#xeno tags r for reach

[gender-darling]

↳ ( 🎀 ) :: ❝ Dollboything ❞

❝ Dollboything ❞ :: ❝ A gender connected to being a dollboy and a thing ❞

( 🎀 ) :: Rq’d by @andy-mouths-off ^^

Please read my carrd before interacting !

[cybernetic-organic]

hey, this is my side blog 4 only otherkin stuff and yeah.

the names r **fiji / crow ** uranic + aroacespec + objectum [/qp only] & demigndr + xenos

mentally ill

while this vessel is an irl machine, i do not id with the robotkin * label anymore. even though it feels this way, it still finds solace in the robotkin community, along with the entirety of the otherkin community. *[so yes, while i may use the robotkin tag, that is for reach, not because i am robotkin]

DO NOT REFER TO ME AS ROBOTKIN/MACHINEKIN.

kinypes are:

domestic cat therian › shire horse therian › waterkin » objectkin › » an unknown avian type »

those marked with a › are psychological, and those marked with a » are spiritual.

anyways thos blog is probably gonna be all over the place, full of reblogs and vents and rambles and art and all kinds of stuff otherkin related. i hope to find lots of friends in this community since ive only met others on discord b4. as always, looking 4 moots 2 int w ! 🐛🍤🐇

[somnolent-pup]

i n t r o d u c t o r y - p o s t

‘‘ STANDIN IN THE EYE OF THE STORM ; MY EYES START TO

ROLL TO THE CURL OF YOUR LIPS ,,

haii ^_0 !!! you can call me dusk (or just pup :3c) since i dont really want to attach my real name to this blog || im a 20 year old artist and trans man (really transmasc nonbinary + like a bajillion xenos im hoarding but :P) who uses he/it as well as pup/puppy and hy/hymn pronouns || i primarily call myself a gay man, in general my attraction orientation will always be queer because i grew up queer, my preferences lean heavily toward masculinity however that presents itself || im a good couple years post op for top surgery and ive been off and on t for a little over a year || im incredibly new to having an nsft account so im definitely gonna be a little shy, getting over the mortifying ordeal of being known or whatever; the autism really is not helping w that but we ball

before you go any further !!! this is an 18+ ONLY blog, and i will block anyone who disregards this

DO NOT INTERACT with this blog if you (are) ;

bigoted in any capacity, reblog or engage with pedophilic or zoophilic content, exclusionary, ableist, reblog scat/vomit/gas posts, dont have your age listed anywhere on your account

other than that, feel free to interact however ^_^ i am perfectly fine with wlw blogs interacting with the nonsexual posts or art on my blog but understand that i am !! a man !! and my posts are probably gonna be about other men for the majority >_<

(๑˃ᴗ˂)ﻭ more under the cut

<33 !! ; petplay (specifically puppyplay ^_^), primal play, pup4pup, t4t, ‘deflowering’ (this is a slight one im just a pathetic virgin /pos), a/b/o dynamics, omorashi/watersports, praise, breeding, intox (weed), overstimulation, edging, size diff, somno, hypnotism, cnc, leather and bondage, cockwarming, marking, exhibitionism, free use, monsters >////<, older men and women hehehe, bears 💗✨💞🙏 wolves and foxes 💝🔥💘🫶 big hairy men ‼️💖🙏✨💟, probably more but i cant think of it rn 

🚫 !! ; scat/unhygienic play (including oral p1ssplay specifically when im on the receiving end), anything involving birth, feederism, diapers, detrans, raceplay, ageplay, im not really into anal myself so no asks or anythin about it pls U_U

i use the terms ‘cock’, ‘cunt’, ‘clit’, and ‘puppy parts’ for my genitalia, ‘tits’ or ‘chest’ for my chest, and i looove almost all terms of endearment but ‘puppy’, ‘baby’, ‘good boy’, ‘dog’, ‘mutt’, ‘boy’, and ‘sweet boy/pup’ make my heart flutter <333 im also chubby and refer to my stomach as my tummy or just my stomach most of the time heheh || i love both masc and neutral compliments but fem compliments are okay as well ^_^

#sleepy puppy ramblings - my general babbling

   #whining - exactly what it says on the tin (general debauchery and horniness)

#speak - answering asks if i ever do

  #🍃 - stoner talk

#scribbles - art

if i ever get around to writing out my own scenarios ill add those tags here as well !! i think thats about it, im probably forgetting some stuff, ill probably update this occassionally

‘’ IN THE CENTER OF ECLIPSE ; IN TOTAL DARKNESS I

REACH OUT AND TOUCH ,,

[ryebreadedd]

gained: gender

[tired-toby]

it's been nearly a year since my first suicide attempt, since the worst summer of my fucking life that i STILL CANT REMEMBER.

and i feel like i've gone nowhere

i'm still the same piece of shit who couldn't even acknowledge the people she hurt, who still tries to victimize herself when she's anything but the victim, who is wasting the time of everyone around her

i know all this. i know these flaws. i'm self-aware and that makes it worse because despite everything i do i feel like i haven't gotten any better, like i haven't improved at all and if anything i've just sunk deeper into this pit

and it's not like i haven't had people reach out!

