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gripped by the fact i'll never be as young as i was and i am forever changed by the things i know now that i didn't know then and the things i care about now that used to never cross my mind and i know ill continue to change and learn new things and look back with similar eyes but i will never be as wide eyed as i was before and that hurts my stomach
#like before i knew what technically a good typeface is#where everything i do now must be perfect ect#like i was a kid! but i wasnt! i didn't appreciate it at the time! i want it back! i can change!#eris: text
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You know something I've noticed? Yeah, Nifty is your typical yandere but can we talk about Vox? You technically don't even have to request him as a yandere unless you want it to be romanticized toward you and/or further explored because according to ALL of the recent regular Vox x readers (and the show itself), he clearly has many traits of one especially toward Alastor. He acts like a toxic, jealous ex 😂 He cyberstalks people for one, he's manipulative, insecure (this is where possessiveness and jealousy tends to stem from), doesn't take rejection well as we heard from Al, is capable of being obsessed with someone, and an overall control freak. He wants to keep the Vees' image and everything looking perfect. Imagine this guy being attached to you. An absolute nightmare. Never any privacy, eyes and ears everywhere, can teleport with or without a screen, blackmail is 100% on the table as well as other tactics, and constant validation for him whether your relationship is forced or not. What sucks about the last part is that it's a double-edged sword. If you fuel his ego, he's enabled but if you don't give him enough attention, he'll try harder and tighten his hold on you. So while Val absolutely horrible, it's like you can never win with Vox. Not when you don't have equal power and he's stated to be very strong. Especially these days, tech is an absolute must since even jobs heavily rely on it. Life and the afterlife here is much harder without a smartphone. He's literally a TV. He wants to be watched and noticed.
So he'll get it.
exactly brooo
cw: themes of manipulation, blackmail, and toxic, controlling relationships.
gender neutral
:・゚✧:・.☽˚。・゚✧:・.:
ੈ✧̣̇ || honestly atp he’s practically a canon yandere.
ੈ✧̣̇ || i kinda talked about this before but i feel like he would manipulate reader into thinking that they need him when its the other way around
ੈ✧̣̇ || as u said, he’s insecure as hell and he needs someone to boost his ego and make him look superior
ੈ✧̣̇ || he also needs some source of stability in his (after) life which is where you come in.
ੈ✧̣̇ || hed also never let things go or get over you.
ੈ✧̣̇ || he started beef with a dude that he hadn’t seen in 7 whole years, for gods sake 😭
ੈ✧̣̇ || bro will start fights over things that happened months ago and are over now done with
ੈ✧̣̇ || he also craves control, not only will he spy on you through your electronics but he’ll also try and control other things that he has no business controlling like what you wear, who you talk to, ect.
ੈ✧̣̇ || if you mention your concerns about it he’ll try and back off, but hes just so paranoid that something will happen to you even though he knows you’re capable of taking care of yourself.
ੈ✧̣̇ || he needs to feel like he’s needed.
ੈ✧̣̇ || he also exerts his control by threatening you with blackmail, wether it be secrets that you told him or pictures.
ੈ✧̣̇ || not like you don’t have a fair amount of dirt on him too, though.
ੈ✧̣̇ || he’d definitely fight a bitch for you, if you’re getting threatened, stalked, and/or harassed by someone (that isnt him ofc) said person better prepare for his wrath.
ੈ✧̣̇ || hes a whiny ass bitch which is either annoying or hot depending on who you ask and what the context is.
ੈ✧̣̇ || its also kind of confusing how he acts, he’ll be practically ignoring you one second and begging for your attention the next.
ੈ✧̣̇ || another reason why he’s so scared of you leaving is because of how vulnerable he’s been to you.
ੈ✧̣̇ || he’s told you things that he’s never told anyone, shown parts of him that no one has ever seen, and the thought of what you could do with this info if you ever were to turn on him makes him feel sick to the stomach.
ੈ✧̣̇ || despite how it feels sometimes he really does care about and love you, he just has an unhealthy mindset when it comes to love.
ੈ✧̣̇ || perhaps you should stay around (not like u rlly have a choice), teach him how to love someone properly. you wont regret it :)
:・゚✧:・.☽˚。・゚✧:・.:
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Summary: you have been chosen to participate in a love game reality show, will you meet your soulmate?
A/n: trying something new
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Congratulations! You have been accepted to star in America’s newest reality show. “Soulmates” In this show you will answer questions based on what you look for in a soulmate and our love scientists will calculate a perfect match, but the catch is you won’t know if Mr. Right is actually the real deal until you exchange I do’s at the alter. Pack a bag and fly over to our studio in Los Angeles so we can get you all started!
I read the acceptance letter I got and my heart starts thudding. I signed up for this as a joke! I didn’t think I’d actually get in. I can’t do this! I can’t be on tv in front of millions of people. My parents will see this, my grandma will see this!
I guess I have no choice. I could either find love or if worst comes to shove, I’ll walk away with a million dollars.
I pack a suitcase full of clothes that will last me a month and head to the airport.
The producers of this show paid for everything. My ticket, my room, my wardrobe, ect. The only thing I had to do was show up and make a fool of myself on camera.
“Miss Meyer?” I turn my head to see a girl standing with a clipboard and headset.
I clear my throat before I speak “yes”
“Perfect! We’ve been waiting for your arrival. Right this way!” She beams a smile at me and leads me through the studio to the back room where a bunch of other girls are gathered. They all look like supermodels, I definitely don’t fit in here.
One girl with blonde hair and blue eyes smiles at me “you must be Zoey! I’m Alia. Your the last girl that we were waiting for, I heard the staff talking about it” she smiles at me as she extends her right hand.
“Uh, yes, thank you” I smile back and shake her hand. “It’s nice to meet you Alia. This is-“
“Weird?” She asks as we both look over at the other girls chatting away with one another.
We burst into laughter after a moment of silence “I like you” she tells me.
“I like you too”
A few hours later we’re pulled into wardrobe and told we have 10 minutes to get ready for the cameras.
Each of us have our own personal stylist that chooses our clothes, hairstyle and makeup.
“Good afternoon Zoey. I am Makena, your personal stylist throughout the show.” A dark skinned lady with crazy curly hair and brown eyes smiles as I take a seat in her chair.
“Hello” I smile back.
“First things first, let’s choose you an outfit that will knock those men dead! I have the perfect thing!” She leaves for a second and when I look up in the mirror she’s walking back with the most beautiful dress I’ve ever seen.
“Put this on” I stand up and grab the dress from her and walk over to the changing rooms.
Once the dress is on i a stare back at myself in the mirror.
The girl I see right now is not who I was 1 year ago.
When I signed up for the show I had just been cheated on by my ex, I was in a low place and I thought signing up for this would cheer me up. I never actually thought I’d get in but now that I am I’m gonna make the best of it.
I step out and Makena’s jaw drops. “Girrrl, you look fan-fuckin-tastic! I’ve done it again” she praises herself with a quick self-five and motions me to sit back down so she can do my hair and makeup.
My hair is all done and my makeup is done, just in time too. The staff call us out one by one, there’s about 8 girls and all of them look gorgeous. My anxiety starts acting up as we get closer and closer to going on stage.
I hear the host announcing our arrival as the girls in front of me start moving and I follow.
As I step out on stage I spot the cameras and the staff behind them making sure everything is perfect. “Here are our beautiful ladies!” The host turns the attention to us as we all have an opportunity to pose for the cameras.
He goes down the line and introduces all the girls along with some of the things they look for in a partner based on the quiz the producers had us take before coming here. Once he gets to me my heart beats louder as he reads my answers.
“Zoey wants someone who is Empathetic, Honest, and Caring. Zoey had also mentioned that she got cheated on a year ago and is looking for someone to mend her broken heart. She is an gallant, creative, and compassionate soul. Let’s give it up for Zoey Meyer, anything to add Miss Meyers’s” he aims the mic at me and I swallow my never as I speak.
“I want to say that although I may seem like damaged goods I’m here looking for a fresh start just like all of these lovely ladies are, I’m excited to be a apart of this and I can’t wait to see where it takes me. Thank you for having me America!” I end my little speech with a confident smile.
The host nods his head and walks back to his original position before exposing how the game works to the camera and to us once more.
After a few minutes of explaining he announces that it’s time to meet the guys and we will get 30 minutes to speed date as many of them as we can.
We all stand in a vertical like as the men are presented before us and the timer starts.
I lock eyes with a brown haired boy whose body is ripped with muscles, not my usual type but he’s pretty handsome, he stalks his way over to me and I smile at him.
“Hello pretty girl, my names Amir. And you are?” He bows in front of me like I’m a princess and it causes me to giggle.
“Zoey” I say as my cheeks flush. I haven’t flirted in over a year and I really need to up my game.
“So, Zoey, I heard your looking for someone empathetic.?”
“Yes. I think it’s important in a relationship to understand the persons feelings even if you might not agree with them, to be able to be understanding and empathetic is very important to me” I say confidently, I need to establish my boundaries so I don’t get stuck with a abusive prick like my ex was. These guys need to know that I won’t settle.
“That’s very understandable, I agree with you 100%, you should never make someone feel bad about having their own feelings. Especially in a relationship.”
I smile at his response.
There’s a moment of silence before I ask him a question.
“So what are you looking for in a girl? Any special features she has to have?” I snort at my own comment and quickly cover my nose up in embarrassment.
Amir shoots me a cheeky smile and winks
“No special features but I do like women who are brilliant and can keep a conversation going, you don’t have to be smart but to be intellectual about things and able to hold a conversation is very attractive to me” he says as he eyes me up and down.
I nod at his answer, it’s both respectable and honest. I think I like him already.
“You look very beautiful by the way, I love that color on you, it really brings out your brown eyes.” He looks into my eyes and smiles.
I feel my cheeks grow hotter as I blush “thank you” he pushes a strand of my brown hair behind my ear and winks.
“We have a couple minutes on the clock. I hate to depart from you but I can’t hold up the line of guys wanting to talk to a gorgeous girl like you” he leans in and presses a soft kiss to my cheek before walking away.
I stand there flustered for a moment before glancing at the clock, 20 minutes left. Focus.
I talk to a few more guys, some I can’t remember the names of and some were just so boring and trying way to hard.
I have one more guy I have to talk too and honestly I hope he makes up for the try hards that were before him.
“Hi, I’m Rafe” the handsome man smiles at me with his pearly white teeth and as I stare into his ocean blue eyes that twinkle, a bit of mischief and a bit of pain in them.
“Zoey” I say slowly as I shake his hand and feel a spark between us instantly. The room fades away as I stare back at this beautiful god of a man and watch him smile at me.
“You.. okay?” He asks as I come back to reality.
“Huh? Oh, sorry. Think I’m just a little overwhelmed from today. It’s been a long day I think my brains fried” I babble on anxiously as I tend to do and I catch myself “sorry, I talk a lot when I get nervous. People tend to just ignore me, I-“
“Zoey?” Rafe interrupts me and stares at me with a huge smile.
“Hmm?” I say, my cheeks flushing. Great, I already fucked this up.
“I don’t mind the babbling, I think it’s cute. But we only have 5 minutes and I have been trying to walk up to you for the past 25 now” he says as he flashes me his pearly whites.
“Right, sorry” I say hanging my head down in Shame.
