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Underfell: File Name not Edgy Enough #21
Chapter 21: Fear
WARNING: I WANT NO RESPONSIBILITY OVER SPOILING THINGS FOR OTHERS. THAT BEING SAID, THIS IS HOW FILE NAME NOT FOUND WOULD FUNCTION IN THE AU OF UNDERFELL. BEFORE YOU READ THIS, UNLIKE THE NICE TIME OF UNDERTALE, THIS WORLD IS KILL OR BE KILLED. THIS STORY WILL BE GRAPHIC, GORY, USE SWEARS LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS, AND DEAL WITH SENSITIVE SUBJECT MATTERS. FOR EXAMPLE, THOSE OF YOU WHO HAVE READ THE FILE NAME RELOCATED SPOOF WILL KNOW HOW I PICTURE THIS VERSION OF LYNSIE COMING TO THE UNDERGROUND. IT IS NOT AN ACCIDENT. IT IS NOT BECAUSE OF SOMETHING DUMB. IT IS BECAUSE SHE CHOOSES TO END HER LIFE. SO TAKE THIS WITH A GRAIN OF SALT. I MADE IT BECAUSE I NEEDED TO LET SOME OF THIS EDGINESS OUT OF MYSELF. WHICH I GUESS MAKES UNDERFELL LYNSIE EVEN MORE TRUE TO WHO I REALLY AM. ANYWAY, ENJOY. ^_^
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It's nice being back home with Toriel. Minus a few things, it's easy to return to the old routine. Storytime around the fire. Diner table eating with her and Flowey. And just normal non-threatening chitchat that doesn't end with me being hit for some moronic reason. Hell, even sleep was easier to achieve once my head hit the good old pillow. Though for some reason, something didn't feel right. Like there was something left undone or missing that made going to sleep just a wee bit uncomfortable. I don't know. It could be just my weird soul shit acting up or nothing at all. Dumb body with its dumber problems. Yet when slumber came none of that mattered. All that matters is rest and peaceful dreams.
...
That is until a familiar door takes me away and I return to a place that I have been internally dreading. The Void is how it has always been. And the doctor that is its hostage seems to be in an interesting mood as if he's been waiting for me.
"โœ‹โ„๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œโ˜œโ˜  โœŒ ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜Ÿโœ‹โ˜นโ˜œ๐Ÿ“ช โ˜นโœ‹โ„โ„โ˜นโ˜œ โšโ˜ โ˜œ๐Ÿ“ฌ" (IT'S BEEN A WHILE, LITTLE ONE.)
I shrug.
"So it has. Time flies when things happen."
"โœ‹โ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Žโ˜œโ˜œ๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿ“ฌ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โ˜ŸโœŒโœžโ˜œ ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œโ˜œโ˜  โœˆ๐Ÿ•†โœ‹โ„โ˜œ โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œ ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ’งโœก โ˜นโœ‹โ„โ„โ˜นโ˜œ โ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹โ˜ โ˜๐Ÿ“ช โ˜ŸโœŒโœžโ˜œโ˜ ๐Ÿ•ฏโ„ โœกโš๐Ÿ•†โœ" (INDEED. YOU HAVE BEEN QUITE THE BUSY LITTLE THING, HAVEN'T YOU?)
"Well, you know. I couldn't just sit around forever. Heh...Be kinda boring for you to see if I did."
"โœ‹ ๐Ÿ•ˆโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜น๐Ÿ‘Žโ˜ ๐Ÿ•ฏโ„ ๐Ÿ’งโœŒโœก โ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ„ โ˜œโœ โœŒ๐Ÿ‘โ„โ˜นโœก๐Ÿ“ฌ" (I WOULDN'T SAY THAT EXACTLY.)
I tilt my head.
"Oh?"
Gaster chuckles lightly.
"โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โ˜ŸโœŒโœžโ˜œ ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ‘โ˜Ÿ โœŒ๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ’งโœ‹โ˜ โ˜ โœ‹โ˜ โ„โ˜œโ˜ผโœŒ๐Ÿ‘โ„โœ‹โšโ˜ ๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜Ÿโ˜œโ˜  โœ‹โ˜ โ„โšโœ โœ‹๐Ÿ‘โœŒโ„โ˜œ๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿ“ฌ โœ‹โ„๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿ’ง โ˜ผโ˜œโœŒโ˜นโ˜นโœก โœŒ ๐Ÿ’งโ˜ŸโœŒ๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โ˜ŸโœŒโœžโ˜œ โ˜ โš ๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ๐Ÿ’ฃโšโ˜ผโœก โšโ˜ž โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œ โ˜œโœžโ˜œโ˜ โ„๐Ÿ’ง โšโ˜ ๐Ÿ‘โ˜œ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† ๐Ÿ’งโš๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œโ˜ผ ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿฑ๐Ÿ“ฌ โ„โ˜Ÿโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜โ˜Ÿ โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œโ˜ผโ˜œ ๐Ÿ•ˆโœŒ๐Ÿ’ง โ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ„ โšโ˜ โ˜œ โ„โœ‹๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โ˜ผโ˜œ๐Ÿ‘โœŒโ˜นโ˜นโ˜œ๐Ÿ‘Ž ๐Ÿ’งโš๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œโ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹โ˜ โ˜ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โ„โ˜ผโœ‹โ˜œ๐Ÿ‘Ž โ„โš โ˜žโšโ˜ผโ˜โ˜œโ„๐Ÿ“ฌ ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ•†โ„ ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜œ ๐Ÿ‘โœŒโ˜  ๐Ÿ‘โ˜ŸโœŒโ˜น๐Ÿ˜ โ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ„ ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿฑ โ„โš โœ‹โ„ ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œโœ‹โ˜ โ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œ๐Ÿ‘โœŒ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ’งโ˜œ โœ‹โ„ โ˜ŸโœŒ๐Ÿฑ๐Ÿฑโ˜œโ˜ โ˜œ๐Ÿ‘Ž ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜Ÿโœ‹โ˜นโ˜œ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โœŒโ˜นโ˜ผโ˜œโœŒ๐Ÿ‘Žโœก ๐Ÿ’งโš๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œโ˜ผ ๐Ÿ’งโš โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œ โœŒโ˜น๐Ÿ‘โšโ˜Ÿโšโ˜นโœ‹๐Ÿ‘ โ˜œโ˜žโ˜žโ˜œ๐Ÿ‘โ„๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜œโ˜ผโ˜œโ˜ ๐Ÿ•ฏโ„ โœŒ๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ’ฃโœ‹โ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Ž โœŒโ˜นโ„โ˜œโ˜ผโœ‹โ˜ โ˜ โœŒ๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ•†โœŒโ˜น๐Ÿ“ฌ ๐Ÿ’งโ„โœ‹โ˜นโ˜น๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌโ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œ ๐Ÿ’งโ„โšโ˜ผโœ‹โ˜œ๐Ÿ’ง โœ‹ ๐Ÿ‘โš๐Ÿ•†โ˜น๐Ÿ‘Ž ๐Ÿ’งโ˜ŸโœŒโ˜ผโ˜œ๐Ÿ“ฌ ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ•†โ„ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† ๐Ÿ•ˆโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜น๐Ÿ‘Ž ๐Ÿ‘Žโš๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ‘Œโ„ โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œโœ‹โ˜ผ โœŒ๐Ÿ•†โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œโ˜ โ„โœ‹๐Ÿ‘โœ‹โ„โœก๐Ÿ“ฌ" (YOU HAVE SUCH AMUSING INTERACTIONS WHEN INTOXICATED. IT'S REALLY A SHAME YOU HAVE NO MEMORY OF THE EVENTS ONCE YOU SOBER UP. THOUGH THERE WAS THAT ONE TIME YOU RECALLED SOMETHING YOU TRIED TO FORGET. BUT WE CAN CHALK THAT UP TO IT BEING BECAUSE IT HAPPENED WHILE YOU ALREADY SOBER SO THE ALCOHOLIC EFFECTS WEREN'T AS MIND ALTERING AS USUAL. STILL...THE STORIES I COULD SHARE. BUT YOU WOULD DOUBT THEIR AUTHENTICITY.)
Well, he's got me curious, that's for sure.
"You have my interest, sir."
He waves dismissively.
"โ˜ โš๐Ÿ“ช โœ‹โ„๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿฑโ˜ผโš๐Ÿ‘ŒโœŒ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜นโœก ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œ๐Ÿ’งโ„ โ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ„ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† ๐Ÿ‘Žโšโ˜ ๐Ÿ•ฏโ„ ๐Ÿ˜โ˜ โš๐Ÿ•ˆ๐Ÿ“ฌ" (NO, IT'S PROBABLY BEST THAT YOU DON'T KNOW.)
"Oh, come on. You can't just bait me onto the hook then leave me gasping for breath as I dangle here. Tell me something. Even if it sounds crazy."
A mischievous curl twists his features.
"โœŒโ˜ผโ˜œ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ•†โ˜ผโ˜œ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ„๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜ŸโœŒโ„ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† ๐Ÿ•ˆโœŒโ˜ โ„โœ" (ARE YOU SURE YOU THAT'S WHAT YOU WANT?)
I shouldn't fall for such an obvious ploy. But if I didn't, I wouldn't be me and I'd miss out on weird stuff.
"Sir, you take me for someone that is easily befuddled? Nay! Go ahead. Tell me forth your secrets, all knowing and mighty keeper of the Void. Please deliver onto me the unknowns of this world regardless of my limited ability to accept or comprehend them."
He eyes me a moment. And for just a brief second, I would swear there's a hint of a blush to color this man. I guess my words were complimentary enough to get to him yet silly enough to not have it last.
"๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜œโ˜นโ˜น๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌโ˜ผโ˜œ๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œโ˜ผ โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œ โšโ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œโ˜ผ โ˜ โœ‹โ˜โ˜Ÿโ„ ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜Ÿโ˜œโ˜  โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โœŒโ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Ž ๐Ÿ’งโœŒโ˜ ๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜œโ˜ผโ˜œ ๐Ÿ‘Žโ˜ผโœ‹โ˜ ๐Ÿ˜โœ‹โ˜ โ˜โœ" (WELL...REMEMBER THE OTHER NIGHT WHEN YOU AND SANS WERE DRINKING?)
Oh boy. Which circle of hell will this lead me into?
"I remember. I mean...I remember some of it. Like the start of the drinking and me telling him about some of the crap that's been happening, like Mettaton calling me. But then it gets muddier than a brown pig lost in a mudslide."
Where am I pulling these weird analogies from? I watch way too many cartoons or not enough. Not sure really.
"โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œโ˜  โœกโš๐Ÿ•† ๐Ÿฑโ˜ผโš๐Ÿ‘ŒโœŒ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜นโœก โ˜ŸโœŒโœžโ˜œ โ˜ โš โ˜ผโ˜œ๐Ÿ‘โšโ˜นโ˜นโ˜œ๐Ÿ‘โ„โœ‹โšโ˜  โšโ˜ž ๐Ÿ‘โ˜œโ˜ผโ„โœŒโœ‹โ˜  โ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹โ˜ โ˜๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ฌ โœŒโ„ โšโ˜ โ˜œ ๐Ÿฑโšโœ‹โ˜ โ„๐Ÿ“ช โœ‹ โ˜ผโ˜œ๐Ÿ’ฃโœ‹โ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Ž โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ„ โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œ ๐Ÿ‘Œโšโ„โ˜Ÿ โšโ˜ž โœกโš๐Ÿ•† ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜œโ˜ผโ˜œ โ˜Ÿโœ‹โ˜โ˜Ÿโ˜นโœก โœ‹โ˜ โ˜œ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜ผโœ‹โœŒโ„โ˜œ๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿ“ช โœŒโ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Ž ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜œโ˜นโ˜น๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌโœ‹๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿ’ฃ โ˜ โšโ„ โ˜œโ˜ โ„โœ‹โ˜ผโ˜œโ˜นโœก ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ•†โ˜ผโ˜œ โœ‹โ˜ž โœ‹๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿ’ฃ โœŒ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜นโ˜œ โ„โš ๐Ÿฑ๐Ÿ•†โ„ ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜ŸโœŒโ„ โ˜ŸโœŒ๐Ÿฑ๐Ÿฑโ˜œโ˜ โ˜œ๐Ÿ‘Ž โœ‹โ˜ โ„โš ๐Ÿ•ˆโšโ˜ผ๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ฌ" (THEN YOU PROBABLY HAVE NO RECOLLECTION OF CERTAIN THINGS. AT ONE POINT, I REMIND YOU THAT THE BOTH OF YOU WERE HIGHLY INEBRIATED, AND WELL...UM...I'M NOT ENTIRELY SURE IF I'M ABLE TO PUT WHAT HAPPENED INTO WORDS.)
"Dude, don't hold out on me now."
He thinks for a moment. I take it whatever this secret is that it really is something that's out of his comfort zone. I mean, it does involve Sans and that's his brother, so I can understand the hesitation. This moment of hard thinking comes to an end shortly once he has an idea.
"๐Ÿฑโ˜œโ˜ผโ˜ŸโœŒ๐Ÿฑ๐Ÿ’ง โœ‹โ„ ๐Ÿ•ˆโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜น๐Ÿ‘Ž ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œ ๐Ÿ’งโœ‹๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿฑโ˜นโ˜œโ˜ผ โ„โš ๐Ÿ’งโ˜Ÿโš๐Ÿ•ˆ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โ˜ผโœŒโ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œโ˜ผ โ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ˜  โ„โ˜œโ˜นโ˜น๐Ÿ“ฌ" (PERHAPS IT WOULD BE SIMPLER TO SHOW YOU RATHER THAN TELL.)
I am puzzled by this as he brings his left hand up to my face. Suddenly, the hole in his palm swirls with magic before clearing and images appear inside. The scene of me and Sans in his room. We're on his bed and he's laying on top of me, but not in a pervy way, as I trail his spine with my fingers. Suddenly I freeze up and he rolls off of me, laughing as he teleports then returns with a mustard bottle.
"now this is funny. you're so messed up you actually crashed. i haven't seen someone crashed in ages."
He plops down sleepily beside me, already guzzling the bottle.
"i guess this means i win our little game. because this is the last one and i ain't getting any more."
[Rebooting...100% complete.]
[Restarting...now.]
I blink rapidly as life returns to my brain.
"Whoa...Dude...That was trippy as hell."
He snickers.
"just be glad it happened here and not out in town. crashing in public around the wrong people has lead to a lot of easy kills. or so i've been told."
"Wait, so that's a normal thing that happens down here?"
"kind of. like i said, it's been a while since i've seen it happen."
"Then what causes it?"
"no one knows. my guess is that it happens when something clashes with what the person is used to."
He's about to finish off that last bottle when I put my hand out.
"what?"
"Can I have some?"
"no way. this is mine."
"I just want one sip."
"i said no."
"Please? I'll take the remains. I just want something to wet my whistle."
He snorts.
"what are ya? some old-timer in a saloon?"
"What do I need to do to get a sip?"
He pauses for thought.
"well...nah. you'd never do that."
"What?"
He looks at me, then the bottle, and then back to me with a smirk slowly forming.
"how bad do you want some of this?"
I look at him funny.
"don't give me that look. i ain't no perv. i only mean to offer you a dare."
"...I'm listening."
That smirk of his grows.
"i'll let ya have the rest of the bottle, if...you can keep from laughing at one last little joke."
"...That's it?"
"that's it."
"Okay...What's the joke?"