my math teacher has kept up with me the WHOLE YEAR yet time and time again i let myself fall short.

i want to be better. i need to be better, for the people that are here now and for those that i've hurt in the past.

for my guinea pigs. for my rats. for my dogs. for everyone.

yet here i am just fucking wallowing, crying on an empty blog that no one will read or give a shit about because it's just me.

i graduate soon. well. i /might/ graduate soon

god

i've fallen so far.

my friends are going to harvard, to mit. i feel like i'm just going to a shallow grave.

i wish things were easy, that i could take a few pills and just be /better./ i want to stop feeling this way, i just want to feel better. i've changed my ways! i only drink water, i eat healthier, i walk my dogs for two hours every day, i've taken up new and old hobbies. but i still fall into slumps, i feel like i am a slump.

i've barely told anyone but i haven't felt like myself in weeks and i'm so fucking scared. i feel like i don't know who i am anymore and the coping mechanisms that i've used to try and feel like myself aren't working like they used to. i feel like im fragmented and being pulled apart at the seams. maybe i'm giving myself too much credit

a overfilled trash bag thats splitting and spilling nothing but garbage

that's better.

i'm just overdramatic

i'm just tired

i even have a healthy sleep schedule, did i mention that? in bed by 10, up by 7. i walk my sister to the bus stop almost everyday.

i thought i did everything right. why doesn't it work why aren't i better why am i still the same asshole why am i no one why am i nothing why can't i just be better why am i not fucking dead

55 days until i'm 18

54 until the night i became the world's greatest failure

what kind of idiot fails to kill themself? twice, at that?

i feel like i'm faking this. i read these words i type and i cry and if eel like im faking it. that i'm doing it for attention. i'm manipulative, i lie to emotionally abuse people

i know this and i'm probably doing it now

seems like something i'd do

my mom says my laptop will be back soon, finally repaired. i don't think i mentioned it here but the harddrive broke and i lost everything

stories. hundreds of thousands of words and i WISH that was an exaggeration

my fucking POKEMON. ALL MY GODDAMN POKEMON!!! I BEAT SOUL SILVER WITH JUST AN AMPHAROS AND ITS FUCKING GONE. MARILYN IM SORRY. NOT TO MENTION ALL MY OTHER SAVES

all my art. all those sketches. i've barely drawn since, nothing feels right anymore. not like i know where my art tablet is anyway :/ that's just

gone

everything's gone

once i have a laptop again, i think i'll be happier. i hope i'm happier. my life is there, my happiness is there. it's not healthy to stare at a screen for who knows how many hours of a day but it makes me happy

i want to have fun with graey again. the weeks we'd spend just playing minecraft and stardew and we haven't been able to do anything because i'm just on my phone and a shitty school laptop that can't even run google and word at the same time

i don't know what i'm going to do. this whole thing is a mess, just so much bullshit. and it's barely the tip of the iceberg

i didn't even mention how my dad found another rope in my brother's room. part of me hopes it's not what i think it is and some part of how i once opened his girlfriend's snapchat and found him listed as daddy

fucking discord moderator lookin' ass. it's the trauma innit

i'm doing dnd again. it's not full campaigns, just one-shots with the sewer rats every other weekend or so where i dm and they can have fun.

i like making them happy

i love all of them. they're my family. caesar, crypt, xeno, cat, moe, roo, blink, cig, fox, graey, even fed and ag. if it weren't for you guys, i'd be nothing. i'd be gone.

caesar, you've been with me through everything. i wouldn't be here if you weren't there for me. i'm glad we're getting close again, i've missed your company

i'm glad i'm the one you tag when you see if anyone wants to watch u stream :)

crypt, for all the shit i give you i love you. when are we going to finish mamma mia together u rat ass bitch

xeno u are one of the funniest motherfuckers i've met, even if u are a literal fetus. whenever i see u join vc im always so fucking hyped

cat why r u so fucking racist. when r we gonna play phasmo

moe stop touching kids.

roo i am not gonna lie sometimes u feel like my mom i s2g granted u are geriatric so maybe that makes u my grandma. point still stands, also when r we gonna plot wren and dhova i want my twink-turned-twunk

blink i still need to dm u back give me a sec.

cig u are also a fetus but u are one of my FAVORITE people to brainstorm and plot with. UR BRAIN IS SO WRINKLY AND UR ALWAYS SO RESPONSIVE IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY!!

fox. ANOTHER FETUS. but also an amazing dm and just?? ur so creative. U ARE SO CREATIVE. UR CHARACTER DESIGN. UR ART SKILLS. ur so underappreciated?

graey when r we having the dildo battle. i will come to alaska and live in a shack in the woods with ur nasty unshowering ass if it means i get to punch u in the face irl and laugh abt the usual bullshit with you.

fed stop being british it's literally so gross idk how u do it. if u stop being british i'll stop bullying u abt ur terrible typing skills

ag u are just. cool. like if i had to pin someone as like the 'cool/chill' person of the sewers it would 100% be u i am ngl. play roblox cats with me u fucking coward

enough of being sappy. they need to stop accusing me of being a lesbian I AM NOT A LESBIAN

ok

im happy again

thinking about them makes me happy

in other news celestial bodies by ghost data is a nice song

[gender-darling]

↳ ( 🎀 ) :: ❝ Vampcutie ❞

❝ Vampcutie ❞ :: ❝ a gendercutie subset connected to being a vampire and a cutie ❞

( 🎀 ) :: Rq’d by no-one ! Gendercutie coined by @catgirlprotag ^^ Don't tag as xenogender !

