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#will never forget my first home
wvterways · 2 years
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“i used to live there” is such a sad phrase. seeing places u used to live in is an odd thing. It’s like ‘i know where the best hiding place is in there. my bedroom was the one directly to the left as you walk in. i took my first steps on that flooring. i used to play in that yard with my grandma. she died two years ago. that was the only place i ever knew. those walls contain all of my childhood memories. i can no longer go there, but i know every corner like the back of my hand.’
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forest-rot · 1 month
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Dew who undergoes his transition and simply refuses to go near the water at all. The one thing he's always loved, and now he can't even bear to look at it. It feels too devastating to even think about.
He knows if he steps foot into a body of water he's never coming out again.
Even though he's a fire ghoul now, he can still feel that pull. Looks at the water longingly from the tour bus windows. Dreads the beach days that are so few and far between.
But he wants and he wants and he wants. So desperately. To feel the waves on his skin. Can feel the pull from Aphrodite even still.
It's been years. He's doing okay now. He accepts his transition for what it is, welcomes it above all else. Knows he's so far from where he was then. He's okay.
And so, hand in hand with Rain, he steps into the ocean again.
Lets his laughter bubble up like seafoam. Lets the water rush up and take over him. It's like a mothers love. It's like coming home again.
And if anyone sees the salt of his tears mix with the salt of the ocean, know that it's only from the joy of returning to what he loves.
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front-facing-pokemon · 9 months
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#bonus under the cut getting that snout facing right at the camera#camerupt#early 2000s animation cow‚ apparently. that's what someone just said about the bonus image. i honestly never understood this thing's name#i always thought it was pretty obviously a cow. but then its name implies camel. camel erupt. camerupt. is there a specific kind of#camel that just looks like a cow?? or. what. or am i just misremembering what camels look like#either way‚ i still think this pokémon is pretty cool‚ but i don't really use it ever in my own playthroughs. i don't think i *ever* have#not even in pokémon colosseum where i'm pretty sure you can get a shadow numel at some point. bc i already had a fire-type#not sure which one it was but it was definitely one of them. maybe cyndaquil? because of the dudes with the johto starters#that you fight near the beginning in pppp uuuhhh the PHENAC city i couldn't remember the name. for a second there.#i wasn't aware as a kid that their outfits corresponded to the type of the starter they had and also that you could only fight one of them#i think as a kid i was under the impression that there was only the one. for some reason i remember fighting the green one#oh wait they have the second-evos yeah. cuz he had bayleef. and the red one would've had quilava. not cyndaquil#ugh my memory is not very good evidently. i'm writing these tags after work. normally i do them right when i wake up but this time i just#do not have an excuse for not being able to remember shit. this is just on me. maybe it's amplified by the fact that i have yet to eat today#which i have a very bad habit of doing. forgetting to eat all day and not eating until like 5 and then that being my only meal for the day#i'm trynna get better about it but it is Not easy for some reason. for something that should be decidedly very simple#but my brain doesn't often let me eat until i've completed all of my silly little Tasks. so. idk. this will however post the day after i've#arrived back home from my trip which is nice. the first time future me will be sleeping in her own bed again. good luck again future me#you might need it
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rsenak · 2 years
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back from vacation so time to speedrun art before september
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goldkirk · 1 year
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being the youngest person on my team by like 10 years sometimes is REALLY obvious because everyone is talking about home construction and high school kid sports and stuff and my weekly update is “I got a Razor scooter and some new glitter paint”
#sometimes they totally forget I’m this young bc we’re never on video and I’m not volunteering a lot of personal updates bc of reasons#but when I do it’s really funny bc I’m like#‘I learned how to make stir fry today’#‘I beat a raid in this video game i play’#‘I got a razor scooter’#‘the dog now fetches the cat toys so I don’t have to bend down and pick them up’#‘I tried mangos for the first time’#‘yesterday I learned what ferries are like’#‘this weekend I took photographs of local moss’#and everyone else is like ‘my daughter is home from college’ ‘I have my first grandchild’ ‘the hurricane blew away the port a potty from our#house construction site’ etc etc#personal#someday I’m going to be fully dressed in an actual outfit and do a little makeup and then be on our weekly long team meeting and everyone’s#going to be like YOU’RE Katherine???? You’re what Katherine looks like? you have pink hair and you’re like 17????#and I’m going to be like well I mean I’m not THAT young but yes I do wear like. young person clothes#I get ’you’re so optimistic!’ from some of them on a regular basis and I’m like#well you see I learned that if I’m not optimistic I will die#and also the world is REALLY FUCKING COOL when you’re not terrified of the world all the time#so frankly I think I’m right to be#I think you maybe need juice and a rest and a bigger support system and then maybe you’ll feel a lot better#meanwhile I’ll be a cheerleader hard enough for both of us
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howlinghound11 · 11 months
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It's the boy!!!
