#we get a maxi who cant do shit

[ninjagocrohw]

cpu really does not know how to maxi....

an updated form of this post, where i used soul cal 5 and my ipod :P

[mv1simp]

I am in ur walls

I have come to raise the idea of, and hear me out, Max x PR officer reader. I’m just gonna yap now, hear me out

Like can you imagine Max going through his hoe phase and reader having to clean up his image, and she’s just fondly like UGH MAX. Part of her is like blehhhhh because more work, but the bigger part of her is like ✨jealous✨

And then at some point she makes an offhand comment like if you want to be a whore, can you at LEAST not make more work for me????

Cue Max and her starting to be a thing, and him trying to rile her up enough to get her to be their own PR issue just for shits and giggles and he gets quite risque and horny and her resistance to it just turns him on even more until he’s saying and doing the filthiest shit in the middle of the paddock just to get her to crack——

Also can you imagine how hilarious it would be if they get caught and GP is like NOT YOU TOO READER LIKE DOES HE HAVE A MAGIC DICK OR SMTH——

WELCOME TO MY WALLS!!! This idea HAS ME ahahahah see I was always a crackfic writer at age 12 on wattpad, its time to remerge into the light with this prompt

Like you know how max is so millennial coded. And she’s actually the same age as him but he thinks she’s older cause she’s always looking so stressed. And she like um that’s cause you’re a fuckin manwhore max?!? Have you thought about celibacy for a hot second? And as they become better friends she demands he hand over his card so she can invest in some good skincare

(max also suggests maybe she needs to get dicked down good, he’s happy to provide that if she wants or? 🤭🤭)

But anyways she’s pumping out Gen z memes left right and centre to distract the masses from his slut era and he’s always like wdym “i have zero rizz and am a bitchless cat dad”?? I know memes?? Remember hawk thua-

ALSO WHENEVER HE REALLY TRIES TO RILE HER UP ON THE PADDOCK AND SHE CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT SHE MAKES HIM DO THE MOST ANNOYING SOCIAL MEDIA CHALLENGES TO GET BACK AT HIM like imagine her making him do a kiss marry kill with the drivers and he’s like 😑😑 and everyone’s like babes come here we got max Verstappen saying he’d kiss Alonso, marry charles and kill George before GTA 2024

ALSO I’m jumping the gun but after he ✨seduces her ✨ there’s so much scope for the classic shenanigans. Accidentally wearing shirts inside out. Accidentally wearing each others Redbull shirt and she could get away with oversized style but everyone’s like “max why tf are u wearing a crop top”. (GP knows. He knows and he can’t look either of you in the eye. Everyone has started asking why he loudly announces himself and waits 10 seconds before walking around the corners of the Redbull garage and he’s like…no reason. But his face is one of a man who has seen many, many things)

Anyway you have ban any contact of sexual nature after that incident that you have dubbed CropTopGate. But obviosuly that just makes max even more feral cause we know how competitive he is 😼

ALSO he’s notorious for going through personal managers as well but once you two start getting tension but you’re still all like “nooo 6 foot driver millionaires aren’t my type okayyyy 🙅‍♀️🙅‍♀️”

So he demands that you be promoted to his personal events manager as well. To which you are adamantly like NO knowing what this means for your poor self control but Christian Horner is like yes maxie boo 🥰 so now you also accompany max to all his lil modelling gigs, looking anywhere but at him while he stands shirtless next to you with a cocky grin.

OR LIKE IMAGINE HE AND A MODEL ARE DOING AN ADVERTISEMENT TOGETHER LIKE ONE OF THOSE SEXY PERFUME ONES. AND DURING A BREAK THE PHOTOGRAPHER NOTICES YOU AND MAX TALKING TOGETHER

and he’s like i don’t care who you are get over here NOW this sexual chemistry is insane so you end up in a very compromising pose up against max verstappen, F1 driver, cat dad, and certified slut while he’s whispering dirty things in your ear

(He catches on quick that you really likes it when he speaks Dutch, good thing you can’t understand it cause he’s just reciting his grocery list and enjoying watching you blush and squeeze your legs together)

very cute idea hehe thank you for messaging!! I LIVE for some sexual tension, reader is a better woman than me for trying to resist the advances of max 😮‍💨😮‍💨

[faiirybread]

the wilt of the rose ︴dr3

🥀in which.. they just cant talk to eachother

pt1! pt2!

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user3 clara11.8 PLEASE GET OUT OF HERE. SAVE YOURSELF FROM THIS MESS

user4 bro u miss her

landonorris DAD PLEASE THIS ISNT YOU

user5 lando is just like the rest of us fr

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redbull 😻😻 and mclaren 😕

papaya cult member

danny what the hell is going on

are you and yn like seriously over

im so confused

maxy paxy #1

yeah everytime i go on insta something is going on with you two

pls clear up the rumors

papaya cult member

danny i can see you reading this

maxy paxy #1

DANNY TELL US

DANNY RIIIC

idek tbh

papaya cult member

im gonna punch you

DANNY RIIIC

STOP i just dont know whats going on

like we went for that date and everything was fine and then the stuff about her and some guy came out

like idk

papaya cult member

ok but who started it

maxy paxy #1

yeah who cheated first

papaya cult member

be so honest rn

DANNY RIIIC

..me

papaya cult member

DANNY

WHAT THE FUCK

maxy paxy #1

dude..

DANNY RIIIC

HEAR ME OUT

papaya cult member

NO???

DANNY RIIIC

NONONO LISTEN

LISTEN

IT WAS HER FIRST

SHE CAME ONTO ME

maxy paxy #1

danny slow down

give us the full story

DANNY RIIIC

it doesnt even matter anymore

i just want it to be done

i miss her

i fucked up so bad you guys

papaya cult member

no shit sherlock

DANNY RIIIC

like

what am i supposed to do?

maxy paxy #1

mate im gonna be honest

i dont think you can fix it

DANNY RIIIC

what

why

papaya cult member

BECAUSE YOU CHEATED ON HER YOU FUCKING DUMBASS

DANNY RIIIC

yeah i know that but like

is there fr no way back?

maxy paxy #1

ok lando back off

ok?

take a breather

papaya cult member

k.

maxy paxy #1

danny.

you betrayed her trust

so so much

like you will have to grovel your way back

DANNY RIIIC

ok

ok i will

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[all-inmoderation]

ugh one thing i dislike about under the oak tree is how riftan and maxi have like,,, no friends. like riftan is such a fucking asshole to his knights and has such a stick up his ass that i have to wonder why do these other knights follow him ??? his entire character trait is being a downright asshole to everyone but maxi and it gets tiring to read at some points bc to me, it really flattens the world.

because personally, even when i read a romance, i want the main leads to have an enriched life outside of their love interest! i always hoped to see a scene of riftan having some form of camaraderie w his knights and treating them with,,, at least a little bit of friendliness, perhaps ??? bc i want there to be a reason these knights are following riftan, other than just him being a good warrior. i know riftans general disposition is very reserved and rigid but good god how many times has he gone to war w these guys??? and yet he cant even return a modicum of the affection and respect ruth and the other knights give to him smfhhhh

and as for maxi. i have a less of a grudge w her bc of her backstory obviously but i wish the author couldve shown her finding some solace in friendship as part of her journey in healing. its beautiful that she comes to see riftan as a source of home and safety, but i also wanted to see her dynamic w ruth deepen, along with Agnes. *especially* Agnes, actually, i want Maxi to slowly but surely stop feeling insecure and threatened around her. the little nuggets of her interacting w them and the maids and other knights are so charming and heartwarming to see. I want to see Maxi LOVE the people in their house and form genuine connections with them beyond surface level.

I do think the author does a good job of that when it comes to maxi and the household staff but.. the most disappointing part and the entire reason of this post was how utterly disappointed I was with maxi going to Nornui for three years and not making any fucking FRIENDS. like BRUH. do you know how desperately i wanted to see Maxi in Nornui, thriving despite herself, socially thriving and loving magic even while she's missing riftan. Like I haven't read book 3 yet but that little sneak peak we got of the first few chapters where some of the other students treated her like shit and she only had surface level friendships with some other wizards was sO FRUSTRATING TO READDD. l

like you're telling me maxi left home for THREE YEARS and she spent that ENTIRE TIME missing riftan and keeping everyone at a distance ???? didn't she leave bc she felt suffocated by riftans obsession and she wanted to become more of her own person ??? what the hell was the point then if she made no real connections and just wasted it thinking about riftan lmfao. they'll just go back to where they started- two people who are obsessed w each other w no other companionship, except now maxi just knows how to throw magic rocks or whatever lmfao.

sigh. im being being a bit nitpicky but i just really really wanted to see maxi in nornui making really good friends and building up confidence and pride- and then i wanted her to come back to anatol and for her riftan to see her and see how she's more at ease, maybe even a little more charming, and more confident after spending time in the towers and gaining the admiration and respect of other wizards, and coming back w her own allies and supporters. people whose companionship she forged on her own instead of what was forced onto her (like her marriage). like if it had been up to me i wouldnt have even had any of the wizards at the tower be rude to maxi- i wanted her leave in the tower to be one where she found herself and who she was, beyond her marriage, beyond even her magic.

like even though maxi is shy and reserved i wanted to see her come out of her shell a little bit is that too much to ask? and i wouldve loved to see that kind of transformation in her and how riftan wouldve handled it. of course its not to say that maxi shouldve come back from nornui as an extremely confident outgoing girl with no fears, in fact i think having a significant change but then her returning to anatol and bringing up her old habits and characteristics against who she's become wouldve been so delicious to see , but alas, i dont think thats where the story goes at all.

[mattslolita]

okayyyy so update, again!

my bf bought me pink tulips (fav flower everrr) and a cute pink vase to put them in yesterday. and we went to the beach yesterday and i got good pics 😎 taken by him obviously. i told him he should be a photographer an he went "right then! wheres my paycheck huh??" i wore a pink maxi dress an he kept saying how pink looked nice on me and i looked really pretty then we watched the sunset and spoke for like 2 hours it was so fun.

when we got home he was laying on his bed and i went next to him and then he pulled me to lay on him and said that he loves me alot and hes so happy we got close again (im gonna cry wtf) 🤭

then i reposted some tiktok of this woman saying that she got married at 18 and shes really happy and stuff and my friend saw it and msgd me saying "r u tryna tell me ur like gonna get married in a couple years and be all happy and shit whilst im sat here having to witness this?" i replied w "CORRECT! 3 POINTS 👍"

also 2 days ago his ex msgd me on insta on some fake account w no followers. like girl at least make it abitttt more believable!! an she was like "hey babe are you dating *hisname* x" and i went "yeah, why? x" "and who are you?? " and she said "oh, well just wanted to let u know hes a lier and he cant be trusted"

soon as i saw that i went gtfo w this bullshit cuz it was so obvious it was her 😭 plus i msgd her sister who i used to be friends w but we dont talk as much and she said she was anoyed that he was w me now and that she was jealous and looking for problems. she litro told me that she told her she was gonna make the fake account! IMMATUREEE STAY MAD BITCH! i will find out anything dont even try w the fake account shit cuz i PROMISE u ik everythinggg!!! like let me live go find some man who will put up w ur shit 🤗😙

AWWWW YOU GUYS ARE SO CUTIE PIE STOPPP

not that girl w the fake account like do better babe.... bro did NAWTTTT eat

hope ur doing well love🤍

[034463]

Maxiel fanfic rec

yes thats right you heard me a maxiel fanfic reclist because apparently im crazy and ive been reading so much maxiel tht i can make a reclist now. its all so very catered to my taste soooo have fun

1. With The Sun In Our Eyes by screwstyles | T, 36k

“A fake dating AU set in 2025: It’s bad enough that Max is outed by an ex in the middle of racing season, and then his team suggests he pretend to date Daniel to soften the blow. It’s as bad an idea as it sounds.”

a maxiel classic, theres just something about fake/pretend relation ship that just gets me. also a lot of miscommunication so heads up for that”

2. you pick me up and take me home again by wintrs | M, 28k

“It feels like a dream, seeing Daniel again after all these years. It's a second chance Max knows he doesn't deserve, and he isn't going to waste it.Or: Max isn't racing in 2027, although he couldn't tell you exactly why. But it isn't a big deal. He's fine.”

max deals with his feelings and also his past trauma. very very angsty.

