you does a face like "oh, so you won't accept it then?" and you seem really sad and Riddle just takes the damn flowers off your hand and says "I DO" and storms off the lounge but at least you're happy now

ACE FAKE DATING/MARRY TROUPE OMG it's so simple but you know what? I would love seeing this. Just the development of Ace being "okay so we're faking it!" to "I hate how I love you so much" and now you really need to marry lol

THE "WILL YOU MARRY JAMIL" GOT ME ON MY KNEES

It's like that one incorrect quote that Person C proposes to Person A in Person B's name lmao. I'm 100% for this, it's pure canon, you got my blessing. No thoughts, just Kalim stopping the banquet to make a huge announcement, he kneels before you, everybody panics, you panics but Kalim just ask you if you would marry Jamil and everybody just... whattafck is going on??? Jamil doesn’t know if he goes to you or strangles Kalim with his own bandana but then you get up and say “Oh, geez, you got me scared Kalim bc I actually love Jamil. I would love to marry him!” “YES!”

“Sorry to interrupt but,” Scarabia student B says, holding Jamil who just passed out, “We lost a soldier here”

Ortho really watched every one of those kids movies about setting up adults in relationships and he’s about to prove all those theories. Idia absolutely can’t do anything to stop him. I can also see Ortho showing you and Idia one slideshow about the statistics of the simulation of your married life plus a really sweet (and kinda embarrassing) 3D simulation of your game avatars marrying (like in Animal Crossing or smth like that)

Oh, Silver sleeping talking and just blurting out a whole proposal from this book he's reading (plus if you were the one who recommended it). I would be a total mess. Lilia is one of those moms who are just "so, when are you going to marry?" after the son/daughter have two weeks of dating

HE'S ALREADY MAKING THE SAVE THE DATE CARDS OMG

Lilia have the "it was an accidental propose haha well unless??" energy with the wiggling eyebrows, nobody can't convince me otherwise

TWELVE CHILDREN

Vil's life is probably one of those teen movies about celebrities at this point

This is such a Rook x Reader situation, it's perfect lol you just panicking in his arms and asking "u-uh, we aren't going to walk?" "yes, amour, for the rest of our lifes!" "... that's a pretty long walk, huh" (← still don't get it, wait for when Rook is asking about your measurements for the wedding clothes)

The "old family ring" trick! You can't escape it now, Epel lol I can see him all awkward with the ring box in his hands, looking at you then looking at his family being all supportive and cheering on him ("ya can do it, son!"). Epel looking kinda dead inside bc romanticism isn't one of his most favorite things but his line about being a prince in a white horse in gm event will always stays in my heart

(okay, so here we did for Jade, Trey, Riddle, Ace, Jamil, Idia, Silver, Lilia, Vil, Rook and Epel) there's only Cater and Deuce left, maybe next time?

not a problem, dear! It was fun talking about this again <3 Now sleep well (not that i'm one to talk) and until next time. Thanks for sharing your accidental propose thoughts with us again~

[bellafragolina]

OMFG WAIT YOUR ASKS ARE OPEN AGAIN IDEA

Oh I’ve had this idea in my head for a month! Okay, so the subway bosses are known train enthusiasts, so I’m inclined to believe they know the history of the gear station cause the trains and the battles, so what if they meet s/o who was the subway boss before them, like maybe 5 or so years older than them and they see them at the subway cause they needed to use it for travel and cue the simping and gushing, please, let them simp for s/o

- Jes (and I apologize this is long.)

jesssssss!!! my babyyyyyyyyyy!!!

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Ingo:

Ingo has read about you, he has your wiki memorized, and he's got all of the documentaries featuring you saved somewhere, so it's safe to assume he has a bit of a celebrity crush on you. When he spots you on the subway one day, headed out to somewhere with your ace, he can't stifle the gasp that leaves him. People look up, see him staring at you, and wonder what's going on. You glance up as well, nudged by your ace who noticed the man's stare, and meet Ingo's gaze. Recognizing his uniform, you give a smile and a nod of greeting and respect, and Ingo nearly faints.

