Thinking about Aaron bushnell tonight. His words are running on a loop in my head. I will not be complicit in genocide. Him screaming for Palestine and freedom until he burns to death. Please god let someone hear him. For all the martyrs. For every person still under occupation, deprived of the dignity of a peaceful life they choose. We’re screaming in the streets for change every other week. And will this government, who only speaks in blood and guns and war, listen finally to fire? 30,000 Palestinian souls later, and we are still asking what it will take for these empires to crumble. That is too many lives lost in silence. May every single one reverberate for generations to come. I will not be complicit.
You know how things can go so terribly south if you totally ignore a companion's questline...well I've been thinking about how none of the companions ask Tav about their own problems.
I'm just thinking about what it might be like to reach the end of the adventure-everyone's questlines tied up in neat bows, the Absolute thwarted, city saved. Everyone's patting themselves on the backs and talking about settling down now that things are finally peaceful, all the while Tav is just standing there shattered.
They let so many leads go. People they loved had died while they were tending to their party's problems. They helped others get well-deserved vengeance but no one has even asked why they need to leave camp to be alone each night.
Tav just thought if they gave it their all to aiding others and kept patient then someone would offer a hand to them.
dan and phil are like jesus in that they’re dramatic ass fruity men in their 30s always going like “i am making this SACRIFICE for THE PEOPLE” and everyone is like “no one asked you to do this in fact we’d all rather you just did not do this” and they’re like “IT IS TOO LATE NOW YOU HAVE TO LIVE WITH THE CONSEQUENCES THIS IS WHAT YOU WANTED” and we’re like “no no we didn’t want this actually and you made this decision with your whole ass adult brain you truly could have just not done this and we’d all be better off for it but now we all have to suffer because YOU refuse to say no to shit” and i think that’s ridiculous stupid annoying awful beautiful
You know what the worst part about all of this happening was? It wasn't the harassment and death threats, though that was bad and I've grown used to it after years of dealing with it, but the silence that followed from those I loved. Trying to reach out to others to say anything, to talk and see understanding and nuance, only for there to be nothing said no matter how hard you try. They don't block you, they don't unfriend you, they just... aren't there. You're like a ghost trying to connect with the living only for them to walk past you unnoticing. These were people that I loved and gave so much of myself to and there was never even a conversation to be had at all. That's the general theme of the story: no communication. There was never an opportunity for that and that was never on the table once judgement has been set. Before it happened, during and after.
sasha charades continue!! but first a little mix up on productions part of who has the "sasha celly" prompt which is lundy so luosty has to sit down again for lundy whos going 2nd
me! me me me me!! i have the prompt!! its me!! (during their stage intros at the beginning the mc slipped them a piece of paper with a prompt on it)
boys very excited to see how lundy will piss off sasha this time; on the menu? imitating how sasha barely cellies
a wrist shot and an arm up in barely kept enthusiasm as he glides to the bench in solemenity as a sasha goal and celly
and on the accuracy scale?
well the tapes surely speak for themselves here...
it seems sasha has a better connection with lundy (or maybe its really obvious and lundy has teased him exactly like this before XD; no fucking doubt about it that he has) because he basically gets it in an instant (unsurprising considering when they played a newly weds-esque game they ended up tying 8 a piece which is honestly really impressive considering how much luosty floundered with mikksy)
feat. the nosy finnish peanut gallery eagerly awaiting sashas response. SHIT STIRRERS. THE LOT OF YOU.
sasha who seems to take lundys teasing a lot better than mikksys can giggle about this one without too much trouble also because hes guessed it right for once he must feel relieved lmaooo
Hey gang, let's have a talk about the future of this account.
In truth, I no longer wish to associate myself with the history community, specifically the Great War subsection I've actively participated in for the last (three-ish?) years.
I'm going to be blunt and say that it is because of the people I've come across. This place is a minefield, and every second mine that blows up in your face starts a chain reaction worse than the last. Its terrible. Ive hated it. And my only mistake has been not openly stepping down a year ago like I originally wanted. There's been a LOT of unsavory characters that I have followed and supported unknowingly, and people that I've just encountered out in the wild that just made me sick to my stomach. Despite my better judgement, I've persisted, but I recognise the toll it has taken on my mental health is really not worth any of this.
To add insult to injury, actively being in the history community has made me scared of engaging with other communities in fear of being ousted for the stigma WW/Imperial Germany art can carry in general, and its become a problem the more I've grown tired and fallen out of love with this material.
I wish to branch out, I don't want to be associated with this community anymore because of the shit I've seen and how insensitive and out-of-touch a lot of the people seem to be about such serious subjects.
My relationship with Martyrs is definitely not what it used to be, same goes for the "source material". I wish I could tell you a few bad apples didnt spoil the basket, but they did. In truth, I've lost the love I held for it.
A mix of the rancid experiences I've had with the community this past year, combined with the fact publishing comics as a One Man Team is something I wouldn't wish upon anyone (burnout, impostor syndrome, having to deal with carpal tunnel for the rest of my life now partially because of it, off the top of my head).
I don't want to drop the comic nor the characters I've made, developed and invested myself in for the past two years of my life. I need time to heal my relationship with my art, Martyrs in its entirety, and just broaden my horizons with other fandoms instead of limiting myself to one thing. I will not abandon what I've worked so hard for, but I need time to pull myself back up.
I don't plan on stopping art of the characters entirely. But please be aware that if that was the only content you followed me for, you will have to deal with lots of other unrelated stuff from now on.
Getting myself lost in the absolute minefield this place is (the ww community) is not something I wish to do again. I dont want to be considered a member of it. I want to be an outsider occasionally dropping by. Only surface level stuff with art of my characters and comic, that's it.
I'm grateful for the connections and the wonderful close friends I've made. For all the lovely fan-works and words of love and endorsement I've received. But I need to take better care of myself, and there are very clear and specific steps I need to take to do so. I debated making this post in the first place and just phasing out ww art out slowly overtime, but doing so didnt feel right.
If you wish to unfollow me after this, please go ahead. You're not obligated to stay, nor am I obligated to keep you here. Thank you for sharing this journey with me for the past two years.
I don't want to hijack this post, so I won't put this in their notes, but its so wild to see just a totally different take on Elizabeth's role in the tribunal. I had always assumed that she was there because she chose to be there. Surely there's no reason for Krenel to target her specifically. Even if she'd been caught outside, I feel like she could have slipped off. But Elizabeth doesn't. She's in front right next to Titus, already trying to talk the Krenel mercenaries down when Harry and Kim show up. She doesn't even have a weapon but she doesn't back down through that whole stand-off.
I don't believe the Claires would have wanted her anywhere near the line of fire. Not necessarily out of the goodness of their hearts: they paid for her education as a lawyer, which seems like too much of an investment, both in money and maybe more importantly, time, to throw away. To me, it seemed like Everat considered the Hardie boys to be the disposable ones.
Challenge: make a poll of your five fave characters of all time, then tag five people to do the same
Tagged by @sazandorable so I'm tagging uhhhhhh @delcat177 @oak-and-rowan @emrknght2 @slinkyinky and anyone else who wants to do it, just tag me, I want to vote on your blorbos.
the people who loved those animals having to grieve them on top of all the other grief they're going through
the animals who had a family and suddenly don't anymore and the families who had animals and lost them to the occupation
there's a lot of dehumanization weaponized towards palestinians so of course it's super important not to place animal welfare above human life right now but i do think about them too