#use your block button instead of sending me anon hate

[fellthemarvelous]

Aziraphale hate makes my brain hurt.

Like let's be really fuckin' for real here.

Neurodivergent fans have repeatedly said that Aziraphale is autistic coded. I agree with them. I have never been diagnosed but I wonder about myself. If only I could get a doctor to take me seriously enough to test me for it, but alas, I'm a 43-year-old woman living in the good ole US of A.

Those with religious trauma have repeatedly said that they identify with him as well. I'm one of those people. I endured 12 years of Catholic schools and just as much time being taught a very black and white view of things that I've had to spend more than 20 goddamn fucking years working to unlearn.

I find that my views as a survivor of religious abuse are often dismissed because people keep wanting to say "Aziraphale doesn't have religious trauma." Yes, thank you, I get that, but unless you've been indoctrinated and brainwashed into a very black and white view of the world, you probably don't understand the kind of feelings Aziraphale's onscreen experiences evoke in so many of us. Heaven might not be real, but the feelings of "God is always watching" still stick with me today even though I no longer believe in God. I have entirely denounced Christianity because of my own personal experience, and I refuse to allow people to try and guilt me or shame me for trauma that I didn't ask for. I wasn't given a choice.

As a child I was told that God was real and always watching everything you do (just like Santa Claus) and can hear everything you say and knows everything you are thinking. Do you know what I learned to do in order to cope with this overwhelming and anxiety-inducing information as a small child? I learned to censor my thoughts. I never spoke up, and I have always felt like I was putting on a show for people because I had to be who I was told to be or I would get into trouble.

Aziraphale said "poverty is a virtue" during The Resurrectionists, and as someone who grew up in the Bible belt and went to private schools, I was taught this very same shit by the Catholic church. He learned in that very same episode that "poverty is a virtue" is actually a tool of oppression to keep the poor poor and the wealthy wealthy. I know we all watched the episode. He went into that episode believing what he said, but by the end of it he knew it was actually utter bullshit. Aziraphale is not ignorant. He's highly intelligent, and he has never been too proud to admit when he has been wrong. He accepts that the information he learned before is not matching up with reality.

And it's so obvious some of you have zero experience with that type of indoctrination because of how very little empathy you show Aziraphale for his "mistake" of "choosing Heaven over Crowley" and "making Crowley sad" so clearly Aziraphale must somehow be "abusive" and "manipulative" and "selfish" and "self-centered" because he didn't choose to run away with Crowley at the end of season two.

First of all.

FIRST OF ALL...

Aziraphale has a mind of his own.

Aziraphale is always going to try and do what is right.

Aziraphale is an angel. He's a being of love. And the reason he's so "bad" at being an angel is because he actually wants to protect humanity. He has always loved humanity. He repeatedly has to contend with what is "right" versus what is "good" and "wrong" versus "evil". Yeah, he has flaws. He's an angel, not a goddamn fucking saint. He has lived on Earth for more than 6,000 years. He has seen everything. He loves doing human things.

He's obsessed with magic. It makes him so happy. He's not very good at it...well not when he's trying to put on a show for Crowley.

He chose to learn French the hard way, so even though he knows every single language in the world, he chooses to be mediocre at French. Something that annoys and amuses Crowley at the same time.

He loves to dance even though angels aren't supposed to dance, and dancing with Crowley was what he wanted the most.

He owns a bookshop and refuses to sell any of his books because they are books he's had for as long as there have been books. He will chase customers away from his collection, and Crowley understands how much they mean to Aziraphale because he refuses to sell any when Aziraphale leaves him in charge.

He and Crowley have been speaking to each other in coded language for more than 6,000 years. They have to be very careful about what they say because Heaven and Hell are always watching.

Heaven has photographs of Crowley and Aziraphale sitting or standing together throughout history. Hell had one photo of Crowley and Aziraphale actually working together and it was Aziraphale's quick thinking and how good he actually is at sleight of hand tricks that managed to get that photo out of Furfur's hands so he wouldn't be able to turn Crowley over to the Dark Council.

Aziraphale saved Crowley from being taken to Hell again. He wasn't able to save Crowley from Hell in Edinburgh, but he sure as heck managed to save Crowley from Hell during WWII. He took Crowley to his bookshop and showed Crowley that he stole the picture from Furfur. He saved Crowley.

You get that, right?

Aziraphale SAVED Crowley.

People always talk about how it's "always Crowley saving Aziraphale" because apparently heroic acts are only heroic when they are grand gestures. The sleight of hand wasn't heroic at all, am I right? It wasn't sparkly and showy. It wasn't interesting enough, therefore not heroic. At least that's all I'm hearing when people start with their "blah Aziraphale deserves to suffer because I have no imagination or ability to understand the media in front of me blah", and all these reasons he deserves to suffer is because Crowley almost got hurt.

Aziraphale did that without flinching and I watch that part closely every single time. He's not scared for himself. He's scared for Crowley, and he managed to hold onto that photograph. He did not fail Crowley. He protected Crowley.

And so here's another thing that we like to point out. The way that Aziraphale, an angel who is effeminate and male presenting, an angel who is soft and full of love, an angel who is kind and forgiving because he has empathy and compassion, is somehow painted as abusive and manipulative. He's not violent, but he could easily fuck up your world. He doesn't use his powers. We have no idea how powerful he is because we only ever see him do small acts. He's used to hiding. It's the only way he has ever been able to protect Crowley.

And I'm not saying that Aziraphale has actually saved Crowley before means that Crowley hasn't also saved Aziraphale. Like, you get that those are not mutually exclusive and their relationship is not transactional, right? They have spent their entire existence protecting each other but never actually getting to be together because Heaven and Hell are always watching.

