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xannerz · 3 months

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damn i miss my dog

Thank God he at least went peacefully, it was right on time. his condition was deteriorating rapidly within a day, so I’m glad we didn’t wait to bring him in. His meds just didn’t help anymore. I’m guessing it was a lack of oxygen that made him so spacey. He still wanted treats but that also started to fizzle by later in the day. I was with him, he wasn’t alone. His vet said it was time, I did all that I could. A vet tech told my cousin on the way out that I’m a good owner, she’d regularly see me with Vigo. It was sweet. My friends and family have been really supportive. Like everyone knows my #1 personality trait is loving my dog lmao we were obsessed w each other. I’m grateful for Vigo and the people around me honestly.

He had a new case of treats and food still arriving today but I got a refund. We’re gonna donate as many of his stuff as we can to a local shelter. Excedrin made a small dent in my headache yesterday and I’ll probably take more soon since I woke up feeling awful.

I woke up expecting him to trot over and say good morning but he didn’t. I think I’ll hear him following me around the house but it’s quiet. I look to where his big bed sat in my room and it’s an empty space now. I’ll be scattering Kona and Boona’s ashes with Vigo’s somewhere once his arrive. Mom says it’s time to let go, and I shouldn’t hang onto pet ashes any longer. I’m feeling numb to the idea, but willing to do it. I don’t think I’ll regret it. Maybe it will help.

My family and one of my friends said I should take this time to focus on myself but I don’t know how to do that LMAO I’ll figure it out. But for now, I’ll grieve!

Man this sucks. I miss him.

#xantalks #Vigo

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vypridae · 2 years

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i need to start making content that i actually wanna make HDJKSGHDKS i always make what others wanna see bc i feel bad otherwise tumblr do u have advice for me

also /unr i have just made the realisation that on computer u can move tags around and my entire world has turned upside down

#/genq #kind of a vent #should i make a tag for when i speak #like #xantalks or smth #xanchats #there we go i like xanchats #what abt a vent tag #xanvents #that makes me seem like im from amogus kms /j #me venting vs my brain going silly after everything i say GO !!!

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shampainwishes · 8 years

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#Sean Deaux #Chicago #st. louis #THEM People Music #drugs #love #music

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xannerz · 15 days

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noo my coworker noticed how irritated i was getting by the end of an interview just like

#like he was feeling the same way but my patience has been on a short fuse lately #like i'd ask a question and get a long-winded nothingburger answer #i wanted it to end so bad #xantalks

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xannerz · 2 months

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tumblr babe i’m not paying for that

#like. girl. $70???#I’ve HAD ad-free and I’m not renewing #you’re not big or feature rich enough to justify that you’re not gonna be the next discord at this rate #you can barely get a sizeable % of users to do ad-free how is this scalable #not to mention the recurring -phobiaisms #damn.#I’m a big tumblr fan! and imma say this is a big miss!#I’ve been patient/open to most of not all changes but thiiiiiis #this move stinks of exec idea guys #xantalks

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xannerz · 1 month

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i miss my dog

#there's been lots of change this year #lots of me being raked over the coals b/c of Circumstances more than anything #more tension building up at work. gotta take the brunt of a lot w/ the family. home feels like a fishbowl.#weight keeps yo-yoing b/c of stress-induced food aversion yk yk #job wants me to travel out of the country for something and i really Do NOT want to right now.#and they're like 'you dont have to' but you know you... can't realllyyy say no w/out being set back professionally/viewed unfavorably.#and!! and!! 🥁wait🥁for 🥁 it 🥁 i miss my dog!!#i'd do it again 100% but the vet bills during the last leg of his life set me back considerably. what can you do.#anyway i love my friends. god bless lmao ✌😭♥#xantalks #tbd later

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xannerz · 3 days

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gonna practice drawing hands after work today

#bracing myself #dealing w imposter syndrome lately w/ art #been trying to make myself polish more sketches more and it's been. Difficult.#but i gotta try i gotta-- ⛈🖍🏋️‍♀️💦#xantalks

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xannerz · 5 days

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idk i simply dont think characters need to be related or see each other as literal siblings to have meaningful relationships

#re lrb lmao #ive bitched abt this before but i also made the mistake of being in a fandom where it's extra prevalent in canon *and* fanon so #'well xan maybe you don't know what it's like to have friends so close tha--'#/daeny squint i have best friends from childhood lmao talking 20+ years of friendship. (ive got binders full of friends women even sksks)#ik fic lends itself to drama im not immune but at a certain point your worldbuilding feels less grounded/compelling if #an overwhelming majority of ur characters' relationships are either literal or found family #how small do you want your world to be!! how small!!#there's so much nuance to Being Human and Knowing Others! so much of it can't be put into words! explore it! enjoy it!#xantalks #addendum: also not saying it can/should never be done. but its treated like a default and im le tired

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xannerz · 8 days

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People who assert that pregnancy is universally a beautiful or enjoyable thing gross me out lmao

#it feels v like dehumanizing/objectifying misogynistic and tradwifey I can’t lol #saw a post that made me wrinkle my nose #troll detected but even so yk people think like this and they’re the freaks harassing patients in front of clinics #like if its a k!nk thing at least just say so #xantalks

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xannerz · 2 months

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I love my cousin sm lmaoo

#xantalks #‘whatever it is’

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xannerz · 23 days

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i’ll be completely honest i’ve seen how some people receive gift art (whether as a surprise or thru a community event), and the clipped “aw cute, thanks!”-tier responses are always a little jarring to me lmao. maybe at least compliment something you like about it. i am aware that there are at least some people out there who will try to ingratiate others with gift art, and it’s pretty off-putting/obvious, but not always. Give some grace/show appreciation when you can, it goes a long way.

#for the record this isn’t targeted no I didn’t see anyone on my dash do something that upset my personal ideas of etiquette LMAO #and no I didnt gift anyone any art recently to make me feel this way either LMAO #it’s just been an ongoing thing I’ve noticed in some tags and spaces #and appalling is a strong word but I just Never Liked It #especially if it ended up being a colored illustration ??#even if they’re a beginner artist it definitely wasn’t a quick thing for them to make #and no spamming heart emojis won’t cut it either. use your words.#‘thank you for this! this is beautiful! I love how you colored the hair!’ something.#I hate sounding like I’m finger wagging the world at random but goddamn!!#this is how communities fizzle out !!#I’m counting requests as this too if an artist has requests open humors your ask and all you say is cool!#I hope they don’t fill in your request again lol #xantalks

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xannerz · 3 months

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“‘cum’ is an ugly word!!” maybe but also you’re reading smut babe

#idk #ik ultimately it’s a matter of preference/context #like some words straight-up won’t work or flow right #like idk why don’t we talk about why we feel the need to find 84 euphemisms for ‘clit’ instead lmao #that’s not a harsh word but I still see people dance around it #even when the rest of the language isn’t that flowery #pls no discourse it’s barely 9 am orz #xantalks

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xannerz · 4 months

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"i think using ai is okay when you're looking for inspiration--" i'm going to rip your throat out with my teeth

#i just unfollowed a gel printing artist on ig bc she used ai #and there was a pro/anti ai poll in the comments section--#and the results were favorable to ai and like ?? braindead comments section so i was like i cant do this LMAO #'oH iTs okAy if You JuSt WAnt InSPirATion/IDeAs' how dare you take people's work for granted so much so that like. instead of turning #to the actual literal boundless lifetimes' worth of art available a few simple clicks away you ask a machine to churn something out for you #bites you bites you bites you bites you #xantalks

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