I believe...
Every Human being on this planet with a soul is Evil. There is Evil in Your Heart. There is Evil in My Heart. There is Evil being sown in every childs heart, and reaped in every adults heart. There are stresses and mundanities alike that bring out the worst in us. You're bad. You've done bad things, think about it. Be honest with yourself. Have you hurt people? Have you hurt yourself? Have you neglected your fellow man? Have you neglected yourself?
There is immense pain within each of us. Suffering that we can never name properly, and issues that we try to grasp so we can make the most of what we have left when we strip ourselves from our moaning and our aching. Not opposite, but right alongside our fears and our pains our suffer; intertwined like lovers in the dark, sweaty, miserable, and warm, summer night; lie our dreams our hopes our aspirations and our passions. We see them, vaguely, and confused we long for something more. Always more. We are greedy, and we are selfish, and we each want something. Some things we can find- others that simply aren't attainable. That greed and that selfishness is Evil, & that greed and that selfishness is Divine.
You Want Something.
You Burn For Something. If there is something that keeps you awake at night, that haunts your dreams, that permeates your waking thought, and makes you sob like a child- then rest assured that you are a divine creation. Made not in anyone's image, but nonetheless given a spark of life. Within your heart lies old reliable fears, and wild dreams.
Your heart, as with every living heart on this planet, grows Evil. not alone though, as Evil can't grow alone. In the ecosystem of your soul, evil sprouts and grows, but only in the presence of Love. Within your heart, within my heart, within the hearts of all humankind- there is a garden of Love and Hate, Callousness and Kindness. Within you, there is grand theatrics, and apathetic tendencies.
Because you Are.
You are Evil you are Malice you are Love you are Kindness you are capable of anything.
Both Amazing highs, and pathetic lows.
Your crippling fear and your insatiable hatred, holds hands with your courageous love and unstoppable drive.
Some days, you're going to feel nearly nothing but pain. Nonetheless birds will wing, the sun will rise, music will play, rivers will run, parents will run late to work, and air conditioning units will blast, even when you insist the rhythms of the world don't concern you. You will hurt, yourself and others. As you are human. Other days, nothing will go unnoticed, and you will share little secrets with the world around you. You will see frogs, and lizards and squirrels do things that you wish you had recorded but instead they will be small gifts for you. You will feel love. You will feel kindness and grace. Sometimes, one of these phenomenon will interrupt the other. But I believe in you. Your Life will be Worthwhile. The Pain will never be for naught. The Joy will never be wasted on you. You will never deserve any of it, because it can not be deserved.
I believe in all of this, because I have seen it. And I believe in you.
You are here, and I believe in you.
So try to choose your kindness when you can, and forgive yourself and others for their malice. Because the human condition is a very difficult disease to manage.
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