Yeah, Crowley fell. We all know this. We are aware of this. He was the serpent of Eden. He gave humanity the knowledge of free will.

But what we don't talk about is what Aziraphale gave humanity.

What did he give them?

We all know what it is!

Let's say it together!

He gave Adam and Eve his flaming sword because it was dangerous outside the garden and Eve was pregnant and she was already having a really bad day. He showed them compassion and gave them his extremely powerful angelic weapon so they would stand a chance on the outside of the garden. He gave humanity the gift of compassion. It's just unfortunate that his flaming sword became a weapon of War.

And then what did he do after that?

Ooooh, yeah, that's right.

God asked him about it and he straight up lied to her and pretended he had no idea where he'd managed to misplace it. She didn't say anything after that. He told Crowley the truth though. He told Crowley the truth even though Crowley fell.

Yeah, we know Aziraphale has done some really fucking questionable things. He and Crowley both suck at passing for human in front of observant people like Nina. They're not human. They are still learning, but they managed to experience human history together despite being on opposite sides and their experiences with humanity are what has shaped them into the compassionate and loving duo they are now. One of them is not better from the other.

This, my friends, is what we call meeting in the middle. It's why shades of gray is so important. Aziraphale constantly breaks the rules. Crowley refused to play by Heaven's rules. It's the reason he fell. He doesn't play by Hell's rules either. These two dorks figured out how to cancel each others' miracles out throughout human history in order to have more time learning about humanity and each other because working all day every day sucks when there are so many new things to learn and experience with the people you love.

We know Crowley and Aziraphale both love each other. Neither of them are good at hiding the hearts stars in their eyes.

But here's what's really fucking annoying about the Aziraphale hate.

Aziraphale was already crying when Crowley grabbed him and kissed him. Aziraphale is trying so very hard to do the right thing. He loves Crowley. He does. But he also has a duty to humanity, and he has taken that job very seriously since the creation of Adam and Eve. He sent them out into the world with a flaming sword so they would have a chance at surviving beyond the walls of the garden.

And he knows that Something Terrible is going to happen and he spent all of second season trying to figure out what that Something Terrible was while trying to have some sort of more honest and open relationship with Crowley, but again, they aren't human, they are a demon and an angel approaching life from opposite sides who met in the middle and fell in love with humanity together.

He wants more than anything to tell Crowley how he feels about him, but he wants to do something grand for Crowley because Crowley has always been grand and dramatic and sexy and a little bit scary.

Crowley is impulsive and has a temper and sometimes says the wrong thing but he has always trusted Aziraphale because Aziraphale gave him a chance even after he fell. Aziraphale chose to shelter him instead of smiting him while they stood on top of that wall. He knew he was supposed to kill Crowley, but oops, he gave his sword away to the humans so he didn't really have anything to kill him with and Crowley is the one who created nebulas. The Pillars of Creation is Crowley's work and Aziraphale was there to witness that, but he watched Crowley more than he watched the nebula. He witnessed the pure joy on Crowley's face when he said "let there be light" as a nebula full of colors exploded before their eyes. He was fascinated by Crowley.

But Aziraphale is going back to Heaven even though he has made it perfectly clear he absolutely has no desire to go back to Heaven. He told the Metatron this during their conversation. He spoke these words out loud. They exist.

But then The Metatron said this....

The Metatron. The very same angel who told Aziraphale in season one "to speak to me is to speak to the Almighty." He's the boss. He's the big guy. He's used to existing as a giant head and he had to give himself a body so he wouldn't stand out on Earth. And he knows that Aziraphale and Crowley have been working together since the beginning. He knows they worked together to prevent Armageddon in season one, and now he's made it clear he knows they were working together long before that. And let's face it, Aziraphale really wants to know what this Something Terrible is that Gabriel is running from so he can try to prevent it from happening.

It makes sense that he would want to take Crowley to Heaven with him because he would be able to keep Hell from getting their hands on him again. Aziraphale hates it in Heaven. He doesn't want to go, but Something Terrible is happening and Metatron isn't taking no for an answer, and maybe Heaven won't be so bad if Crowley is there with him. At least they can fix Heaven together.

But Crowley can't go back. We all get that. We don't blame him for saying no. It doesn't change anything.

Something Terrible is about to happen and Aziraphale has to figure out what it is. He wants to change Heaven.

He is fully aware that Heaven sucks. He still has faith in God. His faith isn't in Heaven. He deserted his platoon in season one and threw himself back to Earth so he could figure out how to make sure the war between Heaven and Hell doesn't happen.

But see, here's the thing. Heaven is at the top. Heaven has all the resources. Heaven is responsible for the creation of Hell. Heaven is empty and Hell is overpopulated. Aziraphale knows this. Crowley knows this. It's obvious every time we see either place. Both sides are desperate to go to war and will not hesitate to destroy humanity in the process. This is the opposite of what Crowley and Aziraphale want for humanity. If anyone can change Heaven, it's Aziraphale. He's the only one up there who gives a shit about humanity as far as we know. No one else is going to speak on humanity's behalf.

Some of us are so busy getting mad at Aziraphale for going back to Heaven and giving Crowley a Big Sad. Newsflash: Crowley is not the main character of Good Omens. Aziraphale and Crowley are equals, yet we wanna hold Aziraphale to higher standards because he's an angel, and when he makes mistakes it's proof that he's the bad guy.