3. Little Drops of Anguish by semperama | E, 45k

“After a crash in Baku 2021 leaves Max unable to race, he's left trying to figure out what to do with his life—and with Daniel, who doesn't seem to want to let him go.”

also like fic no 2 max cant race and must face the fact tht theres a life beyond racing and daniel showing him that.

4. well we can settle down by tiredtiredsharl | M, 24k

“Sometimes Daniel watches the tapes back and he thinks: shouldn’t I be jealous of this kid? Or: Max drives the way we all aspire. Or: Christ, I’m in the presence of someone who will go down in FIA history.He never says any of that. Because after he watches Max stumble through an interview with a journalist who quotes Toto, he realizes that the pressure is the last thing Max needs.Max is one bad race away from combusting. Or going into the wall again. And Daniel can’t handle either of those options. For reasons he can’t examine right now. Or ever.”

dont remember much of the plot except that i found myself finishing the ff at 6 am in the morning and the light were coming through my window. amazing shit

5. The Dog's Home by dm3rv | M 33k

“Max Verstappen liked dogs. Max Verstappen loved cats. The jury was still out on people.Max has spent years climbing the ranks at an Animal Welfare Charity, moving from volunteer to intern to Animal Care Manager. The dogs and cats he cares for are his life - if only he didn't have to spend so much of his time putting up with 'VIPs'; entitled celebrities and donors with image-based agendas. Daniel is going through an image and identity crisis after an uninspiring season with McLaren. Keen for an image overhaul, he gives his time to a local animal shelter. What he doesn't expect is the prickly Animal Care Manager who has been assigned to look after him. Animal Shelter AU.”

THE BEST! max vet au youre crazy and dog boy daniel scared of dogs? good content also dont forget to check out the side galex. also good shit.

6. The Drive Of Your Life by  littleprism | ?, 70k

“Daniel is a semi-known actor. Max just got his second WDC a few months ago. There was absolutely no reason for them to meet.

Until a fateful crash in testing changed that.”

b list actor danny and racer maxy playing in a movie together. theres some plot holes but if you dont really think about it its soo good. 

7. anything to get to the rush by kingsguarding | E, 18k

“It’s so stupid, that’s the thing.Every year, the World Champion gets to choose another driver to … celebrate with. It’s an old tradition, apparently. As old as the sport itself. Part of the prize of winning, part of your reward.Max has never understood it.”

the ff that made me realize im soo deep in maxiel lore that i will sink w this ship. basically two emotionally stunted boys doing emotionally stunted boys thing

8. MV33 by Whippasnappa | E, 14k

“Daniel finds out Max is on Grindr. He's curious. He's just going to download the app, just to see. Just to look at Max's profile. He's curious how Max picks up men, curious if Max puts his real face out there. He's definitely not going to message Max. He's definitely not going to do that. He messages Max.”

yeah.....

9. Happier than Ever (so why are you crying with blue-sky eyes) by Whippasnappa | E, 30k

“From the first time they met at RedBull, Max knew he never wanted to be without Daniel. A look through their relationship as Max tries (and fails) to keep his feelings for Daniel hidden, as Daniel leaves for Renault, then McLaren, as Max tries to hold himself together.”

it hurts but it hurts so good. retelling of their whole history

will be updated as i read more ff

[anime-rambles]

🩵Tiff's end of year event 🩵

First year of running this account and everyone support has been so amazing. The new year I have so many long fics coming out, like A LOT, currently within the double digits.

So as a little something, I'm opening up short requests/promts/blurs, mostly for fun. So request away, please include character (mha & aot) and one or two of the saying below.

I'm back on nighthshift in work, and I hope to bash out alot of them, my goal is 12, one for each month of the year that i've been on this account and hopefully I should have them out within a week after I close requests, It won't take a year, dont worry.

List - One or two with Character/s

1. "You just don't get it, do you"

2. "You came" "You called"

3. "You dont seem to know, or care what your doing to me!"

4. "Dont even look at me right now"

5. "Did you just..."

6. "It's come to my attention that you dont know who I am."

7. "Babe... what are you doing?"

8. "No, no, no, no, no, shit, shit, shit."

9. "Its cant be that time again, can it?"

10. "Here's an idea, ow about we just forget this happened?"

11. "You mean your always like this?"

12. "So if you followed the recipe, what the hell is that?"

13. "You mean, you failed?"

14. "I love you so much, I can't breathe."

15. "I dont understand you sometimes."

16. "Just breathe okay?"

17. "Come on, its so easy."

18. "Open your eyes will you."

19. "Good Riddance."

20. "In the long scheme of things, that wasnt your worst idea."

21. "You're the one to talk."

22. "What if I dont want to lock myself to in my room?"

23. "So, what happens next?"

24. "I shouldn't want you, but i do, your my brothers best friend/my best friends litte sister!"

25. "Please dont leave me to do this on my own"

26. "Oh, dont mind me, just enjoying the view"

27. "You're naked arent you?"

28. "This is the opposite of what I told you do to"

29. "There is no shame in crying"

30. "You're bleeding arent you"

31. "Babe? Can I kill him?"

32. "Continue to defy me, I dare you"

33. "But, they SHOT YOU"

34. "Why do I feel like this is a trap"

35. "I wil muder anyone that touches you, do you understand?"

My next long fic coming out is "Without you, there is no us - Kiribaku" and it will be out on Saturday, so last fic of the year and its a cute one. Hope you all had a wonderful christmas, and happy new year - Tiff x

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[leafbatraccoon]

sims tag game!!

i was tagged by @d4isy-nukes via reading her post oh well lets go

1. What’s your favourite sims death? in ts4: METEOR muahahhah

2. Alpha CC or Maxis Match? if i have to pick, maxis match, but im partial to maxis mix choices

3. Do you cheat when your sims gain weight? not usually, no, but i have done it by tweaking a bit in cas, rarely but i it happened

4. Do you use move objects? fuck yea, love that shit

5. Favorite mod? i loved gem's answers btw absolute same but hum... i really dont know.. the classics, wwhims for attraction system, zerbu's, don't wash dishes where you angry poop, lumpinou's rpo, i really cant pick, i use so many, it's giving me whats ur favourite kid energy

6. First expansion/game/stuff pack you got? GTW yall & i stand by it

7. Do you pronounce “live mode” like aLIVE or LIVing? the wrong way

8. Who’s your favorite sim that you’ve made? AGAIN WITH THE CHILD PICKING !!! no but really i can't pick favourites no matter what

9. Have you made a simself? not one that looks like me bc i don't even know what i look like tbh but i made a kind of avatar

10. What sim traits do you give yourself? self-absorbed gloomy geek 🤢

11. Which is your favorite EA hair color? depends on the sim

12. Favorite EA hair? all the sdx ones were pretty dope so far

13. Favorite life stage? the ones that are yet to come eheh

14. Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay? prolly gameplay which in ts4 i rely on mods for a lot, but ts4 made me more confident in building or at least decorating, it's very fun now and in ts2 i used to spend a lot of time in cas and the body shop

15. Are you a CC creator? no, but maybe one day

16. Do you have any simblr friends/a sim squad? i dont think so ?!

17. What’s your favorite game? (1, 2, 3, or 4) ts2&3 for different reasons, i never played the first one tho, i mean i did but not really

18. Do you have any sims merch? a phone charm that came with a promotional magazine for ts3 launch, i cant fine the magazine tho ;(

19. Do you have a YouTube for sims? i wouldn't know what to do with it

20. How has your “sim style” changed throughout your years of playing? i made a lot of long haired blondes with ballroom dresses in my ts2 era for some reason, i dont even know where i was getting cc from, really long hair and ballroom dresses on the toddlers too if you can imagine oh and i had mermaid tails from downloading oher sims so naturally i made a bunch of sirens all the time

21. What’s your Origin ID? i think it's gumbreath now

22. Who’s your favorite CC creator? oh gosh why did i decide to do this ??! humm cant pick one so shout out to @tudtuds merecido

23. How long have you had a simblr? circa 5 months so far

24. How do you edit your pictures? i use gimp the open-source queen, for my spellcaster legacy i was trying to do a scrappy photoset vibe, mystical motherhood im literaly just cropping and since ive reinstalled shaders i just use a preset for stardew moon bc i am nothing if not lazy ig

25. What expansion/game/stuff pack do you want next? none, id like them to fix the game we already have 😘 but if i had to ig faeries for gamepack, travel for expansion (with 3 decent worlds & hotels plz) and literally any stuff pack so they can say they didnt lie to us about it 🤡

25. What expansion/game/stuff pack is your favorite so far? im a sucker for sulani so island living for EP? although the mermaids deserved better, big cottage stan but wish goats and horses were on it so not on the podium & get together still has the best world; paranormal stuff pack by faaaaar, it was the least cash grabby SP ever i thought i was dreaming when they didnt call it a gamepack

ok so that is it, if you read this so far ... why ? /hj im doing the same and tagging whoever sees it IF THEY FEEL LIKE PARTAKING 🤍🤍🤍 OK BYEE

[eloriis]

SUPER MAX! - max verstappen

in which. . the rising pop princess and the three-time wdc are caught in dating rumours — mv1 x f! reader

notes : pt. 2 is here earlier than expected as a small ty for 100 followers!! tysmm and i hope u guys liked this two-part series as much as i did <33

type : smau ⋆ face claim : madison beer

( part 1 )

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y/nuser GREAT BRITAIN YOU WERE SO GOOD FOR ME TONIGHT!! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE BEST NIGHT TO FINISH MY EUROPEAN TOUR AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MWAH 🫶🏼🫶🏼

user34 STOP THIS WAS SUCH A GOOD CONCERT OMFG I BLACKED OUT THE WHOLE TIME

user74 I CRIED WHEN SHE PLAYED GORGEOUS AND WINKED AT MAX 😭😭

user73 MAX?? MAX VERSTAPPEN?? THE F1 DRIVER?? WTF??

user74 YEAH HE WAS IN THE VIP STANDS WITH HIS FRIENDS AND WAS BLUSHING AND SMILING SO HARD WHEN GORGEOUS AND DAYLIGHT WERE PLAYING BRO OMG 🥹🥹

user47 ALSO THE WAY SHE CONFIRMED THEIR RELATIONSHIP?? BRO I DIED OF LAUGHTER. I WAS SHITTING TEARS 😭😭

maxverstappen1 i had such an amazing time finally seeing on stage, mijn koningin 🫶🏼 ( my queen )

y/nuser tysm my king <33

user86 MY QUEEN AND KING⁉️⁉️ BRO ILL KMS

user19 such fitting names tho 😍

user26 tonight seems like a great night to sleep on the railway tracks 😍

landonorris max was such a simp the whole time u were on stage omg 💀💀

charles_leclerc he had literal hearts in his eyes the whole time

maxverstappen1 have you seen her?!! i was so happy and proud of y/n. she’s so well on all of her shows and it’s about time she gets praised for it publicly.

y/nuser stop ill cry :( ilysm maxie <3

user95 ok bro…we get it. you love ur amazing and talented girlfriend. pls don’t run into our faces i CANT handle it.

user74 this is so disgusting omg ew ( no it’s no. this just makes me feel so single that i wanna cry. )

user36 it’s official. i’m gonna die alone 😍😍

user59 GUYS?? IM SO CONFUSED RN?? WHAT ARE THE DRIVERS DOING HERE?? WDYM?? HUH?? SOMEONE HELP??

user74 LMFAO DUDE MAX AND Y/N ARE DATING AND HAVE BEEN FOR LIKE ALMOST 4 YEARS‼️‼️ GOD KNOWS HOW THEYVE MANAGED THIS LONG BUT THEYRE SO HOT TOGETHER OMFG DUDE

user59 HOW?? WHERE CAN I FIND THE VIDEO?? PLS I NEED TO KNOW

user74 U CAN FIND TONS OF VIDEOS IF U SEARCH UP Y/N AND MAX REVEAL ON YT!!

user59 TYSM OMG ILY BRO

user74 ILYT BRO

“GOOD EVENING GREAT BRITAIN!! How’s your evening going so far?” was echoed throughout the concert hall and multiple cheers were sent back to the main character of the night. “I’m glad that you all are enjoying your time with me today before the tour comes to an end for a while!”, a loud “NOOOOO” was heard from a corner of the audience and everyone burst into laughter.