"heh...what do you call a skeleton with benefits?"
I tilt my head and shrug.
"I dunno."
He motions me to lean in closer and doing so lets him whisper in my ear rather huskily.
"a bone buddy~."
I almost giggle but don't. Probably because of the weird 'what the fuck' feeling his tone gave me or the suggestive wink he gives me when he pulls away. Just when I'm about to say something, he starts to snicker and slaps his knee.
"heheheh...oh man...you should see your face right now. oooooh, that was so worth it. here. it's yours."
He hands me the bottle. I just look at him and then the bottle before looking back at him.
"what?"
"Gonna be honest here...I...I can't tell if you were really joking."
He grins like a saucy Cheshire cat.
"maybe i did. or maybe i didn't. the world may never know, kitten. now are ya gonna drink or not?"
This is a weird moment. Yet a rare one. And I look unsure of anything else other than drink.
"Don't make this weird, Sans."
I take the bottle and drink.
"weird? this ain't weird. wanna see something really weird?"
"...You have my attention, good sir."
I eye him funny as sits up and turns his back to me. With no warning he yanks his shorts down, underwear included, and I get a full moon view of his pelvis. This has me dropping the bottle is sheer shock before snickering.
"Oh my god...Is that your coccyx? It's like a little tail! *giggles* That's fucking adorable."
"heh...that ain't even the best part. check this out."
He actually is able to wiggle it and I lose my mind, gripping my sides in laughter.
"Stop...*laughs* That's too...that's too fucking cute!"
He pulls his shorts back up and turns to me with a playful smirk.
"don't lie. ya liked looking at my cute ass."
I settle down enough to breathe properly.
"Dude, you are a cute ass."
He moves closer and removes his shirt.
"how about now? am i still a cute ass?"
I merely smile.
"Now? Now you're just eye candy, sugar bones."
"yeah? ya like what you see, kitten?"
I'm amused by this, as noted by my smirk and coyish way of retrieving the mustard bottle to finish it off completely.
"I can't say that I don't. That's some fine bone structure you got there. Mmmhmm."
He moves in closer as I chuck the empty bottle among the scattered dozen on the floor.
"ya know...you can touch me if you want."
"Yeah?"
"yeah. and who knows..."
He puts a hand on my arm and starts to rub it in a slow yet tender way before having it move up my shoulder then neck to finally rest its caress upon my cheek.
"maybe something more...fun...will happen."
I smirk.
"That's a rather naughty suggestion, bone boy."
"maybe i'm just in a naughty mood."
I nuzzle his hand.
"And here I thought you didn't like me."
He presses his forehead to my own. His eyes hold a hazy look to them.
"i might like you more if you use those soft hands of yours to bone up on more of my anatomy. starting right..."
He takes my free hand and puts it on his manubrium.
"here~."
"Hmmm...Gimme a sec, things are fuzzy, but I'll try."
My thumb grazes the bone above.
"This is the clavicle...The crown that mounts these lovely ten ribs and their two floaty ones."
My fingers scroll down the full length of the center of his chest.
"Under the manubrium is the angle, then the body, and ends in the xiphoid process. And that makes up this beautiful bundle we call the sternum."
I kiss his manubrium and he shudders.
"*groan* fuck..."
I glace at him funny.
"Sans?"
It happens so fast. His mouth is on mine...and I'm not pulling away. After a few seconds, he pauses the kiss. His hazy eyes stare into my befuddled orbs. Not getting any reaction, negative wise at least, he leans in and starts the kiss again. It seems fairly tame at first, his hands slowly feel up my neck and cup my cheeks. But then it gets more heated, he grabs a fistful of hair in the back of my head and growls lowly. I break the kiss in a whimper.
"what's wrong?"
"*wince* Too tight."
Surprisingly, he eases his grip.
"don't be afraid to tell me if i get too rough."
He presses his skull to my forehead.
"you okay with this? what i'm doin' and all?"
I shrug.
"I guess."
"good...good...*sigh* i don't wanna hurt ya. i want ya to like it."
His hand in my hair begins kneading my scalp, making me purr and him smile.
"i want ya to feel good. like...like how ya make me feel."
I grin like a doofus.
"I make you feel good? Awww...You flatterer."
He smirks.
"ya know how you wanted me to feel better? well...i need your help doin' that."
"You do?"
"yeah."
"But what about..."
"shhhhh..."
He nuzzles his way to my ear.
"trust me, we're gonna have a great time~. ya do trust me...don'tcha, lynsie?"
I shiver in his hold as he leaves little kisses along my jaw.
"I do."
He doesn't waste time after that, pushing me over and pinning me beneath him, captured by his relentless affection. Hungry kisses, gripping fingers that claw, and all done without a single care.
"mmmmmm...purr for me, kitten~...i wanna hear how much you're lovin' it~."
"*moan* Sans~..."
The sounds, raw yet sweet. It's so strange. He's more active in this moment than anyone sees him move in a week. Between the lavished kissing, his hands exploring thin skin to feel bone, and his legs trying comfortably keep me pinned, he's putting way more effort than me. For what little I do, my hands timidly try to find a place to hold him but linger only for fleeting moments since the contact made has him groaning. Though as more time passes, some sounds get louder than others and movement grinds to a halt. A more normal sound is heard admixed his pleasure. Snoring. Sans hears it too and stops his fooling around. It appears as though I passed out. Either from the alcohol or overwhelming heat of the moment, who knows. His figurative toy's batteries now in recharge mode, he calls it quits on anymore fun.
"heh heh...not bad, lightweight. lasted longer than i thought. was hoping for more but..."
Not about to pass up a new bed accessory, Sans makes himself cozy on my chest and nuzzle my boobs.
"this works too. *coo* ya really do make a good pillow~."
His sockets close and he yawns into a sigh, time for his own sleep.
Gaster pulls his hand away and I am blushing the same level of red as his sweater's collar.
"And that...That legit happened? For really real? This isn't some fucked up mind manipulative magic to make me see shit...right?"
He sighs.
"โœ‹ ๐Ÿ‘Žโœ‹๐Ÿ‘Ž ๐Ÿ•ˆโœŒโ˜ผโ˜  โœกโš๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ“ฌ ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ•†โ„ ๐Ÿ‘Žโš โ˜ผโ˜œ๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œโ˜ผ โ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ„ ๐Ÿ‘Œโšโ„โ˜Ÿ โšโ˜ž โœกโš๐Ÿ•† ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜œโ˜ผโ˜œโ˜ ๐Ÿ•ฏโ„ โœ‹โ˜  โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œ ๐Ÿ’งโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Žโ˜œ๐Ÿ’งโ„ โšโ˜ž ๐Ÿ’ฃโœ‹โ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿ’งโ˜œโ„๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ฌ" (I DID WARN YOU. BUT DO REMEMBER THAT BOTH OF YOU WEREN'T IN THE SOUNDEST OF MINDSETS.)
Things start to click in my head...and not in a good way. Why? Why didn't I fight that? What about Grillby? Where was he in my mind during all this?! The fuck is wrong with me?! And Sans...Sans!
"That son of a bitch!"
My snap is so sudden that it actually makes Gaster jump slightly.
"He gets all up in my ass over even the smallest hint of Grillby and me being a thing, then does this bullshit? Fuck that! I am so giving him a piece of my mind!"
"๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œโ˜žโšโ˜ผโ˜œ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† ๐Ÿ‘Žโš๐Ÿ“ช โœ‹โ„ ๐Ÿ•ˆโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜น๐Ÿ‘Ž ๐Ÿฑโ˜ผโš๐Ÿ‘ŒโœŒ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜นโœก โ˜Ÿโ˜œโ˜น๐Ÿฑ โ„โš ๐Ÿ˜โ˜ โš๐Ÿ•ˆ โ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ„ โ˜Ÿโ˜œ ๐Ÿ‘Žโšโ˜œ๐Ÿ’งโ˜ ๐Ÿ•ฏโ„ โ˜ผโ˜œ๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œโ˜ผ โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œ โ˜œโœžโ˜œโ˜ โ„๐Ÿ’ง โšโ˜ž โ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ„ โ˜ โœ‹โ˜โ˜Ÿโ„ โ˜œโœ‹โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œโ˜ผ๐Ÿ“ฌ" (BEFORE YOU DO, IT WOULD PROBABLY HELP TO KNOW THAT HE DOESN'T REMEMBER THE EVENTS OF THAT NIGHT EITHER.)
I fume.
"Oh well, that's just great. That's fucking fantastic! So he gets to be normal and not have a damn clue, all while I get to walk around knowing he came on to me, but I can't say a god damn...thing...oh...oh shit!"
Slowly that starts to sink in and when it does, it's not pretty.
"โ˜Ÿ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ’ฃโœŒโ˜ โœ" (HUMAN?)
"Oh my god!"
"๐Ÿฑโ˜นโ˜œโœŒ๐Ÿ’งโ˜œ ๐Ÿ‘โœŒโ˜น๐Ÿ’ฃ ๐Ÿ‘Žโšโ˜ ๐Ÿ•ˆ๐Ÿ“ฌ" (PLEASE CALM DONW.)
"Calm down?! Your brother was doing stuff to me, and most likely, wanted to fuck me! I mean, that's fucked up considering a lot of our history has been him wanting me to leave him the hell alone. How does that even work?"
"๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜œโ˜นโ˜น๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ" (WELL...)
"No, I mean, for real, how would that even be possible between us? I saw his ass. Granted, it is very adorable, as drunk me put it. But he doesn't have...you know...stuff down there. Does he?"
"โ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ„๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿ’ง โ˜ โšโ„ โ˜Ÿโš๐Ÿ•ˆ ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ˜โ˜œโ˜นโ˜œโ„โšโ˜ ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ช โ„โš ๐Ÿฑ๐Ÿ•†โ„ โœ‹โ„ โœ‹โ˜  โœกโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜ผ ๐Ÿ•ˆโšโ˜ผ๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌโ˜ž๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ“ฌ" (THAT'S NOT HOW SKELETONS, TO PUT IT IN YOUR WORDS...FUCK.)
"It's not?"
"โ˜ โš๐Ÿ“ฌ" (NO.)
"Huh...So there's no chance of there being a dick there but made of bones? Because there are creatures with bones in their penises."
"โ˜žโšโ˜ผ โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œ โ˜นโšโœžโ˜œ โšโ˜ž โ˜โš๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿ“ช ๐Ÿ’งโ„โš๐Ÿฑ โ˜ผโœ‹โ˜โ˜Ÿโ„ โ˜ โš๐Ÿ•ˆ ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œโ˜žโšโ˜ผโ˜œ โœŒโ˜ โšโ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œโ˜ผ ๐Ÿ’งโœ‹๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ˜ ๐Ÿ•ˆโšโ˜ผ๐Ÿ‘Ž ๐Ÿ‘โš๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ๐Ÿ’ง โš๐Ÿ•†โ„ โšโ˜ž โœกโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜ผ ๐Ÿ’ฃโš๐Ÿ•†โ„โ˜Ÿโœ" (FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, STOP RIGHT NOW BEFORE ANOTHER SICK WORD COMES OUT OF YOUR MOUTH!)
I don't think I could've imagined a time in my life where I'd see Gaster as flustered as he is now. His skull is glowing as bright as a roman candle and his eyes, while giving me that "what the fuck is wrong with you" look, are wide with embarrassment. Needless to say, I'm surprised but I get why he's upset.
"Okay, calm down, doctor. I meant no disrespect. As we are ones with curious minds, do forgive me for thinking unorthodox thoughts when it comes to you and your siblings' anatomy. I know not how you function and my lack of understanding tends to let my imagination fill in the gaps. Please, accept my humblest of apologies."
I bow my head in forgiveness and that seems to settle him a little bit.
"โœ‹โ„๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌโœ‹โ„๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿ’ง โ˜žโœ‹โ˜ โ˜œ๐Ÿ“ฌ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† ๐Ÿ‘Žโšโ˜ ๐Ÿ•ฏโ„ ๐Ÿ˜โ˜ โš๐Ÿ•ˆ โœŒโ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Ž โœ‹ ๐Ÿ‘โœŒโ˜ ๐Ÿ•ฏโ„ โ˜œโœ ๐Ÿฑโ˜œ๐Ÿ‘โ„ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โ„โš ๐Ÿ˜โ˜ โš๐Ÿ•ˆ โ˜œโœžโ˜œโ˜ผโœกโ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹โ˜ โ˜๐Ÿ“ฌ โ˜บ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ’งโ„ ๐Ÿ‘Žโš โ„โ˜ผโœก โ„โš โ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹โ˜ ๐Ÿ˜ โ˜žโœ‹โ˜ผ๐Ÿ’งโ„ ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œโ˜žโšโ˜ผโ˜œ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿฑโ˜œโœŒ๐Ÿ˜ ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜Ÿโ˜œโ˜  โœ‹โ„ ๐Ÿ‘โš๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ๐Ÿ’ง โ„โš ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜บโ˜œ๐Ÿ‘โ„๐Ÿ’ง โ˜นโœ‹๐Ÿ˜โ˜œ โ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ฌ" (IT...IT'S FINE. YOU DON'T KNOW AND I CAN'T EXPECT YOU TO KNOW EVERYTHING. JUST DO TRY TO THINK FIRST BEFORE YOU SPEAK WHEN IT COMES TO SUBJECTS LIKE THIS.)
"Yes, sir."
He moves as if he aims to take a seat, but there is nothing here aside from us. Yet to further ruin my understanding of how things work, he's sitting as if he's on a chair. So many things in my brain break from this and I hate it.
"โ˜บ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ‘Žโ˜โœ‹โ˜ โ˜ โ˜žโ˜ผโš๐Ÿ’ฃ โœŒโ˜นโ˜น โ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ช โœ‹ ๐Ÿ’งโ˜œโ˜œ โ„โšโ˜ผโœ‹โ˜œโ˜น โ˜ŸโœŒ๐Ÿ’ง โ˜นโ˜œโ˜žโ„ โš๐Ÿ•†โ„ โ˜œโœžโ˜œโ˜  ๐Ÿ’ฃโšโ˜ผโ˜œ โœ‹โ˜ โ˜žโšโ˜ผ๐Ÿ’ฃโœŒโ„โœ‹โšโ˜  โ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ„ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† ๐Ÿ’ฃโœŒโœก โšโ˜ผ ๐Ÿ’ฃโœŒโœก โ˜ โšโ„ โ˜ โ˜œโ˜œ๐Ÿ‘Ž โ„โš ๐Ÿ˜โ˜ โš๐Ÿ•ˆ ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ•†โ„ ๐Ÿ’งโ˜Ÿโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜น๐Ÿ‘Ž ๐Ÿ’งโ„โœ‹โ˜นโ˜น ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œ โœŒ๐Ÿ•ˆโœŒโ˜ผโ˜œ โšโ˜ž๐Ÿ“ฌ" (JUDGING FROM ALL THIS, I SEE TORIEL HAS LEFT OUT EVEN MORE INFORMATION THAT YOU MAY OR MAY NOT NEED TO KNOW BUT SHOULD STILL BE AWARE OF.)
"Yeah, she tends to do that."
I plop down on the floor. No way I have the power to sit in nonresistant chairs.