Holy mother of all things that trigger my religious trauma, let me tell you. I spent my entire life hating myself every time I made mistakes. I've had to teach myself that just because I mess up sometimes doesn't mean I'm bad. It means I'm human. I still struggle with it. I probably always will. So when you say that Aziraphale deserves to be punished for breaking Crowley's heart, you not only ignore that Aziraphale's heart is also broken, you're saying he deserves to be punished for doing what he thinks is right.

Wanting to change Heaven for the better is not a bad thing.

And some of y'all wanna see him suffer for going back into the lion's den that is Heaven, knowing that he is already an outcast, that they have already tried to kill him once, knowing that he is a deserter, that he has been lying to Heaven about a lot of things, and you still think he's blinded by Heaven? You think he's just so naive and that's the only reason he's going back. He doesn't show his emotions the same way Crowley does so it means he doesn't care as much. He's expected to consider Crowley's feelings over his own when making choices. Like holy shit if all of that hasn't defined my experience as a woman with religious trauma in this fucking society. He's expected to be subservient to Crowley and if he doesn't do what Crowley wants then he's being unreasonable and illogical.

What the actual fuck, y'all.

Like seriously.

I'm sick of this bullshit. I had to step away from this fandom because of how toxic some people in this fandom are. It's not chasing me away, but the fact that I chose to hang out in a a more toxic fandom that is already notorious for being really toxic over a fandom that claims to be more open-minded and welcoming should probably tell you something.

It gave me a lot of perspective, and yeah, I'm still gonna speak up against the bullshit Aziraphale hate.

People are entitled to their opinions, but the Aziraphale hate isn't an opinion. It's just ableist, misogynistic garbage. At this point we all know y'all say these extreme things about Aziraphale because y'all get more joy out of the harm and alienation it is causing others.

Keep being loudly wrong, but if you think I'm not entitled to challenge shitty-ass, harmful, hateful discourse, bite my ass.

I'm not the one who lost the plot in this fandom.

[sonknuxadow]

will always be wild to me how proship/anti anti/whatever types are always going "oh im just anti harassment :) i dont think people should be harassed over fictional characters thats all :)" but then the second they see someone say something they dont like they suddenly have no problem with harassing people over fictional characters

[daughter-of-sapph0]

what do you gain from sending cruel anons? satisfaction? approval from others? does someone pay you to do it? I never understood why you freaks do that bullshit. it's useless anyway.

I'm not publishing your anonymous ask. no one deserves to look at that slop.

it doesn't even hurt me. nothing you say to me can be worse than the pain I've already felt. your words mean nothing to me. you can tell me to kill myself all you want. you'll never be louder than the voice in my head who almost convinced me to do it.

I've already reached my lowest point in my life. I've gotten better. I love myself too much to let you take that away from me.

you, on the other hand, are sitting alone in your room and copypasting the same generic message to random trans people you see online, because your life has literally no value, because you will never do anything of note, because you're unworthy of any sort of affection from others, and you will die alone, unhappy, unfulfilled, unaccomplished, and your last dying wish as you sit on your death bed surrounded by no one is that you could have spent more time being a cruel heartless bigoted irredeemable cunt to people online.

meanwhile I'll be living my best life. I'll forget about your entire existence later this afternoon. I'll continue to spend time with the people I love, and help spread positivity to people who need it. I will outlast you. I'll live my life to the fullest while you rot in your isolation. I will outlive you. my legacy will continue after I'm gone while people will try and pretend that your ilk never existed. I will outlove you. I will be a reminder that your negativity and hatred is but a momentary stain on existence that will be washed away by unconditional love and support.

I'm no longer speaking to that anonymous asker. instead I address this to my followers, as well as anyone else who may see this post: do not answer anon hate ever. it's not worth it. those people do not care about your response, and only receive gratification from seeing you suffer.

I know a lot of you weren't online in ye olden days. but back then, we had rules for the internet. and one of them is to never feed the trolls. feeding the trolls mean they win. somewhere along the line some of them managed to convince people that blocking the trolls means they win. that's not true. blocking means you win because you'll never have to see their disgusting horrendous comments again. the block button is your best friend. use it.

if you get anon hate, delete it. block the sender (which I'm pretty sure now ip blocks whoever sent the ask), and if it continues, turn of anons, or even turn off asks in general. do not let them hurt you. do not engage. do not respond. do not answer them. they aren't looking for a debate. and you won't change their mind. answering their ask just exposes their slop to all your followers. and none of them want to see that shit.

remember that for every hateful anon message you get, there are 100 people who love you unconditionally and care about you. do not let the loud hateful minority win.

maybe what I'm doing counts as feeding the troll. I'm not directly answering their ask, but I'm still getting involved. but fuck it. I'm turning their hate into positivity. I'm using this as a moment to spread awareness to others.

if you're a person on the internet who's received hateful messages, especially if you're trans, I promise you that you're not alone. ignore them. find people who care about you and love you. I promise that the small annoying obnoxious voice does not represent the opinions of society as a whole. I promise that nothing they say is true. I promise that you are loved. unconditionally. forever. simply because you are you.

[sulieykte]

Honestly you and andraga are just so annoying ugly and cringe like stfu

Just kys at this point

Sorry

Honestly anon, I think you need to take several minutes and think about the way you conduct yourself on the internet. I assume you're the same person that's sent hate about Andra to me, her and Lana prior to this message and I'm going to tell you that I actually know exactly who you are and you've given yourself away today. The only reason your account hasn't been immediately blocked is because I want you to see this and get something into your brain that fortunately for society, hasn't finished developing.

I'm a grown woman and I know this is nothing more than silly little words from a young girl that has nothing better to do with her life. I have already laughed this message off and I will move on from it as soon as I post this. But there are people on the internet that might receive a message like this and have a very different response, that might take it personally and think that your words are true, and god forbid they follow through with what you've told them to do.