“I don’t want to leave you all either!!” Y/N reached out her hand towards the crowd as she had a pout on her face. “But let’s make this last night memorable, yeah??” she cheered out to the crowd as eveyone began cheering along with her.

“I now present to you a song that has never been played before in any of my concerts!! I hope you guys enjoy this song as it was written about someone who holds a special place in my heart for a long time” it was deadly silent until suddenly a tune that majority of the crowd seemed to know by heart. It sent the entire crowd into shock before some of them started screaming their lungs out to the song that was being blasted out by the speakers.

“MAX! MAX! MAX! SUPER MAX!” everyone was jumping up and down screaming their lungs out by now. The camera that was displaying everything on the big screen behind Y/n panned towards the V.I.P suite where everyone could see Max Verstappen on his knees covering his face with his hands while Lando Norris, Daniel Ricciardo and Charles Leclerc were standing beside him laughing so hard that all of them had tears in their eyes.

Everyone cheered when Max had finally stood up and was smiling so hard it looked like his face would split in half with the amount of force he was using. If anyone asked him in the near future if those were tears that were slowly gracing his waterline of his eyes, he would defend that statement until his death.

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maxverstappen1 happy 4th anniversary to the person who has been there for all of my accomplishments and disappointments and has loved and supported me throughout all of this.

i love you to pluto and back 🖤

user27 definitely not crying rn guys

user97 @user97bf where’s ur effort?? DO BETTER BRO. DO BETTER.

user38 THIS IS SO SWEET OMFG IM ON MY KNEES OM THE FLOOR MELTING CUZ OF THIS AIHEBDJWNSN

user69 OMFG GUYS. SHE ANNOUNCED THAT THEYRE DATING AT LIKE 12:15 AM. SHE DID AFTER EXACTLY FOUR YEARS OF THEM DATING OMFG. ILL CRY.

y/nuser i love you so so so much maxie, you’ll never understand just how proud i am of you. you’ve managed to come so far and i just know that you’ll go even further in life, my life 🥹🫶🏼

maxverstappen1 i know one thing, if i have to go forward in life, you’ll be coming with me. whether you like it or not. you’re stuck with me now and forever.

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y/nuser happy 4th anniversary to the best person i could ever ask for as a partner in my life. you have been there for me through so much of my life and it’s only fair that you can finally share the happiness and success with me not only in our home but outside it too <33

i love you so so so much maxie. to pluto and back 🤍

maxverstappen1 i love you the most schat. i’m so proud of you, i hope u know that ( darling )

y/nuser i literally love u the most?? i know maxie, i’m so proud of u as well <33

user19 guys…THE MATCHING HEARTS BRO. MY HEART HURTS AWJRBJENSJ

user25 THIS IS TOO MUCH FOR MY WEAK HEART. I AM TOK WEAK FOR THIS.

user36 THIS IS SO WHOLESOME BRO AIWHBDJWHSKA

landonorris parents omg 😰💪🏼

y/nuser maxverstappen1 it’s about time we adopt a child…i think this one is on the market 😋

maxverstappen1 no please not this one 🙏🏼

landonorris HEY! ILL HAVE YOU KNOW I AM NOT A PICKY EATER AND WILL EAT WHATEVER U GIVE ME. YOU SHOULD BE GRATEFUL TO HAVE ME. HMPH!

maxverstappen1 …you refuse to stay in the same room as FISH??

landonorris this is why mum is my favourite parent.

y/nuser AWH HES SO PRECIOUS! HES SO CUTE. PLSSPLSPSLPSLPSLL

maxverstappen1 …fine omg. ugh

landonorris EVERYBODY. call me lando norris-l/n-verstappen now ‼️‼️

⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪

@bingussthirdtoe @llando4norris

[sennaverstappendiary]

bahrain grand prix ✩ 02.03.2024

here we are. the 2024 season is officially starting‼️‼️‼️💥💥💥 and so is my first ever full f1 season 🥺🥺🥺💘💘💘 i mean tbf i did follow f1 already at the first 2 races in 23 but still!!! i didn't watch them!!! and now i will!!! oh my god!!!

so, my goal for this year is to be less stressed, bc honestly, it was really getting to me 💔💔💔 and i don't want to rely on a dutch guy winning in a sport for all of my happiness... i would like to enjoy the sport more, even if max doesn't win (which... will happen eventually. i am writing this before the race idek if he wins this one!! he might not!!) ‼️‼️‼️🥰🥰🥰 so: enjoy the SPORT more, which is important i think 💘💘💘✨✨🌷🌷🌷 we will see how it goes!! but this was a very important life lesson for me: i will still love max, even if he loses. him losing doesn't make me love him any less 🥺🥺🥺🥺

free practice. as usual i didn't WATCH, but i did keep up with it of course. its always scary when max doesnt do well, but its just practice and its fun seeing who does well surprisingly!! the merc all of the sudden look super strong, which was a real surprise‼️‼️‼️‼️ also daniel p1 in fp1 yeah okay sure 😭😭😭 who gaf. but it did make me realise the above, so thats good!!

qualifying. oh my god qualifying the season is REALLY starting again oh my god 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 i was watching at my grandparents again!!! friday quali is crazy!!! i cannot lie. my ass was sure max wasnt gonna get pole 💀💀💀💀 so it was a real surprise that he did!!! to be fair even he sounded surprised AHAHA 😭😭😭😭😭😁😁😁 "ha ha sorry gp!!" 😭😭😭😭 the silly!!! f1 is so back!!! charles q2 lap was really good too, thank you oscar for the tow bc 💀💀💀💀 they were also soooo silly after the quali!!! lestappen yapping how i have missed u!!! 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

RACE DAAAYYYY!!!‼️‼️‼️🙏🙏🙏 first one of the season, oh my god. i literally woke up with my body feeling like it was being chased down by a fucking lion like. it was so serious 😭😭😭💥💥💥💥☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️ BUT!! the sun was shining for like. the first time ever in the netherlands, and life was good, and my dad convinced me to play some f1 23 with him beforehand which was a lot of fun :-) ALSO!!! f1 fantasy is soooo fun omg 🥰🥰🥰✨😁😁😁💘💘💘🥰🥰🥰 this will be relevant in a second. so. its 3:45 pm. i feel like im literally dying. my dads sitting next to me. FUCKING ALAIN PROST JUMPSCARE 💥💥💥‼️‼️‼️‼️ but ok. formation lap. i literally cant speak im that fucking scared. my mouth is dry. i see the lights. i literally cant move. 🙅🙅🙅🙅🙅🙅 ok. light 1. light 2. light 3. light 4. light 5. i feel like im dying. MAX HAS A GOOD START OH MY FUCKING GOD 🥺🥺🥺🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥺🥺🥺🙏🙏🙏🙏 my dad mad as fuck bc he has nico in his fantasy team 💀💀💀 he puts a hand on my shoulder and is like "are u shaking" and i look at him like. yea. i always am during the first few laps 😭😭😭😭 anyway lewis making no impression + charles disasterclass like yea it was bad for us. checo actually kinda got that dawg in him rn 👀👀👀 and so does carlos!!! ik im a lestappie but i can also be a carlos enjoyer. fun fact. i am. I LOVE VERSAINZ 💕💕💕💌💌💌 ok tangent. YEAH THE RACE WAS COOL I TURNED TO MY DAD AND SAID "i hope hes going for the grand slam 😁😁😁😁😁" ooohhh maaaaxxxx maxy maaax max max max max 🥰🥰🥰🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥰🥰🥰🥰‼️‼️‼️‼️ i love him so much im fully losing my mind. HE LOOKED SOOO FUCKING GOOD ON THE PODIUM TOO IM BITING HIM RN. KITCHEN. BAREFOOT. PREGNANT. NOW‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ yeah no i rlly did enjoy this race SO much im so so glad f1 is back 🥺🥺🥺🥺 a shame about fernando being a lil flop in that flop car BUT this was the first opening race without any dnfs!!! how fucking cool is that!!! i think its cool!!! 💕💕💕😁😁😁✨✨✨ SEE YALL NEXT WEEK AT JEDDAHHHH 🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷🌷

✩ song of the race: the weekend - michael gray

I CANNOT WAAAIT FOR THE WEEKEND TO BEGIN DURING RACE WEEK LIKE IM LISTENING TO THIS SHIT ON LOOOPPP💥✨✨💕💕😁😁

✩ photodump:

[violentdelightsandviolentends]

okay so right now i love mclaren, im very excited to see lando and oscar, hoping to see some wins for them this season. i will say, the pipeline from charles & carlos to mclaren is very real. now w ferrari, i fully agree, bc like how do you have these talented drivers and are not doing anything with them?? idk i feel like both have tons of talent and a lot of potential but are being held back, if that makes sense?? daniel and max during their rb era will always be something special to me. ive seen so much of their stuff from that time and omg i love them so so

being a girly girl for a moment, i LOVE seeing lewis' style. omg he slays the house boots down everytime i see a fit from him. am i sad he is replacing carlos and i have no idea where carlos is going and thats sending me into a spiral? yes. but i cant wait to see the fits. i think thats really all for right now, other than that i have no other opinions LOL. i will say tho, i did get my dad watching the show to try and get him into it with me and now we have something to bond over and that makes me very happy haha - 🏁 anon

yes yes yes to all of this!!

aw maxiel <3 they’re such genuine friends, it’s so lovely to watch because I imagine that sometimes it can get a little isolating for max. but daniel is one of those people who’s just a people person, who includes people all the time, he notices things. I love their friendship so much <3

lewis is the fashion king of the paddock yes!! and zhou too, they’re both slaying the house down. lewis knows how to dress, goddamn.

I also don’t love the ferrari move because of the consequences with carlos, but lewis is gonna slay a ferrari fit or two 💅🏼 so many of the drivers are so handsome, they just need stylists lmao. remember when charles wore those baggy jeans for the first time? holy shit!! and when maxie finally stopped wearing jeans that looked painted on… so hot my god he looked so good in the red bull end of year live

yay to bonding with dads!! it can be hard to find common ground, so isn’t it so fun when you do!! you can impress him with all this knowledge i’m giving you ;)

[ashtraysystem]

The System Watches

Split

🐀: okay so obviously we've heard a lot about this movie but we wanted to watch it as a system.

