oh my god this is why in Man in Glass Nureyev asked Juno to "call me what you used to" instead of saying his own name and relaxed when Juno could say it unprompted...
don’t think about how “jordie rietveld” is most likely not jordie’s real name. how jordie is most likely a nickname. something given to him by baby kaz, a little toddler that couldn’t say his name properly. “jor-dee”, shaking his little fist at his big brother, even then his protector and idol. so it stuck, and big brother became jordie. jordie, who kaz referred to so affectionately, with a nickname. jordie, who died at age thirteen and would be forever thirteen because no matter how old kaz got, how many folk he killed, he couldn’t bring himself to let go of it. hey, what are you doing? i said don’t think about it
Finally! My copy of FFXIV: Growing Light OST is here! (I don't know why the bonus sleeve didn't come with a protective plastic like the others did. I'll just put it in a ziplock bag, I guess.)
"I dont understand what anyone's thinking! I'm scared! It feels like Im surrounded by monsters! Why must I be alone?! Why do I have to live alone in the middle of a bunch of monsters?!"
"Dear losers, I know what this must seem like, but this is not a suicide note. You're ’re probably wondering why i did what i did. It's ’s because i knew i was too scared to go back. and if we weren’t together, if all of us alive weren’t united, i knew we’d all die. so i made the only logical move. i took myself off the board. did it work? well, if you’re reading this, you know the answer. i lived my whole life afraid. afraid of what would come next, afraid of what i might leave behind. don’t. be who you want to be. be proud. And if you find someone worth holding onto, never ever let them go. follow your own path, wherever that takes you. think of this letter as a promise, a promise i’m asking you to make. to me. to each other. an oath. See, the thing about being a loser is that you don’t have anything to lose. so be true. be brave. stand. believe. and don’t ever forget, we’re losers, and we always will be." - Stanley Uris
Last night we officially hit over 1000 followers!😱🤯💀
I honestly don't know how to thank you all enough! I truly never thought this would happen when I started this page and now it is surreal to be here. You've all given me the confidence to write and share things that I thought no one would be I interested in or were to weird to put online! THANK YOU!
I feel like I want to celebrate in some way so hopefully I can have something up soon. Let me know if there are any particular fics you would love to see an update on for this.
I truly love you all so much it makes me want to cry!🥺😭💛💛