It might seem cool and edgy right now to tell someone to kill themself but I promise you as you grow older and see the toll mental health can take on a person, you won't think it's such a funny thing to send and you certainly better hope you haven't been a contributing factor in someone's decision to kill themself because that will weigh on you for the rest of your life.

So with peace and love, get the fuck off my blog. I'm sure you know where the block button is, I think you should get get comfortable using it from now instead of acting up like this.

[thief-of-eggs]

Do people not know how to use the block button anymore? Or the back button for the askers that came here from AO3?

Holy fuck, you curate your own experience. You (hate anons) are choosing to continue to make yourselves and those around you miserable instead of shutting up and moving on. You’re the ones that keep reaching out and actively sending on hate, fueling this cycle of misery rather than using the damn block button or unfollowing the blog/tags/whatever is putting this on your dash.

I’ve been quietly watching this whole thing go down and haven’t been compelled to say anything until now because Egg and the others seemed to have it handled but if for some reason this saga bothered me as much as her content seems to bother you, I would have taken my own advice by now.

I will never understand why people go out of their way to be miserable and to drag others down with them.

Anyway, sorry about the anons. (I’m not sure if there’s more than one or if there’s just one person with wayyy too much time on their hands. I’m also not sure which one sounds worse.)

I haven’t gotten to read a whole lot of your stuff, but what I have read so far seems cool. The anons have bad taste as well as poor internet literacy.

100%, the internet is vast and the possibilities are endless- meaning that you are completely and fully responsible for what content you engage with, especially on platforms like this.

It’s is so easy to block creators you don’t like. To click the back button. To not engage.

It reads as incredibly insecure to need to share with a creator how much you dislike them and their work. Like, you cared that much that you couldn’t just let it go and move on with your life? It took up enough of your brain space that you needed to come to my blog and tell me to my face what you don’t like about me?

It’s just incredibly immature, in a world where our experience is our responsibility.

Thank you @fanby-fckry for your encouraging words <3 it is nice to see a few kind messages in my inbox amidst all of this. I don’t know why this suddenly provoked all the attack dogs, but everyone is jumping on the hate bandwagon and as you said- whether it’s one butthurt person or many, it’s just… not a jazzy experience?

Anyway, thank you again, your support means a lot <333 This is a general message to the rest of you to stop being so silly, it’s not that deep. You can very easily block me, I promise the world won’t end if you do

[1863-project]

so for your poll abt abelism in fandom communities - i voted yes + reblogged but i will say i dont 1000% know im doing this right.

but for my experiences its been a lot of stigmatising of cluster b personality disorders. i have BPD which is already incredibly misunderstood/stigmatised but especially in fandom spaces where its "i headcanon x character w bpd" and immediately met with "no u cant bc ppl w bpd r evil and functionally not even ppl!!! all they do is hurt ppl they care about fuck them fuck ppl w bpd!!!" which

is incredibly harmful, as you'd imagine.

as well, i have autism and suspected schizophrenia and OCD (autism diagnosed, i am working on getting evaluated for schizophrenia and/or OCD) and fandom spaces can be incredibly rude to people with autism. whether it is schizophrenia related or not, i deal with extreme bouts of paranoia. fandom spaces also have a tendency to play into this - ie "joking" threats to be in my walls to hunt me down to kill me because i have a different fandom opinion.

its. alot. and i avoid most fandom spaces because of it.

Anon, I'm so sorry this has been your experience, because it absolutely should not be. This is the entire point of doing the poll and using the data to work on an essay - this behavior needs to be addressed and acknowledged as harmful.

I'm autistic with OCD myself, and this website is definitely bad to people with OCD. The misunderstanding of intrusive thoughts and how so many people become purity police and assume those intrusive thoughts actually mean you want to do something instead of understanding that they cause OCD folks extreme distress and anxiety is really, really harmful. And don't get me started on autism - I've been out in the real world doing self-advocacy for over a decade now, and the way a lot of people in fandom spaces treat autism is abysmal - there's even a lot of internalized ableism on that front, i.e. "I can't be ableist because I'm also disabled!" We all have internalized ableism to work through because of the world we live in.

Cluster B personality disorders and psychotic disorders get it the worst, though, with people treating those with them as "inhuman" and "evil" more often than not. No one is inherently more "evil" than anyone else. A personality disorder doesn't necessarily indicate that a person is bad. A psychotic disorder doesn't, either. BPD in particular actually makes a person very vulnerable to being abused due to the nature of how it works, but people love ignoring that part.

RE: people using your paranoia to send hateful anons, be really careful about what you share about yourself online. If you give too much information about what specifically can be used to hurt you, some people will absolutely do it. I know I may sound like an overly cautious adult to many of you (I'm 34), but when I was a teenager, we didn't put any personal information online in order to keep ourselves safe. If you aren't talking to people you really trust, don't necessarily share that information, because people are often cruel when they feel they can be so without any repercussions. Don't put all your triggers in your Carrd, don't make massive DNIs with all of the things that can hurt you in them - just use the block button and protect yourselves. Not everyone is acting in bad faith, and indeed, most humans aren't, but there are always some who will, and if they know how to hurt you or get back at you, they won't hesitate to hit where it hurts.

I'm sorry you have to remove yourself from fandom spaces just to feel safe, anon. It really isn't fair and you should be allowed to have a safe experience too.

[funtxmequeen]

Rules

I am on mobile, so my tags are very minimal.