He's just so funny to me, i love him <3 the silly little guy who's taken over everybody's heart @:)
Character belongs to the wonderful @/partycoffin ofc
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hecksupremechips · 9 days
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Honestly though I think it’s really a bad sign when I look at Shin Tsukimi and literally feel like he’s a self insert 😩
#the klock keeps ticking#yttd#i wanna replay yttd so bad but i also like Gotta play other stuff with the time i have akskks#but yeah the brainrot this specific character has given me idk if I ever really talked about it but it was BAD#i like obsessively played the game in like 3 days and it was not a good idea lol but just like shin#i had to take like a week to recover from this guy cuz i couldnt stop thinking about him and how hes just like me fr#first off just the very inconsistent personality hes got going on that is very me he has these different personalities he wears to cope with#all the traumatic shit happening hes both so helpless its comical and so manipulative its terrifying#and idk its really interesting how like good and bad he is at being manipulative like hes very smart and can analyze weaknesses and lie so#good not even he knows the truth but hes also grasping at straws he doesnt think things through at all#like the second main game he just didnt prepare at all hes fumbling his way through everything its going so bad#he just wants to go home he wants to outdo the game makers but hes being used by them so bad he wants it to STOP#and its just the way that like. it hits so hard cuz you know hes really not a bad person not at all he doesnt want any of this hes just#being horribly manipulated and doing whatever he can to survive but its also really scary how#well hes able to lie and manipulate and claw his way through but hes also weaker than a grade schooler#and you never forget that either and as much as he cheated his way through he still failed it was all just a cheap trick in the end#and all of this hits very hard like his personality is eerily similar to mine and just the way he thinks and acts#cuz im the same like im weak and a dweeb who likes funny cats but im also emotionally detached and observant and selfish#but where it hits the hardest is his relationship with midori like oooof that one was too real just like#the first person who was ever his friend was horribly abusive and treated him like a child and didnt respect any boundaries#and he just got sick pleasure out of seeing shin be upset and he was like. a groomer#and shin was fucking relieved when he died but also kept his scarf and adopted his personality to survive#and still goes by sou after ch2 and the scene that gets me the most is when shin ai is asked about his relationship with midori#and you can just SEE how horrified shin is because his deepest shame his abuse is being shared to everyone without his consent#and hes reliving it all in that moment and literally seeing who he used to be experiencing the abuse#he just curls into himself and like covers his ears and pulls his hair thats literally what i do AAAAAA#im just so grateful for the direction they took this character kokichi ouma wishes he was shin tsukimi so bad#and yeah just like damn. its scary how similar i am to shin like damn i really am going through it huh oof#I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I WILL DEFEND HIM WITH MY LIFE HE DID ALL OF THAT STUFF YOUR HONOR BUT LISTENNNN#have you considered that hes cute and smart and weird and maybe just needs friends who arent assholes
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ai-higurashi · 1 year
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Happy Monopoly Mermaid Monday, have something that's almost a year old but I still love.
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bitches be like "wish i was doing something of worth for society/my local community" while doing three time-intensive community jobs unpaid and walking around as a living leftist/queer symbol and occasionally leaving behind leftist stickers
it's me i'm bitches
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lochley · 20 days
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obvs i think lyta and g'kar just end up flying around the universe together 5ever but i used to think that like... lyta faked her death etc. and established a colony for teeps. and that was her nice little endgame.
but even in that sort of setting i had this idea of her off in her own little cottage away from everyone else because even around other telepaths, around telepaths who owe their rights to her, she'll still never be one of them because of the uniqueness of everything she's been through.
in hindsight, all telepaths are products of the vorlons so it would be weird for people to have TOO much of a problem with her because of that... but it is still a bit different, and not something i think most would have an easy time accepting about themselves either. even for telepaths with more unique stories of being experimented on by other telepaths and so on, it's still... different.
but idk i think the idea was that even if they do accept her or are grateful to her etc, even if they do form a little no-blocks-allowed hivemind commune vorlon-style where she is a LITERAL part of the community... she wouldn't feel like one of them. on a social hierarchy level, she's a leader with different responsibilities. on a physical level, she's closer to the vorlons than she is to being human. and even on a mindscape level, she is so different from the rest of them in ways that sort of hivemind situation would only make easier to see (though i guess, to an extent, people can understand her better through it?)
i guess that's my issue with her being left to fight the teep war tbh. i don't think it's something she ever would have gotten wrapped up in to that extent in her own because it really doesn't concern her. she's her own thing at this point, and while i absolutely believe she would've helped... and while i think for a bit, it felt like she was finally CHOOSING to be a weapon in a fight she actually felt would benefit her... it still wasn't really for her.
that's not to say this is at all how it would really go. i'm just digging back into some old ideas and those ideas did lean toward very depressing, so maybe things could've been happier if this did play out for her.
