#what i wouldn't give to still have that kind of insecurity lol. unfortunately i feel like an idiot now

[seongminiz]

R U Mine ? - park serim

minors dni ; soft dom!serim x sub fem!reader ; 2432 words

warnings : jealousy/possesiveness , reader is insecure , praise , pet names (princess , good girl , baby) , fingering , unprotected sex , breeding , marking , does serim having a driving license count as mischaracterization ? , he also has a massive cock amen . an attempt at proper grammar but only partially proof read so if u find typos or me being an idiot n writing small comments in between no u didnt

first long-ish work i post on here feeling kinda nervous . no fr this is nerve wrecking idk im not good at writing descriptive smut ffs :D but i loved writing it ngl also something kinda upsetting happened today so it ended up a little more angsty than i intended it to be bc what r my fics if not insane projecting lol. the title is an arctic monkeys song bc oomf (elif) helped me change it (it was a lovejoy song before .... :] )

you and serim have been in a relationship for a few months now, and while of course you have some small arguments here and there, there have never been any big issues between you two. you love him, he loves you, and neither of you would ever doubt that. that is, until you end up being serim's plus one at some kind of event: you've been following him around all evening bc u have almost no idea of whats going on.

now, you're not usually the jealous type, you're okay with serim speaking to women other than you ffs that's his job, but the way some of them at this event are clearly flirting with him sets your jealousy issues off bad. watching your insanely handsome boyfriend be - or at least act - completely clueless about how they're clearly putting the moves on him, especially with how good he looks dressed like that, white shirt underneath his suit jacket straining against his toned body, leaving little to the imagination.. it pisses you off, to be completely honest.

you can't stand it, you can't stand how so many women, most of them you find clearly prettier than you, are able to get his attention like that, completely ignoring you even if you're basically clinging to his arm.you feel inadequate, just a mere presence they barely acknowledge with a small smile before going back to talk to serim. your serim.

what you fail to notice, though, is that serim is well aware of the shift in your mood. he doesn't know exactly what it's about, but he was pretty quick to sense how upset you had become just in a few minutes, trying to talk to as many people and as quickly as possible so you two could get out of there and he could give you his undivided attention.

of course, you don't know, too focused on dwelling on the jealousy building up inside you. you barely notice when serim gently shakes you, trying to catch your attention 'are you okay princess?' you sigh 'yeah.' your short reply isn't of any reassurance to serim, his thumb lightly rubbing your hip 'wanna go home?' you shrug, trying to hide your (very obvious) upset expression 'if we can, yes. but if you still have to... do whatever you were doing, we don't have to-'

'okay, got it. i'll talk to this one last person, and then we can go home, alright?' you nod, his arm leaves its place around your waist and you once again grab onto it, following his steps. your heart drops when you realize that, unfortunately, said person he has to talk to is a woman. which wouldn't even be that bad on its own, you can stand it for a few minutes (you really can't, but maybe you can convince yourself..), but she also happens to be the most attractive, hottest woman you've seen through the entire evening. you tune out the entire conversation, trying not to stare at her because everytime you take in another detail you feel like crying.

when serim finally cuts the conversation off, you politely - albeit coldly - bid your goodbyes to the woman, walking with serim out of the room and towards the parking lot. when you get to the car, you don't even wait for serim to open the door for you - he's dead set on giving you the full princess treatment - climbing in the passenger seat and slamming the door shut.

that's when serim realizes, this isn't just you feeling a bit under the weather, you're genuinely upset - and you weren't at the start of the evening, so he knows something that happened between then and now is the cause of your behavior. the fact you're giving him the silent treatment does irk him a little, but he knows that's how you act when something really bad happens, and he could never get mad at you for it.

despite his concern, serim still calmly gets into the car, turns it on and starts driving out of the parking lot and into the bright, artificially lit streets. glancing at you from time to time, he finds you looking out the car window, arms crossed over your chest, deep in thought. when you reach a particularly empty and straight part of the road, serim takes the chance to place his hand on your thigh, something you're both used to during your late night drives. what he doesn't expect, though, is for you to move your leg, wiggling out of his grasp (not that hard, since he wasn't putting that much strength in it in the first place).

