#vent

[systelon]

「 a deep sadness you can't fix. 」

[xitsensunmoon]

A personal rant but being a good, somewhat experienced artist while having zero experience in writing genuinely feels so so embarrassing

Yes I did draw these cool pictures with these cool characters. Yes I do agree they're cool. C-can I what? Can I talk about them more? Umm uhhmm eeeffv no no they're really cool I promise!!! They're cool in my head!!! I PROMISE THEY'RE NOT JUST A DECORATION THEY HAVE A PERSONALITY

And If I do try and the quality of writing is palpably worse than the quality of art I feel like it just ruins the beauty of the drawings, too. Perishes

[fawnsky]

was i ever healing or was i just lying to myself

[pr1soners-d1lemma]

I don't even remember who I used to be.

[eonsmillennia]

"That last little spark of the person I loved stayed burning for less than twenty seconds before snuffing itself out."

@narcissistcookbook

[nofuckingideawho]

I don't know what younger me was on but they should have died from it

[abortedexecution]

how do i explain to my therapist that even if i feel the happiest in the world i still want to die

[trans-axolotl]

have been on an involuntary psych hold since Thursday and I’m still fucking locked up and I am so pissed off. probably still in here for at least another week fuck this shit

[moonpool-system]

Anyways don't fucking date somebody polyamorous if ur not actually ok with them choosing polyamory. my friends partner of FOUR YEARS just admitted he's been lying to her THE ENTIRE FUCKING TIME about being ok with her being polyam and THIS IS NOT FUCKING OKAY!!!! THIS DESTROYS LIVES!!!! It's leading ppl on and leads to ABUSIVE AND TOXIC longterm relationships!! Nobody wants to be told they're loved and accepted only to have that fucking ripped out from under them just when they thought they were safe!! That fucks a person up for life and some people seem to not even fucking care. Stop fucking treating having a polyamorous identity as a fucking choice or a phase what the hell!!! I'm tired of seeing relationships fall apart because they thought they could just "ignore it"!!! We're not your fucking work in progress that'll eventually settle on monogamy!!!

I don't fucking care about your jealousy, treat polyamorous ppl with goddamn RESPECT and that means admitting when you can't fucking handle it

[kziecyrius]

wait you mean i actually have to live like this?? for the rest of my life?? like im not able to take a break from it?? this is how my brain functions??

[letsventstuff]

But all I ever wanted was to experience life with you.

[fawnsky]

i hate my dad

[nightmaredarlings]

[psychoticdogbaby]

i'm scared that all this is, is a delusion. i'm scared that one day i'll snap out of it. i'm scared that if my voices go away i'll no longer be a dog. i'm scared.

[witchlenore]

I remember when the cheeto suggested injecting bleach into people to cure covid, i remember him politisizing masking, I remember him fighting lockdowns being a thing, I remember him claiming nurses were stealing masks and thats why there was a mask shortage, I remember.

This country doesnt care about its citizens health, which means they dont care about their citizens.

Because without community health how can we have a community?

Its broken my heart again and again and again and I just DONT UNDERSTAND

It's bizarre how a quasi-denialist stance on COVID is becoming the accepted one in mainstream discourse, like, questioning masks and lockdowns and asking Questions about lab leak theory as the Enlightened stance. There are more mainstream stories insisting we must take lab leak seriously and treat it as if it's basically true, even though we not only haven't turned up any more evidence for it since 2020, we've turned up more evidence that it came from animals at one specific market in Wuhan. There was a piece claiming to turn up evidence, and the evidence was...that some scientists privately mentioned it as a possibility in emails early on. It's not even partisan anymore bc I've seen liberal and leftist publications & influencers all say we need to ask Questions and insist that masks and lockdowns didn't work, or at least made people angry, and thus we shouldn't have done them

The weirdest part, though, is that most of these Reflections just...write out Donald Trump and anti-vaxxers? They talk about "scientists" giving mixed messages and about the CDC, but some of them straight up don't mention Trump, and like. I feel like if you're talking about confusing messaging about COVID, the entire response being headed by a deranged anti-vaxxer who said whatever came to his mind about how horse medicine would cure it would be a major factor to address, but apparently not! It's just public health officials who dropped the ball. Hell, it almost feels like people have started to misremember COVID to think Biden was President during the lockdowns, just another step in the strange memory holing of Trump's first term

(They mess up the basic history of events that happened five years ago, too, like how a lot of these takes talk about how "confusing" it was that they went from "masks are for medical professionals and the most at risk" to "masks for everyone"...without mentioning that wasn't a random choice, but down to a shortage of masks early in the pandemic. Literally nothing was the result of outside factors or the government, all of it was just scientists confusing us for no reason)