Do not reblog threads you are not apart of. This also applies to my headcanons, but I'm confident that the only people who reblog those are ppl who find it and don't realize this is an RP blog.

I'm lenient about this, but do not reblog art or memes from here, as it clogs up my feed.

Don't poop on the floor

Foxy is transfem. While I do not mind IN CHARACTER transph*bia for the sake of conflict and angst, I have an absolute ZERO TOLERANCE for ACTUAL transphobia. As such, anons who do not make it clear if the transph*bia is real or fake will be ip blocked immediately. (Ideally, send in an emoji of some sort so I can identify you, or if you're a mutual trying to stir up some drama, dm me ahead of time so we're on the same page.) Hate towards me or my muse will not be tolerated whatsoever.

IC transph*bia posts will be tagged "Transphobia," as a catch all, but if I need to make a specific tag, please tell me. I want the drama, but in no way do I want to make this blog unsafe for you. Any actual tr*nsphobic content I receive will not be posted.

If, even after all my efforts, this blog still does not feel safe to you, but you still would like to interact with me (not Foxy), DO NOT SOFT BLOCK ME! Some of you already know this, but this is not my only blog. Instead, please inform me that this blog makes you uncomfortable and you don't want to follow it. I will gladly reach out to you on my hub blog, and direct you to my other fnaf rp blogs. Your safety is more important than our hobby.

You never know what you're going to get with me. You may get a multipara starter/reply, you may get a few sentences. I don't expect you to match my length, especially if I've written a behemoth of a starter... but I do ask that you try to match my effort. If I'm writing a huge reply and you respond with something that doesn't match the setting or context, (and do this consistently,) I'm more than likely doing to drop threads, and if this keeps happening, I'll just soft block you. Yes I do this for fun, but I put abouts and rules and everything you need to know for a reason, and if you can't be bothered to put in the effort to read it, or properly read my responses, then don't even bother.

I am a mobile user. Maybe once in a while, I'll pop onto a computer at the library to fine tune posts like this, but it's hard, if not impossible for me to use the site to its full extent. As such, icons will not be used, tags will be scarce, and trimming posts will not be done the way I like.

Trimming posts are a strange area. I have adhd and autism, so the best way for a thread to be trimmed is with the last response still attached. This way I can remember what's going on in the thread, which will lead to an overall better rp experience. If posts don't get trimmed, I'll just have to make the reply and hit that big red X button that deletes everything before my response, so take that as a warning.

RESPECT MY FUCKING BOUNDARIES. I've had some issues with one individual who sucked me into this Fandom, they refused to take no for an answer, and forced me to rp an incest ship. This has scared me away from the rpc for years. If I say no, it does not mean "convince me," it means no. I have a three strikes your out policy.

I have a full-time job as a daycare teacher. I am not always online. Do not pester me for replies.

I like to talk in the DMs!! Please don't think that this is a passive aggressive attempt to get you to reply, as eager as I get, this is a hobby, and I will not rush you intentionally!! Please tell me politely if I make you feel rushed or don't want to talk via dms. (I personally just think that writing is more fun when you know your partners.) That being said, I do not want you feeling like you are responsible for my personal feelings, and vice versa. You are allowed to say no, I am allowed to say no. If you try and guilt trip me, that will count against your three strikes. (And I will warn you dw.)

In addition to this, if you do NOT like communicating via dms, please tell me, and I will stop. If you just ignore me or ghost me, I'm either going to continue to try and reach out, thinking you forgot or didn't get notified, or I'll become intimidated, and think I did something wrong. We're all adults here, we can use our words. You don't have to follow me if you don't want to interact.

I have kept up with the lore moderately well, but if I don't know something, or have forgotten something, do not bully me. I have zero tolerance for it. You respect me, and I respect you.

If you want to let me know you've read these, go ahead and like it, but it's not required, I use an honor system anyway.

[v-arbellanaris]

FAQ

about

vee, xhe/xer, 30. i don’t have twitter. i write, i read, i enable. big fan of villains, especially when they’re killing people and doing awful things. the more atrocities, the better.

before you ask a question...

I have a personal question about you that isn’t listed in your about

everything you need to know about me

Haha, very funny, no but seriously, I wanna know–

i don’t owe the internet any personal information about myself. you are not entitled to any piece of me that i don’t choose to share.

How can you like/dislike [fictional character]?!

they’re fictional

But THAT CHARACTER is evil and awful! Look at all the awful things they’ve done! Does this mean you condone their actions? / But THAT CHARACTER is so good! Look at all the amazing and morally upstanding things they’ve done! How can you not like them? / It’s hypocritical to like THAT character but hate THIS one because–

tbh all of this sounds like a you problem so good luck with that

Why do you have anon off?

because i can turn it off. the option to send me asks on anon is a privilege that i don’t always want to grant, especially when people take advantage of anonymity and use it to be abusive, invasive and entitled. 