Please read my carrd before interacting !

[gender-darling]

↳ ( 🎀 ) :: ❝ Dollcutie ❞

❝ Dollcutie ❞ :: ❝ a gendercutie subset connected to being a doll and a cutie ❞

( 🎀 ) :: Rq’d by no-one ! Gendercutie coined by @genderprotag ^^ Don't tag as xenogender !

Please read my carrd before interacting !

[gender-darling]

↳ ( 🎀 ) :: ❝ Sunmistress + Moonmistress ❞

❝ Sunmistress ❞ :: ❝ a gendermistress subset connected to being a sun mistress , a mistress of the sun , or is connected to the sun and mistresses ❞ ❝ Moonmistress ❞ :: ❝ a gendermistress subset connected to being a moon mistress , a mistress of the moon , or is connected to the moon and mistresses ❞

( 🎀 ) :: Rq’d by @m00nystars ^^ Don't tag as xenogender !

Please read my carrd before interacting !

[gender-darling]

↳ ( 🎀 ) :: ❝ Gendermistress ! ! ❞

❝ Gendermistress ❞ :: ❝ A gender system connected to being a mistress , a mistress of x , or x and mistresses ! ❞ ❝ Example ! ❞ :: ❝ Vampmistress would be a gendermistress subset connected to being a vampire mistress , a mistress of vampires , or is connected to vampires and misstresses ❞

( 🎀 ) :: Tagging @xyz-syndicate , @mousesquared , and @genderfeayr <3 Please tag me if you coin under this system ! ^^ Don't tag as xenogender !

Please read my carrd before interacting !

[gender-darling]

↳ ( 🎀 ) :: ❝ LITTLEHATERGENDER ( Littlehaterian ) ❞

❝ LITTLEHATERGENDER / Littlehaterian ❞ :: ❝ A gender connected to being a little hater ! This gender feels a little silly , spiteful , and energetic ❞

( 🎀 ) :: For day 6 of @mousesquared's Blorbo Coining Event ^^ Don't tag as xenogender

Please read my carrd before interacting !

[gender-darling]

( 🎀 ) :: ❝ Vesiaesth / Aesthetivesi ❞

❝ Vesiaesth / Aesthetivesi ❞ :: ❝ A vesil identity in which aesthetics affects or defines most or all aspects of one's identity ❞

( 🎀 ) :: Rq’d by @sickly-honeylamb ^^ Don't tag as xenogender !

Please read my rentry before interacting ! Don't repost !

[gender-darling]

( 🎀 ) :: ❝ Bleedluvterine ❞

❝ Bleedluvterine ❞ :: ❝ A gender that is bleeding from a love letter , or is a bleeding love letter ❞

( 🎀 ) :: Inspired by @//gender-mailman's oc yan!Mailman//Ethan ^^ Don't tag as xenogender !

Please read my rentry before interacting ! Don't repost !

[gender-darling]

( 🎀 ) :: ❝ Dearestvoulant ❞

❝ Dearestvoulant ❞ :: ❝ A gender connected to calling others " Dearest " ❞

( 🎀 ) :: Rq’d by no-one ^^ Don't tag as xenogender !

Please read my carrd before interacting ! Don't repost !

[gender-darling]

↳ ( 🎀 ) :: ❝ Bloodmistress ❞

❝ Bloodmistress ❞ :: ❝ a gendermistress subset connected to being a blood mistress , a mistress of blood , or is connected to blood and mistresses ❞

( 🎀 ) :: Rq’d by no-one ^^ Don't tag as xenogender !

Please read my carrd before interacting !

[gender-darling]

↳ ( 🎀 ) :: ❝ Bloodcutie ❞

❝ Bloodcutie ❞ :: ❝ a gendercutie subset connected to blood and being a cutie ❞

( 🎀 ) :: Rq’d by no-one ! Gendercutie coined by @catgirlprotag ^^ Don't tag as xenogender !

Please read my carrd before interacting !

[gender-darling]

↳ ( 🎀 ) :: ❝ Finalgirln't / Finalgxxl ❞

❝ Finalgirln't / Finalgxxrl ❞ :: ❝ A gender connected to being a final girl in a queer and / or disconnected to femininity type way ❞

( 🎀 ) :: Rq’d by @xyz-syndicate ^^ Don't tag as xenogender !

Please read my carrd before interacting !