#we're the last of our friend group

[littlestartopaz]

This is a thank you to all my temporary friends.

To all my friends for a day, who participated in something with me and i never saw again.

To my friends whom i knew since childhood, then distance drew us apart.

To my best friends and siblings of choice who moved away or never lived near me to begin with.

To my friends whose inboxes I'll agonize over for hours, aching to reconnect but not knowing how.

To all my internet friends who moved on.

To all the traitors and back stabbers and fake friends, i guess i was the only one who thought us friends, but thank you too for being kind while you were.

Thank you all, for being my friend. I ache for the days we talked and laughed. I hope that life treats you well, and that you find someone who can accept you as you need.

[kuromi-hoemie]

feel like I've genuinely spent at least a quarter of my day too horny to think. i was going to do some kind of art today but I've been thinking about the boy...

[wheeboo]

hmmm what positions would we (aka ur moots ✌🏻) would have in a kpop group???

omg ummmmm no cuz why is trying to imagine all of us as a kpop group the most HILARIOUS THING EVER LMFAOOO

also i'm doing this purely based on vibes meaning that i will 99% get you wrong 💔

@slytherinshua - leader + vocalist cuz it makes the most sense out of all of us since she's the one who made the disc server (tho i was the one who first brought the idea of up a moot circle server 🤭 we both thought abt it tho and it happened yipee!!!)

@blue-jisungs - rapper + fotg idk guys but i feel like axe can spit some bars if she rlly wanted to ?! also she's rlly popular n social and will be a perfect face 😍

@mirxzii - vocalist for obvious reasons

@haecien - vocalist cuz we got that filo blood flowing fr ☝️

@eternalgyu - dancer and i don't rlly have a reason why JDKLFJDSF

@fairyhaos - fotg ?? and/or center ?? yena our popular bubbly bright sunshine bringing us all the fans fr

@weird-bookworm - vocalist or rapper ?? idk just the vibes 😭😭 leaning more to vocal tho but maybe vernon her spirit animal will help her w some bomb ass raps

@etherealyoungk - another dancer of our dysfunctional group 😍 she will bring out her inner horanghae and slay choreos

@rubywonu - lowkey another leader if zanna can't handle us nia just gives off leader vibes fr 💅and maybe dancer as well

then our resident maknae line is respectfully zanna, hannie, sky, and,,, lmk if i missed anyone </3

and if i were to give myself a postion i'll give myself vocalist and/or dancer cuz i danced a lot in choir 💪 + co-leader when everything turns to shit and i am needed as a last minute resort

[selfinflictedgunshotwound]

not my online friend trying to have the "not all zionists" conversation with me rn

[deepwoundsandfadedscars]

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[venomgender]

i miss doing theatre

[whiskeyswifty]

also if it's true this will be one of the most fascinating swiftie phenomenons because never before has she dated someone who everyone hated while they were dating. usually the cycle is he is a neutral person first, then beloved by shipper swifties and they obsess over him and love them together whatever. and then when they break up, she shit talks him and reveals shitty things and only then does he becomes a pariah in swiftie spaces. but THIS is entirely new territory like... he's already loathed by everyone for completely different, taylor-unrelated offenses and it isn't even a confirmed fling yet let alone relationship. she's about to get soft-bullied by the entire internet but this time swifties are joining in like this could be sooooooooooooooooo funny... can't wait to find out!

[allyouzombies]

screaming myself hoarse til I pass out we were together during a very tumultuous time in our lives I will always have your back and be curious about you about your career your whereabouts!!!

[astrxealis]

good morning 🥺

[trenchcoat-of-hats]

okay so we're dying to tell our current friend group that we're a system and we just found out two other systems used to be part of the friend group so they know all about it, but, as usual we are terrified of coming out, so I'm asking the internet if we should come out lol. does anyone have any advice maybe?

[gayfrasier]

HAD THE. CRAZIEST INSANE SEQUENCE OF EVENTS AT UNIVERSAL TODAY

[deadrlngers]

the gang meets the friend that dumped us 6 months ago bc he got a gf and said gf. 2 deads found in the southern italian countryside

[sophiamcdougall]

I fucking knew it, I SAID it: they're making ADHD people the next culture war targets. They will 'just ask questions' until we lose every scrap of ground we've gained in the last decade and more. We may not quite inspire the same level of hatred as a sexual minority, but we can very easily be made to inspire disdain and that also works.

They will strip us of our accomodations and our medications and try to stifle any sense of shared identity, and if that kills some of us, oh well. So long as it fuels another outrage cycle, fine.

So many of the tropes they've been using on trans people work extremely well on ADHD people too! "There are too many of these people suddenly! It must be a fad! It spreads through friend groups! And online! People are going private for diagnoses and that's bad! They are using pOwERfUl medical interventions and we think it's freaky!"

I saw the first ripples of this in terf circles about two years ago. And of course it's spread.

6% of British ADHD people lost their jobs in the last year thanks to the meds shortage. SIX PER CENT! And that just made these ghouls go "ooh, tasty, what else can we do?"

Recently an 'expert' was on the BBC saying people see ADHD diagnosis as a "golden ticket." Laurence Fox has been ranting that the condition doesn't exist and threatening "'you won't poison my child's body [with ADHD meds] against my consent"

People need to be aware this is going to get worse. Maybe, if we're lucky, it won't get really bad. But it's going to get worse than it is now.

[cryptidapprentice]

eep!