When are you going to respond to my prompt? When are you going to update [x] fic?

my posting schedule 

I didn’t unfollow you but I’m not following you anymore. Did you softblock me?

nope. my blog was terminated briefly on 16 dec 2022 for having a vpn on while browsing on pc (don’t do that, apparently), which has messed with my follower count a bit. i don’t usually bother with softblocking these days, so feel free to follow me again if you want to!

tags of interest/writing

my da meta

other people’s da meta living in my head rent free 

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vee rewrites da (meta/references/info/worldbuilding work/character work i plan to incorporate into my personal canon)

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this is a fandom blog primarily, so real life politics may seep in occasionally but i don’t do my activism on tumblr.

if you’re checking this bc you’re worried i won’t wanna interact bc you like certain characters that i am critical of, this is my reassurance that i don’t really care unless you’re gonna be an asshole abt the characters i like.

this blog is also fairly bioware critical and anti chantry – it doesn’t necessarily mean i hate the series, or even that i hate specific characters, but i do engage w the content critically (and it’s all tagged with “#[character] critical”, “bioware critical” and “anti chantry” specifically), but if that doesn’t float your boat, feel free to skip this blog.

i WILL block for clowning on my posts. i also block because i hate the way you interpret canon or my favourite characters – and if you feel that way about me, i encourage you to do the same instead of wasting both of our times with anon. i use the block button liberally and generously and so should you <3

other info

minors interact at your own discretion. smts i forget to tag 18+ content

if ya need anythin tagged that i dont already just lmk – unless it’s the word queer. 

credits

mobile header and sidebar art is emerald graves concept art by matt rhodes for dragon age: inquisition.

icon is fanart birthday gift of my warden kalyani tabris by @/demandthedoodles.

[ups3tti]

I very much did not want to have to deal with this, but I think it's necessary to say something because of how many times me and other people's names have been mentioned to an annoying degree.

The likelihood that this post will be seen by many is low because I will not be tagging it with any fandoms since there's no point to that, but I'm tired and want to say something.

Yes, this is about dreamswap-crackhead-council, who I cannot tag because they have me blocked.

( tw/cw for mentions of SA and pedophilia. )

I understand that receiving anonymous death threats and hate is an awful thing to have to deal with, however dealing with it via name-dropping people who *might* have done it with very little explanation and then blocking them so they have no chance to defend themselves is not a healthy or acceptable way to do so and I don't appreciate my name being associated with any of this when I had nothing to do with the anon hate and have nothing to do with any of the other people you think did it.

Have you considered that if you've blocked everyone you think is sending you hate and are still receiving hate, that maybe you didn't actually block the ones who were sending hate? Just keep anon asks off or block more people instead of being so fixated on one group that you can't think of any other solution.

I do not appreciate the comparisons you made either. You being upset that someone called you a pedophile does not give you any right to tell someone that them asking you to not put fandom tags on your post that is irrelevant to said fandom (I do not count "but these people may have sent me hate" as relevant) that they are equal to popes and pastors who abuse children, and people who silence sexual assault victims. That belittles the struggles of sexual assault victims and in general is just a really messed up comparison to make.

You do not get to paint me, my friends, or my past friends as abusers because you think we *might* have sent you anon hate a couple of times, or because we had some discord arguments.

What is your goal here? You want people to do something about those they welcome into the fandom? Do what? It's a fandom. You can't choose who interacts with it, you can only choose who you interact with. Use your block button and some common sense.

Leave me alone and keep my name off your blog please, thank you.

[lindszeppelin]

She's telling people to block her, but then allows her friends to send her screenshots of people talking about her. That's what we mean when we say she has spies stalking people for her. People who blocked her are being stalked by her friends. I didn't want to put my story out here, but y'all cowardly anon Mollie shooters left me no choice.

I know this because it happened to me on twitter. I have her blocked there (and here), and I discovered that she somehow got a screenshot of my tweet, probably because her friend was following my page (which, I should add, is private! No one can see my tweets unless they're following me) and clearly told her I was telling someone else about her. In my defense, it was because that someone else was asking about gossip she had heard. Gossip that Mollie's spreading.

I hate to admit that I was once a follower of Mollie's, and I once tried interacting with her here and on twitter. But I regret it because every time I tried talking to her, I'd get ignored. So I gave up and soon realized that I had made a mistake in thinking she was a decent human being.

There's a reason the Broadway fandom dislikes her and still talks about her now that she's left that fandom. She's not making many friends here either. And if she has friends telling her that people are talking about her, maybe she should listen to them and not make jokes about it instead. If she's really hurt by it, then her friends are shitty for telling her that people talk about her. But she's clearly not hurt, since she made her layout dedicated to what people have said about her.

If she hates people talking about her, then she needs to really think about how the people she gossips about feel. But she didn't listen to the people who already came forward to her with their feelings, so I doubt she gives a damn about the people she claims to stan or their publicists coming across her blog and reading what she wrote about them.

Austin said his publicist told him all about the voice discourse and now he's self-conscious and is doubting himself/his voice. How do we know that he isn't also aware of Mollie taking the rumor Vanessa's fans started about him cheating with Olivia and using it as a hot topic for her blog, imagine how he'd feel if he discovered that his own fans now think he's a cheater because of her blog. Olivia is all but slut shamed in those posts about her and Austin, so imagine how she'd feel if she knew about them. I'm also sure Kaia wouldn't appreciate being a topic in the blog either.

Except we're not gossiping about her, and we're not bullying or harrassing her. We're all sharing our stories because we deserve to be heard. If she has a problem with that, then she should practice what she preaches. Use the block button. Her friends should block us too instead of coming at us for saying how we feel.

If you know your friend is triggering people with her gossip, is ignoring people's feelings, is acting like our feelings don't matter and you're letting her act this way, that says a lot about you as a person.

hi diva babe, thank you for coming forward with your story <3 you've got a safe space here to share about your experience. and im so sorry to hear that she harassed you

i will say that yes i agree, its not like austin is okay with gossip. he clearly does not like it and stays away from it. and he is affected mentally by it. so...the topic of gossip is really one that should be boiled down to gossip inherently is toxic and can feed upon negative perpetuations of real life people

[contentment-of-cats]

A timely reminder

Fuck Anons

Anons are not worth your mental health or the pleasure and community you derive from fandom.

"But some of my followers are shy!"