i just do still love the whole unique hybrid-y experience she's got going on and i think that's another reason i really adore her getting to go off with g'kar, because he's been deified as much as someone from her generation of the universe can be without becoming part-vorlon (and he's had his vorlon experiences too). and she's basically part-vorlon. he can never go back to his old life, he can never be normal, he can never exist with other narns. and she can never exist with other humans or telepaths or mundanes so why not make a home with each other.
it's wild bc there are so many Unique characters at this point, like delenn also having a hybrid and vorlon experience, and things working out so much better for her, but i feel like i've talked lyta's thoughts on delenn to death.
it's just something i rly am obsessed with, the idea of walking between two different worlds and never quite being at home in either one so having to carve out your own. it's not that people who are at home in one world can't then be part of it with you, because honestly the biggest factor in not fitting into a singular world is when the people don't accept you in them. for lyta, humans are weirded out by the vorlon thing and the vorlons are gone. so anyone who does love her for Her, esp in such a diverse universe, is going to feel like home. it just helps to have people who are riding their own wave of Can't Go Home who get it i guess.
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h-f-k · 1 month
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i don't think i'll ever experience the level of happiness i felt when taylor started playing the very first night on the guitar in buenos aires.
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kimjiwoong · 8 months
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I went on a random walk around my neighbourhood and I realized a few minutes in that I was accidentally taking the route I always took with my dog and now I'm literally heartbroken all over again lmao
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heybaetae · 10 months
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#i’m so devastated for such. selfish reasons#i looked forward to celebrating festa with everyone so much#but instead i’m grieving a sibling and it feels wrong to engage with anything#even though i know it’s okay to do so if i want to#it’d definitely help take my mind off things i guess#but it’s kinda like that thing of ‘how/why would you be celebrating a boybands anniversary when your sister has just died’#and that’s what holds me back#i’ll never get this day back but i’ll also never get my sister back either so it’s just like ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#i think i’m in the anger phase first#at the universe for timing it this way#for letting such a shitty thing happen right before a day i was supposed to be really happy and festive#i appreciate the messages some of you have sent me#trust me they’ve been helpful#also maybe this is corny to mention but i really do believe bts shows up for me exactly when i need them most#and yesterday while i was at home waiting for confirmation of my sister passing is when jungkook went live on weverse#when that notif popped up i was also laying in bed and i felt so comforted by his presence in that moment#it was like he was just Being there for me even tho he was just trying to go to sleep#but he provided me with a distraction even if it was just briefly and i’m never gonna forget that#he was like an angel to me in that moment and he didn’t even know#he just wanted company and he has no idea how much i needed him in that moment#i’d never felt lonelier or out of the loop while than during those hours and him going live for a bit felt like i was being looked after#the official time they called her death was about 15 or so minutes after his live turned was off#so i just appreciate being distracted during the time leading up to then#maybe that’s all super silly and parasocial but god! can anyone blame me#i’m just seeking comfort anyway i can at this point and bts always always always delivers#that’s why i’m so sad to be missing out on so much today#anyway this is way too long and i am just waiting for that performance to come out#i miss them and i miss everyone
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wander-over-the-words · 9 months
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I just played BioShock 2 for the first time in nearly a year and I cannot BELIEVE how fucking rusty I was ngrngnrgn
DELTA I'M SO SORRY FOR HOW MUCH YOU GOT HURT
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itsukicoded · 3 months
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#🤸🏽‍♂️#i forget that i always hate the holidays! hahahaa#idk i do just kind of wish i had stayed home again this year like usual rather than coming here i miss my cat it’s my first christmas away#from her and my sister already had plans and didn’t tell me and now im making things difficult bc i didn’t want to go with her#but i don’t wanna play house with someone else’s family anymore im sick of people and im sick of how flippant ppl are when it comes to#trust and connections and the idea of family and i don’t have it in me anymore to yuck it up with randos and act like im okay with it#maybe i take everything way to seriously…i just idk im tired though im tired of playing cute and being sweet to ppl i don’t know pretending#that every single person i meet is important to me i am just not friendly im not friendly and i don’t care atp it doesn’t even matter how i#used to be if this is like just who i always was i don’t care and i don’t care if it’s toxic or negative coping skill from trauma or#whatever the fuck im tired and im sick of playing house with ppl i don’t know the people who are important to someone else don’t have to be#important to me TT_TT and like no one is saying that or anything#but i feel a little disappointed knowing that it wasn’t our christmas but theirs and it’s always their Christmas so it doesn’t matter but if#she had told me she had other plans i would’ve stayed home and not come at all#and watched coryxkenshin christmas horror play throughs like always haha#but it just makes me feel defective im the only one who doesn’t spend christmas with someone i do it on purpose i just don’t have anyone i#want to spend it with? so why is it something so sad to prefer loneliness to clinging to things tht don’t work? when i had been doing that#for so long clinging to ghosts in sheets there was never a person really there but why me compared to everyone else why do i still keep#feeling like an outlier?#i could watch naruto on my own couch at home#whatever#deleting
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jctaro · 1 year
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this is how i look exactly when i see/hear my tanji :(
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