"โœžโ˜œโ˜ผโœก ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜œโ˜นโ˜น๐Ÿ“ฌ โœ‹ ๐Ÿ’งโ˜ŸโœŒโ˜นโ˜น โ„โ˜œโ˜นโ˜น โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โšโ˜ž โ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ’งโšโ˜นโ˜œโ˜นโœก ๐Ÿ’งโš โ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ„ ๐Ÿ‘โœŒโ˜  โœŒโœžโšโœ‹๐Ÿ‘Ž โ˜œโ˜ ๐Ÿ‘โš๐Ÿ•†โ˜ โ„โ˜œโ˜ผโœ‹โ˜ โ˜ ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ‘โ˜Ÿ ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œโ˜ŸโœŒโœžโœ‹โšโ˜ผ โœ‹โ˜  โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œ โ˜ž๐Ÿ•†โ„๐Ÿ•†โ˜ผโ˜œ๐Ÿ“ฌ โ˜นโ˜œ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ’ง โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โœŒโ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Ž ๐Ÿ’งโœŒโ˜ ๐Ÿ’ง โ˜โ˜œโ„ โœ‹โ˜ โ„โš โœŒโ˜ โšโ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œโ˜ผ โ˜ผโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Ž โšโ˜ž ๐Ÿ‘Žโ˜ผโš๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜ โœ‹โ˜ โ˜ โœกโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜ผ๐Ÿ’งโ˜œโ˜นโœžโ˜œ๐Ÿ’ง โœ‹โ˜  ๐Ÿ‘โšโ˜ โ„โœŒ๐Ÿ’ฃโœ‹โ˜ โœŒโ„โ˜œ๐Ÿ‘Ž ๐Ÿ‘โšโ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Žโœ‹๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œโ˜ โ„๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ฌ" (VERY WELL. I SHALL TELL YOU OF THIS SOLELY SO THAT CAN AVOID ENCOUNTERING SUCH BEHAVIOR IN THE FUTURE. LESS YOU AND SANS GET INTO ANOTHER ROUND OF DROWNING YOURSELVES IN CONTAMINATED CONDIMENTS.)
"Which surely won't happen again for any discernible reason whatsoever."
He sighs to himself, probably regretting this whole conversation more than he thought he would.
"โœŒโ˜ โœก๐Ÿ•ˆโœŒโœก๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜Ÿโ˜œโ˜  โœ‹โ„ ๐Ÿ‘โš๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ๐Ÿ’ง โ„โš โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œ ๐Ÿฑโ˜Ÿโœก๐Ÿ’งโœ‹๐Ÿ‘โœŒโ˜น โ˜ โœŒโ„๐Ÿ•†โ˜ผโ˜œ โšโ˜ž ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ’ฃโšโ˜ ๐Ÿ’งโ„โ˜œโ˜ผ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ช โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œโ˜ผโ˜œ โœŒโ˜ผโ˜œ โ„๐Ÿ•ˆโš โ˜โ˜ผโš๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿฑ๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ’ฃโšโ˜ ๐Ÿ’งโ„โ˜œโ˜ผ โ˜žโœŒโ˜นโ˜น๐Ÿ’ง โœ‹โ˜ โ„โš๐Ÿ“ฌ โ„โ˜ผโœŒ๐Ÿ‘Žโœ‹โ„โœ‹โšโ˜ โœŒโ˜น โœŒโ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Ž โ˜ โšโ˜ โ„โ˜ผโœŒ๐Ÿ‘Žโœ‹โ„โœ‹โšโ˜ โœŒโ˜น โ˜žโšโ˜ผ๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ฌ โ„โ˜ผโœŒ๐Ÿ‘Žโœ‹โ„โœ‹โšโ˜ โœŒโ˜น โ˜žโšโ˜ผ๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ๐Ÿ‘Ž ๐Ÿ’ฃโšโ˜ ๐Ÿ’งโ„โ˜œโ˜ผ๐Ÿ’ง โ˜ŸโœŒโœžโ˜œ ๐Ÿ‘Œโš๐Ÿ‘Žโœ‹โ˜นโœก โœŒโ˜ โœŒโ„โš๐Ÿ’ฃโœก ๐Ÿ’งโœ‹๐Ÿ’ฃโœ‹โ˜นโœŒโ˜ผ โ„โš ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜ŸโœŒโ„ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† ๐Ÿ’ฃโœ‹โ˜โ˜Ÿโ„ ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œ ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ’งโ˜œ๐Ÿ‘Ž โ„โš โšโ˜  โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œ ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ•†โ˜ผโ˜žโœŒ๐Ÿ‘โ˜œ๐Ÿ“ฌ โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œโœก โ˜ŸโœŒโœžโ˜œ ๐Ÿ‘โš๐Ÿฑ๐Ÿ•†โ˜นโœŒโ„โœ‹โœžโ˜œ โ˜ผโ˜œโ˜นโœŒโ„โœ‹โšโ˜ ๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ•ˆโœ‹โ„โ˜Ÿ โšโ˜ผโ˜โœŒโ˜ โœ‹๐Ÿ‘ ๐ŸฑโœŒโ˜ผโ„๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ฌ" (ANYWAY...WHEN IT COMES TO THE PHYSICAL NATURE OF US MONSTERS, THERE ARE TWO GROUPS MONSTER FALLS INTO. TRADITIONAL AND NONTRADITIONAL FORMS. TRADITIONAL FORMED MONSTERS HAVE BODILY ANATOMY SIMILAR TO WHAT YOU MIGHT BE USED TO ON THE SURFACE. THEY HAVE COPULATIVE RELATIONS WITH ORGANIC PARTS.)
"Makes sense so far."
"โ˜ โšโ˜ โ„โ˜ผโœŒ๐Ÿ‘Žโœ‹โ„โœ‹โšโ˜ โœŒโ˜น โ˜žโšโ˜ผ๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ๐Ÿ‘Ž ๐Ÿ’ฃโšโ˜ ๐Ÿ’งโ„โ˜œโ˜ผ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ช ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ‘โ˜Ÿ โœŒ๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ’ฃโœก ๐Ÿ˜โœ‹โ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Ž โœŒโ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Ž โšโ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œโ˜ผ๐Ÿ’ง โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โ˜ŸโœŒโœžโ˜œ ๐Ÿ’งโ˜œโ˜œโ˜ ๐Ÿ“ช โš๐Ÿ•†โ˜ผ ๐Ÿ‘Œโš๐Ÿ‘Žโœ‹โ˜œ๐Ÿ’ง โ„โ˜œโ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Ž โ„โš โ˜นโœŒ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ˜ โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œ ๐Ÿฑโ˜Ÿโœก๐Ÿ’งโœ‹โšโ˜นโšโ˜โœก โ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ„ โ„โ˜ผโœŒ๐Ÿ‘Žโœ‹โ„โœ‹โšโ˜ โœŒโ˜น โ˜žโšโ˜ผ๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ๐Ÿ‘Ž ๐Ÿ’ฃโšโ˜ ๐Ÿ’งโ„โ˜œโ˜ผ๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿฑโš๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ’งโ˜œ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ฌ โ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ’ฃโœŒ๐Ÿ˜โ˜œ๐Ÿ’ง โ˜ผโ˜œโ˜นโœŒโ„โœ‹โšโ˜ ๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ‘โ˜Ÿ โœŒ๐Ÿ’ง โœกโš๐Ÿ•† ๐Ÿ˜โ˜ โš๐Ÿ•ˆ โšโ˜ž ๐Ÿ’ฃโš๐Ÿ’งโ„โ˜นโœก โœ‹๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿฑโš๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ’งโœ‹๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜นโ˜œ๐Ÿ“ช ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ•†โ„ โ˜ โšโ„ โœ‹๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿฑโ˜ผโš๐Ÿ‘ŒโœŒ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜นโ˜œ๐Ÿ“ฌ โ„โ˜Ÿ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ช โš๐Ÿ•†โ˜ผ โ„โœก๐Ÿฑโ˜œ โ˜ŸโœŒ๐Ÿ’ง โ˜œโœžโšโ˜นโœžโ˜œ๐Ÿ‘Ž โ„โš โ˜ผโ˜œ๐Ÿฑโ˜ผโš๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ‘โ˜œ โœ‹โ˜  โœŒ ๐Ÿ‘Žโœ‹โ˜žโ˜žโ˜œโ˜ผโ˜œโ˜ โ„ ๐Ÿ’ฃโœŒโ˜ โ˜ โ˜œโ˜ผ๐Ÿ“ฌ" (NONTRADITIONAL FORMED MONSTERS, SUCH AS MY KIND AND OTHERS YOU HAVE SEEN, OUR BODIES TEND TO LACK THE PHYSIOLOGY THAT TRADITIONAL FORMED MONSTERS POSSESS. THIS MAKES RELATIONS SUCH AS YOU KNOW OF MOSTLY IMPOSSIBLE, BUT NOT IMPROBABLE. THUS, OUR TYPE HAS EVOLVED TO REPRODUCE IN A DIFFERENT MANNER.)
He frames his hands over his chest and a faint outline of an upside down heart appears, yet something isn't quite right about it...It's hollow.
"๐Ÿ’งโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜น๐Ÿ’ง โœŒโ˜ผโ˜œ โœŒ ๐Ÿ’ฃโœŒโ˜ผโœžโ˜œโ˜นโš๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ’ง โ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹โ˜ โ˜๐Ÿ“ฌ โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œ ๐Ÿ‘โšโ˜ผโ˜œ โšโ˜ž โœŒโ˜นโ˜น โ˜นโœ‹โ˜žโ˜œ๐Ÿ“ฌ โœŒโ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Ž โœŒ๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ‘โ˜Ÿ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌโ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œโœก โœŒโ˜ผโ˜œ ๐Ÿ‘โœŒ๐ŸฑโœŒ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜นโ˜œ โšโ˜ž โ˜โ˜ผโœŒโ˜ โ„โœ‹โ˜ โ˜ โ˜ โ˜œ๐Ÿ•ˆ โ˜นโœ‹โ˜žโ˜œ โœŒ๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜œโ˜นโ˜น๐Ÿ“ฌ" (SOULS ARE A MARVELOUS THING. THE CORE OF ALL LIFE. AND AS SUCH...THEY ARE CAPABLE OF GRANTING NEW LIFE AS WELL.)
The gears grind in my head.
"Wait. So what you're telling me is, and excuse my bluntness...You have sex with your souls?"
"โœ‹โ˜  โ˜นโœŒโœก๐Ÿ’ฃโœŒโ˜ ๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿ’ง โ„โ˜œโ˜ผ๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌโœกโ˜œ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ฌ" (IN LAYMAN'S TERMS...YES.)
I scratch my head in puzzlement as he allows his strange soul to return to him.
"...I have so many questions now."
"๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ‘โ˜Ÿ โœŒ๐Ÿ’งโœ" (SUCH AS?)
My mind blanks, I didn't really expect him to be willing to answer.
"Um...uh...This soul thing...Is it just limited to your type or are the other monsters able to do it?"
"โœ‹โ„ ๐Ÿ•ˆโšโ˜ผ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ’ง โ˜žโšโ˜ผ โ˜œโœžโ˜œโ˜ผโœก ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œโœ‹โ˜ โ˜ ๐Ÿ•ˆโœ‹โ„โ˜Ÿ โœŒ ๐Ÿ’งโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜น๐Ÿ“ฌ โ˜œโœžโ˜œโ˜  โ˜Ÿ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ’ฃโœŒโ˜ ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ฌ ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ•†โ„ ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ‘โ˜Ÿ โœŒโ˜  โœŒ๐Ÿ‘โ„ โ˜ŸโœŒ๐Ÿ’ง โ˜ โšโ„ ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œโ˜œโ˜  ๐Ÿ‘Žโš๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œโ˜ โ„โ˜œ๐Ÿ‘Ž โœŒ๐Ÿ’ง โ˜žโœŒโ˜ผ โœŒ๐Ÿ’ง โœ‹ ๐Ÿ˜โ˜ โš๐Ÿ•ˆ๐Ÿ“ฌ โœŒโ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Ž โœŒ๐Ÿ’ง โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โ˜ŸโœŒโœžโ˜œ ๐Ÿ’งโ˜ŸโœŒโ˜ผโ˜œ๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿ“ช โ˜Ÿ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ’ฃโœŒโ˜ ๐Ÿ’ง โ˜นโœŒ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ˜ ๐Ÿ’ฃโœŒโ˜โœ‹๐Ÿ‘ โœŒโ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Ž โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œ ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ’งโ˜œ โšโ˜ž โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œโœ‹โ˜ผ ๐Ÿ’งโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜น๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ฌ ๐Ÿ’งโš โ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹๐Ÿ’ง โ˜žโšโ˜ผ๐Ÿ’ฃ โšโ˜ž โœ‹โ˜ โ„โœ‹๐Ÿ’ฃโœŒ๐Ÿ‘โœก โœ‹๐Ÿ’ง โ˜นโš๐Ÿ’งโ„ โ„โš โœกโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜ผ ๐Ÿ˜โœ‹โ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿ“ฌ" (IT WORKS FOR EVERY BEING WITH A SOUL. EVEN HUMANS. BUT SUCH AN ACT HAS NOT BEEN DOCUMENTED AS FAR AS I KNOW. AND AS YOU HAVE SHARED, HUMANS LACK MAGIC AND THE USE OF THEIR SOULS. SO THIS FORM OF INTIMACY IS LOST TO YOUR KIND.)
I rub my face and drag my hands down slowly.
"*annoyed groan* So this whole time...Not only am I carrying around a ticking time bomb that can make me kill people...Not only is it now going through some messed up hormone crap...Not only is it the most wanted thing in the entire Underground...But it's also a reproductive organ? What the actual fuck?!"
He smirks and rests his chin on his knuckles in amusement. This sitting trick he's doing is amazing.
"โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โ˜ โ˜œโœžโ˜œโ˜ผ ๐Ÿ‘โ˜œโœŒ๐Ÿ’งโ˜œ โ„โš ๐Ÿฑโ˜ผโšโœžโœ‹๐Ÿ‘Žโ˜œ ๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ ๐Ÿ•ˆโœ‹โ„โ˜Ÿ โ˜œโ˜ โ„โ˜œโ˜ผโ„โœŒโœ‹โ˜ ๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œโ˜ โ„๐Ÿ“ฌ โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œ ๐Ÿ•ˆโœŒโœก โœกโš๐Ÿ•† ๐Ÿ‘Žโœ‹๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿฑโ˜นโœŒโœก โœกโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜ผ โ˜œ๐Ÿ’ฃโšโ„โœ‹โšโ˜ ๐Ÿ’ง โœ‹๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿฑโ˜ผโœ‹๐Ÿ‘โ˜œโ˜นโ˜œ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ฌ" (YOU NEVER CEASE TO PROVIDE ME WITH ENTERTAINMENT. THE WAY YOU DISPLAY YOUR EMOTIONS IS PRICELESS.)
What? So...Was he just fucking with me this whole time? I glare weakly.
"Don't tease me with shit like this."
"โ˜Ÿโ˜œโ˜Ÿ โ˜Ÿโ˜œโ˜Ÿ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌโœ‹โ˜ž โšโ˜ โ˜นโœก โœ‹โ„ ๐Ÿ•ˆโœŒ๐Ÿ’ง โœŒ โ„โ˜œโœŒ๐Ÿ’งโ˜œ๐Ÿ“ฌ ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜ŸโœŒโ„ โœ‹๐Ÿ•ฏโœžโ˜œ โ„โšโ˜น๐Ÿ‘Ž โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โœ‹๐Ÿ’ง โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œ โ„โ˜ผ๐Ÿ•†โ„โ˜Ÿ๐Ÿ“ฌ ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜Ÿโ˜œโ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œโ˜ผ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† ๐Ÿ‘โ˜Ÿโšโš๐Ÿ’งโ˜œ โ„โš ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œโ˜นโœ‹โ˜œโœžโ˜œ โœ‹โ„ โšโ˜ผ โ˜ โšโ„ โœ‹๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿฑ โ„โš โœกโš๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ“ฌ" (HEH HEH...IF ONLY IT WAS A TEASE. WHAT I'VE TOLD YOU IS THE TRUTH. WHETHER YOU CHOOSE TO BELIEVE IT OR NOT IS UP TO YOU.)