They can create an account that they can use just for doing asks. Exposing you to abuse and bullying should not be the price of someone being shy. I have also turned on anons when someone has asked me to via DM, in a post comment, or via an anon comment on my Ao3 so that they could send me an ask without unmasking themselves. This protects me and protects them.

Tumblr recently started requiring a valid email address to send an anon without being signed in. This could be seen a couple of different ways - Tumblr wants some sort tabs on people using their site anonymously, or that they want people sending anons to create an account. There is nothing to stop an anon from creating a burner email account in order to harass, so that only goes so far.

Block anons. I am serious. Just go into your account settings and do it. You can even turn off asks entirely.

Per Tumblr: "Anonymous asks are not associated with a specific account, and blocking those will block the IP address of the sender."

So, if you block an anon and someone suddenly disappears from your followers, or you get a follower asking why they can't see or interact with your blog, then you have your answer as to where your anon bullying might well be coming from.

However, isn't it easier to just turn off anons?

Yes. It is. My anons are kept off 99.9 percent of the time and I sleep just fine.

How to hate yourself - anonymously

It can be done and it's the ultimate histrionic-disorder-by-internet. It set my Ms.Scribe whiskers twitching, and so I tried it out for myself.

Go to your own home page and click your own ask button:

If you have anons disabled, it will look like this:

Go to your settings and enable anons:

With anons enabled, go back to your page and open an ask. The option to send anonymously will be accessible.

Send yourself something.

Wait. This one needs media.

Here we go.

Anons don't get media! Suck it, anons! Have a gif instead.

GIF by welcometoyouredoom

[valiantlycleverinfluencer]

What gives you the right to decide you know antisemitism better than Jews and can argue when told you're being antisemitic?

I thought part of Jewish values included debate. Interesting thing I’ve learned is not applicable to all those who claim Jewish identity. If you’re not the person I’m talking to then what part do you have in this conversation genuinely? And if you are the person I’m talking to then why would you switch to anon when we were having a conversation.

It’s interesting to me as well that I got two hate anon messages for the first time because I critiqued Zionism. I’m not going to be responding to any of these even if you send more but I just wanted to say my piece. And as this is my blog I can do what I want.

If you don’t like me you’re allowed to use this beautiful function called the block button and never have to read anything I say ever again :) that’s the joy of having boundaries. When you come into my space you’re actually inviting an another opportunity to listen and read what I have to say. Effectively putting me in your boundaries instead of out.

I wish you good day and I hope you grow to a place where you don’t send hateful messages to people you don’t know on the internet

[ps1demodisk]

No one came to talk to you about anything because we were all scared of being your next target for being run out of the server. Given that you literally had a “villains of the week” list, I’d say that was a valid fear as well.

I don't think it was considering the chat that was made was never used and was literally a joke started by peachy. I don't have proof of the fact peachy started the joke, so i don't expect you to believe me on that, but i decided to go back through our DMs to check because i really do wanna be able to provide receipts for stuff where possible and i found other stuff that backs up a few things i mentioned before in the doc. I'm fully aware this might just be brushed off or used to make things worse but I really like using the block button right now so I don't care.

I was being blamed for the stuff with newt as if I made peachy hate him or something, but if you look here (these are before the qpr formed, before I was even really friends with any of these guys except Mason) you'll see that's not true and peachy had a problem before I was even in the picture. Keep in mind for the timestamps I'm in the uk and also have a bad sleep schedule.

You'll see where this cuts off I start asking about something with Teb, the next two screenshots continue on from there but I'm only including them because otherwise that last message in the last screenshot is gonna be taken out of context and if you're gonna use that against me I want it used against me in the full context. Also this conversation ended up being how I became an actual part of the friend group to begin with.

I'll say now that I think the gagging message was pretty rude especially considering I barely knew Teb in any capacity and had 0 grasp on them, and I am sorry for that along with calling some of his behaviours annoying in a weirdly aggressive manner.

Here's me having a little moment over something Turdle said, I didn't blame him for it or act like he was the devil because I actually don't like getting people in trouble all the time or hurting them, I was kinda out of it because stuff was fresh and once I relaxed a bit and processed I decided to join back and not avoid Turdle because I understood there was no malicious intent and this was actually entirely my problem, you can see me fully acknowledging the midst of it that it's a bit silly to be as uncomfortable as I was and to feel like i couldn't be near him.

And there's these from peachy about aum/bonk, who admittedly I've never really felt too comfortable around, not really anything she did I just didn't vibe with her personality, but if I just wanted to make people hate each other for some weird power trip then don't you think I'd have blown this up or something instead of treating it as not a big deal (because it wasn't a big deal)? Especially considering I knew staffs stance on tracers?

I won't tell you what to think or how to feel about these screenshots because at this point I don't really care enough about any individual person from any of this to have any real desire to reconnect or "fix" things. If you want to talk about anything I've posted I am ok to have a conversation about it I guess but I'm not interested in any sort of personal conversation over it if you get what I mean?

I won't turn anon asks back on for now purely because of the sui bait ones, but I'm fine if you want to make a burner and grab me in DMs or send an ask via a burner. My discord is also searchable under the same @ I have here, I didn't block anyone there iirc, but you'll probably have to send a friend request.

At the time of posting it's 23:17 so I may be in bed before anyone sees this.