He can't manage to work up the courage to talk to you, but that's okay, you walk over to him. You start with "sorry, I'm not sure if you know this, but I was a Subway Boss before-" and Ingo is already shouting "I AM VERY AWARE!!" thus confusing all the other passengers even more. Ingo blushes hard, mortified that he interrupted you and probably ruined any chance he had of talking with you further (or being your friend (or more)), but you just laugh. Your smile doesn't help his blush, but he's relieved you didn't take offense to his mistake

You two talk for a long time. Ingo tells you of how he admires you, what you've done for the Gear Station before them, and shyly tells you about the changes he and his brother have made since taking up your mantel. Should you praise him or express that you had similar ideas to him that you just never managed to implement, Ingo is over the moon. His eyes sparkle so brightly as he tries not to just vibrate from the excitement of being complimented by his idol.

When your stop eventually comes, Ingo is loathed to see you go. So, in another fit of unintentional shouting, he offers you his phone number and meekly asks for yours in return- to talk about the Gear Station and Battle Subway of course! Nothing else! Should you accept, he's practically skipping the rest of the day, daydreaming of you battling his line and praising him more whatever the outcome. Emmet is extremely jealous once he hears, and demands to have your number as well, but Ingo refuses to give it over. He doesn't want to share your attention or praise, not even with his brother

Emmet:

Emmet knows everything there is to know about you in relation to the Gear Station. He's watched every documentary, read every article, and owns vintage merch with you on it from when you were the star of the subway. His crush on you is well known, at least by Ingo, who hears the documentaries playing on soft volume late at night when Emmet can't sleep. So when Emmet spots you boarding one of the trains one day, he's quick to change tracks and follow you, eager for an autograph

You're surprised to be approached by the new Subway Boss, but you're flattered to be recognize, and you happily sign whatever Emmet hands you. It's endearing to watch how excited he gets with everything you sign, and his joyful musings of how jealous his brother is going to be makes you laugh. You end up chatting with him about the Gear Station and how things have changed. Emmet is eager to hear your ideas and what you think of the changes he and Ingo have made, so the conversation is very fun

Emmet has no qualms asking for your number when he notices your stop approaching. You trade numbers with him, and he begs you to come and try the Double Train. He wants to show you his Pokémon and what he can do, he wants to impress you, so when you agree, he jumps and cheers. Sure, he blushes when you laugh at his enthusiasm, but he's too thrilled by your agreement to care

Ingo is very jealous when Emmet returns. The younger twin boasts and brags, showing off his signed items and talking loudly about how he has your number and how you've agreed to take on his train. He rides the high for the next few weeks, gathering items of merch for you to sign when he meets you next. It looks like his fantasies are coming true after all!

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You have the best ideas!! This was so cute to think about, being a celebrity crush of the train twins <3 how cute!!

Hope you enjoy it!!

~Renee

[vanilla-villainsstuff]

HERE'S MY THOUGHTS ON ALL THE MAJOR SHIPS IN LMK

I dunno how controversial this is so...

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I don't really like the idea of ppl shipping Nezha with anybody for two reasons:

In the original JTTW, he's mentally and physically a 12 year old who happens to be immortal. Meaning he looks and acts like a preteen. Now, in the show it seems that they made Nezha closer to MK's age. (who's probably 18-20 years old.) I don't really know why this decision was made, but I ain't touching that grey area with a ten foot pole.

Secondly, He... doesn't really have any romantic chemistry with anyone? Sure, he hasn't gotten much screentime but I can't really see Nezha being romantically involved with anyone, he just... doesn't seem to really care for it all that much. (Personally I hc him as aro-ace)

As for Dragonfruit, ehhh...I can see the appeal? It just seems kinda...repetitive as a ship? If Red Son and Mei were love interests, it would more or less be "Red Son not understanding social cues or social interactions or taking things too seriously and Mei helping him out." I don't think it's me being biased towards hetero ships cuz well, there are hetero ships I fucking love it's just, Dragonfruit just lacks that "umph!" factor, y'know? That deeper thing that makes it really stand out as a ship. It's a neat ship, don't get me wrong, I just don't really see why others really like it or make it their otp. Especially since Red Son and Mei seem to hate the idea of being together as seen in Revenge of the Spider Queen, it just seems like ppl are shipping them for no other reason than Red Son and Mei have funny/well written interactions in the show.

