#wtf freaking subscriptions!!

[cirillafionaelenriannon]

me when I only had 46 dollars in my account until spotify charged me 12 dollars and then discord charged me 9 dollars then paramount 9 dollars and then I remembered I got locked out of my Amazon account and they're going to charge me 22 dollars for a subscription I can't cancel and I don't even have the money for it

[iamcatmansblog]

Every episode of lovely runner I start with all HEART BUBBLING UP MY CHEST, BLUSHING, SQEALING, DYING thinking this must be what I am alive for in this world, constantly saying " I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE THEY ARE SO FREAKING CUTE AAAAAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA"

and I finish every episode with wow well I am scared to death, starting this drama while it's ongoing would definitely be the thing which ends my subscription from mother earth, why do the directors hate my AND MY PRECIOUS LIL POOKIE LOML SUN JAE'S happiness so much, I NEED TO PROTECT MY BABIES WTF and I think someone should k*ll me because this torture is excruciating, and constantly saying "I CAN'T TAKE THIS ANYMORE GIVE MY BABIES HAPPINESS OR JUST END ME"

[m3r1m4r5u333]

A quick tale of what it's been like, to be me, a queer, european fan of the tv-series 9-1-1!! Alternatively, "How to create a monster!"

I go on the internet, randomly hear about the show and it's queerness, immediately become interested because yay, that sounds super queer! Obviously the perfect show for me!

Of course I want to watch! I am basically target audience!! How can I watch,

take my money!!

So.. I try to find an easy, legal way to watch the show as soon as the episodes air!

... I find out that I can't.

I think ✨wtf✨

I keep searching for a way. Whoever the fuck makes these deals about how, where, and when to broadcast the show is like:

How about ✨no✨

You're not from the US so... Who cares about your money! Not us! You're european, that's only like an entire continent of potential viewers, why would we care about you?

Me: I know I'm not from the US but pleaaase I'd really, really like to watch this show!

As it airs, legally!!

See, I HAVE THE MONEY, I AM LITERALLY WILLING TO PAY FOR THIS!! You guys like money, right?!

Just please, please, give me a legal way to watch this show, as it airs!

Them:

Me: WHY?! C'mon, we live in modern times, why can't I watch this show sooner?

JUST GIMME THE SHOW,

TAKE MY PINK FUCKING MONEY!!!

I am your target audience, this show is super queer!

Them:

And so the years pass...

Then the series moves from Fox to ABC!!!

I feel a glimpse of ✨HOPE✨ Maybe... finally I can subscribe and watch the episodes legally, AS THEY AIR,

YOU KNOW,

LIKE SOMEONE FROM THE MODERN ERA, WITH AN INTERNET CONNECTION!!!

I try to find out if I can.

ABC: It's on Apple tv! 🤪

Me: What... even is Apple tv?! And what do you mean it's on Apple tv, I don't own an Apple device, I don't even own a freaking TELEVISION! How does that work?

Them:

Me: And are you even sure the show is really available to the Europeans?! I can't find it in my region. When is it available?

Them: Ooh, a squirrel! Nice talking to you, bye!

Me: Please, don't do this again, it would be so much easier and better for us both if I could just watch the show, as it airs, legally, and once again, I'm actually willing to ✨pay✨ for this option, I'd even pay you happily, as I genuinely want to support this content!

See, you get this money: 💸,

I get to watch: 👁️👁️. Win-win?

Them: Hmmph. Fine. European fans can watch it on Disney+👌

Me: Well is it available in my country though? When?

So... I go on my local Disney+ website. For some bizarre reason btw, it's not even in my country's most spoken language - No, the website is in swedish - which is the first language of only about 5% of my fellow finns. (We do learn swedish at school, but only for a couple of years nowadays, for most of us english is the stronger second language. English starts in 1st/2nd/3rd grade, swedish in like... 7th. So. I studied swedish yes, do I understand it? No.)

To my relief I notice there's an option to browse in english, I switch to english. The website is useless, Disney+ just vaguely promises lots of great content.

Me: WHAT content? When?

Disney+:

The information I find online is so poor that I finally turn to my fellow countrymen, and pester my friends to find out if there's someone with a Disney+ subscription who could tell me if the Disney+ in our region even broadcasts the show. A friend tells me yes, it does!

Does it release the episodes as they air? No. When will they air? Who knows! (As of today it only has season 6!)

Me: *screaming in frustration* Why won't anyone take my money!!!

The Show, probably:

Me: WHAT MESSAGE?

djdjdbnfnf What even is this show's and network's motto; be gay, do crime?!

Them:

Me: Why is there no option to watch this show legally as it airs! I am a fan, I am not immortal and endlessly patient!!!

Them:

Me: For fuck's sake I'm not twiddling my thumbs and growing a beard as I wait for an episode to drop in my region some random year in the future. I'll just find another (probably illegal) way to watch.

Anyway! I guess the only way I have to support the show right now is to honk about it like a demented goose, to let my freak flag fly to get it free promo.

Anyone actually stumbling on my tumblr, probably: *is very alarmed by the demented goose, backs off slowly*

The show: Yeah anyway, look, another Top Gun reference, how fun!

Me: Yes... I know the movie. I know how to tag myself here. I am Goose.

Some of the fans displeased with me, a bisexual, for not shipping Buck & Tommy:

You're not a real fan! And you are doing bisexuality wrong!

Me:

[hughungrybear]

Me while watching Cherry Magic Thailand Ep. 10:

Viu suddenly making this series only available in their Premium is sneaky, sneaky, sneaky. Fortunately, it only costs $6.37 (AUD) for the monthly subscription. If it costs more than that, I would be forced to go pirate 😂😂😂

I still maintain that Achi and Jinta are the cutest besties and cinnamons in love (so far, in 2024 😅). Also curious if the kiss means Achi is not a virgin anymore (I am still confused as to how these all works lol).

1. Karan is so ready for any excuse to come and see Achi 😭😭 It is so sweet and so effing expected 😅😅😅 Pretty sure he is kicking himself for suggesting it in the first place. Also why are you PatPran-fistbumping??? 😅

2. Jinta and Karan has that in common - they cannot really last without seeing their beloved's face in 3D lolololol 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

3. What's with Jinta's pants? 😅 It's so loose, it almost looks like a skirt. Also, Jinta trying so hard not to be jealous of Min's friend is so freaking adorable (and goddamned relatable 😅😅😅).

4. Ah, my SingJan heart. If only Pai (Jan) is not that dense lol

5. Y'know, I think I said this before, but Big Boss is kinda inefficient in his position. 😐 First, he sets an unrealistic (sales) expectations on Karan then let Karan's sexual harassment (by a customer) go on for so long before he intervenes. Now, he lets Achi know that he would need to go to the new branch earlier than expected, Achi's personal plans be damned. I mean, it's clear that planning and managing are not Big Boss's strongest suits.

6. Watching Min's and Jinta's conversation, who exactly is the one older (more mature) here??? 😂😂😂

7. I just realised that Karan and Achi haven't touched yet so we haven't seen if Achi can still read Karan's mind. <after 5 seconds> Oh, it's intentional for them to have this "questioning of trust" scene.

8. Karan is just 😭😭😭 Gods, why make this man perfect???

9. I still can't believe that Min's team chose the Mama OK! song as their contest piece. It is the least danceable song that I know. Wtf. 😂😂😂. Also, kinda have an inkling that their team will lose the contest. Still, that is so sweet of Jinta to rally Min's fans to help cheer him on.

10. Nosy Auntie for the win! I mean, we already know Karan is definitely parking his ass outside Achi's window every night, but it is good to be confirmed.

11. I never thought seeing Rock and Dudjai manhandling Karan will have me cheering. Trust Pai and the gang to go a bit extra just to keep their ship sailing smoothly lol.

12. Achi has a sweet side too. At least, he is not letting Karan do all the work and exert all effort to keep the romance alive. Also, I thought Pai is dense, but Rock, apparently, is denser 🤣🤣🤣

Oh, Achi can still hear Karan's thoughts. Rock finally goes with the direct approach with Pai. And it looks like there'll be trouble with Achi's new role in the new branch.

With two more episodes to go, I can't wait to see how this will all end. 😭

[minkkumaz]

omg speaking abt exposure.. imagine the bonedo boys/8turn boys accidentally letting ur name slip during a live 🙊

I CAN LITERALLY ENVISION WOONHAK SITTING DOWN WITH LIKE GONGFOURZ, AND HES JUST TELLING THE FANS ABOUT HIS DAY AND HE GOES “oh yeah! yn bought me this jacket, i’m wearing it right now!” AND TAESAN JUST WHIPPING HIS HEAD TOWARDS WOONHAKS DIRECTION SO FAST. leehan slowly turns to him, then back at the tablet with a 🙂.

it’ll be even funnier if woonhak fails to notice and he continues rambling.. i feel like woonhaks the type of guy to treat a live like a family videocall. like he’s so used to calling his sister or his parenrs and just ranting abt you, so he just (accidentally) does it live.

so with YUNGYU i believe he’s the type of guy to normally facetime you whenever he can. like hes eating dinner? yeah he’d call. he just woke up and is about to do some skincare? pick up the phone. sometimes when you’re too tired, he’d just ask yes or no questions. or he’d just talk about his day.

