Been seeing a lot of talk abt it chapter 1 for some reason maybe cause fall is soon but i have vivid memories of my mom taking a friday off and her letting me take a friday off and going to see it at the fancy movie theatre cause i was in such a bad mental state in highschool that she on her own decided i needed a movie on a school day like only a few weeks after school started which if you knew my mother back then was a very drastic choice
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Oh no I’m sorry you’re not feeling well!! Hoping you recover quickly ❤️
AAAAA TY 🥺
Doing a bit better today, I’m still super exhausted tho and I know I probably need to eat more but I have like. No appetite. But me not eating is probably the reason why I still feel like hot garbage lol
I’ve already taken two days off of work so I’ll have to go back tomorrow;; not sure if I will survive the whole day tbh. All I’ve done the past two days is scroll through social media and sleep. That’s literally it gjdnfn
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My ergo therapist and a nurse drove me to my apartment today to be there for emotional support while I cleaned up the mess ex roommate left behind. The nurse said it was an act of aggression that ex roommate left his belongings at my place - same goes for pissing in my bed and all that.
Yesterday I received a text message from him, stating that the police is informed and that I should speak out. I ignored the message. Didn't do anything illegal meaning there's no reason to be afraid of the cops.
I feel battered nevertheless. Kind of defeated. Hopeless, sad, angery. Not just because of ex roommate but in general. Don't know how to climb out of this hole, this time. I always had a plan. Or an idea on what to do and where to go, but rn I just feel lost. Yeah, I'll go to the living group again but what then? My addiction will still be there. All the other stuff too. I'm putting my hopes in the rehab clinic I'll go to in a couple of weeks.
I just hope I won't be discharged tomorrow. Yesterday I got told they want to keep me here for a while longer so that I can learn to reach out for help and stand up for myself more. But part of me believes they'll just drop me tomorrow nevertheless. Kind of like it's often been.
Yeah, I might be triggered. Feeling raw, as if I have no skin. A nurse took my pocket ashtray because there's a weed leaf on it (yeah I'm cringe, I know) and it felt like the end of the world. These "everybody hates me, no one understands me, the whole world is against me" kinda feelings. Oh man.
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Okay so pickled herring is a thing in Finland and I really like it. It comes in jars and in different sort of situations, like in seasoned plain brine, in mustard brine, etc.
Now obvs. I don't eat pickled herring anymore because vegan, and it's a bit of a bummer because like, this is part of my culture, food is a big part of culture and, by extension, identity.
Today I had vegan pickled herring-like stuff that is made out of eggplant. Like if you like mustard herring you would like this, it's just a super-good fishy and mustardy combination. And I was just so happy and will be buying this stuff in the future.
So if you ever see anyone asking "why do vegans have to make vegan versions of nonvegan things" this is the reason. Food is a crucial part of culture and everyone should have ways to connect with their food culture regardless of what sort of dietary restrictions they have, voluntary or involuntary.
Food innovations that enable people with food restrictions to take part are good and worthwhile.
And hey, if you are in Finland and you like sinappisilli, try the Kalavale eggplant product. It's good and adds some extra vegetable in your diet :)
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