serim raises an eyebrow, eyes still fixed on the road as his hand helplessly goes back to the wheel. his concentration on driving is what makes him miss the way you look back at him, concerned on whether you've gone too far or not. stopping at a red light, serim's eyes immediately find yours, desperate to get to the bottom of this 'what's wrong princess?' you shake your head, absent-mindedly reaching for his hand in search of any possible physical comfort. 'nothing, you're going to think it's stupid anyways,' you mumble. serim frowns, reaching to move a strand of hair behind your ear 'i would never. whatever it is, it's upsetting you, and I don't like seeing my baby like this.' his voice comes off more stern than he intended to, but his soft touch is there to remind you that he's not actually upset at you. he's just your concerned boyfriend.

serim moves his hand from the side of your head to your chin, tilting it so you have no choice but look at him 'so? what is it?' you pout. 'i'm jealous.' the look that crosses serim's face is a puzzled one 'what?' you shrug, averting his eyes 'you spent the entire night talking to other women, all better looking than me. i'm jealous,' you admit. serim is about to answer you, when the light turns green, the cold hue illuminating both of you. serim sighs, speeding up. 'we'll talk about it when we get home, yeah?' you nod, scared that you might have upset him. even if his voice didn't let that out, you can't help but wonder if he's disappointed in you.

serim parks in front of your apartment complex, a few seconds of you two sitting in the car in silence pass, until serim sighs, taking the keys and stepping out of the vehicle, making his way around it to open the door on your side too. god forbid he let you do it on your own again. you walk out, grabbing the hand he extended to you. everything is so silent, you again question if he's genuinely mad at you for how you acted. you knew you were being immature, giving him the silent treatment and all, you're just getting a taste of your own medicine, but you couldn't help it.

you were so caught up in your thoughts you didn't even realize you got to the elevator until the faint 'ding!' of it startles you. you step inside, never letting serim's hand go. 'you know i would never cheat on you,' serim breaks the silence, and your eyes widen in shock to the realization 'that's not what I was implying! i know you wouldn't! i just... those women were all so much prettier than me, and more mature and sophisticated, and hotter and... i'm just me. I felt so out of place, like i wasn't at your level. and it's totally not your fault! but i couldn't help but feel jealous, like I wouldn't even blame you if one day you decided i wasn't enough for you and left me for one of them. and i know you wouldn't but... it still hurts to think about it.' you start rambling, missing how serim tries to stop you a few times by calling your name.

when you finally look up at him, he has the softest smile plastered on his face and, before you can say anything else, he plants a kiss on your lips, his hands immediately finding their way to your hips. 'i would never chose anyone other than you. you're as perfect as you could be, i swear,' you can feel his breath against your lips as he talks, your heart beating furiously against your chest 'i don't care about any of them. you're all i need and you're more than enough, you're too perfect for me' he continues, only stopping to kiss you again. the elevator comes to a halt, and thats your cue to separate, but you know this isn't the end of it. serim's hand finds yours, as he lowers himself to speak into your ear 'i'll show you just how perfect i think you are, yeah?' he whispers, a shiver running through your body at the implication 'will you let me?' you nod furiously, your reaction making serim chuckle 'good girl' he says, kissing right below your ear before guiding you out the elevator.

the short way to your apartment is agonizingly slow, constantly interrupted by stealing kisses from each other and, when you finally manage to step inside, serim has you immediately pinned against the door, locking it behind you as he roughly kisses you. his hands are everywhere on you, your waist, your thighs as your dress slowly rides up to leave you more and more exposed with each movement.