💫: with being switchy comes the advantage of commenting on movies and tv shows!

🐀: we've got drinks-

📓: and a poptart..

💫: and those here in the headspace right now are Brooks💫, Sylas🥽, Elliot📓, Finley🦈, Maxi🎧, and Rat🐀!

🐀: Can we start the movie now??

...

🐀: seems relatively normal so far??

📓: ooh speaking to the camera!!

🥽: I dont get the appeal of alcohol

📓: why is he suddenly bald? Are we seeing through his eyes or theirs??

🐀: Bro I think they are different guys?

💫: tea is better than alcohol

🐀📓: SHHH

💠: what is going on in here?

🐀: movie, hush.

💠: ah, okay my apologies. *sits down to watch*

🐀: so are they all evil alters or?

...

🐀: his yells of pain is literally dubbed over wtf?? like his mouth is open but the sound is clearly a mouth closed sound lmao

...

🐀: does this bitch cassie have past kidnapping trauma??

🦈: insensitive much?

🐀: its my job 😜

...

🐀: is this his therapist?? who is she??

🥽: a switch definitely happened..

🐀: ah she is his therapist!!

🥽: ocd..

🥽: the system tried to get help, at least.

🥽: feminine alter, an introject maybe?

🐀: yeesh therapist lady has a lot of patients

🦈: ooh points for calling it DID and not MPD!! :D

...

🥽: Alters noticed so far; 4. Initial alter, Artist, Feminine, and OCD alter.

📓: >Movie timestamp: 22:46

🦈: fem alter is patricia! nice. :3

...

🐀: therapist sleeps with her files??? thats,, thats a little weird tbh. work-life balance lady, leave your work stuff... not in your bed. at least.

...

💫: oh, the child! hello hedwig!!!

🥽: 5 alters.

🐀: hgdhdj "i just ate a hotdog" i love this kid

🥽: "i stole the light from mr dennis", that sounds similar to our system's way of fronting where we have a sort of "light" where we stand to front. Honestly it sounds like these people really did their research!

🐀: damn I was expecting this to be a hate watch..

🐀: wait yo shit shes fucking gaslighting a kid!! wtf man!!! like sure youre in a life or deatch situation but its not cool to make a kid alter cry like that. not cool. accurate, but not cool.

...

Entire system: Chlorine???

🦈: a pool maybe??

🐀: *jumps* oh JEEZ bro

🥽: ocd alter is a protector..

🦈: ooh cute bra!

🎧: FINLEY

🦈: what, cant appreciate a cute bra??

🦈: oh shit shes really locked up now yeesh

...

🥽: okay this explanation of DID is a bit.. exaggerated.

🦈: .. therapist lady we are traumatized, not some sort of miracle supernatural being. we are TRAUMATIZED. yeesh.

🥽: Patricia, Hedwig, Barry, Dennis, and now added by the therapist we have Orwell, Jade, Samuel and Heinrich.

🐀: oof 23? thats gotta be fun

🥽: and she just said Kevin's body, but its assumed Barry is the host.

🥽: Dennis has OCD, so then the one I was labeling as OCD is likely just a germaphobe to an extreme extent.

🐀: wait both Dennis and Patricia are banned from fronting? Dennis bc obvious reason, but why Patty?

🥽: is Dennis germaphobe alter and just really good at blending? they seem like two different alters..

...

📓: they,, they check the cameras?? theres cameras to check??? I,, I don't like that,,

🐀: eh dont worry dude-

📓: More worried

🐀: yeesh aight.

...

💠: oh a new alter? I like this one, they seem nice :>

...

💠: ooh fun animal science facts!!

🐀: oof major ocd in this guy..

🎧: 😬 shouldnt have hit him girl

...

🐀: fin can you not be gay for like two seconds please?

🦈: 😔 sorry

...

🥽: the beast..? hm..

...

🐀: did,, did her uncle do something to her?

💫: oh hello again hedwig!!

🥽: dennis has ocd and germaphobia..

...

Movie: "Can I kiss you?"

Entire system: GGSJSHFHAHAHA

🐀: why's the 9 yo tryna kiss her!!

🎧: bro thats so ridiculous hAH

🐀: this kid man this kid hdhsjdk

🐀: GSHJDJSK OMFG SHSHDJ

🐀: okay to give you a quick rundown of what happened on screen, he held his mouth open against hers, his eyes fluttered shut, he pulled away and said "you might be pregnant now". IF THAT ISN'T THE MOST 9 YO THING TO FUCKIN DO HSHDJSKDK

🎧: his constant use of etcetera xD

...

🐀: oh shit he was sexually assaulted as a teacher by some teenagers and that ruined his career,,, shit dude that suuucks.

🐀: dood okay this,, this sucks. this is. really real now. like. some of the shit therapist lady is going over with him makes sense. history of childhood abuse, likely sexual in nature, and being triggered by the teens forcing him to engage in a sexual act without his consent triggering up previously dormant alters, like yeesh dude i'm sorry so much bad has happened to ya. we protectors have it hard sometimes.

...

🥽: ..she can make the dormant host front by saying his full name? Curious...

...

Movie: *talking about dormant host* "He's very weak"

🦈🎧: ......

🐀: um, guys you okay? Do you two need a minute?

🦈: We're just. Just thinking about Cecils. It's been a while, ya know? They're weak too. And its been so long that they can't fully front anymore for any longer than 10 minutes without getting overwhelmed and exhausted.

🎧: Even Ash is getting that way too,,

🦈: I just wish it was easier to help them both. Like, I cohost and everything but I don't get that same feeling of being utterly drained like they do. They just have to carry that with no known reason why.

🐀: ...

🦈: sorry, I'm done. Back to the movie.

...

📓: Kevin's dad is the beast, that makes sense.

🥽: There's likely an introject alter hiding back there.

📓: Patricia and Dennis haven't met the beast.

🥽: but supposedly the others have, which means only those two were formed after his father left.

...

🍄: aw he has pet mice!! :D

📓: ... his "window" is a drawing...

🐀: thats kinda fuckin sad.

…

🦈: no..

🐀: fuck man. Shit. He really fucking did that to her.

👹: Humans are disgusting, vile beings.

💫: I'm so sorry Casey, I'm so sorry that you had to go through all this you sweet child. :(

🐀: god this is depressing.

🎀: I think thats just the alcohol you drank Rat! *eatting popcorn on Rat's lap*

🐀: 😭 thanks pom, you sweet little monster.

💫: 😭 Pompom you precious thing,,

🎀: yay sad time hugs!! :D

...

🥽: this therapist is really going above and beyond.

...

🐀: EATTING IMPURE YOUNG??? WHAT NOW

👹: mm tasty *thinking of chicken eggs*

🐀: ONI NO WRONG YOUNG

👹: ... oh :(

...

🥽: the switching between patricia and dennis is interesting.

...

👹: Don't like this "beast" character..

...

🐀: why didnt therapist lady say kevins name to bring him out?

🐀: oh shit how did his skin break the goddamn knife???? it looked like a nice knife too???

...

🐀: ayye barry's hat nice!!

...

🎧: OH NO,, ((their guts,,))

...

🐀: I'm sorry hE JUST BENT THE LOCK???

🐀: okay girl you have his name now dont be a dumbass say it immediately like you mean it

🎧: oh god, saying his full name triggers a ptsd attack,, I mean I guess good for those who need it to stop him from literally unaliving them, but yeesh bro I feel I feel. :/

🦈: their whole system is in total disarray right now,, half of them don't know how long they've been dormant or whats going on,, I feel so bad for them,,

...

🎧: good thing she knows how to use a shotgun.

🐀: i wanna see a flashback of her uncle again to see if he ever got what he deserved for messing with Casey tbh.

...

🐀: NO. FUCK. DAMMIT. HER DAD FUCKING DIED LEAVING HER WITH THE UNCLE. how many times?? How many times do you think he did it to her?? And she didn't have anyone to protect or help her anymore.

🐀: This movie is more sad than anything else. Sad and frustrating. Frustrating to watch this system become such a mess, sad to see what this poor girl has gone through only to be dealing with this shit. God I hate this movie. but in a bad hate way.

...

🥽: So he's preaching about how those without trauma are impure because they havent been torn apart by the world. I wonder if she'll mention her abuse to him, bc then she'd no longer be "impure" by his definition.

🦈: ,,she has scars from abuse, and he's seen them,,

🥽: this will likely affect the entire way she sees herself now. Her trauma has been the thing to save her and give her mercy and life at this moment.

🐀: she'll need hella therapy, but yeah. Maybe she'll see herself as worth more now. At least I hope.

...

🐀: THEY WERE UNDER A ZOO THE WHOLE TIME??????

...

🐀: oh no fuckin way shes going back to her uncle after this i hope she tells on him and goes with one of the families that lost their kids in this smh

...

🐀: okay so i know this is technically part of a series of movies so theres a bit at the end that I didn't get that I think I was supposed to have gotten.

...

🐀: it was okay. I can see why its decently rated, but also why it's hated. Theres definitely a lot of stigmatizing about DID in this, but truth told to me it seems like they actually did their research on DID. I get that its more interesting to tell a story about the DID person who goes batshit crazy with evil alters rather than the fairly boring and sad story of how it actually is.

🥽📓: We want to look more into DID represented in media (such as movies and tv shows) so if anyone has any suggestions let us know!

[rickriordanfandam]

opinions on riordanverse ; my edition

a lot of people have been doing this so i decided why not right. probably gna lose some followers or smth but anyways. pls respect my opinions! if u disagree, thats fine, but please be polite. unless any of my opinions strikes u as morally wrong then pls point it out to me respectfully. thanks!

- i actually liked drew. im so sorry to everyone who hates her but full offence, why. think about it this way ok, first of all drew became hc because silena died. silena was the traitor, the one who betrayed chb, yet after she died campers celebrated her as a hero? and then drew suddenly has to replace her and live up to idk that legacy she left behind,, when all of a sudden this girl named piper swoops in and takes her place. idk abt u but i wld be salty abt that too. not only that, but as an asian, the chances of drew having faced racism/bullying as a child is pretty high (she studies at brooklyn academy). which means that when she finds out shes a demigod, and arrives at chb where most of the campers are white (this is an assumption btw), she’d obviously be scared of being bullied for her skin color right?? so the first thing she wld do before the campers get to bully her is to bully them before they can do so. (sentence structure here is wack i apologize) ofc this might not even have happened, drew could have had a perfect childhood && was a b1tch for no reason, BUT EVEN THEN HER ROLE AS A BULLY WAS PRETTY VITAL BECAUSE THAT FURTHER SHOWED THE CONTRAST BETWEEN HER AND PIPER,, HIGHLIGHTING PIPER AS A HERO//GOOD CHARACTER,, AND THEREFORE MAKING READERS LIKE PIPER MORE. anyway stop hating on drew please. ALSO WHY IS THIS SO LONGA SDFJHG

- jason isnt bland, the fandom just kinda erased his backstory (thanks to @pjohoo-memes for the phrasing lol)

- reynabeth wouldnt have lasted/would have broken up several times. idk i just see them as two extremely powerful characters who have firm opinions and will definitely clash at some point. in a platonic relationship,, i can see them as really good friends but as lovers? idk i just think theyll break up

- PIPABETH

- i dont really like jercy,, i see them as better friends than lovers. also idt jason and percy were that close..?