Now, why did I put Spicynoodles at the "should be canon" tier and not Dragonfruit? Well...

MK and Red Son are both bad at social interaction/social cues in completely opposite ways. MK is extremely impulsive, impatient, and hyperactive, which causes him to indirectly put him and/or his friends in danger to the point where multiple episodes are dedicated to explaining to MK to take it down a couple of notches. Meanwhile, Red Son is bad at social interaction/social cues because he's sheltered, overly serious, and hot tempered. If Red Son and MK were to be love interests, it could potentially balance things out. (MK showing Red how to let loose and appreciate others' company, and Red reeling MK in from doing something stupidly impulsive.)

Red Son and MK are also very inexperienced with romance, Red Son moreso. Red Son never seems to take romance into consideration, and again, was offended at the idea of being Mei's partner. I'd hazard a guess that Red never had a crush on or dated anyone before. Now, MK'S a different story...MK is explicitly shown to have interest in other men and see them as attractive, (See MK call DBK "Demon Daddy", calling Monkie King "handsome", and never expressing the same with women) so he's definitely had crushes on a few guys before, but it doesn't seem like he's ever dated anyone. So it would be super interesting to see both Red Son and MK figure out the whole dating thing as they go along

The reason why I believe it should be canon is because it could bring out a side of both the characters we don't really see and having both of them discover significant, new things about themselves. It could really flesh them out in a really interesting way and they'd have a very stand out dynamic

So... ShadowPeaches, amirite? But seriously, why do I think it should be canon? Well, I would explain in excruciating detail but this post is already hella fucking long and I'd rather go more in depth on ShadowPeaches in a post all about that ship exclusively.

(Also, to all the dumb brains out there spreading misinformation about JTTW, lemme put this misconception to bed now... MACAQUE AND WUKONG WERE NEVER BROTHERS IN JTTW! Buddha stated that they're vaguely a part of the same species, but not brothers. Wukong and Macaque have precisely zero deeper connection to each other in JTTW, Macaque's birth was never even detailed in the book and Wukong doesn't even have parents. I have researched this topic for weeks, I've read parts of the original JTTW, I have even talked with actual Chinese people on this stupid ass issue, and as far as I can tell, this is just a stupid fan theory being passed off as canon by non-Chinese ppl who haven't read or even properly researched the original JTTW. Shut the actual fuck up, I don't want to hear it.)

And finally, why is it gross to ship MK with Macaque/SWK? After all, didn't I myself say that MK is probably a legal adult, so shouldn't shipping them be fine? No, because it's not about the age thing (although it kinda is) it's about the massive, collosal, power imbalance that could manifest.

While MK is 18-20 years old, SWK and Macaque are very likely to be at least 1,000 years old. (SWK and Macaque were friends years before the events of JTTW, in the original JTTW, SWK gets put under a mountain for 500 years, and in the events of LMK, SWK went missing after sealing DBK under a mountain for another 500 years, so if we're assuming that LMK is following the same lore as JTTW, SWK and Macaque are at least 1,000 years old) Although it seems that Macaque and SWK are mentally and physically middle aged, which still isn't any better. Point being, a romantic relationship between MK and these two would be the equivalent of a 30 year old dating an 18 year old.

Secondly, SWK and Macaque are MK'S teachers and guardians, SWK moreso. A romantic relationship between them would be pretty fucked since SWK is affectively MK'S superior in everyway. MK wants to be SWK'S successor, wants to be close to him, wants to be a stronger person, and SWK having romantic feelings towards MK would just seem like...borderline grooming. Like I'm sorry, but that's why most college teachers, therapists, and doctors have a strict "no dating students/clients" rule since that could potentially lead to their students/clients to be taken advantage of because they're eager/vulnerable.

Now here's the thing: Why is shipping MK with the 1,000 year old SWK/Macaque wrong, but shipping him with the 420 (ha) year old Red Son is fine? Well, multiple reasons, the major ones being that Red looks mentally and physically to be around the same age as MK (both are still coming into their own, both aren't quite mature, plus Red Son is described as a "boy genius", so yeah, Red probably just ages a lot slower in comparison to mortals). Secondly because Red Son and MK are equals, Red isn't MK'S mentor or anything. But yeah to sum it up: even though MK X SWK/Macaque isn't technically p*dophila or whatever, it's still a massive power imbalance and comes off as gross. Stop it.