'you don't even know how insane you've been driving me with this dress,' he groans, lifting you up with no effort and, as you wrap your legs around him, you feel his bulge pressing against you, a small moan leaving your mouth. 'serim... need you,' you whimper against his lips, a thin string of drool dripping from your lips onto his. serim smiles, capturing them in yet another kiss as he starts to carry you towards your shared bedroom.

he places you on the bed, your dress lifted all the way to your hips revealing your completely drenched panties. serim can barely contain himself, seeing you all spread out like that, for his eyes only, but he wants to make this all about you and your pleasure.

he starts to slowly undress himself, unbuttoning his shirt before slipping your dress off. your hands brush against his sides, tracing his defined body and tentatively going lower to rid him to his pants - no matter how many times you've seen him like this, it always leaves u in awe how a man this perfect could ever exist, and be your man at that. serim gently takes your hands in his, pins them over your head and places a soft kiss on your lips 'let me do all the work for once,' he says, hooking his fingers in your panties and sliding them off your legs.

before you know it, serim is three fingers deep inside you, opening you up for him bc no matter how many times you've taken him, you'll never get used to just how big his cock is. you've been incessantly whining for god knows how long, about how much you need his cock, you need him, and every time without fail serim replies that 'you already have me, princess, more than anyone in the world, you have all of me.' and proves his point by leaving yet another mark on your skin.

your thighs, your neck, your chest, every unmarked portion of your skin is soon bruised to the point anyone would assume he was the jealous one in the relationship. and maybe he is, just a little bit, recalling how revealing your dress - now discarded somewhere on the floor - was on you, so perfect on his princess but a little too perfect for any other men to look your way.

when serim removes his fingers from you, you're a mess, hair sticking to your forehead, breath heavy, tears running down your cheeks and ruining the makeup you worked so hard on for the event. but that's how serim likes you the most, when you're fucked out before he even gets to be inside of you, his pretty little mess, just for him.

and he tells you exactly that, as his cock finally sinks into you, groaning and rambling about how much he loves this sight, how he's so lucky to have you and how you're his and his only. the sweet praises partially distract you from the stretch, until he bottoms out and you both sigh in unison.

it's not long before serim starts thrusting into you, his pace picking up immediately but never getting quite as fast or rough as it usually would be. he wants to take it slow, savor the moment, his hand holding your hip while the other cradles the side of your face so your eyes don't stray away from him. it's hard to do so, when each thrust hits the perfect spot in you, as you fight the urge to let your eyes close.

'mine,' you moan against his lips, feeling him twitch inside of you 'all yours, princess. and you're mine too, can't stand it when everyone's eyes are on you, you're too pretty for this world.' despite the downright nasty predicament you're in, you can't help the way your heart fills with love at serim's words. you pull him in another kiss, your legs wrapping behind his back to push him deeper inside of you.

'then make me yours in any way possible,' you whisper. serim chuckles, slowing down his thrusts. it's not the first time he cums inside you, but before it was just a result of having unprotected sex. now it's a deliberate choice, to make you his in the most intimate way possible. 'yeah, princess? should i fill you up, mark you from the inside so everyone knows you're mine? would you like that?' you nod, squeezing around him as a particularly hard thrust hits a specific spot inside of you that has you letting out an high pitched moan.

serim's hand leaves your face, his rough fingers rubbing your clit and, before he can even tell you to, you're cumming, shaking as serim helps you ride out your orgasm and reaches his own, spilling inside of you as incoherent praises leave his mouth, telling you how good you've been for him and how much he loves you.

once you've both calmed down, serim presses a kiss to your forehead, holding you tight in his arms so that you can know you're really, uniquely his, and he's not going anywhere.

[quasiquack666]

Just gonna repost these once a day until I'm done lol

Enjoy the KarKay During-Canon Thoughts!

Ao3 of During-Canon

KarKay Insecurities

— Preface:

Let me just start by saying I noticed two major insecurities that Kayden and Kartein have. For Kayden, he is cautious about his perception and image regarding power. For Kartein, he is cautious about who can claim a relationship to him and his ability to do genuinely kind deeds

— One:

Kayden’s image and perception. Three distinct moments jump out at me for Kayden here. One, when he says to Jiwoo that he beat up people in order to show the world that he is still strong (181, 214). Two, when he had that particular smile in front of Jiwoo before suffering in the basement to do force control (262). Three, Kayden being quite angry at Pluton for saying he wouldn't fight (277).