“right omi? this outfit looks good for today?”

“omi! i had some street food with seungheon.. of course yoonsung wanted some so he came along..”

“omiii i miss youuu”

unfortunately, when hes live he also tends to fall back on his habits on facetime. when he’d be spoiling talking about a comeback, he’d be like

“im so excited for you to hear it, omi!”

the staff behind the screen just blankly stare at him and try to direct him to another topic before suspicions arouse. normally, someone would be freaked out they accidentally released their relationship to the public.. but for some reason theres a little grin creeping up on his face.

MINHO would panic, but fortunately jaeyun was on the live with him and said that the person minho mentioned was a distant relative.

“me and yn tried this filter last night..”

“yn is minhos cousin!”

but when the agency allows for the relationship to be public, and minho mentions your name.. fans would be REALLY confused on why hes dating his cousin.. then theres the 15% of the turnings who speculated the name yn was definitely his gf and NOT his cousin. (i love minho sobs)

jisung sneak..

jisung would be on a live while at your apartment, he frequently gets questions like,

“marry me jisung!” or “jisung one chance!!!”

and he’d be blankly reading them out with no reaction. but one day he accidentally goes “i dont think yn would like that..” and the comments go insane asking about who yn is..

“..oh.” he looks up from the live to see his gfs sleeping figure on the other couch. and with a small, warm smile he talks about having the most loveliest girlfriend ever.

to ur surprise, you wake up with many new notifications and a surprising hashtag on twitter.. #YNSUNG

-🍉

SLIP UPS WITH THESE BOYS AAAH!

all of these are so accurate to their personalities i can't melon :,)

woonhak would most definitely have a little rant and the rest of the boys eyes would be twitching HAHA but jaeyun would probably be there like YEAHH THATS MY GIRL I LOVE YN! then the live chat would be like wtf are yall yapping about?

and tell me why when you insert my name for yungyu's i actually exploded into a fit of giggles i smiled so hard >< but yes! i have yungyu's plus chat subscription and he's always talking about the most random things. he love love loves spending time with turnings (in this case reader, aka me >;3) and always apologizes if he doesn't text for a day! so like woonhak, he's definitely a rambler and i could totally see him messing up hehe.

you're so funny for minho's, cause dating his cousin? LMAOOO once the relationship is revealed, i can imagine whiney yoonsung complaining to turnings that his bf cheated on him </3 first with myungho then with reader sighh

I SEE U JISUNG SNEAKK waking up clueless asf to have your phone blowing up is genuinely my worst nightmare cause i'll think i did something wrong HAHA but fans would be very supportive! i can imagine reader not wanting to do a face reveal quite yet, but her arms come in frame to give jisung something THEN FANS MAKE EDITS OF LIKE HER HANDS OR SOMETHING JUST TO BE FUNNY HSJSN

[hoe-for-yukhei]

 BEST FRIEND🌨

HENDERY-READER-LUCAS

Note; I’m not that good at mandarin and korean i’m still studying. Pls forgive me if there’s any grammatical errors or wrong translations,English is not my first language either, please bear with me.

Also yuqi will be mentioned here, she’s kinda bitch in this story so if you don’t like bad yuqi then please skip.

____________________________

What is he doing?

Is he eating?

Does he overwork himself?

Does he miss me?

Those thoughts lingered in your mind since You left to pursue your dream.

You and Lucas are in a Long Distance Relationship.

You in y/c Working Night Shifts in one of the biggest hospitals in your country.

While he’s in Korea and sometimes he travels for World tours and concerts.

You had lost contact with each other so you really can’t help but to worry and miss him.

You were both successful. But something’s missing..

You were a former trainee at SM.You’re close to RED VELVET,NCT,and EXO because you were in their batch and trained with them. 

At first you don’t have any friends.

A foreigner who’s still studying basic Korean language who wants  to be friends with her? You gained acquaintances and small friendships but still don’t have that friend who’s really close, an intimate friend. Until Hendery came into the company,He reminded you of you, Coming from a neighboring country, Doesn’t talk korean,Shy, New, and doesn’t have friends..

You cherished him. You two became best friends. Since he got into training with NCT he started hanging with the other boys which made you proud. You and Hendery counted many years as friends,you discovered new things about each other. One day he invited you to hangout with him and a friend. 

“Oh y/n is here!”

Hendery stood up from where he was sitting.

You didn’t know you guys would be having company.

You dragged Hendery outside the Cafe.

“You didn't tell me about eating with someone, I could have dressed better.”

“What are you saying? You look fine”

“You said It was just the two of us”

“Yeah about that, He was kinda lonely since Mark and others debuted. So I took him with me! You and him will be great friends, he's cool!”

“Alright.”

We walked back to their table. The guy is just sitting there looking at his phone.

“Bàoqiàn ràng nǐ jiǔ děngle wǒmen gāng tánle diǎn shì.”

(Hey, sorry to keep you waiting. We just talked about something.)

“méi shì.” (No worries.)

“Lucas,Tā shì y/n. y/n, Tā shì Lucas.” (Lucas,meet y/n. y/n, meet Lucas)

“y/n? Jiǔyǎng dàmíngle! Hěn gāoxìng jiàn dào nǐ! Hi I am Lucas.” (y/n? I heard so much about you! Nice to meet you!)

He extends his hand to you.

You just stare at his face. You froze at the moment. Because apparently you had never seen such beauty.

Handsome can’t describe Lucas’ he’s a god.

“y/n?”

For the first time you had a crush.

“U-uhm wo-wǒ shì y/n. Wǒ yěshì shíxí shēng. xìnɡ huì, xìnɡ huì” (H-Hi I am y/n. I am a trainee too. Nice to meet you.”

“Woah!junggug-iniseyo?” (Woah are you chinese?)

“A-ani! I’m not. I’m y/r”

You’re stuttering. In front of your crush. And it’s the first time you’re meeting. Bitch First Impressions last. You better keep it cool.

You, Hendery and Lucas hangs out more after that. You got close to him more and more,you found out he’s more than just a pretty face. He's charming, passionate, kind, funny and many more. Lucas can also say he likes hanging out with Hendery more because you always come along. Lucas really likes Hendery and treats him one of his best friends but why does he have a feeling that Lucas is using Hendery as an excuse to see you? And on the other hand you feel the same way too. Whenever Hendery asks you out to hang out you always expect Lucas to be there, and sometimes you’re much more excited about seeing Lucas than the night out instead. Hendery doesn’t feel like that. He feels like a freaking Third wheel. You and Lucas only focus on each other, Whenever he goes out with the both of you he always sees sparks in both of your eyes that mirror Lucas Eyes too. The attraction between Lucas and you can’t be denied. He tried to tease you both about it but you guys always deny it even though it’s obvious. And he’s not happy with that. 

Why?

Cause Hendery likes you.

Since Day 1.

Hendery became busy all of a sudden, you were lonely so Lucas accompanied you in place of Hendery.

Going out with Lucas became a habit, you too built a deep relationship with each other.

Lucas doesn’t want the feeling of taking Hendery for granted so he invited Hendery for a talk.

Hendery stops  playing his game and follows lucas.

“Hendery,hago sipeun mari ittta.” (Hendary, I have something to say.)

“Zěnmále?” (What is it?)

“Wǒ xǐhuan y/n..” (I like y/n..)

“Shénme?!” (What?!)

“Naneun geunyeoreul joahanda naneun geunyowa deiteuhago siptta.I like her. I want to date her. Wǒ yīnggāi bǎ tā yì chéng zhōngwén ma? thai?”(I like her, I want to date her. I like her, I want to date her. Should I also translate it into chinese? thai?)

“No need, I was just surprised.”

“So? Can I go out with her?”

“Seriously Why are you asking me? Wǒ bùshì tā Xuxi. You should ask her. Tā bùshì wǒ de.”(Seriously Why are you asking me? I’m not her Xuxi. You should ask her. She’s not mine.)

It’s true. You’re not Hendery’s.

He wish you were.

He knew this was going to happen, He doesn’t want to gatekeep you from Lucas just because he’s jealous, and also he doesn’t have a chance. You only see him as a best friend.

“I just thought it’s good to ask you because you’re her best friend.”