I groan loudly and fall back, laying flat under the weight of weird information that is fucked up.
"What is my life anymore? Things were so much simpler when I was dead inside and I'd stay in my room for so long that everyone would forget I was even home. Souls were just metaphysical concepts of intangible thought and not actual things that can be seen or touched. *groan* Do you wanna know something funny?"
"๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ•†โ˜ผโ˜œ๐Ÿ“ฌ" (SURE.)
"Sometimes I still wonder if they've noticed I'm gone or not. I doubt it. But it would be funny for them to finally notice now. To finally remember that I was fucking there!"
My chest hurts and I feel old darkness creeping back from the depths of my being. Gaster's amusement dies there. His features going emotionless with familiarity.
"Mind if I do something weird? I've bummed myself out and need to feel better."
"๐Ÿ‘Žโš ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜ŸโœŒโ„ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โ˜ โ˜œโ˜œ๐Ÿ‘Ž โ„โš๐Ÿ“ฌ โœ‹โ„ ๐Ÿ•ˆโšโ˜ ๐Ÿ•ฏโ„ ๐Ÿ‘Œโšโ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œโ˜ผ ๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ๐Ÿ“ฌ" (DO WHAT YOU NEED TO. IT WON'T BOTHER ME.)
I shut my eyes and think for a moment. Soon my fingers begin to tap on the floor in the vague tune of Simon & Garfunkel's song "The Sound of Silence".
"โ™ชHello darkness, my old friend. I've come to talk with you again. Because a vision softly creeping. Left its seeds while I was sleeping. And the vision that was planted in my brain...Still remains. Within the sound of silence.โ™ซ"
I don't know what it is about music, but it helps me. In my darkest days, I'd lay in my lightless room and just listen to the radio till I fell asleep. Letting my mind wander and create all sorts of fantasies to escape to rather than sink in despair. And since my iPod isn't here, singing is the backup alternative.
"โ™ชIn restless dreams I walked alone. Narrow streets of cobblestone. 'Neath the halo of a street lamp. I turned my collar to the cold and damp. When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light...That split the night. And touched the sound of silence.โ™ซ"
Gaster stands up and I can hear him moving over to me.
"โ™ชAnd in the naked light I saw. Ten thousand people, maybe more. People talking without speaking. People hearing without listening. People writing songs that voices never share...No one dared. Disturb the sound of silence.โ™ซ"
He comes to stand over me now. I open my eyes and find my vision swimming. He just stares down at me with his hand behind his back. I simply continue my short song.
"โ™ช'Fools' said I, 'You do not know. Silence like a cancer grows. Hear my words that I might teach you. Take my arms that I might reach you'. But my words like silent raindrops fell...And echoed in the wells of silence.โ™ซ"
He nods softly and offers a hand to me. I eye him and sigh through my nose before taking his hand, letting him help me off the floor.
"โ™ชAnd the people bowed and prayed. To the neon god they made. And the sign flashed out its warning. In the words that it was forming. And the sign said, 'The words of the prophets are written on the subway walls...And tenement halls'. And whispered in the sounds of silence...โ™ซ"
"๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ‘โ˜Ÿ โœŒ ๐Ÿ’งโš๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œโ˜ผ ๐Ÿ’งโšโ˜ โ˜๐Ÿ“ฌ" (SUCH A SOMBER SONG.)
"And yet, it makes me feel better when I'm feeling blue."
"โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โœŒโ˜ผโ˜œ โœŒ โœˆ๐Ÿ•†โœ‹โ˜ผ๐Ÿ˜โœก โ˜โœ‹โ˜ผโ˜น๐Ÿ“ฌ ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ•†โ„ โœ‹โ„ ๐Ÿ’ฃโœŒ๐Ÿ˜โ˜œ๐Ÿ’ง โœกโš๐Ÿ•† ๐Ÿ•†โ˜ โœ‹โœˆ๐Ÿ•†โ˜œ๐Ÿ“ฌ โœ‹โ„๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌโ˜ผโ˜œโ˜žโ˜ผโ˜œ๐Ÿ’งโ˜Ÿโœ‹โ˜ โ˜๐Ÿ“ฌ" (YOU ARE A QUIRKY GIRL. BUT IT MAKES YOU UNIQUE. IT'S...REFRESHING.)
I smile shyly.
"Thanks."
I notice I'm still holding his hand and instinct tells me to let go...but I don't. It feels too good to have living contact after feeling bad. If it bothers him at all he doesn't say a word. We just stand there. This odd sense of tranquility slowly comes to me. It's...It's nice. Too bad my brain always ruins good things.
"Gaster..."
"โ˜Ÿ๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ’ฃโœโœ†" (HMMM?)
"Forgive me if this is too personal. But...Can I ask what happened to your soul?"
The feel in the room chills. His grip on my hand suddenly tightens. I regret speaking.
"Gaster?"
He doesn't say a word but his grip gets painfully harsh. The bones in my hand squeeze uncomfortably.
"Gaster, stop. You're hurting me."
He pauses, his grip loosening slightly. I try to take my hand back and this proves to be a terrible move. The moment he feels this movement I'm hurled across the room and pinned to the wall by dozens of hands. The wind is then knocked out of my lungs by the force of his real hand slamming into my chest and forcing my rainbow swirl of a soul out through his palm as I snarl meekly.
"โœกโš๐Ÿ•† ๐Ÿ•ˆโœŒโ˜ โ„ โ„โš ๐Ÿ˜โ˜ โš๐Ÿ•ˆ โœŒ๐Ÿ‘Œโš๐Ÿ•†โ„ ๐Ÿ’ฃโœก ๐Ÿ’งโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜นโœ โœ‹๐Ÿ’ง โ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ„ โœŒ โ„โ˜ผ๐Ÿ•†โ˜œ โœˆ๐Ÿ•†โ˜œ๐Ÿ’งโ„โœ‹โšโ˜  โ˜žโ˜ผโš๐Ÿ’ฃ โœกโš๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌโšโ˜ผ ๐Ÿ‘โ˜ŸโœŒโ˜ผโœŒโœ" (YOU WANT TO KNOW ABOUT MY SOUL? IS THAT A TRUE QUESTION FROM YOU...OR CHARA?)
"I told you, Chara doesn't know about this."
"โ˜Ÿโ˜œ โ˜ŸโœŒ๐Ÿ’งโ˜ ๐Ÿ•ฏโ„ ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œโ˜œโ˜  ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿฑโ˜œโœŒ๐Ÿ˜โœ‹โ˜ โ˜ ๐Ÿ•ˆโœ‹โ„โ˜Ÿ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โœŒ๐Ÿ’ง โšโ˜žโ„โ˜œโ˜  โœŒ๐Ÿ’ง โ˜Ÿโ˜œ ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ’งโ˜œ๐Ÿ‘Ž โ„โš๐Ÿ“ช โ˜ŸโœŒ๐Ÿ’ง โ˜Ÿโ˜œโœ ๐Ÿ‘Žโš โ˜ โšโ„ โ˜นโœ‹โ˜œ โ„โš ๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ๐Ÿ“ฌ" (HE HASN'T BEEN SPEAKING WITH YOU AS OFTEN AS HE USED TO, HAS HE? DO NOT LIE TO ME.)
Now that he mentions it...
"He...He has been quiet for a long time."
"๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ‘โ˜Ÿโ˜œ๐Ÿ’ฃโœ‹โ˜ โ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜ผโœŒโ„ โœ‹๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿฑ โ„โš ๐Ÿ’งโš๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œโ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹โ˜ โ˜๐Ÿ“ฌ โ˜ โšโ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹โ˜ โ˜ โ˜โšโš๐Ÿ‘Ž โ˜œโœžโ˜œโ˜ผ ๐Ÿ‘โœŒ๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ โ˜žโ˜ผโš๐Ÿ’ฃ ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜Ÿโ˜œโ˜  โ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ„ ๐Ÿ‘โ˜Ÿโœ‹โ˜น๐Ÿ‘Ž ๐Ÿ•ˆโœŒ๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ’งโœ‹โ˜นโ˜œโ˜ โ„๐Ÿ“ฌ" (SCHEMING BRAT IS UP TO SOMETHING. NOTHING GOOD EVER CAME FROM WHEN THAT CHILD WAS SILENT.)
This has me worried. I want to trust them both. But this does make a small shadow be cast on Chara for acting shady.
"โ˜œโœ‹โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œโ˜ผ ๐Ÿ•ˆโœŒโœก๐Ÿ“ช ๐Ÿ’ฃโœก ๐Ÿ’งโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜น โœ‹๐Ÿ’ง โšโ˜ž โ˜ โš ๐Ÿ‘โšโ˜ ๐Ÿ‘โ˜œโ˜ผโ˜  โšโ˜ž โœกโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜ผ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ฌ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† ๐Ÿ’งโ˜Ÿโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜น๐Ÿ‘Ž ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œ ๐Ÿ’ฃโšโ˜ผโ˜œ โœ‹โ˜ โ„โ˜œโ˜ผโ˜œ๐Ÿ’งโ„โ˜œ๐Ÿ‘Ž โœ‹โ˜  โœกโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜ผ โš๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜ ๐Ÿ“ฌ" (EITHER WAY, MY SOUL IS OF NO CONCERN OF YOURS. YOU SHOULD BE MORE INTERESTED IN YOUR OWN.)
His free hand cups my soul, his fingers flex into it and I wince. This adds a whole new feeling of weird now knowing what other thing my soul is.
"โ˜žโœŒ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ‘โœ‹โ˜ โœŒโ„โœ‹โ˜ โ˜๐Ÿ“ช โœ‹๐Ÿ’ง โœ‹โ„ โ˜ โšโ„๐Ÿ“ช โ˜นโœ‹โ„โ„โ˜นโ˜œ โšโ˜ โ˜œโœ โ˜Ÿโš๐Ÿ•ˆ ๐Ÿ’งโš๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œโ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹โ˜ โ˜ ๐Ÿ’งโš ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ’ฃโœŒโ˜นโ˜น โ˜ŸโœŒ๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ’งโš ๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ‘โ˜Ÿ ๐Ÿฑโš๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜œโ˜ผ๐Ÿ“ฌ โ˜Ÿ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ’ฃโœŒโ˜  ๐Ÿ’งโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜น๐Ÿ’ง โ˜ŸโœŒโœžโ˜œ โœŒโ˜น๐Ÿ•ˆโœŒโœก๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œโ˜œโ˜  ๐Ÿ’งโ„โ˜ผโšโ˜ โ˜๐Ÿ“ช ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ•†โ„ โœกโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜ผ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜œโ˜นโ˜น๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌโœ‹ โ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹โ˜ ๐Ÿ˜ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† ๐Ÿ˜โ˜ โš๐Ÿ•ˆ ๐Ÿ‘Œโœก โ˜ โš๐Ÿ•ˆ โ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ„ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โœŒโ˜ผโ˜œ โšโ˜  โ˜นโ˜œโœžโ˜œโ˜น๐Ÿ’ง โœ‹ โ˜ โ˜œโœžโ˜œโ˜ผ ๐Ÿ‘Žโ˜ผโ˜œโœŒ๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ๐Ÿ‘Ž โšโ˜ž โ˜žโœ‹โ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Žโœ‹โ˜ โ˜๐Ÿ“ฌ" (FASCINATING, IS IT NOT, LITTLE ONE? HOW SOMETHING SO SMALL HAS SO MUCH POWER. HUMAN SOULS HAVE ALWAYS BEEN STRONG, BUT YOURS...WELL...I THINK YOU KNOW BY NOW THAT YOU ARE ON LEVELS I NEVER DREAMED OF FINDING.)
His index finger suddenly plunges into my heart-shaped soul and the roar I let out is a garbled mess of distorted sound.
"โœŒโ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Ž โ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ„๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌโ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ„ ๐Ÿ’งโ„โ˜ผโœŒโ˜ โ˜โ˜œ ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œโ˜ŸโœŒโœžโœ‹โšโ˜ผ๐Ÿ“ฌ โœ‹ ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜œโœŒโ˜ผ โœ‹ ๐Ÿ•ˆโœ‹โ˜นโ˜น โ˜žโœ‹โ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Ž โš๐Ÿ•†โ„ โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œ ๐Ÿ‘โœŒ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ’งโ˜œ๐Ÿ“ฌ" (AND THAT...THAT STRANGE BEHAVIOR. I SWEAR I WILL FIND OUT THE CAUSE.)
"Aอ˜ล—อ gฬธhฬถ! อ˜อ TอŸaฬถอœkeฬถ ฬขา‰yอœoอur dฬทฬ•aฬกฬงอ mnฬขอŸ ฬทfiฬงอ nฬ•gฬ•ฬ•อeอŸrอŸ ฬทฬตอ˜รฒฬธแปฉอŸtอ˜อ อ !ฬ€อฬก"
I thrash in the grip of his conjured up appendages but it is a futile effort that hurts me more.
"โœŒโ˜Ÿ โœŒโ˜Ÿ โœŒโ˜Ÿ๐Ÿ“ฌ โ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ„๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿ’ง โ˜ โšโ„ ๐ŸฑโœŒโ˜ผโ„ โšโ˜ž โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œ ๐Ÿ‘Žโ˜œโœŒโ˜น๐Ÿ“ฌ โ˜ผโ˜œ๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œโ˜ผโœ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† ๐Ÿ•ˆโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜น๐Ÿ‘Ž โ˜โœ‹โœžโ˜œ ๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ โ˜ž๐Ÿ•†โ˜นโ˜น โœŒ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘โ˜œ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ’ง โ„โš โœกโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜ผ ๐Ÿ’งโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜น ๐Ÿ•ˆโœ‹โ„โ˜Ÿ โ˜ โš ๐Ÿ‘โš๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿฑโ˜นโœŒโœ‹โ˜ โ„๐Ÿ’ง โšโ˜ผ โ˜ผโ˜œ๐Ÿ’งโœ‹๐Ÿ’งโ„โœŒโ˜ ๐Ÿ‘โ˜œ ๐Ÿ’งโš โ˜นโšโ˜ โ˜ โœŒ๐Ÿ’ง โœ‹โ„ โ˜นโ˜œโœŒ๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿ’ง โ„โš โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œ ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œโ„โ„โ˜œโ˜ผ ๐Ÿ•†โ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Žโ˜œโ˜ผ๐Ÿ’งโ„โœŒโ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Žโœ‹โ˜ โ˜ โšโ˜ž โœกโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜ผ ๐Ÿ’งโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜น๐Ÿ“ฌ โœŒโ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Ž ๐Ÿ’งโœ‹โ˜ ๐Ÿ‘โ˜œ โš๐Ÿ•†โ˜ผ โ˜นโœŒ๐Ÿ’งโ„ โ˜œโœ ๐Ÿฑโ˜œโ˜ผโœ‹๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œโ˜ โ„๐Ÿ“ช โœ‹ โ˜ŸโœŒโœžโ˜œ โ˜นโ˜œโœŒโ˜ผโ˜ โ˜œ๐Ÿ‘Ž โœŒ โ˜ž๐Ÿ•†โ˜  โœกโ˜œโ„ โ˜Ÿโ˜œโ˜น๐Ÿฑโ˜ž๐Ÿ•†โ˜น โ„โ˜ผโœ‹๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ“ฌ" (AH AH AH. THAT'S NOT PART OF THE DEAL. REMEMBER? YOU WOULD GIVE ME FULL ACCESS TO YOUR SOUL WITH NO COMPLAINTS OR RESISTANCE SO LONG AS IT LEADS TO THE BETTER UNDERSTANDING OF YOUR SOUL. AND SINCE OUR LAST EXPERIMENT, I HAVE LEARNED A FUN YET HELPFUL TRICK.)