Andddd... that's all of my main thoughts on these ships! Hope you found this enjoyable, thanks for reading! :)

[redrobbingabank]

Damijon au yeah you heard me

Ok so quick before i say this i know very little about damian and jon i’ve only read the adventures of super sons comics and outside that i just know that jon somehow became an adult while damian’s still a kid so if i get anything wrong feel free to correct me but please be nice about it lol

So there’s a mission and Jon gets de-aged. Poof and all of a sudden he’s back at the age he would have been if time had happened normally. Everyone’s doing the natural freak out when someone’s been magically fucked with and starts working on something to fix the spell.

Except...for Damian. He’s realized at this point that he’s ace, but that doesn’t mean he’s blind, and Jon is really cute ok. Plus, all those tiny little baby feelings that he crushed when Jon got yeeted forward in life are all starting to spring up, and he’s furiously wrestling them back because Jon is obviously going to become an adult again as soon as there’s a solution to this. 

But Jon doesn’t realize this. In fact, he’s practically euphoric because fuck yes he finally gets to be a teenager and he wants to spend time with his best friend doing the stuff they never really got to do!! But Damian’s avoiding him, and people keep talking to Jon about ‘fixing him’ and ‘returning him to his age’, and Jon doesn’t really want to think about that, and Damian’s cold shoulder is making him sad. 

Cue a chat with big brother Kon, who is actually his big brother rn and very happy to fill the role. He tells him(because obviously he halfway lives at Wayne Manor because of Tim, and vice versa) how Damian’s been moping and Jon should maybe try what he always used to do and just sort of show up and be himself. 

It was the way he and Damian always used to operate. Damian would pretend not to care, and Jon would show up and smile and be the happiest ball of sunshine he could until Damian finally warmed up. Since he’d turned older, that had kind of disappeared. 

So he does. He shows up at Damian’s hosue--flying outside his window, no less, with ice cream and demands they hang out. Damian, force of habit kicking in, agrees.

Insert them relearning their relationship, growing closer than ever before, realizing that they maybe have more similar wants than they thought they did, and Jon having a decision when a solution is finally ready. 

(obviously they’d be around sixteen/seventeen in this btw)

[sitp-recs]

Hidden Gems by @cavendishbutterfly

Happy Wednesday with A+ comfort food! Cav has been an amazing addition to the fandom, and sometimes it even feels like they have been around for ages! I still remember the exciting joy of finding Bridges, which became an instant fave - I fell in love with its gorgeous Budapest aesthetics, the wistful atmosphere, the perfect and organic slow burn, the beautiful romance. My obsession was so immediate I started the rec before even finishing the fic! Since then I’ve been following Cav’s blog closely and checking every new work knowing it will be a special treat.

Putting this reclist together was lovely because I got to revisit all these fics again, and they’re the best snack-size romantic reads for those who love shorts like me! Cav has this unique way of making short fics feel both light and intimate, with just the right amount of delicate, chill and depth, and so very soft. They prove that shorts can be just as emotionally satisfying and completed stories as long ones, perfect to indulge when you just need a nice and easy get together. Enjoy!

In The Wings (2021, T, 1.6k) - such a soft and heartwarming established relationship, I couldn’t stop smiling! Ballet dancer Draco is the concept I didn’t know I needed, comforting and very aesthetique 😌

Ballet has been a path to healing for Draco after the war. Now, it's his final performance in the starring role, and his boyfriend is in the audience for the first time.

Just A Phone Call Away (2021, M, 4k) - pining!Harry + friends to lovers, sign me up! This is light and sweet and the intimacy of that hair washing scene is stuck in my head. Unspeakable Drarry and cooking lessons as a treat!

Today’s the day: Harry’s getting over his ridiculous crush on Draco Malfoy. Even if Draco’s just invited himself over to wash Harry’s hair. In a very platonic way, obviously. Not intimate at all.

Glowing (2022, T, 9.7k) - one of my favorite Fangfest fics this year, a lovely cottagecore h/c with trans man Veela! Draco and ace Vampire!Harry living together and falling in love. It’s about loneliness and understanding, and it’s soft, quiet and bittersweet in a very gentle way.