“So, question. If you don’t mind me asking. You said you’re looking for someone honest and caring, so why come to a reality show were there’s only people trying to get famous and make money” he asks as he crosses his arms over his body, there not too muscular but there’s enough. Just the right amount.
“Your right. It seems stupid to think you could find actual love on a game show, but I believe in hope, and honestly I signed up for this when I was wasted and drowning my sorrows in chocolate chip ice cream” I laugh at my own sadness.
Just as Rafe opens his mouth to say something the timer goes off.
“That’s time Ladies and Gents! Please find your way back” the host announces as we all scramble back to our original spots.
“Now tonight you will have a chance to couple up with one person that you found a liking too, but before we decide which lady will be picking her soulmate there is an catch. If the guy chosen does not like the girl that picked him and thinks there’s a chance with another one he may turn her down”
We all look at each other and I swallow my nerves, trying to calm the damn butterflies in my stomach.
“Well be back after this short break” the host announces and the camera cut out.
“You all have 5 minutes to drink water, get a snack or use the bathroom” one of the staff members says as we disperse
“Any idea on who you’ll pick?” A brunette with glasses says next to me. “Names Melina, you can call me Mel” she says smiling.
“Zoey, and no. I have no idea who I’m going to pick. There was a few interesting guys I talked too but it’s too early to tell if their just here for money or for something serious” I tell her with a sigh.
“Agreed, anyone of these guys could be a douch bag. But that won’t stop me from climbing into bed with them. Have you seen then? Girl, they are HOT”
We both laugh at her comment and the host announces our 5 minutes are up
“Good luck” Mel squeezes me hand encouragingly before going to stand on her mark.
“Were back, your watching Soulmates. The newest reality dating show and we are just about to let the ladies pick their first couple!”
I twist my hands in anticipation as the host explains how when we were doing to speed dating the audience watching was placing votes on who their favorite girl was and that girl would go first.
“In first place we have… Zoey Meyers! Congratulations Zoey. Come make your choice”
He smiles at me as I stare back in shock. He calls me over with his hand and I walk up slowly. I stare at the men before me and they all smile at me.
I lock eyes with one and I instantly know who I’m picking.
“I pick… Amir”
Everybody claps as Amir walks out of the line.
“I’m glad you picked me, I was hoping you would” he flashes me a smile before intertwining his fingers in mine and walking us back to the line up.
The rest of the girls choose their couple and Rafe ends up with Carolina, a brunette with perfect cheekbones, perfect nose and plump lips that aren’t too big but also aren’t too small. Her eyebrows are arched and frame her face beautifully. Honestly I’m jealous, I don’t know why. I could have chose him but I just felt like he would have turned me down. Plus, he and Carolina look like the dream couple paired up together.
“Now that all our ladies and gents have been coupled up its time to announce phase 2 of our game. You all will be flying to the Bahamas, were you’ll be living on a remote island for one month!” The host says.
I turn to Mel and Alia and see them with their boys and smile. They look like a perfect match. I’m glad to have made some friends here already.
I look up at Amir and he smiles down at me, “you excited to live with me for a month?” He asks.
I tighten my grip on his hand and squeeze “of course”
“Until next time on… Soulmates”
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1:am July 4th, sitting here flipping this Tamia I'm so into you song in to a slow sample
thinking of new ways to trust myself
this song has always reminded me of a special kinda of feeling around love. or infatuation at least right now this specific scope of "love" feels more to me like alice millers cover of spell on you by Nina Simone
or frank ocean seigfeind
or looks good with trouble by Solange
slow sample just going on loop as I write this
" I can't realllyyy exxxxplaainitttt"
slowed down at about 45.5 bpm
I used to hear this and think of the most life affirming guilty embarrasingly mushy love
where my young imagination could only think of me walking in the sunlight with a pretty girl, not even touching her, just walking
funny how I always thought romance could save me from something
even as a kid I would almost stay up all night before the first day of school, finally I get to see girls !!
I could get a girlfriend !!
life was simple like that then, elementary school me lol
wanted to feel like something to somebody so baddd
"iiii rreeaallly liiikke what youuu dooonne too meee"
as slowed sample plays*
this song it still hasn't lost its shiny touch
makes me think of someone that I haven't spoke to in while an
meiby in a way I thought she could save me from myself
if I pretend enough
if i talk enough
if i give enough
if I tell you any and everything
nothing stopped the inevitable end
as the loop still runs *
"doooonnee toooo meee"
I think of the countless beds I found myself in the search of the comfort of the that little kid that just wanted to feel like that song feels
cords and rhythms bouncing off my shoulder blades
quick as a lie Is told
as love is perceived
I've ran out of rhythms to not see in this
"whhhaaat youuuu Donnee too meee "
as the sample plays on loop *
playing out the cyclical natures of my most intimate desires coverd by cathexis of pretty faces and gentle misreadings
but to young people who like each other isn't there any more to think a out??? haha my young mind thought it was that easy
making Valentine day cards. hiding them in desk and sing to girls during recess lol
I found (Mei)self dreaming this person again.
how can I begin to think about this in a way the keeps me intact ?
because after all this is who I built for better or worst
become charming people will forget how you've warn that same unwashed uniform shirt to school 5 days In a row
maybe she might look past the body odor you quite don't know how to get in order yet lol
ive always found myself obsessing over what my first time would be like
would it be like one pf those songs of the weekends trilogy ? high school me would think about lol
after all it seems like the perfect sounds track to this double reality I found myself in from a young aspiring towards everything and hopping to find home
'IIIII ammmsoooo iii inn too you"
sample still runs *
being a young boy not really aware of my innocence
didn't feel like I had anything worth seeing
like I was guilty from the first perception of others
the only thing that I could see for myself was desire of romance
maybe I could think about this all day and nothing else
I remember one day my dad would update me on his latest sexual prized catch and how sexy she was, how ,such she pleased him
"iccaannnntt reallly exxplaainne It"
Sample does on *
.........................................................
now my conquest for the ultimate I immature romance, devided in two sexual prowas and power.
after all if my dad is telling me all these details it must be somthing worth doing right?
was he only telling me this to escape his own feelings of loneliness
maybe if he reflects some sort of cool posture ill look at him in a way that helps him look at himself
funny how that goes
bc here I am now hoping to see my value in bodies, faces,ect
but how can I ask them to see omthing I havnt deeply interrogated ?
I know now that love feels more like Alice Coltranes going home
unknowable, only lived and acted out in my own personal being
romance is just a extent of ritual maybe
the coldness of my young self non knowing how to cope with poverty, with abuse and misuse of my young body, mind.
its not far off that, that became the only motivating factor win my life but I deeply want to know myself in everyday possible
not from a automated idea in hopes of finding someone
im not personality package, a body to be used, an idea to be exploited
but then again.
'iiiii reeallly liikkke whhaat youuuuu donnneee to mee iii cannnnt rreealllly exxpllaainne iiit iiiimm sooo iiinn too youuu"
last sample flip*
maybe this coldness is what ive never recognized.
(im rambling and speaking in fragments but I wanted to be honest with how many turns my brain was making "
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I saw your matchmaking was open! No pressure but, I'm looking for an MHA match up! I'll put some info about me.
I have blond hair to my armpits with bangs, blue eyes, I'm 5'4. I typically dress in more dresses or hyper feminine. I like to wear my hair in bubble braids or pigtails, sometimes both.
I'm going into film and directing, and I am a cheerleader, on the dance team and in track for extra curriculars. I like being theatre kid too, I love putting in shows for the crowds and playing a character.
My biggest passion really is films, I love creating new videos, to me it's an art form and I've loved it since like junior high. Though I can go on stage and do a play or give speeches, I am more on the shy side when one-on-one, I struggle to know what to say when I'm not going by a script, afraid I'll say the wrong thing. I play the guitar, mainly rock music, since rock and metal are what I listen too.
I have IED(Intermittent explosive disorder) and I struggle with night terrors, so I'd love someone understanding when it comes to that.
I'm not sure what else to put, but I'm an extrovert, I like being in crowds, just need a little time to warm up. I like going to the gym and working out. But I really do mostly spend my time doing anything with directory(ect, watching films, coming up with ideas, making mini-movies)
My biggest pet peeve is like-people who are constantly on their phones. Like always taking pictures or videos to post and not actually enjoying what's happening. Or people who brag about how high their snapscore is and how many followers they have.
No pressure to answer this!
Hello and thank you so much for your request! I am sorry that this took so long to get too but we are finally here! I do so hope that you like your request! I wasn't sure if you wanted romantic or platonic so I went with a romantic request!
Tw: None
I match you with........
Sako Atsuhiro (aka, Mr. Compress)
He was the very first person that came to mind as I was reading over your information and he stuck like a leech with all of the possibilities that would come from this stunning man.
Sako is a showman, that much is very known as we have seen throughout the episodes that we have seen him in.After he hears of your love of film and creating your own mini-movies, oh he was beyond thrilled.
You wouldn't mind him shadowing you right? He could provide some very helpful insight.
On a serious note, he absolutely loves this talent of yours. Oh how creative you must be when you come up with all of these ideas.
(He gets you a nice little journal to pen down your thoughts when they come to you)
His quirk comes in hand as well when it comes to your hobbies. He will merely compress down what would be needed and carry it around with him, bringing it out when you need it and once finished, it is back to being compressed and into his pocket.
With your night terrors, he is certainly there the moment that he hears anything is wrong.
Being a villain, he has had his fair share of them after everything he has seen, but right now, his attention is on you.
After having your permission, he will lay down next to you, gently soothing you. You can tell him what plagues you or not, whatever you are more comfortable with, it will not bother him. All he cares for is your well being.
On days where there are no missions that he needs to be on, he will don a disguise and slip into the city with you, perhaps to take you shopping for more of those beautiful dresses that you love.
Overall, he is a very attentive partner. One who encourages what it is that you love with such a passion in his voice and a fire in his eyes. You are his perfect muse and he will forever protect and cherish you.

Thank you for your request!!