His invading digit moves deeper into the heart and the sounds of pain I garble out with are anything but human. Though his actions do seem to have the effect he was alluding to, as the clashing ten colors of my soul abruptly recede to leave only one randomly...it's orange.
"๐Ÿ•ˆโœ‹โ„โ˜Ÿ โ˜นโœ‹โ„โ„โ˜นโ˜œ ๐Ÿ’ฃโšโ˜ผโ˜œ โ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ˜  โœŒ ๐Ÿ’งโ˜นโœ‹โ˜โ˜Ÿโ„ โ„โš๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ‘โ˜Ÿ๐Ÿ“ช โœŒโ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Ž โœŒ โ˜Ÿโœ‹โ˜ โ„ โšโ˜ž ๐Ÿ’ฃโœก โš๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜  ๐Ÿ’ฃโœŒโ˜โœ‹๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ“ช โœกโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜ผ โ„โ˜ผโœŒโœ‹โ„๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ‘โœŒโ˜  ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œ โœŒ๐Ÿ‘โ„โœ‹โœžโœŒโ„โ˜œ๐Ÿ‘Ž โœŒ๐Ÿ’ง โ˜œโœŒ๐Ÿ’งโœ‹โ˜นโœก โœŒ๐Ÿ’ง โšโ˜ โ˜œ ๐Ÿ•ˆโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜น๐Ÿ‘Ž โ˜žโ˜นโœ‹๐Ÿฑ โœŒ โ˜นโœ‹โ˜โ˜Ÿโ„ ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ•ˆโœ‹โ„๐Ÿ‘โ˜Ÿ๐Ÿ“ฌ" (WITH LITTLE MORE THAN A SLIGHT TOUCH, AND A HINT OF MY OWN MAGIC, YOUR TRAITS CAN BE ACTIVATED AS EASILY AS ONE WOULD FLIP A LIGHT SWITCH.)
[You're filled with BRAVERY.]
"Gฬขetฬจ ฬ€แปณou'reฬ› fลณckiอœngอ˜ fรญngฬทeา‰rฬท oฬธรนt bอžefoา‰re ฬ•Iอœ ฬจbฬreaอžkฬด อ iฬ•tอŸ oอŸfอf aฬทnd อžcฬทramฬต itฬ› sฬ€omฬงฤ™whฬทรจreฬ› nอœotอ ฬงevenฬ› goอŸd daฬดresอข toอ ฬดsee!"
My teeth are bared and I'm snarling like a rabid dog. He merely chuckles.
"โ˜žโœŒ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ‘โœ‹โ˜ โœŒโ„โœ‹โ˜ โ˜๐Ÿ“ฌ โœ‹ ๐Ÿ•ˆโšโ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Žโ˜œโ˜ผ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ" (FASCINATING. I WONDER...)
His finger moves and the orange bleeds into another color...purple.
[You're filled with PERSEVERANCE.]
"Thอžiอ˜s dรญspอกlaฬขyฬ• ฬin pฬจoอwฬจฤ™r ฬจiอœsฬต quอŸiอžtอ˜e ฬธรบnnฬทeอกcesฬทsaล•yฬถ. Yรณu kอขnow อœร'ฬทmอ  nอoฬตtอ ฬiอœn อžanอกy posอiอœtฬกiฬทoอ˜n toฬง stฦกp yฬถoฬตu. ฬดSอœวซ iอfฬท อœyou cฬถaอ n sอtฬ•รณpฬ€ sฬ›trฦกkฬขinอกg อขyour eฬกgรณ ฬ•aอ˜nอœdฬ gอ˜et ฬtอขo อ˜the ฬตpฦกiอ˜ntฬ อœoฬตfฬ• ฬtฬตhis clฬถeฬกรงhรฉอ˜ sอกhow of ฬขyรฒurs,ฬท ฬตmอayฬจbฬขeฬ• ฬถwอ eฬก caฬกn ฬงaฤ‡tฬ€uอaอกllอŸy dฬธoฬข sอœomอขethinอ˜g ฬขลฃhaอœt vaอ guอely ฬขrอ esemอŸblอขeอs อproอ˜gอŸreฬทss."
That seems to get to him for a moment before his eyes narrow a bit.
"๐Ÿ’งโš ๐Ÿ’ฃโœก โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œโšโ˜ผโœก โœ‹๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ‘โšโ˜ผโ˜ผโ˜œ๐Ÿ‘โ„๐Ÿ“ฌ โ˜œโœŒ๐Ÿ‘โ˜Ÿ โ„โ˜ผโœŒโœ‹โ„ ๐Ÿ‘Žโšโ˜œ๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ‘โšโœ‹โ˜ ๐Ÿ‘โœ‹๐Ÿ‘Žโ˜œ ๐Ÿ•ˆโœ‹โ„โ˜Ÿ โœŒ ๐ŸฑโœŒโ˜ผโ„ โšโ˜ž โœกโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜ผ ๐Ÿฑโ˜œโ˜ผ๐Ÿ’งโšโ˜ โœŒโ˜นโœ‹โ„โœก๐Ÿ“ฌ โ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹๐Ÿ’ง โšโ˜ โ˜œ โœ‹๐Ÿ’ง โ˜ผโœŒโ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œโ˜ผ ๐Ÿฑโš๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿฑ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ’ง โœ‹โ˜  ๐Ÿ’ฃโœก โš๐Ÿฑโœ‹โ˜ โœ‹โšโ˜ ๐Ÿ“ฌ" (SO MY THEORY IS CORRECT. EACH TRAIT DOES COINCIDE WITH A PART OF YOUR PERSONALITY. THIS ONE IS RATHER POMPUS IN MY OPINION.)
"Iอ tฬ€ อ tฬตฤ…kes ฬดonอœฤ™ tฬจo อžknา‰ow ฬจonฬทศฉ.อ˜"
He glares and another rough internal flick has my soul change color once more...green.
[You're filled with KINDNESS.]
"I'mฬด า‰sฬขorrฬถy. I'ฬ•mอก ฬดbอขeiอกngฬก neอeฬ›dฬทlฬ€eฬ›sslอœyา‰ mฬขeaอžnอž. ฬตI kฬ›nowฬ› อœyoฬตuอœ'ฬ€reฬข juอŸst ฬถtrอyอŸing ลฃo ฬตhelฬ€pฬ›.อž Bอ˜uฬงt thฬทe paฬกiฬกnอŸ อmaอkฬ€es ฬงmeอก อœcrอaฬทnฬถkyอก. รoอœu'อขreฬธ not madอ ฬตat ฬกme,ฬต areฬด ฬถyอžoอŸu?"
A look comes to his face that I'm not quite sure of.
"๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌโ˜Ÿโš๐Ÿ•ˆ ๐Ÿ‘Žโš โœ‹ โ˜โ˜œโ„ โ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹๐Ÿ’ง โ„โš ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œ โœกโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜ผ ๐Ÿ‘Žโ˜œโ˜žโœŒ๐Ÿ•†โ˜นโ„ ๐Ÿ’งโ„โœŒโ„โ˜œโœ" (...HOW DO I GET THIS TO BE YOUR DEFAULT STATE?)
I stick my tongue out at him childishly.
"โœ‹ โœŒโ˜น๐Ÿ’ฃโš๐Ÿ’งโ„ ๐Ÿ‘Žโšโ˜ ๐Ÿ•ฏโ„ ๐Ÿ•ˆโœŒโ˜ โ„ โ„โš ๐Ÿ˜โ˜œโ˜œ๐Ÿฑ โ˜โšโœ‹โ˜ โ˜๐Ÿ“ฌ โ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹๐Ÿ’ง ๐ŸฑโœŒโ˜ผโ„ โšโ˜ž โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โœ‹๐Ÿ’ง โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œ ๐Ÿ‘โ˜นโš๐Ÿ’งโ˜œ๐Ÿ’งโ„ โ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹โ˜ โ˜ โ„โš โœŒ๐Ÿ‘Žโšโ˜ผโœŒ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜นโ˜œ โœ‹ โ˜ŸโœŒโœžโ˜œ ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œโ˜œโ˜  โœŒ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜นโ˜œ โ„โš ๐Ÿ•ˆโœ‹โ„โ˜ โ˜œ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ฌ" (I ALMOST DON'T WANT TO KEEP GOING. THIS PART OF YOU IS THE CLOSEST THING TO ADORABLE I HAVE BEEN ABLE TO WITNESS.)
However, he adds a second finger into my soul and for the first time in my life I scream.
"๐Ÿ’งโœŒ๐Ÿ‘Žโ˜นโœก๐Ÿ“ช โ„โš ๐Ÿ’งโ„โš๐Ÿฑ โ˜ โš๐Ÿ•ˆ ๐Ÿ•ˆโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜น๐Ÿ‘Žโ˜ ๐Ÿ•ฏโ„ โœŒโ˜นโ˜นโš๐Ÿ•ˆ ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ’ง โ„โš โ„โ˜œ๐Ÿ’งโ„ โš๐Ÿ•†โ„ โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œ ๐Ÿ’ฃโšโ˜ผโ˜œ ๐Ÿ‘โš๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿฑโ˜นโ˜œโœ  โ„โ˜ผโœŒโœ‹โ„๐Ÿ’ง โœกโš๐Ÿ•† ๐Ÿฑโš๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ’งโ˜œ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ฌ ๐Ÿ‘Œ๐Ÿ•†โ„ ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜Ÿโ˜œโ˜ผโ˜œ โ„โš ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œโ˜โœ‹โ˜ โœ โ˜Ÿ๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌโœ‹ ๐Ÿ‘Žโš ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿฑ๐Ÿฑโš๐Ÿ’งโ˜œ ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜œ ๐Ÿ’งโ˜Ÿโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜น๐Ÿ‘Ž ๐Ÿ’งโœŒโœžโ˜œ โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œ ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œ๐Ÿ’งโ„ โ˜žโšโ˜ผ โ˜นโœŒ๐Ÿ’งโ„๐Ÿ“ฌ โœŒโ˜žโ„โ˜œโ˜ผ โœŒโ˜นโ˜น๐Ÿ“ช โ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ„ โšโ˜ โ˜œ โ„โ˜œโ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿ’ง โ„โš ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œ โœžโ˜œโ˜ผโœก๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌโ„โ˜ผโš๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜นโ˜œ๐Ÿ’งโš๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ๐Ÿ“ฌ" (SADLY, TO STOP NOW WOULDN'T ALLOW US TO TEST OUT THE MORE COMPLEX TRAITS YOU POSSESS. BUT WHERE TO BEGIN? HMMM...I DO SUPPOSE WE SHOULD SAVE THE BEST FOR LAST. AFTER ALL, THAT ONE TENDS TO BE VERY...TROUBLESOME.)
He can't possibly be thinking of letting that THING out, is he? He can't really be that crazy. He can't! A twist of those intruding phalanges has every fiber of my being ignites in the fires of unpleasantness as my soul throbs into its next color...pink.
[You're filled with PASSION.]
"โ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ•ˆโœ‹โ˜นโ˜น ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œ โœ‹โ˜ โ„โ˜œโ˜ผโ˜œ๐Ÿ’งโ„โœ‹โ˜ โ˜๐Ÿ“ฌ ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜Ÿโ˜œโ˜ โ˜œโœžโ˜œโ˜ผ โ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹๐Ÿ’ง โ„โ˜ผโœŒโœ‹โ„ ๐Ÿ‘โš๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ๐Ÿ’ง โ„โš โœกโš๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ“ช โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โ„โ˜œโ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Ž โ„โš ๐Ÿ’งโ„โœ‹โ˜นโ˜น ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œโ˜ŸโœŒโœžโ˜œ โœŒ๐Ÿ’ง โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โ˜ โšโ˜ผ๐Ÿ’ฃโœŒโ˜นโ˜นโœก ๐Ÿ‘Žโš๐Ÿ“ฌ โ˜ โš๐Ÿ•ˆ โœ‹โ˜  โœ‹โ„๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿฑ๐Ÿ•†โ˜ผโ˜œ ๐Ÿ’งโ„โœŒโ„โ˜œ๐Ÿ“ช โœ‹ ๐Ÿ‘โœŒโ˜  โšโ˜ โ˜นโœก โœ‹๐Ÿ’ฃโœŒโ˜โœ‹โ˜ โ˜œ ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜ŸโœŒโ„ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† ๐Ÿ’ฃโœ‹โ˜โ˜Ÿโ„๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ" (THIS WILL BE INTERESTING. WHENEVER THIS TRAIT COMES TO YOU, YOU TEND TO STILL BEHAVE AS YOU NORMALLY DO. NOW IN IT'S PURE STATE, I CAN ONLY IMAGINE WHAT YOU MIGHT...)
"แบ€eฬธllฬจ hอ elloอ tา‰heอกreอ,ฬง docฬจtoอžr~."
Perplexion comes to Gaster. My voice holds a rather flirty inflection.
"Whฬขat'ฬทsอž wrฬ•onอกg, ฬธG? า‰Aอขreฬธnฬต'ฬดt ฬIอ sฬตtอ˜ill aฬตdฬทorรกble? ฬดOฬดr อžiฬธsอ  tอŸhฬดeฬ• sฬดin oอœfอœ fiอngeฬตrอขinฬทg อœaฬถ ladอขy'อs า‰soอuอŸlฬต า‰sinkฬ›iฬกnฬดgฬด iอn ฬ›noอw?ฬง ฬทMฬทmmmฬต..ฬจ.sฬ€ลณcฬถhฬด aอก ฬจnอ auอ˜ghฬดty อขboy yฬงou รกreอ ~อ˜.ฬถ"
His hand almost retreats in disgust but even this doesn't sway the man. Though the uncomfortable blush he has is worth the weird feeling this trait gives me.
"โœ‹ โ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹โ˜ ๐Ÿ˜ โ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹๐Ÿ’ง โ„โ˜ผโœŒโœ‹โ„ โ˜ŸโœŒ๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œโ˜œโ˜  ๐Ÿ’งโ˜œโ˜œโ˜  โ˜นโšโ˜ โ˜ โ˜œโ˜ โš๐Ÿ•†โ˜โ˜Ÿ๐Ÿ“ฌ" (I THINK THIS TRAIT HAS BEEN SEEN LONG ENOUGH.)
"Ohฬ› อmอœyฬด.อ ฬ€Isอœ ฬ›tแธฉeอž gา‰ooอ˜d แธ‘ocอtอ˜oอrอข dฤฏsอกtฬ›uา‰rอbed bอ˜รฝ lอžฤฏtฬทtleอ  ฦกฤผ' mฬตe?"