All three instances show that Kayden is actually very cautious about how people perceive him regarding strength. Everyone mentioned in those points has to see him as strong and Kayden goes to great lengths to maintain that image (fighting people, smiling through pain in front of Jiwoo, explosively ranting at Pluton). He cannot afford to be weak in these moments, and he shows that he actually does consider perception as part of strength. If he only thought raw power was needed to maintain image, he wouldn't have cared about perception

— Two:

Kartien's relationships and kindness. Two moments jump at me for Kartein, but there are definitely more scattered throughout the comic. One, when Kartein claims Jiwoo as his patient, rather than allowing someone to say that he is Jiwoo's physician (even though it's the same thing) (228). Two, when Kartein literally seems to blame cat poop for going off to help Subin’s grandpa (also 228).

At first, Kartein is only willing to associate with Jiwoo and Kayden on a professional basis for a decent price (healing Jiwoo in exchange for a new force method). But as we go along in the comic, he increasingly finds more flimsy excuses to be kind (cat poop my dude…) and more wonky ways to ensure that he is in control of a relationship with someone (Jiwoo must be his patient, not him being Jiwoo's physician). Kartein is quite ridiculous in his lengths to cover up genuine care for people, but he does so anyways regardless of how foolish he looks. I think it's interesting how he feels the absolute need to control his relationships to someone

— Three:

But Kartein notices Kayden’s insecurity. When Kayden went down to the basement, Jiwoo seemed to take the reply at face value, but Kartein was the one who really noticed (262). His expressions tell the story, he knows something is up with Kayden, that he is very very injured. Unfortunately Kartein doesn't do too much about it, I just think it's interesting that he did notice. That Kayden panel really breaks my heart though, I wish Kartein did more (but helping him would interfere with his relationship insecurity for sure). There's also the time during WAA (214) where Kartein asks why Kayden fought. He agreed that Kayden did the right thing to preserve his image

— Four:

And Kayden also seems to notice Kartein's insecurity. I know it's framed as a joke when Kayden makes the script with Jiwoo to convince Kartein to heal the grandpa (228). But that hides the fact Kayden is actually helping Kartein by giving him an excuse to be kind. For example, in the beginning Kayden used the same taunting method to get Kartein to heal Jiwoo's core (138). He taunted Kartein into doing something— this is a genuine taunt during the core healing moment, but I think the implications during the grandpa moment are slightly different. Although it definitely is a joke on Kayden's end, he is enabling Kartein to do what he actually wants to do. After all, Kartein wouldn't heal the grandpa anyways if he didn't want to. Simple fact. But Kayden gives him an out, gives him an excuse to do kindness.

It's a weird understanding of Kartein's weakness in being unable to give kindness freely (Kayden even acknowledges Jiwoo as Kartein's excuse in 242). So Kayden helps him hack that impulse, allowing Kartein to frame the situation as a challenge to his prowess that must be dealt with, rather than Kartein actually wanting to help others. I don't think there's such a concrete example of Kayden helping with the relationship aspect, but Kayden doesn't particularly challenge it

— Five:

There's unfortunately a bit of a difference in those examples regarding willingness to help each other. However I can see a lot of hope for their development, particularly on Kartein's side, after the Astra battle in the 270s. Kayden absolutely proved himself to Kartein there and fought a Top Ten on Kartein's behalf. And Kayden followed solely on the suspicion that Kartein was doing something dangerous when he left Jiwoo's house. With that sort of proof that he is absolutely under Kayden's protection and within his inner circle, I think Kartein would be a lot more willing to help Kayden directly in the future (beyond the literal life and death healing moment in 273). Or at least with another flimsy cat shit excuse I guess

— Personal Rant:

I wanted to make a fic based on the insecurities I mentioned here but idk if I will ever muster the brainpower, so I ranted instead. Gosh, they could actually be so sweet on each other if they developed a bitttttt more in the trust direction and improved their communication. Like just imagine Kartein helping Kayden out in another basement equivalent scene and reassuring him. And Kayden much more obviously allowing Kartein to express his kindness, without judgment or expectation. They could actually be so soft on each other and I swear I will write more of what I think they could be if that happened (cough my soft fics are them doing just that). THEY ARE PAINFULLY SWEET, I WILL SHOW THE WORLD *shakes fist*

[levi-supreme]