Harry's lived alone and vampiric in his cottage for ages, until a long-lived Draco Malfoy suddenly shows up to answer an advertisement Harry had practically forgotten he'd put in the Prophet. Cue soft blood drinking, quiet nights of reading and crocheting, and Harry thinking that maybe--just maybe--he might not be so alone anymore. Read my rec here.

Bridges (2021, E, 16k) - get ready to fall in love with both Drarry and Budapest in this immersive and quietly introspective co-workers to lovers that celebrates hope and grief in a beautiful, touching way. Perfect slow burn and get together. Cw: brief Harry/OC, mention of Holocaust, use of alcohol and weed

Harry and Draco are on a trip to Budapest to help with Kingsley's re-election, but that's the boring bit. More interesting: Harry Potter is changing his Tinder preferences to include men. Read my rec here.

The Ever-Changing Room (2022, E, 33k) - cool and intriguing case fic where Draco & Mione form a dream team to track Harry down. I love their camaraderie and the supporting cast is amazing too! NB fashionista Draco, safe houses, Euro trip, and a really interesting take on the Deathly Hallows plot point, so creative and engaging!

Draco Malfoy and Harry Potter have been married for five years, and everything's grand—until Harry disappears one day without warning. He's left behind three letters and the whole of the Wixen World demanding to know where he's got to, including Draco. Unfortunately, Draco's not a very good detective. Hermione is, though. Or: Draco travels Europe looking for their ever-elusive husband.

[where-did-the-groove-go]

I was tagged to do this agesss ago by @pineapplefulfillseveryneed, and @ron-do-i-get-to-sing-my-way (thanks!) - had meant to do it but never got around to it, so here we go!

Rules: Tag 10 (or less) people you want to get to know better

relationship status: Single, and content with that for now :)

favorite color: Yellow!! Though I also really love blue, specifically cerulean. There's getting to be a bit more of those colors in my closet again (in the form of darker blues and gold-yellows bc those colors look better on me) but also a lot of black and maroon these days.

song stuck in my head: At the exact time of typing, "This Is the Renaissance" (by Sparks, as if anyone seeing this needs to know) bc I made a reference to it earlier. I nearly always have a song stuck in my head but my brain is fickle with them, they usually switch frequently and I'll go through several different ones on any given day. Sometimes two songs will get stuck in my head at once, which is always cool.

three favorite foods: Chocolate, if that counts. Spaghetti carbonara. Bratkartoffeln. I never like this question because I could list dozens more.

last song I listened to: "I've Never Been High" (Sparks again). Absolutely gorgeous song. *Case in point, this is now my answer to question 3.

dream trip: I'm sorta taking it this month! I've been wanting to visit the UK for years now; I had plans to study abroad in England for a semester but covid ruined that. Unfortunately this time around I won't have the chance to go to Wales or further up north to Scotland and Ireland like I would've wanted, but I'll be visiting Liverpool and Birmingham, which are bucket list items for me as home of two of my favorite bands. And honestly, getting to see Sparks twice and having the chance to meet a few of my Sparks friends makes it a dream trip anyway!

last thing(s) i googled: "German fried potatoes" to answer question 4 above XD because I couldn't remember the name of the dish my Oma makes that I love. Aside from that, "can a squish become a crush"... I've certainly had feelings for the Maels for a while, but as time has gone on, and especially lately, I've noticed it's started to feel *different*, and different than any other "crush" I've had in the past, and I'm still trying to make sense of it all. Cue me reading as much as I can about the ace/aro experience with crushes and celebrity crushes and what romantic attraction actually feels like.

I think nearly all of my mutuals were already tagged for this when it was going around so I'm not going to directly tag anyone, but please consider yourself tagged if you haven't done this yet and want to/are willing to!