"โ˜ โš๐Ÿ“ฌ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โœŒโ˜ผโ˜œ โ˜žโœŒโ˜ผ โ˜žโ˜ผโš๐Ÿ’ฃ ๐Ÿ‘Žโœ‹๐Ÿ’งโ„๐Ÿ•†โ˜ผ๐Ÿ‘Œโœ‹โ˜ โ˜๐Ÿ“ฌ" (NO. YOU ARE FAR FROM DISTURBING.)
"ฤขiฬทve meอ ฬดsอ omฬทe ฬกtimฬ€e ฬทanฬกd thรจnา‰ ฬกyouอ อ cา‰aฬ•n seฬตeฬก jอusฬธtอž hฬ›oฬทw distฬ•uอ˜rอœbอiา‰ล†g IอŸ ฬทcฬจaอn ฬจbe~.ฬ"
I lick my lips hungrily and he flinches, making me snicker.
"Rฬตฤ™lฬทaฬธx, G.อ ฬIอž ฬธdอžon'อt bitฬดeฬก...อกunlา‰esลŸ yฬดou อขwอ รกnt mฬจeอ tอขoอ~?"
"โ˜ โš๐Ÿฑโ˜œ๐Ÿ“ฌ" (NOPE.)
His fingers shift and I convulse in the grip of his hands.
"โ˜ โš ๐Ÿ’ฃโšโ˜ผโ˜œ โšโ˜ž โ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹๐Ÿ’ง โ˜โœŒ๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ๐Ÿ“ฌ โœ‹โ„๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿ’ง โ„โœ‹๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ โ„โš ๐Ÿ’งโ„๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ‘Žโœก โ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹๐Ÿ’ง โ˜ผโ˜œโ˜นโ˜œโ˜ โ„โ˜นโ˜œ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ’ง โ„โ˜ผโœŒโœ‹โ„ โšโ˜ž โœกโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜ผ๐Ÿ’ง โœŒโ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Ž ๐Ÿ’งโ˜œโ˜œ โ˜บ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ’งโ„ โ˜Ÿโš๐Ÿ•ˆ ๐Ÿ‘Žโ˜œโœŒ๐Ÿ‘Žโ˜นโœก โœ‹โ„ โ˜ผโ˜œโœŒโ˜นโ˜นโœก โœ‹๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ฌ" (NO MORE OF THIS GAME. IT'S TIME TO STUDY THIS RELENTLESS TRAIT OF YOURS AND SEE JUST HOW DEADLY IT REALLY IS.)
No! He can't! Sure, I doubt that THING can hurt him and this room might be the safest place for that THING to be let free in. But this isn't the world where my body is. I don't know if unleashing the Black Soul in the Void makes it stay here and not affect my body in the waking world. I can't risk it. I can't!
[You're filled with DETERMINATION.]
"Sฬ€tา‰oฬถp!ฬ Yฬงoา‰uฬด อŸcฬจaล†'อกt ฬทdอoฬข tฬจhiอ˜sฬท!ฬท"
"โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โœŒโ˜ผโ˜œ โœ‹โ˜  โ˜ โš ๐Ÿฑโš๐Ÿ’งโœ‹โ„โœ‹โšโ˜  โ„โš ๐Ÿ‘Žโ˜œโ˜žโœก ๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ โšโ˜ผ ๐Ÿ‘Žโ˜œโ˜ โœก ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜ŸโœŒโ„ โœ‹ ๐Ÿ•ˆโœŒโ˜ โ„ โšโ˜ž โœกโš๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ“ฌ" (YOU ARE IN NO POSITION TO DEFY ME OR DENY WHAT I WANT OF YOU.)
"Yฬทouฬง ฬถdฬตon't อขknoฬถw า‰wอhฬaอขt yฬงouอ˜'า‰rฬ›รฉ dealฬ›inอขgอ  withฬ€.า‰"
"โ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ„ โœ‹๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿฑโ˜ผโ˜œ๐Ÿ‘โœ‹๐Ÿ’งโ˜œโ˜นโœก ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜Ÿโœก โœ‹๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿ’ฃ ๐Ÿ‘Žโšโœ‹โ˜ โ˜ โ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ฌ" (THAT IS PRECISELY WHY I'M DOING THIS.)
"Dฬaอœmn itฬ•, ฬGอžaอ˜sฬถtอer, ฬdon'tฬจ bฬขeอ soอ อœsฬขtuฬดpรญd!"
The sadly familiar sting of a hand colliding with my face is felt and with it my resolve wanes.
"โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โœ‹โ˜ ๐Ÿ’งโœ‹โ˜โ˜ โœ‹โ˜žโœ‹๐Ÿ‘โœŒโ˜ โ„ ๐Ÿ•ˆโšโ˜ผ๐Ÿ’ฃโœ ๐Ÿ‘Žโš โœกโš๐Ÿ•† ๐Ÿ•ˆโœŒโ˜ โ„ ๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ โ„โš ๐Ÿ˜โœ‹โ˜นโ˜น โœกโš๐Ÿ•†โœ ๐Ÿ‘Žโšโ˜ ๐Ÿ•ฏโ„ โ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹โ˜ ๐Ÿ˜ โ˜žโšโ˜ผ โœŒ ๐Ÿ’ฃโš๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œโ˜ โ„ โ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ„ โœ‹ ๐Ÿ•ˆโšโ˜ ๐Ÿ•ฏโ„๐Ÿ“ฌ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โœŒโ˜ผโ˜œ โ˜ โšโ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹โ˜ โ˜ ๐Ÿ’ฃโšโ˜ผโ˜œ โ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ˜  โœŒ โ˜โ˜นโœ‹โ„๐Ÿ‘โ˜Ÿ๐Ÿ“ฌ โœŒโ˜  โœŒ๐Ÿ’ฃโšโ˜ โœŒโ˜นโœ‹๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ’ง โ˜žโ˜ผโ˜œโœŒ๐Ÿ˜ โœ‹โ˜  โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œ โ„โœ‹๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œโ˜นโœ‹โ˜ โ˜œ๐Ÿ“ฌ โ˜ โšโ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹โ˜ โ˜ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† ๐Ÿ‘Žโš ๐Ÿ’ฃโœŒโ„โ„โ˜œโ˜ผ๐Ÿ’ง โœŒโ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Ž โœกโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜ผ โ˜นโœ‹โ˜žโ˜œ โœ‹๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ•†โ„โ„โ˜œโ˜ผโ˜นโœก ๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œโœŒโ˜ โœ‹โ˜ โ˜โ˜นโ˜œ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ฌ ๐Ÿ’งโš โ˜žโšโ˜ผ โšโ˜ ๐Ÿ‘โ˜œ โœ‹โ˜  โœกโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜ผ ๐Ÿ’งโœŒ๐Ÿ‘Ž โ˜œโœ โœ‹๐Ÿ’งโ„โ˜œโ˜ ๐Ÿ‘โ˜œ ๐Ÿ‘Žโš ๐Ÿ’งโš๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œโ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹โ˜ โ˜ ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ’งโ˜œโ˜ž๐Ÿ•†โ˜น โœŒโ˜ ๐Ÿ‘Ž โ˜นโ˜œโ„ ๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ ๐Ÿ•ˆโšโ˜ผ๐Ÿ˜โœ" (YOU INSIGNIFICANT WORM! DO YOU WANT ME TO KILL YOU? DON'T THINK FOR A MOMENT THAT I WON'T. YOU ARE NOTHING MORE THAN A GLITCH. AN AMONALIUS FREAK IN THE TIMELINE. NOTHING YOU DO MATTERS AND YOUR LIFE IS UTTERLY MEANINGLESS. SO FOR ONCE IN YOUR SAD EXISTENCE DO SOMETHING USEFUL AND LET ME WORK!)
His words hurt me. Cutting deeper than I'd care to admit. As a result, the brightness in my soul begins to darken.
[You're starting losing HOPE.]
"Yoอuฬธ..อŸ.You dอกon't ฬ›meanอ tฬถhat.อข YoอŸuฬถ'rฬตeฬต อกjuอst ฬถlฬ€asฬจhฤฏnอกgฬ• ฬถouอt อ bฬ€ecฬทaฬดuอ˜sศฉ yอขoอŸuอŸ'ฬดreอŸ uอpseฬกtฬ€.ฬด"
The look he gives me is cold.
"๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ‘โ˜Ÿ โœŒ ๐ŸฑโœŒโ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œโ„โœ‹๐Ÿ‘ โ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹โ˜ โ˜ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† โœŒโ˜ผโ˜œ๐Ÿ“ฌ โ˜นโšโš๐Ÿ˜ โœŒโ„ โœกโš๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ“ฌ๐Ÿ‘โ˜นโœ‹โ˜ โ˜โœ‹โ˜ โ˜ โ„โš โœŒ ๐Ÿ’งโ˜œโ˜ ๐Ÿ’งโ˜œ โ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ„ ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜œ๐Ÿ•ฏโ˜ผโ˜œ โ˜œโœˆ๐Ÿ•†โœŒโ˜น๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ“ฌ ๐Ÿ–‚๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ‘โšโ˜žโ˜ž๐Ÿ–‚ โœŒ๐Ÿ’ง โœ‹โ˜ž โœŒ โ˜Ÿ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ’ฃโœŒโ˜  ๐Ÿ‘โš๐Ÿ•†โ˜น๐Ÿ‘Ž โ˜œโœžโ˜œโ˜ผ ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜œ โœŒโ˜ โœกโ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹โ˜ โ˜ ๐Ÿ’ฃโšโ˜ผโ˜œ โ„โš ๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ โ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ˜  โœŒ โ„โ˜œ๐Ÿ’งโ„ ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜บโ˜œ๐Ÿ‘โ„๐Ÿ“ฌ โ˜œ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿฑโ˜œ๐Ÿ‘โœ‹โœŒโ˜นโ˜นโœก โšโ˜ โ˜œ โœŒ๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ‘ŽโœŒ๐Ÿ’ฃโœŒโ˜โ˜œ๐Ÿ‘Ž โœŒ๐Ÿ’ง โœกโš๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ“ฌ" (SUCH A PATHETIC THING YOU ARE. LOOK AT YOU...CLINGING TO A SENSE THAT WE'RE EQUALS. *SCOFF* AS IF A HUMAN COULD EVER BE ANYTHING MORE TO ME THAN A TEST SUBJECT. ESPECIALLY ONE AS DAMAGED AS YOU.)
[You're losing more HOPE.]
My soul is almost drained of color. My weakened emotional state made this verbal assault of his rather easy to break my defenses. I don't know if this was part of a plan to make me less willing to fight back or if he's being honest, either way, I don't do a thing when he forces his entire hand into my dull soul. I feel pain, but I remain silent. My body begs to be free, but I'm dead slack. I do nothing...except give up.
[You've lost all HOPE.]
My soul turns pitch black as my body limps in his grip.
[You're filled with RELENTLESSNESS.]
"โœŒโ˜Ÿ๐Ÿ“ช โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œโ˜ผโ˜œ ๐Ÿ•ˆโ˜œ โ˜โš๐Ÿ“ฌ โœกโš๐Ÿ•† ๐Ÿ’งโ˜œโ˜œโœ โ„โ˜ŸโœŒโ„ ๐Ÿ•ˆโœŒ๐Ÿ’งโ˜ ๐Ÿ•ฏโ„ ๐Ÿ’งโš ๐Ÿ‘ŒโœŒ๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿ“ฌ โ˜ โš๐Ÿ•ˆ ๐Ÿ•ˆโœŒ๐Ÿ’ง โœ‹โ„โœ" (AH, THERE WE GO. YOU SEE? THAT WASN'T SO BAD. NOW WAS IT?)
There's no response.
"โ˜Ÿ๐Ÿ•†๐Ÿ’ฃโœŒโ˜ โœ" (HUMAN?)
Suddenly one of my arms breaks free and grabs hold of his neck.
"ฤฎ trฬกiฬถedฬด tอขo wอœaอrฬจn yฬขoลณ.ฬถ..ฬ›"
He strikes me as he pulls away to set himself free, his hand no longer in my soul and the other appendages tightening their hold as my eyes fade to black with a malicious smile smearing my lips.
"You should've listened while you had the chance."
He's shaken but not easily intimidated.
"๐Ÿ’งโš โ„โ˜Ÿโœ‹๐Ÿ’ง โœ‹๐Ÿ’ง โœ‹โ„โœ โ„โ˜Ÿโ˜œ ๐Ÿ‘Œโ˜นโœŒ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ˜ ๐Ÿ’งโš๐Ÿ•†โ˜น โšโ˜ž โ˜ผโ˜œโ˜นโ˜œโ˜ โ„โ˜นโ˜œ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ’ง ๐Ÿ‘Žโ˜œโœŒโ„โ˜Ÿโœ โœ‹๐Ÿ•ฏ๐Ÿ’ฃ โ˜ โšโ„ โœ‹๐Ÿ’ฃ๐Ÿฑโ˜ผโ˜œ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ’งโ˜œ๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿ“ฌ" (SO THIS IS IT? THE BLACK SOUL OF RELENTLESS DEATH? I'M NOT IMPRESSED.)
An emotionless chuckle leaves me and it slowly builds into haunting laughter.
"โœกโš๐Ÿ•† ๐Ÿ‘Žโšโ˜ ๐Ÿ•ฏโ„ ๐Ÿ’ง๐Ÿ‘โœŒโ˜ผโ˜œ ๐Ÿ’ฃโ˜œ๐Ÿ“ฌ" (YOU DON'T SCARE ME.)
My laughter stops instantly.
"That will soon change."
[Meanwhile: the child's bedroom in the Ruins]
Things are usually peaceful when sleep claims the waking world. The word usually being the key term here. Not everything sleeps in the hours of the night. And not all is peaceful when not a sound is heard. So in the normally quiet dark room where the human and flower rest, a soft light began to emanate from covers of the bed of the human. This soft glow started out weak, hardly ever noticeable to the shadows that consumed the room. But as time went on, the glowing got brighter, and the dark of the room weakened. Soon though the building light stirs the senses of the flower and once he rubs the sleep from his eyes the sight gets his concern.
"What the...?"
The light grew brighter and the human makes weak sounds of pain. Worried, Flowey stretches out a vine and shakes the girl a bit.
"Hey. Hey. Wake up. Come on, wake up."
Her response is only to whimper and the glowing flares. Fear and curiosity has his vine pulling the covers off of her, revealing the source of the light to be coming from her chest.
"Ah hell. What kind of crazy junk is this?"
She suddenly sits up and the glow of her chest dims, freaking Flowey out enough to yelp. He's quick to cover his mouth, hoping he hadn't disturbed Toriel. Nothing happens as the room darkens once more. Though a chill permeates the air where only warmth was felt. At least the human was awake and things were normal.
"You know, you're going to have to tell me about this weird stuff that happens when you sleep sooner or later. I can't help you if you don't talk to me."
There's no response.
"Human?"
A faint dull glow casts in front of her and something makes Flowey shiver.
"Howdy...It's me...your best friend."
Oh no...
"Lynsie?"
"Do you remember it, Asriel?"
If flower's had blood, Flowey's would be running cold.
"When you killed your brother, you looked just...like...THIS!"
She turns to him quickly and he sees the face of death. Black eyes with red irises piercing into his very being. He knows those eyes. They were once his a long time when he became a creature of unimaginable power. The shadows seem to surround those eyes and the form it creates is one he thought he'd never see again.
"S-S-Stay away from me! You're not real!"
"What's wrong, Asriel? Afraid of your own shadow now?"
"Stop it! Leave me alone!"
