#trying not to relapse

[wasteddspace]

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[smallhauntedghost]

Nobody counts the shards of a broken glass, I’m sure of that. Relapse is closing in and my skin begins singing it’s siren song

[perisbpddiary]

Me: I haven't self harmed in so long

Also me: got three new piercings

[hopelessly-hopeful-romantic]

Don't tell me that getting a paper cut of all things is what's going to make me relapse after months of actually being fine

[mentallyillmf420]

vent ig

Sick of always having to have my shit tg for everyone around me !! I want to die so fucking bad, but it would be "selfish". ana & percs is going to be the death of me (hopefully) 💋💋

[go-follow-jasperthecryptid]

dear god i just want to be sad and sick and miserable for the rest of forever

i want to relapse so badly

[somb3rwolf]

I wish I could just stop feeling

[innateapathy]

Sometimes the only way to take care of ourselves, is to hurt ourselves.

[violetwitch12087]

Talking to him was the worst

He made me so angry i could almost burst

No words getting through to his head

I wished he was dead

Talking to him was worse than talking to my crush before he left

I almost wanted to do theft

To get that cart i payed for

Instead you took it and became a whore😘

-i wished my brother died

My brother is a whore tho and a asshole most of the time recently idk maybe somethings wrong cs its almost like he isnt a person im talking to no one just anger he stole my fucking cart and won't give it back and i think he might finish it and i wanna fucking relapse bruh im so mad hes been trippin a lot recently

[justsomerandomgay]

my friend blocked me and i’m really worried bro this about to make me relapse again

[arsenicisaddictive]

Getting out of it comes with the fear of going back

It’s been so long; what happens if I relapse?

[wasteddspace]

I just want to rip myself apart.

[that-asthmatic-queer]

Recover/Repeat

I can feel it coming back

It’s just like before

The echos never left

It’s back pounding at my door

I know I shouldn’t do this

It only ever hurts

But I can’t say that I don’t miss

The slow ache of the burn

It always starts the same

There’s a deadline to be met

I need someone to blame

Guess I’ll do just fine

It’s insidious inside

And the sickest part of all

It leaves me satisfied

Addicted to the sirens call

It praises through a growl

And gnaws at my bones

It’s lies are simply foul

And it feels like home

Here we go again

In this bed we lie

I’ll break before I bend

In this bed we die

[rogueraccoon]

Sometimes i just want to scream at the universe “I’m trying” because I am, I really am. I keep running, but I’m trying to get better, to be motivated, to not relapse. I’m trying not to run, because that’s what I always do. When things get tough I bolt for the door back to my circle of comfort. I am a coward, someone who knows not what to do or say when something is different. familiarity is my home and I refuse to leave it. I want to run, to sprint, to leave, but i won’t. I need to not be the coward I know I am.

[hopelessly-hopeful-romantic]

TW

Ever since spring break started, I have been b1nging every night, and I don't know how to stop myself. Now I feel like I have to start r3str1cting again to make up for it, and i don't want to be in that headspace again, but i dont know what to do. I've been getting compliments constantly about how I've lost weight and everybody being so proud of me, and i haven't been using any ed behaviors besides fasting. I was doing so well, fml.

[just-trying-to-stay-alivee]

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I miss seeing the blood run down my thighs and feel all the overwhelming emotions screaming inside of me just flow out of my body or watching as it drips into the sink. I’ve been doing so well I really don’t want to relapse and inevitably destroy everything around me but it’s all I can think about lately.