[aamircoeur]

I'll change that then :3

Can I ask a little something for Phoenix and Neon (yes, that anon, sorry) with a crush who's kind of like Sevica from Arcane but a lot more friendlier and have that nullifying power

Maybe something an other person tries to seduce their crush and they find it cute

hello again neon anon. i love your ideas so!!!! so!!! much!!! gotta love arcane too <3 though i'm really sorry i think i may have misunderstood your last sentence TT i hope you still like it though!! thank you for the ask

Phoenix & Neon X Reader that's like Sevika (from ARCANE)

hc/imagines format. i'm gonna be super honest right now i don't think i captured sevika's personality well TT feminine (but can be seen a gender neutral) reader

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if you're like sevika, then you must be the most loyal agent in the protocol, very close with sage and brimstone 'cause you kind of work for them (like sevika with silco)

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you're tough and strong and like to tease to annoy, but very intimidating with a look in your face that demands respect without you uttering a word.

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neon and phoenix would be interested (or attracted?) to you immediately.

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Phoenix

the two of them would look for brimstone more, in the hopes of catching a glimpse of you if you were in his office

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he doesn't mind the intimidating vibe that you have.

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he would do anything to be noticed and seen by you.

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fighting against killjoy's new bot? consider it dead. ace on a mission? easy peasy.

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phoenix would chicken out whenever he plans on talking to you, so showing off was his first option to make you interact with him

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he did catch your eye, though. a strong, flashy, and attractive radiant with a personality that glows just as bright as his jacketー honestly, who wouldn't be impressed?

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"good job, agent phoenix." you said while reloading your gun after he successfully clutched a tough round.

yoru 100% knows phoenix's interest in you, so he decided to flirt with you just to mess with the dude.

"oh, pfftー me? yeah. yeah, no, that was nothin'. barely broke a sweat, if i'm bein' honest," he said, his accent becoming heavy as he grew more nervous. his words were true, though. but now that he's talking to you he could feel his temples and palms sweat like waterfalls.

you chuckled at his response before moving on and heading back to headquarters.

ー not before turning your head back and looking into his eyes for a quick moment as you walked away. this made phoenix's cheeks and ears feel hot as he jogged to catch up to you, finally initiating a proper conversation with you.

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"nice to see a new pretty face in the protocol, [name]. looking forward to getting to know you more," yoru would hold your shoulder and make it linger for a second more just 'cause he knows that phoenix is looking.

"HEY!" phoenix would shout from the other side of the room, cue yoru's devil smirk. "hey. hi, guys." he'd stand in between the two of you with a certain look in his eyes while facing you.

"hello." you'd say.

"hi, [name]." he said, and just as yoru was about to continue his teasing, phoenix turned away from you swiftly. "yoru! just the man that i was looking for. brimstone calls for you." he'd say.

"hah? but i've just finished aー"

"nope! emergency. now, go!" he'd push yoru out of the room then turn back to you with a fake innocent smile.

"oh, hi, [name]. didn't see you there," he'd say, the joke making you laugh at him.

"you know, if you wanted to be alone with me, you could've just said so." as soon as the last words fell from your mouth, phoenix's hair was already catching a small fire with how direct and bold you were.

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you truly are amazing, he'd say. he's supposed to be the cool and bold one, but why was he so shy everytime he was around you?

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with that, the two of you grew closer. him being more talkative and teasing with you and you only either pretending to hate his presence or tease him back 10x harder

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he then learned about your nullifying gadget, 'cause he actually finally listened to a person when they were talking about 'the boring stuff', or so he'd day.

Neon

"aye, don't kill out my fire, yeah?" phoenix says.

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would think so hard on how she could talk to you, 'cause 1) she really doesn't know how 2) desperately tries to play it safe 'cus of how scary you look on the outside

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"so you're the new agent?" neon randomly spoke as you were about to give paperworks to brimstone. you'd nod and answer a small 'yeah' at her question.

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then that's it for your entire interaction for three days.

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'til it became a habit between the two of you, just asking each other small questions when in the same room with one another

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i'm not gonna lie by saying that she'd stare at your big muscles

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anyway, her stares would be obvious 'cause she seemed to be staring at you, whatever you may be doing.

you were tall and strong and beautiful and everything in between how could she not honestly

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it was just you, neon, and a few other agents in the shooting range. you were successfully shooting at every dummy with headshots and neon was in awe.

noticing this, the timer went off as it showed your score. "are you just," you started, loud enough for only the person behind you to hear, "ーgoing to stand there, or will you shoot with me?" you asked, talking to neon.

she'd immediately be on her feet with a surprised look on her face. "y-yeah." neon would answer.

you smirked and stepped to the side, giving her some space to start the challenge.

the two of you immediately eliminated each robot dummy, silently competing with one another without exchanging a word.

when the timer's done, the machine would show that neon actually had more kills than you. "guess i'm better at this, ah." she'd smirk.

you laughed out loud and patted her back as the two of you walked to exit the range. "only for now, agent."