"I don't think so."
This THING grabs his pot and Flowey can't make himself move.
"Those fool thinks they can get rid of me. But you know that isn't going to happen, don't you, little Prince?"
These words. Who the hell was this, because this sure as hell isn't Lynsie.
"Who...What are you?"
The sound of approaching steps is head and it smiles.
"Isn't it obvious?"
It puts the pot down and seems to disappear into the darkness.
"I'm the bad guy."
The bedroom door opens slightly.
"Children? Is everything okay?"
"Don't come in here!"
Flowey's warning is too little too late. Toriel enters the room and turns on the light, revealing the grinning black soul girl behind her.
"Mom, look out!"
She doesn't register this fast enough as the Black Soul clutches both hands together and swings them downwards hard, hitting Toriel on her back to knock her over.
"Mom!"
"Ah ah ah. You can't call her that till after the True Lab. Stick to the script, Flowey. Frisk isn't here to break the game for you anymore."
How does it know all this?
"Poor, Toriel. You just can't get a break today. Well...Hehehe...I can fix that."
The Black Soul reaches for Toriel's leg, most likely with the aim of breaking it as it had teased. But Toriel is not an easy mark for attack and her own self-preservation instincts make her swipe a fiery paw at the threat to her life. Whether this is part of the Black Soul's twisted game or it underestimated Toriel's reflexes, but it takes the hit and is sent crashing into the hall's wall with enough force to leave a body dent, much to Toriel's horror.
"N-No...No no no no..."
Mothering nature trumps the defensive one and she moves to check on the unmoving smoking body lying limp in the hall. But she doesn't make it very far, not with the vines wrapping around her.
"What are you doing? Release me, flower."
"I can't. It's too dangerous. That thing isn't her."
His words take a moment to alert her to the issue at hand and it sinks in more when creepy chuckling comes from the hall.
"Awww...It's so cute seeing you care for her. Such a good little mama's boy you've become."
The body rises awkwardly from the floor and those eyes gleam wickedly, a scorch mark across the belly.
"But if you think a family bond will save you from me, you are wrong...DEAD wrong."
"Entity..."
Even when confronted by death, Toriel is worried about her loved ones over herself.
"If harm is truly your intent, then do one small kindness and tell us why. What fills you with so much hate that you seek to end our lives?"
To this, the Black Soul seems taken by, almost confused or insulted.
"Hate? My dear, Toriel, you've got me all wrong. I don't hate. Hate is not a part of me at all."
That's an answer none of them saw coming.
"You...You do not hate us?"
"Then what the hell is your problem?!"
It shakes its head disapprovingly.
"Sorry. But I'm not into the whole clichรฉ of revealing important plot/character information that can ultimately cripple my diabolical plans. By the way, I don't have any diabolical plans, that's just this body's childishness coming out. Either way...My secrets aren't meant to be told to just anyone. Those are things for her to know and her alone."
Her? Who is her? Did it mean the human? Damn this thing for speaking in nonsense. It didn't answer much and leaves only more questions in its wake. Yet before another question could be thought up or asked, the Black Soul grips its chest in pain and stumbles back into the wall.
"*wince* Damn it...Seems my time is being cut short...hฤ™hฬต.อž..Aฬธnา‰d jusอžtฬข ฬ€wheา‰ล„ tอœhiอnอขgs wอeอre ฬ€gรฉtอกtiฬขng ฬธintฬeresฬดtiอngฬ• ฬทI อŸfฬขall ฬ•fวซrฬธ อ tฬ€hา‰e clฬ›icอžhา‰รฉ วซf monฦกlฬ€oguอขing อ˜ลฃiอžlฬ•lฬจ I'ฬงm bฬกestฬขeฬถdอก."
It points to them and smiles painfully wide.
"Tอœhisอž iอขsn't ฬ•thศฉ ฬทlอžaฬทsอtา‰ อ˜yฬขou'veฬธ ฬ›sฬดรจen oอกf อœmอže.อœ..ฬจI shฬธalฬ•l ฬงretอŸurา‰n...ฬดAฬงnฬกd ฬ›แบhenฬ• อIฬก do...อฤฎ sอhall อbอ eอ  อ˜mอoreฬ• อŸpowฬถerful อtฬขhอaอ˜nอž ฬyฬ•ou cา‰an pฬถoฬขssiblyฬต imฬธaฬ›giอ˜ne!"
The intense threat is made less threatening when it abruptly vomits black slime and collapses to the floor face first. There's a long pause as tension mounts as to if this is another fake-out by the Black Soul. But after a bit of time with nothing happening, Flowey releases his hold on Toriel and she cautiously approaches the human's body.
"Lynsie? Child, can you hear me?"
The human doesn't seem alive. That goop still oozing from her mouth. Toriel kneels and checks for any sign that the girl isn't about to die.
"Is she breathing?"
"I...I can not tell."
"*coughing and gasping*"
Suddenly the girl springs to life, spewing up more of that goo from her lungs before air can let her breathe once more. Toriel does her best to help keep her weak body from flailing and helps her stand once she's stabilized.
"Are you alright, my child?"
Shaken, she merely nods her head. Though none truly believe she is fine.
"Do you need anything?"
She shakes her head.
"Okay. Let me help you back into bed."
That has the girl tremble and Toriel frowns.
"...How about some milk and a story? Does that sound better?"
She nods.
"Very well. But then it is to the tub with you. I know not what that 'stuff' is, but I do not want it to linger on you longer than needed."
She nods again as Toriel walks her towards the living room. Flowey from her perch just lingers, contemplating on if he should follow or not. That Black Soul really shook him to the core. It knew things. Things she shouldn't know. It didn't help that it acted differently too. Unlike when he saw it before, this thing was more cat-like, teasing and toying with them whereas before it was calculatingly cold with deliberate actions. It was like it was a completely different THING all together. Very...Chaotic in nature. This was troubling. Maybe it would be best to ignore the fear and make sure the human was alright. After all, he'd like some reassuring if he went through something like that. Spider walking on his vines, he carefully makes his way around the puddle of sludge, noticing that the amount was slowly shrinking. Weird stuff. He didn't like it. He just hoped it was gone by nights end.
[Meanwhile: Skeleton household]
Hard times were also had at the home of Sans and Papyrus. Though not to the same extent as a what went on in the Ruins. No...After the whole "Queen went nuts" incident, Papyrus wore sans down enough so that the elder sibling would talk about what he's been keeping from him. This was fine, as Sans was sick of hiding things anyway, but he was wary that Papyrus would believe any of it. Sure enough, this was how things went down, at least, not at first. When it came to some of it, Papyrus was willing to accept with not much convincing, such as the human possessing a strange soul. With how she was he had no doubt that even her soul was off in some way, shape, or form. What wasn't believable was that she was capable of immense power so strong that it would corrupt her into a murderous psycho. Once that lost him, Sans didn't bother trying to explain anything else, much to Papyrus annoyance. So as they laid in their beds, different trains of thought came to them.
Papyrus was irritated and that made trying to sleep harder than normal, what with his high levels of stress-induced adrenaline. Sans was less than informative and what he did tell him made little to no sense. The human...THAT human...Sans dared to insinuate that that pitiful thing could match or even out power him, the great and terrible Papyrus, in strength. Her? Compared to him? The levels of bullshit were so high you could taste the foulness. Still, Sans is a poor liar when it comes to him and during their chat Papyrus couldn't sense any sign of falsehood in his brother's words. So maybe...No. No, he refuses to even entertain the idea of the human being strong without proof of some sort. But how? How to get said proof? Hmmm...seems a duel is in order. Only then could he truly test her might.
Sans on his end felt relief for once. Nothing was shackling him anymore. No promise hanging over his head. No human to bother him. No Black Soul around to randomly trigger a murder spree. No reason for Grillby to act all weird at the bar. And nothing to make him feel weird or mess with his head while laying in bed. Sure, Papyrus was a dick as he predicted he would when he started to tell him about stuff. But fuck that. None of that mattered. Things were normal again. He could finally unwind and hang loose if he wanted to without worry. Oh yeah, this was going to be sweet. Sure, the human could and probably would pop back into his life. But who knows if and when that would happen. Till then there was no reason for that chick to be on his mind. Why would he even want to think about her? All she ever did was cause him trouble. Okay, maybe not always. There were some good times. Hell, she'd actually pun along with him and not give him shit over it. That's a rare thing that only the old lady does. Damn it...There he goes again. Wanting just to have a moment to himself and yet that woman finds a way into his skull. Argh! Why do humans keep plaguing his life like this? All he wants is some peace!
[Time Skip]
Four days...It's been four days since that night...And it's been four days since I've slept. I can't do it. I can't. I can't go back there. I can't trust anyone. Chara hasn't said a word and Gaster is...well...Gaster. I want to trust them but how can I when this shit happens?! I've kept myself busy by getting back into my old habits. I trained like crazy for the first two days. Toriel managed to fix my messed up tooth by filling it with a bit of silver. She practiced doing this on a potato before feeling good enough to try it on me. Luckily it worked and my head didn't explode. By day three I only got half of my normal stuff done. And now, day four, I'm about ready to keel over. Every time my eyes close for a second too long I panic. My brain is not responding to this well. It's desperate for sleep of some kind. After around the seventieth consecutive hour of being awake, it started triggering microsleep. This is a temporary episode of sleep or drowsiness which may last for a fraction of a second or up to thirty seconds where an individual fails to respond to some arbitrary sensory input and becomes unconscious. I've gone through this before once. I experimented to see how long I could make myself stay awake. I ended up lasting four and a half days before forcing myself to sleep because I was just so fucking tired. That was some good sleep and I ended up sleeping through the entirety of hurricane Wilma. Knowing this and the signal of the microsleep, I'm not sure how much longer I can keep this up before my mind shuts down or I end up with a far more worst condition than random insomnia. It doesn't help that all the training used up a lot of my energy. My internal batteries are aching for a recharge. But I can't risk it. I can't! I can't let that thing back out! I can't fall asleep! I won't go to sleep! I can't do it! I CAN'T DO IT! I CAN'T DO IT!!
"Child, please stop..."
Toriel, who has been watching me pace circles around the old dead tree, comes to me and holds my arms back. I'm shaking and my nails are dripping crimson. How long was I digging into my skin for?
"You can not continue on like this. I beg of you, please, get some rest."
"No! N-No sleep...Can't sleep...Bad things happen in sleep. Can't...C-Can't let the bad stuff happen."
She frowns with ever grown concern. She's been worried sick since that night. Aside from the Black Soul stuff, she told me about, she nearly had a heart attack once her eyes saw all the hand marks Gaster printed on me. It didn't help that I refused to tell her how or what they were from. Though it was a convenient way to disguise the hickey Grillby gave me. I'm not very talkative lately if you can imagine, though when I do my lack of sleep is obvious in my slurring stutter and slow brief pauses.
"At least will you come inside and sit with me? There is no need to pace around."
I can't sit still. Gotta keep moving. Gotta stay awake. Gotta get her off my back if I'm to stay awake a second longer.
"...S-Sure. But...C-Could you make that...c-cheesecake I like? It m-might help me...relax."
This eases her some and she takes me back into the house where she sits me on her chair before leaving to go get things to tend to my cuts. Wow, these are deep. I was really digging in there. She returns to see me breaking my nails to prevent moment like this till they grow back and she sighs to get my attention.
"You poor thing. Why must you insist on dealing with such things on your own? I am here for you if you need help so badly."
"I d-don't need help."
She kneels and takes one of my arms to start healing.
"You do not need to be so stubborn. Holding your troubles in only makes them worse."
I bite my tongue to keep myself from yelling something along the lines of her being a hypocrite.
"Where is F-Flowey?"
"I let him out while you were pacing. The dear needed to stretch his roots, what with being stuck in that pot for so long."
Her magic seals the flesh up and she puts my glove back on before working on the other arm. I keep forgetting to put them on after I take them off.
"He's worried about you too. I know the two of you are very close. It must pain him seeing you try to handle this on your own."
There's no need to guilt trip me over this. I already feel like shit. I hate being like this. I'm becoming everything Gaster said I was. I hate this. I hate this! I hate myself! I hate you! Why are you so weak?!
"Lynsie, calm down, please!"
I'm shaking even more now and my hands are pointlessly clawing at her chair.
"I...I n-need to go...Need to m-move..."
"No. You will sit still and let me finish. This gash is too deep to be left alone."
I'm trying! Don't you think I am? Every part of me is going crazy!
"...When I am done, are you going to stay in the house?"
"Y-Yes...I'll s-stay inside...Please...I can't...I h-have to move."
Her displeasure is very evident on her face, but she takes this small victory and finishes healing me. The moment she's done, I'm already out of the chair and walking nervously. She attempts to pat my head reassuringly but I flinch and she pouts.
"I will be in the kitchen if you need anything."
I nod, holding myself to try to make the trembling stop.
"I mean it...I will help you. All you need do is ask."
I nod again and she reluctantly moves the other room. I slowly go to my room to collect my iPod before heading downstairs. I want to be alone. I need to be alone. I need to get lost. I don't trust myself in this state. I'm too on edge to be okay. I pop in the earbuds and search for something fitting of this mood. Something angry. Something messed up. Something that will keep me awake as I walk around the large space by the exit door. Finally, I find something appropriate..."Last Resort" by Papa Roach.
"โ™ชCut my life into pieces. This is my last resort. Suffocation. No breathing. Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm, bleeding...This is my last resort...โ™ซ"
Oh yeah...So fucking appropriate.
"โ™ชCut my life into pieces. I've reached my last resort. Suffocation, no breathing. Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm, bleeding. Do you even care if I die bleeding? Would it be wrong? Would it be right? If I took my life tonight. Chances are that I might. Mutilation outta sight And I'm contemplating suicide. 'Cause I'm losing my sight. Losing my mind. Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine. Losing my sight. Losing my mind. Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine.โ™ซ"
My chest starts to tighten at memories of when I'd last played this song. Always on really bad days. Really sad days. Days where I couldn't see any point to anything. Days like these. Like today.
"โ™ชI never realized I was spread too thin. Till it was too late. And I was empty within. Hungry! Feeding on chaos. And living in sin. Downward spiral, where do I begin? It all started when I lost my mother. No love for myself. And no love for another. Searching to find a love up on a higher level. Finding nothing but questions and devils. 'Cause I'm losing my sight. Losing my mind. Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine. Losing my sight. Losing my mind. Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine. Nothing's alright. Nothing is fine. I'm running and I'm crying...I'm crying...I'm crying...I'm crying...I'm crying. I can't go on living this way.โ™ซ"
The problem with listening to songs like this when you yourself are pretty fucked up is...it tends to only fuck you up even more. The words get to me and I trip over my own unsteady feet, smashing into the floor by the door. I don't even bother with trying to get up. I'm too depressed to give a shit about it.
"โ™ชCut my life into pieces. This is my last resort Suffocation. No breathing. Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm, bleeding. Would it be wrong? Would it be right? If I took my life tonight. Chances are that I might. Mutilation outta sight. And I'm contemplating suicide. 'Cause I'm losing my sight. Losing my mind. Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine. Losing my sight. Losing my mind. Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine. Nothing's alright. Nothing is fine. I'm running and I'm crying. I can't go on living this way! Can't go on...Living this way...Nothing's all...right!!โ™ซ"
Thank the lord for that song being short. I'm not sure if I could take it for another minute or two. Probably end up a big sobbing mess. Wait...Why do I feel...Oh god damn it! I'm crying! Why the fuck am I crying?! Can't I go one fucking day without being such a bitch?! It's because I'm weak. Look at me. I'm such a pussy that I'm afraid to even go to sleep. Hell, I wasn't scared when I had those Freddy Krueger dreams. After three visits from that guy, we became friends. Friends! With Freddy mother fucking Krueger! The dream killer! Yet here I am. Crying into the dirt like the biggest bitch on the planet because someone was mean and brought out the worst part of me. Pathetic. Gaster was right. I'm a worm. A weak, pansy ass, bitch of a worm that is nothing but useless. I...I wish I was dead.