- the dam and not my type jokes are srsly cringey and were never funny. ik that seems hypocritical since my username literally makes use of the dam joke but honestly i dont actually like the joke. its not funny to me and has never been funny

- the seven were not best friends. they definitely argued,, and honestly probably werent as close as the fandom makes them seem. like ure dumped with 6 other people, out of which u only know a few. my introverted ass would have jumped off the argo 2 quicker than leo valdez could bomb camp jupiter up. also leo was a dick to frank. so what if frank is bigger sized?? thats not a valid reason to tease him

- the fandom needs to stop hating on octavian while worshipping luke. if u hate luke and u say u hate octavian too, then okay. but if u tell me ure a luke stan but u despise octavian?? imma disagree w u. luke was worse than octavian im sorry. first of all, octavian being a dick was kinda justified. hes been after the praetor position for so long, and everyone keeps saying to “wait for jason” when suddenly this dude, whos a son of NEPTUNE (neptune wasnt liked much by romans), and the camp decides to make him praetor?? dude i would be pissed off big time. and then afterwards, he finds out that greek demigods are real and the dude they made praetor is greek. AND THEN GREEK DEMIGODS COME TO CJ AND ONE OF THEM BOMB IT UP?? octavian has been told all his life that greeks are scum and this dude called leo valdez attacks cj. sure it was an accident, but did octavian know that? no. so it was honestly justified that he was such a salty prick im just saying. also some of yall be hating on octavian for cutting a teddy bear open and thats the funniest shit ive ever heard i swear 

- luke didnt go to elysium

- travis and connor stoll r way too underrated. the two have been head counselors of the hermes cabin since luke was revealed as a traitor, can u imagine the stress? luke, the person they probably looked up to as a brother, betrayed them. and they didnt even have time to process this when they were  thrown the roles of being hcs. that would have been so stressful and i would probably have broken down if i were them. the stoll brothers taking turns to wake up at ungodly hours because a new camper is crying and homesick and terrified, the stoll brothers having to comfort and take care of new campers, having to deal with the amount of people in that cramped space because not enough campers are being claimed fast enough. having to resolve issues between campers in the hermes cabin all the time. the stolls arent just comedic relief, and we need to stop treating them as such

- tratie shldve been canon idc idc

- demigods of the demeter cabin arent talked about enough and i love the fact that meg was demeters kid. like she isnt the child of one of the big three yet shes so powerful.

- we need to hype clarisse up more her character arc was phucking amazing 

- rachel is overhated. sis found out greek gods exist and regularly come down to earth to fuck around and went “ok cool”. queen shit behavior methinks

- the floor 19 crew of mcga is srsly underrated. like do u even remember halfborn gunderson, mallory keen, tj, etc??? bc i feel like we only remember samirah, magnus, alex, and sometimes blitz and hearthstone

- sadie (tkc) was kinda annoying at first. i like her more now tho but i rmb not liking her for a phat while

- tkc and mcga need more love

- carter kane and jason grace arent boring. theyre just really sweet boys who are too good for this world and yes yes yes 

- hazel and frank (especially frank) need to be hyped up more. i hardly ever see anything about them. also yall seem to forget that frank was literally made praetor and that even hecate admired hazel and was willing to fight beside her because of how powerful she was

- frazels age gap is kinda sketch but i still think theyre really cute

- nico definitely had trauma from going to tartarus on his own

- GROVER IS PERCYS BEST FRIEND

- annabeth isnt smarter than leo but neither is leo smarter than annabeth. ive seen a lot of discussions about who is smarter and heres my hot take on it: neither. theyre equally smart, just in different ways. leos a genius mathematically speaking. he has no issues solving math problems meant for people much, much older than him. annabeth on the otherhand, is great at strategies etc. she can make an army of 1000 more powerful than the enemy, even if theyre outnumbered. so in my opinion, both are equally as smart//u cant compare their intelligence, because their talents lie in two different areas.

- while i do agree rick riordan isnt a god and that hes bound to make mistakes,, AND that hes given us a lot of representation,, if the representation offends the people its sposed to represent, then theres a problem. im talking about piper as a poc and wearing feathers in her hair. im not a poc, so i cant speak for them on whether or not its wrong, because i dont know either. HOWEVER, i have seen multiple posts BY pocs talking about how they didnt really like rick’s representation of piper, and thats an issue. pocs have been and are still oppressed and discriminated against by many. as a white cis man, we cant really blame him for not knowing (tho he could have done a research,, asked some pocs,, idk), but by representing pocs in that manner, hes influencing impressionable kids/teens into thinking “oh pocs wear feathers in their hair all the time” etc, which isnt true. the pjo/hoo series is extremely successful, and kids who read the books will probably start forming inaccurate opinions on pocs. the amount of fan art that depicts piper with feathers in her hair dont help either. “but rick said so in the books, so its canon” yeah well rick isnt a god and he can get some things wrong at times. im not saying we should cancel him, im saying we should start educating ourselves and not spread false info like pocs wearing feathers in their hair all the time. also that snake song shit where she sang Summertime was just- yeah. bc heres the thing you can be racist, and still include minorities, but portray them in a racist way. And even then, ignorance isn't a thing to admire. Getting those facts wrong still has a major impact. It continues to perpetuate racist stereotypes.

“ With the feather thing, I looked it up myself; it takes less than five minutes to figure out that Cherokees don't braid feathers into their hair. I didn't grow up in the country where my parents are from. I have many other first/second generation American friends who have also been through that, with a bit of a disconnect from their culture. But something that most of us have in common is that when we didn't know something, and when our parents weren't that big of a help, we looked it up. We sought out resources online and through other people from our culture to be able to connect more with where we came from. Some of that took a Google search. So I find it hard to believe that Piper, a girl who Rick's trying to portray as someone who is attempting to connect with her culture and is totally against racist stereotypes, wouldn't know that eagle feathers aren't supposed to be braided into your hair casually. She may be disconnected from her culture, but she's also shown to want to connect back to it. Piper wouldn't be casually braiding feathers into her hair while also telling off people for being racist. It makes no sense.” - reddit thread (down below) 

for those of yall who wanna know more please please read this, it has a lot of things i wanna add in here : https://www.reddit.com/r/camphalfblood/comments/gy3gl2/piper_mcleans_portrayal_is_innacurate/ 

as well as https://finding-my-culture.tumblr.com/post/189422373260/maxie-ratties-and-cattie-finding-my-culture 

i will be posting screenshots of these in future posts so if ure viewing this on ig and u dont have tumblr,, dont worry 

- the fact that most of the strong female characters in the series refuse to be “girly”, and ngl i dont really like that. just because ure girly doesnt mean u cant be strong. 

- piper would have been a great way for him to start making the strong characters act girlier, but instead he went with the “I’m not like other girls” trope which is quite obnoxious to hear constantly, and I don’t think it’s necessarily great for younger girls to read that idea growing up.  the closest we've ever had to a strong female character who was also into "girly" things was Silena. when I was younger I admired Piper's "I'm not like other girls" thing, but then I got older and realized that the whole mentality of "not like other girls" is super obnoxious, and a little bit toxic

i have a heck load more that i cant rmb rn but yeah feel free to add more 

[lunaschild2016]

Close To You - Part 1[Eric/Devi]

Rated: M

Title and inspiration from Close To You by Maxi Priest

Summary: Devi and Eric’s story continues, but this time we see things from Eric’s eyes. It was her belief in him that sparked them finally coming together, but where did it really start for Eric? The life of a childhood sweetheart, conspiracies, and the fate of the city all hung over his head. He didn’t need to be wondering how to get close to the tiny amity with fire in her eyes and a mouth to match. He didn’t need to worry and wonder about how he could find a way to just be close to her.

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She had an attitude I can't explain

You never know if you’re in flame

Tying me up with elastic words

I'm on a countdown till I get hurt

Her blood was hot she burned so bright

A neon sign there in the night

It's hard to say if I went too far

My heart still bares the scar

I just want to be close to you

And do all the things you want me to

I just want to be close to you (I just want to be close to you, baby)

And show you the way I feel

[Close To You; Maxi Priest]

Part 1

“What’s wrong with her?” I ask for what feels like the hundredth time since I stepped foot into the shit hole that Dauntless calls a clinic.

Once again I watch the nurses flutter around the girl on the bed, clucking like hens and completely ignoring me.

I run a hand through my hair and restrain myself from punching something or someone in frustration but I can’t completely restrain my impatience at being ignored.

That’s not something I’m willing to stand for, initiate status or not.

“Will someone tell me what the fuck is wrong with her!” I move up to stand right in front of one of the nurses that have stepped away from the bed and loom over her.

She’s wearing blue scrubs, meaning she’s from Erudite and most likely the one person in this place that’s actually fully qualified to have the title I see on her little badge clipped to her uniform.

“Eric Coulter, right?” She eyes me like a hawk and I feel irritation coursing through me. For a second, I also wonder if she’s one of Jeanine’s plants in Dauntless. That’s dismissed when she gives a strained smile. “You look a bit like your brother. I work with him from time to time. He mentioned your coming here.”

I narrow my eyes, not returning her smile and look past her to the girl still laying on the bed, motioning with my hand in her direction. “What’s her status?”

Candice, the name indicated on her badge, bristles at being ignored but answers me through thinned lips. “I have to call someone in to evaluate her, but we are drawing blood for tests and monitoring her until then.”

I look back at her and hesitate, wondering why the hell I’m getting involved and why I didn’t just leave the Amity girl in her dorm bed for someone else to deal with.

“You said you work with, Dr. Coulter?” I asked with appraising eyes, watching her closely.

“I do.”

“Then you won’t mind working with him again now, will you?”

I have no real power here in Dauntless. Not yet anyway. If I was making this same order to someone wearing black, I’m sure I would be sent away with a sharp reprimand no matter how intimidating I know I can be.

But Candice is Erudite and I have power there. My name is known. If Candice is a plant of Jeanine’s she’ll do as I say but report it back to her. If she isn’t, she’ll still do as I say.

Because, as much as I might despise it and have wanted to leave all that shit behind, I rank higher than her in their hierarchy. No matter if I wear black now, to them, I will always have true ‘blue blood’ running through my veins.

As expected she gives me a curt nod before moving off hurriedly. The other nurse wearing black gives me a look before following, and then it’s just me and the girl on the bed.

My fists clench to the sides of my body as I scowl down at her.

I hate that she’s made me care enough to step in and use my name for something when I promised I would get leadership on my own, no matter how much Jeanine tried to throw her weight around.

I hate that I’m thinking about anything or anyone else besides what I came here to do and who I’m doing it for.

Jules.

The thought of her has tightness in my chest that’s growing tighter the longer I look at this stupid tiny girl laying in the bed.

She’s not Jules. There’s no doubt about that.

Jules is tall and graceful with a smile that can infect even the snootiest of Erudite.

Jules who prefers dresses and ridiculous hats. I never have been able to figure out how she gets them all, and most of them are so ridiculous in order to get a rise out of me.

Jules who has always been able to make me laugh even when I’m in the worst fucking mood and even my brother can’t stand to be around me.

Jules who can sweetly cut a person to pieces and still leave them wondering if she was complimenting them or telling them to fuck off.

Jules, the best person I have ever known and the one I really want to save.

When I look at the amity girl, that’s who I see.

Jules is who I should be with. I should be there helping her and holding her hand or trying to make her laugh, but I’m not and it pisses me off.

Because coming to Dauntless was more important than the girl I love.

“You better not die,” I mutter angrily while glaring at the girl on the bed.

The whispered angry words won’t reach the real target, who I’m really saying them to. But I realize with some surprise that I also do mean them for the girl laying on the bed in front of me.

I turn on my heel and rush out of the clinic as fast as I will allow myself to be seen rushing anywhere. I make it to the training room corridor where control bursts away from me and I sprint into the room looking for something, anything, to make the tightness in my chest go away.

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My brother is not who I expected to see standing behind the door of the office I was summoned to just before dinner but I can’t say the dread I had been feeling gets any better when I do see him.

