#ugh this is like MESSY idk

[queer-reader-07]

prefacing that this is more rant than analysis and also i’m asexual. so my opinions on the whole sex thing are maybe not the same as my allo counterparts. (not in anyway ever trying to say sex is bad or dirty. sex is a beautiful thing and can be an amazing way to express love, and it’s 1000% natural. nothing wrong with it. i’m just personally not into it. ok? we good? now: the actual post.)

as much as i love the idea of crowley and aziraphale both being ace, the evidence of canon definitely seems more like crowley is ace and aziraphale is. well aziraphale is something to unpack on a different day.

and i personally find the idea that they both need to be filled with unquenchable lust exhausting. i can understand the desire for them to have sex and all that stuff in theory, but for me personally it’s just not it. and look. writing smutty fic and saying they’re definitely gonna fuck in canon are two very different things. smutty fic is fine, it’s not my thing but you do you.

but them having sex in canon:

1) doesn’t really make sense with the story in my opinion

2) definitely doesn’t make sense with where they’re at emotionally (especially crowley. he’s thrown off by a hand to the chest let alone full on sex). sure maybe they’ll get there in s3, but the idea of THAT much emotional healing happening in 6 episodes seems unlikely to me.

3) what i think too many people forget is that good omens does not and has never needed such displays of physical intimacy to show love. yeah yeah “anathema and newt has sex so it’s not like it can’t happen in the show.” THAT SEX SCENE WAS NOT TO SHOW THEY WERE IN LOVE THEY BARELY KNEW EACH OTHER. the anathema x newt sex scene was 100% played for comedy. beelzebub and gabriel are far more in love than anathema and newt realistically were and their biggest show of love was singing Their Song together. crowley and aziraphale are so insanely in love and their biggest show of love was, i think, them swapping places to save the other from permanent destruction. it wasn’t the kiss.

and look! we’re back to me harping on how that kiss was not the pinnacle of “see! they’re in love!!!” that kiss was a lot of things but if it took that kiss for you to see the love that was so obviously there, you’ve lost the plot. (side bar: i know that i’m one to talk with my whole viewing them as platonic thing. but i want to make it clear that the kiss itself was not the turning point. it was the culmination of everything that happened in ep6 and also i always knew they were in love, but i digress)

personally i don’t want a sex scene in canon. i want physical affection, OBVIOUSLY. just more in the vein of hand holding and cuddles and gentle kisses. i want tenderness and domesticity.

but as always, that’s just me.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

God. The thing abt the uchiha is that. Yes. It was fucked up that no one trusted them and they got pushed further and further from the village center. However. They were also a clan of ninja cops with fucked up magical eyes that they supercharge by getting horrifically traumatized. So like. I also would not fucking trust them.

[klanced]

Man ty for popping up on my dashboard. I miss voltron, but whenever I try to check what's up I get reaaally bad flashbacks as to how the fandom was. It's kinda worse when u accidentally triggered a community of a popular ship (its not kl@nce) :')))) hnghjgn idk how u do it

voltron is just. such a funny phenomenon. the show was like a C+ at BEST but we all stuck around anyway clinging to the hope that things would eventually improve and then they NEVER did. & so we all had to make do with literal scraps and we were RESOURCEFUL!!! 😭 I have honestly never seen a fandom where the fan content was so divorced from the actual source material like 💀💀💀 and i think this scarcity of good content forced people to be extra creative, which is why the voltron fandom was 1) so genuinely hilarious and 2) full of content producing MACHINES

Literally all we could do was just talk to each other. we were forced to survive off each other’s kindness & it made everyone super co-dependent. it really was a bunch of high schoolers forming parasocial relationships with other high schoolers; of course it got messy!!

also this is such a minor detail in the grand scheme of things but voltron hit tumblr at like the exact time social media became more accessible to people under 13 years old. and like. conflict and discourse is an inevitable part of fandom. but the end result was we had college students picking fights with LITERAL middle schoolers. and I genuinely cannot believe we all thought this was normal behavior!!!!!

[queerpyracy]

wish we had a social script for when an older relative you don't hate but with whom you do have a strained and complicated relationship is dying. like how am i supposed to talk about this and how are my friends supposed to respond. condolences feel like a burden but that's not anyone else's fault

[sillybouquetoflillies]

i keep thinking i rly didnt go thru that much growing up, but idk, everytime i tell someone abt my life, they say i did and kinda just like sit in shock abt it. am i just internet brained or smth, or am i just dramatic?? i rly dont think ive earned a lot of the symtoms of someone who was traumatized that i have. or maybe i havent been in a safe place for long enough to process things??? i dunno. maybe someday far away in the future ill figure things out

[616nightcrawler]

its like. hard to express to people why i love US-comics so much and why i enjoy reading them without mentioning how much fun it is to be in the online communities and be able to like. discuss the themes and meaning and complain about weak writing and bad characterisation to other people that’s like literally half the fun. i LOVE reading comics all the time but its so much more fun when you can talk about it with other people for like superhero us comics. bc theyre such an alive genre that’s basically always moving so we all read our little comics over the week and then we get together and bitch about it in a little online book club. like. it’s the best

[secondsonaym]

[baladric]

of all the times for my creative brain to go into hibernation, ofc it's when i have an entire chapter to rewrite and a bunch of readers who got used to a weekly update waiting on me!!!