You always manage to make me feel emotional with your kind words! You don't know how happy I am to see that my asks have the same effect on you that yours have on me ❤️

Even though we've known each other for over a year, I consider you one of my closest and precious friends. You were with me when I needed help with your sweet and reassuring words, despite the fact you had to face challenges too. Thank you once again! If I made it, it's especially thanks to you and all your support and for that I'm eternally grateful! I'm trying to take better care of myself both physically and mentally. Sometimes I still fell victim of doubts and self-loathing thoughts, but now I know I'm not alone like I thought before 😊

So happy to hear you treasure and cherish our bond! I feel the same and I hope our friendship will keep flourishing during this new year. Omg! it melts my hear to know you read our old conversations from time to time!! I do the same thing and it never fails to bring a smile on my face ❤️🥺

I Know how you feel, I know only two people who play acnh and I see them a few days a year. So I don't really have someone to talk to about the game either and I'm so happy I can share my thoughts with you! I found the first part of the game, where you still have to buy the house and collect the branches, really tiring. I stupidly chose an area of the Island with very few branches so I had to wait a lot to craft something 😭 On YouTube I found a lot of ways to earn more money, some of them are really creative and ingenious. I don't know if this apply to acnh too but some years ago I used to play the previous animal crossing game "new leaf". I often changed the date of my console in order to switch from one season to another to collect rare animals and then sell them at the museum. I made a lot of money this way! Unfortunately, I've never tried to see if it works on acnh, I haven't played the game for a while. When I'll get my hands on my switch again I'll definitely give it a try. So glad to see you're enjoying the game! I agree with you, it's such a calming experience. I love to interact with the various citizens and I get really attached to them so you can imagine the betrayal I feel when one of them moves away. I'm like "we created lots of memories together but I don't think I'll ever forgive you. What did I do wrong? I thought you were happy here" HAHA

Oh god, I can relate! On cities skylines it didn't matter what you did, citizens were always unsatisfied and it was so unnerving! 🙄

Mh I've never been really informed about the Pokémon franchise. When I was a kid I used to watch some films with my brother who was a big fan, but I didn't really understand much. I borrowed a Pokémon game years ago. However, I never finished it, but it was an enjoyable experience and I wouldn't mind to play a Pokémon game again. I'm pretty sure at home I still have some albums full of cards lol

Oh I can't wait to see what you have in store for us this year for Levi's birthday, you always have interesting ideas so whatever you have in mind I already know it'll be great. But don't feel pressured, do what makes you feel good and happy! 💕

I'm happy to know I wasn't the only shy follower here on Tumblr haha I think I've overcome my fears thanks to kind and sweet people like you who never judged us for our mistakes in English. I used to feel really insecure at first but talking with you has helped me to improve my writing skills in this language! Yes, you're right! We’ve come a long way together ❤️

I'm rooting for you! I'm sure your new semester will be great. Your motivation and efforts are admirable! Haha yes, that's something Levi would say, he may be blunt but he's such a wise and rational person. I love see you talking about the Reivi ship, in my opinion you two complete each other! You have different personalities and thanks to that you know what the other needs 🥰

If you receive this, you make somebody happy! Go on anon and send this to ten of your followers who make you happy or somebody you think needs cheering up. If you get one back, even better! ♡

I hope you're doing well and that you're taking of yourself properly! I love see you on my dash and in my notifs sunshine hehe 💖 ~[🧸]

Hello there dearest 🧸!! I'm sorry I took a while to reply!! I was busy spring cleaning and spending time with my bf haha. Not sure if you saw it, but SNK The Final Season Part 3 is airing in March and it falls on my birthday!!!! I'm so excited for it 😭💕

Hehe. I know I keep repeating this, but I'm really glad to have you here on my blog!! Your words brought so much comfort when I needed it as well, and I'm I was able to bring you comfort and support when you needed it too. I'm glad to have you as a dear friend on my blog 😌💖 I hope you're recovering well after your surgery too!! No doubt the road back to recovery isn't easy, and I'm sure there will be many difficulties along the way too. It's also not wrong to have negative thoughts sometimes because we're all human, but I hope you'll have the courage to continue moving forward!! I'll always be here when you need someone to talk to 🤗