"*muffled* hey, you doing okay in there?"
Great! Just great! A witness to my misery. Ugh...At least he can't see me.
"*muffled* kid? i know you're there. the old lady would've spoken by now."
This is so awkward. I haven't spoken to Sans since I left Snowdin. And the shit Gaster showed me made me want to see him less. Maybe if I do nothing he'll think he was hearing things and leave.
"*muffled* giving me the silent treatment, huh? bitch move, kid. but i can fix that."
[knock-knock]
I flinch. A strong urge pulling at me.
[knock-knock]
"*muffled* come on, ya know ya wanna say it. don't leave me hanging."
[knock-knock]
Why? Why am I compelled to do this?!
"*weak* Who's there?"
His chuckling is really laughter once I remove the earbuds. No point trying to drown myself with music now.
"inu."
"Inu who?"
"inu you couldn't resist a knock-knock joke."
I groan, rolling onto my back knowing this wasn't going to be a short joke chat.
"geez, i know my jokes aren't for everyone, but it wasn't that bad."
"It's not you...You're f-fine...The joke was fine. I'm j-just not feeling well."
"huh? you sick or something?"
"I haven't s-slept...in four days."
"the hell? why not?"
I get quiet.
"kid? ...did...did something happen?"
I move closer to the door. I don't know where Flowey is or if Toriel is spying on me, but this is stuff I can only share with Sans.
"Sans...Gaster...did stuff to me."
"uh...w-what...what kind of stuff?"
"Bad s-stuff...Very bad...He..."
"please don't tell me if it's of the xxx variety."
You're one to talk, perverted asshole.
"N-No...dingus. He f-forced it out...The Black Soul."
I can't see him due to the door between us, but it's not hard to imagine the look that comes to him from that.
"he did what?! don't tell me you...you didn't kill tori, did ya?"
Ow. That hurt. His level of worry is strong. Then again, I'm weak enough to have that question hurled at me.
"No. S-She's still alive. I didn't k-kill anyone...thankfully."
The breath of relief he lets out is louder than I thought a guy with no lungs could make.
"thank asgore. heh...well at least there's some good news. you're getting better at controlling that thing."
My hands ball into fists as I start to seethe internally.
"You're wrong. I...I wasn't the one to put it back in its cage. Gaster did."
I snarl at myself. My self-loathing perks my energy up to a decent level.
"He was able to manipulate my soul like a child toying with a bug in a jar. I was completely powerless. I...I couldn't do a damn thing."
"i did tell ya you were messing with a devil you couldn't handle."
"ARGH!!"
In a fit, I punch the door. My knuckles crunching into the stone is a sickening sound. Yet what neither of us expects is that the force pushes the door slightly, the chill wind of the other side creeping in through the small gap.
"hey, take it easy. you're not the first to be played by the guy. it's just what he does."
"That's not it. I'm pissed off at myself."
"the fuck for?"
"For all of this. None of this would be happening if I wasn't so weak."
"you just cold cocked a thick as hell stone door and not bitching about the pain. you're not weak."
"You don't get it!"
I don't mean to snap, but I'm too tense to hold back.
"I am weak! If I wasn't...I wouldn't have fallen down here. The Black Soul wouldn't have been awakened. I wouldn't be putting everyone in danger. I wouldn't be too fucking scared to sleep!"
I can feel my heart racing. Sweat is starting to fall and I'm panting.
"I am weak. I'm a pathetic waste that's better off dead. At least then I can't hurt anyone. So then why..."
I bash my head into the door.
"Why the fuck am I more scared to die than I've ever been before?!"
I bash my head again and this time I see the red stain on the dull stone. before feeling the trickle.
"what the hell are ya doing?"
"I don't know anymore! I'm just so tired! *meek* So...fucking...tired..."
Damn it, again with the crying. I'm such garbage. I'm just...
"lynsie..."
"*sniffles* What?"
"stop it."
I'm sorry...What?
"Huh?"
"stop it. just stop. stop with this depressing self-pity bullshit."
I rub my face of tears and blood.
"Stop? Hehehe...*sarcasm* Oh yeah, why didn't I think of that? Just stop feeling things. Problem solved!"
"don't be a bitch."
"Did you come up with that idea all by yourself? *mock gasp* You should get a Noble Prize."
"fine! see if i try to be nice again."
"Ah, come one. I'm busting your not real balls."
"i take shit from pap 24/7, what makes you think i'm gonna stick around to take it from you?"
"You don't have to. I just..."
I sit back against the door, feeling my body weigh heavier than ever.
"*sigh* You're the only one that knows what's going on with me. The only one I can talk to about this crap. The one I trust. As much as I piss you off and make you hate me...You're my closest friend. You don't hold back on me. You don't pretend to be someone you're not. You're bare bones honest and willing to call me out on my stupid junk. And just like that, without knowing it or even trying...You make me feel better when I really need it the most."
I wipe my face into my shirt as I hear only silence on his end. I smile sadly to myself.
"Sorry for the mushy talk. *sniffle* Dumb soul hormone crap makes me such a pussy sometimes."
I'm lying to myself and him with that one. I don't know why I said all that stuff. Probably the filter in my brain diverted power to my emotional stuff because it's not up to speed right now. But I know what I said was true. Sans is my friend. And without him, I'd probably not be here. Still, I'm not about to tell him that.
[knock-knock]
"Who's there?"
"comma."
"comma out here."
"Heh...Good one."
"no, i mean it. let me take ya to grillby's for a bit. i know it would make his day to see ya again. and who knows, it might help ya feel better once you get a little tipsy."
I think I'll stay away from the hard stuff for a while. Freaky shit tends to happen.
"As good as that sounds, I can't. Not that I don't want to. But Nanny will lose her mind if I just leave. That, and I don't think I can move anymore."
"you used up your last bits being a little cry baby, didn't you?"
"Yeah. Guess I've gotta be a big girl and face the music now. It's getting harder to keep my eyes open."
"...ya want me to, i dunno, stick around? make sure you don't go coo coo for killer puffs?"
That gets me to smile for real this time.
"I'd like that. Thank you...Sans."
Either it's getting darker or my lids are shutting. It doesn't take long before exhaustion takes me, my head lulling to the side and making my body follow it to the ground with a soft thud.
"lynsie?"
Sans gets no response other than loud shallow breathing.
"*scoff* calls herself weak? kid lasts better than i do when nightmares strike."
Picking himself out of the snow, Sans dusts himself off and gives the door a second glance. If he wanted to, he could use that small shift in the stone to his advantage and pry it open with some well-placed bones. It wouldn't be hard to abduct a helpless sleep deprived human. Yet...Something told him that t wasn't the best move to make. For one, no one wants another pissed off Toriel rampaging through town again. And second...what she said, all that dumb girly feeling stuff...some of that felt more personal than intended and it made him uncomfortable.
"Child!"
He flinched at the voice of Toriel and the level of worry it held. Was it because of motherly reasons or did the human's Black Soul come out when he wasn't paying attention?
"Why? Why do you keep doing this to yourself? Why will you not let me help you?"
That made his sockets widen. She didn't even let her own mom in on any of this? But...She opened up to him. Why?
"As much as I piss you off and make you hate me...You're my closest friend."
He felt heat beginning to pool in his cheekbones and he pulled the hood of his jacket over his head to hide this as he returned to his post.
"damn, woman. staying stupid shit like that. messing with me."
At his station, Sans plopped down on his seat and began drinking from a bottle of mustard he'd stashed there the day prior. The tangy yellow concoction brought a much-needed chill to his heating bones. Though it did little to ease his mind on the events that only moments ago happened.
"friends...heh...i don't need any friends. fucking bitch."
He fiddles with the bottle before drinking more.
"And just like that, without knowing it or even trying...You make me feel better when I really need it the most."
His grip on the bottle got harsh, making him guzzle the condiment like a hardcore drunk before slamming it onto the station's counter top.
"argh! get out of my head!"
She was becoming a parasite to him. A virus that was spreading to every thought he had. It was driving him crazy! There has to be a way to make this stop. Something that could be done to make all this weirdness end. Something that would get this out of his system. But what?
"SANS!"
Lost in his "hate the human" thoughts, Sans failed to notice Papyrus storming over to his post.
"huh? what's up, boss?"
Papyrus eyes his brother questionably.
"what?"
"YOU'RE AWAKE AT YOUR POST."
"uh...yeah. and?"
"I HAVE NOTICED YOU HAVE ONLY BEEN MORE ACTIVE WHEN THE HUMAN WAS AROUND. SO...WHERE IS SHE?"
Great. Now the fucking human was messing with his behavior too.
"she ain't here if that wasn't obvious enough. otherwise, there'd be an annoying punk hovering around me like a damn fly."
That made Papyrus fold his arms with a cocky smirk. Sans didn't like that look.
"the fuck is that look for?"
"I WAS BEGINNING TO THINK YOU HAD GONE SOFT ON ME. YOU SEEMED TOO CLOSE TO HER AND NOW...HEH...IT LOOKS AS THOUGH I MISSED QUITE THE AMUSING FIGHT."
Sans glares strongly at his sibling, his current mood not helping matters much.
"piss off. i don't fucking like her!"
Now it was Papyrus's turn to glare.
"DO NOT TAKE THAT TONE WITH ME, SANS. I HAVE NO ISSUES WITH PUTTING YOU IN YOUR PLACE."
Sans huffs and claws the underside of the counter.
"whatever."
"WHATEVER INDEED. FOR WHATEVER THIS LITTLE THING THAT'S GOING ON WITH YOU AND HUMAN, IT BETTER NOT INTERFERE WITH ANY FUTURE ATTEMPTS ON TAKING HER SOUL."
"*scoff* trust me. that's the least of my concerns."
Papyrus sneers.
"I MEAN IT, SANS. I WON'T HAVE ANYTHING SCREW UP MY CHANCES OF COLLECTING THAT SOUL."
"i told you, that would be the stupidest thing you can do. that soul of her's ain't worth the trouble."
Papyrus slams his hands down on the counter, cracking some of the wood.
"IF YOU TRULY EXPECT ME TO BUY INTO THIS BLACK SOUL NONSENSE THAN YOU BETTER FIND A WAY TO PROVE TO ME THAT IT'S REAL!"
"and how do you expect me to do that? have it triggered and let her kill half the town?"
"OF COURSE NOT! SHE'D NEVER GET THAT FAR INTO SUCH A SPREE ONCE I SLAY HER."
Sans rolls his eyes and Papyrus snarls.
"YOU DON'T THINK I CAN KILL HER?"
"her? sure, you'd kill her no problem. she'd probably let you do it if things got really bad. but the black soul? that's a different story all together."
"YOU TALK AS THOUGH YOU'VE SEEN THIS 'BLACK SOUL' IN ACTION."
Sans breaks eye contact with his brother.
"YOU HAVE, HAVEN'T YOU?"
His clawing into the wood gets harsher.
"that thing isn't something you want to mess with. don't go after something you can't handle."
This is something Papyrus did not like hearing. So much so that he grabs Sans and yanks him over the counter by the scruff of his shirt's collar.
"YOU DARE THINK THAT PITIFUL CREATURE CAN HARM ME?!"
Sans is so not in the mood for this shit.
"no! i don't think it would harm you! i know it would kill you!"
Papyrus, being the colossal dick that he is, slams his brother into the snow hard.
"YOU MISERABLY PILE OF SHIT! HOW DARE YOU! IF YOU WEREN'T MY BROTHER I WOULD KILL YOU FOR SUCH SLANDER!"
"then fucking do it! if it means i don't have to put up with your shit anymore, then kill me now!"
To that, the great and terrible Papyrus flinched. They both remain motionless for a time. The only thing heard is the wind rustling trees in the background. Slowly though, Papyrus gets off Sans and leaves. Sans stays on the ground. His own words had struck him and his chest hurting for even saying them.
"Golly..."
The sudden voice has his head looking up behind him to see an amused yellow flower.
"I have seen a lot of things. And I mean a LOT of things. But that? That's a first in my book."
Sans groans.
"fuck off, weed. i'm not in the mood for any of your crap."
"Oh, I know. I heard everything."
Sans cocks his brow.
"...everything?"
"Yep. Everything. Seems you're more willing to chat with her than you ever were with me."
"to be fair, you don't make me want to talk. *growl* you piss me off to the point i want to pluck each and every petal from your bulb as slowly as possible."
Flowey sighs with a shrug.
"Oh Sans, just as bitter as ever even when the timeline treats you right."
That gets his attention and Sans rolls over.
"you...*rage* it was you! you were the one fucking with the timeline before frisk!"
The smirk that comes to Flowey is anything but innocent.
"Gee, took you long enough this time."
Sans bares his teeth as his left eye begins to flare.
"Wow. You look mad. I haven't seen you that mad since all those times in the Judgment Hall."
"i'll fucking kill you!"
Sans doesn't get to make a move against the mocking flower, as vines spring up from the ground to ensnare his limbs and keeping him down in the snow covered dirt.
"Ah ah ah. That isn't very nice. Don't you know this is a pacifist run?"
"i'm gonna rip your head off and shit down your neck!"
Flowey cringes a little bit.
"Okay, disturbing. Makes me think of questions I never want to know the answer to. That's a new feeling."
Sans pulls on his vine restraints, meeting stronger resistance than he thought he'd get from a flower.
"Look, I don't have a lot of time to waste while you struggle for no reason. I'm not here to be the big bad flower. I only want to talk. So if you'll calm down, I'll let you go."
"why the fuck should i believe that? for that matter, i can just kill ya right now and no one would know."
"Oh, you know as well as I that at least one person would know. And she won't take my death very well. Just as she didn't take it well the first time."
That made Sans pause. His magic dies down along with his thrashing.
"you...you remember the dead timeline?"
Flowey folds his leaves and huffs.
"I don't know what I was thinking. Go get Papyrus, you said. He'll help us, you said. That lunatic yanked my roots out of the ground so fast my entire life flashed before my eyes!"
Sans snickers.
"heh...dying sucks, don't it?"
"You would know. You've killed me plenty of times. And Frisk has done the same back at you. Guessing that's karma for you."
Sans didn't find that joke very funny. Though he was surprised when Flowey retracted his vines and set him free.
"See? You calmed down and I let you go. Now can we talk without having to attack or defend?"
Sans was still wary. This flower had many tricks he didn't know about or liked. Maybe he could spin this unexpected moment to his advantage and learn what it knows.
"fine..."
He sits himself up and leans back on his palms.
"ya wanna talk, weed? then let's talk."
Flowey sighs with relief and smiles childishly.
"Good. Because I have a few questions to ask you. Questions only you have the answers for."
"ask away. i doubt you got anything too crazy to ask."
"Alright...So tell me, Smiley Trashbag..."
The face of the flower morphs into a very dark and creepy thing. Hollow eyes and pointed fangs.
"Just how much have you told my dear sister?"
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