love has no desire but to fulfill itself; find love in yourself and it will open your eyes to find it around you.
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If being a people pleaser worked, people would be pleased with you by now.
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your writing is so amazing? like, it's the type of writing that should be on novel instead of tumblr 😭 i feel like you read a lot based on your writing style 🤭 have a nice day ~
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Oh, lovely Anon, you have me tearing up at 6 in the morning 😭
So, I do read a lot! I’m a huge book consumer, always have been. Last year I read 263 books 😅 it’s always been my dream to publish my own as well. It’s possible (100% so) that I’ve been working on a manuscript for the last year or so now. So, maybe one day that will become a reality 🤞🏻
It’s so interesting and flattering, honestly, that you can make the reading and writing connection with me 🥲 it’s always my goal to write the way I want to read, so knowing that may come off as evident in my work means so much to hear.
Truly and genuinely, thank you so much for these words. This is the first time I’ve had someone pop into my asks like this since I started this blog 3 months ago and it makes me feel a little more welcomed and at home here in this little bubble of the fanfic world.
please stay happy and healthy, you beautiful soul 💜
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so, we know that abuse and victim responses to abuse are very central to aftg, but what i find interesting is how other characters respond to the victim’s reactions, especially when it comes to mourning their abuser. there’s something about kevin mourning riko, aaron mourning tilda, neil mourning mary, andrew mourning cass, thats so important to me because it really truly highlights how even when people are united through similar traumas, the differences in their situations makes it impossible to fully understand the relationship a person has to their abuser. neil, aaron, and andrew are united through the abuse, neglect, or - what the fuck is the word i’m thinking of? permit? condone? i mean, knowingly allowing it to happen and not intervening - stemming from a maternal figure. but neil can’t understand why andrew would hold on to cass for so long - he refused to let her go until aaron came into the picture. and andrew can’t understand why aaron would mourn for tilda, potentially viewing aaron’s grief as a betrayal of their promise. and they all ridicule kevin for his reactions to riko. of course, neil and andrew are also abused by riko, but they still can’t understand the complicated relationship between kevin and riko because, at the end of the day, they just weren’t there.
i mean this is primarily an observation but i really love how trauma and trauma response is depicted as nuanced, complex and overall just difficult to understand from an outsider perspective in the books. it reads as really real, and though it can be frustrating when a character doesn’t understand a different character’s response, you have to understand that their perception of said character’s response is warped by their own experience of abuse.
andrew bounced from home to home, never had stability, so obviously he held tight on to the first mother-figure that didn’t outright hurt him. his self-worth was probably low enough that he thought living with drake was a fine price to pay to keep cass.
neil only ever had his mother, and he’d willingly accept her harsh hands because he believed she was just keeping him safe from the very real dangers that were closing in on them.
aaron was dealing with an addiction, and so was his mother; he was equally dependent on her to avoid withdrawal as he was scared of her anger.
i don’t really have a point anymore but you get what i’m saying
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incase someone haven’t told you this lately <3 i’m proud of you for getting out of bed today even if you had to drag your body off it. i’m proud of you for speaking even if you had to clear your throat before doing it. i’m proud of you for making it home safely. i’m proud of you for lying on your bed and allowing yourself to rest before you have to do the things you’re scared of tomorrow. i’m proud of you for existing and for trying to live. 🫂
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“Sometimes, the most adult thing you can do is ask for help when you need it.”
— Rupert Giles, Buffy The Vampire Slayer
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sometimes people who struggle like to make jokes or find positives about their condition that causes them to struggle so they can escape the constant negative and struggle. sometimes autistic people will say things like "the 'tism" or use the "autism creature" or say their autism helped them have a *positive trait* to feel better about their struggles. because living your life only focusing on the struggles and negatives is depressing and makes it hard to want to live, even if those struggle take up 100% of your life and you can't actually escape them. sometimes any little seemingly positive thing can help a lot.
but there's so many other autistic people that hate when we do that and call it "reducing autism to a cute trendy thing" and say it takes away from *their* struggles and is bad and shouldn't be used. maybe *you* want to only focus on your struggles, but some people can't live in constant negative and need some positive or to find ways to make their condition more positive so they can feel better about living with their struggles. life is hard. I take anything I can get.
I cant get jobs. I can't make and keep friends. I can't get help and support for doing "normal" things so sometimes I go weeks without being able to shower and without eating more than a bowl of cereal a day. most times can't even do things I like. struggle to communicate. have meltdowns. i'll never be able to live independently. I struggle a lot. but instead of sitting here always depressed and having no motivation to live, i'd rather try to joke about "my 'tism is acting up again" when i'm struggling (just an example. don't think I ever actually used the 'tism thing but i saw others use it) or say "i'm just being a creature" when I need to stay in my dark room because everything is too much and I personally find it cute to be a little creature meant in a positive way. i'm not actually downplaying mine or anyone else's struggles. I still acknowledge them and that silly jokes dont make them go away. i'm not trying to be trendy. i'm not doing any of the things people say we do by making silly little jokes. i'm using the silly little jokes to convince myself life can be a little more than pointless, painful garbage all the time.
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I HAVE BEEN FIGHTING THIS FUCKING YELLOW WIND SAGE FOR 3 GOD DAMN DAYS!!
THIS FUCIKNG FOSSIL WILL NOT STAY IN THE GROUND, I GOT ONE COMBO AWAY FROM KILLING HIM AND HE SUDDENLY TAKES HALF OF MY HEALTH? ARE YOU SO FR?! THE DAY HE DIES IS THE DAY THE WORLD STARTS HEALING!
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Killing for the Prosecution (2018)
Kimura Takuya as Mogami Takeshi
Ninomiya Kazunari as Okino Keiichiro
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Aughhhh I love you stories about life and humanity and learning to survive despite everything I love you (killing and dying and maiming and seething)
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