Hehe I finally opened up Nook's Cranny, I made the furniture for all three new neighbours, and now I'm just waiting for the last person to move in!!! Also, I planted lots of flowers to try and get a hybrid, and I got my first pink windflower!! It's so annoying because different guides and YouTube videos will talk about different ways to get hybrid flowers, but I just stuck with the standard 2x1 block and yay to having my first hybrid flower!!! Oh, I used to play animal crossing pocket camp on my phone too!!! But I didn't like it after a while and deleted it 😂 and haha about that method you said about changing the date!! I see people doing that on acnh for breeding hybrid flowers, so I'm sure if will work for you when you try it hehe.

Oh wait, you mean the villagers can move out...???? O.o oh no I would dread that day so much though.... hahaha but I'm still pretty far from end game anyway so I don't have to worry too much for now 🤭

I haven't touched cities skylines since Christmas lol!!! Partly because I'm playing with the switch most of the time now hehe. Plus, my bf and I also got the ps5 around the same time we got out switch too, so now we just alternate between these two lol!!! He plays God of War Ragnarok on p5 and I'm on the switch. If I'm playing the ps5 I'm playing crisis core reunion and he's on the switch playing GTA HAHAHAHAH. I kept trying to convince him to buy Cooking Mama Cookstar on the switch and he judged me so badly for it, but now he enjoys playing Cooking Mama more than me 😂😂

Hahaha I actually never played any pokemon games before lol!!! I only watched the anime when I was young, and my knowledge of pokemon stops at the first 151 pokemon from the Kanto region lol. I'm actually more of a Digimon fan than a Pokemon fan!!! I but then I have those Pokemon toys that used to come with McDonald's Happy Meal, and I remember having pokemon cards too haha, but I have no idea where those cards are now :(

Yes indeed I have a new idea for Levi's birthday this year!!! I think having the 'adventure calendar' countdown idea might be a little repetitive for the third year, so I'm thinking of something interesting for this year!! I can't wait to share that idea with everyone when the time is ripe hehe.

Haha, we all are shy beings ultimately, but there are so many nice people over here that make us feel comfortable too!! I was like you, so I totally understand how it feels to talk to someone you really admire and look up to hehe. We've really come a long way together, and I'm thankful to have you and your supoort!! <33

Levi is indeed blunt and direct lol, but that's a contrast to me as well because sometimes I talk too much, and I may sugarcoat my words because I don't want to hurt the feelings of others too. I love talking about Reivi so much haha, because in my head I honestly think Levi and I would be perfect for each other 🥺😭 I wrote so many things about Reivi and why I love my selfship, and it makes me really happy to see people like you who validate and support my selfship fantasies 😭💕 I used to be a little reserved when I started to talk about self-shipping here because I was worried that no one agreed with me, or enjoy seeing things like that on a supposed Levi writing blog. But I'm thankful to have the support of you and many others who enjoy reading my selfship content, and thank you for enabling the Reivi ship to continue to sail over here 🥰

I'm sending this lovely message back to you as well because you make me happy!!

If you receive this, you make somebody happy! Go on anon and send this to ten of your followers who make you happy or somebody you think needs cheering up. If you get one back, even better! ♡

I appreciate you sending me all these lovely asks all the time, and for chatting with me too. Thank you for everything and I hope you're taking good care of yourself too! I also love seeing you in my notifs ✨️

[callousdegenerate]

I love the controversial opinions, but I feel bad for asking and outing their secrets! Lol. Can you tell us something kind of nice we wouldn't usually expect from the doctors? Even Lilah can't be all bad!

Some of these are pretty obvious, but some might not be. I guess a few qualify as random facts but here u go

Yosuke: Yosuke is capable of showing care for others despite the way we've seen him act. While his tendency to take care of Ten is often with selfish motivation, he still does have some tender spots.

Mom: Mom is incredibly giving and willing to guide others underneath her crazy and insecure layers

Jude: Jude is a bit of a traditional romantic and would know how to show someone a good time if he cared to

Sven: Sven doesn't like showing kindness to people usually, but he might toss random gifts at people he doesn't hate as a nice-ish gesture

Gale: Gale is not much of a dog or cat person, preferring other kinds of pets. They don't have time to maintain and take care of one, unfortunately.