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just as info... because im a bitch who has to over explain everything...
i am on like, not semi hiatus but def. semi slow down for a bit and here's why. under the cut is a lot of boring work garbage, feel free to ignore lol
ok SO here's the thing
i think i mentioned it before but like a month or two ago my company fired five people, four of which were like directly in my operations group. we are a bulk liquid e.xport team that specializes in fle.xi bags being loaded like... well, with bulk liquids lmao. its not super hard but it is TEDIOUS as fuck what i have to do on a daily basis.
i have direct contact with suppliers and traders purchasing from suppliers and i coordinate the full movement of product so basically customer tells me: i need X amt of product moved from point a in the usa to point b in the world. they specify, often, the particulars of like.. what steamship lines to use based on rate, or like on end destination preferences, and they expect us to typically coordinate the trucker to pick up food grade containers that then live load or transload at a supplier's plant and then get ingated back into whatever port terminal to get on a vessel and make specific arrival times at their end destination.
like idk some of u might even be in this industry too, so u kno what i mean.
the PROBLEM is that i am expected to get the booking with the ssl, coordinate the trucker, make sure the product gets loaded both within the customer's expected window + within a window where containers can be ingated against said booking's vessel, with OUT additional cost (so things can't sit on yards and get storage or detention for drivers or have additional legs in the trucking which means more money to pay trucker ect ect) and i have to load the amount the customer requests AND
Sometimes the product has to go on rail and that has specific regulations and sometimes the product is hazardous and has to be pre approved on the SSL to even be booked but the customer sent a request asking to load the next week so they get mad you dont get a confirmation within the same day because the haz approval has to be granted by the transhipment port half way across the world too because SOME ports don't take haz and some do but only certain kinds and and and and....
sometimes there is a vessel congestion in the ports or bad weather that shuts down ports or plants, or sometimes drivers have mechnical issues or just miss their fkn appts to load or show up with wrong equipment or ... or there is no container your driver can find because the ssl is out of them at that particular port location or...
yeah.
and so take that and then give me one account that is incredibly picky, sends requests last minute, mostly of randomly haz bullshit, and expects u to lick their boots....
and then another account where i am expected to maintain a perfect constant flow of bookings out of four different ports and the amount expected is like... ohhh 28 a week out of one, 10 out of another, 20 out of two others... and THEN that same customer sends you 75 FUCKING RAILCARS TO ONE SINGLE RAILSPUR/TRUCKER THAT CAN ONLY TRANSLOAD TWO A DAY, MAYBE FOUR TOPS, AND and your boss told them that there would be NO storage charged back to them so you have to now hope to god all the railcars dont show up at once because then you have to meet that four day vessel window and at MOST can load out like 10 of the railcars, if that, if you are lucky with perfect conditions but WHOOPS ALL 75 ARE THERE AT ONCE SO ACTUALLY fuck your life you get storage on 65 railcars and it shows on YOUR account that you lost money
and also?
you have to do the customs filing and documentation for destination arrival and have a window for that too and must have the info perfect or there is charges for fucking it up or containers getting stuck in customs at the destination...
yeah.
my co workers are overwhelmed and they have like maybe 60 containers on their desk a month?
my fucking dumb ass customer gives me a total currently of 450.
and yes, they fired people so i dont have a lot of back up until they hire someone new to take over this single stupid account so i can focus on others.
ive been working from like 6am to 7pm if not later because of this. im looking at other jobs but nothing pays as well currently and i technically like my team its just frustrating because ... yeah.
i hate this industry. i haaaaate it. supposedly im good at it but i dont care. i just want to survive having to pay rent or car payments and getting food, you know?
and i want to be able to do what i love which is write... and this job is melting my brain and just got exponentially more ugly within the last two weeks.
so anyway thats where im at and until i either change jobs or my desk chills out or they hire someone OR i get back on my adhd meds (lol that is really NOT helping to be off of them) im going to be slow.
but whatever, yall are great and i know those that want to will stick around so i appreciate you
thanks for coming to my ted talk bye
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so… guys… i was almost barricade at last night(boston)‘s show and
dear god
j everything b also there was this one bit where someone was trying to pass him a bracelet thru the crowd and their friends were pointing to them and awsten totally called them out and started teasing them like
and then they dropped it and he was like “you really want to give that to me? after it’s been on the dirty beer ground? you really think i want that?” and i just ab died
he was so mean teasing humiliating them i need him to mean dom me so bad
‘you really think you deserve my cock baby? why don’t you prove it’ i alr p much lost my voice from screaming last night it wouldn’t hurt if he fucked my throat until i couldn’t speak at all.
need him to throw me around while he degrades me
awsten please just one chance pleas
he did a lot of that kind of teasing/lightheartedly insulting some ppl in the crowd. sm had a sign that said ‘bring back felony steve’ and the writing was like thin and awsten was first like ‘what? what does that say?’ and then once the crowd shouted it to him he was like “that’s what it says? you wrote that in fucking mechanical pencil get a thick marker jesus christ” awsten pls make fun of me i’ll come in my pants
also earlier in the show sm next to me had a sign that said ‘#1 GEOFF FAN’ like printed out arial font and huge and he pointed it out and was like ‘geoff! geoff look! ugh he doesn’t pay attention he doesn’t live in the moment always on that fuckin phone’ and i shit you not geoff fucking BLUSHED kms
o also then every one started chanting that geoff was a screenager so real tbh
geoff also got like 3 different points of ppl chanting his name and otto only got one 😶 sorry otto
side note their insta otto’s so in his slut era recently/pos
there was also a point where awsten was making fun of lucas for being shy and there was sm about a bet where awsten and geoff would pay him to do sm and they kept trying to get him to do it and then lucas said ‘geoff isn’t gonna pay me he told me’ and awsten was just like “did you just call geoff a liar??!” and have everyone boo then he was like cheer if i’m a perfect angel precious baby boy who can do no wrong (or sm w that vibe everyone was screaming too loud for me to rly hear) what if i died
him being teasing like that and going back to his like ego thing the whole time he’s so hot i need him to tell me he’s better than me
at some point right after lucas went on stage to test the mic ect before parx came on i think sm behind me was like ‘is it just me or is one of the security guys rly hot’ and i just turned around and went ‘you mean lucas??!!’ i don’t think they were talking about him b that was so funny to me and lucas is soooo hot
someone got a shirt thrown on stage for awsten that said ‘I FUCK FISH’ and he was like “you guys really want me to wear this?! on top of everything??!”(overalls and long sleeve t) and yes he did wear it p much the whole show(GOD he must have been so sweaty after) and then at one point he went onto the drum riser and was like “otto would you rather fuck a swordfish or a flounder?” then pointed the mic at him and otto j giggled and said “i’d rather play fuck about it!” and idk why but that was just so hot to me
o also during loveless’s set julian got rid of a coat(?) or am and threw it side stage and i saw sm catch it and julian was like “thank you so much love you for that” and i SWEAR TO GOD it was otto like it so looked like him i was far away and he was in the dark so i couldn’t 100% see him b i SWEAR i SWEAR it was otto
i don’t have any specific geoff moments i can talk about i think but he was just unfairly gorgeous handsome pretty the whole time i lost my mind.
geoff is the hottest to me b GODDAMN awstens fuckin demeanor Fucked Me Up i can’t stop thinking about it now
-spiral
<3
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Wait wait wait yuuji files is coming to an end 😭 😭 😭 it makes sense all good things must Come to an end but damn I'm going to miss the anticipation of waiting to see where the story will go with each new chapter haha. Ah, it's already cemented it's place as a favorite of mine though that won't change even when it ends. Ten more chapters to enjoy, alright!
Ahh man Sukuna was so cute in this chapter in his own way, like just climbing Yuuji when he wanted to be carried and wanting to go cow tipping and biting gojo. I love this guy ok. Yuuji telling him to calm his tits was great too. Also biting Yuuji a bit to remind him he's still there and cuz he got a bit jealous, the man saw one look between Yuuji and another person and had to stake a claim immediately he's not risking any dramatic camp romances or something love that guy. The dynamics between Yuuji and the Kyoto kids were great him I really liked how most of them start the chapter suspicious of him and end it helping him kill a god. Todo of course was perfect I have a soft spot for him love Yuuji's brother showing support. The Tokyo kids were also top notch they've just accepted Sukuna as one of their own. Yeah this is our classmate the calamity king of curses, yes he did commit many atrocities, yes he does bite, what of it? I hope that killing a god together leads to the Kyoto kids also accepting Yuuji and Sukuna. honorary Kyoto students, they're just chill now. I do enjoy seeing Yuuji and Sukuna slowly earning peoples respect and making friends maybe one day they'll have a whole generation of scorcerers who are their friends and allies. Can't wait to see if Sukuna learned enough from being in the afterlife to make his domain even more powerful. One of my favorite things about him as a character is he's a huge nerd ok the man is literally always learning and trying new things it's great I'm so glad you show that aspect of his character I hope he comes up with something fun. I really like that in this series it feels like everything escalates in a positive way as opposed to the constant negative escalation we get in cannon. Like they're fighting more powerful opponents but they're together and get to grow from it instead of suffering endlessly. Mai staying behind is actually a nice parallel to Maki having to leave the clan huh. It hurts that they have to be separated but Mai has to do this so she can live the way she wants with her head held high damn. Love Yuuji adopting yet another person into the household. I hope Toji learns how to be a good dad from Yuuji or something. That or he just becomes the family pet assassin. Mans just here eating the food and placing bets on sports games whenever Nanami comes over to watch a one. He never wins any money though because Nanami and Sukuna will not let him bet against their teams no matter what on pain of death. He gets into trouble and Yuuji just sprays him with a squirt gun like a misbehaving cat. Poor Sukuna though he's fallen for a guy who loves people and will not stop reaching out a hand to others in need no matter what..
how awful for him… back to the purgatory thing for a moment I think my ideal version of that is Yuuji's grandpa comes to join them because he doesn't want to leave Yuuji there without him. Then Choso joins them too. Then Nobara ect. ect. Until it's just this one portion of the afterlife where everyone comes to rest together until they can reincarnate. No one has to be alone there. Some of them may not reach heaven but they can stay together just outside hell. Is Hana the way she is because of Yuuji's demigod descendant status then? How would the heavens view the adopted named and claimed daughter of the hero who killed a god? Hmm is Susumu going to be smug when he finds out about this the little guy already clocked the whole divine sun thing. Now his dad/patron god has achieved something great. Really can't wait to read more! Thanks for writing and sharing with us!!
The Yuuji Files must end eventually! More as I think the narrative has a good conclusion where I've had it end, wrapping everything up <3
But think the next ten chapters are the strongest yet in terms of ideas as they are very contained and focused in my opinion c:
I really like the building of the conflict and people coming in contact as Yuuji slowly acclimates his murder curse to society like getting a cat use to new faces XD Sukuna still his a horrible murder hobo, but Yuuji is finding ways to get him distracted by providing proper enrichment! Also I think the Kyoto kids get the short end of the stick as far as characterization went...so wanted to give them some proper love, especially Mai :< The purgatory idea is also so very cute ; w ; his family just always wants to be there <3
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Open contact for those who wish to have that experience is happening 2023 and beyond. Open contact, and many more UFO sightings will occur. When you are vibrationally compatible with the idea of meeting an E.T. face to face it will occur, but only if you prepare yourself vibrationally, (eating clean, raising your vibration daily, working out, healing your trauma, normalizing e.t.s). Within the next ten years Open contact is coming, the good benevolent E.T.s are already here but they have already been showing themselves in 2023 individually, and they are landing their crafts. If you have a large lot or backyard, you can invite them to land on your lot, by looking up at the stars at night and inviting them, they will set a specific time that's perfect divine timing, where you will just get a feeling to check outside your window. You can invite others to watch. The Yahyel (The Pleiadians, an advanced hybrid species) will make open contact but not necessarily first. Your first introduction may be a hybrid species that look similar to human, so that it's not as big of a shock to your body. The Yahyel have hybrid children that are coming in the future to live among humans and teach us everything they know, because for some of us, these are our hybrid children we haven't met in the physical yet only in the astral realm.
By the time they are more integrated in our society, they will introduce us to more species between 2033 and 2040. You will meet many more extraterrestrials including (possibly) Essassani (Ryo and Bashar species) and the Tall Whites. We will have many teachings from these beings like personal transformation, creating our reality, the history of the universe, parallel realities, crop circles, psychic phenomenon, spiritual ascension, Earth changes,healing methods, life after death, future technology, sacred geometry ect. There's so much to look forward to! Following your bliss is key. Every single person is apart of Source and connected to Source. We are always connected to our soul family because we never left them. We've been dreaming that we're on Earth. Our Galactic family wants a relationship with you. You must meet them halfway. They need to lower their vibration to meet you and you must raise your vibration to meet them. Certainly by 2050 you will have met many different extraterrestrials. Remember this is just the probable future. Nothing is set in stone.