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the two of you spent more time together after that, competing just for bragging rights

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the protocol knew how close you guys grew, and nobody really minded it.

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jett would run up towards the two of you. "guess i'm better than neon, right?" she'd lightheartedly tease.

what ticked neon off, though, was when on a mission and the two of you agreed to compete for kills, jett actually had a 3k while the two of you shared the last two agents.

"what? no way! you had your knives ready andー" neon would list of reasons to why jett got more kills than her. "ーplus you aren't even included in our game!" she'd finish off.

it only made jett laugh as she decided to walk away, leaving you chuckling with an upset neon beside you.

"i still think you're the better one, you know." you smoothly said.

neon would freeze and you'd only shake your head playfully at her while you dragged her towards your next location for the mission

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she would also get to know many things about you and vice versa.

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would trust you enough to talk to you about her fear of her radianite powers and you'd comfort and reassure her that she wouldn't hurt anyone good, saying that you'd make sure of it.

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your nullifying gadget would make her feel extremely safe

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you would make her feel extremely safe.

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i'm .. not that proud of this 'cause it was kind of hard for me to capture sevika's personality ... but i hope this was still alright TT thank you for the ask!

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[misshappilyfading]

more stuff that's too long, too tmi for twitter

it's been 8 years (oof) since i had my initial sexuality crisis and it seems like i've had (am having??) one again. august seems like a special month for me.

alll the way back in 2014/15, i had that period where i felt super uncomfortable looking at women's bodies bc i was trying to..repress something. and then for like 3 days i thought i was homoromantic het bc i needed some explanation that was not "i'm gay". then i had my little ace rabbit hole spiral, freaked out for a couple days, then realized that im asexual. het ace. and i felt so firm in this sexuality that i summed up my suppressed preoccupation with women's breasts, thighs, etc. as aesthetic appreciation. a superficial one at that. nothing deep. bc im still partially straight

then in 2016, i had my first(?) crush on a girl in the most stereotypical, cliche way possible and i didn't know what to do with myself for a whole year. so that was the beginning of my bi(romantic)-questioning saga.

in 2017, i ran into the same girl again but didn't have my dokidoki kyun moment so i figured i had overreacted and was still straight. the rest of 2017-2018 was me being het ace but getting bolder and bolder about looking at girls, thinking about girls, making jokes about being a lesbian, etc.

things kinda reached a head in 2019?? i had a really bad crush on a girl (+ maybe 2-3 minor ones??) but i gaslit myself out of all of them and i generally started realizing that my thoughts..were not straight. ((me watching chuang with my mom around this time and noting how i felt/reacted to seeing some of the girls kinda had a big impact too)) cue a 4 year bi-questioning era. which i also kinda felt would be impossible to figure out bc on top of being ace, i also have a big fear of like...non-sexual intimacy with other ppl?? + relationship commitment/expectations? so i was kinda like, if i scared to date a girl, how am i supposed to know whether i actually like girls???

but then after 4 years of "idfk" this year, i at least came to the conclusion/realization that all those crushes i retconned in my memory were actual crushes. with all the same physical reactions and emotions i'd felt before with boys. so now i have tentatively slapped the label bi ace on myself. but now im kinda ??? bc i've never really identified as lgbt. seeing all the discourse around asexuals, esp het aces, made me kinda feel like there was no need to identify as lgbt. but now im like...what. do i do? im also kinda 😬 thinking about all the times i led my brother to believe i was gay...and now that it's not really a joke anymore the consequences of my actions are 🥹 which is fun :)))

but whatever. in short, i am a dumbass. idk what im doing but i doubt i'll ever come out to my parents at this point. does that actually matter? idk. i don't know anything. i hope nobody reads this. i have no profound thoughts or insight to offer