Micah: Micah is capable of being gentle with a person if need be, but he prefers his usual facade. In the outside world, he's able to drop his usual spiel and act normally around others

Nathaniel: Aside from acting, Nathaniel wasn't half bad at track and field, though he hardly cared for the competitive nature of sports and opted not to do anything with it.

Jonathan: Jonathan likes watching soap operas.

Milos: While Milos has taken care of his body before, he does occasionally get winded easily

Lilah: Lilah hates kids, but she'll begrudgingly play nice around them because they're too stupid to know better.

Monica: While Monica was usually more of an upbeat party girl, she probably once had friends outside of her usual clique, perhaps a few who were alternative. Since she mingled with so many kinds of people, she's more lenient about different social expressions even if she doesn't fully understand them

Lucius: Despite having come from some money, Lucius once had a more "socially acceptable" sense of morals and had a fascination with law enforcement (especially likely because of what happened to his father)

TO: TO was briefly enrolled in a military school once, and has an intense dislike/distrust of militia as a result. Moreover, because he knows it's easy to sway people with money, he has little faith in the justice system

[flying-elliska]

I always love reading your thoughts so... What do you think is going to happen now with the whole Arthur/Noee situation? I'm very confused after the last clip... Obviously she has feelings for him but do you think he has some for her too (even tho he loves alexia)? I think breaking Arthur/alexia now wouldn't make sense after all their conversations and I don't know if it'll be as easy as Noee forgiving him and moving on as her friend...

hey anon

And...yeah maybe he is somewhat attracted to her. He is obviously very in love with Alexia. However I don’t think it’s impossible to be in love with someone and still feel attraction for someone else ; I don’t think that falsifies any feelings, the important thing is how you act. 

The complicated and confusing thing is that - in terms of storytelling logic - both girls have elements in their favor that I think ‘oh yeah, i could root for her to be Arthur’s endgame in the series.’ I haven’t hidden the fact that my preference is for Alexia and I would really not appreciate it if she ended up being the ‘rejected party’ but if she hadn’t been in the picture I would have really liked the idea of Arthur and Noee. Let’s see here :

- Alexia and Arthur are shown to be a very cute and healthy couple in general. Sure they both make mistakes (her clumsy declaration about not having learned to  be attracted to handicapped people, her taking off his hat, him not communicating and assuming she won’t want him anymore, etc). But overall we can see how supportive Alexia is, constantly finding fun ways to make his life better, and he is clearly in awe of her and admires her a lot and generally treats her right (after the jackass she dated, it’s what she deserves). Breaking them up after that would be cruel, and aditionally it would prove Arthur’s father right about how he ‘would change gfs in 2 weeks anyway’. More broadly, her character, since the beginning, represents self-acceptance and the courage to be truly yourself, whether in s3 or this one. So seeing her and Arthur grow closer over that theme would be amazing, them growing over their residual insecurities together at the same time as she inspiring him bc she is further along. Also I read some people saying that them splitting up would be kind of bad in terms of implying deaf and hearing people can’t be together. In general I think the writers love Alexia, they wanted to do a season about her after all, and we know Coline has recorded a song, all of which doesn’t really point to her being rejected. 

- On the other hand Noee has been somewhat given love interest story beats : the meet cutes, the cinematographic language (aesthetic clips with low lights and slow mo and soft, tender music), the time given to her and Arthur’s relationship unfolding, the moments of complicity and her being Arthur’s guide into a new world, which is very often a romantic trope. Arthur falling for her could represent that deaf people are also desirable and cool and interesting and worthy of love ; through her character we have also been falling in love with Deaf culture. And it could represent Arthur coming to accept the changes in his life and that side of himself too, another path to self acceptance. Meanwhile having Noee be the rejected party would also not sit great with me because she clearly has had a lot of rejection in her life and she deserves to be happy and cherished. 