If anything, it actually gets worse.

He’s standing at the end of a long conference table, hunched over papers and a tablet as I close the door quietly behind me. His presence makes me nervous as hell and I feel slightly sick to my stomach.

All I can think is something’s happened with Jules.

Elijah looks up at the sound of the door clicking shut and his eyes narrow as they take me in. I know he’s doing a snap evaluation, trying to determine a million things in the space of seconds so I won’t get upset about him fussing over me.

Even with all the recent strain on our relationship, Elijah remains the person I know I can count on most to truly care about me and how I’m doing. Even when I do my damndest to drive him and his affection away.

“Jules?” I ask, stepping forward and forgoing all greetings.

Elijah straightens and comes forward as well. I watch him carefully.

I never fuss over him the way he always did over me, like a parent rather than a brother, but I have always tried to watch out for him too. I see the tiredness etched into the way he holds himself and his face. Eyes so similar to mine that have never been able to mask his emotions from showing the way I do.

He smiles tiredly at me and motions with his hands as he speaks. “Jules is doing fine. She told me to tell you that you better be ‘kicking ass and taking names’.” He chuckles and runs a hand through his hair. “She also says hello and that we miss you.”

I sag a little in relief and nod while clearing my throat that has become thick with emotion. “Tell her I say, same and you bet your ass I am.” He gives me a smile and nod at my response and motions to a chair to sit. I do while throwing out my next question. “So, why am I here?”

“Well, given that you broke protocol and summoned me here, I thought you might want to know what’s going on with the girl, Devanna, I believe is her name,”

“Devi,” I correct him gruffly then frown at myself for caring enough to make the correction. Eli doesn’t say anything, just lifts an eyebrow and looks at his paper before correcting his notes.

“Devi.” He says with a nod.

“So what’s wrong with her? It’s been a day since I took her to the clinic, so it isn’t her just having a cold or something simple like that.”

The first day she had been smiling with enerving energy that just seemed to radiate from her. I almost thought she was going to explode from it there on the train. Even when she was panting and huffing from the climb and run to get on.

As the day wore on the smile faded and she withdrew. Some of the other initiates seemed to thrive on putting her down for anything and everything. Her old faction, her height, her accent...anything really.

Mostly this was other girls. The guys just dismissed or ignored her. Like I have been trying to do.

It was clear after the first night that something was going on with her but no one knew what. I wrote her off by the time we were going to sleep that first night. I just didn’t see her making it. Here we are at the end of the week and I don’t see that changing. I’m pretty sure that’s what my brother is going to tell me, that she’s done.

Once again, I’m cursing myself for not just letting it go and risking myself as I did. Especially now that I know it had been for nothing, because she’s gone anyways.

Then I remember why I ignored all logic and reason. I remember how I felt that night and what prompted me to take her. How small she was in my arms as I carried her through halls, trying not to race along them but feeling a sense of urgency I didn’t really understand.

She was moaning, almost deliriously, but not responding to anyone that was yelling at her to shut up in the dorm that night.

I laid there not saying anything to the others. though I wanted to so badly. To tell them all to leave her the hell alone. Then she went silent and I waited for something, some other sign from her that she was going to be okay.

The others around us were going to sleep, no problem, but I couldn’t. Her silence was deafening to me. I could have left her there and had tried to talk myself into doing just that. Until something made me go check on her and before I even got close I could feel the heat coming off her.

She was whispering something, so faint I could barely hear her until I crouched down beside her. Her eyes opened and they were glazed, she winced away from me and whimpered pitifully but she kept muttering. I leaned in even further and she reached out to grip my arm, and I could finally hear the broken pleading in Spanish.

“Por favor, no ... por favor ... Tuve que irme, abuela. Tuve que ... por favor no me odies.”

I don’t know what it was about her words. Her pleading for her grandmother to not hate her. To understand she had to leave. They weren’t some big revelation, I’m sure all of us felt that to some degree. Worried we are leaving someone behind that will be hurt or hate us for the choice.

It wasn’t so much the words themselves but the way she said them. How strong two of them were, how firm and how much fire was in them as she whispered them out over and over again.

Had to.

As if her life was in jeopardy if she didn’t go. If she didn’t follow her heart.

That was something Jules would do. She followed her heart and come hell or high water she would see it through. No matter the risk.

Did Devi know how much she was putting her life at risk just by choosing Dauntless? Did she even think about how she was nothing like a Dauntless should be in all the physical ways that matter?

But I was thinking like an Erudite with those questions. A Dauntless, a true Dauntless, wouldn’t care about any of that. They would just know there was no other choice. Just like Devi did.

Something inside me broke open for her right then and she wedged herself into a spot that I have hardened to all but two people in my life. Now I don’t know how to make that go away. Tightness starts to creep up on me again, my chest itches and I reach up to rub the spot but jerk my hand back down and look at Eli.

“Some of the others are saying she has the plague or something.”

Asinine.

I know better, and from his look at me, he knows I know better. His lips quirk in amusement and he shakes his head.

“We both know better than that. She is sick but it isn’t terminal…” He pauses and winces before his eyes filled with pain and he lets out a shaky breath then continues while I eye him and carefully mask my own pain “...but it won’t be pleasant for her in the least.”

I nod slowly. “So what is it?”

“Her body is expelling poison and it’s anything but painless.”

“Poison?” I almost shout the question and interrupt him.

Eli holds a hand up to me, a calming motion. “Peace Serum, Eric. You’re aware that Amity regularly imbibes in it, but it seems that her case is extreme. We are talking about a lifetime of daily exposure at high levels. Her body doesn’t know how to function without it anymore.”

I scowl in disbelief wondering how that’s possible and who in their right minds would purposely do this to themselves. But he said a lifetime, so does that mean even when she was really young?

I wave that away mentally and with my hand as well. “So what does that mean? She can’t continue can she?”

Eli shrugs and sighs before dropping his pen and leaning back in his chair casually.

“That will be up to her ultimately, but she’s already waved away the normal method of treatment. I can’t say I blame her. That would have meant removal from training for at least a week if not more depending on how extreme the treatment needed to be. Leadership has already said if that was the case then she was out with no other options available. I was near when the nurse gave her the options and she automatically turned the treatment down, already guessing that it meant she wouldn’t be continuing treatment. She’s staying and will let it purge from her system as naturally as possible.”

“So she’s going to go through initiation while going in withdrawal?” I mutter and look at the table while trying to deny how much that disturbs me especially knowing what I do about how withdrawal patients are treated.

There aren’t many cases where someone gets addicted to substances like I know there was pre-war and the drugs that were common are all but nonexistent for us now. But there are cases where someone gets addicted on the ones we do have and there are even cases where someone synthesizes a substance and then gets hooked on it themselves.

When this happens, the person is isolated and then their system is purged with a cleansing drug. Tests are run to determine how their body is handling the purge and if anything is still off then they are treated appropriately. It can take weeks if not months to treat some of the severe cases my brother has told me about and that’s just from a biological standpoint. Even after he gets done with them they still have much more to look forward to psychologically.

I don’t know if I can spend another night watching her suffer like she has been the last few nights. Now knowing what I do, it’s just bound to get worse and I can’t fucking handle that. “Why give her the choice at all? Why not just send her back to Amity!”

I look up at him when he makes a grunt and I realize that I spoke that out loud. My frustration is coming through loud and clear.

He leans forward with a frown of disapproval on his face. “You know very well they’re going to send her straight to the factionless, not back to Amity. I know you might not care for…”

“I don’t!” I’m breathing hard and rubbing my chest while looking around wildly. “I can’t!”

Elijah’s beside me suddenly and I didn’t even realize he moved until I feel his hands guiding me until my head is between my legs and he is coaching me through my breathing.

When I feel like I’ve gotten ahold of myself, I take the glass of water he hands me and avoid looking at him as I drink it.

I feel like a fucking kid again. Like when I used to have these same kinds of episodes after repressing feelings for so long until they boiled out and over. Elijah always tells me that trying to go through life so emotionally cut off isn’t healthy and I know he’s headed towards another lecture of that kind.

“Are you going to gloat now and say I told you so?” I ask him sourly when I look at him again.

“Have I ever done that?” I can hear the hurt in his tone but don’t respond. If I do I’m just going to end up saying something else hurtful.

I always do.

For being a so-called fucking genius, according to my old faction, I’m useless when it comes to anything resembling social graces. I learned early on that honesty is not the best policy for me. Silence is.

“Eric,” He says softly and leans forward, his arms on his knees and head bowed, “It’s okay to care about people. To open yourself to caring for someone.”

I sneer at him as I scoff, unable to remain silent, hard as I might have tried. “Sure it is. ‘Cause that’s worked out so well for me in the past, hasn’t it, brother?”

He looks up and I see the pain radiating in his eyes. I know my anger and words are opening up a wound we’re still trying to heal between us. That’s kinda hard to do when I’ve refused to talk any more about it.

“I can’t apologize for the way we both feel, Eric and I won’t. You two love each deeply other and that’s never going to change. What you two have is still there and it will always be there. It’s also different then what she and I have, and that has always been the case too, but it doesn’t make what you two share any less powerful.”

I nod and look away, gripping the glass tightly between my hands as my jaw clenches together. “But that wasn’t enough for me to stay, was it? I love her so much I left her when she needed me most. It just proves what I’ve always thought.”

I shrug and look back at him, knowing his next question but also needing him to ask it. Needing to expel it from me just like the little amity is doing right now with her own poison. He’s right I need to talk about this shit. I haven’t been able to until now.

I need to get this all out of my system so I can go back to not feeling at all. Then maybe I can get rid of this new sensation for a girl that has no chance of sticking around.

“What’s that?” Eli prods me softly.

“That I’m not capable of loving anyone but myself. I don’t care who it hurts in the end, as long as I get what I want.”

Elijah rolls his chair closer to me, his blue eyes that are normally filled with warmth are burning with intensity.

“I want to listen to me and listen well. You are not our parents and you have never even come close to them. You could never allow yourself to be like them.”

I listen but I can’t believe the words. I’ve never been able to believe the words. No matter how many times my brother has tried to reassure me of this over the years since our parents all but abandoned us.

His features soften and he smiles at me. “Yeah, you have the habit of pushing all your feelings aside and acting like they don’t exist, but you can never get rid of them. Which is why things like earlier happen. Because, it’s never been that you don’t and can’t care or love, Eric. It’s that when you do, it’s all or nothing for you. Bone deep love is what Jules has always called it. You left, not because you don’t love Jules but because you know that nothing will ever take that love away from you. Not even being in another faction. You said those same words to me when you came to me that night and gave us your blessing. It was something I already knew, but it was also something you had to realize for yourself and one day you’re going to find someone that you love just as deeply but in the it’s meant to be.”

I jerk my head in a semblance of a nod, not bothering to reply how I’m feeling.

I’ve forgiven Eli for taking Jules from me, well, mostly forgiven him anyway. What he says is true, I did come to see that how I love her and how Eli does, they aren’t the same. It’s just that in my mind that doesn’t really matter.

It still hurt and that wasn’t something I cared to open myself to again. I loved her but it hadn’t been enough. End of story.

He pulls back and I breathe a little easier when I realize he’s dropping the subject. Eli leans back in his chair and clears his throat.

“How’s training going?”

“Fairly good, although there was a surprise when it came to finding out how many fears we all have.”

Eli frowns at me. “Did your amount change?”

I shake my head with a scowl and look off. “No, it’s still nine. Which should have been the lowest fucking number among the group.”

“I take it someone is lower?.”