But we can create a process of reducing the time so that it occurs sooner than later by believing in it absolutely 100 percent. I won't speak so much about the "bad" E.T.s. now, I can make a separate post about the Reptilians, The Greys. The probabilities are always fluctuating a little bit, but open contact is a guarantee. Timing however is not exactly precise because some are not ready for that experience. They are not coming to solve all our problems, to bring their advanced technology and give us a free ride away from Earth. It doesn’t work that way. We must enjoy the journey of evolving on our own by practicing inner peace, balance, compassion, and unconditional love within, and do so joyously to raise our level of consciousness to the point where you are even ready to stand face-to-face with one of these higher-vibrational beings that we will see as our friends and colleagues when they do land.
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so i've seen a lot of people here on tumblr say that Elves are a inherently morally superior race, what do you think about that? it doesn't ring quite right with me but i don't know what would *disclaim* it, idk. sorry
BRO.... LISTEN... it's one of my most hated aspects of fandom. Like this whole 'elven society is a utopia, not like those dirty humans and all their dumb shit' is.. on SO many levels both canonically wrong and also thoroughly playing into the incredibly warped (and racist!) morality system in lotr.
So, the book AND the film (though the film seems content to completely paint elves as perfect and is likely the most to blame for this idea) describe elves as good, blessed, wise etc etc. Many characters, when experiencing elves, feel like they��re in a trance of their beauty and are amazed and dazzled by their presence. But! Elves in Middle Earth have... essentially the same moral record as humans do! They infight, they make mistakes, they do callous things ect. Gildor abandons Frodo to his road despite him knowing more than enough to understand he is in mortal danger. Haldir singles out Gimli as the only untrusted one in the fellowship and threatens to kill him if he tries to leave, despite Gimli being entirely courteous. Galadriel and Celeborn essentially usurped the ruling of Lorinand, changing it’s name and changing the languages spoken there to suit their perceptions and desires. And this is not to mention everything that happened in the First Age. Elves are in no way perfect creatures! But, they are somewhat treated that way so, why?
Well it is this concept of racial divinity, or as I like to say 'the elves are biologically catholic'. Because the place you have to put yourself in is one of good = 'faithful', ie in a religious sense. The morality Tolkien is talking about is catholic morality, which is where we get 'Denethor was prideful because he thought he could see into the future (ie looked at the situation and made a rational calculation) and also suicide is prideful, you're taking away gods hand in your fate' and also 'don't have sex except for when you want children and are in love' and also 'everyone has their place and their appointed task and it is for the good of everyone that they play this task' I could go on but you get the idea.
Basically, the morality Tolkien is talking about is not what we would now consider to be the height of morality, unless you do believe in this sort of thing. So it is better described as Catholicism than morality, hence, Elves (who have biological imperatives that enforce, for example, sex only for procreation and are married the moment they have sex etc) are biologically catholic. And everything they do is blessed, unless! An elf is ‘corrupted’. There is actually a section in NoME which says that elves are monogamous, have sex only with love and children in mind ect UNLESS they are ‘corrupted’. This was where my joke ‘only evil elves can have gay sex’ comes from. So you can see how this version of morality is already pretty uncomfortable to play into right?
But this is also seen in the concepts of 'Men of darkness' vs 'Middle men' vs 'high men'. These are not moral designations, in middle earth you are born into them and you cannot change to which you belong, but they have intensely moral implications. (Whole societies are implied to gradually be able to change their designation over time, but one individual cannot and these changes must happen in the presence or absence of ‘holiness’. So Gondor ‘became like middle men of the twilight’ without the presence of divinely ordained kings and then became ‘high’ again once Aragorn became king.)
The men of darkness are polygamist for a start, they ‘worship sauron’ and are forever classed as evil, Aragorn ‘subjugates the south’ which we are all supposed to agree is a good idea. Faramir says that middle men are too enamoured with battle, noble in their own way but not high minded. 'Righteous Pagan' is the term often thrown around, especially by catholic tolkien scholars. And the High Men come from Numenor, build great empires, are the cleverest and most advanced and live the longest. But! Numenoreans are in no way morally superior, they had a slave trade, they deforested Middle Earth, they colonised middle earth after Numenor’s destruction. The thing that sets them apart is that they are ‘faithful’, for a long time they had great friendship with the elves and they all believed in Eru’s divine right as the one true god over all creation. They also lived closer to ‘heaven’, so much so that they could see Tol Eressea from Numenor some days.
I could get into all the complex narratives surrounding righteousness and the dethroning of god and uncorrupted vs corrupted earth etc and how that is related in Numenor’s rise and fall, but we don’t need to go into that for now. The point is believing in and being faithful to ‘god’ (eru) is good and not believing in him is a corruption and makes you bad. But elves are essentially born with the inherent knowledge that Eru exists, many of them have met his servants and seen his work on the world and they all know he IS the ‘one true god’. Whether or not they agree with his servants is neither here nor there, Feanor made his oath TO Eru, as if he believed the Valar were separate from him. An elf is corrupted if they defy Eru’s will, but that is rare and never comes alongside the idea that Eru doesn’t exist or is in some way an imposter to the throne of Arda. Elves are biologically catholic! And that means they are good, regardless of their actual actions.
This is most blatantly expressed in one of Tolkien’s letters (letter 183 if you’re curious), which states; In The Lord of the Rings the conflict is not basically about 'freedom', though that is naturally involved. It is about God, and His sole right to divine honour. The Eldar and the Númenóreans believed in The One, the true God, and held worship of any other person an abomination. Sauron desired to be a God-King, and was held to be this by his servants;† if he had been victorious he would have demanded divine honour from all rational creatures and absolute temporal power over the whole world. So even if in desperation 'the West' had bred or hired hordes of orcs and had cruelly ravaged the lands of other Men as allies of Sauron, or merely to prevent them from aiding him, their Cause would have remained indefeasibly right.
So, in essentials, Elves and Numenoreans could be entirely cruel and brutal, but so long as they are still fighting for Eru’s divine right, it would all still be ‘in the right’. Which is why, in the story, we have this seeming contradiction of Elves being revered as perfect, whilst displaying a great deal of imperfect behaviours. It’s because morality is not what is being discussed (ie kindness to others, not tolerating unjust violence, respect for all and such) it is divine perfection. Elven society is necessarily homophobic, it is misogynistic, it is racist, it is everything a human society can be and more, especially because these views are so baked into their culture that they appear to be biologically and spiritually enforced. And it definitely is spiritually enforced too! Finwe needs to request Manwe’s permission to wed again, which pretty much confirms that these aspects are divinely demanded.
Now, of course, fandom can do what they like in terms of changing and ignoring these aspects to suit the natural wish for the main supposedly ‘good’ characters to actually be good as we understand it. But simply deciding that the elves are biologically ‘moral’ instead of biologically ‘catholic’ is doing nothing to subvert these issues and is in fact playing directly into very racist ideas whilst sweeping their roots within the text under the rug entirely. You cannot BE biologically moral, one race cannot be more inherently moral than another race and humans are not all stupid, cruel and inferior as a rule. I hope it’s clear why deciding that a race can be morally superior over another is racist ideology, especially when that supposedly morally superior race is also ‘the most beautiful’ in the eyes of a white writer.
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daddy tonight
shigaraki tomura x all mights daughter reader
warnings: yandere behavior, stalking, death threats, misogyny?, kidnapping, non-con, domestic abuse, daddy kink, ect.
<3
you were all might’s daughter, everyone fancied you, you shined bright like the stars. shigaraki hated you so much, you were 2 years younger than him, 18, yet you were still a popular and successful hero.
you were ridiculously hot, but that wasn’t all…you were literally his most hated hero daughter, shigaraki had been stalking you ever since you were 14, he was young too so he didn’t see anything wrong with it.
it was a miracle how he didn’t decay you, he could if he wanted to, maybe when you were younger but definitely not now, now you were a hero a real hero and not one in training.
he had smelled your panties and stolen your belongings in various occasions but you never seemed to notice— of course someone like you wouldn’t.
shigaraki wrote everything down about you, he studied and observed you a lot, but lately he can’t since you turned 18 and there’s a lot of other men dying to marry you, who wouldn’t wanna marry all might’s daughter?
ever since you turned 18, you’ve been acting like those dumb whores he hated, shigaraki is a man who is always busy so he still is a virgin, it made him mad how there’s a small possibility that you aren’t one.
it would be unfair he thought to himself, he waited all these years for you yet all you did was go on live tv and show the whole world your very tight hero suit and that cute innocent little face.
you always blushed when being interviewed, he thought it was cute but only him should see you like that, you always looked so needy, like a whore.
he could tell you were a daddy’s girl, always whining and crying when things didn’t go the way you wanted them to— he thought you and him both had that in common.
•
its 6:38 pm as shigaraki plays with his cock, he keeps on stroking his manhood till he cums all over your face, well the poster in his room that has your face on it.
“i actually am dating someone!” you say
shigaraki almost broke his scarred neck and he looked over to the tv screen and saw you and a man…what? what could you be doing with him? shigarki couldn’t understand.
you smile and blush at the camera and the man puts his hands around your waist, he brings his handsome face close to yours and kisses you, you of course kiss him back, the lady interviewing you cheer you both on.
shigaraki hands fly to his neck and he starts scratching and crying at what he’s seeing right now, how dare you? how dare you (name)? he still can’t understand why.
“…this brat…i need to go now!” shigaraki yells.
he grabs his coat and leaves the new lov hideout, he doesn’t know why but he feels he has been a little too nice to you, you’re taking him for granted.
shigaraki arrives and waits for you, its early and he knows for a fact that you’ll be here late so he just waits in your house, he decayed your front door.
•
you were a bit drunk and your boyfriend senju had left you, you get in your car and drive back to your house, your dress was so tight it made you mad so you took it off.
you prayed and begged nobody saw you like this, what would people say if they say all might’s daughter with only a bra and panties, they were sexy too.
it was late at night so you could barely see and so it made you calm down a bit since you were almost naked, you went in your bag searching for your keys but almost died as you say your door…it was gone?
“hah what the hell” you whisper to yourself and walked in
you wish you didn’t since now someone was chaining you with some anti-quirk chains, you screamed at the person but they only laughed, the lights were turned off so you couldn’t see them.
“S-STOP Y-YOU WHAT ARE YOU DOING???! DO YOU KNOW WHO I AM” you said
the person— man now laughs and your stomach now hurts from it, he was a villain, you could tell with that laugh of his, he came close to your ear, his hot breath hit your ear.
“of course i know who you are (name)” he said slowly
you screamed and started moving trying to fight against him but it didn’t work, he only laughed at how pathetic you looked trying to push him off.
“come here, i won’t hurt you” he whispered in your ear and you just cried and closed your eyes
he grabbed you and pulled you up the stairs where your room was at, he laid you down on your bed and locked the door, he then turned on the light.
you instantly cried when you saw him, he was the villain who invaded ua— the school your dad worked with. he started laughing like a psychopath.
“…that face, ive waited years to see you like that” he said and sized you up and down
you shook your head and cried even more.