“You can do whatever you want Xuxi,Wúlùn fāshēng shénme shì, wǒ dūhuì zhīchí nǐ.”(You can do whatever you want Xuxi,i'll support you whatever happens.)

“Zhēn de ma?! Wǒ fàngxīnle.” (Really?! I feel relieved.)

“Wèishéme? Nǐ hàipà wǒ yě xǐhuān tā ma?” (why? are you scared that i like her too?)

Lucas was surprised. He just read my mind. He thinks.

Other than the feeling of guilt of using his friend as an excuse, He wants to ask him too to ensure that his dear friend is not going to be a rival.

“Ani nan duryopjji ana, Qíshí wǒ hěn yǒu xìnxīn.”(I’m not scared, actually i’m feeling confident.)

Why would he be scared? He’s Lucas. He can make everyone fall by looks alone.

“Don’t Worry, I won’t be a rival. I like her. I really do, but I won’t pursue her.I’m a coward and I haven’t put myself all together.Wǒ pèi bù shàng tā. Hái yǒu, tā zhǐ xǐhuān wǒ dāng péngyǒu, qǐng dài wǒ zhàogù tā.” (Also, she only likes me as a friend.  Please take care of her for me.)

It’s True He doesn’t deserve you. He’s still broken from an accident. He will be a burden once those memories will start hunting him  again.

“Nǐ quèdìng?” (you sure?)

“Yeah,Dàn jì zhù, yīdàn nǐ shānghàile tā wǒ jiù bǎ tā dài zǒu tā. I’m dead serious Yukhei.” (yeah,but remember once you hurt her, I'll take her away from you. I’m dead serious Yukhei.)

You and Lucas dated. You two were inseparable and in love with each other. Your friendship with Hendery kinda changed, he became busy with everything since He’s going to Debut in Wayv. It’s fine with you but you missed him.

Lucas opens your eyes about your dreams and the things you really want. Thanks to him you decided to pursue medicine.

Your relationship with Lucas now is different since he Debuted. You two were private, but not secret. Which means many people know he has a girlfriend but don't know it’s you. Few Idols know you’re his girlfriend but they keep it to themselves.

Lately Lucas has been distant to you. He wouldn’t pick up whenever you call. And whenever you want to facetime he would say he’s busy. 

“y/n your boyfriend sent a bubble message it’s trending in twt! Did you get the message?!”

“OMG wtf Na Jaemin! You scared the shit out of me!”

“Dr.Na, Dr.l/n. Shhh the patients are sleeping.”

You and Jaemin got scolded by the Chief Nurse. You two slightly bowed as sorry.

“Aish-This is all your fault.”

“Check LYSN right now! Ppalli!”

“I can’t My Subscription just expired yesterday.”

“Instead of ordering me. How about you tell me what he said?”

“Oh I didn't see the tweets about him. I just saw LUCAS GIRLFRIEND,#루카스_여자친_버블,#WE_SUPPORT_LUCAS, #旭熙_女朋友_LYSN and my phone died.” (#Lucas_girlfriend_bubble, #Yukhei_Girlfriend__LYSN)

“Oh..really? Did he mention me? He doesn’t tell me anything about coming out. That’s weird.”

“J-jeongmal?! Neohi duri majimageuro jonhwahan ge eonjeya?” (R-really?! When’s the last time you two call each other?)

That question is not hard.

But why can’t you answer such a simple question?

Perhaps because the two of you didn’t talk for like 6 months?

“nado molla,He always says he's busy.I send him daily messages but he won’t reply,He left me on seen.” (I don’t know.)

“What kind of boyfriend is he? He’s not like that when we’re still trainees.”

“Wait I’ll check Twitter.”

You don’t want to check what’s happening. A part of you just wants to turn a blind eye on this issue, because you have that feeling that things are about to mess up.

NCTSM: english translation of lucas’ post.

Translated by:@hoeforyukhei

여러분, 저는 루카스입니다.

팬분들한테 하고 싶은 말이 있어요.

사실 이 편지를 쓰면서 너무 떨려요.

저를 응원해주신 모든 팬분들께 감사드리고 처음부터 사랑하고 싶습니다. 저는 모든 사람들에게 제가 진정으로 사랑하는 아름답고 재능 있고 친절한 여자와 사귀고 있다는 것을 알리고 싶습니다.

유키는 제 여자친구와 우리 회사 둘 다 우리의 관계를 알리고 싶어했습니다.

저를 응원해주신 멤버들, 그리고 저를 사랑해주신 팬분들께 감사드리고, 제가 받을 자격이 없는데도 불구하고 응원해주신 팬분들께도 감사드린다.

저는 항상 여러분 모두에게 감사할 것이고 제 자신을 향상시키기 위해 노력할 것입니다.

사랑하는 팬들의 성원과 사랑에 보답하기 위해 열심히 노력하겠습니다.

탄쿄우 너무많아요.

Everyone, This is Lucas.

I want to say something to our fans.

I am actually so Nervous right now while writing this letter.

I want to thank all the fans that supported and love me from the start. I want to inform everyone that I am dating a beautiful, talented, and kind woman that I truly love.

Yuqi, my girlfriend and both of our Company wanted to publicize our relationship.

I am thankful for the members who cheered me, and to the fans who love me and supported me even though I am not deserving.

I will always be thankful to all of you and I will try to improve myself.

I will work hard to repay all the support and love of our beloved fans.

Thank You so much.

“What fucking bullshit is this?!”

“What the heck Renjun you were behind us all along?!”

“You’ve gone blind Na Jaemin.”

“Guys what the heck shut up the Patients are sleeping.”

“No y/n You shut up. How dare you take this bullshit? He just cheated on you! Right in front of your screen!”

Why are you calm?

Why aren’t you crying?

Is it because half of you expected it?

“It’s okay.It doesn’t matter. I already had a hunch he would do this.”

“Ani-even though you know it,I think it’s the best if you two should talk about it.”(no)

“Yeah, Renjun’s right if you’ll end things with him end it infront of his face! Slap him hard!”

“No Jaemin,I didn’t mean y/n will slap lucas. But y/n you get what I mean right?”

“Dr. Huang, paging Dr. Huang, Please come to the ER. Dr. Huang, paging Dr. Huang, Please come to the ER.”

“y/n you don’t always have to look strong. Jaemin and I are always here to talk to you.”

Renjun leaves you and Jaemin behind. You overthink Renjun's words, as always He is right. But your boyfriend just cheated on you, of course you don’t want to see him.

You find yourself in the middle of the airport,with Renjun who’s carrying your light backpack and Jaemin who’s hyped and doing an IG live.

In the end you and Jaemin are doing a chant like two drunkards in the center of the airport while waiting for your flight.

“y/n! y/n! Where are you going?”

“Korea!”

“Why are you going?!”

“To burn my ex's house!”

“Why are you going?!”

“To burn my ex’s house!”

“Whose house?!”

“Lucas’ house”

“Whose house?!”

“Lucas’ house!”

“Okay Jaemin that’s enough”

“No wait Renjun i’m not finish ye-”

Renjun quickly ended Jaemin’s IG live, which results in Jaemin being cranky. You literally laugh hard to their craziness. Until you were brought back to your reality when you heard your flight.

 “You’re a grown woman already so I’m not going to worry about you.”

“y/n bye!! Call us if anything happens!”

You were thankful for Jaemin and Renjun. They became your friends, your parents, your siblings, and your family.

They reminded you of someone.

Lucas definitely knows what he’s doing is wrong. He can’t help but to worry about you, this decision of his will forever make him miserable.

As soon as you got out of the airport, you didn’t immediately check in to a hotel or call lucas. Your feet dragged you to where your special place is. It’s the secluded part of the park, the park is where you and your ex-boyfriend have made most of your happy moments.

While you were you saw two familiar personages. 

Familiar indeed.

You are one little shit y/n. You said to yourself you will not cry.

But shit you were extremely wrong.

As tears roll down unto your face, you hurriedly exit the area.

“y-y/n?”

It’s Yuqi. You know her voice. Lucas once introduced her to you saying they’re close friends. They suited each other, and sometimes you tease them of being the perfect couple shits like that.

Then Yuqi will deny that she doesn't like him, they're just friends and everything.

You and her became friends. You even ask her if she could update you while you work abroad.

Now she’s just pure bullshit.

No, they’re bullshits.

You’re in the middle of running the exit to escape that hell hole.

Two large arms suddenly wrap your torso.

“Y-Y/n? Where are you going? Please let me explain, I didn’t do it. They made me do it y/n it’s not me i promise y/n don’t leave me Qǐng bùyào líkāi wǒ, wǒ qiú nǐle. Wǒ ài nǐ y/n. Wǒ zhēn de ài nǐ y/n, qǐng bié líkāi wǒ. J-jebalyo” (please don't leave me, I beg you. I love you y/n. I really do y/n,don't leave me, please.)

