#void.dysphoria

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so unfortunate that meowing isnt an acceptable form of communication in this society . let me meow mrrp mrow my way trough this life .

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the need to fly high up in the sky and then close my wings letting gravity take over , dive towards the ground just to open my wings again so i dont crash , flying back up ... please give me back my wings

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i was told "were all human" today way too many times . no we are not . we are not all human . i am not human . not human not human not fucking human . fuck you . speak for yourself .

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this is fucking ridiculous . we have to eat and sleep and drink to survive in this vessel and deal with all of these disgusting bodily functions it comes with

absolutely nothing good about this shitty little meat sack were stuck in

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the frustration of not knowing whether or not i existed before i was stuck in this human body . it would make sense if i did , but i have no memories of it at all .

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"remember we're all human beings 💕" suck my demon cock

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i feel like tearing my skin off , i need to sit in complete darkness and silence for a while , i need to feel empty and formless like im meant to be . having a physical form is making me so restless and frustrated right now .

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where are all my eyes ? one pair is not enough sometimes , i need the rest of them . "the rest" is an unknown number .

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i wish these human eyes worked as my eyes should . im supposed to see clearly in complete darkness , but unfortunately i am not able to . upsetting .

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so i personally dont like labeling myself as therian and especially not alterhuman , the term otherkin works well and nonhuman feels the most comfortable . but just being called what i am makes me feel almost euphoric at times .

i am a demon , a void , a cryptid , a cat ... call me what i am yk ?

even being called a thing , creature , entity ... makes me feel better than being called a person but i dont mind that one as much .

but most of those labels still make me feel somehow at least a little bit connected to being human and i dont feel comfortable with that . even demonkin , voidkin , cryptidkin , catkin ... dont make me feel as good .

i still use most of these terms for the sake of others though .

im not human and i dont want anything to do with them no matter how human i may look sometimes or how human my current body is .

id love to know how everyone else feels about this for themselves

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knowing all these mental illnesses we have are specifically human issues , and theyre just what our vessel has is both relieving and frustrating .

on one hand , im so glad theyre temporary , we only have to deal with them until this vessel dies . sure , its difficult , and it sucks but its still temporary .

on the other hand , these mental illnesses are all we know right now . not having any memories from before makes it that much more difficult because i have no idea what were actually like .

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i cant wait to leave this human body .

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the fact that this human body doesnt look the way i do is so fucking upsetting i hate looking in the mirror i hate when people take pictures of me i hate the way it looks i hate that its not really me

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i am a void , i shouldnt have feelings , but somehow i have too many of those , and they can get uncomfortably strong .

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feeling big sad rn bc no wings :(

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the need to dematerialize into black smoke and be one with the darkness is so fucking strong right now , i actually want to disappear so badly , get me out of this physical body