I know I was joking about a poly relationship earlier but the more I think about it the more I think it would be the best way to resolve this both for the characters and the themes. Because otherwise someone is going to end up hurt and there are going to be some unfortunate implications either way and then I honestly will be pissed at them for setting it up this way. It would show Arthur reconciling both parts of his life, it would give Noee that extra love and acceptance and give Alexia that badass gf we have been rooting for her to get since forever. (And also Alexia already said she wasn’t opposed to ‘threesomes’ if she did it for herself and honestly i can’t imagine her disliking Noee seriously - even though that’s not the same as an actually poly relationship...). I really am not sure they’re that galaxy brained though lol.

Otherwise I really don’t know but I really hope that whoever ends up being rejected also finds love big time before the end of the series otherwise...big bummer. But with who ? There aren’t a lot of single characters left in the series. Maybe Yann but I feel like they have hinted towards him and Emma getting back together. Or Alexia and Emma lmaoooo frankly I have no clue. The whole season is confusing my ability to make predictions, for real. 

[desertgremlin]

Also totally did not answer your questions haha. I went down the rabbit hole again lol. I mean....I think it would be hard for her to flip a switch and be like, "Okay, I'm done." Asif ruined her life. And what's worse, he didn't even know/remember that he did. Like how dismissive/disrespectful can you be? Maybe she is just one person, but seeing what happened to her husband was repulsive. They literally melted him. Like...I just don't have the words for that. And she will always have that with her, on her body. So if she doesn't go after him anymore, I would understand but if she didn't stop, I definitely wouldn't be the one to be like, "Oh, Lale. Please. It's in the past." I'm personally not a vengeful person but god! How can anyone be like, you're still in this? Literally someone said that to her in the show and I was like, "Yes, bitch! Are you serious?" So again. Not sure. But wouldn't blame her if she kept going. And I think she would feel conflicted about Sean. Like, she doesn't "love" him, but she might feel a bit of sadness. And maybe dread, because it's another ally she has lost. But I don't think she would feel too bad. Or at least, she would tell herself not to feel bad. She might rationalize it and say that's the Game of Thrones, you know? You win or you die. But like I said before, I would love for Sean to wise up a bit and operate covertly. I think his youth and inexperience and insecurity drove him to be ruthless in a way that was almost caricature-like. I think that if he would have observed Alex and modeled his tactics after him, he would have been much more respected and successful. People fear volatility, which is what Sean displayed. He was completely ruled by his emotions. And people fear what they can't control. But he needs to be smart. He needs to be tactical and strategic. And I think this veil of "death" can give him the room to do that. No one sees you as a threat if they think you don't exist anymore. But a lack of existence is also freedom. Imagine the things he can do now. Not that I should be condoning any of this behavior lol. But if you step back, it's all a game. So he needs to get his head on straight and plan and win. I think the core of this show is the action, so a lot of the players use violence as a means of communication and strategy. And then you have people like Alex who rarely engage in that unless it's an emergency. Alex's weapon is his intellect. So there are few characters who move in the intersection of that. I would say Ed is one of the few who does. He is clearly a smart, intuitive man but knows how and when to use violence. I think Sean should have kept him as an ally and trained under him. I do hope Sean survived and I doubt my theory will play out but it would be nice if it did!

Oh absolutely, I would get whatever Lale ends up doing either way. Asif’s definitely going to retaliate so there’s a lot of ways it could play out next season 👀 And as for your Sean theory, I kind of had the same thought. It’s definitely the way to go considering the investors wanted him dead dead and probably wouldn’t stop going after him until he was.

If Sean kept working with Ed, that would’ve been a real force bc yeah Ed is absolutely lethal in that sense (like, no wonder he and Finn made it up in the world) and probably one of the top people to watch out for, imo. Unfortunately they’ve got different ways of going about things, lol, and I think Ed was getting sick of Sean’s unpredictability/stopped taking him seriously (assuming he ever did in the first place idk). Alex, I’m interested in seeing his development too because intellect only gets you so far in GOL world and as far as I recall, even when he tried I don’t think he was fully on board with the violence? Oh, to know what’s going on in Gareth Evans’s head right now, there are so many characters whose next storylines I’m dying to know. 

Sorry it took me a bit to reply to these messages! May is turning out to be busy as hell for me 💀