“i can’t believe you became such a slut, wearing that really? are you trying to provoke me?” he said as he walked closer to you, he touched your hair with 3 of his fingers
“…(name) do you know who i am?” he asked
“…y-yes” you told him
“no, do you know who i REALLY am?” he asked and looked you in the eyes
you only shook your head and he smiled at that, he started taking his shirt and pants off, you looked at him confused, he was getting naked.
“s-stop!” you told him
you started to move around but shigaraki quickly sat on top of you, he looked at you and you cringed, you shook your head ‘no’ and he laughed.
he grabbed your face with 4 fingers and looked you in the eyes, your eyes looked so innocent and pleading to him, he creepily smiled when you started gagging.
“hahahahah hahahah, so…you smelled me right? i haven’t showered in weeks!” he told you in a mean manner
you gagged and looked at him as if he was the ugliest creature ever to exist.
“plwease ewa you’re so smelly! and ugly! get off me!” you screamed and cried but shigaraki had enough of you
he slapped you and pulled down your panties, he started pumping his 2 bony fingers into you in a unpleasant and fast manner, you cried even more.
“S-STOWPP!” you yelled
“hah, don’t you EVER treat me like that bitch or i’ll kill you!” he yelled back at you
you gasped and looked at him with a scared face, he was threatening to kill you…he wouldn’t do it right? he could end your life with all 5 of his fingers, it terrified you.
“n-no s-sorry…” you whispered and shook your head trying to convince him
“im going to hurt you real bad if you act all naughty now” he warned you
you started to cry and moan when he kept on scissoring you with his fingers, he did it so rough and to his surprise you were really tight, he smiled at this.
he started kissing your cunt and he pulled his fingers out of you, you felt empty and he chuckled when he saw your disappointed face.
he kept on kissing and tongue fucking your pussy so hard and good that you couldn’t stop crying and moaning, this was like heaven to him.
“you like it don’t ya” he asked you
you moaned and cried out to him but this made him mad, what did you do wrong? you should be the one mad, not him.
“when i ask a question you answer me…got that!” he slightly yelled at you
“mhm!” you screamed and cried when he slapped your pussy, it hurts so much.
“s-sir shigaraki” you said and he slapped your pussy again, causing you to moan and cry
“it’s tenko” he said
“h-huh?” you asked, he looked at you and told you
“i said call me tenko” he said and then started rubbing his fingers up and down your cunt.
“ah~uh” you moaned
“imagine what all might must think if he saw you like this…getting fingered by a villain…” he evilly stated
you started crying and screaming at the thought of that, you were a hero…getting fingered by a villain, a villain who hates your dad, how disappointing.
shigaraki turned you around and pushed his dick all the way up your pussy, he then grabbed your hair and whispered in your ear
“your daddy must be proud don’t ya think?” he whispered
you shook your head ‘no’
“doesn’t matter cause from now on im your daddy” he laughed and pulled your hair even more
“w-what do you want ah~” you moaned
“y-you” shigaraki was slightly out of breath, your body looked so perfect like this, all for him.
“w-what do you mean?” you nervously questioned
“you know w-what i mean ah” he moaned as he started slamming faster into you, your ass bounced on his belly and he smiled at this.
“so good~” he whispered
“ah AH t-there!” you moaned and whined, shigaraki groaned.
“so fucking good for me ngh” he moaned, yet all you could think about was your father, it was killing you.
you were getting off to a villain fucking you, how disgusting. you should be ashamed of yourself, what if he came in you?
“hey pay attention bitch!” shigaraki snapped his fingers at you “can’t believe you’re ignoring me”
“s-sowy” you cried and shigaraki pulled out and flipped you over, his hair hitting your face, he was sweating and so were you.
you’re cheeks and lips were red, his cheeks were red too. he then started to put his very long veiny dick in your pussy, he groaned.
“ah~ yes… a woman like you deserves to be treated like a slut…not a hero” he told you as he looked you directly in the eyes, his look was so intimidating.
you whined when he said that, you knew, well more like you believed that if you were a boy all might and everyone else would be way more proud of you.
“i-its hurts s-sir tenko” you whined for him and he started aggressively slamming his hips into you “AHHH~ T-TENKO!”
“mhm i knew you would like this, you’re such a dirty girl, call me daddy” he groaned out, he watched as your tits moved up and down, so hot.
you thought about it, he’s literally fucking you without your permission! he came and disintegrated your door, it was expensive! how will your dad react to thi-
“AGH NGHH D-DADDY, TENKO S-STAWP” you moaned with tears in your eyes and shigaraki drooled all over your tits and stomach, it was so nasty.
“mhm, my good girl, i see you’re learning your place…” he said and a feeling inside your stomach started growing, it felt so hot and you knew what was gonna happen.
“im g-gonna i-ima cum!” you moan out and cum on his dick, your pussy clenched around his dick in a filthy way, how file of you.
“uh-uh what a bad girl…and here i thought you were behaving good” shigaraki told you with a dry laugh, your eyes widened in fear as his hand came to grab your neck.
with tears in your eyes you looked up to him, his bloody eyes were staring into your soul, you started shaking and gasping for air, you thought he was going to kill you.
“i could kill you right now if i wanted to…” he told you and looked down to your red glossy lips “but i won’t…never”.
he forcefully kissed you and you allowed him to since you were scared he was going to disintegrate you, it was a horrifying thought.
he moaned into the kiss, he was waiting for this, to feel your lips on his, even if it was by force…he doesn’t regret anything at all, he loves it all.
with his free hand, he started playing with your right breast, he pinched your nipples and you opened your mouth to protest but shigaraki just inserted his tongue into your mouth.
you arched your back and started kissing him back, the feeling was good but it was bad, this felt like a sin, a very dirty and taunting sin.
he then let go off your neck, and allowed you to finally breathe, it felt good but then he started pulling it in, again, you both moaned.
he started moving, it hurt, he was going a little too fast and the look in his face scared you, he looked as if he going to kill you, what did you do wrong?
tomura had remembered why he even came here…because of that damn tall handsome male, he was jealous and he lost control, something in him was telling him to punish you— that you deserved this.
“you know, i was mad at you…no…i AM mad at you! how dare you go with that brat…he doesn’t deserve you, no one does!” he screamed at you with angry eyes, he then started pulling out of you.
“w-wha-“ you tried to talk but he shushed you and sat on the right side of the bed, he grabbed a fist full of your hair and looked at you in the eyes while talking.
“i spent almost my whole life loving you! and this…this is how you repay me! how embarrassing of me to fall in love with the daughter of the person i most hate in the world! i hate everything and everyone!”
you shook at his words, your tears were falling down your face like a lake, your lashes were wet and scalp was in pain, he was gripping your hair a bit too tight.
“i’ll kill him, everyone! him, your dad, all of them!” he screamed and then started crying.
“don’t you understand…? these heroes, your dad, they don’t love you! i did and do everything for you! yet all you is be ungrateful, i’ll make you learn!”
he pulled you by the hair and off the bed, he pushed you on your knees and forced your mouth opened, you started crying even more and trying to stand up but couldn’t when he pushed his dick all the way in your mouth, down to your throat.
“a-ah yes…now you’re being useful! you need to understand that im the only person who loves you” he said and you looked up to him through your thick lashes and rosy cheeks.
you looked so cute, like always, he thought he could take a picture of you and so he let go of your hair and grabbed his phone that was on the bed, you started shaking and asking questions but he just shut you up with his dick, again.
“i love you but you gotta learn” he said and started pushing your head up and down…faster and faster until he came, it felt so good and he pulled out to let some of his cum fall on your face.
“aww don’t look at me like that, smile, all heroes smile right!?” he said and slapped you when you didn’t smile, you cried and obeyed him this time.
“good good…” he said as he took a picture of you with a sad smile, you looked so hot, all for him, oh and your dad.
“i wonder what all might would say if he saw this…” shigaraki tormented you, you cried and begged him not to show anyone the picture.
“t-tenko p-pwease n-no…” you cried and crawled to him, he looked down on you and kissed you, you kissed back, scared.
he picked you up and sat you on the bed, he told you to go to sleep, but you shook your head ‘no’.
“(name), i said go to sleep” he said as he walked over to you, he got a blanket and covered you with it, he didn’t take off the chains on your wrists.
“…i w-won’t tell anyone about this…just please…don’t show my dad that picture, tenko” you looked at him with sad eyes.
“…okay” he whispered
shigaraki wanted to laugh in your face but, he decided to be nice and so he turned off the lights, and waited for you to go to sleep, and so when you did, he turned on his phone.
everything was going to be so good now, he’ll finally have you, he’s going to cum in you and breed you, he knows you’ll be a great mom.
he laughed at the thought of how all might and everyone would react to this, what expression would all might do if he saw your belly growing, his grandchildren will be the children of a villain, the one who hates him the most.
shigaraki looked at your beautiful sleeping face and smiled, he planted a kissed on your forehead and looked for all might’s number on his phone, he had it since he stalked you.
he clicked on it and send it to him, shigaraki laughed at this, would you get in trouble? doesn’t matter cause tonight he’s your daddy.
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#yandere shigaraki#mha shigaraki#boku no hero academia shigaraki#mha x you#tomura shiragaki#shigaraki imagine#shigaraki x reader#shigaraki fanfiction
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Can I get platonic Yandere 2ps with their kid that just turned 18 and they're ready to move out, apparently they'll feel like a burden now since they're living under the boys roof and is now an adult.
For non groups questions, IE 2p Allies, 2p Axis, ect, I’m only going to write for five characters to make it easier on myself.
2p England: Ohhhhhh my little sweetie! There is no need to move out! I love having you with me, and you are Never and wil Never be a burdan, ok? Now, how about some tasty scones and a hot cuppa. Does that sound nice? Oliver wants to appear like the perfect parant, and he will do so while making sure his child will stay with them. If talking to them won’t work, than Oliver is not afraid to pull some strings in the background. He will make sure you can and will never find a place to live. If that means blackmail, threats, bribery, murder, etc than he will do it all while giving his child a sweet smile and a plateful of their favorite foods.
2p France: ...Are you feeling unwell? I think you might have a bit of a fever. Go rest now and when you wake up you will feel all better. Francois will have his child stay with him even of he has to posin them and make them bedbound if he must. It will be less work for him than trying to physically stop you from moving out.
2p Russia: It is not logical for you to move out. Wasting money on a place when you have a perfectly good home here and someone to take care of you makes no sense. Viktor will try to use logic on his child. It really does make no sense for his child to try to leave becase he will never let them leave. Why bother in the first place when the effort will be fruitile.
2p Romano: What? But baby, living on your own is boring and frustrating! Isn’t it soooooo much better to live here, in OUR home where you live in luxury? Now, stop being a silly billy alright. I don’t want to hear anymore nonsense of you moving out, capishe? Flavio has strong social toes to pretty much everyone that matters and he will use those ties to tie his child down if he must. It really will be hard to try and move out with all the possible doorways being shut.
2p Austria: Oh my little prince/princess, you don’t really mean you want to move out, do you? Heh that is such a silly thought! You have everything you need here, with me. You are royalty of the dark and must stay somewhere safe. There are many monsters and thing hiding in the shadows that will want to hurt you because you are my little prince/princess. It is safe here, I promise you that. Roland will make a deal with some creatures to go after his child of they really do try to live on their own. Of course he will be the mightly King he is and safe them from harm in the end, but his child doesn’t need to know that each and every attack and kidnapping is orchestrated and planed by dear old daddy himself.