He’s sobbing there.

We’re all crying

He really won’t let go of you.

“L-lucas let go of me! Please.”

“No I won’t, please hear me out just this once.”

“I had enough, when there are times that I really need you- you shut me out lucas! You don’t know what that feels, the feeling of being left out. You didn’t even hear me out! You didn’t even answer my call when my brother died! I just want your company.. Your love. How can I hear you out if you don’t do the same? please,Fàng kāi wǒ..” (let me go.)

Lucas knelt to the ground and grab both of your hands tightly.

He’s eyes are swollen. Your heart aches for him, you still love him but this is so messed up. You remember the times before you lost contact with each other. Everything is so toxic.. 

Sometimes you have to accept the truth and stop wasting time on the wrong people.

“L-lucas,s-stand up please.”

“Bù, wǒ bù huì de! Bié pèng wǒ! Dōu shì nǐ de cuò! Bié pèng wǒ! Dōu shì nǐ de cuò! Nǐ qīpiànle wǒ.” (don't touch me! It's all your fault! you deceived me.)

“N-no,I didn’t.”

“y-y/n hear me out please I don’t love her.”

I hate it here.

Thankfully,Someone grabbed you out of nowhere.

You didn’t expect the sudden rescue,but you really appreciate it.

You cry hardly in the man’s arms.

It’s him. You missed him.

“Fàng kāi tā de Lucas.” (let go of her lucas.)

“I thought we were friends.”

“We still are,our friendship has nothing to do with helping y/n lucas.”

“You said you will support me!us!”

“That was then before you hurt her!”

“You know what would happen if I didn’t obey the company! You were there with me!”

“God damn lucas! You have a choice to accept it or not!”

“It’s my whole career! Everything I’ve worked for,and many more! I can’t afford  to sacrifice my-”

“Then it’s not y/n’s fault. You chose your career over her, then why are you running after her? If you really love her you would choose her! You need to man up! You can’t have your cake and eat it too.”

“y-y/n please make them stop! Nǐmen liǎ bié chǎole!Hendery please stop!” (You two stop fighting!)

“You. I know there’s something fishy behind your kind act. You know Xuxi already has a girlfriend! How dare you blackmail the higher ups just to make him yours? You sickened me.”

Your head is aching from all the crying and the things you discovered. You hated the drama.

“Bù Shì zhèyàng de! Wǒ méi nàme zuò! Nǐ zài shuō shénme-” (That’s not true! I didn’t do that! What are you sayin-)

“ENOUGH!”

You snapped. It took you a long time to get sick from all their lies.

“Y/n I promise you this isn’t tr-”

“I already said I had enough. Stop being pathetic Yuqi.”

A few people started to gather up when someone noticed the four of you, You are still with famous artists after all.

Hendery immediately dragged you out of the scene and took you to a car nearby, and drove his way out of there.

You love that park.Hangang Park is once full of your happy memories with your dearest ones,now it’s full of treachery,lies and contention.

You want to let go.

Many years of lies and denials. Now it’s all over.

“I thought I’ve lost you.”

“Trust me, I’m always with you.”

“Are we still friends?”

“There’s no break up in friendships.. At Least for me.”

You felt relief.

You can’t afford to have breakups from your friends. They’re all you got.

“Are you sure about letting go of him? You should know both sides.”

“I want to know both sides, I really do. But ican’t take all of this in one day. I need a break, this isn’t healthy. I just want to vanish for a second.”

“You didn’t answer me about letting go of him.”

“I don’t really know actually. But someone once told me ‘Never run back to what broke you’ I haven’t done that,I always thought that everything would be fixed once I stayed and put everything in order by myself. Turns out it didn’t. I think it’s time for a change.Someday, someone is going to thank him for letting me go.”

Someday, someone is going to thank Lucas for letting you go?

Hendery chuckled a little. Your saying once reminded him of the past.

When Lucas thanked him for letting you go.

It turns out, Hendery can’t let you go.

“Did you realize he didn’t actually let you go?”

“I know. But You can’t actually call it a relationship if you’re the only one holding on like I did. Besides he has yuqi.”

“Oh really?”

“You didn’t actually ask me where we're going. You just dragged me. Why did you do that?”

“I just did what I promised myself a long time ago.”

“What is that?”

You stared at his side profile while he’s driving.

He’s focused on the road, the oranged-pinked lights from the sunset pass through the windshield and hits his ethereally beautiful face.

Your Heart beats faster. It’s like the first time you met yukhei.

Hendery turned to you and smiled softly.

“It’s ‘once someone hurts you, I'll take you away from that person.’ I had a very horrible past. I’ve broken many promises from my loved ones,so this is the first time I’ve made a promise come true and I’m pretty proud about it.”

“By the way where are we going?”

“Anywhere you want, Where do you wanna go?”

______________________________

“Did you get it?”

“Yes sir I did.”

“This will be a really big scoop,let me see.”

“I just really love you so much *sobs why can’t you do the same to me?! I did everything for you!”

“Are you delusional?! You wrecked my life! How am I supposed to do that?!”

“Y-yn?”

“Y/n? y/n wait! y/n! Y-Y/n? Where are you going? Please let me explain, I didn’t do it. They made me do it y/n it’s not me i promise y/n don’t leave me Qǐng bùyào líkāi wǒ, wǒ qiú nǐle. Wǒ ài nǐ y/n. Wǒ zhēn de ài nǐ y/n, qǐng bié líkāi wǒ. J-jebal-”

“Sunbae, your phone is ringing”

“Annyeonghaseyo,This is Yeo Seon-Da from Dispatch Korea. How may I help you?”

to be continued.

AN:HELLO I KNOW THIS IS TRASH, IT’S BECAUSE I’M TRASH AS WELL. LOL I’M JUST JOKING (IT’S TRUE) THIS IS THE RESULT OF ME WATCHING AND READING TOO MANY CHEATING AND DRAMATIC DRAMAS, WEBTOONS, MANGA, AND NOVELS.

THANK YOU FOR REACHING THIS PART AND READING THE STORY. PLEASE LOOK FORWARD TO MORE TRASHY STORIES BY YOURS TRULY.

ALSO PLEASE SUPPORT THIS YEAR’S PROJECT NCT 2020. THEY ALREADY EARNED NEW TWO BELOVED MEMBERS SHOTARO AND SUNGCHAN. PLEASE SUPPORT AND LOVE ALL THE 23 MEMBERS. PLEASE REFRAIN FROM FIGHTING ABOUT THIS AND THAT, IT MAY AFFECT THE MEMBERS’ COMEBACK. THEY’RE REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO IT AND GIVING THEIR BEST FOR US CZENNIES. LET’S DIVERT OUR ANGER AND HATRED TO THE UPCOMING SONGS AND MV BY VOTING,STREAMING IT AND SUPPORTING THE COMEBACK. LET’S ALL WORK HARD AND REPAY THE CONSTANT LOVE AND HAPPINESS THEY’RE GIVING US. LET’S GIVE THEM THE WIN THEY DESERVE!

시즈니할수있어! 모두 사랑하자!

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Fic Friday: 1, 7, 9, 14!

1. Tell us about your current project(s)  – what’s it about, how’s progress, what do you love most about it?

At the moment I’m mostly jumping between two non-OUAT fics. The main one is a modern retelling of Pride and Prejudice which started out as a simple “hey what if Darcy and Elizabeth had hate sex” but somehow wrote itself into an actual retelling, as in modernising the characters and putting them in comparable but not identical situations as in the book, with comparable conversations and emotions and (I hope!) character development. So in short it’s become something a lot bigger than I'd planned, and while it’s generally a fun thing to write it’s also absolutely freaking terrifying. The P&P fandom is big and they aren’t cohesive like CS, meaning I don’t really know who I'm writing for. But this fic has soo many hits and soo many subscriptions that I'm really feeling the pressure to please these nameless, faceless readers and not let them down. 

The other fic is Dramione (Draco and Hermione from HP). It’s my first fanon ship and also an enormous fandom, and so I'm easing in slowly. It’s also so different from CS that I am writing it under a different AO3 account and Tumblr sideblog so as not to force it on my CS followers who aren’t into it. The fic is here if anyone’s interested. It’s an enemies to lovers, redeemed villain, post-Hogwarts AU with a LOT of angsty pining. 

7. What do you think are the characteristics of your personal writing style? Would others agree?

I’m a very show-not-tell writer, I don’t like exposition dumps and I don’t like front-loading the plot. I prefer to reveal things with conversation and situations and let the plot unfold slowly. I also work hard to use description to set the tone and mood of the story and that at least I think others would agree on. It’s one of the main things people mention when they comment on my fics. 