“Yeah. Four of them. The asshole even changed his name to the number of his fears.” My scowl gets deeper when I think of the scrawny Abnegation that’s causing me more uncertainty than he should be. “He’s a concern. I’ve heard some leaders and trainers saying they’re impressed by him. Rankings haven’t been posted since training just got in full swing, but I think we’re neck and neck for first. I’m pretty sure I got him beat in physical, and I don’t foresee fights being a problem, but the scoring percentage for the other stages is a serious concern with his number of fears.”

Eli taps his chin thoughtfully. “That’s an extremely low number. What faction is he from?”

I know where my brother’s train of thought has gone and I can’t say I didn’t immediately think the same when I found out Tobias Eaton’s number of fears. In fact, I’ve been giving a lot of thought to it and what I can do to remove the threat it poses to me.

“Abnegation,” I remark dryly and see him wince.

“It’s the Eaton kid?”

“Yes.”

“Shit.” Eli curses with a grimace then looks at me worriedly. “I know what you’re thinking, Eric, but don’t do anything you’re going to have to live with the rest of your life. You know what they will do to him.”

I shoot up out of my chair and pace around the room. “It’s not like I have a choice here, Elijah. You know what’s expected of me. At some point, I’m going to be expected to have results for them.”

“That’s what they expect. But when have you ever done what those pricks in our faction expect of you?” Eli demands from me fiercely.

“You know why I even bothered to give their offer a second chance. Jules needs this, Elijah. This is how I save her. What does it matter if I turn over some fucking stiff that means nothing to me? Especially if it gets them off my back and me first?”

“Is that really how you want to get your position here? By taking out someone that might be stronger than you?”

I grit my teeth as out the cursed denial, and glare icily at him, giving him exactly the reaction he wants even though I know exactly what the hell he’s doing by throwing that out there.

I call it manipulation and he would say he’s being my own Jiminy fucking Cricket

“How do you think this is making Jules feel, knowing what they want in exchange for her life? Jules knows you as well as I do and I know in your mind you’re already justifying it, telling yourself that any exchange for her would be worth it but how far do you go down that road, Eric?”

The tightness starts again and I let out a growl, spinning away from him and towards a wall. I feel like punching someone and Eli is the only one in sight. “Don’t bring her name into this like some kind of weapon against me.”

I want to punch walls but know we’re already shouting and that will draw attention we can’t afford. We are risking so much already. I stop in the middle of carrying out my need to hit something in anger and just lean my hands against the wall and hang my head.

“I don’t have a lot of options here,” I whisper tiredly.

“No, not a lot, but you do have a few. Eric, we know they’re afraid of you taking the power they covet so much. There was a reason for this and maybe what we need to do is to show them why they were right in fearing you.”

I slowly turn towards him, my mind working double time as my eyes narrow. He waits patiently as I process this, his arms crossed over his chest.

“I’ll need help. Contacts that I know we can trust or that we can get leverage on to make sure they stay in line.”

“I’ve already started working on that. Jules too.”

I want to protest that, not wanting her involved but I know it would be pointless. They made me promise there would be no secrets and that I had to let them help in any way they could if I made this deal.

I gave a stiff nod and then looked at my watch. “I need to get going if I am going to get some dinner before lights out.”

He gives me a strained smile and nods but I see the hesitation. His internal debate and wondering if I will reject his show of affection or not. I step forward and put out a hand which he takes and grips tightly, his hand around my forearm while mine is around his. This is the form of a hug he came up with when I stopped wanting them years ago.

He smiles at me while we still hold firmly. Eli promises to make it for visiting day and that he should have contacts for me soon. We also share words of parting, mostly jokes that have been thrown around between the three of us of what I planned to do once I finally made it to Dauntless. They aren’t as carefree as they once were before our recent falling out, but it does hint that we can get there again given time.

When I go to leave he calls my name one last time and stands there looking serious and worried. “About the girl,”

“What about her?” I ask with a frown.

“I know it goes against what I was saying earlier about opening up and all,” He runs a hand through his hair with one hand and shoves the other in his pocket with the other. “But you need to stay away from her, for now.”

I let all expression fall away from my face and tilt my head. “Not that I see it being a problem for me at all, especially considering she isn’t going to last the week, but why? Does Jeanine know I called you in?”

He shakes his head while I can tell he is warring with wanting to admonish me about my callousness and wanting me to heed his warning for whatever reason. “No. Candice isn’t in Jeanine’s circle and wouldn’t want to be anyways. Something about a friend of hers that went missing or something. So Jeanine doesn’t know I was called in from her, but that doesn’t mean she might not find out from some other source. This girl, she might not actually mean anything to you, but Jeanine is crazy enough to grasp for anything that she can use to sink her claws in you even deeper.”

I feel bile rising up my throat at that but maintain my dead tone and a blank expression. “Like I said, it won’t be an issue.”

He responds with a resigned nod and I’m out of the door quickly after that making for the mess hall. Most of the other initiates had already grabbed food and headed for the dorm which was a relief since I didn’t want to have to deal with them. I ate quickly even though I wasn’t in a rush to get back to the dorm myself. Something about the activity around me and watching everyone go about their lives helped calm me.

Gave me the headspace to think and plan.

Elijah was right about handing the stiff over, it wasn’t something I wanted to do. I didn’t want to win my place here that way just like I didn’t want to have a bit of influence from Jeanine on the leaders to sway them either. In fact, I bluntly told her that was one of the conditions of my acceptance to work with her.

I also know without a shadow of a doubt that if turning number boy over saved Jules, even by way of securing my position, then I would do it and not even blink. If I had to carry that stain on me for the rest of my life I would for her.

The decisions, resolutions really, make me feel lighter. It eases some of the anxiousness I was feeling that I have a solid plan and course of action.

I even find myself talking to a few of the members at the table of the mess hall. I pick at the slice of cake one of the guys shoved at me and listen to them all bullshit with each other, but mostly I just observe things.

I see the stiff slipping from the mess hall, pulling in on himself to try and go unseen like he’s done from the first.

I watch the leaders as they look down at their noses from up on the balcony. Talking among themselves and hardly ever interacting with anyone else. But they’re watching, always watching, to make sure their bidding is being done even if it will lead the faction straight into war.

Max seems to be the one that I’ll have to be the most careful about. I can feel his eyes on zeroed in on me, watching and judging me. Even here when I’m eating dinner like everyone else.

I shift my focus and try to casually look to see if my suspicions are right when I see something out of the corner of my eye.

A small figure hunched over her plate at an empty table far in the back and cast in shadows it’s so out of the way. The tightness in my chest starts to creep back in and I jerk my eyes away, remembering my conversation with my brother.

I know I shouldn’t feel anything but seeing her is a relief. ‘Cause at least I know she’s alright.

So I’ll keep away, but I already know I won’t be able to stop myself from watching.

[ijustlikehoney]

LIGHTS UP

on washington heights up at the break of day i wake up and i got this little punk I gotta chase away, pop the grate at the crack o dawn sing while i wipe down the awning hey yall, gmorning. ice cold piragua ! parcha, china, cherry, strawberry, and just for today, I got mamEy ! yo piragüero cómo estás ? como siempre señor usnavi !! *doo doo doo doo doo* i am usnavi and youve probly never heard my name reports of my fame are greatly exaggerated exacerbated by the fact that my syntax is highly complicated cuz i immigrated from the single greatest little place in the caribbean ! Dominican ! Republic ! I love it jesus im jealous of it and beyond that ever since my folks passed on i havent gone back, goddamn i gotta on that, fo ! the milk has gone bad hold up just a second, why is everything in this fridge warm and tepid ? i better step it up and fight the heat, cuz im not makin any profit if the coffee isnt Light and Sweet. OoOOo ! abuela my fridge broke. try my mothers old recipe, one can of condensed milk. nIce ! ay, paciencia y fé ! *doo doo doo doo doo* that was abuela shes not really my abuela but she practically raised me this corner is her escuela now youre probly thinking, im up shits creek i never been north of ninety siXTh street, well, yœû mùšt tækę thė à train, even farther than harlem to northern manhatten and maintain, get off at one eighty first and take the escalator, i hope youre writing this down im gonna test you later, im gettin tested times are tough on this bodega, two months ago somebody bought ortegas our neighbors started packin up and pickin up and ever since the rents went up it's gotten mad expensive but we live with just enough iN THE HEIGHTS i flip the lights and start my daAaAy, there are figHTs endless debts and bîlłš tø päæãy in the heIGHTS gets more expensive every day (ēvęrÿ dãy) cuz tonigHT seems like a million years away, in washington— Next up to bat the rosarios they run the cab company they struggle in the barrio see their daughter ninas off at college tuition is mad steep so they cant sleep everything they get is mad cheap Good moRning usnavi pan caliente cafe con leche put twenty dollars on today's lottery One ticket that's it. hey ! a mans gotta dream, don't mind him hes all excited cuz nina flew in at three a m last night don't look at me, this one's been cooking all week, usnavi come over for dinner there's plenty to eat ! so then yeseña walks in the room (uh huh) she smells sex and cheap perfume (uh oh) it smells like one of those trees that you hang from the rear view Ha ha no its true she screams whOs in there with you julio !! grabs a bat and kicks in the door, hes in bed with jose from the liquor store; no me diga. daniela and carla from the salon. thanks usnavi ! sonny, ya late. chillax, u know u love me (doo doo doo doo doo) me and my cousin running just another dime a dozen mom and pop stop and shop and oh my god it's gotten too darn hot like my man cole porter said, people come through for a few cold waters and a lottery ticket just a part of the routine everybodys got a job everybodys got a dream they gossip as i sip my coffe and smirk, the first stop as people hop to work, bust it, im like, one dollar two dollars one fifty one sixty nine i got it you wantaboxofcondomswhatkindathatstwo quarters two quarter waters the new york times you need a bag for that the tax is added once you get some practice at it you do rapid mathematics automatically sellin maxi pads fuzzy dice for taxi cabs practically everybodys stressed, yyes, but they press through the mess bounce checks and wonder what’s next iN THE HEIGHTS i buy my coffee åńd į gø (i buy my coffee) and set my siGHTS on only what i need to knôoōw (what i need to know) in the heiGHTS money is tight but êvęn šò (ëvēń śõoô) when the liGHTS go down i blast my râdïòõ) you ain’t go no sKills benny ! yo let me get a milky way (yeah) let me also get a Daily news and a Post and a most important my Boss’s second coffee one cream five sugars im the number one earner (what) the faster learner (what) my boss can’t keep my on the dæmn bac

[samthewrestlingfan]

DIVE Part 2

Here it is everyone! DIVE part 2!

Thank you so much to everyone who messaged and commented on part 1. It really means so much to me, and motivates me more than you know!

I’m also a lil bit drunky right now, so some feedback would REALLY mean a lot! lol

But for real guys, please enjoy part 2 of DIVE. Let me know what you think, also I may be taking some drabble requests soon! ;)

Enjoy, Lovebugs. <3

Taglist: @naturalmeadows , @xfirespritex , @wrestlingbabe

I stirred from my sleep, woken by a combination of the sunlight streaming in through my window, and my phone ringing like crazy. I ignored it, and ran to the bathroom. Literally, I can't hold my pee for more than three hours at a time now...

Did I mention how great pregnancy is?

"You're gonna kill me little one..." I laughed as I rubbed my stomach. This little on just loooves to sit right on my bladder. I walked out to the bedroom to hear my phone buzzing again. I sighed as I walked over to it, glancing casually at the screen.

"Oh shit!" I mutter as I slid the screen to answer.

"Hello?"

The gruff voice on the other end laughed, "Hey kiddo, how ya doin'? Did we wake you?"