#hetalia#aph hetalia#2p hetalia#2ptalia#2p#yandere#yandere 2p hetalia#2p england#oliver kirkland#2p yandere england#yandere oliver#2p france#francois bonnefoy#yandere 2p france#2p yandere france#2p russia#viktor braginsky#2p yandere russia#yandere 2p russia#2p romano#Flavio Vargas#2p yandere romano#yandere 2p romano#2p austria#yandere 2p austria#2p yandere austria#roland edelstein
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(for the Touya-nii panic prompt)
Oooh I left it purposely broad to see where your mind might take you 😋
But since you liked the prompt, how about elaborating about her safety and well-being first? We already know the extent Tomura goes to in BMB (stopping her from going to school/ bodyguards ect), but how would Touya-nii respond to serious threats- to the point where he may panic.
Thank you!!
(if you're still up for elaborating further on the other aspects of what 'panicking' would look like, let me know and I'll send another ask <3)
Love you bb
hello again!!! (´∀`)♡ fair warning, this answer is LOOOONG hehe <3
some general background information to start:
for touya-nii, that anxiety surrounding her safety comes from the fact that he ‘cares’ about her so much that he’d be fucking lost without her now; he wouldn’t know how to live without her now. he literally cannot lose her or he’ll kill himself. living without her has no meaning anymore. as such, keeping her protected is very important to him, because a death sentence for her is an automatic death sentence for him, too.
he doesn’t go full bmb tomura mode, but it’s important to note that before bmb tomura had received those threats, he had actually been (slightly!) more lax with his reader than touya-nii is with his. before the threats, bmb tomura’s reader was allowed to go shopping, go to and from school on her own, go out with (girl)friends, etc.. all bmb tomura asks is that she keep him in the loop. he’s too busy to be with her all the time and he trusts her to take care of herself and be honest with him. on top of that, he isn’t extremely concerned about her safety until after he gets those threats; before then, he had genuinely seen himself (and, by extension, her) as totally untouchable. he’d genuinely thought that no one would be stupid enough to make a move on her life because they knew it would be an instant death sentence for them. he had felt truly invincible, and it’s only once he starts receiving those letters and phone calls that he realizes that he isn’t, and there is a possibility—no matter how slim—that she could be hurt. it’s that uncertainty that starts to really chip away at his mind, too, with a whole slew of paranoid ‘what ifs’.
touya-nii, on the other hand, knew that she’d be a vulnerability the moment he realized he was in love with her. he knew she’d forever be his biggest weak point and that if someone really wanted to hurt him, all they’d need to do is hurt her to send him truly over the edge. so touya-nii is more paranoid right from the start. part of this has to do with the fact that he isn’t nearly as high up in his organization than bmb tomura is.
general safety and well-being aka everyday precautions:
as we know, touya-nii is extremely intelligent, and despite his paranoia and his taste for control and perfection, he doesn’t have an issue with uncertainty and those ridiculous ‘what ifs’ that bmb tomura does. touya-nii has rigid control on his mind 90% of the time and is especially methodical when it comes to stuff like this.
resultingly, touya-nii likes to be as prepared and preventative as he can be. he understands that he cannot predict everything, and that even trying to is downright ridiculous and impossible, but he tries his best to cover all of his bases. as such, he has tracking devices on her favourite bags and purses, in addition to having them implanted within certain pieces of jewellery—but none on her phone; that device is too easily trifled with. he wants them somewhere no one will expect them.
it’s a regular occurrence to receive multiple calls and texts from him throughout the day while he’s at work, just checking in to see how everything’s going. she honestly doesn’t leave the house much without him anymore, but if she must, she’s to tell him where she’s going, when she leaves, and when she’s expected to arrive back home. if touya’s feeling especially paranoid or uneasy about something around this time (ie if something has happened at work, or if someone mentioned her recently), he’ll ask her to wait or have keigo or natsuo go with her.
he takes her health, both physical and mental, very seriously. she eats well, she exercises, she goes to the doctor regularly (with touya-nii almost always in attendance; natsuo goes in his place on the rare occasion that touya can’t be there due to work), and she takes all of her vitamins and medications every day. touya enjoys tracking things (once again, gives him a perceived sense of control), so he tracks her meals, her periods, her meds, her exercise, her sleep, etc etc etc. it’s become second nature to him now to just jot them down in a designated spot on his phone throughout the day.
he tries his best to keep her as far away from his work and all work-related things as possible. whenever he calls her, he’s sure to do it in a private location, like his car for example, to ensure no one nefarious is eavesdropping. he refrains from talking about her in any way while he’s off doing jobs with his faction of men. it doesn’t mean they don’t know about her, but he does all he can to keep her—and all information about her—out of conversation, refusing to answer even those seemingly harmless questions (ie ‘nah, my girl hates meat. hey, boss, what about you? your girl eat meat? seems everyone’s a fuckin vegetarian these days’—touya would be like stfu and get back to work lmao).
he has not taught her how to use any weapons (nor will he ever teach her how to use any weapons; he’s really weird about her touching things that are ‘dangerous’, as if that will somehow taint her or jinx their situation and cause something to occur. this also ties in with home much he patronizes her; he hates the idea of her having a weapon in her hands at all, fearing she may hurt herself. such things are not meant for such precious princesses, of course), but he has taught her a few basic self defence moves, and has extensively trained her in how to recognize things that are out of the ordinary and don’t feel right, and what to do in situations such as those (escape routes depending on the location, to never isolate herself or end up alone + stay close to crowds and witnesses, how to reach him (or natsuo, or keigo as an absolute last resort) in an inconspicuous method, etc). by the time we reach i don’t know where but she sends me there, she knows how to read a room/environment like a pro, the ability to search or detect signs of potential or impending danger deeply ingrained in her consciousness.
they have code words for situations like these as well, incredibly innocuous phrases they’ll only use if one of them is in danger, with each corresponding to a different scenario (ie one for if someone breaks into their flat, one for if she’s trapped in a public place, one if she feels like someone is stalking her, etc), as well as one that just means ‘DANGER’ if she’s ever in a situation that they didn’t prepare for.
how would touya-nii respond if she were in serious danger?
i’ve touched on this in this ask and this ask, but as i said in those, it really depends on what the situation itself actually is. obviously, different situations will require different solutions, will vary in levels of severity and urgency, and will greatly affect the way he responds—if it’s swift and sharp or if he’s able to take his time to more thoroughly think it through.
let’s use what happened in bmb as a hypothetical scenario, since u mentioned it. if touya-nii were to begin receiving threatening phone calls and messages, he wouldn’t react so vigorously and violently like bmb tomura did. as i said in the second ask linked above, touya works very well under pressure and he won’t start actually freaking out or showing signs of panic until much later, when she is/they are finally safe. touya-nii has the ability to shut his emotions off—emotions cloud rational thought, they make you sloppy, they make you miss stuff, make you make stupid mistakes—during crises, enabling him to stay sharp and fast on his feet without any of those pesky feelings like fear or panic getting in the way.
taking the proper precautions would be necessary, of course, and his watch on her would become even tighter and more restrictive—he’d install additional hidden cameras in their flat and would probably give her some sort of pager or panic button-type device that would alert both him and natsuo, but he wouldn’t go as far as locking her away completely or getting a bodyguard of sorts until he was sure these were legitimate threats and a serious cause for concern.
although he likes to stay prepared for potential dangers, he does not want to waste resources or overreact, mostly due to the fact that this could just be some stupid prank someone’s playing on him—either to make a fool out of him, or to see just how far he’d go, to see how enthusiastically he’d react and which ways he’d react, to gather intel on him and his possible mistakes or weaknesses—and his pride refuses to take that shit.
(aka he’ll take those protective and preventative measures, but he won’t go overboard unless it’s required. he prefers to lay out all of the possible scenarios—or at least as many as his mind can conjure up—and analyze those before acting recklessly or making further moves).
to him, it would be a waste of time to go any further than that until he could verify the authenticity of these threats. touya-nii doesn’t fuck around, and he wants whoever’s sending such ludicrous threats to know that. he isn’t about to pull out all the stops just because some coward left a few badly masked voicemails on his phone. he’s going to take his time to do the research privately behind the scenes, find the motherfucker, and gut him from sternum to groin, no matter what the intention was.
i hope this answers your questions, anon!!! <33
#i'm not gonna ramble in the tags because this ask is literally over 1k words lmao#i hope you have an awesome wednesday!!!!#stay safe my friend and don't forget to drink water!!#touya nii universe#inky.bb#clari gets mail
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How the Avengers (and Co) Would React to You Asking Them To Cuddle
A/N: I imagine you were saying specifically “Could we cuddle, please?”.
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Bruce Banner
“Absolutely! Yes!”
Very excited, tries to hide it though (is unsuccessful)
Spoons you from behind, one arm tight around your waist and the other under your head. Doesn’t move his arm until you get up, even if you fall asleep.
Bucky Barnes
“Yes.” He would say, immediately, no hesitation at all, not even a second of it. He has been waiting for this moment.
Cuddling is possibly his favorite thing to do with you, loving being so close to you. Close enough he can hear your heartbeat and feel your warm breath and smell your shampoo.
He would probably want you to lay on top of him, like your head on his chest and your legs tangled together. He likes the weight of you on top of him, makes him feel grounded.
Carol Danvers
“Sure, love.”
Lays on her back with you on your side, tucked up under her arm. Probably pulls a leg over her waist.
Clint Barton
“Damn straight we can.”
Would cuddle with you on the couch, with his legs stretched out an you sitting between them, leaning back on his chest. He would wrap his arms around you, and probably hold your hands at the same time.
Gamora
“... Why?”
Would be the big spoon 100% of the time.
Helmut Zemo
“Of course, my dear.”
Tucks you up against his chest, with your head nestled under his chin and his arms tight around your middle.
John Walker
“Well of course, babe.”
Would flip flop between wanting you to lay completely on top of him, with your head on his chest and your lower half between his legs, and wanting to lay completely on you with his face in your neck and his arms tight around your middle.
Lemar Hoskins
“Hell yeah! I am always up for cuddling.”
Would want to lay on your sides facing each other, so he can look at you as you cuddle. Would probably want to talk too, about your days or your hobbies or something.
Loki
He would think on it a moment before rolling his eyes and muttering, “If we must.”
He would say something like “I truly don’t see the point of this.” while you guys are cuddling but he secretly enjoys it
Would be the big spoon, though secretly he would want to try being the little spoon
If you two ever try cuddling with him as the little spoon, or with you holding him in any way, he will have to stop himself from crying
Natasha Romanoff
*playful gasp of excitement* “Yes we can.”
LIterally has the softest pillows/blankets of all time and will make a little nest out of them so it feels like you are being cocooned in softness.
Nebula
“I don’t understand, what’s cuddling?”
After you explain it, she would be very hesitant but would eventually agree to it.
Would be the big spoon because she wouldn’t want you behind her where she can’t see you.
Peter Parker
*excited Peter noises.* He has been waiting for this day.
He has a ton of fluffy pillows and soft blankets to make it as comfortable as possible, and he would give you a sweater/pair of his sweatpants to wear while you guys cuddle.