9. Are you more of a drabble or a longfic kind of writer? Pantser or plotter? Do you wish you were the other?

Um, yes? All of the above? 

I have written one fic that’s 100k+, after that the longest one is 58k. Most of them are between 15k and 55k. On the whole I prefer things to be precise, and to stop writing once the story I want to tell has been told. I also have a lot of 2-6k one-shots, and a collection of ficlets that range from 700 to 1500 words. So yes, all of the above. 

As for pantser vs plotter, I am a plantser. I have an outline in my head before I start and I generally keep to it, but within that outline what the characters say and do kind of just happens. Learning how to outline has been a major boon for ADHD brain and I would not want to change it. 

14. At what point in writing do you come up with a title?

The last possible moment, lol. When I’m ready to post and then go “shit wtf am I going to call this thing?” Not coincidentally that’s also when I start thinking about the summary.  

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One Cut of the Dead (2017)

Spoiler Alert. I have never made the claim that this is a spoiler free film blog. I barely consider this a collection of film reviews as much as it is a space for me to have a one sided conversation about movies. I don't want to limit myself to the constraints of spoiler free content, for one because I believe in most cases we don't watch films to be surprised. I read many books, and many of those books have been adapted into films, and never once has knowing what is going to happen ruined my experience of a film. In regards to One Cut of the Dead however, I think you owe it to yourself to stop reading right here and go and see this film for yourself. I'm going to get the letter grade out of the way right now and let you know without any context that One Cut of the Dead get's an A from Reverend Chainsaw and the Cult of Cult. However, if you've already seen the movie and you would like to worship along with the Cult Film Tent Revival, please read on.

The Message

One Cut of the Dead is a two for one punch. First we are told the story of a film director who goes to extreme measures to create his zombie film. These extreme measures include shooting in a former testing facility and using an occult ritual to bring real zombies into the mix. The real zombies terrorize the actors and the crew as the mad director sporadically pops in and out shouting "Action". This almost 40 minute short film is of course done in one outstanding take. Due to all the running and chasing if you are a fan of butts more than faces, you will have a pleasant time. Still, this short film is off, there are strange lags where characters jump up from off screen for one reason or another, points where the camera drops and points at the ground, or where long drawn out conversations occur or the action just suddenly stops for an unexplained reason. What could possibly be happening?

Well, this is why when the credits roll early on in the feature you should stay tuned. You see our One Cut meta film, is actually a film within a film. Every thing that can go wrong will go wrong. Higurashi is a small time director living in Japan who specializes in small projects. One day he is scouted by the Zombie channel that is looking to launch it's premier with a very special project. Impressed with Higurashi's signature style "cheap but average", they propose that he be their man. The Zombie Channel wants to do a LIVE ONE TAKE thirty minute short film. After initially taking a moment to realize this insane idea is no joke, Higurashi agrees.

The filming takes way. The cast is difficult, the crew is barely manageable, and Higurashi and his wife are forced by their strange circumstances to take prominent roles in the chaotic picture. Equipment breaks down, improvisations are required, and there is no time for bathroom breaks. "One Cut of the Dead" proves a bizarre testing ground for our likeable rogues and they somehow manage against all odds to pull it off, explaining every quirk and oddity in the short films run time.

Please, please treat yourself and join me in receiving The Benediction.

Best Aspect: All is Revealed

One Cut of the Dead is so frustrating that it's brilliant, and so brilliant that it is frustrating. I want to know so badly if the film we see in the first half, is actually made up of footage that was being shot by the cast as the second half was being filmed, as opposed to being shot like a traditional movie. If so, It would add yet a third level of beautiful meta narrative to this movie.

What is particularly brilliant is that it does not sell itself as a film about film making, but as a much easier film where "it turns out the monsters are real", spoopy doopy stuff. Once you go in expecting that and you see all this surreal amateur stuff happening it keeps you intrigued. Why is the zombie pausing, why did those legs just appear on screen and walk off? Your left wondering what is happening and then the credits roll and the second part of the movie begins.

The second half is hilarious and it's so fun as you have each little mystery resolved and it's never boring but almost always mundane. This is not a horror movie, well it does contain a horror movie, but this is a love letter to all those happy accidents. I particularly love Evil Dead and the Texas Chainsaw Massacre, a love that is fueled by the chaotic stories that happened behind the scenes. It may be scripted, but One Cut of the Dead gives me all the satisfaction of watching a low budget horror romp, immediately followed by it's charming creation myth.

Worst Aspect: A Hat wearing a Hat

That said, it's strength is also a weakness. It is hard to write about, it's hard to always keep your head straight. This movie is a movie about making a movie about making a movie, it also is contains the movie about making a movie. Are you lost? No? Maybe I'm just dumb. It helps to not try to hard to explain it. And it only takes a little time to keep it all straight, but then again that's asking way more of the audience than most films do. Personally, it's barely even a problem, but that just speaks to how freaking great One Cut of the Dead is.

Best Character: In on the ACTION!

There is not a single character in One Cut of the Dead that is unlikeable, I almost did not give this movie a best character. However after a little bit of thinking I came down to Higurashi or Nao. Oh how I love you Nao, you crazy wild thing. But when it comes down to just candid hopefulness, and a hero that you root for the whole movie, Higurashi is the man. Every time he solves a problem and smiles it just warms my heart. I keep watching to see Higurashi succeed and anxiously anticipate his failure. The satisfaction the audience feels at the completion of this film hinges entirely on whether you want Higurashi to accomplish his herculean task.

Most WTF Moment: POOP!

I'm not even going to explain this one. Just know that there is a line of dialogue that is simply "poop" and it'll get ya.

Most Memorable Shot: Ritual Site

In lieu of a Best Kill category or another Worst category (which is hard to come up with in regards to One Cut), I'd invented the Most Memorable Shot category. It's not the same as a scene because in my minds eye I'm not thinking of a whole sequence. if I were I'd have to give it to the titular one cut. What I mean is a solid shot that sticks with me when I close my eyes and think about this film. And at the conclusion of the film within a film our lead actress is clutching a knife, facing the camera that is staring down at her, and at her feet is a massive pentagram made of blood. It's a really cool image and if you've seen the movie you know how much Higurashi and the crew worked to get that specific image in your mind. You could say out of all the visuals in this movie the pentagram shot is the top of the pyramid.

Summary

Once Cut of the dead is so enjoyable I've watched it 3 times in 2 days. Every time I rewatch it I catch something else. My initial motivation was to see the first segment again with the thought of the second segment in mind, but I just couldn't stop there. This movie is candy. This movie is cocaine. If you love horror films for the artistry (or lack there of) and not just for the scares, then this movie will hit many sweet spots for you. Don't sleep on this. Get a Shudder subscription and watch One Cut of the Dead, and then watch it again.

Overall Grade: A

[ohmyjaebeompark]

You know what doesn't make any sense? That one scene in Twilight when Bella's in science class and the teacher announces that everyone in the class is going to prick their finger so they can figure out what blood type they are. She freaks out because she can't handle the sight and smell of blood. WTF!!!! What does she do every time she gets her monthly subscription to the devil's waterfall, faint at the first sight of blood? I guess this is supposed to be ironic so that when she gets turned into a vampire blah blah blah... It would make more sense If she was afraid of needles. I can't be the only person who noticed this.

[somervta]

First they came for some awful and maybe-awful people and I didn’t say anything because honestly I might have made the same call

Then they came for some dubiously-awful people who had said a few bad things and had some cringe takes but I didn’t say anything because it’s not like they did anything actually bad to them, just suggested people might want to reconsider their support

Then they came for Scott and I freaked the FUCK out because holy shit you’re supposed to come for people like that way at the end, after a slowly escalating series of progressively more dubious targets, wtf?

I’m hoping that this was a serious enough error that the NYT is going to get so many cancelled subscriptions and angry emails that they’ll pull the piece and apologise and let one of the best writers on the internet go back to writing wonderfully long and researched pieces trying and failing to tell us much more than we wanted to know about Important Things

If you have a NYT subscription please consider cancelling it and letting them know that this is why

[mithranqueersmusings]

Before This Dance Is Through V

Chapter: 5/16

Rating: M (Smut Warning)

Summary: Ringo's being going through a dry spell for the last year or so and when he regretfully tells his best friend John, he insists on taking them to an all-male strip club for some "fun". Ringo isn't sure whether it's the alcohol, his desperation or a mixture of the two but he thinks he might be falling in love with a stripper.