[barbierpt]

it truly amazes me how some people online will go to extraordinary lengths when they just don't like someone or what they're saying. congrats on whoever you are going around harassing anyone you see that's following my blog or that i'm reblogging posts from/they're reblogging posts from me. genuinely envy that you have that amount of free time to cyberstalk and sit on anonymous in their inboxes. i'm assuming you're not in my inbox because i have you blocked. hence the need to go to others like khadijha and nikkiitalks, asking rei if they're "still eating my ass" (super gross btw), and i'm sure there are other blogs i haven't seen that are just trying to mind their business and do their thing.

also you must real limber with all that reaching you're doing claiming that i'm "racist," "transphobic," "dismissing palestinians" (where??), "shading twiggy" (literally said in a post nothing was about twiggy) and apparently targeting twiggy (how exactly?? where's your proof??) when i've had them blocked and haven't looked at their blog since i hit that button. my personal favorite bs claim is that i'm "inciting anons" to go after others when i've never once done that and then here you are, obsessive anon, unable to get me out of your mind enough that you're in everyone else's inboxes about me spreading lies without sources and proof.

to clarify on my post last night about this section in particular:

don't get me wrong, i believe in writing what you want it's fiction and impossible to believe a public space can cater to everyone's perfect ideals, but i also believe in just... common sense?? idk (this is one very specific example i personally experienced) maybe let's not use a virus breaking out as a plot device in an rp when covid is still fresh and ongoing in the world. there are people who've lost loved ones or may still be suffering from longterm side effects.

congratulations on once again jumping to conclusions in your harassment towards nikkiitalks last night. this wasn't about their group or them. i didn't even know that was a thing that happened. no idea who nikkiitalks really is beyond just a blog i followed and reblogged a few posts from, we never talked. this virus plot example was about something i briefly considered as an event in a superpower rp i ran where a virus broke out and depowered all superhumans. but then i thought it would be in extremely poor taste with covid happening so i never actually played it out.

to the anon(s): this behavior of yours is extremely childish, bullying, obsessive, and frankly disgusting. you don't need to like what i'm saying on my blog and omg!! that's what the block button is for. i recommend using it and moving on instead of sitting on my blog and performing olympic level mental gymnastics to take statements from paragraph long posts out of context and twist them into a false narrative to fuel your hate. also it really says a lot that you're doing this all hidden behind the anonymous feature. you are literally worse than whatever you're claiming i am and your actions have shown that.

anyways, the only apology i'll give is that i'm genuinely sorry to anyone who's been unintentionally dragged into whatever this drama is, whether you follow me or not. idc if people block me or ignore me but i won't stand for anon hate or harassment, whether it's against me or for me. and if there's anyone out there sending any anon hate/harassment on my behalf about other blogs, stop. i want no association with that.

[larrysblooming]

Why are projecting so hard onto Harry 😭 it's not your sex life and he likes being called daddy. You shouldn't care so much

Oh honey…

If YOU need other people to see Harry as a daddy and YOU are so concerned with a tag on my post that is literally a joke and YOU feel the need to send anons trying to defend Harry’s “daddyism” and YOU take Harry’s ambiguous post as confirmation for your agenda and leave no room for different interpretations then YOU are the one projecting and caring a bit too much about Harry’s sex life.

Listen, I don’t know why Harry posted this picture, there could be several different explanations, and frankly, I don’t care enough to figure it out. But if you think this is Harry giving fans permission to sexualize him and call him daddy after years of expressing how much he hates being viewed that way and literally saying “Jesus Christ 🙄” in response to these kind of signs, you are beyond help.

Go touch some grass and enjoy your Sunday instead of sending stupid asks like this. Learn to scroll past something you don’t agree with. Or better yet, there’s a block button, learn to use it. Get off my dick and get off of Harry’s too. We all know the only person who belongs there is Louis. And whether he’s screaming “Mommy” “Babygirl” “Slut” or “Daddy” on it doesn’t matter to me, so why tf does it matter to you???

[viscountessevie]

@ Some Polins Sending Death Threats and Calling People Disgusting Names On Anon Over a FUN Sleepover for The Fandom

You’re SO pressed about feeling left out that you lost your reading comprehension skills??? We literally said it’s for EVERYONE!!! READ BEFORE YOU SPEAK 

If you felt left out cos you’re a bigot who sends shit like this:

then GOOD we don’t want you ANYWHERE NEAR OUR SLEEPOVER! Also we didn’t tag it as Polin because most of yall have us have us blocked anyway and you would have whined about us “taking away attention” from Tudum when literally we did not care and didn’t have anything to do that night because we weren’t interested in tuning in. We literally cannot win with you people I swear to God. 

Also why are yall so unhappy? You got new content - go revel in that and leave my goddamn friends alone for having our own fun!! 

You could have chosen to join us and use my question banners and send it to your own mutuals and friends (like yes I criticise Pen for her actions on the show and dislike yall for supporting a racist character but if you wanna have your own sleepover on your side we literally can’t stop you???) but no instead you decided to be disgusting and send death threats literally days after people in your own camp sent this to us: 

Pretty sure it’s the same anon - @ anon you love your copy paste button huh.

I am so tempted to say you guys should listen to your own Polin anon about the second sentence ^^^ but unlike the anons we aren’t going to put death threats of hateful assholes in your fandom on the rest of you, we would never stoop to that level.

One last thing to these vile anons: hiding behind anon isn’t going to make yall LW you’re worse for doing this to real people directly. This isn’t going to make N&N want to fuck you, instead they would be super disappointed yall are doing this in the name of their fictional characters. This is so embarrassing for yall. [Don’t even bother sending me anything - you’ll be reported, blocked and deleted]

We’re once again asking all of you to examine the extreme toxicity in your fandom thanks. Again the Sleepover is still open to all who can be respectful and nice - just because we don’t have an interest in sending asks about Polin to our friends, that shouldn’t stop yall from sending them if you want to your own moots and friends.