A tangle of limbs, to the point you have no idea where he ends and you begin.
Peter Quill
“Yes! Yes we can!”
Would be the little spoon 100% of the time.
Pietro Maximoff
“Just cuddling?” Wiggles his eyebrows at you.
Would want you to lay on his chest. This is the best position to play with your hair or run his hands up and down your back/sides.
Sam Wilson
“Sure, do you want to cuddle on the bed, or on the couch?”
Would grab blankets and snacks and your favorite drinks, really anything you guys would need so you don’t have to get up to get it. You guys would probably have a movie marathon while cuddling.
Scott Lang
“Um… yeah we could.”
When you just sort of stand/sit there awkwardly waiting he realizes what you meant.
“Oh! You mean right now! Uh yeah, come on over!” Lifts his arm up so he can tuck you under it.
Sharon Carter
You and Sharon would cuddle all the time, so you asking her to cuddle is absolutely no surprise to her.
She’s a lot like Sam where she has everything in reach so you guys don’t have to get up at all
She likes to cuddle sitting up/leaning back against the headboard or arm of the couch with you in between her legs leaning back against her chest.
Shuri
Would make fun of you/tease you, but only in a joking way.
Octopus cuddler, your legs would be tangled together and her arms would be wrapped around your waist while her head rests on her chest.
Talks to you about what she’s been working on lately.
Stephen Strange
Would think about it for a few seconds before saying, “Why not.”
You guys would cuddle on a couch/lounging chair, and your back would be to his chest as he reads to you.
Steve Rogers
“Sure!”
Drops what he’s doing, unless it's like important avenger paperwork stuff.
Would be an amazing cuddler, and would probably like sleeping on his back with one of your arms/legs strewn across him. Easiest position to run his hand up and down your back.
Cuddling would be sort of like a therapy session for him, where he would just get all of his stresses from work and other relationships off his chest.
T'Challa
“Of course we can, love. I am so glad you asked, I love to cuddle with you.”
You just know he has the best silk sheets, the ones that feel like water against your skin. And he has a huge bed, just because he moves in his sleep a lot. And he’s rich so he has like a ton of pillows. All in all possibly the most comfortable place to cuddle.
Asks you about your day, how you’re feeling, that sort of thing.
Thor
He would be very enthusiastic about making sure it’s as comfortable for you.
Would still get up every 5 mins to get something/use the bathroom.
“Are you sure you’re comfortable, my love? I know humans can be quite sensitive. Is the blanket too rough? Is it too hot, I can turn down the heat?”
Tony Stark
“Oh why, yes of course. Just don’t mess up my hair.”
Would hold you against his chest with an arm around your waist and just the fingertips of his other hand running up and down your arm, which lays over his heart.
Tells you about things going on with the avengers, and listens when you tell him all about what’s going on with you.
Valkyrie
“No. No, I will not cuddle with you! I am a Valky-... fine.”
Wants to lay facing each other. She says it's so she can look you in the eyes while she talks to you, because that’s the respectful thing to do, but it’s actually because laying that way gives her the perfect up close view of your face. Her favorite view.
Vision
“Of course, my dear.”
Would lay on his back with your legs in between his legs and your head on his chest.
Routinely checks in to make sure you are comfortable, have enough blankets, don't need a drink, ect. Plays with your hair/runs his hands up and down your back, probably holds one of your hands.
Wade Wilson
“Yeabsolutely we can!”
Has a ton of blankets to make a cocoon out of.
Would have you lay on him, straddling his waist and your arms around his neck. Would probably tickle you at one point.
Wanda Maximoff
“Of course, my dear.”
Would say she is completely unbiased about what position you cuddle in but she loves any position where she can hear your heart.
Would try to make you laugh so she can hear your laugh all up close and personal like that.
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She's Ugly!
In a previous post I briefly touch on the subject of Armando and his belief of love. Here I will be going into more detail on my personal experiences as a writer who has written complex OC's with a very similar nature to that of Armando. I will be talking about some pretty heavy topics here so this is your warning if they make you uncomfortable or trigger you.
As a writer you spend most of your time doing research. You don't really spend it writing as more than 75% of the time is dedicated to researching the entirety of your story and it's characters. That means you research on mental health, social behaviors, addictions, learned behavior, coping mechanisms, ect... to create an authentic and realistic character.
When I was doing research for my OC, based on the past I wrote for them I had to look into the consequences that it carried into adulthood. I had to do a lot of research on coping mechanism and seggs addiction(I write really sad characters um but that's besides the point. Also try explaining your search history when you've got tabs and tabs about centers that deal with that addiction and so on).
[Below this I will talk about Seggsual Addiction and such. if it makes you uncomfortable skip to the next [RED]].
Doing that research I found out that many people who do have that addiction often use it as a form of escapism, control, or due to a lot more severe trauma. Sometimes it's just the feeling you get from that. Some have this addiction because of low self-esteem, feelings of worthlessness, and also because it's something they can control, or at the very least in their denial stage they believe that they can.
Seggs Addiction is when someone cannot function without it. When it becomes a problem in that person's life and ruins friendships, relationships, and their professional life. It can range from content watching to actual action of the addiction. This is a serious problem as it often leaves the people feeling helpless, dirty, lowers the quality of life and they feel a lot of shame due to it and it's something that they need professional help to be able to control and overcome, just like drug addiction.
[Now I will be talking about Armando and why this relates to this breakdown. You may proceed.]
Do I believe Armando has that? Not necessarily. I am not a professional so I cannot diagnose someone with that. I just know a lot about the subject because I had to do research on the topic in the past.
Armando is a complex character. The reason I bring this up is because he does show traits of it. Do his affairs get in the way of his professional life? Somewhat. Does it ruin friendships? Yes. Does it ruin relationships? Yes, mainly his.
We know Armando has had an array of women in his life. He is desired by a lot of women(I seriously do however believe that Mario is a s. addict).
I've thought about this part of his character for a while. I really don't know what Fernando Gaitan researched or what inspired him to write Armando's character so this is really just my own personal speculation and is not a fact of the show.
From the start we are told that Armando is a man with refined taste and high standards for his women. The secretaries tells this to Betty, if I'm not mistaken Marcela mentioned it once, and Mario tells him all the time.
A poster here in the tag made a post about the situation of Mario and Aura Maria and they did a really good job at breaking down this side of Armando; that he doesn't have a refined taste or high standards for women but rather he doesn't like involving himself with women who are not in the same social statues and circles as him because of the abuse of power that it entitles.
When he told Mario he wanted to fire Claudia for being crazy Mario reminded him of what he told him when he wanted Armando to fire Aura Maria and because of that Armando decides not to personally fire Claudia, it wasn't until Marcela asked for her head that he asked Hugo to fire her.
Now let me step away from the story and explain why I have this speculation.
Armando's parents aren't very active in his life. They're only there when it comes to the company or his relationship with Marcela(I already talked about his parents in The Art of Subtly in YSBLF post) now imagine that as you're growing up. That your parents aren't actively in your life unless you're achieving or accomplishing something. We know Armando has a sister that doesn't talk to their parents and is only in contact with him. That their mother possibly ruined her marriage to a man because he was poor. This tells us that his parents aren't the best.
A child who grows up having to overcompensate and over achieve grows up with low self-esteem, feelings of worthlessness, and other problems. They grow up believing that the only way they are worthy of love is by being perfect and they become obsessed with achieving perfection.
Due to this upbringing Armando is a control freak, neurotic, egocentric, and obsessed with perfection. He gets stressed out when things don't go his way. He has grown up in the fashion world and beauty has been fed to him that it is tall, thin, and above all has to be perfect.
A child is a product of their environment.
This has molded Armando into the person he is today.
On top of that Armando basically has his entire life planned out by his parents as a child who grew up hearing about the desire for him to be with Marcela to honor his parents best friends, for the good of the company, ect.
To receive his parents love he must do what his parents tell him, no exceptions. He must be the best at everything so he always aims high. In his proposal to be president he did exactly that.
Ironically Armando too is a people pleaser and feels like he has little to no control over his destiny.
So flings with Models become a form to cope. Though for a long time he enjoys those flings and what it entitles as it makes him feel good about himself, he is able to decide who he has a fling with but then it no longer is that.
My OC's addiction is driven by the desire of feeling wanted and needed. It boost her self-esteem though when it's over with she feels empty and hollow inside and we get a scene of Armando expressing those exact feelings to Mario the night he meets Ms. Colombia.
As they are leaving the cocktail Mario is upset that he[Armando] was leaving because he was so close to closing in on Ms. Colombia being his next conquest and that he couldn't change her for Marcela, who was always going to be there. Armando goes to explain something to him. He tells him that though at first he does get excited over the women and he does want to sleep with them that as soon as it's over he feels nothing anymore, that he doesn't enjoy it anymore.
This is part of a cycle and we see that.
Armando, before Betty, has the idea that if he falls in love it will be with a physically perfect woman who knows where she's standing and the only person that is like that is Marcela. He's got three reasons to marry her: He wanted her vote, his parents, and because she's what is mentioned above.
When Betty is introduce into his life she isn't what he expects in his dream woman. He expects perfection in a physical sense. However Betty has everything he wants in his dream woman in substance and personality.
He knows he likes Betty's personality but because she isn't physically perfect, he believes he isn't interested in her or attracted to her but because he likes her personality so much he believes he's entitled to her which is what drives his jealousy, it is not love.
Armando isn't in love with Betty here or at least not yet.
Betty embodies everything he wants and desires in a woman. She is humble, kind, respectful, unconditional, faithful, smart, like really smart and he likes that about her a lot, submissive and selfless.
However because the package isn't what he thinks is perfect, he cancels out. He denies that he likes her and he denies that he cares about her because of it.
So when Mario suggest for Armando to make Betty fall in love, Armando is apprehensive and disgusted by it.
Let's be honest, Betty isn't ugly! She's adorable! I will fight anyone who disagrees with this. Betty is cute and has always been cute.
I have spoken about Armando's emotional confusion a lot in the past few days but I haven't spoken about the mechanics of the confusion he is dealing with.
Denial is a strong defense mechanism. Subconsciously he has feelings for Betty and is attracted to her because of her personality but consciously he isn't. The mystery of the mind is never ending.
sub·con·scious /səbˈkänSHəs/
adjective of or concerning the part of the mind of which one is not fully aware but which influences one's actions and feelings. "my subconscious fear"
Armando's behavior towards finding out that Betty is in love has been dominated by his subconscious. However when it comes to facing those feelings he enters denial, therefore he cannot fathom the idea of ever being involved with someone so "ugly".
con·scious /ˈkän(t)SHəs/
adjective aware of and responding to one's surroundings; awake.
Armando is aware that Betty isn't his ideal of the type of women he is physically attracted to. He is aware the she isn't the standard of beauty.
Due to this he is refusing to listen to Mario.
Now that we understand this we can continue with the episode breakdown.
After Betty leaves, Armando is upset because Nicolas is the General Manager of Terra Moda(it feeds his paranoia talked about in the Betty, My Betty Part 3 post) .
Once again Armando and Mario switch roles. Armando is now aware of his conscious desires and he's sticking by them. Mario however is aware of Armando's subconscious desires.