Tags: AU - Strippers, Modern Setting, Smut, Slow Burn

Pairings: George Harrison/Ringo Starr, John Lennon/Paul McCartney

AO3 link here / Fic masterlist here

Despite what John had suggested, Ringo didn't go back to The Helter Skelter the following week; he'd considered it when John sent him yet another late night text but ultimately decided it wasn't the best idea. Spike had been playing on his mind daily and Ringo wasn't sure he was prepared to face him again. Instead he focused on his drumming and searched for a few more students to teach, which were fairly easy to find. Usually Ringo enjoyed his time off, he understood he was lucky that he didn't have to work a 9-5 job just to get by, but recently he wanted his fill his time up as much as possible, to distract himself.

One of his new students seemed incredibly interested in him, they'd spent an hour just chatting in his living room before they'd even moved over to the drum kit. Ringo wasn't too fussed, he was getting paid by the hour so wasting time was beneficial to him but he didn't want to give the guy the wrong impression. He was a little bit older and attractive enough but Ringo simply wasn't interested.

"Why didn't you just go for it?" John had asked him when they next met up.

"I dunno..." Ringo mumbled, but a part of him knew very well.

He'd given the guy another lesson since then and it became clear that the guy's interest in him wasn't going away any time soon. Ringo felt bad about the whole thing, wasn't he just doing exactly what Spike was doing to him? He tried to act as professional as possible the second time around in attempt to get the guy to back off, considering he hadn't heard from him since he was hoping it had worked. What was wrong with him? Was he really going to make himself suffer like this all because of one guy? And not just any guy, a stripper who had shown absolutely no interest in him at all. It was ridiculous, he kept telling himself, but no matter how much he tried to convince himself that he had to get over Spike, he would still think about him every day without fail. Trying to distract himself with clients had been working somewhat, but it had been difficult, especially when his best friend was John Lennon.

       youre gonna love me

The text came through when Ringo was sat in a café getting some lunch. He'd finished with one of his younger students, a sweet girl who's parents had tried to convince her to try a more 'ladylike' instrument but she had promised only to give up the drums if she was awful; much to her delight, and Ringo's for being able to prove the stereotypical parents wrong, she was pretty good. Seeing her always put Ringo in a good mood, the parents mostly stayed away partly due to the noise but mostly due to disappointment, which meant they could joke around together. Ringo could tell she admired him and he welcomed it gladly, one of the best things about teaching was inspiring others, at least for him it was.

        do i not already?

        well yes         but youre gonna love me EVEN more

        what have you done

        well i happened to stop by the club last night

        oh god what did you do

        wow is that how little you trust me

        can you blame me

        suppose not         ANYWAY i got talking to paulie

        surprise surprise

        do you want the good news or not???

        fine fine sorry

        AS I WAS SAYING i was talking to paulie         and he told me that your special little someone has an onlyfans account

        first of all fuck you for calling him that         second of all wtf is onlyfans

        oh sorry i didnt realise you werent living in the 21st century

        ......         care to grace me with your knowledge?

        basically its a website where you can post exclusive stuff for ONLY FANS to see         its not a porn site or anything but its basically where people sell their nudes         MEANING spike has an account so you can totally see loads of raunchy filthy perverted pics of him

        but i have to pay?

        well weve all gotta make a living

        i can basically see him naked for free

        but this way you wont get all freaked out and embarrassed         well you will but nobody will know at least         so do you want the link or not???

Ringo paused for a few moments, he was gripping his phone tightly in both of his hands as he unblinkingly looked at John's words. If his mind was going to decide to make him suffer by enabling his intense interest in Spike, he may as well get something out of it.

        fine

        where are your manners richard??

        can i please have the link to the strippers nude photos please john please

        alright calm down         let me know if its worth while i might have a look

        idk if im even gonna look at it         paying for porn is a little dated

        treat yourself ringo         id offer to pay but im broke

        if youre broke why were you at the strip club last night?

        well SOMEONE had to go

        they really didnt

        im supporting my local economy

        i dont think thats how that works

        sure it is         anyway here you go

Ringo stared at the link for a while, his eyes even began to blur, he didn't want to risk opening it in public even though he knew there was little chance of anyone seeing. He finished his lunch in a hurry and headed home quickly, only when he was in the privacy of his bedroom did he dare open it. First he had to make an account, when he saw the screen loading up asking for an email address and password he just turned his screen off and put the phone down. This was far too much effort for something he shouldn't really have been doing in the first place. But it only took a few minutes for him to pick the phone back up and begin signing up, he used an old email as it felt less seedy that way and he didn't want to risk his name cropping up anywhere for Spike to see. Now he could load up the link properly and take a proper look at Spike's profile.

Just looking at the small profile picture was enough to startle Ringo a little, the dark eyes looking into the camera with that unreadable glimmer behind them. He was shirtless in the picture, Ringo wondered why that didn't catch his attention first, with the frame cutting off just before it showed anything too explicit. The header was a photo taken from the club, showing him in tight, leather pants and tassels on his nipples which matched the whip he held in his hand. Maybe this wasn't such a good idea. He'd spent so much time and effort trying not to think about this man, attempting to keep him out of his mind as much as possible. Ringo knew that if he went through with this all that progress would be lost, he'd be giving in to whatever strange obsession he'd developed for Spike, one that no doubt wasn't going to lead to anything good.

Ringo kept staring at the screen as though it was going to tell him what he should do. Spike's profile had no description, which wasn't very surprising, and it dashed any hope Ringo had of discovering something new about him. Right before he was about to put his phone down again, it vibrated.

        howd the wank go??

        john i dont care how long weve been friends asking how my wank was will always be weird

        youre right sorry         so how did it go???

        if you must know         i havent had a wank         i havent even paid for entry

        now whos the one being inappropriate??

        ha ha

        why havent you???

        feels weird

        oh i see         youll consume a bunch of unethical porn for free but god forbid you actually give sex workers any actual money

        you are the last person who can lecture me about unethical porn

        hey now watch yourself         ringo if you dont get a subscription I WILL

        go ahead

        and ill tell you every day what sexy sexy pictures hes posting         ill tell you EVERY SINGLE TIME i have a wank over them

        every time? i dont think youve got enough data for that

        im not joking

        neither am i         you wank A LOT

        ringooooo just buy it i swear to god         if its not worth it or you regret it or whatever ill give you the money back

        on top of the money you already owe me?

        have you always been such a capitalist

        youre not doing a very good job of convincing me

        fine         spikes cock         now are you convinced???

        maybe

        naked pictures of spike whenever and wherever you want them all for the low low price of 10 quid a month         convinced??

        fine fine         if itll shut you up

        im starting to think thats code for 'i really wanna do this but im too embarrassed to admit it'

        i hate you

        now that DEFINITELY code for 'john youre right'         anyway theres no time to be telling me how right i am all the time youve got dick pics to look at         even i wont stand in the way of a good wank         so dont bother replying to me until youve paid for that subscription young man

        im older than you

        DONT BOTHER REPLYING

Ringo let out a sigh and rested his head against the bedroom wall from where he was laying on the bed. He opened up the link again and his thumb hovered over the subscription button, why couldn't he just do it? The money wasn't an issue, it could've cost half as much or be double the price and he'd still be debating it all the same. Somehow it felt like an invasion of privacy, after all Spike hadn't told Ringo about it himself, but then again that didn't necessarily mean he didn't want Ringo to see it. After all it was like John said: everyone has to make a living somehow. Sometimes Ringo wished he could turn off that part of his brain that was so empathetic, so concerned about how everyone felt and what they were thinking. He knew that he wanted this, so why wasn't he allowing himself to have it? Ringo could see that he was being ridiculous, as he was with almost anything involving Spike, and after lying there for a while pondering and debating he decided to flip a coin. Heads would mean he got the subscription, tails that he didn't. He watched the coin spinning through the air after he flicked it upwards, then snatched it and slammed it down onto his forearm before slowly moving his hand away: it was tails. What a relief. Ringo chuckled to himself for being so foolish, settling down into his bed; it was still only around midday but he didn't have anywhere he needed to be.

So why didn't he feel relieved in the slightest?

This whole thing was getting tiring, the constant debate between what he believed he should do and what he wanted to do, and it seemed like it wasn't going to be ending anytime soon. Apparently he was in this for the long run, whatever that meant, but if he was going to turn down relatively attractive guys practically throwing themselves at him, he may as well go all the way. While he was putting in his credit card information, he stopped to think around three of four times, but once he'd finished and the images became accessible to him, his brain was barely able to conjure up a coherent sentence.

"Jesus..." Ringo breathed out as his eyes flicked across the plethora of pictures loading up on his screen.