I smiled, "'Course not, Hunter! Psshh, I've been up for hours, you know just...hitting the gym and--"

"Yeah, Yeah, Yeah." HHH laughed, "Steph is here too by the way."

"Hey Ella, how are you feeling?"

I sighed with contentment, "I'm doing okay! I'm almost 5 months now, so at least the morning sickness is over."

She laughed before Hunter spoke. "So listen kid, we know you've been missing this place, and while we cant have you around the ring, we have an offer for you."

Stephanie continued, "That's right, and we were just wondering if you would be interested in being a backstage interviewer? We would make sure you wouldn't be put in harms way, and keep your segments from the chest up if you'd like."

I couldn't believe what I was hearing! "Absolutely! God I've missed it so much! I--" My voice caught in my throat.

"Ella? You still there?" HHH asked.

I cleared my throat, "Y-yeah! Yes I-I am. Just one question, what side would I be on? Raw or Smackdown."

I held my breath waiting for an answer, Stephanie spoke softly, "Unfortunately right now, we only have a need for a Raw corresponder..."

My mind raced, I can't go to Raw...can I? Seth is there. He'll see me, and I'll see him and then he'll know. I don't know if I'm ready for all that.

Clearly the filter between my brain and my mouth isn't working, because before I knew it, words came flying out."Sure. I can do that!" I slapped my forehead. Smooth Ella, real smooth.

I heard a clap on the other end of the phone, "Perfect! We're gonna fly you up to Boston for Monday morning okay?" HHH asked.

"Sounds great, thank you Hunter, Steph...it means so much to me than you could ever know."

They both sighed, "Anything for you, kid."

---

For my first flight while being pregnant, it wasn't too bad. I walked through the airport glancing out the window to see the sun just kissing the horizon. I checked the time, 5:24 AM.

I yawned, mindlessly heading for the luggage belt, when suddenly I felt two pokes on either side of my ribs.

"Ah!" I jumped up and turned around, to see a gorgeous pair of hazel eyes staring me down.

"Nia!" I wrapped my arms around her as best I could with this growing belly.

She laughed as she hugged me, "My little munchkin! I've missed you so much!"

"What are you doing here!?" I asked, still breathless to see my best friend.

She continued walking with me to the luggage belt, "Hunter asked if I would be willing to help you get outta sight and to the hotel safely. So of course I said yes! I had no idea you were coming back though, no one really knows..."

Nia gave me a look that said everything. "Well, that's good. I still don't know what I'm gonna do, girl. I'm going to see him, it's kind of inevitable at this point."

She sighed, "Maybe this is a good thing. You are going to have to tell him, Ella. Not to be too blunt, but no matter what he's done to you, he has a right to know, It's his child too."

I nodded. I suddenly felt unbelievably nauseous, "Let's just get to the hotel, I think I need to lay down for a little before we go to the arena..."

---

I paced in my hotel room, waiting for Nia to tell me it was time to head out. I tried on multiple outfits, trying to find something that would hide my ever-growing bump, finally settling one on that wasn't the worst.

I flopped on the bed, feeling defeated and all around icky about this whole thing.

I let out a deep breath, "Alrighty little love, you ready to do this? I mean, I think I am." I rubbed my belly as I spoke to the little life just inches from my hand.

"You don't know this, but you're the reason I do everything now. You're what makes me brave and you're what makes me want to be a better person. I just hope I can make you proud of you're Mama someday--" I paused, "...I also hope your Dad doesn't bolt when he finds out about you."

My thoughts consumed me as I felt tears fall out of the side of my eyes. I don't think I've ever faced the reality of having to see Seth again, and I definitely never faced the thought of being a single parent. I never even thought I'd be a parent before 30.

I wish I knew what his reaction would be, but--I don't know him anymore. When we were together, we were so in sync with each other, but now I don't even know if any of that was real.

My thoughts were interrupted by a knock at my door. "Come in!"

"Hey! Ready to get going?" Nia asked joyfully. I stood up, "Sure am, just let me put my dress on." I chose my black maxi dress, and a long, patchy denim jacket.

"Whatcha think? I picked this 'cause if you look straight at me, ya can't see the bump fully. The jacket hides it a bit too."

Nia smiled, "Looks great, Munch--let's go."

---

I walked through the arena doors with Nia before heading our separate ways. Despite having a nervous mind, my heart felt right at home. I followed the weathered paper signs straight to Hunter's office, and lightly tapped on the door.

I heard the shuffling of papers, "Yeah? Come in..."

My hand slowly pushed the door open. His heavy brow looked up from behind his reading glasses, and a warm smile spread from ear to ear.

"Hey there, Ella..." He said standing to hug me. "Hunter, how are you?" I felt so relaxed in his hug, he embraced me the way a father embraces a daughter,it was as though I could feel the love coming off of him.

"You're joking--you walk in here 5 months pregnant and you as me how I am? Typical Ella." he laughed. "Please, sit." HHH pulled the chair out for me before walking to sit in his own. "So how the baby? Everything look good, normal check-ups?"

I nodded, "Yup. He or She is thriving so I've been told."

Hunter nodded in comprehension before leaning forward on his desk, letting out a sigh, "Look kiddo, I know this whole...situation isn't ideal for anyone. I'm going to try and make it as easy a transition as I can okay? This is your home and I want you to feel as comfortable as ever. If you need anything, and I mean anything from me, you let me know. If you're ever put in an uncomfortable situation, I wanna hear about it. I'll do my best to keep the rumor machine down but you know--"

I interrupted his kind words with a small sob. I pulled a tissue out of my bag, "I'm so sorry...hormones." I said dabbing my eyes.

He reached across and put his hand on mine. "If this is too overwhelming for you--"

"No...I'm okay. I'm just not used to having other care about me as much as you and Steph do. I love you guys like you were my own parents, ya know? I just wanna make you proud."

"You do, Ella. We're very proud of how you're handling this, especially all on your own."

I smiled as I wiped more tears, and let out a long breath. "Okay, let's go do this."

---

"Oh my God! I can't believe this!" Sasha said her hands on my tummy. "What is it?! Is it a girl! I bet it's a girl."

I laughed, "I honestly don't know yet. I haven't been letting my doctor tell me." Which was true, I don't want to know. Not yet anyways. I stood up from the makeup chair, my hair put in a high bun, my lips painted a gorgeous plum color.

"Excuse me, Ella? We need you to set in 5..." A producer interjected.

"I'll be there." I smiled at the man in the headset.

"Who are you interviewing?"  Sasha asked, her gaze still set one my bump, "Not sure yet, I guess I'm about to find out."

I walked down the crooked corridor smiling. I don't know if its the pregnancy hormones or what, but I've never felt so many emotions all at one time. I was feeling so happy, so content with my choice to come back to work and see all of these incredible people. Despite the smile on my face, my mind never let me forget that somewhere in this building, the father of my child is waiting--ignorant of my presence here.

I approached the set and saw Dean, waiting to be interviewed. I exhaled, "Okay Ella. You got this. You can do this." I mumbled under my breath.

I walked over to Dean and tapped him on the shoulder. The look on this lunatics face was priceless. "Ella! How've you been, Darlin'?"

He opened his arms wide, ready to scoop me into a signature Dean bear-hug when he froze in his tracks. His eyes landed on my stomach, and slowly drifted back to my face.

"Wow, um...I mean listen, if you wanted a snack we have catering for that, ya didn't need to smuggle a watermelon under your dress." He smiled, his dimples showing.

I hugged him softly, "I've missed you, Dean-o."

"I missed you too, Els. Looks like you've been pretty busy hmm?"

I nodded, "Surprise..."

He kissed the top of my head, as he often did when he was trying to comfort me. "Congratulations, Els. You're gonna be one hell of a Mom. That kid--it's never gonna feel unloved, that's for sure."

The producers moved us into position, "So, Els...who's the lucky guy?"

"Ready in 10, folks!" A voice yelled from behind the camera.

I cleared my throat and held the my mic up ready for the cue. "Well uh, funny that you mention that." I whispered with a nervous smile.

"7, 6,5--"

I leaned closer to Dean to whisper so no one around us would hear, "It's...it's Seth...he's the father. He doesn't know yet." Dean's eyes widened but the countdown from the producer shook him from his frozen glare.

"3, 2, 1" Headset guy pointed at me, as the light above the camera went on.

"Hello, WWE Universe, Ella De Luca here with a one-on-one interview, with the one and only, Dean Ambrose."

Dean walked into frame, "Good to have you back, Ella." Dean said with a wink as he punched his hands together.

"It's good to be back, Dean. But onto the business at hand. Later on tonight, you will be going one on one with The Miz in a good ole fashioned Falls Count Anywhere match. How are you preparing for what's to come later tonight?"

Dean paused before he spoke, "Well that's just it, isn't it Ella? You can never prepare for something like this. But you know what? A real man doesn't run from his problems. A real man turns his problems into opportunities, and a REAL MAN, doesn't bail when things get tough--he gets tougher."

With that Dean walked off camera, leaving me gazing after him.

The light on the camera turned off, and the man spoke, "And we're out! Thanks guys."

I ran after Dean, "Thank you for that..." my eyes locked on my fidgeting fingers.

"Not gonna lie, it's taking a lot for me not to find him and punch him in the mouth."

"Dean, please do--" Dean was one of my closest male friends here, so he knew what happened between Seth and I those months back. ...He hasn't really liked him since then.

He put his hand up, "Don't worry Els, this is your business. But if anything goes wrong, you know where to find me."

I nodded. "I'll catch ya later, Kid. Gotta go prep for the ring." He rubbed my back before disappearing down the hallway.

I quickly ran to the dressing rooms to change into my comfy clothes. I pulled on my black leggings and my baggy gray WWE hoodie and slipped into my fuzzy Bearpaw side-ons.

I contently sighed, "Thank God, now my feet can breathe."

---

My phone was buzzing with texts from my friends on Smackdown, all of whom were so surprised to see me back on TV, and so happy to see I was doing well. Thank God the camera didn't pan down to show too much of the bump.

I was on Twitter replying to all the fans that were freaking out about my return. So many of them were confused as to why I wasn't in the ring, but I tried my best to ignore those.

Suddenly I heard a crash that sounded louder than a car wreck, I stood at then end of the hall, frozen, feeling the blood rush from my face, and panic rising in my chest.

...Seth. He was dressed in his ring gear, and he was right in HHH's face, screaming at him. "How could no one fucking tell me, Hunter!?"

"Seth, take a walk and calm down." Hunter said firmly. I have never seen Seth this irate. He slammed the door against the wall so hard it nearly flew off it's hinges. Everyone in the hallway either scattered, or moved as far away as they could.

He ran his hands though his soaking wet hair, "Are you fucking joking? No one is telling me anything and it's bullshit, Hunter! She's back and I have to find out by hearing her voice on the God damn monitor?!"

No one, and I mean, no one in their right mind would ever speak to HHH like that, not if they valued their job. Seth clearly was not in his right mind though.

"Rollins this is your last warning. Take a walk...now."

Seth shook out his nerves through his hands. "This is bullshit and you know it. I wanna see her Hunter." He spoke slightly calmer now.

"That's not up to me, Seth. I'm sorry you had to find out this way, I really am."

My heart was racing, and my legs trembled beneath me. I was shaking but somehow, I was still frozen. I didn't know what to do.

He wasn't calming down, Seth's whole body was turning red, so I did the only thing I could think to do.

"Seth!" I called, quickly clasping my hands over my mouth.

Seth turned around, and his mouth fell open. Hunter sighed visibly, his hands on his hips.

"Ella..." Seth breathed, his face softening and his body relaxing.

Oh boy, I thought to myself, as I made my way down the hallway, Here we go.