[dragonfyre-creations]

I don't think I've ever poured so many of my physical attributes and so much of my heart and soul into a character design before in such a personal way before so fuck it whenever I finish the final design for Faeng and whatever I come up with I'm making her into my sona (dragonsona? Persona? Idk how this works lmfao)

(long dump in the tags and under the cut)

The last time I was even remotely connected this much to a character was when I designed Jaxsu, but honestly never truly made her my sona/main character, she was just the one I used most often in art pieces. I never really actually liked her lore and backstory enough because she was what I wanted to be instead of what I am/was. Jax isnt perfect either, but her parents love her and otherwise has friends and is loved unconditionally. She has a healthy relationship with everyone and everything. This is where the disconnect happened and where I actually started to dislike her despite her being my otherwise favorite character for awhile. Both Faeng and Jaxsu have ADHD and Autism but Jaxsu was able to put that towards a job and becoming a ship captain and winning a colosseum tournament. She's done all of these great things so even if she didn't have a healthy relationship with her parents they'd still love her because she's done something impressive and useful.

Faeng on the other hand, has to fight for everything. Her parents are important and have important jobs, and place all of these unreachable and unrealistic expectations on her and expect her to reach them with minimal effort and be perfect, but she can't no matter how hard she tries. She needs someone to explain it and break it down for her in steps so she understands what do to and how to do it so she doesn't mess it up. She's both strong and smart but it's not in practical "normal" ways or subjects. It's convoluted, It's not in the ways everyone wants her to be, she has no teachers to help her understand how to channel that strength and intelligence into something "useful" so she puts it towards the things she likes and wants to do, and thus struggles in a world that would otherwise be easy to navigate and conquer if she were "normal". Those that do understand her and try to help her are alienated by other people in an attempt to either punish both of them or force her to adapt to be somewhat passing as normal, if not then at least listen to what she's told to do. She does eventually make acquaintances but find that her twisted speech and weird explanations aren't worth trying to decipher and understand so they leave, they don't put in the effort to meet her halfway even though she's struggling and doing her best to speak in a way they'll understand.

Her parents acknowledge her differences but in a way that frames it as flawed and wrong, something that needs to be corrected, and push her to figure out her problems by herself, tearing down any support network she tries to build. She tries her damned hardest but it's not enough, it never is and never will be for them because she's not the perfect child they wanted. She showed promise in her younger years being a "gifted child" so she knows what love and acceptance lies in wait and what could be if she could just be normal and perfect. Her achievements and promise come and show in waves. She burns and fizzles out in one of the most virulent, painful ways possible after getting hurt trying to prove her worth yet again. She holds nothing but criticism, vitriol and contempt for herself because she can't claw her way back to where she was before, this time something happened and something is terribly, horribly wrong this time but she doesn't know that it is and can't figure it out, nor will anyone tell her. Whatever it is, left a mental and several physical injuries and it does nothing but deepen her self hatred and her parent's waning belief in her. She listens to false promises and praise of other people who do nothing but wish to manipulate and harm her but she stays because any form of praise is deemed good, she hungers for more and does worsening things.

She ignores the people who tell her that what she's doing is dangerous and will only end in disaster, because she doesn't believe them. If the people who are saying they're her friends are telling her that the people she hurts deserve it and that what she's doing is good, then surely she needs to believe them over strangers, right? Everything comes to a breaking point and shatters around her leaving her with quite literally nothing but her own self hatred, newfound rage and overbearing mental issues she needs to navigate once again to find out what hell it is and what's wrong with her now. She's scared of everyone and everything with the added bonus of now being hyper-aware and perceptive of people's mannerisms and behaviors, especially those who want to manipulate or harm her again. She wraps every vulnerable part of herself in metaphorical thorns and teeth to bite and maim whoever pries and digs into what she truly is, even people who want to understand her. She suffers at more than her own hand, forcing herself to deal with everything alone, until she finally meets someone that could be considered a true friend. She slowly opens up and helps them as much as they help her before everything comes crashing back down once again upon the reveal that they've been lying to her the entire time about very serious issues, and she's been used as nothing more than an attack dog once again. She burns every bridge and everyone around her in one final breakdown of rage before shutting down completely. One of the groups of friends she's shoved stay comes back and asks if she's ok. She doesn't understand why they're being kind, why they're concerned it why they care and tries to shove them away again. Every single day they still ask, talking even if there's no response from her, until she finally relents and breaks.

She's finally loved and accepted despite every fault and every flaw she has, and every time she tries to pull away out of fear of being an inconvenience they pull back twice as hard and remind her that she's able to just exist, she doesn't need to constantly be useful and that they care. She finally, finally is comfortable enough to let herself be accepted and then becomes the most clingy little shit, just as they do with her. But yeah, my own life has been very much of the same, especially the last part. Every time I go on another self-hatred spiral and drop off the face of the earth my MonHun bros give me a metaphorical slap to the face and remind me that I don't need to constantly prove my worth to everyone and prove that I'm useful, and that existing every once in awhile is more than enough. If that doesn't work then it's "you need to get your ass back over here because we're failing the Safi siege without the absolutely ridiculous amount of DPS your build Switchaxe does". I was not intending for her to be so much like me but goddamnit she's wormed her way into being my favorite now and I guess Mirage is no longer my impromptu sona

[cherrygarden]

girl help the crush i thought i was over came back with a vengeance after one (1) hangout