There was a lot of them, and a lot of Spike was on display. Most of them were pictures taken at the club, either from a professional photographer in the audience or photos he'd taken himself in the mirrors backstage - Ringo could even see glimpses of Paul in the background of some of them. The ones that caught Ringo's eyes the most were those that seemed to be taken in his house, these also happened to be the ones in which Spike tended to be fully naked. It was very different experience to see him like this: a static image that he'd intentionally taken of himself and posted for so many people to see, an image that couldn't look back at Ringo and make him feel that strange mixture of excitement and shame. He began scrolling down the feed which only revealed more and more enticing photos. Ringo began to feel himself hardening, he suspected it had been happening for a while now but he'd been far too distracted to notice. He felt like a teenager discovering porn for the first time, it was difficult to remind himself that this wasn't anything new. Seeing Spike naked shouldn't have excited him so much, and yet it did.

One picture in particular drew Ringo's attention: Spike was stood in front of a bathroom mirror with a loose black tie lying against his bare chest, one hand was holding a phone and the other gripping his cock. He had dark eye make up on and his hair was messy. Ringo wasn't sure exactly what it was about this photo that was so enticing but he couldn't take his eyes off it. The prominence of his collarbones, the faint curls of his dark hair, how his slim fingers wrapped around himself. Slowly Ringo slid his own hand under the waistband of his boxers as he stared at the picture. At first he hesitated, his fingers stopped right above the base. It's not like this would've been the first time he'd touched himself while thinking about Spike, it would've been far from the last he imagined, but this was different. It was more concrete, more of an admission. Nothing felt quite as real when it's only being imagined, the haziness of lust fuzzing up the mind as it so often did, but now with a very real photo of Spike in front of him - which he'd paid to see - the feeling was far more tangible, far harder to ignore.

He'd come this far, he told himself as his hand sunk lower until his fingers were running along the length of his semi-hard cock, he may as well go all the way. To begin with Ringo stayed looking at this single picture as he slowly pumped himself, but as his lust began to grow he perused through more and more pictures: Spike kneeling naked in front of a mirror with a loose cigarette hanging from his lips, lying in the bath with bubbles only just about covering his nakedness, spread out on the bed with a gag in his mouth, handcuffs forcing his slim arms behind his back with his cock throbbing. None of this was anything Ringo hadn't seen before, like most people in this day and age he'd searched through the darker corners of the internet - sometimes willingly, sometimes John was to blame - but to see Spike in such a way was like an entirely new rush. Each picture drove Ringo further and further on, at times he almost dropped his phone with how sloppy his movements were becoming. Who took these photos? Ringo figured it was best not to think about it, the possibility that Spike had a boyfriend who took all these pictures of him would've been the quickest way to kill his erection.

Ringo began moaning and cursing wantonly as he got closer and closer to his orgasm, he had to stop flicking through the pictures because he could hardly concentrate on what his other hand was doing, so he settled on a final one to help him finish; it wasn't particularly strategic but he was definitely grateful that he selected the one that he did. In it Spike was looking directly into the camera, allowing Ringo to gaze longingly into the rich brown of his eyes and how his dark lashes curled beautifully around them. He was shirtless with nothing but a necklace on, the same necklace that Ringo had seen him wearing in the record store and Ringo couldn't help feeling a sense of satisfaction that he'd seen it with his own eyes, as though it meant something. Deep down he knew that it didn't but his inebriated mind was latching onto it. The nudity in the photo was hardly interesting Ringo by this point, although it would be wrong to say that he completely ignored the flatness of his stomach or the faint shadows of his ribs beneath his pale skin, it was the personal aspect which truly affected him.

This wasn't just lust. Lust Ringo could understand, he could compartmentalise it and give into it without much shame or a second thought. If this was just lust, he would've bought the subscription without a care and touched himself looking at the nakedness of Spike's body as though it meant nothing more than a way to get off. Yet here he was on the brink of orgasm looking into another man's eyes, eyes that felt like they were looking straight back at him as though they were sharing this moment together. It wasn't hard to imagine Spike's hand in place of his own, those deep eyes watching Ringo come undone piece by piece. Ringo's hip began to stutter, his leg twitching a little as he had to drop the phone down onto his lap as his head fell back against his pillow as his orgasm approached. It wasn't the image of Spike's naked body that filled Ringo's mind as he came, it wasn't his arse or his cock or even his chest, it was his face, his voice, it was him.

Ringo lay breathless on his bed for a while, the clarity that arrived as his orgasm subsided wasn't welcome in the slightest and he was reluctant to pick his phone back up to see Spike's eyes looking at him once again. There was no use in feeling ashamed about it, no point in trying to deny it any longer: his feelings for Spike were more than a mere passing fancy, that was clear. Exactly what he was meant to do about these feelings was far from clear but that wasn't something Ringo could figure out right now with cum on his stomach and the daylight seeping through his bedroom curtains.

When he'd picked up his phone he'd closed all the apps immediately, doing his best not to catch a glimpse of what he'd been so eagerly looking at before. Just as he was about to step into the shower to clean himself off, his phone buzzed; he almost couldn't hear it over the music he was blasting out. It alerted him for a moment as though it was going to be a message from Spike stating he knew exactly what Ringo had just done - it wouldn't have really surprised him had that been the case, Spike's face almost always looked like he knew something that nobody else did - but fortunately, or perhaps unfortunately, it was John.

        sooo how did the wank go

         who knows          but on a totally unrelated note im about to get into the shower

         well before you do that i have even more good news 

         can it not wait?

         NO because you might cum just at the thought of it and then youd be wasting a good shower

         well arent you considerate          and unnecessarily graphic

         thats me          anyway im taking you to the club next tuesday whether you like it or not

         im still waiting for the good news

         well if youd let me FINISH          next week theyre doing a special event and we just have to go          youll never guess what it is

         what is it?

         guess

         you just said ill never guess

         youre no fun

         WHAT IS IT

         alright alright keep your hair on          its a crossdressing event          high heels make up probably a few wigs all that good stuff

         im still waiting for the good news

         OH COME ON youre telling me you dont want to see spike in heels and fishnets with some lovely lipstick on

Ringo gulped. It wasn't a difficult image to conjure up his mind, considering he'd been staring at photos of Spike for the past twenty minutes and it excited him to say the least. He did want to see that, very much indeed.

[biggtwon]

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[solesurvivorkat]

Brotherhood of Steel Fallout Loot Crate

Okay..... if you follow my Tumblr somewhat regularly at all, you know that I like to evaluate the Fallout Loot Crates when I get them.

...........

.....I warn you... this could/will get petty, long, and ugly.

😑

.....This is the smallest Fallout crate yet. Let me show you.

These are ALL of the Fallout crates I have gotten so far, in order, including the newest BoS-themed (and I use those words loosely) crate. They uh... seem to be getting a little 'skinnier', no?

Yes, items have been removed from previous crates - but I still feel like they're getting progressively disappointing.

.....Okay, the one truly good thing about this crate. I do love that Paladin.

.....I'm not even going to take the time to photograph every item. This isn't out of laziness - I just have other things to do that I deem more important. If you'd like to see a close-up of an item, let me know and I'd be happy to accomodate.

...Oh, and if the box contents list looks a bit... bent, it's because my baby got to it when I wasn't looking. Not Loot Crate's fault - just the 'cherry on top' of my unhappiness.

...A bit dramatic? Yes, I will admit it. I love Fallout, and I love the Brotherhood even more. I know this probably makes me quite lame, but I don't care. There were six items in this box. THREE of them were truly BoS-related. THREE. And of those three, one of them was a lame keychain - better than nothing, but the likes of which (or similar enough) I could have gotten from eBay, ThinkGeek/GameStop, or Etsy. Am I going to use it? Most likely. Not the point. (THERE WASN'T EVEN A BOS PATCH, AND THE CRATE IS SUPPOSED TO BE BROTHERHOOD-THEMED. WTF.)

The shirt is okay at best, and the figure... hmm. Better than Piper's, I think (the Lord Farquaad comparison kinda killed me, LOL), but still edging on kinda lame, like so many FO LC items. Danse never wears the bomber jacket in the game (normally), and of all the things they could have had him doing... he's sitting on a crate.

THIS IS PALADIN-FREAKING-DANSE. Kicka$$ soldier for the Brotherhood! Practically Elder Maxson's #2!

AND YOU JUST HAVE HIM SITTING ON A DAMN CRATE.

Do I expect him to be beheading a super mutant or ripping apart a G2 Institute synth with his bare hands? Of course not. But come on. Who's your decision maker on these? Because I can take every single FO LC and tell you how I could make them better, even if only a little bit.

And you know... I might have been able to forgive all of this (...almost) - but this crate was TWO MONTHS LATE. I had to nag the company - TWICE - to even get any updates about it... and I STILL didn't. And this wasn't the first, or SECOND time this happened - it was at least the THIRD (I started losing track, sadly enough).