Mario tries to level with him. He tells him that they can tell Betty to fire him but Armando rejects that by telling him that he does a good job and that Betty says he's important for Terra Moda, therefore Eco Moda, again this shows that Armando doesn't distrust of them in a professional sense. So they both agree that they shouldn't tell Betty to fire him. Mario first suggested that they reverse the seizure against Eco Moda and Armando goes on to reject that and explain why they can't do that. So Mario tells Armando that they need to think of something because it is a business deal involving them three; Armando, Himself, and Betty.
They agree that asking Betty to fire or take away so much responsibility from Nic could give way to Betty becoming hostile and resentful. Mario tells him that it would also be unfair since she's always been so unconditional with the both, Armando agrees.
We get to divides here. Two sides of the nickel.
Mario's priority and main concern is keeping Eco Moda and Armando as president for what it gives him.
Armando's priority is Betty's love life(Why else would he be so worried about her love life? A normal boss wouldn't care about your love life. Armando knows that Betty is a good and trustworthy employee and he said so himself).
Mario as always watched Armando carefully. The third and best option would have been to simply talk to Betty and be professionals and leave things alone and not doing anything about Betty's love life.
Mario tells Armando "Well the best option is to make Betty fall in love with you."
Armando goes on to say that he would never do that because he doesn't have the desire to and doesn't want to because Betty is ugly(this is why I said what I did above). Mario stops using the fear of losing Eco Moda and goes for the emotional because he knows that it will affect Armando's subconscious that will dominate him like it had been all day long.
"You're the perfect candidate because if it weren't for Nicolas showing up, I could have sworn she was in love with you. No, seriously, look at the way she looks at you, she's always been unconditional with you(he knows this is one of the qualities that Armando likes about Betty as he always lists it). My friend, if there's anyone that is capable of fighting against Nicolas Mora, it's the president of Eco Moda(here he is appealing to Armando's ego)."
What does Mario get out of all of this? Reputation in tact which allows him to continue living his best single life, which he said himself is his most prized possession. So it is important to him that Armando does whatever it takes to keep Betty from doing anything to get a husband(post Betty, My Betty! Part 3).
Fast forward Armando is in Marcela's apartment after the new collection launch and they're fighting because Armando let Betty into the event.
He not only defends his decision of inviting her as his guest but Betty's job and her role in the new collection. Marcela scoffs and they continue to argue.
What captured my attention though is that Armando tells Marcela that she can't be in a competing so absurd with a woman like Betty and shouldn't be in a feminine competition with her.
Armando is now go to the otherside of the room so we get his back as Marcela starts to speak ("You're wrong Armando I don't view her as a woman")and as she says "I am offended that you would think I feel she's a feminine competition-" Armando now looks at her confused.
Either he is confused because he doesn't understand what Marcela is trying to say or once again his subconscious is dominating him here.
The takeaway is that in Armando's mind Betty is a woman, ugly, but a woman nonetheless. He is confused as to why Marcela doesn't view her as a woman but still behaves the way she does.
We again get a classic scene of Betty writing in her diary as we hear her dialogue and get scenes of Armando in Marcela's bed.
We see Armando thinking about what Mario told him earlier that night.
When Mario told him that he would've sworm that Betty was in love with him[Armando] in that scene we didn't really get a reaction from him. He had a poke face but here, as he is thinking about it all he has a different look.
We stop getting a visual flashback, only an auditory one after Mario told him "I could've sworn she was in love with you." and the frame we're getting is Armando's face while laying in bed. He seems hopeful. The exact same expression he had when Betty told him that she didn't have anything with Nicolas.
We hear Mario's voice when he told him "If there's anyone who can fight Nicolas for Betty's love, it's the president of Eco Moda." Armando shifts in bed and covers his face. We then fade to Betty asleep on her bed and get another fade to Armando, this allows us to know that they are about to have another shared dream.
Armando is the mvp of this dream ss the camera focuses on him right away.
He seems happy in this dream as he runs around with Betty in a field with bright green grass and trees. He continues turns to look at Betty or allows Betty to lead him. Then in the dream Betty disappears and Armando is left alone, searching around him with a scared expression on his face until Betty finally appears in front of him. She nears him with her lips slightly puckered and Armando smiles and as well moves in closer until Betty runs away from him again.
The dreams shows us this two more times where Betty runs from him until the final time when Armando finds her and they near for a kiss we then get a real world Armando in bed shaking his head mumbling no, we can assume they are kissing in the dream.
This foretells what is to come. In Betty's eyes this is a good dream but we also know that due to her past Betty is afraid to love again which we're told this by her constant running away from Armando in the dream.
Armando's fear is brought to light in this dream that is of him losing Betty as it reoccurs more than once and each time he goes out to find her. There is times when he does want to kiss her but Betty pulls away and runs and then on the final one he becomes conscious in his dream(yes that happens, it's called lucid dreaming and sometimes it randomly happens).
The fact we kept getting fades from both Armando and Betty sleeping lets us know this was a dream simontainsly happening at the same time and it isn't until after they actually kiss that Armando's conscious starts to wake him up.
Marcela then finishes waking him up in the real world and asks Armando what he was dreaming, he tells her a horrible nightmare.
Again, Armando is aware that he doesn't find Betty to be his ideal perfect woman or the beauty standard. You know, she's "ugly" so having something physical even in a dream is a nightmare to him. The thing to take note of is that he was enjoying the beginning of that dream and it demonstrates his subconscious feelings.
We already Betty loved that dream.
The next morning Marcela mentions that if he doesn't talk about the dream he must secretly want it to come true.
His coping mechanism towards this entire situation has been denial. It protects him from having to face his true feelings and fears. It protects him from something he isn't ready to deal with yet.
He starts choking on his juice and coughing as Marcela watches him.
Marcela telling him this pushes him to face those fears of his, the fear that he does like Betty and that he does care about her more than just his employee however again, he is in denial therefore unable to understand this.
[You know I will write a post about how Aura Maria and Freddy are a parallel of Betty and Armando.]
Neither Betty or Armando talk about their dream to anyone, or at least the real content of said dream, which based on what Marcela insinuated, Armando secretly wants that dream to come true.
This is a fact because later on when Armando has that nightmare of Betty making out with Nicolas inside the new car they got, he tells Marcela about the nightmare or at least some distorted version of it, because he doesn't want that nightmare to come true. This time though he doesn't talk about it.
Betty clarifies the situation between Nicola and her roll in Terra Moda and Armando thanks her for it.
When she goes into her office Armando tells Mario that he's right about making Betty fall in love.
This next scene I already broke down in another post. Armando suggest Mario for the job because he knows that Mario would never fall in love with Betty but at least it would secure the company. However since Mario would never fall in love with Betty that would mean that he wouldn't have competition since you know these two pigs share everything.
Not only that but it would mean that he gets to avoid and deny his feelings without the worry of Nicolas and Betty ending up together and Nicolas turning her against him.
Armando tells Mario that he gets that it's the more logical thing that he[Armando] is the one to make Betty fall in love but that it's not morally correct.
He gets angry as he tells him that he can't do that to her, a woman who has been very special to him, too special towards him. Again this shows that Armando takes notice and likes that Betty treats him the way she does and because of that he doesn't want to hurt her and he knows that she doesn't deserve that.
However Mario then pulls the "your parents will be so disappointed and angry at you if you lose the company. So do you have to decide whether you'll be a rat to your parents or Betty."
As they discuss the sinister plan they solely based the problem in the physicality. As Armando even said himself the only bad thing about the plan was that Betty was ugly. If Betty wasn't ugly Armando wouldn't be afraid to face his feelings therefore be upfront about them.
However because she is it clashes with all his other traits. His ego, vanity, obsession with perfection and the fact he was unable to be in control over who he ends up falling in love with or liking.
I don't know what worse, Armando knowing how selfish the plan is against Betty and still going along with the it for the sake of the company and his unwillingness to admit to his parents that he was wrong or Mario knowing exactly what's going and how to manipulate Armando to do this and not caring about his best friends feelings and the guilt he will carry on as long as Armando remains president for his own greed.
In the next post I will breakdown the scene in which Armando drunkenly confesses somewhat his very confused feelings.
'Til next time :)
Ps. Sorry for all this typos! I'm an insomniac so I usually write these sleep deprived lol.
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Hi, I just wanted to say that I adore your salt marathons! It's such a shame to me that the show could have been improved so much if they didn't create convoluted ways to have Rapunzel inserted into storylines that she didn't really fit into, or solving problems that she wouldn't really know how to deal with (even in the book as you recently mentioned where she was somehow teaching Cassandra to swim??) Unfortunately, I think this sort of 'main character must be perfect and able to solve everything/be a part of every situation' ideology is becoming a lot more common in modern cartoons (Ultimate Spiderman, Miraculous Ladybug etc). I was just wondering if you had anymore ideas besides what you have mentioned already in the salt marathons about how they could have balanced characters better, or even wny this sort of thing seems to be beckming more common? (Sorry for the long ask, and thank you for providing fair critiques of the show 😅)
Thank you.
I don't know about becoming more common as this is a problem that you can see spring from way, way back in folk lore like the American tall tales... Pecos Bill, Paul Bunyan, and the like. Which bled into American comic books, ect.
You can even see the problem arise in certain anime, were the favored protagonist overshadows everyone else.
People see heroes as a power fantasy. So the hero can't have flaws or do anything wrong.
Now in a short subject, like the Superman shorts from the 1940s, or a medium where there are few characters, like Bugs Bunny's solo cartoons. Having the protagonist always win and take center stage isn't a huge problem.
But when you get into longer story arcs, with more subplots, and large ensemble casts, you can't make the lead 'perfect' and always right, without risking thier relatability or derailing your story.
Wonder Over Yonder pulls it off, but only because it allows the characters to get annoyed by the main protagonist and even he isn't always right all the time and can make mistakes, even if it's rare.
It takes a lot of self awareness to pull off that type of story.
Now good ways to balance characters and story is to ask yourself, 'who needs what?'
What does Rapunzel need? She needs to grow up. She can't do that if she's not allowed to learn. She can't admit she screwed up if the people that she wrong can't call her out for it.
Rapunzel isn't just hogging the limelight here, she's failing to serve her role in the narrative. That's why she feels superfluous in her own damn show.
So story wise, the audience needed to see consequences for Rapunzel's actions and have the character acknowledge why those consequences are happening, and then alter their behavior as need be.
And while Rapunzel suffers the most from not getting what she needs out the narrative, the writers underserved all of the characters in similar ways.
Rather than asking what the character needs/wants they forced the characters to do stupid shit for the sake of plot and everything just falls apart.
Cassandra did not need to steal the moonstone. There was no reason for it, the writers never provided one, so her arc flies off the rails.
Varian needed justice and a reason to trust people again. He never gets that closure so his presence in season three feels unsatisfying.
Eugene needs to become comfortable with who he is. But is never allowed the agency to do so, so his identity crisis is left unresolved.
I'm sure there's more examples here, but you get the idea.
So when writing, ask yourself, what does the character need? What do they want? Why can't they get either? What's the conflict? How do you resolve the conflict in order to provide what they need, which may or may not be what they wanted?
You answer those questions first and you then have your story. Plot always follows character. It stems from characters making choices. Characters need reasons to make the choices that they do.
If you try to work backwards and have the characters just do things for the sake of the plot and you'll wind up with the mess that is Tangled the Series.
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