[kyluxtrashpit]

So I’m having another… let’s call it an internet crisis. A thing that typically happens when I have Big Problems I can’t do fuck all about which means now it’s time to get Really Upset about problems that are comparatively small but do affect my daily routine (sorry again for no cut, I still can’t remember how to do it on mobile and I fucking hate hate hate the desktop post editor as much as someone can hate a piece of code)

It’s… getting harder to use tumblr. This isn’t about the sidebar, I don’t actually hate the sidebar cause we used to have a sidebar on the other side and I’ve missed it every since it left, but it’s about other things. A lot of things, but I won’t get into them all right now. For me, the new post editor is just. Really fucking difficult to use. If you’re just doing an unformatted, unplanned ramble (like this) or a little shitpost, it’s fine, especially if you’re on mobile (somehow the shitty mobile editor is now less shitty than the desktop editor, how tf did that happen), but if you’ve got multiple paragraphs and literally any formatting is needed? Well, you’re fucked, quite frankly, it is the most dense and convoluted post editor I’ve seen in like roughly 2 decades spent online. I’ve never seen anything more counterintuitive and difficult to use

And I’m sitting here with all these twitter posts I want to move. Some are little and would be easy. Others are a lot longer and more complicated and would shove me into that formatting hell I despise so much (and given how much feedback and unanswered asks to wip I’ve sent with no improvements, I’ve given up hope of it ever being made better). Like god I really, really want to save those posts but is it even worth it to do it here? But where else would I do it?

And the secondary layer too is… there’s no fucking posts here. No engagement on posts either most of the time. 90% of my posts come from my archive cause the kylux and Kylo (plus a few others I check less regularly) tags have very few daily posts and there’s hardly anything on my dash anymore. My original posts maybe get 10 notes on average, and these posts are ones that sometimes got near triple digit rts alone on twitter. Just seems there’s exceptionally few people here to enjoy them

And I’m still on twitter. It’s slowly dwindling but it’s still slightly more active than here. I’m on pillowfort and bsky too and they are truly dead (unless you’re a furry, good on the furries for populating every site in existence). There’s just. Nothing anymore. Maybe my fandoms are just dead but it feels like the meme about passing around the same $20 among friends cause capitalism is destroying us except with posts and likes

Idk. I feel like I don’t have an online home anymore. 90% of my socializing is online and 100% of my creativity is expressed through fandom and. I don’t know where to do that anymore. I have friends I chat with on discord and I love them but it’s… it’s not the same as a whole community, you know? And now that our homes are falling apart with every sign pointing towards imminent foreclosure like. What do I do. I know I’ve been through site losses before but. It feels different. Something new and shiny always came along before the end. I fear that’s not coming and we’ll all just be lost

Idk. I don’t have a conclusion. Twitter is doomed. I hate how the new owners are running on tumblr and I’m still posting here more out of a desperate desire to remember what community felt like than any real actual want to do so. The new sites have nothing going on. Idk. I feel lost. And maybe it’s the 15 other problems I have going on right now and hormones and shit but. I just don’t know what to do and I’m scared of what the future looks like for online communities and how alone I’ll be if I lost them (even though in reality I already have lost them aside from a small handful of people)

[belladonnafleur]

shit, it's Christmas in two days????

[prismadog]

I made some more team rancher family art! eventually I'll finish the fic all these drawings are for but that day is not today [I've sort of hit a wall with it but I'll get over the wall eventually]

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

[musical-chick-13]

Tfw you're gonna need someone to Look Over Your Writing, but the writing topic is kinda fucked up and you don't want to traumatize whoever will theoretically be looking at this.

[fivefeetfangirl]

oh no oh no the tiktokification of tumblr no i don't want to swipe down to see a new photo/gif/video with the same tags

[bitterpngs]

in my anti es tee es gee era /j

[baladric]

realizing that it’s not that i’m necessarily Not Poly—it’s that i myself am not interested in having multiple relationships, but i would honestly find it to be a huge relief for my partner to have other partners, as long as—and here’s the annoying and seemingly unfeasible part—i’m the nesting partner! i’m not saying i need to be the main, but i do need/want the stability of being loadbearing. and also i really do want to be married. so. this is all annoying and i’m tired.