Guys... I'm so, so disappointed in you. I am a huge Fallout fan, and I legit feel insulted by all the things you've done wrong. People are 100% allowed to disagree with me - that's totally fine, you're entitled to your opinions - but I will say... IF you decide to do another six Fallout Loot Crates, I will be very hard-pressed to renew my subscription. You would have to do something utterly fantastic to convince me.

There's two more crates left (if I've been doing this correctly). You already told us the theme for the next one is 'RobCo' (Mr. Handy).

...Not only am I not expecting much, but I will also be legit SHOCKED if it arrives on time for a change.

.....Shame, guys.

[totempgnanwhol1981-blog]

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[losingmymind-overyou-blog]

1/11/2018 :(

I never want to forget it, so I’m making a list of memories I can think of. I’m going through all 628 photos we texted to each other since we started to text and my own photo gallery and I can see exactly how everything progressed, but here’s a list of memories I want to remember:

- the night we met

- the excitement I felt the first time you texted me, I went screaming to all my friends before I replied and that same night I told Meghan I’d met a really good guy

- the first few times we hung out I would go tell Erin and Nikki how it was and one night I’d really wanted you to kiss me and you hadn’t and I told them and they laughed at me

- our first date when I went to the wrong restaurant and you ordered chicken that I could smell throughout the entire movie

- when you came to my house for the first time and played with baby Guwwy the whole time and my heart melted

- when you asked to be my boyfriend with Starbucks and we parked in the boonies in Laguna and the restaurant you wanted to go to wasn’t super nice so we found somewhere else

- when we went to my winter formal and you saw me at photos and just said “wow”

- I misspelled Dwight

- that time Drew texted me after you didn’t shoot well and he said that you told him, “at least I can go home and talk to Lauren”

- when I used to send you Bitmojis all the damn time

- when Parnia asked if she could take you to prom??? wtf

- when my Dad told me that you and Austin wanted to play golf together 

- when we almost broke up but THANK GOD we didn’t because we really had no idea how incredible we would become

- the first time exploring your room

- when I didn’t know what a certain baking tool was and your mom said she needed to tell people about that at my wedding...like she knew

- when we slaved over chicken parmesan

- when we ruined multiple cakes

- when you broke a spoon mixing something and I almost peed

- when I broke your pool hose

- when I made you let me beat the Just Dance high score to Hey Ya! in my navy lace bralette and pants

- when we played that video game in your room with me in my Calvin Klein bra pants only

- when we laid in your room reading your childhood stories about Kale and I laid on little Ryan for most of it

- sexual tension filled Sequence

- when you tried to teach me chess and I will always be terrible

- when I beat your sorry ass at Scrabble

- the night with your cousins...need I say more

- when we spent New years together playing the game I bought your family

- when you made a whole dinner for my birthday and we danced the night away to Sinatra

- the first time we sexted

- when we sexted super late while I was at Yale and then wrote those love letters to each other

- trying to break into your bathroom and each time you’d catch me in a big hug

- every sleepover we had when we literally couldn’t sleep just because we were so close to each other

- Hawaii. that’s all I’m going to say because best week ever. 

- CIF Finals and prom after, the after party too

- when you sat with me and watched my graduation video through my whole childhood and even you made your appearances

- when I put all those photos in Kat from Yale and we both had such dreams for that to happen

- THE CAT

- snakey snake and death/Cameron

- when Romeo bit me

- your homecoming football game...you loved me so damn much

- the eagle golf club head cover

- that Harry Potter symphony plus our marathon

- all our comments on our Instagram photos

- when your Instagram profile photo at one point was of you running...you don’t RUN

- all the times I went golfing with you and we had so much fun and I made everything more peaceful for you

- when your contact name used to be Ryan (catfish h0) Wilson

- Devin’s party aka the night you said you could see yourself marrying me

- your sock subscription

- our matching underwear and photos

- our home video

- roadhead

- yoghurt

- Andrea

- when autocorrect made you say “pussy” instead of pissy

- when we danced the night away at BOTH homecomings

- when we played hangman and used Xerox

- in November when we fought and Meghan had to tell us that we had something people would die for and to never forget that...

- when you gave me a freaking hickey on accident 

- your birthday when you sent me that message about “rebound girl my ass you’re an 11/10 how tf did I even score you”

- 3 under par kind of night

- 15 reasons you love me

- when you got into Harvard and we thought everything in KAT would come true

- when we went on that Ferris wheel the first time we hung out and you fell in love with my head twitch and the first time you touched my back to lead me off the ride I got chills all over

- when you said your name was Jamal at Starbucks and none of your gift cards worked but it was so perfect

- UCLA basketball game fun and your attempt to eat crab causing you to get a second dinner

- Disneyland!!

- all those times when you made me pancakes, especially when you’d wake up early for me if you didn’t have school and I’d get to start my day with you

- When you told me you loved every single fucking thing about me and that I’m the best girl to walk this planet and you were so lucky to meet me by chance

- Harvard/Yale meme sharing

- when you asked me to prom the day before with the greatest poster ever

- when you showed your mom the video from my signing day and she started crying because she was so proud

- when you came to my graduation and when I walked out I’m pretty sure I heard you yell “AYO” like you do

- when you were being all humble about your senior award so I stalked it and turns out it’s the best you can get

- when you’d hit me with those random appreciation notes about my booty or how much you love me

- your senior speech that puts me in tears with how good it is

- Hawaii deserves another mention

- when you looked at me on that last night in Hawaii and literally couldn’t even comprehend my beauty

- right before my Yale interview when you told me I was your inspiration

- our bow on my head naked fantasy (and all the other fantasies we had together)

- “girl get it”

- my second birth control reminder was “YOU LOVE RYAN”

- I once put a note in my phone under your contact that says “he loves me” in case I ever got amnesia or something and I think it’s still there

- Universal deserves all the mentions in the world honestly best day ever

- lobey dersh and rye bread wilsonian

- When I drove to your house at 4am to say goodbye

- when we got pizza after almost breaking up and I was so happy

- when we had a sleepover and you walked into me wearing all of your clothes

- I always wish for more, but these were the best two years of our lives with the people who made us happiest...to be continued one day, or to not

[compo67]

a-aron

i’ve been playing Key and Peele episodes in the background while at work for the past two days. my gods, i love this show.

i want that sweater that says, ya done messed up, a-aron!

it really helps to laugh in between calls.

my god though, i’m tired

i think i have a cold

or side effects from the humira/weather change

pretty sure it’s a cold -_- 

i sounded awful this morning

my voice is a whole lot deeper and it’s freaking me out

i had acupuncture this morning and she suggested laying face up this time so she could help w the congestion

helping with the congestion meant putting needles in my face

i felt badass

and also terrified 

one sneeze and BOOM

maybe not boom

but nothing good

it did help my congestion for a little while

i got home and had to clean up a bunch of water that flooded the laundry room floor hooray

but then i got to eat a cubano sandwich

first half of work went by super fast

second half not so much

i need to buy a new laundry hamper since mine was destroyed in the great Flood

i gotta figure out where i’m gonna put a christmas tree this year

my place is smol 

but i’m thinking in the corner by the bookcase

do i get a real tree or a fake one?

i’m so used to real trees and i love the smell. but then it’s difficult for me to reach under and water it. plus all those needles on the floor.

but there’s also nothing like going out and picking a tree

but then i’m like wtf $40 for a tiny tree i’m gonna throw out in january???

still excited for a tree

i got paperwork from the mayo clinic today

they outlined a bunch of tests and stuff i’ll be doing

some of them start at 6 AM

like... last night i went to be at 3 AM

that’s closer to my bed time than it is to my wake up time

lord help that medical team 

creation released a supernatural subscription box

at first i was like OMG GIMME

then, upon closer inspection, i was like wait a minute. $50 for merch i don’t even get to pick? 

so probably a bunch of cast offs from hot topic, overstock they couldn’t sell in store, or rando, ill-fitting t-shirts? yeah. 

i’d rather commission art from a fandom artist than spend $50 on that

if i had $50. this mayo clinic is going to be so expensive. /head desk/

i just took a sudafed a little while ago and woah headache

i’m trying to space out my pills

before work tomorrow i need to go to target and buy a new laundry hamper with wheels

i had a promo code for hello fresh so i got 3 meals for a week for $25

i was so excited!

and then

chicken fajitas happened

it was all so bland and awful

idk what to do with the other two bags/meals. i’m in too much pain to cook them. maybe i’ll take them to my mom’s.

i started a drawing tonight and finished the inking. tomorrow is for watercolors.

i’m hoping to update Post holes tomorrow, then another fic

if only i weren’t in constant pain, working, or exhausted

churlish

and rude

okay time for sleep